#im feeling so fucking lonely

[ophelia-bloodletting]

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[lovebunnie]

“i love being aromantic” i say as i feel my chest cavity rotting from the inside at the unquenchable desire for love in a way that is truly a secret third thing but its not a secret i want to keep it is a secret nobody is willing to listen to and im trapped in a state of isolation of my own making because no matter how much love i have to give it will never be enough. it will never be enough. it will never be enough.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Suspirium - Thom York

[kickedin17]

Regional at Best is so special because it feels so exactly like what it is, which is an album made by a young person, younger than I am now, who'd given up everything else to make this dream work and probably had no idea what the hell he was going to do if it didn't. Keep working a normal job? Go back to college? What do you do if the dream doesn't work, when you're an early-20-something who (like all early-20-somethings) has precisely nothing else figured out? What do you do if everyone's right and the art isn't worth it?

Then your bandmates leave. But actually, it turns out perfect anyway, because you end up with this other guy who also has precisely nothing else figured out and no plan B except to be in this very band with you. How rare and precious of a thing that is, to meet someone who believes in your art just as much as you do. At least if you fail you fail together, right?

I think RAB feels like the end of summer and growing pains because it exists in that same itchy, anxious space as your last summer before you graduate high school/college, when it begins hitting you that there will never be a summer like this again because next year you're supposed to be grown up. But the truth is you never figured out how to grow up and you never figured out how to stop dreaming. So many people have to learn that lesson for various reasons, but Tyler and Josh never did because they believed in it so much that I think it truly never could've failed. Even if they never got as big as they did w/ Blurryface, I think they never could've failed because they are for the dreamers.

Self-titled is complicated and beautiful and core to everything else they would do after, but RAB is the beating heart of what tøp was always meant to be imo. It's embracing the fear of getting older because you have no other choice, while acknowledging you're still a little afraid of the dark. It's a night light for the grown-ups who are still scared of long dark hallways they can't see the end of (and work email chains). You turn 23 and discover you probably don't actually want to die as much as you used to, and also that you still think pokémon cards are fucking rad, and both of those things are okay. And maybe you'll never get out of this goddamn town but it never hurts to dream

[pepperpixel]

Initial drawings of that old man… I literally, I haven’t finished reading the book of bill yet!!! I had to stop and take a break for a week to feverishly draw fanart of myself petting fords floofy hair and giving him attention and shit…!!!! The urge was too great….!! I’ve literally. I had a crush on this guy the instant he was first REVEALED in the show, but I did not have the artistic prowess to draw good looking old men back then… but I do now… thank god… thank fucking god

[so-very-small]

there is nothing that feels more isolating and hauntingly lonely than being into a fandom that has no G/t content and none of your fandom friends are into g/t and none of your g/t mutuals have even heard of the fandom. it’s like i’m the last member of a near extinct species. i’m drifting alone on a lifeboat in the middle of the ocean. no one is here. no one can hear me scream. i’m just screaming about g/t gays but still.

[lemorgo]

rereading pandora hearts music inspo [ID: Vincent gently hugs Gilbert, one hand on his back and the other on Gil's head. Gil is embarrassed and a bit sad, Vincent has a warm smile. Everything is in warm yellow and dark blue tones, there are few warm yellow stars. End ID]

[marv3l-drag0ns]

god DAMN college loneliness actually hits hard :-(

[theghostofashton]

a moment that stuck out to me while rewatching the pilot was tk's reaction when they're visiting the firehouse for the first time, the way he tells owen to call and tell the deputy chief he's changed his mind, they don't belong there. he sees the memorial and the flowers and the way the firehouse is exactly as it was the day that last call came in, and he's immediately horrified at the idea of himself and owen intruding on this grieving process. recognizing that they were invited to austin by higher-ups who have no idea what the loved ones of these men are going through, who now have to be okay with total strangers coming in and making assumptions and thinking they know best how to move forward.

i feel like this is such a good distillation of tk's character, his instinctual selflessness, the way he so easily puts himself in the shoes of others (even people he's never met) and tries to understand from their perspectives. he knows he and his dad have the best intentions but these people may see them as assholes, and that's important to focus on, the impact it could have. it's a brief moment that demonstrates just how deeply tk cares, how aware he is of the priority being helping people. treading lightly, not adding to their pain while they're already grieving, caring for them by making them feel heard, no matter how that looks.

[bucket-puns]

Ishmael death stranding au stuff I was cooking. Also a faust kromer and Before team Ishmael doodle.

[wreckrinho]

remember my Apocalypse tawog au? i did a "redesigning" thing ab rob in this au(?).. it looks like shit, really, i prefer the old design, but i just...i just cant draw.

You wanna now whar? Whatever Whateve rwharrver whatever whatever uugghhh

If you want, there are more things about the au below, I just...I'm tired so..yeah, ugly ass drawings

Rob and Penny are super friends. Penny even considers Rob like a brother and Polly loves Rob very much too. Penny helped him cut his hair in a way that covered the static on his cheeks (it worked amazingly, but he's really uncomfortable with the hair on his face)

he is trying to find a way to make a vaccine for those infected (The apocalypse is about the void) and wants to try to save everyone

Rob, during the time he stayed with the survivors (including Gumball), ended up falling in love with Gumball, Which is sad because Gumball thinks Rob is one of those to blame for the apocalypse...

He tries his best to save and find some survivors, infected or not. However, most people were afraid of Rob being another infected person or a zombie because of the glitches and static, so Rob became very insecure and even started hiding the static on his body.

[maple-leifarts]

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[chryblossomjjk]

ot7 enlistment reality is starting to sink in

[watery-melon-baller]

I wish I had some expired NyQuil so i could take it and get mildly high during my 3 hour class instead of being bored out of my mind as it takes the entire class period for all 15 students to present their projects

[98chao]

i kinda wanna make a twitter account in the crk fandom, but i always stop myself because i'm scared of the toxicity 😣 i really wanna make more crk friends, but would people automatically hate me bc i like pureshadow...!!! i don't think i could handle that :(

[shmaroace]

they should let aros kill. as a treat.