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on a far more positive/upbeat note i am going to be digging out the christmas stockings later (because no i didn't decorate this year fuck you) and i am going to be stuffing them full of little treats and toys for my dogs because they are wonderful and they deserve the world and i bought them new sweaters and i am going to take so many pictures for my partner who can't see them rn. i will be happy for at least One Hour this weekend. i have declared it.
#the sweaters are really cute too#and actually the right sizes this year#i think#i was kind of guessing again lol#knit sweaters on dogs are something that can be so personal#to me#especially to me#ultimately they won't care or remember#but i will#i need this
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KHAOTUNG THANAWAT as RAY PAKORN episode 10 of ONLY FRIENDS
#only friends#ofts#ray pakorn#khaotung thanawat#only friends the series#th: only friends#bibi gifs#i've been making gifs for a year now or well november 10th is actually the exact day#this was made for no other reason than just remember the date#this was my first ever scene i've ever giffed which certainly is a choice#back then i didn't even dare to mess with coloring#i'm very serious i posted the gifset as they were in the scene i just cut them and posted#they weren't even the right size!!!#they were of a size i don't even use and i have no idea where i got those measures from#i've learned a lot in the past year and there are still things that i don't understand about this whole thing#if my math is correct i have 350 gifsets posted on this blog alone#that's insane#i apparently have a lot of time in my hands or i just focus really hard on doing this type of thing#thank you for indulging me with kind words saying you think these messes are pretty i got a lot more confident bc of that#i'll continue to gif random shit and pretty people kissing and falling in love and being messy and princesses in the future
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do you think about making products with your art?
i would love to have a pin with some characters you draw
i did actually make a few products once for a vograce collaboration (i never showed them here)
but for selling the items i probably won't do that anytime soon unfortunately
#i get stressed just thinking of putting up a shop on interent then budgeting and ordering the products and then shipping them out#it's just so much work that i have no time during the school year#plus my starting capital is absolutely zero and i feel like my art isn't really the right for those products#since i don't design it with that in mind#(i mean colours and canvas size etc)#i would actually love to but realistically i am not even close to starting
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got to see the total eclipse in person!!! heres some art commemorating that! cuz getting to watch 2 celestial bodies make out sloppy style was inspiring what can i say, also it was just rlly beautiful and cool and amazing to get to see ghg- but also! its like?? basically the moon finally getting the suns undivided attention... and thats got some vibes to it,, some energies... that i could not ignore lol.
#original art#eclipse#solar eclipse 2024#total eclipse#doodles#original#artists on tumblr#ok sorry these r probably kinda sloppy looking. 1 paintings very difficult.#and 2. my brain wouldnt let me work on other shit before finishing these but i have other shit i NEED TO DO#so im deciding they r now finished i dont wanna spend any more time on them lol#i think they turned out ok tho#i recorded the process of me drawing them too so#there might..be a speedpaint. possibly#last time i said a picture would get a speedpaint was like 2 years ago and it didnt get one cuz my computer hated me lol#but! i have a new computer now...#if i find the time / energy to make that speedpaint.. then there might be a speedpaint#we shall see lol#i kno the height difference i gave them isnt acurate at all to actual sizes. the sun is bigger#but... this is what i wanted to draw gghgh-#if it makes u feel any better i did come up w a headcanon while drawing that they can just shapeshift freely n be whatever heights they wan#right now the moons just taller#cuz i said so#also sorry they kinda resemble my tak and gaz a bit… that wasn’t intentional… I just wanted the moon to be gothy and the sun be spiky#but#they kinda do look a bit like them ghg-
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hello hi tell us about mementos and the security level
OH HELLO. Welcome to my personal hill to die on. This post is long. It's one of my out-loud rants in text form. Sorry in advance. There's a cut down there somewhere.
