#and i fail so much
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I worked 50 hours on this sweater and it's impossible to wear
I tried casting on a new project but even that isn't going well
I think I won't knit for a while
#teach says#failing at my favorite thing devastates me honestly#i always get extremely sad and cant stop crying for days#i just care so much about knitting#also that wasnt 50 hours because ive been swapping patterns since march and had finally found a good one#why do i get so emotional and how do i make it stop#its a torture#its painful as hell#and i fail so much#i really need a better way of coping with failure because this cant be healthy
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"just as I did, in 1983."
you'd never know my favourite parts of the show are the fucked up insane bits when my first instinct is to draw the cheesiest thing imaginable
#my art#interview with the vampire#iwtv amc#iwtv#armand iwtv#daniel molloy#armand#armandaniel#devils minion#drew this before the finale but idk maybe this is during the unspecified amount of time between armands divorce and daniels press tour#the titian painting doesnt fit at ALL with the timeline btw#i THOUGHT it did bc i assumed 1508 was when armand was turned into a vampire BUT upon reflection thats more likely the year he was born#and even then the painting was made in like 1510 so fuck me i guess. also im foggy on when armand was taken to rome#idk man i havent read the books and i failed art history on two separate occasions i cannot endeavor for accuracy#anyway as much as i love 70s/80s devils minion i have equal love for old man daniel#his cynicism has been tempered by time... refined like a diamond... he dont gaf and bullies his loser vampire and its hilarious#like ''sure yeah fine all these old italian renaissance guys saw ur ethereal otherworldly beauty but literally anybody can see that''#''IM the only mf who gets to experience the incandescent joy of seeing you be a messy idiot''#sidenote trying to make armand look unflattering is impossible u can blame the show for casting the worlds most beautiful man
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I don't know who needs to hear this, but as a creator -
I am fine with "the audience" -
downloading my fics
printing my fics
copy/pasting or screenshotting my fics
sharing your saved copy of my fics with anyone else who might want them in the unlikely but never impossible case that my fics are no longer available on ao3
making a book of my fic(s) and running your fingers across the pages while lovingly whispering my precioussss
doing these things with anything I create for fandom, such as meta, headcanons, au nonsense like 'texts from the brodinsons,' etc
I am not fine with "the audience"
doing any of the above with the purpose/intent of plagiarizing my work or passing it off as their own in any capacity
feeding my work into ai for any reason whatsoever
Save the fandom things. Preserve the fandom things. Respect the fandom things.
Enjoy the fandom things.
#fanfic#ao3#archive of our own#fandom things#tumblr things#i may have said this at some point#i'm sure i have#but whatever - just in case#i don't say this with the presumption that i'm so amazing and people are clamoring to save my fics#but just if anyone is so inclined that's all#ftr i don't intend on ever removing my fics from ao3 or deleting fandom things from this blog#i've always shared my fandom things with the intent of keeping them shared bc that's the whole point of posting#but the fandom atmosphere and ao3 constantly being under attack who knows what can happen#not that this applies to anyone but should all else fail you can also reach out to me and i will personally give you a copy#at least of fics bc i save everything#not so much the tumblr things but this is a good reminder to myself that i should do that for the things i care about#that i've made or done and only posted here#anyway sorry i have now used up my quota of the putting words into sentences doing for today#i have plans to stare into the void now
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and together we set out on a journey to find treasure! (id in alt)
#dungeon meshi#marcille donato#laios touden#falin touden#delicious in dungeon#dunmeshi spoilers#for the second img…. anyway this episode was SOOO good - marcille you never fail to make me weep a little#this was one of the chapters that also got me rly into dunmeshi… i like how marcille’s fear is smth that Can be interpreted as broad#and common - like how laios initially thought - but ultimately it’s quite specific… naturally running at a faster pace and attempting to use#magic - her only tool - did not help either. thus coming to deeply desire a unique tool in somebody else’s hands#to build a future where her loved ones can keep running with her. i lauv u so much marcille
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some good future metal/neo pages i did while waiting at the mechanic yesterday
#im still thinking about her a lot..... houghh. so much potential for stuff in this au#fern's sketchbook#sth#metal sonic#sonic the hedgehog#rouge the bat#cream the rabbit#i guess ill put this in my btf tag?? since it's a continuation of it sorta#born to fail
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good night Sif
edit: Isa saying 'stars' is important
#siffrin? more like sif is out au#isat#in stars and time#isat au#siffrin#isabeau#isafrin#isat siffrin#isat isabeau#i have a vision but no time to draw a lot of different drawings so i hope i conveyed it as it is iyguygyu#i spent so much time drawing siffrin (i have trouble drawing people laying down) cause this is isa pov so sif NEED to look pretty/cute#if he isn't i failed#edit: I had forgotten to make the first isa hand layer visible omg. it have been edited now#mari draws#isat spoilers
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on a completely separate note; shizun luo binghe with a disciple shen yuan who fell into the abyss??? *thinks about LBH canonically stealing SQQ's corpse for 5 years* he'd hallucinate i think. like, like visual and audial hallucinations.
