#and i don’t want to feel gray

[jeanmoreaue]

i have been trying to convince myself to like my new job for two months now and i’m finally admitting to myself that i just can’t stand it 😭 i should love it, the pay is great, it’s for a big university healthcare system which is like renown for treating its employees well, the benefits are great, but i am not only extremely bored at the work all day, but i literally cannot fathom why we have to go in office especially given that everyone commutes 1-2 hours. and im just so bored and unenthused and ive been trying to lie to myself so that i don’t have to job search again bc ik it’ll look bad on my resume but i just finally am like this isn’t a good fit, i don’t like this job, and even tho ive only been here a couple months i just can’t do it anymore im job hunting

[frostybearpaws]

ALSO

Cooper and Barb!!!!!!

hhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I love a tragic doomed romance, we know from the beginning that she divorced him because the dad at the party mentioned alimony for why he’s performing at kid’s birthday parties

and then we ACTUALLY meet her their interactions are so sweet but also there’s a sense of foreboding because she of the look she makes when presenting the idea of him being the face of vault-tec and

gaaaaaaaaaah

I believe that she wanted to do what was best for her family, so much so that she was willing to end the world if it meant getting into a good vault

I don’t think Barb is an evil person. I think she was a scared person. It seemed like the end of the world was right at their doorstep, she already experienced first hand the worry of someone she loves going off to fight in the sino-american war.

then she got into a company that was offering a solution and it seemed like a wonderful thing she could invest in. So she rose through the ranks to secure a future for her family in a time when the future was so ambiguous and terrifying.

by the time Vault-Tec was in full swing she was in a high position, she drank the cool aid and her main focus was on protecting her family, no matter what.

I think in a desperate effort to protect her family from annihilation, she became the very driving force that destroyed the world.

there’s so much beauty in that, burning the world for the people you love.

anyway that’s me ranting about Barb because we love a gaslight girlboss <3

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

sometimes i remember that gojo wanted to tell geto “we’ll meet again, right?” just before he died but forced himself not to knowing it would have cursed him and then i start thinking about how kind and thoughtful gojo is as a character and how he hasn’t been able to lean on another human being since geto defected and then i want to . Scream

[wildrosesayshigh3]

I can't get this Shang Qinghua idea out of my head and I have far to many writing projects plus midterms so I'm making this everyone else's problem.

Its a canonical fact that Shang Qinghua dosen't really see anyone beside Mobei-jun and Shen Yuan as actual people. But what if he had powers in his first life as airplane? And because he can't feel his powers due to the systems meddling and he doesn't know that the system meddled so he dosen't think any else as people.

Especially if he was an empath; always able to feel other peoples emotions -though since he's more used to negative or indifferent emotions being directed at him he's crap at knowing what they mean- and thus react accordingly. But when he died and was reborn he couldn't feel anything from anybody, anymore.

His powers, the one thing that was solely his (cause lets face it pidw hadn't belonged to him in a long time), the hum at the back of his mind that he always felt, there spark that always appeared around people wasn't there when he was around anyone.

So he assumed that none of these people where real.

[restinthewest]

Threw stones at the stars, but the whole sky fell.

[aspecposting]

am I the only aspec/arospec individual who doesn’t care if aspec/arospec characters are shipped with other character? (I even do it myself sometimes)

[compacflt]

Dude you should be so so so so so proud, literally one of the best pieces I've ever read. It's the angst and complex characterization of Baldwin's Giovanni's Room meets the research behind The Alienist (the book, obvi- haven't actually seen the show yet). I adore how you maintained the characters' personal values even though I don't like them most of the time, and I now know way too much about the military in general because I would wikipedia something every third sentence. (Also thanks for that because coincidentally I'm working on a research project on how low-level fighter jet training affects marine animal behaviour, and I actually passed my first oral with flying colours because of the random knowledge I have acquired while reading/because of your fic.) That being said, I desperately want a physical copy on my bookshelf- would you ever feel comfortable distributing one or letting us go get it printed professionally? If not, I totally understand and am more than happy with what we have access to now! Seriously, thank you- it's incredible.

thank you thank you thank you for the ask!! just gonna answer by point

1. i am very proud!!! just extremely editorbrained ie have been trying to fix all the flaws for the last two months straight, and now all i see are problems & flaws that i couldn’t fix…. you guys should see my hard copy of this fic every single page is basically black with pencil. just ripped it to shreds. it’s just a writer thing i think, i am my own worst critic :(

2. if by personal values you mean political opinions … I wish it were like socially acceptable to post my extremely in-depth headcanons about random shit like this because i am so deep in it that i literally wrote out ice and mav’s voting records since 1980. Tldr: conservaDems. registered R but consistently vote D. mav would vote libertarian if his husband weren’t standing over him threatening divorce. after 1/6/21 change their registration to D & are basically just neolib shills. only reason they don’t vote obama in 2008 is that mccain was a navy vet.