Thesis statement of whatever's about to come next is that Mementos fucks actually as a concept its execution was just horrible and also Yaldabaoth is a terrible final boss. OKAY LET'S GET INTO IT
First things first I really do think Mementos should have gotten a security level. The game plays "Mementos is the public's Palace" very straight, all the way to the end, insisting that Yaldabaoth is created by the public's desire for a status quo yadda yadda yadda. So like. Here's the screenshots actually
I didn't get the whole conversation mostly because I think I was streaming at the time and complaining out loud but like. He just straight-up says this? And then they do nothing with it???
Imagine this with me. Enter the imagisphere or whatever.
It's October. You've just defeated Okumura, and you just watched the mysterious black-masked figure you've been told cryptically about for a while now kill his Shadow. You watch Okumura have a mental shutdown live. It's horrific! It's worrying! What happened? What's going to happen to you? The Phan-Site meter starts dropping rapidly. You go to Mementos to prepare for the next Palace.
There's a security level.
NOT ONLY did this act make the public lose faith in you, but now you're enemy #1, and it's reflected in the collective unconscious. This Chekov's gun that they set up back in May goes off. You have to be much more careful in Mementos because if you aren't, you could get kicked out. The stakes are higher. Mementos, the public view of you, has changed. It's not just doors opening for you anymore.
THAT WOULD BE SO COOL. RIGHT? RIGHT??? BUT NO! No we don't get a security level until the depths, which contradicts itself, actually, because once you get to the depths, the whole POINT is that the public ISN'T reacting to you or your actions! Why the hell would they care that you're In There!
The obvious answer is that it's because the security level belongs to the Holy Grail/Yaldabaoth/the fuckass cup/whatever you personally call him. And okay, whatever, but the game goes out of its way to establish that the Grail isn't really a separate entity from "public desire," he IS "public desire," the status quo incarnate, so once again, I ask, why is this the only time you have a security level! (I know it's because this is the home-stretch to the final boss and mechanically it has to act like a proper Palace. I still think it's stupid.)
And now that I'm talking about the Grail. Hi. Hello. If you've talked to me on Discord you already know this but I fucking hate the Grail. I think it's stupid. I think it's thematically inconsistent. I think its only purpose is to be the "Let's fight God!" final boss. I truly believe that if I hadn't gotten into Persona 5 through Royal, I would not still be into Persona 5, because I would have gotten so frustrated with Yaldabaoth that I would have dropped the game. I regularly complain for half an hour straight about this thing in voice calls. One person once told me the only thing they knew about Persona 5 was that this cup sucked because I wouldn't shut up about it.
I've somehow managed to not do this on Tumblr but I can't really talk about Mementos without talking about it so I guess we're talking about the cup
Narratively: Yaldabaoth just sort of comes out of nowhere??? The whole game is building up to Shido. The whole game. And you do it! You defeat him! And then... there's this other thing??? Apparently??? I was genuinely really confused when I got to this part of the game the first time because I was going ok we beat the final boss complete with eight hundred phases! Hooray! And now there's this other fucker. Going back through the game there's some foreshadowing for him? But it's kind of all concentrated in the start of the game, around Madarame's Palace, when you're just getting used to Mementos, and then it all sorta just disappears.
YOU KNOW WHAT IS FORESHADOWED, THOUGH? MORGANA.
Imagine with me x2 because this is where I thought the game was taking us when it went "btw we need to tackle the depths now"
Morgana has no memories. Morgana knows there's something in the depths that explains who he is. Morgana assumes it's because he's human, and will become human again if he finds out what it is. The WHOLE POINT of exploring Mementos was for Morgana's memories! And then he starts getting these really unsettling dreams, right, where he's a Shadow, or has a Shadow, or whatever. And then you get to the depths.
What I thought was about to happen was that we were going to find out that Morgana was more or less what the Grail claims to be(a being created by the wishes of the masses) and that Mementos was going to be Morgana's Palace. "Oh but Morgana has a Persona-" Morgana's already a weird case I could easily see him having a Shadow or being a Shadow himself while also having a Persona. I'm ignoring Maruki because we're talking about vanilla and Maruki didn't exist yet.
