#and the whole time i had no idea my world had already shattered without me knowing

[deepwoundsandfadedscars]

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[not-magdi]

"Us, Forever"

Summary: Pablo can't believe how lucky he got with you, he really can't believe it 

Word Count: 1.1k

A/N

I managed to get Corona! The one time I would have had time to write something I got Corona and a Fever that cooked my brain. But, now my test is negative again and my brain is producing ideas like crazy! 

Hope you like this one though,

Love you guys Magdi <3

You didn't know what to think when you saw his pain-filled expression on TV. You sat there, completely frozen, worry the only thing on your mind.   

When you heard his sobs over the phone as he told you how bad it was, your heart shattered into a million pieces. That day made you realise that from that moment on, you had to be the strong one in this relationship. 

It made you realise that he needed you to be the one he could lean on, the one Pablo could let his guard down, somebody that could be strong for him too. So he didn't have to be all the time. 

You made it to your mission to do everything in your power to help him in any way possible. You rebuilt your living room into a bedroom, so he didn't have to go up any stairs. You held him day and night when the pain got too strong, and the only thing he could do was cry. 

"Baby, I'm here ... I'm here for you. Let it all out I got you."

His grip on your hoddie was so hard that his knuckles turned white. You wrapped your arms around him like you wanted to protect him from everything terrible that this world threw at him. 

Pablo felt safe in your arms. Your sent calmed him down. The warmth of your body engulfed him in a comforting manner. 

He buried his face deeper into your neck as he felt his breath starting to slow down again. 

"T-Thank you, I-I'm sorry. I don't know what happened."

You grabbed his head to make him look at you. You assured him, "Hey, it's completely ok to feel like shit sometimes. What you are going through is nothing easy. Sometimes you just have to let it all out." 

Kissing his head, you stand up to grab something to eat for the two of you. Seeing that it was already 6 in the morning, you decided to start the day, knowing you two wouldn't fall asleep anymore. 

Pablo kept lying on the couch. The pain in his knee was now only a dull ache. He sat up a bit to be able to see you rummaging through his kitchen drawers, trying to find something to eat.

An unconscious smile makes its way onto his face. He can't get his head around how you are willing to do all of this for him. Like he really doesn't know what he would do without you. You'd do everything for him, he doesn't even have to ask for it. 

But it scared him that you wanted to help him so much. It frightened him that one day, you could wake up and realise how much work it was to be in a relationship with him. And that you would leave him because of that.

Realistically, something like that would never happen, but he was a chronicle overthinker, so let him be. 

When you came back from the kitchen with two plates in your hand, you sensed something was bothering him, but you wanted him to tell you on his own. 

You two ate your breakfast in silence, it was a weird kind of silence. You felt that Pablo wanted to tell you something the whole time, but nothing came. He just sat there and played around with his food. 

"You not hungry?" 

Looking like a child who got caught doing something stupid, he shakes his head and lowers his gaze again, not able to hold eye contact with you for so long. 

Thinking he wouldn't say anything at all. You were about to say something when you heard him say. "How do you do it?" 

Confused, you look at him. "What do you mean?" 

"I mean, like ... like how do you keep up with me?" 

Your confusion didn't get any better. You looked up from your plate and saw Pablo already staring at you, a curious yet slightly sad expression on his face. 

Pablo noticed your confused expression and continued to talk. 

" I mean, how can you keep up with literally having to be my server? You are cancelling your plans to stay home with me and do everything to keep me comfortable. You put my life before yours. Why do you do that? I-I don't understand. "

You loved him deeply and didn't see your efforts as a burden. It was natural for you to do what you could to help him. You couldn't enjoy yourself while he was suffering because it felt wrong to you.

Your silence made Pablo panic a bit, maybe he made you realise that you didn't want to live like that. What if you were actually sick of him needing care 24/7 now? 

Your voice interrupted his inner monologue, " I have no clue, to be honest. It's just - the second I heard you were injured, I felt like I had to take care of you, to help you somehow." 

You took a second to think of your following words. "When I heard you crying on the phone that day, I just felt the need to protect you, to take care of you. I know that you are a capable individual who can handle things on your own, but I want you to know that I love you with all my heart. When you care about someone deeply, it's natural to want to do everything in your power to ensure their well-being. So, even though I trust your abilities, I just want to remind you that I'm here for you if you ever need help or support. Your happiness and safety mean everything to me, and I'll always do my best to make sure you're feeling okay."

Hearing Pablo sniff made you stop your rambling and look at him. 

"Dios mio, these medications make me emotional." 

Pablo let out a wet chuckle as he wiped his tearing eyes with the sleeve of his hoodie. 

You smiled at the boy before you and leaned down to place a kiss on his red nose. "I don't care, I love you one tear more or less isn't gonna change that."

"I love you too, so so much." 

[eldenrat]

tbh the one problem that I keep having with SotE even after coming around to being much less critical is a rather simple bit of narrative dissonance. The story of the DLC condemns (and not wrongfully!) Miquella using Mohg and Ansbach as mere means to an end against their will. It also seems to want to say that we the player have the potential to choose to not follow this path.

My issue with this is that we’ve already likely made this decision several times already. We have slain most of Marika’s demigod children, including Mohg and Radahn, for the twofold purpose of taking their shards of the Elden Ring and claiming further strength via the runes they give us upon dying. We are essentially cannibalizing the demigods in order to take power for ourselves. Not that much different from what Miquella has done, be it charming Mohg and bringing about the ruination of his dynasty, or ordering the disastrous bloodbath at the Battle of Aeonia. There is a great deal of value to be had in analyzing the ends of the actors seeking to take the throne, but to try and argue about who in the story is the most moral based on Deontological grounds is going to be a losing battle.

Something far more compelling to me is the question that Miquella poses to us about the value of lordship and godhood, and to convey the idea that our aim to try and “fix things” with our mending rune of choice is as flawed a choice as any he has made. It might be possible to Ship of Theseus the Golden Order, but the process is still a long one and will still cause a great deal of suffering so long as the Rune of Death remains detached from the world and those who do not have a Fia or Dungeater to bring them into the central order remain outcasts. Can we the player rule more compassionately than Miquella with Marika in seemingly no condition to pull any strings on her own? Can we rule as a Lord of humanity that Ansbach pleads for us to? One might argue that Ranni’s ending is the clear solution to all of this by removing the Elden Ring and the lynchpin of Marika’s empire, but even that creates a whole new list of woes. The shattering would be replaced by a new explosion of conflict between the beneficiaries of the old order and those that they oppressed, another series of brutal wars and ethnic reprisals as the realm continues to tear itself apart.

Yes, something better may emerge, and the uncertainty of what the world will look like is why Ranni’s ending can be seen as the liberatory one when dogma and power have been used to enforce one vision over all others. Yet we cannot say that this is the definitive “good ending” without acknowledging its shortcomings. There is no perfect world, only a better one than existed yesterday.

[aspenmissing]

How about a little comfort / angst request? I think we all know that Jayce had a pretty rough time during his academy days - Nobody believed in his hextech dream, he nearly got kicked out of the academy etc.

Reader x Jayce laying in bed together and Jayce started rambling about his fears for the future. Reader comforts him and tells him, that no matter what will happen, she will always be by his side.

Maybe there is a little timeskip at the end of the story. Jayce is now the "Man of Progress" and he thanks Reader, for the past few years.

ʙʏ ʏᴏᴜʀ ꜱɪᴅᴇ

ᴊᴀʏᴄᴇ x ʀᴇᴀᴅᴇʀ || ꜰ��ᴜꜰꜰ/ᴀɴɢꜱᴛ-ɪꜱʜ || 2205 ᴡᴏʀᴅꜱ ||

ᴡᴀʀɴɪɴɢꜱ: ᴛᴀʟᴋꜱ ᴏꜰ ꜰᴀɪʟᴜʀᴇ/ ꜰᴇᴀʀ ᴏꜰ ꜰᴀɪʟɪɴɢ

ʀᴇQᴜᴇꜱᴛ ᴀɴꜱᴡᴇʀ: ᴍʏ ʙᴀʙʏ ʙᴏʏ ɴᴇᴇᴅꜱ ᴄᴏᴍꜰᴏʀᴛᴇᴅ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴏꜱᴇ ᴛɪᴍᴇꜱ, ᴀɴᴅ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀʀᴇ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴇʀꜱᴏɴ ᴛᴏ ɢɪᴠᴇ ʜɪᴍ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴄᴏᴍꜰᴏʀᴛ! ᴇɴᴊᴏʏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴀɴɢꜱᴛ-ɪꜱʜ ɢᴇᴛ ᴄᴏᴍꜰᴏʀᴛ ꜱᴛᴏʀʏ ʟᴏᴠᴇʟʏ!

ʀᴇᴀᴅᴇʀ | ᴊᴀʏᴄᴇ

The soft glow of candlelight flickered gently against the stone walls of the modest room they shared in Piltover. The night was serene, filled with the faint hum of distant machinery—a constant reminder of the world they were trying to change. Yet it was a peaceful quiet, the kind that allowed reflection without interruption. Jayce lay with his head resting against Y/N’s chest, his body half-pressed to hers. His arms were loosely draped across her waist, but his thoughts were far away, staring up at the ceiling, his mind heavy with the weight of the future.

It had been an exhausting week—countless meetings, all with different people who questioned his every step, who doubted his vision for Hextech, or dismissed it as foolishness. He could feel it in his bones, the pressure, the uncertainty. Despite his achievements, despite how far he had come, the doubts crept in from all sides. And the worst part was, it wasn’t just others who questioned him. Sometimes, he wondered if he was the one who didn’t believe enough in his dream.

Y/N, ever so attuned to his moods, noticed the tenseness in his posture, the way his chest rose and fell in uneven breaths. It wasn’t often that Jayce allowed himself to be vulnerable in front of others, and especially not in front of her. But tonight, it was different. The mask he wore to shield himself from the world had slipped just enough for his fears to leak out.

His voice was soft, almost hesitant as he broke the silence.

“I don’t know if I can do this, Y/N...” His words felt heavy, laden with the doubts he had kept buried for so long. “I’ve come so far, but sometimes it feels like I’m always on the edge of failure. Every time I think I’m close to something, someone reminds me that it’s impossible, that I’m just chasing a dream that’ll never come true.” His grip tightened slightly around her waist, as if trying to anchor himself to something real, something tangible. “And then everything that happened at the academy... After almost being kicked out for my ideas... I can’t help but wonder if I’m even meant for this.”

