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so i caved and made a journal page of the wayfinder,,,,,,
while i continue to make procrastinate on my first meet comic with her and ford, i figured i could make a little somethin somethin about ford's first impressions. and who knows, if inspiration strikes i may make more (like when he first saw her without the helmet, learning about the arms, etc etc) cause tbh this was actually really fuckin fun to do!
i figured ford had to have kept some kind of journal while traveling the multiverse so this would have probably been after the first week of meeting the wayfinder
close ups of the text (with transcription in alt text cause i also can't read the damn cursive lol) below cut!!
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#gravity falls#nell's void#gravity falls oc#gf oc#gravity falls fanart#oc: diane orosco#verse: find me at the height of noon#era: the wayfinder#stanford pines#ford pines#IGNORE THE “AFFECT” INSTEAD OF EFFECT IN THE FIRST PARAGRAPH PLEASE#I FINISHED THIS AT LIKE 1 AM#ford has no idea what the hell he's in for with the wayfinder#also the wayside (wayfinder's rest stop) hides at the outskirts of the nightmare realm#like right next to wear it's being destroyed#and moves as the destruction moves#which is why the place isn't familiar to ford!!#god this dynamic is gonna be so interesting i keep thinking of angstier and angstier ideas#they will know no peace!!!! they will be each others torture in the nightmare realm!!!!#digital artist#digital art
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I love when it's incredibly obvious that Damian misses Dick.
"...I'm glad you got out of stupid Bludhaven for a while. It... it's not the same without you."
#they make me so ill#a bunch of panels just popped up in my brain#and i don't have the energy to go grab them all and talk about it#but basically. damian following dick around because dick was in a dark and destructive place#dick and damian agreeing to hang out and play video games together#damian dying#dick dying#dick being ready to help save damian at a moments notice ''you know how much he meant to me bruce''#both of them coming back to each other ''you're alive?!''#dick moving to bludhaven#damian missing him#dick proudly talking about damian#damian coming to bludhaven and being insecure about his place in dick's life#dick admitting that he almost adopted damian#dick going to tokyo to save damian#damian asking for dick's help with the league of assassins#damian ending up at dick's bedside after dick got shot#damian trying to kill kgbeast for what he did to dick#and it goes on and on and on and onnnnn#Dick Grayson#Damian Wayne
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SHORT HAIR LOOP IS GIVING ME FEELINGS
#ask to tag#isat#in stars and time#isat spoilers#spoilers#loop#myart#fanart#comics#look if they woke up alone#after the party moved on from dormont#they would not adjust well to being back in their body#seeing Siffrin in the mirror#they're not Siffrin#they stopped BEING Siffrin forever ago#yet their stardust stares back at them in the mirror with their dumb idiot face and their taunting GRIN#dissociation and identity crisis in a swirling cosmic soup#they're not fine#but at least now#they look a little Changed#a little further from Siffrin#and someone different from Loop#what was it that their fighter said? countless loops ago?#Change is destruction?#yeah that sounds right#DO YOU SEE?? DO YOU SEE???
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Downfall has only just started, but already I'm deeply curious what Bells Hells reaction will be to seeing it play out. I've mentioned before that I suspect the dislike or outright disdain some of the party feels for the gods - most notably Ashton and Laudna, but also Imogen at times - is in part a product of the gods being so distant as to not feel like real people to them, and therefore being easy scapegoats.
It’s easy to see the mortal victims of Ludinus and the Vanguard as just that: victims. The Hells have met them, have been them. They have not seen or felt the gods suffer in the same way. Laudna even went so far as to blame the gods for mortal deaths and suffering after the solstice, even as the gods are the ones under attack. They feel uniquely abandoned by the world, and it's easy to blame these distant, powerful figures for their hardship. Certainly much easier than to see the mortal systems that enabled their harm, or to actively seek improvement on their own.
But to see the gods now, not just as people but as mortals, with all the flaws and vulnerabilities and fears of any of the Hells, with loved ones of their own and the same desperate sense of self-preservation as any living thing, will they be able to hold onto the disdain that they’ve clung to for so long?
