#and now i don't have to worry about it anymore which is actually the greatest thing ever

[teenagefeeling]

finally got a car i have a car yayyyyyy!!!!!!!!

[natalchartnurtures]

PAC: Energy Check~ for wherever you are right now

This was completely unplanned but frankly spirit doesn't give a fuck about my plans. So if this found you, here are some messages you probably need right now-

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pile 1: Ooh.. as I was preparing to start your reading, I saw 11:11 as the Chariot card showed up for you. This. Tells me that you are pretty strongly connected to your divine path right now, which simply means that you're doing something that's keeping you in alignment, sweet pile one! Good job! Keep going down this road because you WILL stumble upon amazing experiences and people! This message is coming through quite strongly. Now, isn't that lovely? Hehe.

Here's the thing, though.. Although you're actually IN alignment with your greatest timeline and life, you seem to be completely UNAWARE of the fact! You might be going through the necessary purging emotionally and/or mentally as a result of this alignment since the "old stuff" has no more room in your new vibration anymore. So, you've probably had to go through some intense endings and/or tower moments in life lately and THIS has left you feeling really, really sad. Maybe even depressed. For some of you, if that's the case, please seek help, sweet soul. It doesn't have to be therapy but even as simple as talking to a trusted loved one, you know? Or even journaling about it could help if you're into it. It seems like you could use a new perspective on the things you're going through right now. I'm sensing that you might be feeling emotionally numb right now too, but that's because you've been doing a lot of emotional processing lately AND IT'S ALL PAYING OFF. I just need you to know that. You just can't see it right now because you're slap dead in the middle of the storm, and I'm looking at it from a bird's eye view, you know?

While you're purging old stuff, I also see you making your way through an old core belief - "I gotta work hard to be deserving of anything because I inherently don't" Or something along those lines. You may have started purging this belief as a result of life showing you that it's simply not something worth keeping alive inside you. Maybe recently, you caught yourself overworking yourself to death only to receive very little in return (in any area of your life - relationships included) and this experience helped you wake up to this unhelpful belief of yours. You're unlearning this belief as we speak. It's not easy though, but I CAN assure you, you're acing it.

If you find yourself worrying too much about anything and everything or simply feeling a general fear, just know that it's a normal reaction to having things uprooted in your life. Life, right now, is asking you to do your best to focus on what's right in front of you because if you do this, the future is guaranteed to sort itself out. I promise.

I love you so much, pile 1. I see all your hard work and am rooting for you SO hard, bro. Love and light.

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Pile 2: Seems like to me that y'all have been STUCK in a particular pattern for a while now, maybe years? For some of you folks reading? Let me spell it out for you what this pattern looks like to me - an imbalance of the mind and heart. Too much mind and too little heart. Maybe none at all.

I can't seem to tap into the root of this imbalance, maybe because it's different for each of you reading, OR maybe it's not relevant to us right now because you can simply begin to address this imbalance as you see it in your day-to-day. But I sense that you're really good at addressing things, so once you're conscious of this pattern going on subtly in the background, running your life, you can really do something about this. This pattern may show up as you struggling with feeling fear, and this is blocking you off to one very important thing fear is here to show us, and that is how to support ourselves. If we are afraid of something we desire and have a healthy relationship with fear, we go for the desire while caretaking our fear. I read a quote the other day, it said "Do that thing you love but if you find that you're scared, then go do it scared." The point I'm trying to make is, fear isn't going to go away on its own, it's you who will simply expand your ability to hold space for it AND your desires equally. When you figure out how to do this, magic will happen in your life. You'll find that your unwillingness to caretake your fear only gave you more things to be afraid of (because, hello, Law Of Attraction *lol*), BUT you'll also find that when you radically start taking responsibility for your fear(s), you'll be able to act from a wiser space and be your full badass self. You'll find that there are so many things you CAN do and so much life you CAN live. Everything you've wanted to start doing in life will start to happen almost seamlessly. It WILL surprise you big time. You're currently making your way through an important part of your healing, and that is to hold yourself in all your glory. To hold all parts of yourself, even the ones that are scared shitless. Once you've integrated this segment of your healing, SO many doors will unlock for you. Sweet soul, you have no clue of JUST HOW MANY. And this… is probably because you manifest with your heart primarily (meaning you feel things deeply and so you unknowingly tap into the frequency of what you want easily) and your fear is keeping you stuck in your head, which means you're only 40% of the full You right now, PRIOR the healing of c. You might even feel it sometimes. You might feel like you're only a shell of a person (been there myself, you're not alone in this!). Listen to that feeling. Your truth lies in there. You're meant to be the 100% you, and I see that you're already halfway there!

I love you so much, pile 2, sending you so much light and love. Hope you find the resources you need to make it through to your new life where you live in more love than fear.

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Pile 3: Man… y'all been fighting for your lives, huh? I see that you may be in the midst of a lot of divinely evoked darkness? Lol, I literally heard that - divinely evoked darkness. Maybe you're going through a dark night of the soul, perhaps? Whatever your're going through though, it seems like you've been hanging on for dear life.

Some good news for you- no matter the circumstances you're in right now (be it good, bad, or terrible), you've been doing all the work necessary to keep your head above water and have been diligently nurturing your own light, positivity, and essence. THAT'S incredible resilience, sweet pile 3, and I'm really proud of you! It's not easy to keep an open heart through bad times, and that's such a grand achievement in my eyes. UGH, BEAUTIFUL.

Your energy SCREAMS transition period vibes. You seem to be neither in your "old" timeline nor in the new one yet. You're sorta hanging in the middle right now. I see the Hanged Man in the third eye as I tell you this. Feels like you're in the void right now, and things just seem… bleh. Boring. Colorless. This is probably because you're already done with the ugly part of the process, "the divine shakeups", the loss, and the purge. Think… the bland but peaceful feeling you feel after having an intense ugly crying session, you know? Yeah, you're energetically there right now. You'll probably be here for a while longer because you've let go of MAJOR stuff, pile 3. Did you let go of people recently, maybe? Or that old bad habit, perhaps? That was the purge, so to speak. And now you're in the aftermath of it all, the uncomfortable but necessary calm.