Y/N felt a pang in her chest at his words, her heart aching with the quiet sorrow that tinged his voice. She could feel the vulnerability in the way his body shifted against hers, his frame tense as if he were afraid that even admitting his fear might shatter everything. Her fingers traced the line of his hair, threading through the strands slowly, offering the comfort she knew he needed.

“Jayce...” Her voice was soft but unwavering. “You’ve already done more than anyone could’ve imagined. You fought for your dream when everyone else told you it was impossible. You didn’t let the academy or anyone else stop you from believing in Hextech. And now... look at what you’ve built. You’ve created something that’s going to change everything, not just for Piltover, but for the whole world. You’ve made a difference.”

He shifted slightly, looking up at her, his expression filled with doubt as his eyes searched hers. It was as if he were asking for permission to believe again, permission to trust in himself, and in the dream he’d spent years chasing. Y/N smiled softly, her thumb tracing circles on his back as she continued, her voice steady with conviction.

“Viktor believes in you too, you know?” she said, her words carrying a weight of their own. “From the very beginning, he saw something in you—something no one else did. Even when others doubted you, even when they tried to push you out, he believed. He’s always been by your side, just like I have. I think that’s because he sees the same potential in you that you sometimes can’t see in yourself.”

Jayce’s breath caught in his throat as he processed her words. Viktor had always been a quiet presence in his life, never one for grand gestures, but always there in the background, supporting him in ways that were often subtle but powerful. He had never doubted Viktor’s loyalty, but hearing Y/N say it, hearing the sincerity in her voice, helped solidify something inside him—something that had been shaken but never truly broken.

“Do you really think I can make this work?” Jayce whispered, his voice barely audible as he searched for reassurance.

Y/N shifted slightly, brushing a stray lock of hair from his forehead. Her chin rested gently on top of his head, and she spoke with a quiet strength that was all her own. “I know you can. You’ve got everything it takes, Jayce. Your brilliance, your drive, your heart. But what matters most is that you’re not alone in this. You have Viktor, and you have me. We’re not going anywhere. No matter what happens, no matter how hard things get, I will always be by your side.”

Her words were a promise, an anchor that held him steady in the storm of his doubts. The sincerity in her voice, the certainty of her belief in him, reached into the places he had locked away for so long. Her touch, soft yet unwavering, seemed to dissolve the tension in his body, replacing it with something warm and comforting.

Jayce closed his eyes, breathing deeply as the steady rhythm of Y/N’s heartbeat beneath his ear calmed him. For a brief moment, the weight of the world lifted, and he could finally relax, allowing himself to be held by the love and support that had always surrounded him, even when he couldn’t see it.

“Thank you, Y/N,” he murmured, his voice thick with emotion. “I don’t know what I’d do without you.”

Y/N’s fingers gently carded through his hair, her touch tender. “You’ll never have to find out. We’re in this together. Always.”

Jayce allowed himself to surrender to the comfort of her presence, his body relaxing against hers. The future still seemed uncertain, filled with the unknown, but with Y/N’s belief in him, and Viktor’s quiet support, Jayce finally felt he wasn’t walking that path alone.

For the first time in what felt like forever, Jayce felt at peace. The weight of his doubts hadn’t entirely disappeared, but the fear of failure was no longer all-consuming. With Y/N beside him, with Viktor’s faith in him, he had something far stronger than the uncertainty of the future—he had the belief that he could face whatever came next, no matter how difficult it might be.

The grand hall was abuzz with excitement, the rich echo of conversation blending with the rhythmic clinking of glasses. Piltover’s finest had gathered to celebrate the monumental success of Hextech—an invention that had once seemed like a far-off dream but had now changed the face of their world. The brilliant glow of the machines that powered Hextech illuminated the room, casting a warm light on the faces of the people who had once doubted Jayce. But now, in the glow of progress, there was nothing but admiration and awe.

Standing at the front of the room, Jayce looked every bit the man of progress, his sharp suit a testament to his success. The podium in front of him gleamed with polished metal, the heart of Hextech resting just behind him, a symbol of how far they had come. The crowd quieted as he prepared to speak, his gaze sweeping over the room—over the faces of the people who had supported him, and those who had once looked down on his dream.

Jayce cleared his throat, his voice carrying clearly through the room.

“Tonight, we stand on the precipice of a new era,” he began, his tone filled with pride. “Hextech is not just an invention—it is a symbol of what we can achieve when we dare to dream. It began as an idea, a spark of inspiration, and despite all the challenges, the setbacks, and the doubts, it has become something that will change the future. It is proof that innovation, perseverance, and belief in something greater than ourselves can bring about the impossible.”

The room broke into applause, but Jayce’s gaze shifted slightly, his eyes searching for a familiar face. A smile tugged at the corner of his mouth as he found her standing near the back, watching him with that quiet, unwavering support that had never once faltered. Y/N. The one person who had believed in him before anyone else, who had stood by him when the world had been at its most uncertain.

“None of this would have been possible without the one person who never stopped believing in me, even when I couldn’t believe in myself,” Jayce continued, his voice softer now, but filled with sincerity. “Y/N... these past few years, you’ve been my strength, my constant. You’ve been the one who reminded me that progress is not just about the work we do, but the people we trust along the way. I owe you everything.”

There was a noticeable shift in the room, the whispers of the crowd fading as they turned to see the two of them. Y/N’s heart skipped a beat, a gentle blush colouring her cheeks as Jayce looked at her with a tenderness that had always been there, but now, it shone brighter than ever. She hadn’t expected this—this public declaration of gratitude, of love. But there it was, in front of everyone. Jayce had never been one for grand gestures, but in that moment, he made the one that mattered most.

The applause that followed was loud, but Jayce’s focus remained entirely on Y/N. He stepped away from the podium, his eyes never leaving hers as the crowd celebrated in the background. He made his way to her, taking her hand in his, his voice low enough for only her to hear.

“You were the first person who believed in me,” he murmured, his thumb brushing over her knuckles. “You’ve been there for every step of this journey... and I want to spend the rest of my life proving to you that your belief in me was never misplaced.”

As the celebration continued, Jayce guided Y/N through the crowd, his hand never leaving hers. They made their way to the balcony, away from the noise and the spectacle, to a quieter, more intimate space. The city lights of Piltover stretched out before them, a sea of gold and silver beneath the starry sky. The evening air was cool, carrying a soft breeze that rustled through the trees, but in the silence of the balcony, it felt like time had stopped.

Jayce took a deep breath, steadying himself as he turned to face her. His hands were warm against her skin, his fingers gently tracing the curve of her cheek. For a moment, he just stood there, looking at her as if he were seeing her for the first time all over again—the woman who had stood beside him through every trial, every triumph.

“Y/N,” he began, his voice more serious now, but no less full of the love he’d carried for so long. “I don’t think I ever really told you how much you mean to me. You’ve been my rock, my anchor in a world that never stops moving. I can’t imagine a future without you, and I don’t want to.”

Her breath caught in her throat, the weight of his words settling in her heart. She could see the sincerity in his eyes, the vulnerability that he didn’t often show to anyone. The man who had once feared failure, who had doubted himself at every turn, was standing before her, stronger and more certain than ever.

“I love you,” Jayce continued, his voice breaking slightly with the raw emotion he could no longer hold back. “And I want to spend every day for the rest of my life with you by my side. Will you marry me?”

The words hung in the air, their significance too profound for any immediate response. Y/N’s heart raced, her pulse thudding in her ears as she stared at him, the world around them fading into the background. Her mind was a whirl of thoughts—of the journey they had taken together, the dreams they had shared, the struggles they had faced side by side.

“I...” she began, her voice soft but steady. “I don’t think I could ever want anything more.”

Jayce’s face lit up, a mixture of relief and joy washing over him. Slowly, he took her hands, sliding a ring onto her finger—simple, elegant, but in its simplicity, it held everything.

Y/N smiled, tears threatening to spill as she gazed at the man who had captured her heart in a way no one else ever could. She had always known that their journey wasn’t just about Hextech or progress—it was about them, about the love they had built, the trust they had forged through the years.

And now, as she stood there, the stars above them and the city beneath, she knew that no matter what the future held, they would face it together.

Jayce leaned in, pressing a soft kiss to her lips, sealing the promise of their future.

[dreamingofmarauders]

Heart of Stone

Sirius Black x GN!Reader

Summary: After repeatedly feeling disappointment from supposed friends, the last straw is when your heart shatters after the love of your life turns you away like everyone else, so you decide to harden your heart so much that nothing can ever hurt you again. Fourteen years later, the same man enters your life once again.

Warnings: Fake friends, feeling unloved, heart break, loneliness, mentions of death, crying, cussing, angst, a hint of fluff

Word Count: 4k

A/N: This one is a bit of a longer piece, I just recently finished it and I really loved this idea and I think it turned out not too bad. I tried to keep it GN!Reader but if it does not seem to be at any point, please let me know! Apologies if there are errors/typos, I tried my best to catch them. If you enjoy it don't forget to give it a like! A reblog would be appreciated as well :)

.·:*¨༺ ༻¨*:·.

You sighed, eyes flitting between your friends, or that's what they said they were to you anyway. You, however, felt otherwise. Sure these people were in your year, half of them your dorm mates, but when they made plans without you, forgot you were there during conversations, you would feel your heart clench and feel otherwise.

You had known love from dear ones once, when you were young. But, fate had been too cruel to you and snatched your parents away from you just as you had entered Hogwarts. It had taken a huge toll on you, realizing your parents were gone forever. Sure, you had moved in with your uncle and aunt and their kids, but having already been distant from them, it affected the amount of love you received from them.

It took you some time but you were able to make friends slowly after you were able to accept the fact your parents weren't coming back. The years progressed and while you had initially loved your friends, now you felt more a tag along than anything. They barely acknowledged you and would only notice your presence if you suddenly spoke up.

You were tired of it and soon broke ties with them. However you were unaware at the time, but someone entirely different would enter your life and change everything for you.

That someone was Sirius Black.

You weren't even sure how it had begun but suddenly one day the Gryffindor began to ask you out, and continued to do so until you finally said yes some months later as you both neared the end of your sixth year.

And that was the best decision you had made.

You were beyond happy with Sirius and you couldn't imagine your life without him.

You were madly in love with Sirius Black.

Your life was looking all good.

Until now.

