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Forgive me for this, but ah... Trains are not the paradise you seem to be describing.
They certainly can be - they're far more energy efficient than planes or cars, can be powered directly from renewable sources, and not having to fight gravity means that the engineering constraints are far, far, far looser and more forgiving of creature comforts than planes.
But capitalism is capitalism, and as someone who semi-regularly finds himself on multi-hour train journeys I can assure you that trains can also be pretty bad for comfort levels, especially when the operating company has rammed as many seats in as possible to maximise their profits.
Are they better for disabled people? Absolutely they can be - a lot of modern rolling stock has automatic floor extensions at their doors to close the gap between train and platform, so getting on and off is fine, and under the regulations we have in the UK, disabled accessible carriages have to be provided (which will provide space for multiple passengers in wheelchairs). Would the operating companies not bother if the regs weren't in place? Quite possibly - after all, those wheelchair bays could probably hold 5 or 6 rows of normal seating, while as wheelchair bays, if they're unoccupied by a wheelchair, they only have the 4 or 5 folding seats around the edge. Can people still be dicks about their luggage? Absolutely.
This of course is before we deal with gauge problems - hopefully any new trans-continental high speed rail line would be built to a broad gauge, not least because it would be an opportunity to finally deal with the preponderance of standard gauge, which does place fairly clear limits on the loading gauge - getting four seats and an aisle into standard gauge's loading gauge limits results in quite narrow seats and a narrow aisle - a broad gauge being used might result in a new standard gauge which would be more forgiving and may even start making it possible for the rest of the world to start seriously considering broadening their gauges.
But then capitalism will come back in and make damn sure that the US would never do such a thing (though maybe the current admin could be encouraged to embrace breitspurbahn guage on the basis of "well Hitler liked it") - continuing to use standard gauge on such a line would ensure that the rolling stock is cheaper and would derisk the entire project.
Also, anyone who seriously thinks trains vibrate less than planes ah... have never spent time on a train. They can be smooth as silk, but that requires expensive (to both buy and maintain) suspension systems (those aircushion bogies are lovely), and continuing, meticulous maintenance of the rails - given the rising numbers of derailments in the US in recent years... Yeah that's seemingly an optional consideration.
Also, it's worth noting that sleeper trains (which are what a transcontinental express would probably want to be) would probably be comfier than regular intercity trains, but are not something I've sampled... Because they're fucking expensive, and I can't imagine any redblooded american corporate type not pricing the luxury of a sleeper train to hell and gone (seriously, last time I looked the Caledonian sleeper - only going 800 miles - was north of £1,000 per ticket - I can fly from here to San Francisco for something around the same price).
Basically, if you want transcontinental high speed rail in the US to be what you're all imagining, you're going to have to get the US government to build it, build it to a broad gauge (Indian Gauge would probably be the best option - it's already used in the US on the BART system, and being the standard in India means parts would probably be cheaper than the ideal option of something like Brunel gauge or something even bigger), and then regulate it properly, run it well, and under no circumstances should it be expected to be run at a profit (though ideally it should atleast be able to cover it's running and maintenance costs).
“Nobody’s going to want to sit on high-speed rail for fifteen hours to get from New York City to LA.”
Me. I will sit on high-speed rail for fifteen hours. I’ll sit on it for days. I’ll write and read and nap and eat and then do it all over again. I’ll stare out the windows and see America from ground level and not have to drive. I’ll see the Rockies and the deserts and cornfields and the Mississippi River and your house and yours and yours too. I’ll make up stories in my head about the small towns I see as we go along. I’ll see the states I’ve yet to see because driving or flying there is a fucking slog and expensive to boot. I’ll enjoy the ride as much as the destination. And then I’ll do it all over again to come the fuck home.