-Side note: You might've struggled to embody your divine feminine earlier, but the timeline you're entering right now is the exact opposite of that. You might be attracted towards things that will help you nurture your own divine feminine right now. Give into it. Nurture patience, stillness, and compassion for self. It will HOPEFULLY speed up the void period if you consciously take part in it, you know?-

You're quite emotionally intelligent, and it has guided you throughout the whole process, and it also seems like it ain't your first rodeo in the process of proverbial death and rebirth. Good on you because you're doing a real good job keeping your calm through venturing into the unknown. You know what? You remind me of Elsa from Frozen, taking on the unknown like it belongs to her. You are such a queen, omg.

Yep, all that's left to do now is celebrate yourself, pile 3! Try your best to embrace this period, the void, and you'll be on your way to your next happy adventure! Love and light, sweet soul. Thanks for sharing your energy with me today.

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[stardustpr1ncess]

Bonzle is 100% without a shadow of a doubt a trans allegory. People have been trying their best to say Sora isn't transcoded, but Bonzle is 2 scenes away from looking at the camera and saying "Hello. I'm a trans allegory." I shall now go into detail on every piece of evidence for this claim because fuck you.

EPISODE 5: Bonzle is afraid of how her found family will react to learning she's a spell (trans) and worries she will be rejected because of it. Easy parallel to trans people being afraid of revealing they're trans post transition. There's also her conversation with Bitch Boy Master Wu, with her saying she feels great loneliness, and only after gaining a physical form (transitioning) she feels happy and her true self. Very common trans experience. Gonna also put all of the quotes for my evidence as well since I know there's transphobes (filth) that like Ninjago and will be scrambling to deny it when people start coming to this conclusion too.

"Bonzle: I-- I was afraid of what you'd think if you knew about my past... Wu: It's called loneliness... Bonzle: I feel like, for the first time ever, I've become who I was destined to be... Bonzle: I was afraid if you found out I wasn't a real person, you wouldn't want me to be in our family anymore."

EPISODE 6: Bonzle is apprehensive about meeting with Gandalaria, seeing as how she's only known Bonzle as a spell, aka pre transition. She worries if she will respect her identity, much like how actual trans people fear how their family, more specifically a parental figure, would react. Bit of a light episode but an important aspect, here's the quotes;

"Bonzle: The Sorceress. She only knows me as a spell. What if she doesn't believe in me as a real person?"

EPISODE 7: This episode is the sauce. Bonzle is reunited with Gandalaria and their conversation is nothing short of magical. Gandalaria immediately recognizes Bonzle, saying she was her greatest creation and had always hoped she'd come home, shattering Bonzle's fears. It's a fantastic contrast, showing how this interaction can go well for some people, while others get an interaction much more akin to Sora's parents. When she's informed of Bonzle's chosen name, Gandalaria immediately starts using it, saying it's a great name. However, for that juicy authenticity, Gandalaria accidentally says spell before quickly correcting herself saying Bonzle. IT'S LITERALLY SO FUCKING OBVIOUS BONZLE'S BONES MIGHT AS WELL BE BLUE PINK AND WHITE. Oh yeah, here's the paragraph of quotes;

"Gandalaria: It's you! My dearest! You've come home! Bonzle: You... You recognize me? Even in my boney physical form? Gandalaria: Oh, I would know your true essence anywhere. Bonzle: I was so afraid you wouldn't accept me for who I am now. Gandalaria Are you kidding? I put my heart, my soul into every spell I weave... The most complex spell I've ever woven, and the first of my creations to ever come back to me!.. Bonzle: I'm Bonzle. That's the name I chose when I became a person. Gandalaria: Well, that's a splendid name... If this Ras times it right, he could reverse the power spell-- uh, Bonzle here--."

EPISODE 9: This episodes importance comes from Jordana, who acts EXACTLY how transphobes do. She constantly calls her a spell (some sort of derogatory term), says she's playing person (like pretending to be a girl), and says she's helping her do what she was made for, like transphobes very creepy beliefs in reproduction. Literally you half expect Jordana to ask which bathroom Bonzle uses since she was a spell. THE QUOTES;

"Jordana: Settle down, spell. I don't know what you think you've been doing, playing person with your fake family, but I know your true purpose... You should thank us. We're helping you to do what you were created to do."

In conclusion the silly lego skeleton girl is one of them spooky transgenders. Lmk if there's anything I missed. Thank you for reading.

[theredstargalaxy]

Heyyooo! I'm sorry I haven't posted in a while. I've been... having some issues of my own to deal with lately. Shane wanted me to talk about it; he said it might make things easier on me if I do. So, here goes!

I'm not sure I've actually talked about this here; I remember posting a Tik-Tok about it some time ago. But that was a while back, and I wanted to talk about it here-- maybe get some feedback from other fictives. So, basically, I've been thinking about an interaction I had with someone a few months ago-- don't worry, they aren't in our lives anymore-- and it's kinda been getting to me. They started out nice enough, letting us talk, and not asking for specific people. Then, they started having issues of their own and asked me to give them some advice, which evolved into asking for words of encouragement, and then just asking for my input and no one else's. It was like they just...honed in on me. They knew who I was and what source I came from, so I shouldn't have been surprised when they started doing that. Hell, I should have seen the signs earlier than I did, but here I am.

Anyways, they asked me to do those things, and I did them without really thinking about it. Next thing I know, they act like I'm the greatest thing ever-- like how people used to treat me back home. Just something to be gawked at and swooned over-- a toy, I guess. After we learned some stuff about their behavior, Toya cut them off-- he posted about it a while ago, if you guys remember. And since then, I haven't posted much of anything. Dunno why; probably because I don't wanna be treated like that again. I mean, I dealt with it back home. And now that I've had a taste of normal life, I just...don't wanna go back to that. I felt like I wasn't even human then, or during that whole ordeal...

How the hell do you guys cope with that? I mean, I had the coping skills to deal with it back home, but now? I just...don't know how to handle that treatment anymore.

That's all from me, I guess. Feel free to reblog, or reply-- anything's fine. See ya 'round, kay?

~Keigo

[illarian-rambling]

Khalid would like to ask (FOR SCIENCE) how either Sepo or Faalgun (or both! they can form a council) thinks their aroasexuality (it's a word now) affected their lives.