"What?" You breathed out in disbelief as you stared at the man in front of you.

It was a late autumn evening in 1981, and Sirius was over at yours. The two of you had yet to move in to a place together since Sirius stilled lived with his best mate, Remus, and since Remus struggled financially, sharing a flat the two best friends could pay for it together, which you and Sirius both understood how much easier it would make things for Remus.

It was always a joyous and lovely time whenever Sirius came over to your place, except now, you felt your whole world crashing down.

"You heard me the first time." He grunted out, "I want to break up."

Your lip wobbled as tears began to cascade down your cheeks.

"Why?" You whispered out, the heartache reflected in your voice.

Sirius looked at you with cold eyes, "Why? Because you're worthless and you were just a time pass for me, nothing more, I'm tired of you."

Those words were the last straw. You heard your heart shatter into a million pieces as the sobs escaped your mouth, your body wracking with each one. For once in your life after so long, you thought things were alright, that you were happy and loved. How could you have been so blind?

"I hate you, Sirius Black." You uttered out as you felt your knees buckle out from underneath you, making you fall to the floor as you cried. "I hate you so much." You said before shakily wiping your tears away as you stood up, trying to get a grip on yourself in front of him.

"Get out." You spoke, pointing to the door, "Get out of my home and never show me your face again." You ordered, staring into those grey irises you loved so much. You saw Sirius' face flicker with a different emotion which you couldn't decipher, before his face hardened and he turned on his heels, walking away and slamming the door behind him.

As the sound echoed off the walls, you let out a sob and finally let yourself crumble entirely.

"What did I do to ever deserve this?" You cried out, pouring your heart out as you let the tears flow.

Although after that day, you vowed to never let anyone hurt you again and to never shed a tear again.

So as James and Lily died and Sirius was sent to jail for their murder, you did not cry, and as Remus disappeared without a trace, you did not cry.

You had died the day Sirius had broken up with you, as each of his words had pierced your heart like a dagger. Now, all you had was a stone for a heart.

*.·:·.✧ ✦ ✧.·:·.*

Many, many years after the end of the First Wizarding War, you stood once again in a similar situation. Voldemort had come back but everyone refused to believe James and Lily’s son, Harry Potter. So Dumbledore took matters into his own hands.

The Order of the Phoenix was back in business.

You sauntered in, causing all heads to turn and some to even gasp in surprise. After all, you had worked hard and become one of the top Aurors of the department.

“Glad to see you have finally arrived, Y/n.” Dumbledore said to you before turning to the whole room, “This here is Y/n L/n for those of you who may not know, and they will henceforth be joining us from today.”

Murmurs and nods of agreement filled the dining room before you were gestured to a seat by Dumbledore. You swiftly placed yourself on a chair, turning your full attention to the Hogwarts Headmaster. Although you of course felt that prickling at the back of your neck, the sensation of being watched.

You knew who it was, and you hated him. So you did the only thing reasonable.

You removed your gaze from Dumbledore to the Azkaban escapee, who watched you from the head of the table, your ex, Sirius Black, and stared him down with a coldness that sent the warm smile that erupted on his lips vanishing, making guilt flood his face.

Satisfied, you turned back to the Order Founder once again.

The meeting went on and before you knew it, your chair made a sound as it scraped against the floor when you stood up, as you headed out of the meeting room and straight for the main door of Twelve Grimmauld Place.

A hand caught onto your wrist, pausing your movement. You felt your body stiffen. Even after all these years, you still remembered his touch.

“Let go, Black, I have places to be.” You gritted out.

“Hear me out please.”

You immediately freed yourself from his grip and spun on your heels, glaring at Sirius who only watched you with a broken look. He had caused this and he had regretted it since that day and would regret his decision until his last breath. He had hurt his Y/n and turned you into this shell of a person.

“Like I said that day all those years back,” You began saying, “I don’t want to see your face.” You spat at him before turning to go, leaving Sirius stare after your retreating figure in guilt and heartache.

*.·:·.✧ ✦ ✧.·:·.*

“He really misses you, you know?”

You looked up at the tall man beside you, your piercing gaze staring into his soul.

“It was his fault for whatever happened. He left just like you disappeared as well.” You replied making the Gryffindor’s expression turn into one of shame.

You had ran into Remus Lupin at the second Order meeting, seeing the werewolf after so many years, but like towards everyone that had hurt you, you had disregarded him.

Now as you and Remus were on your assigned mission together, the Gryffindor tried to make another attempt to get through to you.

“I’m sorry, you know that, Y/n.”

You let out a breath, “Focus, Lupin, danger could be anywhere.” You stated instead, ending the discussion altogether to which Remus shook his head in defeat, heaving a heavy sigh.

*.·:·.✧ ✦ ✧.·:·.*

”Y/n/n.” He said as he corner you at the stairwell. You glared up at him as he caged you against the wall.

“Move Black, before I hex you.” You gritted out, making Sirius only shake his head.

“Not until you listen to what I have to say.”

You groaned, letting your head fall against the wall. Sirius had been persistent in his attempts to catch you, but you always got away from him quickly. To be frank, you were tired of it.

“Fine.” You said and watched Sirius’ face light up. “But after this, you will not try to approach me ever again, got it?”

Sirius’ smile dimmed but the hope in his eyes shone just as before. “I give you my word.”

You released a breath, irritatingly, pushing the man away, gesturing for him to follow you to the room that housed a small library. You both stood by the fireplace, the light creating shadows on your faces as you stared Sirius down.

“You have only a few minutes to explain your gibberish, so start talking, Black.” You said, your arms coming to fold over your chest as you began to tap your foot impatiently.

Sirius sighed, running a hand through his hair, “I am truly sorry for all the pain I caused you. I deserve every bit of your hate, but you need to understand I did it to keep you safe.”

You arched an eyebrow, letting out a cold, mocking laugh, “Seriously, Black?”

Sirius nodded, “You have every reason not to trust me but believe me, I only broke up with you because I needed to make sure you were safe.” He paused, sucking in a breath as you watched with slight curiosity, “I had originally agreed to become Lily and James’ Secret Keeper, and I knew I was going to be a big target.” Sirius paused, his voice choking, “I-I couldn’t have let you get harmed due to me, y/n/n, I loved you too much. I did what seemed reasonable at the time; To push you away.”

Sirius sank down into the armchair, holding his face, “Of course, not only did I fuck up by losing you for good but I suggested Peter as Secret Keeper, and that decision cost James and Lily’s lives.” He said, staring blankly into the fire.

Sirius dared a glance up at you only to discover that you were already gazing at him. There was a different, softer, emotion in your eyes, but Sirius couldn’t decipher what it really meant. He watched you open and close your mouth a few times, before loudly clearing your throat.

“I don’t know if your story is true or not but I’m sorry about James and Lily, they didn’t deserve any of it.” You paused, swallowing, “I’m sorry about you landing in Azkaban, because you weren’t at fault for their murders, but I can't forgive you, we could have worked something out but you made the choice to push me away and it worked. I can't ever forgive you for the pain you caused me.” With that, you looked at him, shaking your head slightly before walking off, leaving Sirius to stare after you as your words echoed around in his head, his heart dropping.

*.·:·.✧ ✦ ✧.·:·.*

True to his word, Sirius had stopped pursuing you after that fateful day, for which you were grateful. However, you felt a rather peculiar feeling pulling your heart after that conversation, but you couldn't understand what it was and why it was bothering you.

One evening, you had been invited to a party to celebrate Ron and Hermione becoming Prefects at Grimmauld Place. You had just stepped out of the bathroom and were heading back to the dining room, when something caught your ear.

"Hey, isn't that Y/n?"

You paused, the voice seemingly coming from the room closest to you currently on the floor.

"It is." A rather familiar voice answered.

Sirius.

You quietly peeked into the room, only to find Sirius sitting, with what seemed to be a photo album laying open on his lap and Harry peeking over his shoulder.

"Wait... Are- Were you two..."

"A thing? Yeah, we were." Sirius said, his voice carrying a fondness that he had always used with you.

"But now you aren't together anymore? Why?" Harry questioned, his eyebrows furrowed as he scratched his scalp, reminding Sirius of his best friend.

"Because I messed up the best thing in my life." Sirius answered, his tone holding a somberness to it. "I thought it was best to break up with them to keep Y/n safe, but not only did I screw up there but my mistakes also cost your parents' lives, Harry."

There was a tense silence that felt suffocating to Y/n, who was listening carefully from the outside.

"Do you still love them?" Harry slowly asked, gazing at his godfather with sympathy and curiosity.

"Never stopped. Y/n's one of the reasons I was sane in Azkaban. I never stopped loving them, Harry, and I never will." Sirius answered, his eyes glossing over.

You felt your heart twist, something familiar coming up but you shook your head fiercely. You couldn't become weak.

Not again.

With an air of determination, you walked back to the party, unaware that the past was catching back up to you.

*.·:·.✧ ✦ ✧.·:·.*

Months had passed since then, you had been on guard duty the most, guarding the prophecy in the Department of Mysteries. The one day you had not been able to attend your assigned shift because you had fallen ill, Arthur Weasley had been attacked by Voldemort’s snake, Nagini. Thankfully the ginger man pulled through and was fine. Some months after that, there was no trace of the white snow as June had long arrived, bringing warmer days.

Ever since you overheard Sirius talking about you with Harry, as much as you denied it, something had shifted in your heart. At times, your mind was full of thoughts of the raven haired man, or you’d secretly glance at him, although much to your dismay Remus had caught you once and he had been teasing you endlessly, knowing your long buried feelings were surfacing once again.

It was one day you were at Twelve Grimmauld Place, in the dining room after a meeting. Only a few of you remained behind, your fellow co-workers Mad-Eye Moody, Kingsley Shacklebolt and Nyphmadora Tonks, a good friend of yours, along with Remus, whom you had began to fix your friendship with and Sirius, who still received your coldness, which he willingly accepted. But that didn’t mean he hadn’t showed small gestures for you, whether that was making sure your glass of water was full at dinner, or going to bed after you had retired to your room for whenever you had to stay the night. Although you wouldn’t admit it but you were touched by his actions, reminding you of the sweet time from all those years back.

However all hell broke loose as you all received a Patronus, prompting you all to apparate out to the Ministry of Magic, as Harry and his friends had apparently ended up in the Department of Mysteries, where the Death Eaters were on their tail.