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i'm not asking for much just for someone to desire me carnally and hit on me for once. and maybe offer to suck me off just out of view of everyone else. maybe take me home. i'm a good dog i know tricks
#i guess this is another vent post#i'm so fucking bad at. people#very afraid of all the cis men who just say “Hey” or “Wyd” on the apps#somewhat afraid of cis women in general for. complex personal reasons#and can't find all the trans people here.#but like. god when will it be my turn#my bf realized he was ace around the same time i started t and i have just not gotten fucked since#like. i can fuck other people. im allowed to. but struggle to get past the idea that Nobody Will Ever Want Me#was excited to go to a party where cruising is known to happen and. maybe finally meet some people#but uh. party is cancelled for the foreseeable future
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if you ship ingo and emmet please don't follow me
#no offense to anyone personally but it gives me the Ick real bad and the Ick is therefore associated with said people#i never mention that ship because i Do Not Like It. so why would i talk about it#i just block people and move on#this is probs the only time im gonna mention it#posting this late at night because the sleepy brain doesn't care ✌️#being on tumblr in this fandom gives me so much pointless anxiety sometimes#because of all the ship nonsense. or other nonsense like w/ that one artist and the trans jokes a while ago#and people were getting on their case about being silly about trans jokes and it's like. bruh leave them alone they're just having fun wtf#or all the stuff about creature guys and ''good autism representation''. can't a guy just live in peace wanting to be a creature#and projecting onto the faves#when i started suddenly getting lots of followers i was THIS 🤏 close to just. abandoning or deleting my blog entirely#because of the anxiety that someone would find something ''controversial'' about me and start getting a bunch of people to harass me#which. i think is not a great vibe you want for a fandom for people to have fun in#i love the friends I've made here but good lird the fandom gives me so much anxiety sometimes#because of these things#uhh. having a bad anxiety time and spiralling i think :'D
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are you catholic? i wouldn't have said so
anon 😭😭 i'm not trying to make fun of you and i'm taking this as a compliment actually but i don't know how to tell you this... i'm literally italian 😭
but seriously, i've grown up catholic yeah, but i don't believe in god and haven't taken part in anything religious in many years. i would say i'm like culturally catholic tho. and technically still catholic to the eyes of the church bc baptism and all that
#not all italians are catholic obviously so fairs but i'm a white italian there's like a pretty high chance here#this made me laugh at first bc i feel like you can't really go on my blog and not notice i'm italian which kinda means i'm likely catholic#but yeah#actually have a complicated relationship with faith that summing it up here would be hard 😭😭😭#not in a religious trauma way even if i can't say it was a fun experience to grow up trans and gay and hear the shit catholics say about#people like me. and all that#but like i have prayed recently even if i'm not religious. i think if it helps other people who are religious that i pray for or with them#then it's a pleasure to do it. kinda hard to explain but i believe praying helps even if i don't believe in any entity you pray to#like i think it helps me too in a weird way. like it helps me when other people pray for me. i'm glad to know if they do#i guess the thing is that to me religion is community and i believe so much in the importance of community so i will gladly partecipate in#other people's religion to be close to them and to understand them better and also to feel some of what they feel. feel some of their faith#because the truth is that i would love to believe. in any god. or anything spiritual. i wish i had that comfort in my life#but well the reality is that i don't believe and you can't force faith so it is what it is. i tried finding faith before and it didn't work#i said i wouldn't sum it up here then i did sorry 😭😭 there's so much more tho like. for a non religious person i think about religion sm#and i have a great appreciation for it - then we can get into Organised Religion Problems territory and i will have lots to say too#but religion itself is like one of the most beautiful thing humanity has imo#ok i'll shut up#asks#anon
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I think you're forgetting that "leftist" views are middle views. Wanting rights for people is something that everyone starts out with.
If nobody follows morals, then what's the point of them?
It's abnormal for people.
Wanting to harm others is not okay. Actually wanting to. Not being scared of the thought, not thinking that they might deserve it, but actually wanting and wishing you could harm others. And I don't understand how you don't see that.
If one guy is evil for trying to traumatize people and succeeding, and you want to traumatize people but are stopped, then what are you? Are you fine just because you're unable to?
Going "Ugh, no I don't have to follow morals because these other people do it worse than me!!!" is NOT a solution.
Let's say you threw a rock at a wall. Somebody else threw a rock at a different someone.
The kid harmed another, so clearly what they did was worse.
But, you damaged property.
That pales in comparison, right?
But why throw a rock at a wall???
Was the wall evil? Was that a reason to throw a rock at it??
Maybe that somebody threw a rock at you. Maybe you threw one back. Now they're throwing another.
"They threw one first!" You threw one back, and who cares if you say you threw it first when you both have blood on your face?
"They threw two rocks!" Who's to say that you didn't throw one first, and they threw two in retaliation?
Who's to say that you didn't throw a rock back but missed?
There are easy claims somebody could make about what happened that are false.
Fighting back and giving threats may seem like you're doing something, may help with making progress, but for them, it only proves that you're somebody "crazed" who they're right to throw a rock at. To them, your posts show their supporters that it's worth it, and that what they're doing is good.
Whatever you do that suits what they're trying to give off, that trans people are violent pedophiles, for example. They give any data they find, *shock* a trans person was near a child! evidence!!
if they spread that people from something you're a part of, systems, people with neurodivergencies, people with autism (I'm sure there's a term for this but I dont know it), are violent? maybe they use Elon as proof, "people with autism are like nazis!" (right after they had supported his nazi salute). What YOU'RE saying could be used as evidence for it.
But of course, I'm policing random people on Tumblr.
Of course, making threats and saying it's a net positive to give somebody lifelong trauma is *perfectly fine*, and none of anybody's business!
How dare I discourse in the syscourse tag??????
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Please, worry about the punishment you think that MAGA deserves after they're not a threat. Maybe, you should try focusing on stopping what they're doing right now.
Genuinely, giving me evidence that some people also do terrible things does absolutely nothing to stop that you are also saying something *not good!*
Don't act as if by saying this, I'm somehow just ignoring US politics. Multiple things can matter. You can talk about two things.
I'm trans, I'm gay, I'm neurodivergent, I have OCD (can be argued for that I'm "inherently violent" because of common intrusive thoughts if they wanted to), I'm Jewish, I'm plural. We can't "look normal", and if everything goes as they plan, I'm the first one dead in my town, because people don't care if I live or die. They might point to my house and say "good riddance." I know what's going on in politics.