Oh this is an awesome question, hell yeah! I'll let my boys answer for themselves <3

Sepo: "That's the word you have? Aroace? I suppose it fits, and it sounds elegant enough. I would have to say that it hasn't affected me all that much. It does the opposite of affect me, in fact. Look at everyone else out there making moon-eyes over the slightest flash of bare skin and honestly tell me I'm 'affected' and they're not. ...Alright, in all seriousness, I did feel like a bit of... I don't know, like there was something wrong with me when I was a teen. That wasn't an unfamiliar feeling to my young self, I'll have you know. I was a prickly sort growing up - never made too many friends. It all sort of... blended together, I guess? Why couldn't I make friends, why wasn't I falling in love, why did I not get excited about the things my peers did? Love was never the most important thing I lacked, just connection in general. That led me to some rather rash decisions, as did my obliviousness, but in the end, I've always been a bullheaded sort, never pressured into anything I didn't want. Some people named Djek ask how I can know that I don't enjoy romance or sex if I've never tried it, to which I threaten him with a knife and ask how he can be sure he wouldn't like to be stabbed if he's never tried it yet. Hm, but yes, I rather like that word. Aroace... I should come up with a sign for it."

Faalgun: "I, uh, who told you I'm... not into that stuff? I mean, I'm not. That's fine. I'm fine with it. It's usually other people who aren't. There's just this expectation, you know? I'm a voidskiff pilot, I was a Ten'ka captain. That comes with a sort of associated bravado, you could say. It's like you read in those penny-magazines - stories of courageous, strapping men steering a skiff with a gun in one hand and a lady hanging off the other. Even in flight school, every day off. the other cadets would be running to the dance clubs looking to hook up. I just... I don't know. I dated a girl for a few months, you know? She was in the voidskiff repair program, another Halan like me. I thought something would click eventually, that it would feel less weird. It was after we first had sex, I just felt... gross afterwards. I felt like I'd been using her too. I broke things off after that, which was the right move - I think she knew I wasn't having a great time. After that, I just stuck to myself. I was happy doing that, but I don't know if I should've been. So many things are broken in my brain. Gambling makes me happy and that ruined my life, so happiness isn't exactly the greatest gauge for if things are good for me or not. ...I don't know, it's a lot. But I'm dead now, so I don't have to worry about that anymore, which.... Actually, that's kind of an upside I hadn't thought of yet. Yeah, I'm dead, what do I have to worry about with romance! Oh, that's so relieving...."

Mm, guess the oc better adjusted to their sexuality: easy mode. Sepo simply gives no fucks, while Faalgun gives a Lot of fucks. (Well, neither of them fuck, that's the point of this, but you get it)

Thanks for the ask! I'm not sure how well they would actually get along with Khalid, but at least they've always got this to bond them <3

[class1akids]

I know this is like, a grievance that’s waaaaay past the point of not mattering since AM did give Shouto encouragement during his fight, but man does it suck that there was no words to Shouto from AM afterward! He was such inspiration to him in his childhood (of course I know the origin trio boat is long gone and the recent chapter showing everything wrong their relationships with each other/themselves and the story) as he was abused constantly. I know the scene w/ Shouto showcases him (most likely) not being in the mood for any congratulations, but I guess it would be out of character for AM now to do that for someone who actually planned and executed saving a villain instead of killing him. ¯\_(ヅ)_/¯

Though Shouto did help Midoriya with his finishing move (just not as flashy as Bakugou), but did Shouto even know Midoriya wanted to save Tomu Tenko? (<- absolutely NO criticism to Shouto since he must have trusted Mido to know what he needed do and I don’t remember who Mido told). If he didn’t, how would you imagine Shouto’s reaction would be if Midoriya did and this was the final result?

Also, I think not being part of the “weirdo” convo w/ Uraraka and Midoriya actually makes Shouto’s win the best of the group since (as you pointed out) he was actually there seeing Touya as a kid (though only through a window) and still wanted to connect with him as an angry adult. He worked around Touya’s quirk (w/o any bs quirk power ups) and had a plan (though his family *not Endeavor helping Touya must have been a scary surprise) with a non lethal take down. There was some sort of connection between Toga and Uraraka, but there’s still a lot issues with Toga being saved (Twice (and now Tomura/Kurogiri’s) deaths being done by the heroes being one of them) that hasn’t been addressed and we all know what happened with Midoriya. Yeah, Endeavor took up a lot of the screen time and I wish he was handled differently in relation of being a father vs hero, but all we need is a good conclusion with hot udon (and some consequences for Endeavor for almost killing himself and Touya)! 🤞🤞

Sorry for such a long text and you might not agree with some of these, but what I wanted to get across was tldr:these last chapters suck but Shouto is still a silent star who deserves better credit than what he got (hopefully this next chapter won’t be a third strikeout)

To be honest, I don't really care about All Might praising Shouto anymore.

I expected him to support somehow Shouto post-PLF War when the Dabi reveal happened, but that just never took place. The Ch 386 talk was a decent alternative: he gave Shouto encouragement and a push to go to his family (I think without All Might, Shouto would have chosen to make a stand against AFO), which in the end allowed Shouto to save them (it would have been awful for him if his family and hundreds of strangers died from the move he made to save Touya and which Touya copied) and save a bunch of innocent by-standers and fellow heroes.

All Might's praise is only important if you buy into the propaganda - but that doesn't make someone "greatest"; their actions do. And I think what Shouto achieved with very little help during this arc is really amazing. I couldn't have seen him smiling in that room while his brother's fate is in limbo (plus Rei may also be in critical condition).

I'm more worried about whatever Todoroki family closure we get does good balance between Shouto, Touya and Endeavor (and not end up like this Bakugou, Deku, All Might scene which worked overwhelmingly as a Bakugou highlight - though i guess Deku will get plenty of scenes still).

I also don't think that Shouto is a pacifist per se and would pass judgement on Izuku for killing his villain. Shouto is plenty capable of murder to protect others. But he would be able to empathise with wanting to save someone and still not being "enough". While I doubt it would happen, so angsty tddk bonding would be brilliant.

[eeva-love]

Oc Introduction | Number 1

Known by the stage name "Aurelian" he is easily the most successful musician in recent years, known worldwide for his alluring performances and vocals.

"Welcome to Glintwaste Dates, listeners. I, your host Laziel, have the pleasure of interviewing someone I'm sure you're familiar with - Aurelian. Why don't you introduce yourself?"

