#and needed to vent

[doctapuella]

i made my partner watch a bunch of recent aew clips tonight so that he will have some context for watching revolution tomorrow and now i have that disgusting feeling of having shared something i'm interested in and now i'm all vulnerable and have been perceived and even though he was nothing but great during the whole thing i still feel humiliated that i have interests

[manhattan-gamestop]

The fact that some people can equate an entire musical genre to just its stereotypes and never listen to it is baffling to me. Like no, metal isn't just screaming, country isn't just trucks beer and misogyny, rap isn't just sexualizing women and getting money. When will people learn to escape their comfort zone oh my god

[yvehattan]

Today has been rough. I am now comfort re-reading TBK.

Also, did you know that Marylin Monroe loved TBK?! I think she said if ever there was to be a film adaptation she would love to play Grushenka: I could see that.

[treesofgreen]

I find "Izzy hasn't actually been doing everything he says he has for Ed because he can't do it on the Revenge" a really strange argument because the Revenge and its crew are an entirely different world from anything he (or Edward) have ever dealt with before. They're through the looking glass. The laws of his reality don't apply anymore and there's a learning curve - of course Izzy can't "massage" a crew like this the same way he would hardened "real" pirates that act and react in completely different ways. It doesn't mean he hasn't been handling things on their own ship while Edward sinks deeper and deeper into depression leaving Izzy to handle things.

You don't think that might be depressing, or anxiety inducing for Izzy? To see the person he's closest to spinning out like this and to barely be able to help, if he's helping at all? To not know what else to do when this life is all they've known? You don't think this may have changed Izzy too? Made him even harder, even meaner?

I'm not blaming Edward, to be clear. It's not his fault. But it isn't Izzy's either. There are years and years of friendship and partnership here. But there are also years and years of pain and co-dependency and two damaged men who are both just trying to figure out how to survive in a world where "talk it through as a crew" isn't something that exists for them until Stede. Edward's trying to throw himself into the unknown. Izzy's trying to run away, clinging to the familiar. Both are acts of desperation.

[haterlesbian]

I am so Fucking Angry that there are people who just. Treat all of this pandemic shit as if it's nothing. Some of us are actually struggling and would like to come out of lockdown lmfao

Every time I have to hear about someone sneaking around to do shit with their family or friends I feel like I'm going insane. Are we in the same country right now? We have hundreds of active cases right now are you fucking serious??? Would you LIKE to end up like new south wales???????? That's where we're heading.

I understand that not seeing your family is HARD. I KNOW. I haven't been able to see my brothers, my sister, or my dad since this all started. I won't be able to until it's over, and it might not be over for a long time.

I got a letter from a doctor to say that my mother can come and visit and provide care since I am disabled, but we all know my history with her and it's not the same as seeing my other family. I feel like people are comfortable telling me they are breaking the rules because I get to see her sometimes, but like......... it's not the same my good bitch. I am legally allowed to see her. You aren't allowed to skirt around the rules whenever you want and I'm not fucking cool with it when you do.

Every day I sit here and listen to the new cases in NSW and Victoria. I am more afraid for my father and my siblings in NSW every day, the covid hotspots are near all of their homes. Every day I am worried because there are new exposure sites right in MY suburb. I feel like my brain is mush and my anxiety is at an all time high and every day the numbers grow higher and higher I feel like crying more and more. Sometimes I do cry.

I don't want to hear about your stupid fucking illegal family gathering. If I have to put up with it one more time I will actually snap and I'm going to end up with 0 friends LOL

[lafilleauverre]

why does everything that a woman does always have to be about men?

like, when a little girl or a teenager dislikes and keeps boycotting dresses or anything feminine, it’s either she’s trying to be one of the boys or it’s great because it’s a sign that she isn’t falling into “traditional feminine roles” or trying to impress someone (particularly a boy) — but once that little girl grows up and starts being more in touch with her feminine side, it’s a bad thing because “the patriarchy!” and that the patriarchy won, not because maybe the little girl who kept avoiding her feminine side because she kept getting harassed with “being too much of a girl” is now learning that being feminine is perfectly okay and fine.

does nobody even consider why so many young girls are vetoing being feminine or displaying any quintessential feminine traits and hobbies?

“you’re doing this to please a boy.”

“who are you trying to impress?”

“why are you so cliche?”

thank you but i assure you that not all women dress up to impress a man. they do it for themselves once they realize that hey! being womanly or being a woman isn’t basic or cliche, or a sign that the patriarchy won.

[emblazonet]

SIGH

My province’s lockdown is extended for another month. I’m so irritated because a) I MISS MY FRIENDS, b) afaik, we still don’t have too many cases on the island?, and c) so MANY people have been partying despite restrictions! We saw so many people gathering on New Year’s and I’m still cranky about it!!!!!

I mean, I know this is Important! I’d rather keep my friends safe than see them, for sure! But it sucks.