Talking about how you want to ruin people's lives and cause them to have mental illness does not help that literally at all. Neither of us are doing anything to help that movement by making these posts. My reblogs will not help anything. Your post will if anything, make things worse, because Tumblr is full of leftists anyways and you're telling the extremely few people here who might be able to change from being MAGA that you want to harm them for the rest of their life.
Evil thoughts: While the accusations that I'd want to traumatize people into becoming systems are obviously ludicrous... if there was a magic string of words so hurtful that it could inflict lifelong PTSD on MAGAts, I totally would use it.
But I'd actually hate for them to become systems from it. They deserve to be alone in their suffering.
#you're not thinking about it you're making a tumblr post about how much you want others to suffer#i think we were originally going to make this more about general morality but we remembered that you don't rlly care about that so
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i had the day off so i spent like five hours doing budgeting. jesus fuck why is everything so expensive
#i'd need to make over double of what i'm making now to be able to live on my own#either a.) without a car + with a roommate somewhere near the city#which means i'd have to learn to use the public transport here. i've looked into it and none of the bus lines go beyond a very limited part#of the metro area so i'd need to find work somewhere within there.#or b.) with a car + renting on my own somewhere further out. the commute would be ass and the car maintenance even assier#thing is i really‚ really need to figure this out because i NEED to get out of this house for good#after i graduate i cannot land back in here.#there's this really cute girl i met at the club last month and we've been talking a lot and i'd love to be with her and i know she would to#but she's trans and my parents would legit throw me out of the house if they found out#and she doesn't deserve to be hidden‚ y'know? i want to be able to tell everyone i know and care about about us#but i just can't do that right now. and i hate the thought of missing out on relationships and stifling myself like this out of fear#i talk a big game sometimes but i'm TERRIFIED of the people and the things i've noticed i'm attracted and drawn to#because i know what my parents say about 'those' people. i've heard every mean-spirited‚ downright disgusted thing they've said#and for all the smiles and the hugs my family throws my way i know what they are. i've seen the treatment they give queer family members.#i have an uncle who didn't speak to his daughter for almost a decade when she came out as a lesbian#it was only a couple years ago that they started to reconnect and she can't even bring her partner to family gatherings because it makes#people 'uncomfortable'#i'm sorry i'm rambling at this point but i just wish things would get a little easier. instead i feel all this pressure and everything#getting harder#nothing left to do except put on my big boy pants i guess#sansgwilie
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Help Prevent Two Disabled Trans Women From Losing Their Car
We're still relying on donations to keep us afloat right now. They've nearly stopped completely despite people still reblogging our post, and it's all we have at the moment to keep our only source of transportation for the household. My girlfriend and I are stuck here until I can heal up and find a job or we can find a way of saving up for an RV to get the hell out dodge before then and leave this all behind us. I'll hopefully be seeing a nerve specialist sooner rather than later to have some of the nerves ablated in my abdomen to deal with my constant pain since having hernia surgery and my left testicle removed. With everything going on in the household, the money that's been donated to us has been having to go our car note in full every month, as my parents can't afford to pay for anything more than they already are as they tend to waste money going out shopping and buying shit they don't need on a consistent basis while the problems keep piling up. We're still living in a run down shed with our cat, a former stray, with no insulation, poorly installed electricity and no running water along with the water in the house not being on right now. In the coming months, we're expecting for there to be more rain fall and for it to get hotter as summer approaches. Recently it rained all day long and we were barely able to keep the shed from flooding, and despite our efforts, things still ended up getting ruined from the rainwater that flooded in. We're in a desperate situation right now and anything that you can donate genuinely helps us in the long run to getting out of here sometime hopefully soon. I appreciate all those who have been able to help us out so far and I'm sorry that we're having to continue to e-beg like this but we're not sure what else there is that we can do right now. We can't afford to lose our only source of transportation in a situation like this, even just $1 helps. Thank you for taking the time to read, even if you can't donate, sharing helps us as well.
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we're in this catch-22 of "it's totally okay to mock afab trans people because they're cringy and women-lite" and "we have to protect afab trans people because they are women-lite and soft and pathetic and defenseless." and it makes me want to scream my fucking head off i'm not even afab and i'm tired of the absolute clownery and torture folks put these people through. enough is enough, if folks aren't bending over backwards to find reasons to exclude amab queer people, they're finding every reason under the sun to mock, belittle, hate and infantilize afab trans people because of their refusal to let go of misogyny.
y'all treat ALL parts of the sex binary like shit and enough is enough you can't sit here and hate someone for their agab if you're in the queer community. regardless of your reason. there IS no good reason to hate or mock someone because of their agab. let go of the binary for the love of god and stop giving afab trans people shit because you can't let go of your misogyny and you think it's a-okay to bully them because they're women in your eyes. like cut it the fuck out this shit is transparent as day i'm sick of it.
if i as an intersex person have to step in to defend agabs that aren't even mine, y'all are failing each other tremendously. do better.
