#and so. i struggle lmao
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rrrrrrrrr im so frustrated with my writing. its just been weeks of struggle and whyyyy. idk i think i need to rework or rethink what im going for with this one or something, its like i can feel the threads of the themes i wanna do are sooo close to tying together but it just isnt quite reaching yet and so it reads like a stilted bland mess but the more i stare at it the further away it feels aaah
i know it can get there i kNOW it can, the ending and like aha moment is so cleaaaar that i think its almost too solid and thats why my beginning feels so fucked—like i just keep asking myself 'well if hes gonna get there in chapter 5, whats stopping him from getting there now in chapter 2??' i tHOUGHT i had reasons but now that im there i just keep instinctually writing him to have the connecting/realization moment anyway and like. if that's how it is then what even IS the story??? i need a break
#leaving for my parents for christmas tomorrow and while its always a little lowkey stressful there esp during holidays#itll be nice to at least have a different stress than this one for a few days lmao#mandatory writing break coming at a good time ig#anyway a lot of the real problem is that a big reason i wanted to write this fic is bc i wanted to explore tsukkis mental space during#the ball boy arc bc i feel like its an interesting transitional time for him in terms of like being after his big moment but then#he slightly regresses in that post match bathroom scene until yamaguchi sets him straight and like. i love just how furudate is showing#that growth isnt linear and so i wanna explore how tsukki would feel during the camp (which he didnt seem stoked to go to)#and in contrast with hinata who couldnt go but weasels in anyway and like how does tsukki deal with#that intensity of stupidity and passion in regards to how he feels about his own relationship to volleyball now#like i dont think its a straight line from blocking ushijima -> admitting yeah sometimes volleyball is fun#i think theres some wavering in there and oooo i wanna explore it but FUCK its hard??#why furudate why does tsukki deny extra practice the first night of rookie camp but accepts the second night??#i know why he accepts night 2 im excited abt that. i'm big time struggling with pinpointing why he says no night 1 in a way#that doesnt come off like 1 hes fully regressing 2 like im having him say no purely bc thats how it is in canon so magical ~plot reasons~#truthfully furudates reason is probably just 'was funny to have tsukki and kunimi say no in unison' and it isnt out of character for#tsukki to say no either but i also can feeeel it i can feeel the threads of a solid character developmental reason that will fit with#all the OTHER stuff im also trying to do lmao#i just need to piece it together in the right way in the right order and right emphasis#and its so cloooose rn but ugh it just feels wishwashy atm#and so. i struggle lmao#eesh anyway fun tag rant yay#heres to hoping not thinking about this for a week will help#x#....who wants to take bets on whether ill delete this later lol
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winter time ❄️
#hes so pookie#i dont draw him enough so i struggle w his hair LMAO#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen#jujutsu kaisen fanart#gojo satoru#jjk gojo#artists on tumblr#my art
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Join us and die 🧟♀️🧟♀️🧟♀️
My piece for @trafficzine 5th edition!! Go check out the whole zine 🫵
#dddaily4sherin#day 343!#secret life#secret life smp#traffic smp#trafficblr#geminitay#ethoslab#impulsesv#bdoubleo100#pearlescentmoon#goodtimeswithscar#smallishbeans#grian#bigbst4tz2#tangotek#skizzleman#itlwart#scott smajor#zombiecleo#aka EVEYRONE IN THAT SESSION HRLEOJAKAKW#THIS WAS SO FUN TO DOOO EVEN THO IT WAS A STRUGGLE LMAO#an honour to be in this zine fr i hope you guys like this :DDD#my art
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ARCANE LEAGUE OF LEGENDS: 2x06 - “The Message Hidden Within the Pattern” ↳ "Hope I was worth your time."