I thought our final boss was going to be Mona's Shadow and that by defeating him(the part of Morgana(as a Shadow/Metaverse being/etc) representative of what they were trying to make Yaldabaoth: wanting to let the status quo handle everything, more or less, the desire to let the system do what it's designed to even if that thing is "crush everything in its path") we would reaffirm that change is possible as long as we all work together. Morgana getting to be this very physical symbol of rebellion and force of will and getting to go NO I want to try even if it hurts me.
What actually happened was... a lot more underwhelming.
What we got was, in a game where one of the primary themes is "rebellion against systemic injustice, you can't just get rid of the One Guy and fix Everything," a final boss who was... one guy who if you got rid of him you'd fix everything?
And I get it Atlus doesn't want to actually shake the boat that much but at the same time Yaldabaoth comes out of nowhere and says absolutely nothing of substance in a game that, over and over again, gets SO CLOSE to saying something really powerful and then sinking back into what's comfortable. It's the aesthetic of rebellion without the teeth of it.
Anyway now that I've complained for an essay's worth here's some positive stuff
I really do like Mementos. It gets a lot of shit for being repetitive and boring and like I sort of get that but on the other hand it is a JRPG. I'm not sure what you expected from the area that is, mechanically, "Here's where you go to grind." I don't see a problem with having this area. I think the special floor events manage to spice it up enough that it's not all that boring. I like Jose being there in Royal, I think he adds a lot, actually. The implications of everything Jose says are fascinating to me. The fact it's impacted by the weather! Like, as a world component, Mementos is so so cool actually guys. I know it's a Persona game so "world impacted by cognition" is sort of the bare minimum but it's really cool!!! The aesthetics fuck! The only layer I really don't like is.. fuck, I think it's Kaitul? Whichever one gets unlocked after Kaneshiro's Palace, I haven't gotten there in my current playthrough yet. It's just... too dark to see, all the time, imo. Mementos feels(except for... 90% sure it's Chemdah) very oppressive and spooky and I honestly think that's great. It's a depressing place to be! For a game about how corruption and systemic violence hurts everybody, it's really good!
In conclusion... don't ask me about Mementos unless you want an essay LMAO in seriousness I understand why Mementos gets shit but I think it should get less of it. And also that I could have fixed it(the cup. The cup is the big bad part of Mementos. Not the grinding you're going to get that with a JRPG no matter what you do you signed up for it when you launched the game.)
#persona 5#mementos#loooong rant#mementos is my underdeveloped blorbo ive been getting slowly more unhinged about it for the last year or so#i NEED to write something fun about mementos. that isn't phanshuffle#the fun thing about mementos in phanshuffle is-- wait no im not supposed to be talking spoilers over here#packing phanshuffle back into its box not now#anyway yeah mementos is great. i should write that mona's palace au.#thank you anon i woke up and saw this and got so excited#i would provide screenshots for the Jose stuff but i don't apparently HAVE them???#I'll fix that on my next playthrough#here you go the cup rant in text form. i will give it again. i will elaborate even. i have such a grudge against this thing.#the best i can say for it is that the fight is flashy and fun and i do like akira summoning a persona the size of a building and shooting-#-him with a giant fuckoff gun. that was fun#but i think maruki is a much better final boss. by virtue of actually being thematically consistent#i'll talk about that too but not right now this was about mementos. and if i start talking about maruki its all over
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Sparkstember Day 25: Hippopotamus (What The Hell Is It This Time?)
My Hippopotamus rant is here. I love Hippo and I think this was one of the best examples of how putting something off for later can be a very good idea sometimes. So I didn't hear most of it until this summer, and hearing the whole album then was one of the biggest highlights of that time. Thank you modern era Sparks for always bringing us the awesomest music ever.