#trans#transgender#lgbtqia#lgbtq#lgbt#queer#transmasc#transmasculine#non binary#nonbinary#enby#genderqueer#genderfluid#demiboy#demigirl#demigender#transneutral#transneu#transmascfem#transfemasc#transfem#transfeminine#transfemme#trans man#trans men#trans boy#trans guy#tboy#ftm#afab enby
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People in fandoms* associated with Neil Gaiman are not showing each other the grace they should be in a stressful time, and I would like to remind people of some things:
Not everybody knows about the allegations because it is not being reported widely in mainstream media. Gaiman has engaged a PR/crisis management firm that has done work with Marilyn Manson, Russell Brand, and Danny Masterson to actively squash coverage.
The story broke on a site unfamiliar to a lot of non-UK people. There was confusion as well as outright misinformation about whether the site was a TERF outlet (it is not). While Rachel Johnson, the lead reporter on the story, is a TERF who has publicly clashed with Gaiman about trans rights, she has behaved responsibly and ethically as a journalist regarding this. I wrote more in depth about these things here.
Everybody deals differently with finding out creators are problematic. The method you prefer is not the only correct way of coping. Some people are able to divorce art from the creator and some people are not. This is an attitude that can change over time. And if you feel like you need to express frustration that somebody else's method isn't the same as yours? I would recommend shutting your fucking trap.
If people know about the allegations, it's shitty to assume they're ignoring them or think they're false until somebody explicitly says so. There are many things people don't say online, and you are not owed disclaimers or explanations.
Fandom is more than the work itself. Some people find strength in the community that has formed around it, and rely on each other to help cope with and grieve this loss. The love you have for the work and your fellow fans is not something that belongs to the creator. It never has and that can't be taken away.
Your personal relationship with a creator's work will change over time. That's inevitable regardless of whether they turn out to be problematic or not. And when those works are deeply significant and formative, like many of Gaiman's works are to me** and countless others? That's fucking tough. Be kind to yourself and others when working through this. I love you all.
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* I have seen this in Good Omens most prominently, although I am sure there are other places where it is happening as well.
** I have been a fan of Gaiman's work longer than some of you have been alive. It has not been a great month or so.
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I admit that seeing the whole Talia Bhatt bullshit has been both kind of funny but also really making me realize how much TRFs have lost their common sense. I've seen so many of the big names who platformed Talia without an ounce of shame suddenly pretending they all knew this was going to happen. Which, a lot of people had mentioned already (her love for detrans women is explicitly brought up in her book- In a way that's really creepy at that). But these people were called hysterical transandrobros for daring to oppose her.
Now people are saying "wow I knew she was bad news, you couldn't ever try to reclaim radfeminism as a transfeminist thing" and things like that. And like, they had no issue with that a week ago. They're not even really talking about how horrifying is that she's happy to platform detrans people who vouch for gatekeeping transition, because they do literally think it's a positive thing IF it only affects transmascs. Their major gripes are about the fact they consider detrans women need to stay in their place as TMEs and that they can't ever try to compare their experiences to TMAs.
I'm sure there's going to be few people who are more on the fringes of this discourse who will realize that transradfeminism is really just unsalvageable, but there's also some TRFs that are kinda doubling down on how they just don't think there's an issue with platforming detrans grifters who think society makes it too easy to transition, specially with all the talks about how "all trans men are waiting to detransition and become hitlerites" or whatever crap they wanna say. And like, I don't think they'll realize this at this point, but vouching to make it hard for trans men to transition can't really be separated from making it also harder for trans women to transition. It's almost as if legislations that affect trans men also affect trans women. If one side is going down, so is the other.
But they're going to go through hoops and loops to find how much they can pretend there's no shared trans experience amidst trans people, I guess. And I think this latest discovery is really gonna just make it more evident which ones do truly believe this.
just to bring this point home, heres an excerpt from her book where she talks about Stone Butch Blues and how ~transfeminist~ it is that the main character Jess detranitioned:
this is the supposed future that trans(rad)feminists want? where the only gender is woman and they will justify detransitioning trans men/mascs and nonbinary people in order to do so?
trans radical feminism is as trans exclusionary as the radical feminism before it, but trfs dont care because its only targeting everyone thats not a woman 🙃
#transandrophobia#transandromisia#for the record i stole this excerpt from a trf that turned on talia lol
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Anyway this is relatively minor in the greater context of transmisogyny but sort of a demonstration of the fact that having good and inclusive policies only means so much when put up against all the rest of society being nakedly transmisogynistic.
I have been working out at a gym lately because it helps with my physical and mental health both. At this point in my transition I pretty much exclusively boymode in public and thus far the whole dressing room issue has not been an issue for me. But I recognize that at some point it is going to be both a comfort and a safety issue for me, so I've been looking for information about you know. What the policies of various service providers here in the metropolitan region of Finland are.
And the thing is, that information just isn't anywhere to be found. Like, that information does exist, but it simply isn't posted anywhere publicly. I know that the city of Helsinki has extremely inclusive and affirming policies when it comes to the use of gendered spaces in their sports and recreation services. Because I asked them through private channels (thus technically also outing myself to the person who answered my email, which just adds another layer of messed-up-ness to it). But because that information isn't posted anywhere it just doesn't actually do anything, right?
