#and the harder I lean in to working

[istra-ish-sucha-geek]

One of the things that is a point of contention between the Hobbit and myself, is perfection.

We both grew up poorer, in large families, but my family was poorer and food insecure.

We both had abusive families, but his parents were mostly neglectful, and mine were exceedingly controlling.

I was the oldest, and a girl. He was exactly the middle child of seven, and a boy.

I do things right, and generally I do them right the first time.

I have an incredibly complex and mentally exhausting method to make sure that if I try something, it will Not Be Fucked Up.

Because growing up, fucking up had consequences like being beaten, or not having food to eat.

I also never had the unsupervised time he did to wander around and goof off, try things out, take chances or make mistakes.

This causes a lot of anxiety and frustration in me when he doesn’t do things “right,” or makes “mistakes” or lets things go, because YOU CANNOT DO THAT! And also if you do that; I HAVE TO PICK UP THE PIECES!!!

Neither of which are necessarily TRUE, but gosh it causes a lot of turmoil in me.

[turtleblogatlast]

Don’t think I ever quite said what my LGBTQ+ headcanons are for the boys, so these are my current thoughts! Always changing of course but this is what I feel most strongly right now.

[chiropteracupola]

a few friends from the Wood and the Riverbank

[mando-abs]

Guys, I’ve read the Wild Robot

And let me tell you, if I hadn’t recently taken a Children’s Literature class in college, I would’ve said this was the best middle-grade book I’ve read since elementary/middle school. I almost read this book in one night (I was sleepy 😴) like I couldn’t put it down.

The heart behind this book is astounding and it never shies away from showing complex and difficult concepts. You will fall in love with Roz and her gosling son along with all of the other animal on the island.

If you’ve got younger ones, I highly recommend reading this to them or having a little book club moment with them. However, be prepared for whatever hard questions may come your way (i.e. circle of life and climate issues). You know your child and how much they can handle/understand. If you’re like me and much older, it’s a quick read and a great way to finish off a long day. It’s a part of a trilogy and you bet I’m patiently waiting for my hold on a copy at the library.

If the movie is anything like the book (which, given a rewatch of the trailer, it’s looking like so), we are in for a special treat.

[roseyswords]

Vengeance saga Thoughts/ more specifically 600 Strike thoughts

SPOILERS BELOW

So I like many others have a bit more complicated thoughts about the ending of the vengeance saga. But I come out of it with ultimately one feeling on top of the others which is respect. I have a lot of respect for this ending as an artist.

Sure there are parts of it that I find a little ridiculous (ie.the jet pack fight), but there are other parts of it that I love so much ( ie. The stabbing scene).

Because at the end of the line it was a choice that stands where it is even if it might be divisive or not quite what everyone wants from it. Which is fine honestly, it is more than fair that not every fan is on board with its decision. Because art isn't supposed to make everybody like it, it's supposed to make the people that like it love it.

Jorge has been very open about his anime inspirations for the musical, and it's written all over it. And here is where it makes itself known the strongest in an unmistakeably strong way. It wears its inspirations and heart on its sleeve and basked in it.He invoked the rule of cool so hard this saga. And as an artist, as someone who loves making stories and loves the art of storytelling itself it makes me really inspired. I love and respect the hell out of seeing an artist go this is how I'm going to make my story go, because this is how I'm going to be happiest about it.

And it is perfectly fine for people to see that and say that they did not like where that decision went. To say this isn't for them. The people that don't like it won't like it and the people that do will love it.

[insteading]

In preparation for moving I'm trying to see if there are some boxes-- especially ones I didn't open after the last move-- I can toss rather than relocate. And, welp, I just opened up the box marked "research writing." This is not all the writing-- I've got creative writing notebooks dating back probably to 1987-- but it's the most fraught stuff. There was a time when I thought I'd be an academic, and tossing out the academic writing I was proud of feels like a very real goodbye.

I do not think much of my 19-year-old self's argumentative skills-- ONE good point in five pages?, c'mon honey, you could do better than that if you started writing a paper earlier. And her writing is pretty self-indulgent. But I appreciate her verve?

In my uni's Shakespeare class, we watched the Luhrmann Romeo and Juliet, and I commented on the mannered camerawork by saying Juliet's mom was reminiscent of "an amphetamine-crazed turkey." My teacher justifiably wrote in the margins, "HAVE YOU EVER SEEN SUCH A BIRD??" Joke's on him, though, because I've lived most of the last two decades in a city where there are occasional flocks of turkeys who frankly could get their pointy little beaks on meth if they were so inclined, and who are flappy and aggressive as fuck. And damn if I don't still stand by that as a description of Luhrmann's Ma Capulet.

[markerofthemidnight]

Tinky’s True Form

And here’s the boi! Tried to make it as close to canon (or at least to what we saw in the Killer Track) as possible. disgusting stinky little boi

[lostjudgmnt]

doodled amitie while with my partner yesterday ^_^ shes there twice for sizing

[id: a somewhat messy pencil sketch of amitie as she appears in puyo pop fever. she is shown from the shoulders up. she is wearing a wide-necked turtleneck tanktop and her signature puyo hat — a large, circular hat with eyes. since its her pop fever design, the hat has little wings. amitie grins widely. end id]

[heartorbit]

never discouraged

[ssspringroll]

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[torchickentacos]

winter depression is here and I am ANNOYED about it

[divinekangaroo]

Started reading Lymond Chronicles after @deadendtracks' comment that SK must've read them too / based Tommy on Lymond....

and like i'm what, at ch3 or 4 maybe and...

yeahhhhhhhhhh XD

[optiwashere]

Regardless of my opinion about the song itself, the new Unleash the Archers video is making me a bit rabid to see them live again. Their shows are fucking killer. Plus, Brittney and Scott were very sweet when I got a chance to chat w/ them at a merch table a handful of times.