The group of you burst through into the room where they all were and that’s when all chaos broke loose. The Death Eaters turned onto the newly arrived and a huge battle broke out. You found yourself face to face with Rabastan Lestrange as you ran in.

His eyes lit up in delight, “Well if it isn’t the famous Auror L/n.” He cackled, “Too bad it’s time for you to finally be defeated.” And he shot a spell at you which you dodged, instead throwing a spell his way which he deflected.

Both of you were going back and forth but he hadn’t realized you were just making him feel a false sense of security.

He laughed again after deflecting another spell, “That all you got? You’re a disgrace to the name of an Auror, L/n.”

You finally smirked, “Bye bye, Lestrange." You uttered before casting a powerful spell, that too so quickly that the Death Eater noticed it a second too late, too absorbed in his self glory and went flying, hit a wall and fell down, unconscious.

It was a secret trick you used, knowing these people were too self absorbed about themselves that any small feeling of victory would have them letting their guard down.

Satisfied, you turned your eyes towards the others. However new shouts and people pointing had you looking up only to realize Albus Dumbledore, who had been on the run due to the Ministry wanting to arrest him, had also joined the battle.

Only one pair was still battling, apparently unaware of the new arrival. You watched Sirius duck Bellatrix's jet of red light: he was laughing at her.

''Come on, you can do better than that!'' He yelled, his voice echoing around the room.

Your eyes flitted to Bellatrix, whose face took on a deadly expression of determination.

You felt your feet begin to start moving, knowing this wouldn’t end well as Sirius was distracted. You had just screamed his name when the second jet of light hit him squarely on the chest. The laughter had not quite died from his face, but his eyes widened in shock.

“SIRIUS!” You shouted as his surprised gaze turned to you, and he began to fall, right back into the Veil and you felt your stomach drop.

Your years of training came into use and you managed to get there and caught his hand, pulling him back. You lost your balance and the pair of you fell onto the ground.

You heard Bellatrix cackle gleefully, shouting, “I killed Sirius Black!” And Harry, who was in a state of shock turned to her in anger and chased her all the way out, Dumbledore following. However, you couldn’t care less. You were numbly staring at Sirius’ limp body beside you, and suddenly your heart broke.

“SIRIUS!” You shouted out in agony, cradling his face. “Wake up, please! You can’t leave me again! Please wake up!” You cried, your head falling against his chest as you sobbed your heart out. “I love you.” You whispered out, too distraught that all your intelligence had left you. It’s only when Remus sat beside you, slowly grabbing you and letting you cry against him, that he, as a last attempt gripped Sirius' wrist due to which did you all find out he was still alive.

Some hours later, you all were back at Twelve Grimmauld Place, waiting for the Healer to fix up Sirius. As soon as the Healer left, you burst into the room, dropping to your knees by the bed, watching with tears of relief pooling in your eyes as you saw Sirius' chest evenly rise and fall.

He was alive.

Everyone else present at Headquarters took a little peek at him before leaving the room, knowing you and him needed time alone.

"You were right, Remus."

Remus, who was standing beside you, looked at you with a surprised expression, "What?"

"You were right, I had been lying to everyone including myself." You told him, gently stroking your thumb over Sirius' hand, gazing at him softly. "I think my feelings had come back a long time ago, I just was too stubborn to admit them." You confessed, your heart twisting. “If Sirius had died, how would I have lived with myself?” You said, turning to look at Remus, who looked at you with sympathy.

“But you have the chance now.” He answered, squeezing your shoulder encouragingly. A knock interrupted the two of you and you both turned to find Tonks sticking her head through the door.

“You got a second, Remus?” She said, to which the werewolf nodded and patted you gently on the shoulder before following the metaphormagus out. You watched him go and as the door shut, you turned to look back at Sirius, softly brushing a few loose strands of hair away from his face

He suddenly stirred, his face scrunching up before he flickered open his eyes, grey orbs flitting around as he tried to understand where he was.

"Siri?'

Your voice caught his attention and Sirius turned his head slightly to the side to look at you, his gaze filling up with love.

"Y/n/n?"

"How are you feeling?" You asked.

Sirius stared at you in surprise, finding you by his side, looking so worried which was completely astonishing to him, since you barely ever glanced at him.

"I think so." He groaned, eyes clenching shut for a brief moment, "I remember dueling Bellatrix and then a spell hit me but after that..."

"You almost fell through the veil. You almost died." You told him, your voice cracking on the last word making Sirius frown in concern as he sat up, pulling you up to seat you beside himself.

Your lip wobbled as tears began to cascade down your cheeks. "I am so sorry for everything. I-I-" A sob escaped you, "I was so hurt when you left that I told myself I'd never let anyone else in, and I held it against you when you were nothing but sorry."

Sirius felt his heart shatter and he moved to grab you but you shook your head, "I don't deserve you." You said, curling in on yourself as you finally let yourself cry, to let all those emotions buried deep within the chambers of your heart break free.

Sirius' grey eyes filled up with tears and he wrapped his arms around you, allowing you to sob into his chest.

"It's not your fault, love, it never was." He told you, caressing your head gently.

"I almost lost you today and I would have never forgiven myself if I had never got to tell you that I still love you."

Sirius stiffened, his mind buzzing while his heart began to thump loudly in his chest. He couldn’t believe his ears.

“You what?” He uttered out in disbelief. You pulled away, wiping your face before placing your hands on either side of Sirius’ face.

“I love you, Sirius Black.” You expressed, your lips turning up into a small smile. "I love you so much."

Sirius stared at you with slightly rounded eyes before he smiled so wide that you melted.

“Am I dead and in heaven?”

“Sirius!” You scolded, smacking him very lightly on the chest for his mischief.

Sirius let out a bark of laughter before his eyes filled up with love and fondness, his grin not leaving his face.

“I love you so much, darling.” He practically whispered, his voice reflecting his heart. “I love you so much.”

You beamed at that before letting your hands slide to his neck, your breathing beginning to pick up as Sirius moved his hands down to your waist. Your eyes flickered between his eyes and back, him doing the exact same. You both leaned in, your eyes slowly fluttering and you gently attached your lips to his.

At that, memories of all those years came rushing back. The feel of each other, the kisses, the hugs, the happiness, the love.

The kiss was slow and soft but once you both got a taste of each other, emotions became high and the two of you got more aggressive, Sirius picking you up and placing you on his lap as you both deepened the kiss, wanting more of each other as the two of you had been deprived of each other for so long.

A sudden throat clearing made you jump and the pair of you pulled apart only to find a smirking Remus and a gleeful Tonks.

“So I guess it’s time for a celebration huh?” The young woman said, eyeing her cousin and friend.

“I think it’s best if we leave these two alone.” Remus commented, throwing a wink your way to which you flipped off them both, earning chuckles out of everyone.

Sirius pulled you close, kissing your cheek before you rested your head on his shoulder.

After long and lonely years, your heart had returned to its previous state, like it had been all those years ago, before it had hardened into stone.

Your heart was back with Sirius Black and his was yours.

Forever and always.

.·:*¨༺ ༻¨*:·.

[mourn-and-watch]

no but essek's abnormal behaviours in the last arc and especially in episode 140 are my roman empire. which is ironic because aeor is something of a roman empire itself. but in all seriousness, it was the episode that made me realise i love essek and his development so much and it kinda summarised it even before caleb's epilogue.

and i mean the "it's not fair" scene specifically. it's like, an epitome of his whole character progression from a person who put An Objectively Important Goal above all else without hesitation to someone who can't help but care for people around even more than his goal, no matter how big and relevant it is.

the mighty nein - and he alongside them - pretty much saved the world and freed an ancient city from thousand-year-long suffering. they defeated nine extremely powerful menacing entities who managed to stay out of everyone's sight for years and were so close to achieving their goal and dooming exandria in the process. they did the impossible and became heroes and somehow, they survived, even though they had bidden farewells a couple of hours ago because they had already understood what they had been facing. and nevertheless. they made it.

and none of them was celebrating.

mighty nein are basically essek's only friends. he knew them to be very unusual people, to put it lightly, loud and stubborn and completely inescapable once they consider you to be one of their own. and they showed him so much kindness and put so much faith in him, they were here playing the most atrocious music ever and digging clay in his backyard for a spell they invented just to help one of theirs and asking him if he could bring them pastries the day after they found out he was lying to them and had started a war. they were chaotic and weird and sometimes unbearable but most importantly they were carrying so much hope with them all this time - a hope they could end the war, a hope they could stop the angel of irons cult, a hope they could get better, a hope he could get better, and now, finally, that they could save their lost friend.

and that hope shattered, just like that, the moments after they'd already made the impossible. they saved so many souls - and then could not get back just that one.

for essek "my intentions were never good they were important" thelyss it just. shouldn't have mattered. they won. it could have been worse. people die and when they die they rarely come back. they should've been happy everyone else barely made it alive.

but for some reason, mighty nein being so defeated after they saved the world exposed him to that overwhelming feeling of injustice and unfairness. and i mean, there were many things essek considered to be unfair, but when i watched his first appearance and his interactions with mighty nein later on til their reunion in aeor arc, i wouldn't dare to guess that one of the things on that list would be something that personal. and personal not even to him.

the thing is, essek didn't even know who that guy was. why mighty nein cared about him so much. he had an idea, i guess, that he was their friend once, or someone in that body was. it was also a person who wanted to unleash a terrifying horrific aberration onto the material plane. it was a person very dedicated to killing essek and his friends - and they still didn't take any pleasure in fighting him. essek didn't feel strongly about lucien or molly, because he never knew them.

i don't think he mourned his death and failed resurrection. he mourned mighty nein's hope, the one they put in him when they had no reason to, the one they offered yasha in the cathedral and the one they kept after the spell for veth failed and the one they carried til the very end because they wanted it to reach molly. they had saved people with this hope. they had saved nations. they had saved the world. but they ended up feeling like it hadn't even been worth anything.

how desperate would it feel, witnessing people who for some reason always saw good in you when they absolutely shouldn't, who made literal miracles out of nothing, who ended wars and fought gods and tricked the hags and freed cities from horrors beyond anyone's comprehension purely because they thought it was the right thing to do and also loved their friends this much, silently crying over a dead body they couldn't bring back to life? how desperate would it feel to realise that with all your knowledge about time you dedicated your life to and threw away any principles for, you can't undo this? no one can. some things are left to fate alone and this time it wasn't kind to them. no matter how much good they did, they still got slapped in the face.

and it was, i think, such a genuine moment of empathy. like, essek is the character who prefers to put up a facade and act distant and self-composed but this time he just. walked away unable to watch this. the could only say to fjord that it wasn't fair. even when he was caught off guard in nicodranas he was able to explain himself and his motives to an extent even though he was a nervous wreck whose extra important plan went to hell the second the only people he cared about appeared. this time he had nothing to elaborate on. it just wasn't fair. it wasn't fair his friends didn't get what they wanted the most. it wasn't fair he couldn't do anything to make it right.

it is such a sad and beautiful and even cathartic scene because it is about person who started a war that destroyed so many lives - and then met this ragtag group of weirdos who saw a lonely stand-offish guy and said "hey, let's be friends!" and didn't even wait for him to answer. he saw them being serious and calculated and he saw them being ridiculous and extremely stupid, he saw their mistrust to outsiders and their loyalty to each other, he made spells with them and paid a visit to their hot tub, he ate their stale pastries and drank their hot chocolate mixed with whiskey, he was welcomed amongst them and in their wonderful home, both in xhorhas before they even found out what he had done and in the tower when they already knew - and then, he saw them mourning their loss, defeated and helpless, and he, a person who believed there were things more important than whole nations, let alone just one life, couldn't help but share the pain they felt. a pure display of compassion from someone who detached himself from it, who didn't believe he could grow into a better person capable of it again, but became one nonetheless without even realising it

[andreawritesit]

The Red Storm

This is my first time writing anything related to One Piece and I'm extremely nervous. I haven't written anything in 2 years so please bear with my abysmal grammar.

