#and fuck the fact that it fell on me
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I physically could not leave
I physically could not leave
Like at least something that I know about myself now is that I will not back down in the face of intimidation but like
I physically could not leave
I was threatened repeatedly with physical violence
I had to repeatedly deescalate situations so that I would not face physical violence
And I physically could not leave
There was nothing I could do to remove myself from the situation
Nothing I could do to make myself safe
Except to get the other person to calm down
Fuck
#the fundamental issue with mental healthcare in this country is that being unable to leave means that you are unable to avoid the abuse#and must therefore face it head on instead of leaving at the first sign of trouble#and I am one of the lucky ones#one of the few who had enough self control to not directly face physical violence and being “chemically restrained”#aka being nonconsensually drugged into submission#im safe now but like#straight up had to deal with someone daring me to give them an excuse to be physically violent towards me and deescalate that situation#without any sort of emotional response or evidence that that situation had negatively impacted my mental health#also like I shouldn't have had to be the one with the self control in the situation the people that were literally being paid to be there#should have been better#and fuck the fact that it fell on me
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Prompt 171
Danny would like everyone to know it was a complete accident. Look, normally he was really good at not altering the timeline! He was!
But the dude was definitely not in the right Time, and he had to get his trust which took so long, like damn he thought he had anxiety. Seriously though, kevlar in the 1700s? Yeah that wasn’t right, and Peepaw always complained about the messes that the speedsters caused, so he was trying to prevent a mess by tugging the dude away and helping him out.
Falling in love maybe a little, was not in the plan. But honestly the man had a worse sense of self preservation than he did as a teen and was also straight up adorable, in a wet cat who could kill you sort of way.
So maybe he helped the dude grab a child that was going to be drowned. It wasn’t like anyone else saw them! Even if similar situations might’ve happened a few different times.
Still, no one saw them!
So why is there now a small cult who worships the Shadowed one and Radiant one, aka his companion (who would not give his name save for B, which, fair, probably didn’t want to accidentally wreck the timeline either) and well, him?! At least they worship them as guardians of children, but uh. Should he maybe, perhaps, fix this…?
#dcxdp#dpxdc#prompts#Spirit Halloween#Danny is in fact an Adult in this#He helps CW out with time stuff & getting stuff that fell through natural portals back to the Zone#Does Danny ever mention his affection for Bruce during their travels together? No.#Was it obvious to literally everyone else who was not Bruce? Yes#Danny is inwardly dying while learning about the cult he accidentally made because they decided that the Radiant One & Shadowed One are lov#Tim has a way easier time proving Bruce is in the past when he stumbles across one of the organization’s meetings#The cult-isn’t-exactly-a-cult and more like a minor religion focusing on the protection of children#Bruce is going to have a headache when he gets back to modern day#Hey he at least still has that cloak of shadows that his travelling companion (Call me D then.) gave him to help hide his not time appropri#League: Batman is dead#RR barging in: Batman is alive & in the past & definitely met some sort of higher being or spirit or something#League: Who the fuck are you-
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Thinking about Sonic Hero's.