Keeps thinking he's seeing SQQ in the corner of his eyes, or wandering between the trees, amongst a group of disciples. Thinks he hears him calling for him, but its just the wind or another disciple.
Gets Xiu Ya reforged but patently fucking refuses to make a sword mound. Because his disciple Is Not Dead :))) There was No Body. He's Not Dead. And If You keep Insisting That He Is, He's Gonna Skewer You :). He's holding onto Xiu Ya so he can return his most favored disciple's sword when he returns. It's on his hip right next to Zheng Yang where it's supposed to be.
Also this motherfucker?? does not sleep btw. He has the image of SQQ, wide eyed and hysterical and standing at the mouth of the abyss burned into his fucking eyelids. Can't use the dreamscape to escape it either because he keeps trying to save him and either he does and it's an incredibly cruel trick to wake up to, or he doesn't and he gets his heart broken in several different pieces again.
There is no convincing this man that Shen Qingqiu is dead. Absolutely nothing at all. He is buried so deep in denial that moles would be jealous of how deep he is. He keeps making tea for two in the bamboo house only to remember that it's just him. SQQ's fans are hiding everywhere, little reminders of his presence. He goes to wake up SQQ on the mornings he sleeps in-- only to find the room empty.
#svsss#luo binghe#svsss au#scum villain#scum villian self saving system#shen yuan#shen qingqiu#disciple shen yuan#lbh. visibly exhausted and with twitchy eyes: im fine :) | everyone else: ho no the fuck you ARENT.#SQQ was hysterical not because he found out LBH was half-demon but bc he was having a long-awaited mental breakdown over his autonomy :)#or (limited) lack thereof. he was having a sudden onset crisis of mortality and was handling at quite literally the WORST time. oops#im thinking very hard that LBH would never push his disciple into the abyss especially with no system to force him to. so SQQ either#had to goad him into it (failing always) or throw himself in. he ended up doing it himself but not before some very impressive hysterics.#BUT ALSO. IF THIS HAD BEEN WHERE SQQ WAS THE HALF-HEAVENLY DEMON INSTEAD IT WOULD'VE BEEN SO GREAT.#and by great i mean horribly angsty bc SQQ is NOT doing too hot and has. in very SY-like fashion. convinced himself that LBH will kill him#when he finds out he's a demon. so when it comes out i have this mental image of him lunging at LBH and LBH flinches back. but SQQ wraps hi#hands around the blade of Zheng Yang and yanks it up so the tip of the blade is digging into his chest where is heart is. LBH can't yank th#sword away without risking slicing into SQQ's hands. SQQ's hair has fallen out of its tail/bun and is now messily spilling down his#back and its NO helping the kinda deranged look he has going on. he's visibly shaking and his eyes keep flittering away and back at LBH's#face. SQQ is looking at the messages from the system warning him that he has to go into the abyss or punishment will occur. he's like.#rambling though. talking about how shizun doesn't *like* unclean things and there is nothing more unclean than a demon. like he is#INSISTING. LBH can't?? get a fucking word in. actually. SY isn't listening that much either anyways. too overwhelmed with the system and#the amount of stress he's under and his crumbling mental state and the innate and primal desire to live even when he's standing in front of#his own executioner. it all ends with him sitting on the ground at the lip of the abyss with his hair falling in his face. he looks so#unkempt and fallen apart and so distinctly *non-Shen Qingqiu* that LBH feels physically ill over it. tears are streaming down SQQ's face#and despite everything he is smiling. its not a nice smile. its a very frayed falling apart at the seams about to crack smile.#he tells shizun not to worry about staining his blade with this disciple's filthy blood because this disciple will take care of it himself.#and then he falls into the abyss before luo binghe can so much as grab him. the only reason LBh doesn't literally jump in after him is bc#he was numb with shock and the abyss was already closed before he could feel his legs again :]