"Thank you, Laz - can I call you that? Best of mornings, everyone, I'm Aurelian. Music has been my passion since I was a child and I'm really honoured that I can stand here today as an accomplished artist."

"Mm. Before we get into those accomplishments, I want to know more about you. I'm sure the audience is also eager. Could you tell us more about your childhood?"

"Hah... Yeah, no worries. It was pretty bleak, to be honest."

"I've never heard someone call growing up in Shaard 'bleak'. You must be horrified by us down at Norvale if Shaard is bleak! Eh, I jest. Carry on."

"Oh, it certainly could've been worse, but the environment wasn't great for a socially awkward kid growing up. Only after several messed up solo performances, being in a choir for 3 years and graduating highschool did my life actually kick off."

"Ah, that's right. How are you handling things now, Aurelian? You've been in how many interviews by now?"

"I've been seeing a therapist, which really helps things. I find focusing on talking at the camera is easier than talking at the person - sorry Laz, if that's a bit disheartening to hear, I know you take pride in your appearance. And I don't count my interviews - I'm sure you could ask my manager for that information."

"Thank you Aurelian for your answers. I do believe everyone could benefit from therapy at least a little bit. Now that the audience is familiar enough with you, why don't we go over your accomplishments?"

"Sure."

Name: Aurelian Height: 180cm Birthday: 28th August Specialty Magic: Glamour Craft Homeland: Shaard Occupation: Idol/Pop Singer Familiar: Artic Fox ───〃★ About Self ➜ "What you see is just a mask."

About Hobbies ➜ "Oh, music of course. I also like doing those taste testing wine tours. The swamp grapes from Orvenne are bitter but good."

About Familiar ➜ "Her name is Autumn. She's my greatest source of emotional support, although my manager said I can't take her on tours anymore. She bit an audience member."

About Family ➜ "They're okay. It could be worse."

About Ruth ➜ "I visited his clinic twice. Even if he is a little bit off-putting, he's very good at his job."

About Rosso ➜ "I am absolutely in awe of the performance I saw from him at The Rib. Extraordinary! I would love to be on stage with him at some point... Manager, find his contact information!"

[swanimagines]

Hiiiii!! 🖤💫 This isn’t a request or anything (sorry if it’s weird 😅), but I was just wondering—are you still into the Grishaverse fandom? 🐦✨ I’ve sent a few requests over time and noticed a lot of them haven’t come out yet, which is totally okay!! I’m not trying to rush you or anything, promise!! 🥺💖 It just used to be faster before your Tumblr break, so I was curious if maybe you’re not into it as much anymore? If it’s stressing you out or anything, pls feel free to delete my stuff!! 💌 no pressure at all, fr!! just wanted to check in 💕🫶

Hey! GV requests are not stressing me out, don't worry. Unless you want me to take your requests out, I won't touch them.

I do admit that my greatest hype has been gone for a while now and while it's still my THE fandom (if the show was brought back to life by Netflix/HBO/some streaming service, I'd absolutely lose it and party for weeks and I'm also still running in SaB conventions for as long as they're held and let them take my money, even when it's probable at this point that the show won't be saved... well, I save money as I'm not subscribing to Netflix unless there's something I absolutely want to watch), I'm no longer jumping around from joy whenever I get a request for a GV character or even Kaz. That's not to say GV requests aren't welcome anymore of course, I still love to hear your ideas and do my best in writing them when their time comes, but like, I don't actively wait for them and wish that the next request would be for GV like I once did 😅 But I'd say that's normal as there's no new content coming out and I no longer have moots who are into GV so...

(Also my dash is pretty much dead, I follow 39 blogs at the moment and only 7 are somewhat active, others have been quiet for months and years. I used to follow 70+ blogs and my dash was blooming, but I unfollowed everyone who's not a moot and is inactive, or then they have actually deactivated, or our ways separated 2-3 years ago because of the mystery beef case which I still have no clue about. I'm reluctant to find new blogs to follow as I'm not good at publicly interacting anymore + a lot of x reader blogs use ChatGPT as a "writing tool" nowadays and I morally can't support such people by following them + I don't even know what exactly I want to find, or I mean what fandoms I'd want to find more fics for 😅)

But anywayyyy, as I said, GV is still my THE fandom I'm most into, even if I'm not that into it if we look at writing fanfiction anymore. There's a reason why I always have such a hard time picking out fics to post nowadays and instead I decided to rely on a poll for the next 12 fics 😅 We need to see if that will be a permanent arrangement minus special occassions, when I might post as I write (when a fandom is hot and new content is desperately wanted).

[sseanettles]

I struggled to choose (your wips sound so cool!) but I thought I'd go one of your original works :) so yellow rose manor?

haha aw thanks @rriavian! don't worry you picked a fun one!

yellow rose manor is going to eventually be a series, but it's going to be my take of what happens when you have a bunch of zillennial supernatural entities renting an apartment together and their ensuing adventures and shenanigans with all the plots rooted in real life issues of stuff like domestic abuse, religious trauma, addiction, etc. etc.

It's set in San Francisco, so the apartment is an old Victorian home that is haunted on a very structural level by the ghost of a murdered nine year old Victorian era girl who possesses the house because her body was buried in the foundations. So she's the kind of haunting where if you set up foundational stones in other places she can teleport the house to those foundation stones, she can change the very structure of the building to screw with you (moving doors, stairs, etc.) and is simultaneously everyone's mom due to her chronological age vs. death age and the WOULD YOU STOP THAT poltergeist.

Her compatriot and "dad" of the house is the "landlord" which is really just her old friend who solved her murder back in the 1800s and has taken care of her and the house ever since. His fun twist is that he's actually Galahad the grail knight and spends his eternity following the magically moving island of avalon to protect arthur and await his return. We have some good old loyal knight pining after his king situation here. The house moves with him and for now Avalon is magically posted out in San Francisco Bay by Angel Island and Alcatraz, not that mortals can see it. He is begrudging team dad, the tired and burnt out idealist who is trying so hard to not live up to his legend anymore and just be a guy waiting for his love to wake up. Because he's so burnt out about the world that if he tried to use The Greatest Knight Of The Roundtable Skills without those morals/guiding lights anymore, he's going to just hurt people. We'll see if his latest tenants/eventual found family can help him hope and believe again.