#my art#sonic heros#sonadow#sonic#sonic the hedgehog#shadow the hedgehog#fav#EJWHDWKDBWDKJ MY SONIC KEEPING SHADOWS RING HEADCANON#haha sonic being sad for months?? years??? over Shadow's “death” only for him to magically appear one day go brrrrr#the fact heros takes place 2 weeks before Shadow the hedgehog 05 is so fuggin funny to me#Sonic trying to reconnect with Shadow as his fucking dad comes and starts trying to destroy shid#I love them sm#Sonic may have a small tiny crush on him no biggy#meanwhile Shadows like “who tf is this guy?”#also I like to think eggman made like a bootleg inhibitor ring since shadow fell from the heavens without it lmao
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[JTTW OC: 智平] Always two pretty bitches telling each-other exaaaaaactly 💜💜
men so androgynous they’re called “lady” by strangers more than “lord”
#‘we aren’t gossiping if we are making astute observations’ erlang says to comfort himself but he loves a good judgey session#high neck top bc wukong acts like a bitch in heat when his lover meets with his frenemy rival#erlang is veeery androgynous to me even tho most adaptations push him a bit more on the masculine look side a smidge#bajie was strolling past a mahjong parlour years before he was turned into a pig and was like woah…. pretty women#he found out erlang wasn’t one but held onto the fact that the purple dragon was in sheer hope#then the dragon joins the pilgrimage and turns out everyone on the team is a man#worst day of his fucking life fell to his knees by the campfire the dragon lady was a dragon lord this shit sucks#long rant over erlang and zhiping are mahjong buddies they get withdrawal if they haven’t had a game in 2 weeks#they get a lot of free drinks in mortal cities bc of their looks#artists on tumblr#digital illustration#digital art#m1nsur0#black myth wukong#journey to the west#jttw#erlang shen#oc#sun wukong x oc#sun wukong x reader
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I'm obsessed with Robbie and Liam romancing each other constantly like yes yes good.
But I've also been turning Cerkonos and Lieve'tel in my head because of it.
I know there's a lot of angst when it comes to life spans. Especially when it comes to (half) elves and Ashari leaders.
At some point it'll be just be Keyleth and Vex. And then just Keyleth, right? Like idk if we know how old the ashari can get but she is going to outlive all of vm, right? That's like the point?
But elves live for a long ass time? Lieve'tel is already 381. She has about 360 more years. And Cerkonos is here until further notice it seems.
Sure maybe they don't spend the rest of their impossibly long lives together but like? Isn't it nice to have the option? If they wanted to they could. Together they don't have to worry about time moving too quickly. They don't have to worry about watching the other wither while they stay youthful.
Lieve'tel had a fling with Bertrand and he probably wasn't her first bout of love at 350. But she seems to really have really cared for him? And she was his last words? As a cleric for the matron I can't imagine she has a bad relationship with death but how does she feel when it grips someone she cares about? We know the matron wears the mask to hide just how much she cares for each and every soul she ferries. And perhaps Lieve'tel feels that same way her goddess does about death and those who pass on. Especially with her extended life.
So Bertrand dies, she doesn't watch him wither, but she knows when he passes. She is given a dream of it. I wonder how she mourns. How long she mourns. If shes still mourning.
Then, by the same string of fate that brought her and Bertrand together, she is brought to Cerkonos. A man similarly endearing. A little bumbling. Definitely intimidated by her. Sweet.
And he ages like her. Maybe a hair faster.
Maybe that's why Cerkonos shows absolutely no interest in Vesper. In Pike. Their mortality is written all over them.
Robbie made a joke about him "retaining his seed since 28" and like fucking lol first off but also. Keyleth was 23 at the beginning of VM? and she was on her aramente? So depending on how long it took for him to set out on/finish his, has he been celibate this whole time because of the fact that anyone he falls for, anyone he would truly care about, would die in front of him?
Idk elves have a long life span and I'm sure Lieve'tel has had her trists with other elves. But it really is a socially awkward human man that gets her heart. Again they don't have to live their whole lives together, and they probably won't. They each are very important. They have very important positions.
But it must be nice to be able to part and say "until next time" and not really have to worry about how far next time is. Will it be ten years? They haven't aged a day. Will it be a hundred years? Oh, you've gotten slightly gray. Three hundred? My dear, I can see all your smiles I've missed in all these years in the lines on your face.