Like, I've been reading lots of literature about how trans folks, especially trans women, often don't feel comfortable in sports and recreation services for various reasons, and like I can't help but think of the fact that so much public discourse circles around how we're seen as invaders in gendered spaces, how other customers will target us with abuse and how service providers will often do very little to help us in the face of that abuse (and will often actively side with the person who finds out existence to be a threat). That is the ambient background noise we constantly live under, so we're inclined to believe that most service providers would, if a conflict should arise, take the side of a cis person who found our presence objectionable. This has actual measurable effects on trans people's health outcomes and we know a lot of the obstacles are not due to direct discrimination but due to structural and cultural obstacles.
So when some place actually does have an extremely inclusive and accommodating policy and their internal policies make it clear that their support for trans people is unequivocal and uncompromising and you know that their actual policy has got your back. It still doesn't help when that policy is nowhere to be seen.
It's always good to be critical of performative allyship. If a gym says that they welcome everyone and puts up pride flags for one month every year and then still asks a trans woman to leave the women's dressing room because a cis woman got scared, that's performative allyship. This is the opposite. These people have a clearly articulated policy that confirms that they will have your back if you're caught Exercising While Trans, but that information is nowhere to be found. I do think part of it is caution: they can't advertise that trannies are not shot on sight at their gyms because that would draw the ire of the right wing hate mob.
Anyway I'm glad the city of Helsinki is Woke and I have also relayed this information to some of the other dolls in the area, and apparently it's found its way to other queer groups here. But I have also told the lovely city employee I was in contact with that they should really have this information available somewhere, because not having it out there does represent an obstacle.
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Hello! First of all I want to tell you that I love your writings ❤️ Second, I wanted to ask you if you can't place an order for Hyun-ju. I love that woman. I would like an Angst, I'll leave it to your imagination. thank you ✨✨✨✨
You're The Only Exception
Summary: Between wanting to be accepted and saving a life, Hyun-Ju takes comfort and finds hope in you as the only exception.
Pairing: Hyun-Ju x GN!Reader (No pronouns used)
Warnings: angst, mentions of transphobia, transphobic, guilt, the death of Young-Mi, she deserved better 😭😭
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Author's Note: Thank you so much for requesting this, I hope you enjoy it! I didn't know whether to put for angst that people were looking at her weird bc she's trans or her feelings guilty for not saving Young-Mi in time, so I used both
Guys please understand that writing this, I'm a cis woman, AFAB, please do let me know if there's things to change up as I want to get trans representation right.

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If being in the games was hard for anyone, it would be for Hyun-Ju. Looking for acceptance in a place where you're fighting for your life isn't ideal.
The only comfort and trust she could find was in you and Young-Mi. You felt bad for her as nobody wanted to team up with her or really talk to her. It would be nice to get out of your comfort zone.
For the second game, you teamed up with Hyun-Ju, an old lady and her son, a younger girl named Young-Mi. You survived thank God, but still wanted to know Hyun-Ju more.
Back in the dormitory, she was comfortable telling you and the team about her identity and her whole backstory.
"I accept you Hyun-Ju."
Those words stuck with Hyun-Ju. It's all she ever wanted, to be accepted for who she is.
"You're safe here, you have us."
It was like the family and love have been waiting for her in this place. She just had to look more deeper.
Unfortunately, that comfort wasn't going to last long. For the third game, it was mingle. When the carousel stops spinning, there will be a number on the screen announced and you have to form groups of that number and lock yourself in a room before the timer runs out.
Hyun-Ju made sure to stay with you and Young-Mi, both of you alive and safe. Everything was going well until one round.
You, Hyun-Ju and many other players were running to get to a room safely. Unfortunately, Young-Mi accidentally got pushed and couldn't make it to the door on time.
Hyun-Ju notices this and tries to save her. You looked at the timer, knowing there wouldn't be enough time to save her and you and all the others in the room would be dead.
Another player, Myung-Gi goes in and locks the door. Young-Mi rushes to the door and cries for Hyun-Ju.
Hyun-Ju is yelling for her and the whole thing made you feel bad.
Bang
Young-Mi drops the ground and is unresponsive. Hyun-Ju grabs Myung-Gi by his shirt and starts yelling at him.
"It's your fault! I could have saved her!"
"If you did, you would be dead, and all of us would. What's better 1 dead person or a group of 6 people dead?" Myung-Gi exclaims
He had a point but you just knew Hyun-Ju wanted Young-Mi to live. You also wanted her to live as well.
After the game was over, Hyun-Ju was silent walking back to the dormitory.
You thought it would be best to talk to her as you are starting to become closer with her.
"Hyun-Ju? Are you ok?" Reaching out to put a hand on her shoulder, Hyun-Ju turns to you.
"I could have saved her. I should have saved her. She didn't deserve to die." Hyun Ju looks down in shame
"If you went to save her, you would have been dead too then."
"She wanted out of the game Y/N. If I pressed X, instead of O, maybe it would have helped, I should have left the room-"
"It was a hard decision, I know and there wasn't a lot of time left. I wish she made it too, but there's nothing you really can do about it"
"She was one of the first people besides you that really accepted me."