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Fandom: One Piece

Pair: Shanks x Reader

- I wanted it to be a one shot but I'll have to write it in two parts (or more, who knows) -

Part 2 : here

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*CRASH!*

This was not how you wanted your morning to start; with a crash so loud, it must’ve been heard across all the seas. Must be those gremlins! you immediately think. Ever since you had agreed to look after those three, your life had become a whole mess. You take a deep breath and get out of bed to take a shower. You have only just put one foot down when you hear Dadan’s scream followed by loud laughter. Of course, they’re at it again. You sigh and hurry up to the bathroom before you are summoned on your devil babysitting duties. Taking your clothes off, you step under the shower, letting the warm water relieve you of your stress for a moment. However, the relief dies down almost immediately as you find your mind going back to the memories you so desperately try to suppress and yet they keep haunting you every day.

-2 years ago, Windmill Village –

“What do you mean you’re leaving without me? You promised me that I could come along the next time!” Your voice echoed in the empty bar. You didn’t care, you were livid. The man put his straw hat on the table and closed his eyes. 

“Look, I’m sorry. I know I promised but where we’re going is not safe at all. You are not ready to go to the Grand Line. It’s very dangerous and I do not want to risk your life-“ Before he could say anything else, you throw a glass at him which he dodges annoyingly easily. He looks at the shattered glass and then at you. “Calm down, please. Let me explain-“

“SHUT UP! I don’t want to hear any excuses! You promised me, Shanks! Leaving without me means this is over, right? You and me?” He looks at you solemnly and tugs you toward himself. You try to push away from him but as soon as you hit his chest, your arms automatically circle around his neck as you try to stop your tears from falling. He holds you close, without saying anything. Hearing his light breaths, you realize this might be the last time you ever see him. You hug him tighter which he reciprocates. 

“Shanks please don’t leave me…”

He doesn’t reply. Not a word. He just kisses the top of your head. After what feels like an eternity, he releases you and you gasp at the sight of his face. There stood Red-haired Shanks, tears coating his slightly flushed cheeks. You put your hand on his cheek and wipe his tears away, while your own tears release from their prison and onto your cheeks. 

“Please forgive me. The path I am going on is very dangerous. I could never drag you into this mess. Maybe you’ll never forgive me. Maybe you’ll never understand. But I’d rather have your hatred than bear your loss.”

You move your hand from his cheek to his hair and touch your forehead to his. You want to be mad at him. You want to hurt him as he was hurting you. But he was right. You had never left the village. You had no idea of the world outside, especially the Grand Line. Even if he does agree to take you along, you’d end up becoming a burden. 

You try to say you understand but your throat feels heavy so you simply nod. Fresh tears paint his face as he cries silently, already mourning the relationship you both had. Ever since he started frequenting the small village, you both stayed close to each other, the closeness only increasing with every meeting. You would wait for him at the docks with Luffy, looking forward to being in his arms again. And now he would never come running down the docks and pick you up into his arms, smothering you in kisses. 

“Hey,” he says softly, “I want you to do something for me.” You chuckle sadly. What could he possibly need from you now…

“I want you to look after Luffy. He’s going to be very sad after we leave. Knowing that you’ll stay with him will give me peace of mind. Please?” 

“Of course, I’ll take care of him.” 

Shanks nods and hugs you again, this time settling you down in his lap. This time he cries loudly and you don’t silence your sobs either. 

The next morning, you wake up to see flowers near your bed with a goodbye note. That was the last time the red-haired storm rustled your life.  

---- present time -----

You don’t realize how long it has been until you hear Dadan knocking at your bathroom door.

“If you don’t come out in a minute, I will break this door apart!” Dadan’s angry voice drags you back to reality and you quickly dry yourself and put some clothes on. As you emerge from the bathroom, Dadan is onto you, grabbing the collar of your new shirt. “Those three gremlins are getting on my nerves! I’ve been calling them for an hour now but they aren’t listening! Gather them or I’ll throw all four of you out of here!”

You sigh and pry your shirt out of her grasp. She takes a step back and raises an eyebrow. “Well?”

“Well, what?” your voice comes out more rude than you wanted it to be. “I mean, where did they go?” you add on quickly.

“The forest, where else! Hurry up and bring their asses back!”

You nod and head out to the forest. You had promised Shanks to look after Luffy but you had no idea what awaited you. After Garp decided to send Luffy to the mountain bandits, you requested to tag along, which he agreed to. You knew it would be dangerous but what you didn’t know was that you were getting a package deal. At first, it seemed that you would go mad over Luffy and Ace but then another one popped up randomly. Now the three of them had become friends and made it their mission to make Dadan’s life a living hell. You were caught in the crossfire. The boys were very fond of you so they often got behind you to escape Dadan’s wrath and Dadan held you responsible for every slight inconvenience caused by them. It was too much sometimes but it was a reprieve. You couldn’t imagine how you would’ve dealt with Shanks’ departure without the three devils. Speaking of whom, you spot them sitting in their tree house. You smile involuntarily and call them out.

“Luffy! Ace! Sabo! Come down. Time to go home or else Dadan won’t give you any food!”

Luffy is the first to come down, of course, he is. He is followed by Sabo and then finally Ace, who is staring daggers at Luffy. You glance at them, feeling the tension rising with every passing second. Luffy, oblivious to his impending ass-whooping, chuckles loudly and tugs at your shirt.

“Let’s go home quickly! Or else I’ll have to sleep hungry!”

You pat his head softly and he gives you the warmest grin in return. Suddenly you’re reminded of Shanks who used to give you the same warm smile whenever you greeted him at the bar. Stupid Shanks!��

Ace lets out a fake cough and suddenly pulls Luffy’s right ear which stretches unnaturally. Luffy screeches like a crow and sends Sabo into a frenzy of laughter. “Ouch!! Ace, what is this for?”

“What is this for? Really? You idiot! When I said don’t go down, why did you jump?”

“Because she said Dadan won’t give us food!”

“Shut up! You broke the brother code! I’m the oldest, you both listen to me!”

Sabo’s face scrunches up at that. “You know, I still think I’m older than you…”

Ace sends the blonde boy a death glare which shuts him up.

Their innocent altercation fills your heart with warmth. You walk up to them and put your hand on Ace’s shoulder. He looks up at you and his cheeks instantly turn pink. The two boys giggle at that and his scowl returns immediately. 

“Ace, come on now. Be easy on your little brother. All he did was obey me.” you say in hopes of pacifying the angry little boy. He sighs and nods. “Well, I’ll let it go because if we don’t return soon, Dadan will be angry at you. But if they do this again, I’ll kick their asses.” You laugh softly and nod in agreement. “Let’s go then.” 

You start walking back to the house with the three gremlins following you, unaware of the red-haired storm that is making its way back into your life. 

[xinnamonbun]

Xinnimon's Theory Times

Our finalists: Knife and Suitcase; we love them dearly. Both of them definitely deserve the win, between how they interact, and how they've developed, it's a great final 2.

However...

What would they do with the money if they actually won? I've talked about this briefly previously but for this post I want to focus on Suitcase. Besides the fact that I'm rooting for her personally, she also has something interesting that she could do with the money that simply would have less impact with Knife.

Travel.

Seems odd at first but I have multiple reasons to think that Adamation is going to pull a "Steven Universe Future" on us.

(this is pretty long so I'm putting a cut and TLDR at the bottom)

1: She's a Suitcase

My first point is that she's literally a suitcase. Why would this matter? Because of what object shows are known for. Symbolism! Fan being a fan of the show. Test Tube being smart. Knife being aggressive. Cabby being organized. I could find a reason why every single other contestant symbolizes something but we'd be here forever.

Suitcase arguably already has symbolism like: baggage, keeping things to herself (until recently), ect. But that doesn't mean that she can't have more. It would make TOTAL sense for a suitcase to go see the world and travel considering the fact she's made for it, literally.

2: The Big Reveal

I think her traveling could help a LOT with this realization. Why? Because she can see what is real! I've seen some people thinking that Mephone4 made the entire world mainly because of Cobs saying "he basically made a world" but I think that was just his wording trying to trick us. He said "basically" for a reason. I think that there is a reality that the contestants have interacted with.

The first objects that come to mind; the unvitationals! (minus Walkie Talkie and Springy) MePhone4 seemed surprised by Groscar saying she liked the show and she seems to have an audience outside of II. The camera people just aren't there that much (probably cuz they have their own lives) and anytime they are on screen they're just a mild annoyance for Mephone4. Dr. Fizz doesn't have many reasons to be real besides saying that Box needs to go to a hospital but there's nothing pointing to him being fake either. And of course there's the entirety of Meeple! If Meeple isn't real that wouldn't make a lot of sense considering the fact that that would mean that Mephone4 would have had to generate his own trauma. That doesn't add up. So that means that most likely Steve Cobs and all the Meeple products are real in the sense that they were either biologically or artificially built with no generation involved.