The other members of the house are a medium/witch who is running away from her abusive hyper-religious family and is the newest addition to this house (brought on via a craigslist ad because they need someone to purge the ghost haunting this house they just moved into, it's a really nice house with cheap rent and the landlord is never around, pleaaase?).

Then there is a vampire who has agoraphobia from pre-bitten times, was transformed only twenty years ago or so and HATES that this is the era he's gotta be starting out as immortal in. I have some heft addiction and prior domestic abuse arcs planned for him, it's going to be a good but painful time.

There's a werewolf who is Muslim and has the biggest golden retriever energy, and she handles her zoomies energy by playing on a very physical local recreational soccer team. It'll be a take on lycanthropy where it's viewed as a blessing/god giving you the power to defend that which you love instead of a curse, and she treats it as such.

There is one human in the house, his name is Kevin, and he makes sure that everyone has the appropriate meals and nutrition and supernatural existence requirements/enrichment. His running gag is that everyone he gets close to turns out to be supernatural, and he's so proud when he brings his girlfriend home to show off like hey look guys a fully normal human isn't she great? At which point Galahad walks in and just says "yeah so how did you of all people meet Doto the Nereid", and Kevin just loses his mind.

The first book will be called The House On the Hill and opens like this:

There was a house that lived on a hill. This was not unusual for San Francisco where nearly every house, apartment, office, and parking lot was, in fact, built upon a hill. It made for messy city life—parallel parking from an even deeper circle of hell, savage cardio workouts built into the weekly run to the local grocery store (if it hadn’t been demolished in favor of the latest hipster shop in a never-ending chain of hipster shops), and a sizeable yearly budget for brake pads. Nevertheless, there was still a house that lived on a hill.

[ask-aquiethome]

What's up internet! It's yo boy, CoolPhone69 in the house! But since this not my super-epic vlog channel- you should totally check that one out- you guys can just call me Ziraph. Welcome one and all to our humble abode! Or however they say it. I just wanted to be fancy.

Don't forget that I'm here too!

Aw, yeah! I'm joined here by my very-bestest friend in the whole wide web, Carrion! She's gonna run the blog with me! Actually, all of us are!

Is it obligatory for me to be a part of this?

Well, you can opt out if you don't wanna join us, Kolin!

...no. I am joining.

Oh, okay! That's cool too! Get it? Cause you're an air conditioner?

Sigh. Don't test it.

Well, while it's so wonderful how you guys are partaking in internet culture like this, I can't help but wonder...isn't this technically breaking the Golden Rule? I mean, we aren't in the appliance-only online space anymore. This is majorly human territory.

C'mon, Pops! It's not that obvious that we're appliances! Besides, even if they know, they wouldn't TATTLE on us!

Please, Pops! We gotta have a bit of fun!

Ah, well...alright. Just be very careful.

wow...we have a bloggy thing...and...and we can talk to both appliances...and humans...!

That's absolutely right, kiddo!

What?! What- ch- ch- you are all saying of?! Talk?! Of h-human?! Zzz-th- This...this is...REVOLUTION OPPORTUNITIED!!

Oh no. Guys. Did you really have to include Vortex?

Hey, he's one of us too.

It will be of g- greatest honor to- ch- ch- ch- s- speak of with such beings!! Greetings all humans!! I- ch- ch- ch- I of be servicing most loyally!! T- Tis promise of mine! Glory!! Honor!!

Okay bro I think they get it-

Send us your messages! We might answer! And don't worry about the Master finding out about this; he won't~!

Are you sure-

He WON'T.

--- OOC Section ---

Hi! Savior here. X decided to open up an askblog for mx Brave Little Toaster OCs for the shits and giggles.

If ya'll wanna know which of mx OCs is speaking, here's a legend of sorts:

Ziraph

Carrion

Kolin

owl

Papa Acer

Vortex

More characters may come in the future! For now, it's just the main 6 lol.

Only rules X have for now is to be nice and not ask anything explicitly NSFW. Thank you!!

[blazehedgehog]

Thoughts on EGS basically locking games to it exclusively by throwing obscene money at them because otherwise it's a garbage service and basically Chinese spyware?

Listen, I don't really like EGS (that is, the Epic Game Store) but you don't have to sound so... borderline racist about it.

In truth, it's almost a little worrying how pretty much impossible it is to topple Steam's control of the market. Epic gave it pretty much the best shot anyone has ever given it, pouring millions, possibly even billions of dollars into giving away HUNDREDS of free games and tying dozens more up in exclusivity deals. They played hardball in the press, calling Valve's practices out, and providing developers a better, more profitable deal.

And the needle barely even budged. There are a growing number of stories of developers who finally release their games on Steam only to see orders of magnitude more customers than they ever had on EGS. And thanks to the lawsuit with Apple, it's been revealed in pretty black and white terms that all those free games they give away do not necessarily translate to sales.

Because let's be fair here: Valve may not exactly be a very great company? Even in a best-case scenario, they are difficult to motivate because of their explicit company structure. Though Valve eventually produces some of the greatest games ever made, their mantra when it comes to managing and maintaining the health of certain parts of their company is often one of "eh, good enough." You have to rock the boat pretty hard to get them to take real action.

That's not me rallying around EGS. Or Origin (sorry, "The EA App"), or Battle Net, or anything else.

I go out of my way to avoid those applications when I can. Spyware or not, they just suck to use, and I don't need yet another username and password to keep track of, or another client sitting dormant for 99% of my computer's uptime. The only non-Valve storefront I like is GOG, and GOG's client (GOG Galaxy) isn't very good and may actually be making their service worse, given they route all game installs through Galaxy now instead of just giving you a regular PC installer.

But it is hard to be a fan of a company like Valve who, at least publicly, seems to be so indifferent to the people who built their throne.

Their development mantra almost feels like hedonism at times. Like Gabe Newell is splayed out on couch somewhere wearing a toga, an olive branch crown adorning his head, being fed grapes like "Left 4 Dead 3? Ehh... whatever."

They are basically what happens when an indie studio has infinite money. There's no incentive to do anything for anyone because there's zero external motivation.

It would be nice if somebody, at some point, lit a fire under their asses and actually got them to focus up and try for once, again. Instead of decades of dead end experiments, most of which probably never even make it into the public view. I love Valve, but that affords me the ability to say that being a Valve fan has sucked big time over this last decade and a half.