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so rhaenyra starts s3 with a god complex, believing herself to be the prince that was promised from aegon the conqueror's dream... but hugh and ulf will betray her, mysaria will misunderstand her, coryls will undermine her, bartimos will underestimate her, daemon will abandon her, her people will turn against her and burn her castle and kill her dragon. and when everyone who accepted rhaenyra as queen rejects her, the only person left to love rhaenyra will be alicent, who never loved rhaenyra as queen but rhaenyra as a person ("she was the vision that sustained him [...] it was his love for her that kept him resolute in his choice of heir."). alicent, who abandoned her gods and duty to go to rhaenyra on dragonstone and appeal to the person beneath the crown ("i cast myself on the mercy of a friend who once loved me."). alicent, who's made a god of rhaenyra, not as queen, but as the girl she read with beneath the godswood ("come with me.").
#and rhaenyra won't accept it at first#she'll refuse to believe that she was wrong and that the prophecy wasn't about her because she's lost so much#and i don't know how she will eventually come to the realization that she isn't the prince who was promised#but i think it will be when she's forced to sell her crown and make an attempt at escape (maybe with alicent)#and so ultimately#rhaenyra's love for alicent was her downfall#because a lot of the grievances her council has will be directly/indirectly related to rhaenyra protecting alicent#and rhaenyra's love for alicent keeping her grounded to her humanity while the world around her tries to turn her into an unfeeling queen#and so the love works against the system#because the love cannot exist within the system without everything falling apart#so by taking alicent prisoner rhaenyra is dooming herself to fail at being queen#because in that moment rhaenyra - like alicent in 2x08 - chooses love over duty#hotd#alicent hightower#rhaenicent#hotd spoilers#rhaenyra targaryen#house of the dragon
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When the final curtains falls, face the wrath of the understudy
#so normal about the twohats ending#having the reality that there was a way out thrown back in your face must HURT#both succeeding and failing in saving yourself both being it's own unique flavour of hell#sorry i love loop so much#isat spoilers#loop#tea n ink#ISAT#in stars and time#siffrin#isat siffrin#isat#isat fanart#artists on tumblr#isat tea n ink#mirabelle#isabeau#isat odile#odile#sketch#isat bonnie#isat mirabelle#isat isabeau#isat loop#sifloop#isafrin#lucabyteart
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Time traveler: *moves a chair*
The timeline:
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#This is a Chell and Stanley switch btw#in case I butchered their characters so much they're unrecognizable#SO FOR SOME FUCKING REASON#EVERYTHING WAS AGAINST ME POSTING THIS TO TUMBLR EVEN THO I MADE IT WEEKS AGO#like it ALWAYS fails to upload until now#portal#portal 2#portal chell#chell#stanley#the stanley parable#the narrator#the narrator stanley parable#GLaDOS#Fanart#ALSO I SWEAR THIS ISN'T AI ART I JUST SUCK AT DRAWING HANDS IGNORE STANLEY'S HAND#My art
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Polyamory is not inherently bad or toxic, it just has higher demands on time and energy to manage multiple relationships, which means people who would arguably struggle to manage an entirely mono relationship are going to struggle even more in a poly one, and due to the interlocking relationships and elevated public scrutiny, that’s going to be viewed as much messier than it would otherwise.
#my stuff#i usually let more eloquent reblogs articulate my thoughts but whagthever#i know and care abt several poly ppl. it’s not remarkable#one of the main reasons it gets so much flak is it’s just easier to be bad at it faster than being mono#like there’s constraints of time and money in energy in all relationships#and if you’re bad at managing that it’s gonna be way more obvious if you try to be poly bc you’ll fail way more dramatically#but in the exact same ways as if you were mono#it’s not special or enlightened or toxic or anything it just fucking IS
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get a grip loverboy !!!