We've seen season 3 contestants interacting with unvitationals, and season 2 contestants interacting with Meeple. Which means that there is a probably a real world for them, and they can access, interact, and be a part of it.

3: The Talk

(If you don't feel like watching the whole clip rn, here's what I want you to take away from it for this post)

She quite literally mentions the idea of leaving to move on. Do I think she'd leave forever? No. Do I think that her staying with the contestants to try and fix her issues with them would be the healthiest option? Honestly also no.

I think she had a point in which she needs to be by herself for a while to figure out her issues, how to tackle them, and how to move on from the show in a healthy way; without dragging her friends down with her. (which she doesn't seem interested in anyways)

I don't know about you but after having my entire reality shattered, I would want to see what is real out there, enjoy what is there. In fact I think it'd make me feel more alive, more real if I was in a real environment!

Granted this wouldn't solve all of her issues. Like Knife had a point when he says later in the conversation, "careful there, you're starting to sound like MePhone" if this is the only thing she does she just running away from her problems and trying to forget everything. But instead of doing that she could genuinely take some time to figure out who she is and even if she was made a bit unconventionally she is still real.

She's important.

TLDR:

She's a suitcase, it would make the most sense out of all the contestants for her to travel.

After the big reveal in the newest episode, seeing the world outside of the show (which I'm sure exists) would be good.

It would probably be healthy for her to be by herself for a while and figure out who she is outside of the show.

...

I think it's also worth mentioning that there's a good chance they might not even get the money, it could be a tie/draw, everyone could freaking DIE, we simply don't know. But this is assuming two things that are really unpredictable (suitcase winning and using the prize money, if it even exists, to travel which would be slightly odd considering the past prizes have been for everyone)

If you have any bonus thoughts, please, don't be afraid to reblog! Or if you don't want this on your blog you could always just shoot down a reply. This is a theory post! I want to hear what people think and contradictions! No idea is a dumb one! (...or don't, honestly the fact that you bothered to read all this is enough :)

[yougavemeyourheartyouknow]

Love me or hate me, both are in my favor (Miguel O’Hara x Fem! Reader [HS Academic Rivals AU])

Hiii! New day new chapter! Sorry it took so long to get out, my birthday is in Sunday so I’ve been busy. Not proofread, enjoy!

Cursing, slight mentions of wounds.

Word count: 2k

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Chapter 8: No, I don't wanna fall in love with you.

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Swinging around the city always helped clear Miguel's head, finding it very calming compared to the very chaotic hustle and bustle of Neuva York. From the top of the Empire State, everyone looked like ants, and it gave him the ability to de-mask himself without the possibility of anyone finding him. It was one of the many perks of being Spider-Man, the ability to hide away above the rest of the world.

Although, usually the breathtaking skyline against orange and pink hues that painted the sky was enough to serve as a temporary distraction before he had to return to his usual routine, but it seems that today’s events were too much for his mind to just drop. With a heavy sigh, he ran his gloved hand through his now slightly disheveled brown locks, gripping his mask with his free hand.

God…

As if you hadn't already dug some sort of permanent spot into his life, now you were completely messing with his mind without even knowing it.

He shouldn’t have kissed you back. Not because he didn’t want to, because if he was being completely honest with himself… maybe he did. But, you’ve never liked him, you’ve never liked Miguel. He’s convinced himself his whole life that he disliked you, not just because of your constant battle at attempting to one up each other grade wise, but because you both were far too stubborn and egotistical to be able to sit in a room with each other without squabbling. He’s never been partially nice to you, sure, but neither have you to him. He hated you.

Right?

He wasn’t so sure anymore. But he knew for certain how you felt about him. You loved Spider-Man, not Miguel. And although he knows he’s being a bit selfish, and only going to hurt himself in the process, he was gonna keep it that way. He’d take all the snarky comments and glares you shoot his way, if it meant being able to kiss you again. He’d shatter the entire universe in his bare hands if it meant for you to keep kissing him the way that you did.

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“O’Hara, hey- are you deaf now or something?” Your hand landing on his shoulder pulls him out from his thoughts, he’s been in them more often than usual lately he glanced over his shoulder to send you a quick glare before turning back down at his notebook. His eyes scan over the words on the page but none of them registered in his mind. He felt your finger tapped on his shoulder. “You can’t keep ignoring me. We have to work on this project, you know.” You huffed quietly, your eyes drifting from the back of his head, to the front of the class to make sure the teacher wasn’t watching and back again. “You’ve been skipping out on practice.” This was the second time today you’ve tried to get him to talk to you, and still he doesn’t give you anything but a glare, the cold shoulder, it was insufferable. The biggest thorn in your side had decided to just remove itself at the worst time, two weeks away from the presentation of the scene project.

With a huff, you sat fully in your seat once more and looked back down at your own book. Just deciding to attempt to catch him after class again, but the more the time ticked away the more your agitation towards him grew. This was somewhat odd behavior for him. He hasn’t flat out ignored you since you had been in the 7th grade, the most you’ve gotten out of him as of recent is his usual glare or scowl. You’d never admit to his face, but him ignoring, it almost felt like torture. You have no idea what you did for him to suddenly give you the cold shoulder, a week ago at the aquarium before your sudden graze with death, you had thought that you both somewhat gotten along for once. Now he goes out of his way to dodge you in the halls or leave your texts on read, you couldn’t help but feel that same small sinking feeling in your chest that you felt when you first tried talking to him in the 6th grade only for him to scoff and turn up his nose at you. If it weren’t for the fact you had to work on this stupid project together, you probably wouldn’t be so persistent.

Or, at least that’s what your telling yourself.

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8:45pm.

Miguel was currently an hour and 15 minutes late to yours and his study session, not like he showed anymore anyways. At least he could justify the nagging voice in the back of his brain telling him to go to your dorm by telling himself that patrolling was a better use of his time and resources, and way less of a headache then having to deal with you when you’re pissed off.

Thankfully, the streets of Neuva York were relatively calm, no crazy mastermind villains trying to take over the world, just a few pity crimes here and there, not enough for him to actually break a sweat but just enough to not be able to call it a night just yet. Small vandalism, an attempted mugging, helping an elderly lady cross the road, small more simpler tasks. With each one ignoring the small inconsistent yet slightly irritating buzzing that his phone was releasing in his suit pocket.

11 missed calls, and 24 unseen messages. His gloved thumb slowly scrolled through the preview of the messages as he took a small break on top of a random counter rooftop, his free hand pulling his mask up to just above his nose before going to grab the BLT sandwich from the bodega and taking a bite out of it. Each chew and swallow becomes slower the more he nears finishing the sandwich. Telling himself he’d finally suck it up and face the music, the migraine inducing headache that was your scolding.

As he downs the last bite, he clicks on your contact, finger itching to hit the call button.

“Help!”

“Shit…” He mumbled to himself as he quickly pulled himself up on his feet, stashing his phone away once more before his mask was back over his mouth.

He’ll call you afterwards, he tells himself.

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9:38pm.

He flaked. Again.

“I’m not surprised, still disappointed though.” You mumble to yourself as you go to change out of your school clothes and into a nice pair of sweats and a sleeping shirt, placing your headphones on to listen to some music, it’s still early enough so you decided to get some reading in. Stretching your arms over your head, before going over to your bookshelf, your fingernails tapping the spine of each book until you reach the one you wanted to read.

Setting back into your bed, after turning off your overhead light and turning on your lamp instead, you finally open up on the page that you left off.

“Now you must have a good long holiday!”

“I intend to.”

Something in his resolute tone made Jo look up quickly to find him looking down at her with an expression that assured her the dreaded moment had come, and made her put out her hand with an imploring, “No, Teddy. Please don’t!”

“I will, and you must hear me. It’s no use, Jo, we’ve got to have it out, and the sooner the better for both of us,” he answered, getting flushed and excited all at one.

Tap tap.

“Say what you like then, I’ll listen,” said Jo, with a desperate sort of patience.

Laurie was a young lover but he was in earnest, and meant to ‘have it out’, if he died in the attempt, so he plunged into the subject with characteristic impetuousity, saying in a voice that would get choke now and then, in spite of manful efforts to keep it steady…

Tap tap.

“I’ve loved you ever since I’ve known you, Jo, couldn’t help it, you've been so good to me. Now I’m going to make you hear, and give me an answer, for I can’t go on so any longer.”

“I wanted to save you this-“

Tap tap.

“Is someone throwing rocks at my window or something?” You quickly close your book after rebookmarking your page, trying to wave off the idea, your on one of the higher levels of the building. So being able to accurately hit the window over and over would be difficult.

Placing your book on the side of your bed, you get up and go to draw your curtains back, only to be met with a familiar blue and red mask popping up in your window pane. Your brows shot up and biting back the urge to let out a small startled yelp, your hands made quick work to unlock your window and open it up to allow him to climb in, trying his best to not knock over all the trinkets on your bedside table. Trying your best to stifle your laugh as you watch him crawl all over the tiny surface like a cat.

“I didn’t realize we were at that level, Spider-Man.” You joked, letting a small chuckle slip past your lips as he finally stumbled onto his feet and off the counter. Your laughs only increased as you watched the red lines on his mask narrow as he seemingly glared at you.

“Says the one who kissed me.”

“Touché.” You said only you were able to eventually stop laughing, allowing your eyes to finally scan over him. Your face quickly contouring into one of concern when you finally noticed the large tear on the side of his left hip, along with a bleeding bash. You must have not noticed it by the way he was bending over. Your hand flys to cover your mouth as you stare at it, it wasn’t life threatening, but it sure as hell looked painful. “Oh my god, what happened!?”

“Oh this? Pff, it’s nothing” His left hand goes to cover the gash from your view as his right hand goes to wave the question of, his tone nonchalantly as if he had just gotten a paper cut. Now it’s your turn to glare at him.

“Can you let me help you patch it up at least?” You asked, but you were already guiding him to sit on your half done bed. “I’m not a medic or anything, but I can at least clean it up so it doesn’t get infected.” You added, going towards your bathroom to search for your first aid kid that all the dorms had.

Once you found the kit, and didn’t hear any protest from the spider, you made your way down to your knees to his left and began to clean up the wound, murmuring a silent apology when he winced from the rubbing alcohol making context with the wound.

“…You must get tired of having to always clean yourself up and restitch your suit all the time huh?” You finally broke the silence,tossing the blood and alcohol soaked cotton in your small trash can.