#hippopotamus my beloveddddddd. also i like this drawing a lot!!! :)#i actually managed to make the letters and fire look pretty close to what they're like in the music video so that's pretty epic#anyways my favs are still roughly the same. but lately i've been also really enjoying probably nothing. beautiful somg#and now it's tagent(s) time because i thought it would be fun to buy a hippo plushie for this day and pose it for a photo#but well i don't even have this album physically so idk what other cool way i could have done this in#and yeah i mostly wanted to get something hippo-themed anyway#because a while ago i had to pass up on very awesome socks with hippos on them because they didn't have the right size#and i'm still thinking about them sometimes (i'm the biggest fan of fun socks)#ALSO... my original original plan for hippo (and ecotd tbh)#was to wait with them until something epic and sparks-related was happening. like travelling to see them on tour#well that didn't happen as we all know so. moved on from that idea eventually#but the future is bright anyway because i love modern era sparks sm and i can actually look forward to new albums coming out soon-ish#from both of my biggest favs AND another band that i've been getting into lately so uhhhh if not 2024#then can please at least 2025 be the year of awesomeness and amazingness that i've been waiting for?!?!?#ok this isn't even about hippo anymore so i'll just finish now#sparkstember 2024#my art#goose monologues
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Hey so, do I have a moral obligation to skip out of work for a week and a bit, fly to Pennsylvania, and do canvassing/phone banking/telling people where polling stations are/helping them find ID/driving people to polls/etc? I know nobody can tell me because it's my morals, I have to figure it out myself, but I really really, please someone just tell me.
Mr Bear says 'it's not your job, it's not your responsibility' but I just asked, 'whose responsibility is it to fight fascism?' It's everyone's. Right? How do you tell the difference between doing the right thing and scrupulosity? oh shit what that counts as OCD? Where's the line?
Will I ever forgive myself when I didn't go and voting/donating wasn't enough? Will I ever forgive myself anyway? Will I make any difference with strangers if I can't even convince my own family to do the right thing?
Is it supposed to be this hard? I guess it is. Nobody said it was easy or fair, right.
#personal#ethics#uspol#us elections#politics#my anxiety is as bad as it's ever been about anything at this point#for the last week I've been checking the postal tracking on my ballot multiple times a day#panicking because how long does it take to send an envelope across a mid-sized city??#it's arrived and counted now so that's ok but#I should have written VoteForward letters#I should have resigned from my job and gone back for the last months at least#I should have donated more#I should have tried to...idk I should have tried#I don't actually have anything in my diary this week#next week I do so I'd have to miss some stuff and I don't have days off left this year but#I think work would let me take unpaid leave probably#I don't miss being religious but I wish to fuck I ever knew the right thing to do#i have to try right? or what good am i?
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I am 98% sure I won't really render this so have the sketch so you can be reminded just how fucking huge Cass is <333 (220cm/7'2ft)
#ocs#roger#cass ambell#maya#killjoye#cai arts#wip#sketch#also cass skirt momence#i remember i scribbled her with this outfit like a year+ ago#and then didn't get around to really doing it again#anyway did u know cass' soles r as long as these boys' torsos#or any average sized person torso actually#huge lesbian rights forever
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Moving Day ~
Today is what I've come to refer to as Moving Day. My time is up where I've been staying, so I had to pack up my car with all my valuables, clothes, food, and health supplies, then spend several hours in my car, until I can check in somewhere else and unpack everything. It's physically exhausting, and by the time I'm done (around 4pm) I'm gonna end up sleeping on & off until getting up for work on Monday. I really dread Moving Day, but it's my reality for now--and I'm very aware there are many people who don't even have shelter at all.
Normally, Moving Day falls on a Sunday, like today...but it's gonna fall on Wednesday (a workday) again this week, as I only have funds to stay until then (paying my motor vehicle tax has left me broke). After that, I'll be spending the night at work or in my car. So I'm posting this now in the hope of enough help to get me a few more nights before I have to do it all again. I'm left to rely on the kindness of both friends and strangers. Thank you in advance to anyone able to give a little bit of help and for signal boosting this plea!