#silver sending stones#lieve'tel toluse#flamespeaker cerkonos#i am YAPPING#and im yapping out of my ass.#i dont know lieve'tel like that#but i love her already#(i dont know her so much i cant even bring myself to call her lieve)#but anyways.#i think about life spans a lot and they hurt me. a lot.#so this is juicy#Lieve'tel seems to like an older man because no. in fact. they are not older.#idk#i think theyre neat#i think theyre interesting#cause youd think the solution to something like this is “just fall in love with an elf”#but thats. not really how love works#love is messy. love it random. love is hard#love does not care that you will not age together#love only cares about the heart of the other#and it seems very obvious in liams characters#that love is a wild thing that cannot ve tammed or controlled#even the gentlest of loves. like oryms and dorians. was uncontrollable. they fell for each other without any effort#love is inate#love is inevitable#oh fuck#cr spoilers#cr 3 e 113
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#this question is very hard for me to answer so obviously I have to torment everyone else with it#cause like. like I can really see the potential in either answer. both are feasible#I will say. most realistically. to me. edwin first charles harder#because I think…..I think the reasoning behind the other way around usually tends to be about how edwin absolutely was slower to bond and#open up in general whereas charles hit the ground fucking running#but i don’t think that particularly applies to their romantic relationship#if you mean ‘fell for’ in a general sense rather than a romantic one then yes 100%#but that’s not what im talking about here#I have a few different reasons but generally I think edwin fell first because like… the way he attached himself to charles and accepted him#as his person and etc is so unlike him to do with literally anyone- especially at the point where they first met/the first years they knew#each other. charles just seems to have hit him as something very very special and irreplaceable quite quickly for him to open up the way he#did and change and flourish into a fully realized person because of how safe and worthy charles made him feel#he took to charles with an unusual amount of ease and trust and I think that says something about how charles struck his heart Early#whereas with charles… yes on one hand he did stay on the mortal plane largely because of edwin and absolutely would’ve been impacted by the#tender act of mercy that was edwin reading to him as he died so he wouldn’t be scared. that’s absolutely what got him to trust edwin and to#want to be with him and protect him and so on#but charles would still do that and be like that under intense platonic circumstances I think#but most importantly I just think charles fell harder. when he fell is less important to me here- more important is that by GOD that boy is#down so fucking bad and outright SAYS IT in so many ways that he doesn’t realize– the sheer amount he restates how he’s content so long as#he’s with edwin. how he doesn’t want to be anywhere where edwin can’t follow. would and Did go to hell and back for him. believes him#to be the kindest and most incredible person he’s ever met. prioritizes him above anything and everything. etc etc etc#that’s not to say edwin doesn’t feel a similar amount of devotion– but charles just. really loves him with his whole person. loves him as a#fact of his existence and a piece of his very soul#idk man. it just feels like he is so incredibly smitten and he doesn’t even know it.#like I said though I can see both options and give reasons for both options so this question EATS at me I GENUINELY don’t have a super#strong feeling either is absolutely correct. it’s so difficult to answer they’re both so smitten and have such a history and GRAHHHH#payneland#dead boy detectives#rambling#polls
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i cannot deny it no longer
i prefer solavelyan over solavellan
#FUCK YOU BIOWARE SOLAS SHOULD NOT BE RACE AND GENDER LOCKED#GIVE ME THE DRAMA OF SOLAS REALZING HE FELL FOR SOMEONE WHO ISNT EVEN A PERSON IN HIS EYES#AAAAAAAAAA#yapping#dragon age#solas#solavellan#solavelyan#also the fact that Fem Trevelyan is taller than Solas?#MMMMMM#yes#I NEED SOLAS TO BE SHORTER THAN ME#ITS CUTE
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Conversations with Paul never go Right's way.