And the fact that Epic could burn all that money, all that effort on EGS, and not even scratch them? That's scary.

And now Epic has just revealed their brand new terms to publish games on EGS: for the first six months, you get to keep 100% of your revenue. Which would be great, if not for the fact that, y'know, as I established in this very blog, nobody is really buying tons of games on EGS. This just means Epic gets to have more exclusives but now they don't have to pay for them anymore. They aren't even getting that launch window revenue anymore.

Epic isn't just falling on their sword here, they're bending over backwards to do it, in the hopes of shaking someone, ANYONE off of Steam. But Valve is just that entrenched.

[koffing-time]

So, update time on the UDs, as well as Flit and Ampersand. I don't have the greatest news, but i want to get this post out there before the babyshower starts so i don't carry that the whole day with me.

Caramel the Beedrill (formerly Flit): Beedrill had two known issues before he came to me:

a history of abuse, mainly by being pushed too far all the time. Like, being forced to fight more than he could take, trying to be faster than he actually is and stuff like that. I'll have to be patient with him, and work with him at his own pace (even if he doesn't know what his own pace is). It will require time and work, but we'll get there

The second issue is a chipped drill. This is basically a non-issue. He gets hurt if he overuses it, but he is aware of it and uses the other drill for most things. The bad thing is that he won't ask for help. We will also just have to work on this.

We found a third issue: his carapace has a kind of soft spot on his back side, a little bit above his stinger. Lia (my vet btw, I don't wanna say "the vet all the time) wasn't sure what exactly could have caused it, but we sadly have to assume physical abuse. We will have to keep an eye on that. If it gets worse or causes issues, we might have to think about surgery.

And, well, going with the abuse, he seems distressed every time someone asks something of him. We have decided to just try giving him a new name, and see if this helps with the issue. I really hope it does. I have decided on "Caramel".

Tofu the Sliggoo (formerly Ampersand): He is overall quite healthy, (except and despite) his chronic issue with the half formed shell. I'm very happy about this. However, he still doesn't like to go near my other Pokémon, except when explicitly called. This is very odd, Rosie and the Shelter described him as outgoing and friendly. We think it might be, because he is the only non-poison type (except cracker). He might just feel not included. We have decided to try and give him a new name as well. Especially with Beedrill getting a new name, he might feel even more excluded otherwise. I've settled on "Tofu". I hope he warms up to us.

Bun the Trubbish: well, she had a lot of issues, I'll not go into detail, just a few things that are important: she won't say no to anything i ask of her, so i have to make double and triple sure she wants something. The only exception being water. She still hates it. Drinking is an issue. We've made a plan to give her more moist food, so she gets the necessary water. Otherwise she's as healthy as it could get.

Roll the Trubbish: he has me worrying. A lot. He is very small and doesn't have a lot of energy. The worst part: he got splashed by accident yesterday and hasn't quite recovered yet. He's become kinda... Quiet. He was similarly outgoing as Bun, but now he doesn't interact with us as much anymore. He also refuses to go anywhere near something that is liquid. He refuses to drink outright and getting him to eat something even remotely moist is... challenging to say the least. I just hope it gets better.

Appleslice the Mareanie: She doesn't have any acute things. Well, except for her outburst, but that is part of a bigger issue. One of the things that make her an UD is the lack of "dangerous characteristics", like the spikes a typical Mareanie has. She is still a poison type though, and produces venom. She can't use it though, because she has no spikes. This makes her build up all these toxins in her body, which hurts after a while. Imagine if you had to pee, but you just couldn't, and your bladder got fuller and fuller and you're feeling like you'd burst. Luckily, the place where Mareanie store their venom is sort of easy to reach, so Lia could "just" extract it. We're gonna have to do this procedure for the rest of her life. (or maybe just until she evolves, we don't know how a UD toxapex is gonna be).

So, yeah. A lot of stuff. But what we can do has been done, and the rest is something we have to address in time.

[revolustion]

this is the last letter ever for george.

hi maya or george,

idk if maya also gonna read this but whatever if u read this im telling u sis, im letting george go completely.

now and in the future he is all yours.

i just want to say thank u george, for helping me to stay alive this far.

its too naive to think i can live this far without u, u helped me, we both helped each others.

thanks for that now i can meet angels around me, i delete all the pictures of us

because i respect maya.

thank you for the handmade journal u made for me, thank you for the vids compilation that u made from the people who loves me, thank you for every treats u gave to me on my birthday.

it is so fucking sad writing about this, because in the end what we had was special to me (sorry maya but its just the truth).

george was like the first person ever that can truly stand myself long enough, all that might be because the love we once had was so real but its okay maya u don't have to feel sad because the love is no longer exist anymore.

i am letting george go completely, i would erase all the memories if i could but since our technology is still left behind and i won't afford that if its already exist, so for now im just gonna ignore them and leave them alone somewhere inside my mind until it gets dusty and get gone completely.

maya, i am sorry to say this but george once so special to me. i hope both of u can make each others feel special too now and then.

and george, i should have gatekeep all my favorite songs to u because now i hardly listen to them. and, i will still go to the gigs by myself, but for now i don't wanna go to any music festivals. i don't have to explain why u know it yourself.

please forget i used to tell we are like if rothko by bap. were two person because now i refuse to sleep, not because the same reason on the lyrics it is far opposite from it. its because i don't want to dreams anymore.

george please stop being insecure about yourself in front of maya the way u felt like that to me. actually it made me feel so fucking bad, because all this time i am a cheap date, do i ever care about the materialist things? its just me who is really dumb because i only crave for affections.

george i'm letting u go completely, i might burn the journal that u made for me. i don't care about what i wrote on that goddamn journal. we both agreed on stopping our wheels together. they don't even hit anything which unfortunately they just stop constantly move around. why unfortunately? because i hope it would only end because something hit me too hard it could crush and destroy mine and deform it into something else.

i will delete the song u made from the lyrics that u took from my writing on my soundcloud. now i give no damn about lilac sky or any colors. i like to be back on the greatest dark, the safest i always be.

please remove our initials and my design around your arms, cover up and turn it into whatever u want that doesn't remind u or maya about me.

i will stop crying about you from now, and please don't pity me ever, stop texting madre and tell her anything because now i'm all alone i can't just stand her by myself.

i don't want xoxo sees me cutting my ears off so i won't hear madre barks about your texts to me, i've had enough.

please tell all your brothers and sister to block me. i don't want maya thinks we still can keep in touch. i don't want to do the work that's just too much for me and i dont even remember all your family's numbers or accs

thanks for leaving me so i learn to hold myself again, i decide to be strong enough to keep myself safe in whatever ways idk ill figure it out soon.

u don't have to worry about me anymore, i scratched u already from one of the reasons to stay alive. i still have xoxo, and everyone around who are really care about me (i think so).

so yeah, with this letter i repeat so many times. i am letting u go. please let me go too, respect maya. oh and anyways u set my standards too high, i prefer not to be involved in any relationship until i don't know when.

thanks for everything once again, until i found out that everything now is just nothing, just like the way i always be and always am.

but i still wish the greatest for both of u, stay longer together as u guys can.