#DID SHE HAVE TO GRAB CAITS GUN SO SEXILY THO.......... HELP MEEEEEEEEEEEEEE#also i struggled coloring this scene lmao i tried#ok gif spam for the day is done im gonna go get some rest#arcane#arcaneedit#vi#vi arcane#arcane vi#arcane season 2#arcane s2#arcane league of legends#league of legends arcane#league of legends#type: gif#media: arcane#s2 ep6
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You think Pyramid Steve to Bill is like Doodlebob to Spongebob or something like that
#gravity falls#my art#fan art#doodles#art#pyramid steve#gravity falls bill cipher#bill cipher#bill gravity falls#remind me to never draw those human bills again btw it was... a struggle LMAO#like design wise and everything theyre aight ig but MAN its just so. Off for me-#this is why i keep my boy as a shape bc although i CAN draw humans i HIGHLY prefer simple shapes/objects instead#glad i was able to squeeze this out just before uni starts again#xiakeik arts#id in alt text
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[ID: A mostly cool colored, digital three page comic of teen Gojo Satoru talking to young Tsumiki Fushiguro. Page one: Gojo makes a sandwich for Tsumiki who's leaning on the kitchen island. Tsumiki says "Thanks for the snacks, dad" and Gojo responds "No problem, Tsumi." In the next panel Gojo complains "Man... I wish Megumi didn't hate me so much. At least you call me dad..." Tsumiki comments "Megumi does that too, though?" In the third panel, Gojo activates his Six Eyes like a flashlight and yells "When!? Where!? Do you have it on camera!?" to a surprised Tsumiki. Page two: Tsumiki thinks about the various times Megumi has called Gojo 'dad,' including when Gojo gave them a bad hair cut, when the divine dogs bit Gojo, when Gojo made soup, and lastly when Megumi asked Tsumiki to ask Gojo to make snacks which is all represented in blue tinted drawings. In the last panel she has a devious smile and is labeled "8 yr old who just realized how funny she can be" Page three: Tsumiki cheerfully says to a gleeful Gojo "In your dreams!" The second panel shows them zoomed out with a lighting strike going through Gojo's shattered heart while Tsumiki has a cat like smile. In the third panel with a light orange background, Tsumiki is smiling while Megumi comes up behind her and asks "Why's dad crying?" /End ID]
Before this happened
Edit: It has kindly been brought to my attention that Tsumi means sin in Japanese I'm so sorry Tsumiki I should've taken five seconds to check I just wanted matching nicknames with Gumi 😭
#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#gojo satoru#tsumiki fushiguro#megumi fushiguro#fanart#art by this machine#daily doodle:#062#minigumi#dadjo#i'm not very happy with the coloring and rendering tbh#but i don't really make colored comics so you know what ? it's still a win cause making this was hard lmao#i struggled so hard with this lmaooooooo#i'm going ot go back to medibang i can't stand procreate for comics tbh#if you made it this far into my tags hello !#bonus context: tsumiki asked gojo for snacks cause megumi asked her to#FUCKING SOBBING#/light hearted#best of this machine#comic by this machine
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the dialogue choices in this game should be more diabolical
#i love akechi but i sometimes i wish you could bully him like no matter which dialogue u pick it sounds like ur flirting back w him#“i'm going to be completely honest with you. i've always hated you” why can't u say smt unserious back#like “sorry i have a snatched waist and correct opinions on everything.” or like “ur loss lmao”#hate playing darts with this bitch bc i play on a steamdeck and i don't have a fucking gyroscope so like#it's trying to replicate how the joycons or pro controller would throw AND ITS SUCKS SO BAD#like i just see akechi get a hat trick every single fucking time with three bulls in a row and meanwhile im struggling to line the thing up#and then after u finish he's like “hmm i see. that's an interesting way to play it” WHAT THE FUCK THERES LITERALLY NO STRATEGY HERE SMARTAS#I JUST MISSED. IM NOT STRATEGIZING. THERES NOTHING “INTERESTING” ABOUT IT.#i hate going to penguin snipers so much i hope i can get this stupid game on switch so i can actually rank up akechi's baton pass#and not waste like 1000 yen every night bc i refuse to not let a party member be on rank 3#akechi fuck yourself why can't we play 501 like we do with everyone else. why do u have to make everything abt this stupid rivalry#im gonna kms i hate akeci and i hate darts#persona 5#persona 5 royal#p5#p5r#goro akechi#ren amamiya#akira kurusu#shuake#akeshu#lotus draws
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#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt#rottmnt donnie#no real context lmao#just found an ancient sketch of this and got out of nowhere motivation to finish it#thinking abt the way i used to treat myself in the past is very bittersweet#cuz i lost sm time worrying abt my skills and presentation and restricting myself a lot and demanding so much out of myself all the time#i still struggle with it#but at the same time looking back fills me w pride and love for both my current and past selves#theres a lot of growth and progress there#and past me wasnt half as bad as they thought either#never be hard on urselves gamers#go out there embrace the world embrace urselves