#critical role#cr3 spoilers#downfall#i feel like laudnas reaction especially will be interesting#while imogen and ashton haven’t really changed their views on the gods they have changed the way they view themselves#they recognized their own self destructive tendencies and started to put in work to grow and change#rather than continiously blame circumstances beyond their control (aka the gods)#meanwhile laudna has only dug in deeper#I used to think that meeting the gods and realizing they're people unconnected to her trauma would help her#move beyond and start to process and come to terms with it#but now she’s so far gone that rationality no longer works#I'm really curious to seeing how she’ll handle all this#and deeply hope there will be more divine presence in the campaign post this#let bells hells visit the gods the way vox machina did! genuinely i think it would help them get over their reoccurring god dilemmas#nella talks cr#cr spoilers
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Time will change you, We all outgrow our roots.
SURPRISE I've been thinking about Rip again, jk that's not surprising. anyways text is Rips inner thoughts from Time Masters #8. sort of.
#rip hunter#my art.png#anyways reminder daffodils represent rebirth and new beginnings which i feel like rip also represents within the meta.#but also i could go on a rant about how rip did the whole ''learn the past cant be changed without gravely hurting everything around-#-you can only move forward even when looking back and grow with the changes'' before booster did. and he did it alone (his own fault)#rips battles with mental health and violent self destruction and realizing that he isn't always right r important to me. SIGH.#also let me go ahead and post this at 2am my bad#idk if i like this but i havent finished art like this in months so we move on.
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I've been following @druidposting's DR2 playthrough on discord and we just had a really good discussion about DR's Closing Arguments. Specifically the way the murderer is depicted as grey and featureless, which until now I found a bit annoying.
In Danganronpa it's repeatedly the case that we don't have the full picture until the talking actually stops- which always goes beyond the end of the trial. We generally vote first and come to understand what the murderer's actual motive was, sometimes filling in important pieces of the timeline in the process, afterwards.
But none of that matters for the killing game because characters' emotions aren't directly relevant to who was the 'blackened'- the only thing that matters to Monokuma- so it comes out afterwards and does nothing to change their execution. It doesn't matter how sympathetic they are (basically everyone) or whether other people share responsibility for the situation (eg. Hanamura, Pekoyama, Momota) or whether they intended to murder at all (Nanami). They objectively pulled the trigger and nothing else matters. Nothing about them as a person matters.
The Closing Argument mechanic might illustrate that problem- literally. They're a dramatic, conclusive summary of the entire case... constructed before the vote even happens, before we know if we're actually right, and they're missing something really important:
The actual perpetrator.
We quite literally don't even begin to see the real person behind the crime, any real exploration of their mental state, anything besides the cold, hard facts of the murder that are necessary to convict them, until the comic finishes and the protagonist makes their final accusation- replacing the grey figure with their real appearance in a shot that's often intensely emotional.
And these comics lack crucial parts of the case's timeline and sometimes important parts of the very scenes they depict that we only find out about afterwards. And those are what we know; characters may die with some pieces of the truth and prevent us from ever learning them. These aren't objective depictions of the murder, they're the protagonist's subjective attempt to connect the facts they have. A join-the-dots portrait of someone with missing dots and no colour.
Even characters' expressions may not match how they truly feel, with the grey placeholder potentially looking way more confident and sinister than they were in reality. Pasting Falter's commentary here since they put it well.
For obvious reasons this could especially be a problem for characters that die before the trial- the ones we never get a post-vote testimony from. DR1 chapter 4 really highlighted that in the way Asahina's huge misinterpretation of Oogami's feelings took up a lot of the post-trial discussion, only for Monokuma to reveal Oogami's real suicide note and recontextualise everything.
It might really be a problem for how Komaeda's depicted in DR2 chapter 5. While he isn't greyed out, we get panel after panel where he's either level-headed or maniacally evil, and even the depictions of his self-torture and death don't humanise him:
But we know that his real feelings were more complicated than that. We have his actual corpse to compare the last page to.
He died afraid.