#my characters#oops i fell in love#im working on a stupid self indulgent series of fanart but while i can finish the first today i think#its important to have at least two done to post together#so i was like ok time to take a quick doodle break then this took too long bc i couldnt decide who to draw#then i forgot how to draw paul (this is a constant thing for me idk how to draw him)#theres an actual answer that right gives but this took so long im not working on it now lmao#but he really will never admit it to pauls face but he trusts paul completely when he says he wont tell#like he doesnt have the most flattering comments about paul on most days but he does fully trust him to keep a secret#so he tells him a weird work fact and paul is genuinely like wait so that one time - and rights like yup#and paul goes quiet as it processes and thank fuck ! right gets peace and quiet for five minutes while paul thinks it over
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Grinds my teeth to dust…. i wish touch didnt have so many Implications. im just trying to survive out here
#after all this i need a cuddle and a movie But who do i ask withoit them thinking im coming on to them#i need to paint a giant doomsday-guy-on-the-street-corner style sign to wear around my neck that says I AM AROMANTIC ASEXUAL#born to hug and kiss all my friends forced to stand around hands in my pockets#im scared to death of people misinterpreting my behavior or feeling uncomfortable#od be so much more relaxed like at a core of my being level if this was a nonissue#dude im desperate i might just ask the guy i almost fell asleep on tje otjet night#the ice is broken and he already knows my deal#(fantasizing about snuggling with people i like) im so fucked up ….#it’s also made way worse by tje fact that I apparently come off as very flirtatious#im playful and i love people Sorry …..#im like All or Nothing . oh my god lol#i had a friend who called me her ‘koala’ because i was constantly clinging to her#we were 7 so it was socially acceptable#99% of the time we were together i was wrapped around her legs or torso. i miss you so much sybil#the start of the end was when i innocently restrd my chin on my friend’s shoulder to watch what he was doing#and the next day someone asked me why i did that#i was like huh…? he��s my friend?#why wouldn’t i?#then i felt all weird about it And ive felt weird about it sincd#unrelated but my best friend is autistic she has misophonia and hates touch But im the misopjonia exception(real thing) AND#i’m one of the only people she hugs. straight up my biggest flex ever
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Why the fuck are there roller skates, dubstep, stage lighting, an LED screen, and all kinds of modern technology in Xilonen's trailer??? I thought Fontaine had the most advanced technology next to Schneznaya and arguably Sumeru, and every instance of high-end technology we have seen leaned more towards machinations with gears, magic, alchemy, essentially fantasy styled sci-fi???
The disrespect towards Native American and African cultures is enough to piss me off already, but it even goes against Genshin's own consistency with its fantastical world design..and for what? Just so you can have this...pop and gamer aesthetic???
Just look at these two bubbly and optimistic characters for me okay
Yoimiya's design isn't the most respectful and accurate representation of a Japanese firework craftsman, but at least you can damn tell she is Japanese. The large ribbons, hair accessories, tassels, leg covering, tattoo design, shoe style, and fabric patterns all allude to this (I apologize for not knowing the exact terminologies for these, this needs further research).
Then there's Mualani who has...what? Please do correct me if I am wrong here, but her character must be inspired by the real Mualani, a Hawaiian Chiefess. Additionally, her tribe's specialty is in tourism and vacationing, which further leads into the idea that she and her tribe are based off of Hawaii despite the known issues regarding Hawaii and tourism (if there are any good sources that summarize the issue, please do lmk).
I am not too familiar with Hawaiian culture, but there really is nothing about her design that reads as Hawaiian, or even just traditional, to me. What about a 2 piece swimsuit with bows and tails, a bow + braids + ponytail hair style, combat gloves (?), and an entire neon shark, is Hawaiian???
The characters, their designs, and their trailers, are just so culturally disconnected from their real life counterpart that it's even disconnected to Genshin's own world building and design. How the fuck is the fashion trend in Natlan denim pants. I feel like the only parts of Natlan that feel like Genshin Impact and culturally inspired are the in-game music and landscapes (God bless Hoyo-mix and the world designers).