“It’s…yeah, sorry about, badgering in and stuff, I wouldn’t have stopped by if I didn’t think I couldn’t make it home.” His admission made your heart sink a bit, but it wasn’t completely true, his building was another few minutes of a swing from yours, and his brother always helped him clean up after a nasty fight.

Miguel just wanted an excuse to see you and talk to you again.

“You’ve saved my life twice, Spider-Man. You are always welcome to stop by if you need help.” You tell him ernstly as you wiped off the last bit of blood off his hip, before going to place wrapping on the area.

“Thank you…” He whispered, his tone just as gentle as it was the first time he spoke to you when he reassured you he wouldn’t let you go.

“Of course.”

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[museumofeverythingieverloved]

i am a whole universe in my self. and you are a whole universe in yours.

individually, we lack nothing. together, we can become something greater. without one another, there's simply nothing missing.

i've always been aware of the fact that society makes us feel incomplete if we do not have a partner. i have always found the idea of being incomplete without someone to love me and call mine, as absolutely absurd.

i remember vividly how back in high school all of my girlfriends were just obsessed with finding (and wooing) guys to enter into relationships with. and that always made me go????

why do you feel so comfortable in attaching your worth and gaining validation from the fact that you have a partner?

you came alone in this world and you will die alone. this is not said to sound gloomy and lonely, but to embrace the very truth of life.

love is worthwhile. i was, am and always will be a hopeless romantic.

i've had two close affairs with love and both have filled me up and shattered my heart but i still will choose to love till my dying breath.

this in no way means that not having a partner makes me feel half. oh no. even the thought of giving space to such a notion in my life sounds blasphemous to me- to who i am and what i stand for as a person.

i know the love i carry in my being is deeper than the deepest oceans of the world. i know my light is the brightest fkn light in this whole world. this is my statement, my fact-of-the-matter. i know it because i have felt it. i felt it when i simply chose to pour it all in from a very young age.

of course, i long for someone's love atm. but that's because i found it adding value to my already very full, flowing and scrumptious life..

i have never been half, i've never been a part of something other than me.

that's why i know that when i am pining for someone's love, it's simply because i like the idea of what it adds to my life. nothing's missing. if you come and choose to love me, it's an addition in my life that i will wholeheartedly accept and nurture.

if you decide to decline my love, i will simply say your name every time i pray and thank the universe for making me feel more love in an already vast ocean i was living in.

[pjpresents]

Do you have any advice on how to get your ideas down? You know, I would stare down at an empty document, having the whole story in my head, but I just can't put it into words. The most vivid thing in my head cames out like "Emily-Claire felt the whole world shatter, the truth starts to set in. No it can't be. IT CAN'T BE! The girl sank to her knees burying her head into her late mother's shirt." *proceeds to rewrite the whole thing 13 times*

An aspiring writer,

Sereia

Oooh, this is a great question!

I would say that there's not one right way to get your first draft down. It's a first draft! All it has to do is be on the page. If you have the whole story in your head but it's not translating into fully written sentences, don't worry about writing full sentences! See if you can convey even a fraction of what you're thinking with bullet points, incomplete sentences, and/or brackets saying stuff like [she cries, write the details later].

You can get visual with it too. Have the perfect idea for a setting, but have no idea how to describe it? Find a picture that looks right, slap it in your document, and start writing like the setting has already been introduced. Later, you can go back and describe it (and the picture might help with this, as you can point to individual, tangible details). You can also do this with character appearances if struggling to describe them is blocking you from writing what comes after.

My biggest piece of advice to you would be to not focus on perfection. You can write what you think is bad and sloppy and incorrect! You don't have to show your first draft to anyone. I think there's this misconception of good writers sitting down and banging out a beautiful story on their first try. That couldn't be further than the truth (and if you don't believe me, hear it from the authors themselves!) If you want to write something you're proud of, you ahve to give yourself permission to have it suck at the beginning. Because you can always edit it into something you're proud of!

And if it helps you let go of perfection... don't feel constrained by writing the story exactly how it appears in your head. Try writing the main character having a snack with her best friend (or another scenario that feels applicable). Maybe it never shows up in the story, but it's good practice for seeing how the main character interacts with the world. And if it's just meant as a writing exercise and will never be a part of the story, then it certainly doesn't have to be perfect!

If you want a bigger challenge: once you start writing whatever scene you write next, don't rewrite anything until the scene is complete. It can be short! But if you're so caught up on editing each sentence as it comes, you're going to have a hard time feeling free enough to write imperfectly. Actually, I would advise you not to edit anything until it's been a day since you've written it. I've found that separating my "writing time" and my "editing time" not only helps me write with abandon, but it gives me enough time away from my writing to come into editing with fresh eyes.

One thing that can help with getting into the flow is starting with a free write. This is where you just write stream of consciousness, about whatever you're thinking—what you had for breakfast, how cute your crush is, etc.—but you write without stopping. Once you're in a flow, it can be easier to transition into writing your story rather than sitting down to do it. Think of it how athletes stretch before they work out, and some artists do drawing exercises before they start working on their main piece. You've got to warm up first!

But really, don't beat yourself up over not being able to get everything on the page at once. Writing is hard, and like most things, it takes practice. Just take it day by day, do what you can, and don't be afraid to try something new or unconventional. You've got this!

And my asks are open if you want any further advice!

[marisuugar]

Indigo in Blue

Original song by Maeda Jun and Yanagi Nagi

Based on a translation by moonsnow

i might be addicted...eheh...i wanna do white spell next....

"this blog will mostly be vocaloid translyrics" - mari, lying as naturally as she breathed

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Ah, Lock and load* Let azure Fade away Keep on Dyeing This skyline Deep blue**

Sharp shards of glass Flying through space Pierce through my cheeks Grazing my face and Making me think All of the same Everything will break in pieces*** Losing it all Even your touch My resolve Has never seemed to grow so faint

Now, you’ll shatter! To live without you

I know You know, I’m a broken tool And why? Are even my thoughts a lie?

Ah, Let the sea Roaring on Resound And thus Let the waves Raging on Splash down

Brightly those lights Shine onto me While in the glow It’s time to focus I breathe in deep Take in the air Open my eyes See how I fall In but a glance I know what to do To reach the ground Measure quick my velocity

The final blow- Delivered to you

I know You know, I’m just a blind fool And why? Go through hell with no respite?

Ah, Lock and load Let all love Fade away And let These flowers Scatter in Indigo

Sharp shards of glass Flying through space Pierce through my cheeks Grazing my face and Making me think All of the same All that I am breaks in pieces Losing it all Even your smile Time and space Have never seemed to glow so faint

Brightly those lights Shine onto me While in the glow It’s time to struggle I choke and fight Burn in the air Closing my eyes Feel how I fall With just a hunch I know what to do To reach my fate Contemplate and bide my time

Now, you’ll shatter! To live without you

I know You know, I’m a broken tool And why? Is even your voice a lie?

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ALSO, since I cannot find a transcription, much less a translation of the background vocals, I tried to transcribe them myself. I'm 99% sure these are wrong, and I can't tell if it's actual japanese or just gibberish, so I'm just gonna put them here as is instead of trying to translate them, hopefully they at least help you if you wanna do a cover and need SOMETHING for the background vocals.

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Pre-Verse: Aa-ei-i-ya, aa-ei-ya Aa-ei-i-ya, aa-ei-ya Aa-ei-i-ya, aa-ei-i-ya Aa-ei-i-ya, aa-ei-ya Verse and Chorus: Ei-ga-kimi-na-ui-na-mi-raena Wo-ai-chi-sa-ya-sei-re-da Ie-da-biji-ga-ri-da-ri-da Mi-ra-i-ra-ya-te-mi-na

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Notes:

Woo! Not even a full stanza in and we already gotta make notes!!! Honestly, I have no good excuse for this except my own skill issue, I couldn't figure out a good way to stretch this out so I added "Lock and Load" as a sorta filler line. I tried to keep it somewhat in line, but yeah, this is 100% not a line that even remotely reflects the source material. If you're using this for a cover I'd heavily encourage, if you're able, to try and find your own alternative for this line. L for me.

Adding onto the previous note, I also restructured this part a bit. Normally, the "in deep blue" (and the later "in indigo" line) would be the fourth line, neatly breaking up the two halves of this section, but I interpreted the whole section being a singular "phrase", so I chose to move the impact lines to the very end, which also worked out better for structure for the same reasons as my previously noted filler line.

On the opposite end of the spectrum as my previous two notes, the original line here had too MUCH information to work structurally, so I had to neuter it a bit. The original line was "As everything, even prayers and promises, shatters away", and in the later line paralleling this, "As everything, even meetings and loneliness, shatters away". I interpreted this pair of lines as an escalation from the idea of "the world is falling apart" to "MY world is falling apart", as the first line refers to contracts of trust, prayers and promises are things which are often forgotten or broken, especially when made on a whim, while the second pair, meetings and loneliness, refer to personal experiences- things you don't easily forget about, so for them to "break" would say that you feel personally as though your own concept of reality is tearing apart, which adds to the existential doubt the narrator of the song seems to feel as I interpret it. I have no idea if my explanation makes sense, but the tl;dr here is "I had to convey a ton of information with only a few words, it was a pain in the butt."

[delusionalwriter02]

You taught me the courage of stars.... before you left

Megumi Fushiguro x Itadori Yuji / One-Shot / Pure Angst

a/n : Based on the song "Saturn" by Sleeping at Last, I got this idea and couldn't stop crying while writing

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Megumi stood alone on the training ground. The stars twinkled above him, like luminous reminders of a bygone era. He was deep in thought, his eyes scanning the sky obscured by intermittent clouds.

He had always found solace in the starry sky, a peaceful refuge where he could escape and reflect. But on this night, melancholy permeated every star, and his heart was heavy.

Memories flooded into his mind. The evenings spent training here, the wind gently caressing their skin, the laughter they shared as they tried to improve their technique. He remembered how Yuji would point to the constellations, naming the stars with enthusiasm even though he only knew a few of them. Yuji was always like that, passionate, living every moment as if he knew time was running out.

But now Yuji was gone. His presence had faded, leaving Megumi alone in the darkness.

He sat down on the hard floor of the training ground, his hands resting on his knees. The stars seemed to flicker, as if he could hear Yuji whispering words of encouragement to him, words of love through the veil of night.