If we approach the comic as Hinata's mental image of him instead of reality, he died without anyone truly understanding him. He was alarming, very hard to relate to, actively fought against people doing so, ensured even the killer didn't watch him die, and the survivors couldn't begin to understand his motive until a chapter later. The Closing Argument reflects that.
Early in DR1 Togami calls out the rest of his class for judging others by their own standards. However, he, too, is doing this, maybe more so than many other characters; his inability to view other people through anything but the cold, brutal logic of the killing game bites him in the ass in chapter 4. In DR2 chapter 2 voting without a good understanding of Pekoyama's motive or Kuzuryuu's involvement nearly got everyone killed. Komaeda's a walking embodiment of the problems with flattening people into caricatures and not empathising with them, suffered from people doing that back to him, and his case- the Closing Argument for which turned everyone else into grey placeholders- was impossible to solve with objective facts. It was only survivable because the survivors cooperated and one person tried to analyse things the way he would.
The games have always been a critique of the justice system and Japanese society and push us to care about others as individuals, not reduce them to- and judge their right to exist by- something they've done or their net impact on society. There are always consequences when someone neglects to do that, and the above might be yet another way the games explore that theme.
#danganronpa#dr analysis#komaedology#komaeda#.txt#sorry @ non komaedaheads for making it about komaeda again LMAO#that was not the intention initially he's just... a really good exploration of this#and i think about his expressions in that comic vs his corpse and what we retroactively knew he was dealing with a lot#btw don't send spoilers to falter please!! i'm @ing to credit them- this was a discussion not solely my ideas- but they are not done yet#and aren't reading this post until they're caught up for obvious reasons#this came from discussing ch2 since the incomplete picture people voted with nearly killed them#(btw don't @ me about komaeda's description in the second-last paragraph being an oversimplification; i know :p )#(he has nuance- especially outside of the killing game- but i'm just focusing on the thematically relevant broad strokes here)#(eg. i feel like he demonstrates empathy sometimes but kodaka has said that lack of ability to empathise/be empathised with#is a theme for him- and the ways he's been proactive in the killing game consistently lacked regard for others' feelings/individuality#reducing them to interchangeable Ultimates(TM) instead. it's partly why he self-destructed while everyone else#was able to forgive themself and keep moving forwards imo. your worth being defined rigidly by objective contributions to society#does not mesh well with the idea of rehabilitating people who've destroyed the world before they could even start to improve it#and even if he did give them a chance at surviving he still succumbed to his own ideology in the end#killed himself for 'hope' and to be 'important' like he 'wanted' but died terrified and in pain and alone instead of fulfilled#man i wish 2.5's ending/postnwp canon in general dug into that ;-; )#ANYWAY ty for reading all that. i feel like i rambled a lot in this one. i have a headache now ghdkjsfgdsf
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Unironically think that each of the bros (+April) don’t actually get how impressive their feats really are so they just do what they do and on the off chance someone comments on those feats they all react like:
#rottmnt#tmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#no but really#I love thinking that they’re actually way more prideful about the stuff that does not even hold a candle to their other feats#like yeah Mikey can open a hole in the space time continuum but that’s nothing have you TRIED his manicotti??#yeah Leo has outsmarted multiple incredibly intelligent and capable people AND knows how to rewire AI but eh did you hear his one liners?#donnie accidentally made regular animatronics sentient but that was an oopsie check out his super cool hammer instead#raph was able to fake his own death to save the entirety of New York and then be the one to bring about his brothers’ inner powers-#but forget about that did you know he can punch like a BOSS?