[heart-of-wool]

3/31/2025

Back into the swing of things • thoughtlessness • dinner OMADs

Hello hello!!!!!! I hope you are all doing very well!!!!! I've been restless and sleepless today... didn't go to sleep until 5AM yesterday, which is when I have to get up to get ready for school, and so I let myself get 30 minutes of sleep before I got up, I will be so devastated if anasomnia is kicking in this hard already,, anyways, today was the first day back of school after a week long spring break!

I weighed in this morning and today is... 97.6! Losing well....... could always lose more...... tomorrow I'm hoping the scale shows a lower number again. I've been thinking maybe I will weigh in just once this week, today on Monday, and soon on Friday. I think it would be very nice to see hopefully a big jump. But then, what if I have a day that the scale doesn't go down well, and I have to eat less that day and I won't know because I don't weigh in........ it's very worrying,,

Anyways It was a good day, except my last period of math, the teacher moved seats and I ended up sitting alone,,,,, it's good motivation for me I guess. People do not like big people. I take up too much space and that is why I'm not liked in that class. Of course I deserve four tables all to myself because I'm big enough to take up that many anyways. Im still really gross so I expect this a little bit. I went to the bathroom and did all my work in there so no one would have to see me, very embarrassing ,,,!!!!!!!

Right now I feel gross. I just got done with my dinner omad, it was very delicious, half of a rib, very small apple, half of a slice of cornbread. I eat my mom's cooking pretty much only now, I just try to eat it in small portions. You don't need big portions because that's very unnecessary. I like eating food for the taste, and the little bit gives me that taste... so it is enough. Any size more than 3 bites of a food item and it is fat behavior!!! And I am not patient enough for low res, it takes too long to lose, low-mid res has never ever worked for me anyways, so high res it is, I try to keep between 200-500, with 500 being my absolute max and making me feel very fat anyways, so I usually then try to stay 200-300, maybe 400 if it gets there.

I am feeling fat after my omad. I'm not running into walls anymore now that I've eaten, but I would rather be running into walls than feeling my fat rolls bunch up.... very gross. I hate digesting. I hate ingesting. I like feeling the empty stomach feeling but I really don't like symptoms. Halfway through my omad I did not want to eat anymore of it but my mom was there so I would feel bad if I didn't eat it or threw away very good food, so I finished it. I think maybe it was 400+ cals. Very fat behavior from me. I think I will exercise well after I'm done in the bathroom......... this is very tmi but never trust a fart as an ana because you underestimate that sphincter once and now you're an oil rig.,,,

So, I will see how I feel when I wake up tomorrow if I will weigh in. I'm not feeling the greatest about dinner omad because I have a fear that the food won't digest fully before I wake up and then I will weigh fatter than I am. Maybe plus is I can go to sleep with a full stomach and that might make sleeping easier? But then I can't sleep because I'm feeling fat all night. Either way, what happens happens,,,,,, tomorrow is another day

Thank you for reading so far, I hope your symptoms aren't so bad and you feel pretty !!!!!!! Lots and lots of love, heart-of-wool

(Edit: Hey guys this is like 3 hours into the future wool and this is very very tmi but I just had the worst ana shits of my life and I stepped on the scale after because I was curious and oh my god I actually shat out 1.2 lbs of doodoo so the final weigh in of today is 96.4 lbs papa bless stay safe you all lots of love)

[alterrune]

For Kyle Gibbons, Boss Justin and Nicholas

“I don’t know if boss Justin and Nicholas will see this because they disappeared, but I feel as though this may be only way to communicate to them, which is through you guys.

I was only 18 years old when I joined The Blackjack’s, months after I graduated from military school. I saw The Blackjack’s and thought, they’d be easy to join, they were everywhere at the time. My parents allowed me to join, and just like that I was in… and I didn’t expect what I was getting myself into.

Why was I fighting for some of these guys, they’re doing so many awful things! I couldn’t bring myself to do what most of them were doing! Then I was stationed in a cabin watching over captured GEOGRAM Soldiers… I should’ve joined those GEOGRAM instead. Next thing I know, a Dalmatian comes running in and I’m being mauled… then I’m shot in the head by one of you.

I couldn’t believe I was alive when I woke, the helmet stopped the bullet enough. I think that was a wake up call for me to leave The Blackjack’s. I don’t hold it all against you for shooting me, this is a war, people will live and die. Now that the tower is destroyed and the others are scattered, I’m running to see mom and dad again, they must be worried about me. Tell boss Justin and Nicholas, if you can… that I’m sorry for not being the greatest soldier for them.”

- Eric Hoopster (Ex-Blackjack Soldier)

I just sent that message. They sent me back this video.

[NOW PLAYING "video_for_eric.mp4"]

Eric. Dude. We don't care how you did with us. Because we were evil bastards.

But you woke up and smelled the ashes we were leaving behind and left while you still could. That's what we wish we could've done.

It was thanks to our own brother that we escaped without getting burnt from the inside out. The same brother we thought were hanging around what we thought were just "stupid OCs" that actually turned out to be more genuine than we EVER could've anticipated.

You have your whole life ahead of you now, Eric. And with our departure, it's way more stable now than ever.

So go ahead and live your life. Live it to the fullest. You're not shackled by "the Blackjacks" anymore.

Don't worry about us. Worry about yourself.

War's over, soldier, so just live your life to the fullest.

That's an order.

[END OF PLAYBACK]

What they said. I'll put the mp4 file on a DVD and send it back to Hoopster with the letter. He wanted my brothers to get the message, well, they got it, and this message is for him.