#this post brought to you by my gay ass watching this show#'' my god ... theyre all so beautiful ...''#also i just think trip is very shippable#he is mr loverman#my art#star trek#star trek enterprise#trip tucker#t'pol#malcolm reed#jonathan archer#hoshi sato#travis mayweather#major hayes#yes i included hayes bc i think hes a baddie thank you very much#EDIT HIS FUCKING ARM IS TOO LONG I HATE MY LIFE#EVERY TIME WITHOUT FAIL I ONLY FIND THE MISTAKES AFTER I POST THEM#WHYYY7!.!#edit number two oh my god i forgot shran 😭😭#jeffrey combs when i get you
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something something future leo dies early and mikey takes on the role of cj's main mentor. something something mikey-centric movie. idk what his arc would be abt BUT I HAVE AN ITCH THAT NEEDS TO BE SCRATCHED
#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt#rottmnt mikey#rottmnt bad future#casey junior#imagine leo sacrificing himself early into the invasion movie-style..... speedrunning his arc cuz the guilt is unbearable#also imagine.....#mikey and casey sr become badass best friends#and then mikey has to raise her son when she dies......#and its a whole thing where whenever he looks into cj's eyes he sees her and grieves and promises to protect him and teach him to survive#oh shit am i developing an au as we speak#DONT LET ME TURN THIS INTO ANOTHER AU I HAVE SO MUCH SHIT TO DRAW ALREADY!!!#all of mikey's brothers die before him#and he's alone when he makes the portal#unlike at the end of the movie when they're all by his side#never fails to destroy me man
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favorite Cersei Lannister moments in the books
every time she's compared to a cat. I love that she hissed in her first POV chapter
her hearing that she will be killed by her brother/a brother and not once in all of 30 years thinking it might be the other one of her two brothers
the literally one scene in the whole book where her and Tyrion are happy with each other because theyre both laughing at how stupid Renly is (and then he poisons her with laxatives)
when she keeps fucking and seducing the Kettleblacks, gets one of them to kill the pope, and at no point seems to think her Kettleblack based infrastructure might have flaws
when she's like "ugh Robert only kept Jalabhar Xho around because he probably was thinking about Summer Island women… with their big dark nipples… wearing nothing but feathers…"
when she's running through the sept trying to evade capture and it genuinely reads like a Tom & Jerry scene
when she makes Aurane Waters her admiral because he reminds her of Rhaegar and then he embezzles all her shit and runs off
WHEN TAENA JOKES ABOUT MARGAERY AND LORAS HAVING INCESTUOUS SEX AND CERSEI IS LIKE "OK WRAP IT UP"
I really do think Cersei is smart and cunning and able to use many things to her advantage. I also think that she immediately got drunk on power and made less than ideal choices during AFFC
#take none of this as critique. i love her so much#and when i love characters i love when they fail#asoiaf#valyrianscrolls#cersei lannister#i would very often be like. ok time to sleep#and then I’d see the next chapter was a Cersei chapter#and have to keep reading
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Soft summer bois for the soul
#vashwood#trigun#trigun stampede#vash the stampede#nicholas d. wolfwood#las!art#man i love this one a little bit too much#spent ridiculous amount of time on it#but i enjoy it anyway#06 for the year one of the albums i always listen to in july was released#and ofc i was listening to it#always trying to make Nico look younger and FAILING#so then i tried to make Vash look a little bit older which is impossible with this hairstyle and look of him#sigh#good bois anyways
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the scene of fabian and gorgug seeing the reflections of yolanda & lucy as kristen lays them to rest… the look on lou’s face. the kindness of the act. kristen applebees, one of the most gifted clerics the world has ever seen.
#when the fictional friends love each other soooo much#fantasy high#fhjy#fhjy spoilers#dimension 20#kristen applebees#fabian seacaster#gorgug thistlespring#i just. i love them. kristen is so kind#her earlier trying for divine intervention and it failing but her still working a miracle through her own efforts. beautiful 10/10
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