#and April can survive and THRIVE against a demonic suit of armor alongside literal weapons of destruction as a regular human-#but her crane license is where it’s really at#(not to mention all the other secondary talents and skills these kids all just sorta have like - they are VERY CAPABLE)#honorable mentions in this regard go moments like#donnie ordering around an entire legion of woodland critters to create a woodsy tech paradise#or Leo being able to avoid an entire crowd’s blind spots in plain sight#and also being able to hold a pose without moving a millimeter while covered in paint and being transported no I’m NOT OVER THAT#Mikey casually being ridiculously strong and also knowledgeable enough about building to help Donnie make the puppy paradise for Todd#Raph literally led an entire group of hardened criminals like that entire episode was just#basically they’re all so capable????#and at the same time prone to wiping out at the most inopportune of moments#love them sm
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They’re not going to rebuild Castle Byers because Will can’t rebuild his childhood, which is the reason he destroyed Castle Byers in the first place. He’d been trying to hold on to a level of carefree ignorance that no longer existed for him. The problems Castle Byers saved him from have been replaced by new problems that are bigger and stronger than a child’s fort. He needs to face them differently. Thank you and goodnight
#I know it’s sad that he destroyed it while crying in the rain but that was NOT because Mike made him sad.#he’d been sad for a VERY LONG TIME.#his fight with Mike was just the nail in the coffin#it made him realize that he’d tried his damndest but was never going to get his childhood back#that everyone else had theirs while he wasn’t looking.#the writers should have given Mike and Will a better resolution to their fight but a better resolution isn’t Mike helping Will rebuild a#child’s fort that he’s already outgrown.#Mike is not responsible for the destruction of castle Byers because he’s not the one who stole will’s childhood#and he can’t repair castle Byers because he can’t repair will’s childhood. they both have to move forward for the rest of their lives.#ITS SYMBOLIC#not of their fight and not of their relationship but of WILL’S CHILDHOOD TOOLS FOR ESCAPISM#also if the mindflayer is partially a metaphor for will’s sexuality and for growing up#then do you REALLY think it’s a coincidence that he sense the mindflayer right after destroying a symbol of his childhood escapism#and says ominously ‘‘he’s back’’? like come on be serious#stranger things#byler#byler s5#byler rain fight#byler s3#will byers#mike wheeler#will byers analysis#st5 predictions#symbolism#stranger things rant#this is probably horribly written because I’m tired but whatever
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Sneak peak at Niko.
#I'm hoping to finish her soon but dang if my body isn’t trying to self destruct#stress=flare-ups#I wasn't thinking about the timing of everything when I did the poll#but I'm pushing through because this damn au makes me happy and excited about living right now#love me some niko#howls moving castle au#my art#my wips#niko sasaki#dead boy detectives#dead boy detective agency#dbda
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Oh, I knew this shot would make for a great purple themed palette! 💜
#fun fact hollow purple is one of my favorite power moves#a destructive purple power? YES!!#and it's pretty#a pretty purple powerful ball of YOUR ASS IS GRASS!!#just kiya's thoughts#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#satoru gojo#gojo satoru#purple#hollow purple#purple💜💜💜#🔮💜🔮💜🔮
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I don't know who needs to hear this but:
The British Mandate of Palestine =/= the State of Palestine.
There has never been a Palestinian state. That's not trying to justify anything or whatever, it's just the fucking history. The area now known as Israel and the Occupied Palestinian Territories was once "Judea" the homeland of the Jewish People, a self governing region/country/area. It was then colonised by multiple empires, the Roman Empire, the Byzantine Empire, the Arab Caliphate, the Ottoman Empire the British, Empire. None of these are a Palestinian states; these are all the result of imperialist colonising ideologies.
There could have been a self determined state in 1948 but instead there was a war because proto-Israel was attacked and defended herself.
If you need to rewrite history to justify your hate, maybe you're not as progressive as you want to think you are.