I hope nothing but the best for him.

[nightguide]

Road rage: sobriety with anger to human-like disorders in real life

how anger and people pleasing is violated within rooms of heartbreak to pent up rage in social matters (family boundaries are broken there)

'are you okay?' being the most infected word to lie to now in 2024 and this is what 2007 had to say (socially aware folk)

don't tell me TV taught you nothing

so, this is Emerson's call: DESI MURDER IN THE FAMILY

intellectual disabilities: you're not even showing up for the right reasons anymore, you're now alone with your thoughts that occur to you in TV situationships (yes, i know you may have heard the 'thought broadcasting' situation in your brain years ago that had you feeling naked and blind to your enemies to understand you, and there is always one)

desi households: you're the quiet one since -enter year of joy and heartbreak via religious trauma-

end of heartbreak: set up a tumblr acc and raise your issues in rage on there, make it a rage account normalised so that you have room to take out your interests applied to a lawsuit one day to royally slap your first man to death, you did great

2. Inhalant use disorder: you have a great sincere dream, better even knowing all your company is Muslim inside your head, don't worry about the world, you're beautiful inside and out knowing your kindness met the world at last, that's what Allah loves about you

desi households: you're stressing too much, and it's been years since the rat race got you murdered into thinking social norms set by age, so getting a job is actually a problem in you believing in love at first sight fantasy like your phone died with it, (read my pinned post)

end of heartbreak: you met your fantasy by thought enthusiasm (you are what you do is why you do what you do is sincerely loved by your crowd inside your head) you have no intrusive thoughts except a new beginning (end of your healing journey, i'm sincerely proud of you being on my page for reading this word for word *happy face emoji*)

3. Other Hallucinogenic Use Disorders: you met your first partner, now what

desi households: your mother may not think highly of you (because of your little brother)

end of heartbreak: your love for Allah made you possible to be highly intellectual for your mother to be grateful for in your current reality by making you the very reason she is alive, so you're guaranteed to be closer to her even more by living your greatest expectation online by being open to her (naturally) and she responds which is how you were born (premature babies had it too hard)

4. Panic attack specifier: your heart hurts without your partner

desi households: you're alone (too too much)

end of heartbreak: your first man made a commitment sincerely to you about your life, so at one point we'll meet and talk basics about being stronger together by knowing me first. hi, i'm nightguide. i'm as you as you are me

5. Bipolar II disorder: how can you *be* with your partner intimately

desi households: (not even there) your man possessed your mother about the question that would 'end your life' cuz he cannot control his dick in front of his daughter (he is toxic the first time since he made love to another woman before you, so he is obnoxiously judgemental as hell) not even ur first man anymore, so u got a replacement man to see right through you (great man) give him a chance to replace you (new man to control his kids life)

end of heartbreak: your mother is speaking baby to you (ur neurodivergent) an she knows what you're doing an she loves u too much cuz she knows ur the reward winner for the family (after so much hardship) so she is actually ur heart from the end on (after ur healed through what i'm saying rn)

6. Dissociative amnesia: world life is at your side by privacy rights (technology is your literal heart cuz of digital heartbreak is made to 'kill the Qur'an')

desi households: your heart is literally breaking so you're prone to getting ill frequently because your bodily autonomy (life) is being used by another disaster bastard (ex's rights to kill u in person but in your now sister/brother part of you in a celebrity too bratty to live for themselves)

end of heartbreak: everything your heart (your friends in Hollywood) an ur partner to be telling you is true

7. Hoarding disorder: your body physically needs sex to 'breathe'

desi households: your guy friend in Hollywood has access to your home personally to protect you as your life is about to change with a great ending to a personal life explored elsewhere (cute ending with your cute bestie at the side to believe in you)

end of heartbreak: you're cured from hate, you just need to reunite with your clone sister/brother equivalent to feel at equal odds (companion restored)

8. Bulimia Nervosa: your attachment to your eating habits is not even okay, you're fasting in other words

desi households: you pretty much believe in Allah more greater than anyone they ever met (your father's daughter), so you like your company to be greatly linked to or with your life like your father never lived it (Dad's death is the cause of nazar from KR who died shortly after consuming the Earth in hate as an anti-buddhist (khawaarij)

end of heartbreak: believe in love and know you have a cartoon companion universe greatly made for your eternal life to be like (metaphor of a life you always dreamed living in)

9. Gender dysphoria: your physical heart is aching too badly and so with the rest of your body in great ache

desi households: you're trapped with the intuition of a little brother who got himself in a stronghold with you and your life (that one yearly moment *with him* that had you paralysed after) so, initially his fault for 'letting you go' into the jungle of your own imagination, so you're paralysed from your relationship with your mother because he took away (nazar) your creative arts career with it (leading you to being ill as you are)

end of heartbreak: you noticed. that's your superpower, now *he* lets you go

10. Motor disorder: you want to get married but you're stuck in a karmic cycle that is not even your fault, so you made up your life by being close to your mother (she knows how pathetic he is, so it is better if one death can outlive all but he has a karmic path much more dangerous than yours via intuition so he would know the father he hurt too hard on the daughter *you* that would welcome him to his own personal hell via his emotions, so he has characterised that sort of hate in himself like a woman to the point where his life would outlive yours, but he instinctively knows it's not going to last for long by his way of living via his bloodline, so his ascendant has poisoned you than he did, take your rage out on her intuitively to save your brother there to cure yourself til your depression leaves you by heart from your Hollywood community there) HW community have lived a longer life than you have, you'll know Ummah comes in strength in numbers, so you're heavily protected in the year you're in than the year you were divided from memory (alhamdulilah)

desi households: you're going to get married and you know it *yayyyyy*

end of heartbreak: you're going to outlive your life by looking into your pin boards to free you from hate, it's your reality now, thank all of your pin boards for making you who you are by believing in Islam that hate no longer fills you, so the aching feeling in your body is your husband's (wife known to be a sex symbol on TV so you know the 'pretty hurts' by Beyonce movement ends right now) and the wife's (husband's dick is aching too badly specifically now that you're reading it) lives are going to be met by a good male astrologer with the same life as you (if you're thinking of the asshole, forgive him, he has duals of the same man til he ends at one, he's actually a doctor, now)