3. thank you for the compliment but i am literally BEGGING you guys not to take anything i say/claim in this fic about the military to be true. there are certainly elements of the truth but many of the details i literally just made up. or altered to make plot sense (see IRST discussion ch 9, IRST was SUGGESTED by Boeing in 2007/8, not implemented until 2010ish). so much of the plot simply would not happen in real life. i can make a whole post about this sometime if people are interested cause there is actually so much I could say about real life accuracy in this fic/implications of real life shit…

4. no way???? that research project sounds so interesting??? congrats on passing ur oral!! idk what that means but congrats!!!! coincidentally i am also working on a research project—it’s why i have to stop working on this fic at some point. my senior research thesis is a novel about USAF CSAR chopper pilots so ive been doing so much research over the last 5 months… but about the USAF not the USN. my navy research HAS helped though. so maybe it’s a mutually reciprocal relationship :) i would love to hear more about ur project!!!

[reformedmercymain]

Should I give Overwatch another chance?

Honestly as much as I love the game I’d hold off on playing it until PvE comes out unless you have friends who are playing it with you. Ow2 reignited my actual love for the game (outside of how it scratched my competitive itch) so it *might* be worth a try even without friends if you loved “old overwatch” (like the “classic days” of 2016-2018?) and maybe lost interest around 2019 onwards. But for 99% of the players who left I’d advise you wait for what will hopefully be decent PvE

[i-exist-because-reasons]

don’t you just love it when you finally felt attraction a year ago so you think hey i can go on dates now

but you end up just wanting to be friend with every guy you meet and get the ick each time one of them tries to hold your hand

[itsrobiyn]

❄️me finally leaving a toxic/abusive relationship after a year and 7 months.

❄️ This is literally a win for me. JUST LOOK AT THE TAGS LOL. Feminism is gonna shine in a new way for me now, I’m gonna get in a non profit to support against psychological and emotional abuse or sth.

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ALSO @werewolf-mp3

my sideblog hedgie (now novelcracker) with all the translation tips and all it was me lol

SORRY FOR DRAGGING YOU IN I’M JUST SO HAPPY AAAAAAAAH

sorry sorry just ignore it

[jooniez]

got my indigo album and a cute little tinytan joon, I’m so happy!!!! 💓🌦️✨🫧🌷🥺😚

[dancing-with-stars]

my mom is literally yelling at me bc i “study too much” and she says that’s selfish and i shud be doing other things and spending time w my family. like. as if everytime i spend time w my family i don’t just end up hating myself more.

[raemeh]

I’m not sure if I have my best ideas at night or if that’s just me to sleep deprived to know what a good idea is

[githvyrik]

I rly don’t wanna imply like “just get over it” about insecurities with your skin and whatnot especially as someone who hasn’t struggled as much with my skin as others but when people say stuff like “well if you wear a full face every day because it makes you feel better about yourself that’s fine!!!” it does not sit right with me. it just doesn’t. when I very rarely wear foundation + concealer because I’m doing a makeup look that’s complicated, my skin always looks worse to me after because society has told me I’m supposed to look like that. and it’s better and easier for me now than it was in high school when I wore it a few times for performances or “because I felt like it”, and when I took it off at the end of the day I thought I was so ugly and realized I had to not do it every day because it would make me feel worse about myself (this was easy for me because I have always been lazy and would rather have gotten as much sleep as possible before school every day). anyways basically if you are going out with a full face every day that’s not in fact going to actually help you and will absolutely make you feel worse and worse about your natural face and if you feel like you cannot leave the house without foundation and concealer I am so sorry society failed you. you look fine the way you are I promise, you look like a human being and you don’t need to change that for anybody.

[loveoaths]

What is your favorite part of the Anakin/Din dynamic?

the fact that if anakin tries ANY of the stupid shit he pulls with obi-wan on din, din will hog tie him to a boulder and drop him from the airlock while in hyperspace. what’s not to love.

[insert-game]

they need to invent a me with more money