my ko-fi: ko-fi.com/sobeautifullyobsessed
#coping with homelessness#homelessness#tw: homelessness#urgent#financial aid#financial assistance#community aid#mutual aid#ko fi link#ko-fi link#ko-fi support#ko fi support#please and thank you#honestly I hate having to do this 😔#but I don't even buy things that people normally need just so I can have shelter#seriously - I've been wearing the same sneakers for work for 5+ years#they are so worn out that's half the reason I experience so much pain at work and afterwards#and it's been 2+ years since I've bought a new bra (my size makes them expensive if I want to have actual support)#so yeah - this is my life right now and at the end of 2023 I'm losing my employer provided health insurance#last time I applied to the State I didn't qualify#relying on the kindness of friends and strangers
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made the gaang with this picrew cause i have too much time on my hands, enjoy
#almost didn't make suki#so disappointed in myself fr#it's like if they were normal teenagers but i gave zuko and aang their scar and tattoo because they looked wrong without them#dimpled aang and suki supremacy#i gave zuko a hearing aid in his scarred ear because he canonically can't hear well out of it#(i'm aware that hearing aid probably can't help with damaged eardrums maybe they can i don't actually know so sorry)#gave sokka glasses cause i'm projecting and i feel like he's strained his eyes so much over the years#freckled aang sokka (on his neck down so you can't really see it) and suki supremacy#gave sokka a bunch of face moles cause i can#gave toph acne cause she's the youngest in my heart (yes i know her and aang are the same age)#i gave the gaang as whole many piercings and i'm not ashamed (aang's the only one without one idk why don't ask)#atla#avatar the last airbender#the gaang#aang#katara#sokka#zuko#toph#suki#also this is how i had to learn that suki is the only one out of the gaang that has like actual lips at all times#(as in her character design)#OH i also gave aang and toph scars (aang = arms toph = face) because it spoke to me and felt right idk#also if you squint you can see blemishes on zuko's neck cause again it just felt right#i'm actually so proud of these AHHHH#team avatar#didn't even mean to make a pattern with the backgrounds just worked out that way heheh#EDIT: remade the boys cause i used the wrong sized clothes and it was bothering me SO MUCH (zuko's hair is longer now let's all cheer)
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when taking care of yourself and caring about your clothes starts making you feel better and not the other way around
#NOOO I DONT WANNA#i’m kidding i’ve bought some new clothes they’re really cute very dysphoria easing#i’ve worn the same like 5 pairs of basketball shorts and 4 t shirts since like march#‘since march’ ok maybe it has been like three years. but#the dressing rooms WERE hell but i finally found the right size that doesn’t make me want to die#and they’re all men’s pants! men’s pants fitting well felt super super good!#i need a belt but they’re not tight on my hips#my hip and thigh ratio to waist ratio is Pain Agony Death (Pixar Mom) so pants are very very difficult for me#i actually think i pass kinda well from the waist up. kinda. on a good day#i’ve got my little pinterest board of baggy panted androgynous emo cis guys. i can do this#i’m excited to wear them like they look good they make my legs look straight up and down#i might just get rid of all my dysphoria inducing clothes and completely start over#i also have a slowdive shirt coming in the mail 🤸♂️
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ok today i watered my plants, swept the kitchen and hallway, did laundry, did yoga, ordered new mailers, renewed my domain, set up some stuff for my sale tomorrow (shh it's a secret), made a big sheet tray of potatoes and green beans and sausage, updated my patreon spreadsheet, and packed up all my sticker club mail for march. and paid my rent. success
#also packed up a shop order but then decided i would wait to actually mail it til i got my new mailers#i decided i needed to buy real ones for one people buy bumper stickers AND a pin or keychain.#cause i have regular envelopes for the bumper stickers but no bubble mailers in the right size i always cut up other ones#which like is fine i'm reusing packaging. but i'm always afraid it looks ~sloppy~#chatpost#it's my three year shop anniversary which i traditionally celebrate april 1 so i'll post about it in the morning b4 work. wink#sucks that it's already almost bedtime :/ that's life
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"People say I look happy
Just because I got skinny
But the old me is still me and maybe the real me
And I think she's pretty"
Skinny - Billie Eillsh
#cw weight loss#ive lost over 50 pounds in the last year because of medication and stress and sometimes the compliments really get to me.#being told “you look great!” by people who are only telling me that because i weigh less feels bad#and like. ive been having a ROUGH TIME#ive been in the psych ward and separated from my spouse and dealing with the grief from losing my second grandmother and being burnt out...#like im not healthy. but all that matters is that i weigh less right?#but now none of my beloved clothes fit and i dont know this version of my body#i feel like im in the wrong skin#personal#(also i didnt actually get “skinny” i just now fit in straight sizing. but the song fits the feeling so)#cw body image#disordered eating cw
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Started a self portrait in class that I like but one eye looks like it's gonna float off my face skdkfkff but it's nice otherwise! I might do another drawing at some point if I don't like this one enough once I'm finished
#p#thinking of adding this to the 'one self portrait once a year' pile#but the size is too big and the eye is bothering me... but tbh who cares about the eye I finally got thr colors right!! skin is so hard!!!#I couldn't get my skin tone and color right for the life of me but my teacher recommended to make a basecolor with watercolors#and go over it with my colored pencils which were the main tool I was using#and now the skin looks actually nice and right!!#still needs some shading but it's looks more right than before!