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@hot-scarian-summer-2024 - Day 4
The Countless Stars in Heaven's Field - Wishing on a Shooting Star - In Orbit
a kiss in the sky
#trying out a new style :)#and avoiding drawing people kissing LMAO#desert duo#scarian#grian#gtws#goodtimeswithscar#gtwscar#fanart#hermitcraft#i can't draw ppl kissing on the lips the faces look weird as shit AND YET im a shipper artist 💀💀💀#the struggles#so sorry for making this stuff late#i'll try and finish up yesterdays later and theres a very small chance i will be able to do todays#paper->digital is so much fun and it always gives really cool textures too#hotscariansummer2024#nhyhu.art
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advocatus diaboli
#baldur's gate 3#bg3#karlach#tiefling#barbarian#bg3 fanart#bg3 karlach#bg3 art#userpharawee#stuff and things#ugh idk I'm struggling with my art a bit lately and it's. fcking annoying!!#so this clearly isn't finished (whatever that means)#but I don't hate how it looks yet#so I'm just quickly going to throw it out there before I can start to overthink myself into disliking it lmao#easing my way back into liking what and how I draw. slowly but surely#anyway. karlach!! I still love her
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sasuga my ace detective mind-reading soulmate, I knew I could trust you
#p5r#akeshu#shuake#art tag#persona#i completely forgot about the jazz club until the end of the game#i still cant believe this happened#what a coincidence#i couldnt have planned it better if i was following a guide#anyway he knows me well#he knew i was gonna invite him anyway#but obvs he has to make the first move#i have so much more dumb stuff to draw from my playthrough#lmao me tryna play the new game at the same time#what a struggle#anyway my joker is not as suave as he thinks#canon is ok but MY canon is forever lmao
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"Huh? You got a weird email from me yesterday? U-um, yeah, about that... My account was hacked, so you can just ignore it."
#mob psycho 100#mp100#kageyama ritsu#reigen arataka#hanazawa teruki#comic#teruritsu#riteru#(if you squint)#i struggled A LOT with this comic for the past several months so i'm happy it's finally done!!!#inspired by a chain email my friend sent me in 2010#and also i'm just a huge fan of ritsu being Dramatic.#(also also sneaking in teruritsu crumbs for myself and like. the 5 other people who love this rarepair lmao)
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Happy World Turtle Day, have some catchphrases!
#this took me#SO MUCH time lmao#i struggled a lot with the rise crew#and i know it's not perfect but i eventually just needed to call it done#so it's done#despite the imperfections i am super proud of this#it was an... ambitious project for me#tmnt#teenage mutant ninja turtles#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt#tmnt 2012#tmnt 2003#tmnt 1987#world turtle day#drawing#art#eldritchart
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English Teacher (2024) - season one episode one (pilot)
#english teacher#brian jordan alvarez#english teacher gifs#this was so much goddamn fun!!#ok maybe i oversharpened it a bit#gifmaking is a constant struggle lmao#tvgifs#tvedits#bitchsleep gifs
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a small silly comic for the pain sharing curse au before I throw the really painful comics at y’all
(I also didn’t feel like coloring this one)
also can confirm, my baby cousin once said I was super cringe and I haven’t recovered since :(
(wind apologizes later though since his grandma raised him right)
#linkeduniverse#linked universe#lu wind#lu wars#lu warriors#lu four#lu sky#lu twilight#wars cares about wind’s opinion of him cause that’s his baby brother#like twilight can confirm that looking cool and dependable towards ur younger siblings is super important#so when they get to that age when they no longer think you’re cool man that HURTS lmao#also STRUGGLING to draw four and sky they elude me so much#it’s why I don’t draw them that much but I gotta change that#wind thinks you’re cool and that ur scarf is pretty wars I swear he’s just being moody#like who wouldn’t in this situation lol#lu pain sharing au#miry's art
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Step Forward - Part 3 They are going on a date!!! Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4 Check out my tags for fun facts XD
Kofi
#perryshmirtz#heinz doofenshmirtz#human perry#phineas and ferb#perry the platypus#human!perry#human perry the platypus#agent p#fanart#dr doofenshmirtz#dr heinz doofenshmirtz#pnf fanart#pnf fan comic#disney fanart#disney series#fan comic#comic#artists on tumblr#prtz long comic#So sorry I took so loong#step forward#I struggled with composition and well anxiety lmao so thank you for your patience#Perry does talk in this story#He starts talking when he calls Heinz's name and asks him out#If you dont like talking Perry you can pretend that he signs all the time#selective mutism#The book/notebook doesnt hit Heinz's foot#I kinnda wanted it to happen but I didnt want to make it longer than it was#just imagine him being all shocked and then his book hits his foot and starts screaming while Perry patiently waits for his response#I have some of the script for the next chapters already
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