"She would also want you to keep moving forward and get out of here. I do too."
Hyun Ju turns to you
"We'll get out of here and you'll get that surgery, and you'll move to where you want to go. I have faith in you Hyun Ju."
"You do?"
"Yes I do, and you should too"
There was a moment of silence between you too. Hyun-Ju was taking in what you said. For the next vote, she was determined to keep going and survive not only for Young-Mi, but also for you.
"Y/N, can I tell you something?"
"It's like you're the only exception in this place, out of everyone here, I'm glad to have met you and Young-Mi."
"I'm glad too Hyun-Ju, I'm glad too."
She holds out her hand and you take it. You gave it a tight squeeze as reassurance everything will be ok. And it will be.
As long as Hyun-Ju had you, everything and anything felt possible.

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Sorry if this is going too far with turning your inbox into the children's cartoon complaint zone, but the stuff about Grenda in Gravity falls got me thinking.
I was a teenager when Gravity Falls was coming out, and it remains one of my favorite cartoons, but rewatching it recently made me uncomfortably aware of just how much mean-spirited and offensive comedy there is throughout. Grenda as a "comic relief" character is a huge one of course, but there's just a LOT of deriving comedy from people's bodies and appearances. Plus just straightforward man-in-a-dress jokes...
There's also the fact that Alex Hirsch seems to think AAVE (or like "slang" created to be a comically heightened imitation of AAVE) is the most hilarious thing ever, but also makes sure it's always coming from on-screen white characters, as if that unproblematizes the way it's mocked? It's a CONSTANT recurring thread throughout the series.
I ended up falling off a recent rewatch for a while after hitting the episode "Soos and the Real Girl." It really hit me there with the exact way they were characterizing Soos's social incompetence and "childish" interests, oh, he's straight up supposed to be autistic. He explicitly gets obsessed with the dating sim because he likes how social interactions have predictable rules in it, unlike real life. It's hammered home *multiple* times that one of his big stated social deficiencies is an inability to make eye contact, etc. Come the fuck on. And that's fine in a vacuum, the episode ends with everyone realizing he didn't need to change himself because he could still have value as a person as long as his awkwardness was charming to a quirky chubby woman.
But all the jokes in the episode are still about how funny it is that he's socially unaware and makes other people uncomfortable or frightened. And worse, it recontextualizes the way he's used as a joke throughout the rest of the series, the way he's portrayed as stupid, as a man-child, as being abused and taken advantage of by his employer while he's oblivious to it. It's just so gross. And that's not even getting into how he's also fat and Hispanic, and he's not just mocked but *dehumanized* for comedy CONSTANTLY.
Plus that episode throws in one of the show's transphobic jokes for good measure. Isn't it so funny that you can't tell if this person in alternative fashion is a man or a woman? Isn't it funny that Soos is so autistic-- I mean socially inept-- that he openly, in public, to their face, speculates on their gender? Not like for trans people that's a nightmare scenario that carries an implicit threat of violence or anything...
And all this is absolutely not to suggest that Gravity Falls is a uniquely harmful piece of media. I know for certain if you pick any network sitcom at random, before or even since Gravity Falls, you'd find way worse examples of all of this. But it's just a bummer to now be a grown-ass fat, autistic, trans woman who can recognize some of this stuff, and realize that even the media that's most special to me thinks it's funny to be hostile to people like me, that it's not really made for me. And to recognize that it's even worse for people who are marginalized in ways that I'm not.
Anon I’m in love with you — it’s like you went down a checklist in my brain of every complaint i’ve ever had about this show. i completely, completely agree with every note here — the jokes about AAVE specifically stood out to me, especially since there’s been at least one occasion where Hirsch went on a twitter rant about how (xyz aave) is the worst, stupidest thing to ever happen to the English language (meanwhile he thinks combining the words “Bill” and “Dipper” is funny enough to include as a joke despite it being just literally putting two names together. wooow how clever and funny white people are, thank god this caucasian braingenius is protecting the sanctity of the english language from black people who make up bad new words)
also dude can’t go five seconds without putting a white person in a “cowboys and indians” style native american costume. Hirsch has a fucking major problem with the way he treats his hispanic characters & how he portrays native american mythology & culture as basically this funny stupid thing to be used as set dressing for white people.
it feels a lot like he watched The Simpsons’ (sometimes effective, sometimes ineffective) satire on racism, bigotry, and the conservative tendencies in archetypical american towns and understood that it was funny but didn’t get why and just limply recreated the jokes without the structure for it to be a satire. not that the Simpsons doesn’t fall into these same problems with racism & body shaming, but i feel like they at least have a veneer of it being “isn’t it stupid how people like Homer think like this?” rather than just “haha different culture talk funny”
and the problem is, it sucks that it’s like this because it’s so good. it feels like every time i recommend it i have to be like “a lot of the jokes have aged like milk but it’s worth it”. like i love Gravity Falls. which is why it’s important to criticise it for its flaws.