[carry-a-world]

okay screw this readmore wtf

it’s a real dreary ass thursday but I woke up from a dream where I got to hug my horse (she’s been passed almost four years now) and idk if you’ve ever gotten hugged back by a horse, where they really kinda hold you in return with their head/neck... anyway I’m pretty sure I was openly bawling in my dream because I was cognizant that she was actually already gone. and I woke up and I’m hm. you build a special sort of bond with horses, I think. she colicked and had to be put to sleep when I was away at college during what was like the worst semester of my life and I just... miss her a lot sometimes.

[hitmehardnsweet]

got home from work and read more about naya and saw photos of her with her son and felt like i got hit by a fucking freight train. the entire situation is so sad and makes me sick to my stomach. i feel so much for her baby boy having to go through all of this and potentially losing his mom. it seems hopeless at this point but i pray that they somehow find her alive. i haven’t followed much of what she’s been doing the last couple years but she was one of my favorites from the cast and santana means so much to me as im sure she does to lots of other queer folks who watched the show. i don’t have anything else to say about that that hasn’t already been said dozens of times but...idk this is just so tragic

[we-play-marbles]

You know what, allergy sucks so badly and here I sit, crying my eyes out, because my new, "stronger" meds are certainly NOT stronger or at least not strong enough and DAMN I hate June, it's the worst time of the year for me

[callonpeevesie]

Look, I know the Road to El Dorado is arguably problematic, with the 'white men are mistaken as gods' trope and the hypersexualization of Chel and I'm willing to acknowledge that and criticise it. But thing is, I still love the movie. The plot isn't my favourite thing about it, but the characters are irresistible. Seriously, they just bullshit their way through the entire movie, how can you not love them? Mostly they're just fun to think about (and ship).

Anyways, excuse my weirdness, y'all. I just wanted to get this off my chest.

[sunshinesteviee]

i get that everything sucks and like i get that sometimes you just don’t want to talk to people, bc i don’t want to talk to anybody sometimes, but like... i hate when people just like disappear and don’t reply for weeks. i’m trying not to be selfish or anything, because really i get it, but i just feel very unimportant to a lot of my friends, like they don’t care at all about me lol

[catsandcataclysms]

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[roxannepolice]

I consider myself an understanding person, believing in global peace and nigh-universal salvation.

Having said that, there must be a special place in hell for people who'd look at a perfectly fine suit jacket and go Oh I know what this needs! Fake pockets!

[riellion]

You never realize how lonely you are until bad things happen and you break down (long scroll)

It’s rare that I rant but I’m have a pretty bad time right now so I’m going to vent a little bit. Like how I think people should communicate. So today at work I went to work late because I was trying to stay with my mom that’s currently in the hospital and I did not get great news so I tried to stay with her for as long as possible. Also I have bad road rage and Minnesotans drive like they’re student drivers and elderly at the same time, also it was raining so they were even more terrible. I go in to amazon and like the abusive spouse it is where they have some good qualities they’re overall just not a great or healt hy experience, plus it was overtime and I myself am trying to get better after going to the ER for migraine and other health issues and my second cycle of period this month that won’t go away even though I should’ve been resting and I got almost no sleep because my mom was 110 miles away and I had worked the previous night for 11hrs. Anyways everyone gets it not a good place. So I go in and I’m preoccupied and sad and ready to burst in tears or anger and I make it through to break and I go to a very distant friend that I occasionally talk to because I have no choice, and I plop down and tell her that I’m worried that I’m on the verge of getting fired for being sick but it would be ok because I’m ready to move on from amazon because I did my time and they’re robots because they usually don’t care why you’re late they won’t let you stay home from work. And I’m general I went for a literal 2 minutes before the guy next to me who I thought was my friend was like stop whiny that’s all your doing and of course that set me off but I was trying to be as courteous and like understanding as possible but I was pissed. Anyways he was like if your not happy then that’s your own fault, and I tried as patiently as possible to tell him that I was going through a lot and I needed to vent a bit. But he was like well you’re bumming me out and whining and tried to tell me that even if I quit I wouldn’t find a better job and his dad died of cancer and I was like ok I’m so sorry for your loss but understand where I’m coming from and he was like no I only know how I feel. And I was like ok I’m a tiny 23yr black women that is and has been going through a lot of strife and mental abuse all of my life and I’m just trying to find an enjoyable job that at least won’t make me worse than when I walked in because I can’t take it anymore but I’m not saying I get fired. I told him there are some plenty of people here where it’s perfect for them but I need a happy place. Now you are a white older man and that’s as far as I got before he cut me off and was like why is that import?!?! And I was like if your stopped talking over me and you know what this is pissing me off, I came here to vent and get distracted by my friend Laur and you jumped in and decided to make me feel worse and interrupt me constantly so please shut up and let me talk to Laura, then I looked away and he sarcastically said oh sorry and stormed off and effectively just made my night so much more terrible than it needed to be that I almost cried when my manager finally found me, heard why my mom is in the hospital and sent me home.