He remembered the day they died. The day they all died. The look in Yuji's eyes as he accepted his fate, sacrificing his life to put an end to Sukuna. Megumi had been there, powerless, unable to do anything to save the one he loved. The one who had taken possession of his heart and protected him against all odds.

The pain was still fresh, like a wound that refused to heal. He wondered how he could go on without Yuji by his side. How could he find any meaning in life when his heart was shattered into a million pieces ?

He looked up at the stars, his eyes brimming with tears that he refused to let fall. He remembered the promises they had made to each other, the dreams they had. They imagined a future together, a life where they could be strong and free. The world was waiting for them.

Now it was all a distant memory.

"Yuji…" he whispered into the darkness. "Why did you leave?"

He wished he could feel Yuji's warm presence beside him again, gazing up at the stars as if they were the only inhabitants of the universe. But now, each star reminded him of his loneliness, his grief.

The stars seemed to be twinkling, as if they were trying to communicate something to Megumi. Maybe they were the words Yuji would have wanted to say to him if he were still here. Maybe the whole universe shared his pain.

Megumi closed his eyes, desperately trying to hold back the tears that threatened to spill over. He remembered every detail of Yuji, every laugh, every look of love.

He remembered with bitterness how far away those moments seemed now. He had always felt that he would end up alone, abandoned by those he loved. It was as if his whole life had been a series of gradual losses, an accumulation of voids that only deepened.

He had never really felt that he belonged in this world. Even before Yuji, he'd lost too much. His father, his mother, his sister, his father again. Each departure had left a painful mark on his already fragile heart. But Yuji had changed all that. With Yuji, Megumi felt his heart open up again. He had finally found someone who understood him without the need for words, someone with whom he could share his sorrows and hopes. They had become more than friends, more than lovers - they had become soul mates.

And now Yuji had been torn away from him, like all the others before him. Megumi wondered if he was doomed to a life of loneliness and loss. Perhaps it was his destiny to be always abandoned, always left behind as those he loved drifted away.

Always left in the shadows, waiting for the sun to shine again.

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For you Élise, my heart that left too soon, I wait every day for the sun to rise. I hope you found what you were looking for, I'll love you forever, you were the biggest fan of Megumi x Yuji and I hope you liked this, I love you angel

[bafflement]

Ozqrow Week - Day 2 - Stargazing

“Keep meaning ta ask, Oz… what was it like, back then? Looking up at all the stars while the moon was still whole? I figured if anyone would know the answer to that, then it would be you. Well, or a certain other person, but that… never mind.” Qrow trailed off, embarrassed, even as Oz’s face seemed to shutter slightly. The smile he shot Qrow was as gentle as always though, his eyes just as loving as they ever were.

“How to explain a sight you’ll never see, I wonder? The moon has been shattered for so many lifetimes now that the vision of it whole is more an echo than anything else, really, but it was beautiful none the less. Imagine a perfect ball, shining the way our moon does now, illuminating the world around it like a luminescent torch. Imagine that same ball, reflected in a lake, rippling and indistinct yet whole at the same time. Then imagine waking up in a world where that ball had broken, been shattered at the whim of a temperamental God throwing a tantrum. Forgive me, but in many ways, that was what must have happened. Only a God could shatter it in such a way that it would remain as it is without flying apart or recombining.” Oz winced even as he let his mouth run away from him, but it was a painful thing to remember really, back when the world had been so much newer, only one version of humanity. Back when there had been nothing but faith and hope, before everything had gone so very wrong.

Qrow stared at him for a second in shock. “So you don’t actually know how it broke, then?”

“I was not there to witness it, Qrow, that was before the Gods decided that bringing Ozma back was a good idea… long before they cursed him and thus all of the cycle as they did. Sometimes all I really want to do is rest, but I know that the task… even if I die, I’ll just wake up as someone else. Apologies, this is too heavy a conversation tonight, after all, we were watching the stars were we not? Did you know that the constellations themselves have changed?” The last sentence was spoken lightly, the change of subject desperately needed and Qrow latched on to it like a lifeline.

“Constellations can change, Oz?”

“Oh my, yes. They keep getting given different names as the patterns people see change and evolve. I could sketch out the various patterns at some point, if you’re interested? It might be something that would be a good idea anyway, thinking on it. It’s always better to have records, just in case the cycle actually does end any time soon.” Oz sighed, he really hadn’t meant to bring down the mood, but Qrow’s question had more or less done that for him already. He moved closer to him, still staring up at the stars that most people viewed as so very unchanging.

Everything altered given enough time. All things changed, mountains formed or were ground down, the sky itself ultimately as mutable as the rest of it. Everything ended, except for him, except for his curse. This was not his night…

Qrow made an indistinct noise as Oz moved to within hugging distance, still trying to wrap his head around what Oz had said about the stars, it was so strange to think they were actually changeable. Whatever was on his lover's mind though, at least tonight they were together?

[fumikomiyasaki]

☰ and ☆ for anyone you'd like :3c

Summer Starters

☰ for our muses to take a stroll along a seaside boardwalk at a summer carnival

"You didn't lie when you said this island was huge..."

"Well duh, I picked it myself for a reason."

It was summer vacation and Sylva took Adore on a trip to that Island she owned and maintained... yet everything was a bit overwhelming for her girlfriend to think Sylva owns all this. Both got themselves candied apples and walked along the boardwalk looking at the big ferris wheel on the side.

"I mainly bought this place at first to play beach volleyball in peace.... then came pools, little shops, locations, party houses, and the more wishes and ideas the people had, the most we built it up, babe. "

Sylva stretcher her arms and looked back at her.

"Which means I can give you a tour and tonight I tell you some date spots you can pick."

"Hmm... can't we just enjoy the sunset at the beach?"

"Anything for ya... Oh but I do know where we can eat later... but for now."

She pointed towards the see, even if the carnivals music dimmed the experience, seeing the fish and the ocean was calming, Adore closed her eyes as she felt Sylvas arm around her hips, seeing her give a cheeky smile.

"Its great... I understand why you come here... the atmosphere is wonderfull for a date."

"Given yer plans... maybe if you have some lovebirds we can bring then here too... it be fun to see if you can wingman them."

"It would mean a lot if you allow me."

"Then its a deal, but for now, let me enjoy time with my pretty girlfriend."

She pulled her closer and kissed her neck shortly before smiling back.

"Come on, lets go enjoy some of the Carnival rides."

☆ for our muses to watch fireworks together

At first he thought this would be boring... Francine was already asleep and many of the RSA students sat down doing nothing.... Barry sat next to Edgar and hoped not to die from boredom... he himself disliked that he could look over, feel his heart beat quickly just to know that he could never tell him... he could never actually tell he loved him without it only causing trouble for him. He started to close his eyes and think of some of the superhero he enjoys... untill he felt the light explode into the sky.

"Its beautiful..." He heard Edgar say next to him...

"At least something happens... we waited forever."

No reaction... maybe the whole fire work drowned out his voice... maybe for his heart he could use this... maybe telling his feelings and hoping nobody would hear it over the fire works was the way to get some weight of his shoulders.

He looked a little bit more on how the fireworks blew up in the sky and looked back at him.. fumbling fingers thinking about everything.

And so he took the risk, turned to Edgar and waited till one explosion went off.

"I love you..."

"You do?"

Suddenly his whole world shattered... was the explosion actually not loud enough, blood rushed to his head and he grew nervous trying to escape the situation.

"Y-YOU HEARD THAT WRONG I SAID NOTHING!" And on instinct Barry dashed away... hidding nearby behind a tree and taking his breath... he could have risked everything cause of one dumb move... why did he have to feel that way... and so he sat down and watched the firework from afar... hoping nobody will find him crying in secret like this.

[benzo-ashv]

Finding My Way Forward

I don’t even know where to start. Life has been throwing punches lately, and I’m just trying to stay on my feet. If you’d told me a year ago that I’d be packing up my life, leaving LA, and starting over somewhere else, I wouldn’t have believed you. But here I am, completely uprooted, heartbroken, and trying to figure out what’s next.

The fires took everything—our home, our sense of stability, the place where Brady and Aspen felt safe. I keep telling myself it’s just a house, just things, but it doesn’t make it any easier. Brady keeps asking when we’re going back, and I don’t have an answer. Aspen is too little to understand, but she knows something is different. I see it in the way she clings to me a little tighter at night. I hate that I can’t fix this for them.

The only thing keeping me sane through all of this has been Shay and Jared. They didn’t hesitate to take us in, to give us a place to land when everything was falling apart. I don’t know what I would have done without them. Having people who show up, who don’t make me feel like a burden, has been the one bright spot in all of this.

And then, there’s Jensen.

I really thought we had made peace with each other. Co-parenting has been messy, but we found a way to make it work—for Brady, for Aspen. So when I found out he was filing for 50/50 custody, I was completely blindsided. No conversation, just a text that he's already talked to his lawyer and to expect paperwork that changes everything.

It’s not that I don’t want him in their lives. He’s a good dad, and I would never take that away from them. But we had an agreement, a rhythm that worked, and now he’s flipping the script like the last eight years of compromises never happened. Like my opinion, my sacrifices, don’t matter.

And, of course, he’s engaged. Again. To Nina.

I shouldn’t be surprised. But I am. Maybe because this isn’t just about his fifth engagement—it’s about all the promises that never seemed to mean anything in the end. When he first told me Nina was pregnant with Matilda, it shattered me. I tried to act like it didn’t, like I’d moved on, but deep down, it broke something in me. And then he showed up at my house that night—frustrated, emotional, nostalgic—and one thing led to another.

And suddenly, there was Aspen.

Sure, I didn’t tell him right away. Jared spilled the beans before I ever got the chance. But I think some part of me held onto the idea that Aspen was different. That she was meant to be the last piece of the chaos between us. That, no matter what happened, she would be the one thing we could both hold onto.

But now, Jensen is talking about having more kids with Nina like none of those promises ever existed.

I don’t know why it still stings. Maybe because I believed him. Maybe because, despite everything, I wanted to hold onto something special between us. But people change. Promises fade. And I guess I was the idiot for thinking things would be different this time.

So here I am, trying to rebuild a life I didn’t expect, in a place I never planned to be, while juggling heartbreaks I didn’t see coming. Some days, it feels impossible. Other days, I remind myself that I’m stronger than I think.

At the end of the day, I have Brady and Aspen—they’re my whole world. No matter what happens, no matter how much things change, they’re the one thing I will always fight for.

And that’s what keeps me going.