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now more than ever it's blatantly obvious that people go out of their way to erase trans men from communities and queer history. it's always been happening, but it's way easier to watch it in real time now thanks to the internet and social media. we are watching people basically gloating that they misgender trans men and don't see them as men. we are now watching people kick trans men out of queer spaces because they are often "femme and them" or "nonbinary and woman" support groups, conflating nonbinary identities with womanhood, and denying trans men or transmasc nonbinary people places to go. many of them get told that their presence would "scare" the lesbians, women and enbies because they have trauma.
where do the trans men with trauma go, though? we can't go anywhere. when i was struggling with domestic violence that ended up destroying my right leg, i was denied shelter in queer spaces and even women's spaces even though i have F on license. domestic violence shelters especially will turn trans men away if we pass. even if we partially identify as women, we can't go in because 'our voices are deep and scary and we're loud and aggressive and threatening and might prey on the defenseless scared women'
finding transmasc support groups is like trying to find a needle in a haystack. i've seen numerous organizations across the US have transfemme support groups, nonbinary/genderqueer support groups, and then nothing for transmascs. where the hell do we go when they won't let us go anywhere?
we try to exist online and they try to erase us from here, too. bickering and arguing about how we're not real men, sending trans men death and sexual assault threats, acting like they're saviors for kicking out the "dangerous ugly men" from the queer community, as if we don't belong to it at all.
i refuse to be erased. i refuse to sit in silence while people tell me my problems don't matter because now i "have male privilege". I don't. once people find out what my legal name is they view me as a woman. strangers however view me as a cis man and will deny me help, either through programs, or because i'm a "strong young man, i should be able to pick myself up by my boot straps." i'm not white. i'm not abled.
i'm proud to be a trans man and i will be here to fight for other trans men's rights to have a platform to speak, and spaces to occupy. i will not rest until trans men & mascs have safe places to be and meet other trans men.
trans men are queer. we belong here. we are taking up the space we rightfully deserve and we are not leaving.
#trans#transgender#trans man#trans men#trans boy#ftm#trans guy#nonbinary#non binary#enby#genderqueer#genderfuck#genderfucker#gender non conforming#genderfluid#demigender#bigender#polygender#multigender#lgbtqia#lgbtq#lgbt#queer#our writing#about us#transmasc#transmasculine#transmasculinity#transandrophobia#trans issues
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AWESOME SEX-ED
Ok it has just occurred to me that probably not everyone knows about my favorite sex-ed resource, Scarleteen! They have loads of great articles with information about sex, birth control, etc. They also have ways for you to ask questions that you want answered!
They have articles on everything from having sex as a disabled person, a fat person, and/or an intersex person to how to get FREE birth control as a minor(!!!) asexuality 101 and so much more!!
This is an awesome resource and my go-to when I want to know something about sex, I highly recommend it for anyone with questions/curiosities about sex, and while it's largely teen focused, there will be something here that's helpful for just about anyone!
When I started writing this post I was just going to include a couple articles... but I found so many I like so here are a bunch that may be helpful under the cut (Disclaimer: I have not read all of them because there are so many, nor am I in every group of people they're about, for example I'm not intersex or disabled, so I can't speak to the accuracy of all of them, but I've generally found Scarleteen to be pretty reliable.)
The articles I've included are mostly less typical stuff and things I think are super important but not talked about enough, if you're looking for more basic sex-ed just going to their website will get you started.
Tagging a couple accounts on here who do sex-ed stuff incase they want to reblog (No pressure though <3) @certifiedsexed @batmanisagatewaydrug
ALSO APPARENTLY SCARLETEEN IS ON TUMBLR??? @hellyeahscarleteen amazing.