Also, last week's new releases didn't quite grab me so I never did a ramble about that lol. Really hard to top that Isenordal album...

[coffee-at-annies]

#18 + sidgeno (or whoever sparks your interest tbh!)

SidGeno always sparks my interest :)

18. Go Easy by Matt Maeson

This one is injury fic. I think it could go either way but I’m a Sid girlie at heart so we’re gonna go Sid-centric. I don’t want it to be retirement fic so instead I think it’s concussion era SidGeno.

This is a song about pain. It’s a plea for wellness and if not that, then comfort, but primarily it’s about pain. This is all from the POV of the singer asking for care — ostensibly from a partner —but struggling to move past his pain to accept it. It’s as much an acknowledgement of the singer’s self loathing as it is an apology for the way the singer acts when dealing with it.

My own reflection's making me sick/ I've been this way since my faith quit./ And I never asked for this pain/ It's taking me over/ It's taking me over/ It's making me colder (Oh)

Concussion era Sid who is hurting and he doesn’t mean to lash out at Geno/Mario/Flower/the team but it hurts. It hurts — it hurts — he hurts — and he’s not getting better. Every day he ends up back in bed with the blackout curtains, unable to even look at himself in the mirror cause that’s too much light for his head. He’s cold and shaky and it’s not just the nausea. He doesn’t want to be a burden. He doesn’t want to lose hockey. He doesn’t want to be in pain.

If I broke it, would you quit?/ Is this heartache we could fix?/ In the morning, when we wake/ When I'm sober, would you stay?

He is though. He’s all of those things. Facing that fact leaves him with self loathing so strong it’s all he can do to not lash out at everyone trying so hard to help him. Sid has so much support. So much help. He doesn’t want any of it. He would give all of it up if it meant he could play hockey again.

Please just go easy on me, baby/ Go easy on me, baby/ Can you understand it?/ I can't keep living for the damage

I’m not sure where we are in the concussion timeline re: Geno’s knee injury. This chorus feels like Sid and Geno leaning on each other, hurting and letting the other take care of them because they’re both hurting. They stay together because Sid refuses to be a burden and Geno doesn’t make him feel like one. They fall into bed together because of course they do. They’re both looking for care, for healing, and they’re hoping to find in in each other. They do, for a time. Then the season ends and they go their separate ways.

My own deception is moving too quick/ I tried to love and I lost it./ And I never wanted to change/ It's taking me over/ It's taking me over/ It's making me colder (Oh)

Geno gets better. He recovers from his surgery in the off-season. He gets back on the ice. Sid… Sid doesn’t. His head still hurts and his stomach still swims and he doesn’t get better. He pretends that it’s okay. That he’s fine. That he isn’t burning to get back to hockey or he isn’t monstrously jealous of Geno. The season starts and Sid isn’t there to start it.

If I broke it, would you quit?/ Is this heartache we could fix?/ In the morning, when we wake/ When I'm sober

This is set deeper in the timeline. Sid is still too sick to play. He’s tried to come back to practice a couple times and he’s failed. Maybe he’s even played a couple games. Geno moved back in at the start of the season but is he staying because he loves Sid or because Sid needs someone to take care of him? Does Sid know? Does Geno?

Please just go easy on me, baby/ Go easy on me, baby/ Can you understand it?/ I can't keep living for the damage

This chorus is just as much about Geno as it is about hockey. He’s hitting the point where he can’t keep living for the sport. It’s been too much time and too much pain since he last played hockey without this weight around his neck. He gets back hockey. We know he does. He doesn’t stay back though. He’s back in Pittsburgh and so are his symptoms. Throughout it all they persist and he can’t do this until they’re gone.

Can't change me, can't save me, can't blame me/ I know love/ Can't change me, can't save me, can't blame me/ I know love/ Can't change me, can't save me, can't blame me/ I know love/ Can't change me, can't save me, can't blame me/ I know love (Love)/ I know love

There is no savior coming. Geno can’t fix his head. The pain is just there. Hockey is the source and the reason and for once in his life he can’t will his way through. Practice won’t help. Playing through it won’t help. Nothing has helped. He’s still concussed. He loves hockey, he loves Geno, and it’s not enough.

Please just go easy on me, baby/ Go easy on me, baby/ Can you understand it?/ I can't keep living for the damage (Oh)

Go easy on him. Be gentle with him. He loves two things, hockey and Geno. At the end of the day, end of the season, he doesn’t know if he can keep either of them.

Send me a number 1-100 + a pairing and I will tell you what song it corresponds to on my Spotify wrapped AND give you a 5 sentence summary of a fic based on that song

[kittlyns]

One of the cars on my watch list sold today :c

[seithr]

Randomly remembered the half-reason i call my oc-verse by the name it has while laying in bed. One-half of the reason i still knew, but I had forgotten what had truly, really cemented it jointly until now

(it was a song from my favourite band I haven't listened to in a while.)

(the song fit so well at the time, still does, that i needed to hold onto it for the main protagonists forever, by partially naming their story in reference.)

Does this explanation make any sense? Does anyone know why I'm tearing up remembering this. Aahh