#xilonens music in particular pisses me off.#she could possibly break my entire theory that dubstep in music is meant to represent otherworldly power#actually- the fact that the some of Natlan is like this bugs me#it could either be a legit disrespect to their culture by just not having the traditional music as it is#Or it could be the best use of musical foreshadowing this game has ever seen. which would be fucking bonkers and awesome#I have a separate post abt the use of music- particularly orchestra and dubstep#xilonen's visuals n music for her demo is just. wtf man idc if it sounds good it doesnt sound culturally and worldbuilding grounded at all#anyways thats my fucking rant for today#i am so goddamn pissed that they just wont fucking respect these cultures to the point it ruins their own quality#its really damn stupid#fontaine was genshins best designs...then they dropped this next#absolutely fell off#even with the whole technology thing- fontaine with their research and gears and all its so cool#then natlan has vtuber avatars- turntables- led screens- you get the point.#fucking ridiculous#evelynpr genshin#genshin#genshin impact#Im sorry I finally make a genshin post again#and it is this negative...im really sorry#genshin critical#natlan#xilonen#mualani#yoimiya
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a lot of people talk about how horrible tumblr is for people with moral ocd, paranoia, or other illnesses that could make, "IF YOU DON'T REBLOG, YOU ARE A HORRIBLE PERSON AND HAVE NO HEART" or "heyyyy, just a lil' friendly reminder if you do x you're a horrible pos who should die :)))))" absolutely detrimental to your mental health. WHICH IS TRUE. but. tumblr is geniunely NOTHING compared to tiktok. the guilt shaming is 10x stronger, these types of posts are a 100x more common, and probably the worst aspect of it is that because how algorithm-centered tiktok is, if you give into the compulsion on every post you see, eventually your entire fyp just become videos like this. (and if you don't know already, like 80%-90 of your time will be spent on this fyp, unlike tumblr's dashboard where atleast in my experience, most of my time is searching through tags.) the app your *supposed* to be leisurely scrolling on becomes literally a compulsion/ritual fulfilling minefield, and it gets to the point you honestly fear opening the app because you know as soon as you do, you'll just be flooded with millions of posts where you know you can't ignore (without freaking tf out) but acting on the compulsion doesn't help, because the next post will start the cycle all over again.
I've honestly decided to soft-delete the the app, which for me is just not using it at all because despite everything, I enjoy using the app when it's not like this and I still have tons of memories saved on there. but just. god.
#moral ocd#personal rant#its just so fucking exhausting#fun fact when i first downloaded the app#i actually fell into this exact cycle in like 2021#fool me twice shame on me ig#pure ocd#actually ocd#.webs deranged ramblings
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i was inspired
^ original text post for those curious
#myart#usagi yojimbo#miyamoto usagi#uy kitsune#kitsune uy#fuck i forgot my kitsune tag. sorry girl.#fun fact: this is canon. usagi was like 22-23 when his life fell in the shitter. sad </3#i drew this in like 20 mins dontlookatme#obligatory 'leave me alone if u shippin le0sag1' tag. since yknow. i think usagi might be an adult! and the other guy isnt! wow! go away!#so crazy how that works out huh.
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Bwah!!! I love this stinky man too much so much. Omg- take him away from me before I start smooching him. He is not good for me fr fr, (because I have put a chunk of myself in his personality and you know what that means!!! Feelings problems and miscommunication!!!!)
Had to do two, this looks so fuckin cool omg- i lov u Mutt!! Kiss kiss smooch kiss kiss!!!
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1) Ref image. 2) Somethin Funny. 3) Get pfp-ed bitch.
Anyway, Dunno when I'm gonna post again. Might change up my little set up here- who knows? My main blog website needs a lil sprucin up ngl.
