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two different lines i came across on the interwebss that has really kept me going because it ended up altering my brain chemistry fr

"everywhere you go, there you are"

"all that exists is now and your awareness of it"

ugh i love it.

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i sometimes forget how brilliant my brain is. like, my brilliance catches me off guard so many times that it makes me wonder if i am dumb for not noticing.

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thers's this thing (my academic degree) i've been working towards since the last 6 years. it has broken me completely. and it has also made me into the person i am today. i'm still learning to love all parts of it. because it is a part of my life, and that too a significant one. so hating it would mean hating my life and i love myself far too much to hate this life

but it's also so damn lonely here, i really just want someone to hold me sometimes because this is so fkn hard and i'm so so tired to my bones of trying to be strong and keep going.

i know i will get through this because the finish line is visible, but gawddd it is so fkn difficult to carry myself while i wipe my own tears. i don't know how much longer i'll have to be strong.

and i also know no one is coming to save me. because in this life, no one ever comes to save you. you are always the one who has saved yourself and you have to continue doing so because one day, all of this will be worth it and you have to make yourself proud.

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note to self

“Please stop destroying what is left of your heart by constantly thinking about things that have broken you.”

— Unknown

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i'll pull myself together.

i've done this before. i can do it again. i've got this. i gotta be strong.

i've to remember i'm god's child. i know i wouldn't have survived without him.

i'll be okay.

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i'm really tired

but i gotta keep going, i can do it. just one last time.

i'm getting distracted and i can't do this to myself again.

please be with me, god. please.

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this is exactly how life feels in my head sometimes now.

i wish i could go back to last year and tell myself that it'll be okay, i'll find myself.

i'm so glad i kept going when all i wanted to do was end everything.

tatyana alanis

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sdjcbahdcbasdh AAAAH THIS MADE ME FEEL THINGS

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i've got paragraphs in me about literally everything hehe

growth is saying “ok” when you know you got a paragraph in you

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dear lord, i see what you've done for other people and i want that for me. amen.

when she moans “right there” and then he replies with “right there?” in THAT voice >>>>

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i am a whole universe in my self. and you are a whole universe in yours.

individually, we lack nothing. together, we can become something greater. without one another, there's simply nothing missing.

i've always been aware of the fact that society makes us feel incomplete if we do not have a partner. i have always found the idea of being incomplete without someone to love me and call mine, as absolutely absurd.

i remember vividly how back in high school all of my girlfriends were just obsessed with finding (and wooing) guys to enter into relationships with. and that always made me go????

why do you feel so comfortable in attaching your worth and gaining validation from the fact that you have a partner?

you came alone in this world and you will die alone. this is not said to sound gloomy and lonely, but to embrace the very truth of life.

love is worthwhile. i was, am and always will be a hopeless romantic.

i've had two close affairs with love and both have filled me up and shattered my heart but i still will choose to love till my dying breath.

this in no way means that not having a partner makes me feel half. oh no. even the thought of giving space to such a notion in my life sounds blasphemous to me- to who i am and what i stand for as a person.

i know the love i carry in my being is deeper than the deepest oceans of the world. i know my light is the brightest fkn light in this whole world. this is my statement, my fact-of-the-matter. i know it because i have felt it. i felt it when i simply chose to pour it all in from a very young age.

of course, i long for someone's love atm. but that's because i found it adding value to my already very full, flowing and scrumptious life..

i have never been half, i've never been a part of something other than me.

that's why i know that when i am pining for someone's love, it's simply because i like the idea of what it adds to my life. nothing's missing. if you come and choose to love me, it's an addition in my life that i will wholeheartedly accept and nurture.

if you decide to decline my love, i will simply say your name every time i pray and thank the universe for making me feel more love in an already vast ocean i was living in.

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weee

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be poetic. if you find the way the light falls through your window and onto your bedroom wall pretty, write about it. call it soft and golden as sunlit honey. if it makes you glad to be alive then it’s not silly. you look for the beauty of things, be proud of that. say the heavy rain is kissing you. write about the glow of the moon, the dancing of flowers. make your world magical. collect your metaphors and treasure them.

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Your hand touching mine. This is how galaxies collide.

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hold me like you did that evening, and then never let me go.

(i'm afraid ocean vuong was right, i miss you more than i remember you)

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i don't dream of labour. but i have somehow chosen an academic degree that'll make me a corporate slave. oops.

why can't i just be a homemaker, married to and raising beautifully chubby babies of a beautiful, beautiful gorgeous man who's obsessed with me. huh.

the streets are not for me, i belong in my room sleeping