Anatomy
Quickies: Sexual Anatomy | Scarleteen
With Pleasure: A View of Whole Sexual Anatomy for Every Body | Scarleteen
Intersex stuff
(Inter)sex and Relationships | Scarleteen (A series of articles by an intersex person)
Supporting Your Intersex Child Through Puberty | Scarleteen
Trans stuff
Supports for Trans Youth and Their Families (and a few words for everybody else) | Scarleteen
It's a Trap: How to Spot Anti-Trans Resources | Scarleteen
Self-Care Amidst a Deluge of Anti-Trans Legislation | Scarleteen
Transmasculine Flow: Let's Talk Periods | Scarleteen
Welcome to Trans Summer School! | Scarleteen (At the top there's a drop down that says "This piece is part of Trans Summer School" which shows you all of the articles)
The Lowdown on Low-Dose Testosterone | Scarleteen
Finding Our Own Voices: Renée Yoxon and Gender-Affirming Vocal Therapy | Scarleteen
Some Books and Balms for Nonbinary Folks | Scarleteen
Fatness
Fat Bodies: Learning to Care for Your Rolls and Folds | Scarleteen
The Confidence of Fat Sexuality: An interview with sex educator Elle Chase | Scarleteen
Disability stuff
Disabled Sex: Sex for Two (or More) | Scarleteen
Wheelchair, Bound? Kink and Disability | Scarleteen
Consent Is Sexy: Sexual Autonomy and Disability | Scarleteen
We Need to Talk About Sex and ADHD | Scarleteen
Body Talk: Listening To and Learning From Your Chronic Pain | Scarleteen
A Disabled Persons Guide to Talking with Your Partner(s) About Sex | Scarleteen
Sex and Parent Caregivers | Scarleteen
Disabled Sex Yes! | Scarleteen
I really want to have sex, but I don't know how, and I'm queer, chronically ill and isolated. | Scarleteen
Birth control
Getting Birth Control May Be Easier Than You Think! | Scarleteen (Aka how to get FREE BIRTH CONTROL as a MINOR. Not just for the USA but also Australia, Canada, India, New Zealand, South Africa, and the UK)
How to Manage Pain with IUD Insertions | Scarleteen (Not even just about pain, super in-depth helpful guide)
Other
F*c&!ng First Aid: A Quick Guide to Common Sex Injuries | Scarleteen
From OW! to WOW! Demystifying Painful Intercourse | Scarleteen
Sex after rape. Where do I begin? | Scarleteen
Becoming Out: a totally non-exhaustive, step by step guide to coming out | Scarleteen
Your PMDD Primer: A Necessary Guide to an Under Researched Disorder | Scarleteen
Crisis Pregnancy Centers: Harm, Not Help | Scarleteen
Just the Basics, Ace: An Asexuality Primer | Scarleteen
#vio posts#sex education#sex ed#asexual#transgender#trans#birth control#intersex#fat liberation#disability#disabilities#queer#lgbtq#resources
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mtmte is the best comic ever and i can prove it to you
There is, of course, the canon mpreg
Grimlock, known Decepticon killer, gets adopted into a group known as The Worst Decepticons Alive, has a baby with them
The bloodthirsty, mentally ill guy that lowkey caused Megatron to go all evil adopts a bunch of red scraplets
Ratchet steals his ex-coworker's hands and keeps them for himself
On the hands: Before that, he would hit his with a hammer because they didn't work properly. Right before a surgery
Man experiences police brutality, decides to take over the universe
Rodimus' nonsensical doodles turn out to be a map leading to heaven
Rodimus also gets crucified
The therapist of the ship, also known as the most forgettable guy ever, is actually God with a capital G
God befriends a guy doing everything in his power to prove the existence of the afterlife
God befriends an atheist
God almost gets sacrificed
Remember the Worst Decepticons Alive? Their dumbest member (who genuinely believes squirrels live in minds) created the cure for lobotomies
There's a random man's corpse sticking out of the engine and also a kinda-vampire
To turn vampires back into regular people you have to hit them real hard in the head
The leader of the DJD runs his group of bloodthirsty killers and torturers like an office workplace
They get scolded by the tiny medic they could squish and are terribly afraid of her
You get to know how the war actually started! It was because of a curly straw
Character goes back in time to stop the war because he's gay and ends up accidentally causing it
Multiple transfem characters!! All of the girls are trans!!!! And most of the boys are gay!!!!
They made STARSCREAM the ruler of the world
There's an entire chapter dedicated to that one time they were chased by a planet
Local Girl's Best Friend Dies, Responds To That By Putting His Brain In Her Eye Socket
They steal a guy's corpse, increase his size with an experimental thingy an amoral scientist created, and use his alt mode as a spaceship when theirs gets stolen
There's an Autobot spy that communicates to them by shooting a crew member
Even the serious panels have meme potential (see: Overlord and Rodimus)
Whirl's general existence makes the world a worst place, which makes the comic even better
"What gives? I'm normal again! Well, relatively speaking."
[Singing] "No one cares! No one cares what you have to say~"
Whirl making a depressed Rodimus so angry that he goes to get by by lighting (I actually can't remember if this is how it went lmao, it might've been the other way around)
When he told everyone about the time he "killed" someone in their sleep and shoved their wand up their ass
Brainstorm creates a button that allows the characters to break the fourth wall. Swerve presses it and becomes a narrator
One of the most painful slow burns EVER. Jesus
Their first actual interaction consisted of Cyclonus dropping Tailgate because he was annoying
Then: "I knew you'd find me"
Violent warlord that has destroyed multiple planets and planned to conquer the universe gets legally mandated into becoming the ship's captain, much to Roddy's despair
At some point, Megatron starts to sound just like Rodimus when talking to Magnus and it makes him want to kill himself
OP gives Roddy and Meg the shared title of "co-captain" so Rodimus wouldn't get upset
Oh, here's a thing: Tumblr is canon in TF IDW
The Scavengers (Worst Decepticons) go to the real world as TF toys and it's never mentioned ever again
Warriors who have endured six million years of war, powerful and feared, freak out when the light goes out
Space Jesus 2 demands an audience with God, gets hit by lightning and disappears
Character survives a terminal illness by dying
Ultra Magnus gets drunk. He's a giggler. He also starts crying
And more!!!!
#transformers#mtmte#more than meets the eye#tf idw#okay#i can do this#lost light#rodimus prime#ultra magnus#megatron#grimlock#the scavengers#ratchet#whirl#rung#nightbeat#nautica#skids#djd#starscream#no i give up#I can't#thats it#avis talks
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