It's time to turn everything Pink!!! (I used to hate the color pink as a child)
#fellswap!red#fellswap red#fellswap papyrus#fs papyrus#Mutt#mutt papyrus#FSR papyrus#papyrus#papyrus au#fell papyrus#papyrus art#papyri#:3#meow#utmv art#utmv au#utmv#utmv papyrus#Omg take him away from me before I smother him#this is not a threat it is a fucking fact- I will and shall smother this stinky man like a cat#sobs#art
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horror bragging about he's immortal and allat to killer and dust (because he genuinely thinks he is. like he literally came back from the DEAD that is a proud accomplishment!!!! bro probably brags all the time about it like "heh even if you hit me hard i'll just get back up. bitch")
and then killer's like alright bet! let's test that out! and then he starts going on an all out chase for horror's head. and dust just follows along because hey why the fuck not it sounds fun and it would be nice to knock horror down a peg or two :3 frantic running from horror ensues because as much as he'd like to stick by his claim he REALLY cannot be going around risking to see if him being immortal is actually true 💀
#horror it's all your fault you played with fire and now you are not about to get burned you are about to DIE#oh its probably so nervewracking....... he legit could die horror doesnt know if the other two would take mercy on him#he's been an ass all this time ‼️ he has been manipulative and lied ‼️ he has shittalked them at their lowest ‼️ he is FUCKED#or WORSE they just end up dragging this out and driving him crazy with paranoia (this is in fact what would happen)#not that he particularly regrets not being nice to killer and dust because why should he and why do they deserve it but like. GODAAMN IT#couldnt it HURT just to be a LITTLE nicer past horror???? now youre gonna DIE because you were too much of an asshole!!!!!!! fuck#but maybe he doesn't die? maybe he actually lives when the two find him and eventually#would that be worse actually yes in fact it would. if he wants anyone to find out he's actually immortal it would NOT be dust and killer#death seems much more inviting than being hunted down by those two. oh SHIT REAPER WAIT DONT TOUCH HIN#if killer and dust worked together they could probably create a torture situation that not even a tank personified would mentally survive#this seems like another one of my ideas in my head that seems bright and comedic but in reality would just be terrifying#i like it piccasso. now just set it in horrortale and then you have horror in the place of all the people he killed#all the people he hunted down all the innocents and now he gets to feel what they felt when he chased them down#the fear and nervousness of being watched of being toyed with of knowing that youre already stuck in a maze with no exit and no way back#yeah i'd kill myself the psychological horror i'd feel would just be too much dust and killer can just kill me for all i care I GIVE UP#wouldnt it be funny if dust and killer never even touch horror they just chase him until he passes out#that would be sooooo silly LMAO. bitchass we didnt even touch you and you passed out from panic and exhaustion??? COWARD 🤣🤣🤣🤣#dust and killer would never let that memory be forgotten trust. trust. i love it when they taunt and torture eachother#GOD can we get some self not so self inflicted pain onto these 3 😒😒😒 more than they already have but whatever#dont worry guys they took horror home after he passed out and when he woke up fed him a bit of soup to replenish his energy#and then they played a roblox obby to calm down and also relax and then they fell asleep all zzzrkkk mimimimi shoooo like 3 little kitties#killer sans#horror sans#dust sans#murder time trio#utmv#tricule hc
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Kakyoin: Baby changing station? *covers c* Baby hanging station.
The other Crusaders: *all clap and cheer, Polnareff spits out his drink*
#i fucking love this stupid vine so much and the episode with the baby was so funny#official confirmation that kakyoin WOULD punch a baby in the face#local 17 year old has beef with a literal shit eating baby#yes i am in fact a jojo fan and i have been since 2020#i actually fell out of it for a while because i became disillusioned with the annoying fandom#buuuuutt it never truly left me#i love kakyoin so much he's actually so cool#i miss him every day.........#(why is it always the green elusive ones i like. what)#jojo's bizarre adventure#jjba#jojo no kimyou na bouken#kakyoin#noriaki kakyoin#kakyoin noriaki#jjba stardust crusaders
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#we have a neighbor who walked past our house while walking his dog#and he threw his doggy bag into our trailer#my husband said this wasn’t the first time the guy did it#and so he figured out which house he lived in and left a note telling him not to do it again#and now this motherfucker#makes it a point to walk by our house STILL#and spit on our driveway#I’d call it a coincidence when he did it the first 2 times#but this time#I was coming home with Beba#and I got out of the car and had to get him carefully out of the car cause he fell asleep#anyways I get him inside to his bed safely and I go back out to the garage#just in time for this fucker to walk past#and he spits on the driveway right in fucking front of me#I was about to follow him and tell him the fuck off but my husband called out to me and told me not to do anything#the absolute AUDACITY#and the fact that he has NO SHAME#is astounding to me#and the fact that I couldn’t confront him because I don’t know what the fuck he is capable of and if he might retaliate and hurt me#but also the fact that he does this WITHOUT A SECOND THOUGHT#he has NO FEAR#no fear at all of something happening to him as a result of doing this#but I’m over here thinking about how I would like nothing more than to confront him but can’t because who knows what he might do to me#I am so FUCKING PISSED OFF
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