Edit: as I've said many times, I'm very pro 2-state solution. This post is not about that but I will not have this being used by other people to straw man me and lie about my beliefs
#like its possible to criticise the israeli government without straight up lying about the history of the land#and you know what... if you dont straight up lie in your argument people take you seriously!#if you redefine legally defined definitions and change history to fit your argument people will just ignore you#and they're right to do so because you are obviously deeply unserious and habe no interest in actually moving towards peace#grow up#if your movement acted like adults then maybe they would be taken seriously#if your movement acts like antisemites and racists then thats how you will be treated#if you abuse people calling for peace because it's peace for all and not destruction for the villains in your mind then you aren't peaceful#peace is for all#not just the people you've woobified into infantile innocence#vents
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juvie buddies
#alek art#td duncan#td mal#total drama#total drama all stars#(if i want to get technical)#2024#duncan is around 15 here... mal is around 16#ive thought really hard about them these past few days . in my brain they actually knew each other and canon is different#duncan and mike got along really well. in juvie mal refused to speak to anyone about anything and would fight as many people as he could .#he wanted to stay in there and far away from home . they get roomed together and duncan is the first person who mal can talk to . he isnt#scared of him . he relates to him a lot . like -> wow we both act out for attention and people think we are terrible because of it#duncan being a mentally ill teenager seeing mal an also very mentally ill teenager thought 'i can fix him' . mike and duncan speak too here#i cant really see anyone else fronting besides those two . their brain was on lockdown and mike wanted out so bad . i see manitoba as a#gatekeeper so hed handle some sessions with their psych. i want to say they (duncan and mike) get moved to a psyche ward just because#i have more knowledge on being in one and how it goes ... but yeah i like duncan mal a lot . this art isnt ship whatsoever though 🙏 i dont#see them as a couple their dynamic is just better as friends imo#but anyways in all stars they obviously recognize each other but have an unspoken agreement not to say anything abt it#duncan is a known criminal but mike isnt like that . mike hadnt even told zoey about that part of his life . so duncan wanted to respect his#privacy -> then mal starts hurting people and he has to step in . mal isnt a good person by any means but i dont think he was that bad in#juvie . so duncan had to come to terms that his friend wasnt the same person he was years ago (in all stars duncan is ~18 and i think mike#is almost 20... so it had been a while since they last talked)#them getting each other like no other and being in pain because they couldnt really speak . i see them having a conversation still in moon#madness abt their past and history . god i just think abt them and their wasted potential wdym mike and duncan were in juvie together#duncan was in for trespassing or destruction of private property or something really dumb . mal fought his parent(s) and got in for assault#mal was already in when duncan was placed . and duncan was let out early on good behavior + his parents (dad) mostly did it to teach him a#lesson . wrong of them or otherwise . so mal was just kinda stuck there until they realized he was actually not right in the head . think he#knew abt their DID but was only diagnosed in juvie and had to go from there . tbh he shouldve been tried as an adult but td logic . doesnt#matter dw guys . mike gets the 'was put on random meds that made him go braindead' treatment bc that was me . post mental hospital abilify#had me messed up
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One thing I’ve never heard talked about within the animatronic community is what the perspective of both concept unification and 2.0 remodels were like for employees and casual customers, specifically concerning the animatronics.
I hear the general fan consensus all the time, from the CU & Chuck E. Cheese lovers to the Rock-afire fanatics, but I want to know the perspectives of the people who experienced it in real time. The people who WEREN’T super fans.
Did they care at all, during Concept Unification, when switching the costumes of the characters? Was it sad when they were instructed to remove Billy Bob and destroy all props? Or was it a positive thing, a new beginning?
What about the uninformed kids, teens, and parents, coming to a once recognizable pizza chain location, only to find out that something had changed about the show?
It can be assumed that majority of today’s Chuck E Cheese employees don’t really care about the animatronics, but did it feel wrong defacing something with so much history during 2.0 remodels? Sure it’s just a robot, but it’s also a relic of the past, with eyes and a face, legally required to be cut up, spray painted, and become unrecognizable.
They might be viewed as old, outdated, and creepy now to the general public, but you have to wonder, did it ever cross anyone’s mind during the destruction process that these characters once sparked joy?
#rock afire explosion#showbiz pizza#chuck e cheese#animatronics#punky rambling idk#there’s also a secret third option of people could literally care less which is also viable#I think even if I wasn’t a fan I’d feel a bit guilty destroying something with a face like that#after you see them move and interact with each other on stage they feel a bit more real#I have not heard many employee 2.0 testimonies but I once talked to a general manager who had to cut Chuck E in half#he said it was sad to do#I have seen many wild 2.0 destruction pics and have recovered a lot myself so I know how bad the required destruction has gotten#Someday I will share more because it’s wild#Oops I’m rambling in the tags I’m just so interested in this for some reason
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Can you draw Beerus and Cheelai from dragon ball super superhero? :>
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Id like to imagine that there was a planet that Cheelai wanted to go to for it’s beauty and culture but since she’s wanted by the Freeza force, she can’t just go and see it.