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Do not get the wrong idea… although my username and icon are lesbianusahana and I frequently talk about how gay I am I’d actually rather jump out a window on a several story tall building than come out to my family as a lesbian
#꒰🥀꒱ ❝ Tragic Prose ❞#RAZ LORE LIGHTNING ROUND for the new followers#don’t get the wrong idea! I love my mom. I’m very blessed to have such a tolerant and supportive mom#HOWEVER. just because she’s supportive doesn’t mean she’s normal. huge difference#she frequently gossips about her gay coworkers and despite pushing 50 is one of those Fandom Mom fujoshis who frequents AO3 religiously#I remember when I tried to initially ID as a lesbian I never came out. she found out by going on my Instagram profile and reading my carrd#fortunately she took it like a champ and was completely fine with it!#and honestly I would’ve been fine if she didn’t. y’know. make really uncomfortable jokes about lesbian sex to me#if I sound like I’m lying I promise I’m not. she’s just like that. she’s a walking talking Oppa Homeless Style kinda person#and don’t get me started on my dad. I wouldn’t say he’s bigoted per se I genuinely think he’s too stupid to actually be a bigot#years ago we went back to school shopping and I found this cute hat with a really small rainbow on it#and he was really hesitant on getting it because. he thought I’d be bullied. if kids thought I was gay.#and on the same shopping trip I showed him this Polaroid shirt I got with rainbow colors#and he said#(and I quote)#‘Oh because of gay rights?’#which is. uh. huh???#yeah I don’t think he has it in him to be bigoted but his little walnut sized brain would explode#fortunately my older sister is very cool. when I thought I was transmasc for a while she took it super well#so I don’t think she’ll care if I ever come out to her#see here’s the thing. my mom and sister technically know I’m gay#well. my explanation is ‘I’m bi but I prefer girls’ which they get. trying to tell them I’m a lesbian again is too risky a gamble#anyways. tangent over just was mulling over some stuff
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I’m glad so many people on here seem to be enjoying work from home. But can we acknowledge how in a society that already moralized work ethic, it’s now become a personal failing to not be able to self motivate. Having structure in the work place used to be a fair expectation for a job, but now it’s a poison pill for applying to many jobs. For my ADHD and depression, having community and authority to motivate me is key, but I can no longer expect that as part of the workplace and can’t ask in interviews for it without being seen as a weak link. It’s just a bit exhausting when working from home is not an option for my brain
#I realize that a lot of people’s neurodivergence goes the other way and they find work from home better#but there are some downsides and I find them debilitating#I also have a theory that in five years we’ll have a reckoning when everyone realizes the social isolation of working from home#has ruined a lot of peoples mental health#and the actual answer is a four day work week in person for most people#but that’s just me#there is no one size fits all policy but right now this one does not fit me#neurodivergent#adult adhd#adhd#accessibility
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