This lights up an idea in Beerus in that he proposes the idea to go see this planet. Since he’s literally a God of Destruction and can assure her safety, she agrees.
But after some Hi-jinx’s ensue, he blows up the planet for her and the two grow closer and Cheelai grows more comfortable and isn’t scared to be in his presence.
#when I first saw this move#I thought it was so funny like a crack ship#plus it’s kinda cute how he fawns over her#headcannon is that he doesn’t force her to like him only when she’s comfortable with him and have established boundaries#like she has the power#Cheelai#lord beerus#god of destruction#dragon ball super broly#DBS
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what if they murdered freeza together. as a treat.
what if we gave granolah a big ol kaiju vegeta and they stepped on freeza as a team instead of going to therapy
#with all due respect to goku ... Move lmao#nobody needs to see you kill freeza a third time let the people who have earned it have a go skldjask#granolah#vegeta#ego oozaru#dbtag#sketchbook#did i design geets ego!oozaru just for this au? bitch....maybe#no I just really like mandrill teeth and I think Ego deserved TEETH and it became a whole thing but#this is a very fun byproduct#tbh all i really want is to see Vegeta use straight up Destruction on Freeza I think that would be cool as hell#I think he should also maybe gift Granolah some of his many many saiyan years so Granolah can live a good long life like he deserves to
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I had a shrink appointment today and while I could not see it I knew my doc was going through the five stages of grief while I explained my fool proof strategy for doing my t shots despite a crippling fear of needles: By abusing my vastly more crippling fear of being an inconvenience.
My mother and I play phasmophobia together every week. she usually has a pretty limited time to do this bc she's like. a doctor and a college professor whos always busy. So I asked her to just. hold me to doing them. We don't start playing until the shot is done. so my needle fear doesn't matter because now it's Wasting™ her time and I have to do it quick. Using one neurosis to defeat another.
It's a horrible coping mechanism because it's feeding the inconvenience fear, but it is definitionally a coping mechanism.
#im a 'has a panic attack during every injection or iv theyve ever gotten' type of scared of needles#no it genuinely has nothing to do with pain the needle itself is the fear not the using of it#like i told this story before but i have these sewing pins with lil bow ties on them and i had to get my dad to take all the blue ones out#because they were triggering the same part of my brain iv needles do#just the sight of them with the rest of my cute sewing pins was a problem#And the fear of being an inconvenience is so bad i cant eat around people or be in crowded spaces or talk at get togethers#without being paralyzed by fear of Being In The Way. its so bad ive been avoiding using my power chair bc it makes me take up#slightly more space than i would just standing. and i never took my manual out and about because i moved too slowly in it#and i dont take my crutches on planes despite using them everyday bc they cant fold up like my cane can and so are In The Way#one of the big reasons i dont use the chairs in stores is they have back up alarms. and i hate making noises in public#Yes this is part of the reason i want a Rottweiler for my service dog because i want people to look at the doggie Not Me.#I like people! i like being friendly and talking and making little connections with strangers!!! But i cant be the one to initiate or#be In The Way of a peaceful moment#dont look at me#this is also a big issue i have with making friends or changing the nature of a relationship because like. im autistic#I have Rules for social interactions memorized that i will follow. but moving people from one category to another#is difficult. It is too the point i had problems for litteral years talking to my boyfriend as though#he was a person i knew well and cared deeply for because i kept using the 'rando guy im flirting with on the Internet' script#I have commissioners i want to be friendlier with but my brain says No Stop that is an Impolite and Overly informal way to talk to#a customer™ despite them not being customers when they arnt in the commission process#im like thise huskies who are scared of carpet because its Different than the floor they're currently standing on#its Too different:(#and to be clear i am Completely aware of how none of this makes logical sense and is in fact deeply self destructive#That does not fix it. it is so ingrained in my head that im certain i could convince my brain to let me bite off my own fingers#before i could convince it to let me talk to someone at a help desk or ask my order be corrected at a restaurant
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