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ANOTHER thing I’ve started to realize now that I’ve consistently been on antidepressants for a few months is that I’m just now learning how to be a person.
I’ve been mentally ill for at least the last ten years. this is the first time in my life I haven’t been depressed. but because of that I’m kind of learning who I am for the first time without the weight of mental illness. and I love it.
I’m learning how to be me, I’m learning about how to take care of myself and my space, I’m learning about how I give and receive love, and yeah it’s a lot of work to be learning all this effectively for the first time at 22 but it’s so worth it.
I fucking love being medicated. I’ve never been able to just get out of bed and do things just to get them done. it has always been out of absolutely necessity or a pending deadline and it was always always always procrastinated and half-assed. but now I can get out of bed and get straight to work on stuff and feel good and accomplished.
#I know medication isn’t for everyone#but it sure as shit is for me#for the first time in my life I’m not depressed#and I can take care of myself#and maybe I won’t burn out next semester as quickly as I normally do#mental health#mental illness#antidepressants#buspirone#bupropion
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anya deserved so much better
#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#mouthwashing art#mouthwashing anya#ibon draws#cw eye strain#eye strain#just in case#massive trigger warning for people interested in the game 😭i myself had to just listen to a video summarizing it#because i don't do well with heavy games like that especially as a survivor and someone with cptsd myself#the way in which she was systematically failed and gaslit by the others even after the fact felt eerily similar to what i experience#'in the back of my mind it's always there' how it feels to have cptsd in the aftermath is so realistically depicted by anya- i can confirm#take care of yourselves ok <3 i wish us all healing and safety
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Bruce being a toxic boy mom when it comes to nightwing will never not be funny as fuck he is literally the biggest nightwing defender one bad word against him and the next day he’ll show up at ur house
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#you won’t join the justice league you’ll be leading them#Bruce: nightwing is literally the best vigilante to ever exist#Bruce: when I grow up I wanna be like nightwing#meanwhile dick: ugh Bruce literally doesn’t respect me he always treats me like a child he thinks I’m incompetent#Bruce: you are literally who I aspire to me you’re the only thing I’ve ever done right in my entire life#dick: he’s such an ass I’m not a child anymore!! I can take care of myself why won’t he trust me??#Bruce: losing you would literally be the death of me I won’t lose you cause I’ll be joining you in death#batman#dc comics#bruce wayne#batfam#batfamily#dc robin#dick grayson#dcu#nightwing#good dad bruce wayne#unhinged dad Bruce Wayne#dick and bruce#shitpost#incorrect batfamily quotes#incorrect batman quotes#batman twitter au
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tessa, being the edgy little freak she is, obviously took the original darkxwolf username
#synemy is like a fun fic go read that#inspired by some chatter in the archives where tessas username was discussed and i suggested “darkxwolf16”#synemy drone tessa is quite the enigma. i dont draw other peoples oc designs often so it took a bit to get the hair a way i like#you can see it changing inbetween panels if you care hard enough#i think im getting better with like poses or stuff#im not hating myself nearly as much when i draw hands so thats gotta be a positive#putting tessa in a drone body so uzi can strangle her for taking the name#otherwise she would've found a way to strangle her own bits of code. hell hath no fury like a doorman scorned#art#murder drones#murder drones uzi#murder drones tessa#drone!tessa#synemy#never thought i'd use tags like these but well here we are#hi kalpeavaris if you somehow stumble your way onto this
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so just know, I'm healing / even though it don't feel like it
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#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#yuji itadori#fushiguro megumi#megumi fushiguro#itafushi#fushiita#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#good evening it is past midnight and i am here furthering the itfs scar kissing agenda#stumbled across the insp pic buried in my likes and i went oh this is relevant in the opposite direction :) I Can Use This :)#op has some of my fav itfs fanart ill b so real n tht piece ws swimming around in my brain fr Days#so i told myself today my reward for submitting my zine checkin wld b drawing yuuji kissing megumi's scars#also pls observe. /this/ is what i mean when i say tht megumi receiving affection looks like he is unsure and in mild pain#Does Not Know How To Respond To Affection Even From His Own Boyfriend.png#i LOVE drawing megu with this expression so sosos much the downcast sidelong gaze + furrowed brow.....#its SO good#also idk what i did with his hair here but the render actually turned out so well ?? best megu hair to date every1 pls clap#not 2 mention th shape of yuuji's bangs???? pats self on th back no offense but i am on fire w these boys' hair lately#that being said i decided i did not want to render anything else ddfdfjjghdjgf i got tired#kept the rest flat n took the opportunity to play around w light chromatic abberation on the scars#idk if any1 noticed but i found th retro film filter n used it a bunch on my recent comic#its so convenient it comes w built in noise n everything!!!!!!#anyway . caption is salt fv <333 if u care <333333#i think it is also a megu song but like . a post-canon megu song#i thought this wld take longer bc i was planning on rendering everything so i cracked an energy drink and am tragically awake#shld i start smth new we shall see smile :)
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part of knowing me is watching me self-destruct. you cannot save me, you cannot fix me, and you cannot stop me.
#actually mentally ill#actually borderline#actually bpd#ed not ed sheeran#ed not sheeren#bpd#bpd thoughts#bpd feels#bpd vent#bpd mood#this is so dramatic and like edgelord but fr!#not good at taking care of myself and self-aware about it! plus stubborn and spiteful and defiant so your concern just fuels me#sometimes i can be very 'oh you're worried? shut the fuck up and don't tell me what to do'#so that's not great
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BRO LITERALLY DOXXED HIMSELF TO THE CYCLOPS. he was asking to get jumped come on
#ATHENA WAS LITTERALLY BEGGING FOR BRO TO SHUT UP AND HE WAS JUST LIKE:#“HEY CYCLOPS IM THE REIGNING KING OF ITHACA AND MY NAMES ODYSSEUS BET YOU CANT FIND ME”#my art#epic the musical#epic the cyclops saga#odysseus#odysseus of ithaca#odysseus epic#athena#athena epic#eurylochus epic#out off topic but people that sent doodle request on ask im not ignoring y'all ok#it's just that my grandpa fell down on the kitchen and hit his head so now ive been a bit busy taking care of him#he's good btw nothing happened to him it was just a cut#but the gdi head always bleeds so much it was so scary#plus i felt another artblock starting so I had to doodle something silly and funny to kinda motivate myself lol#AND PLUS i started trying animating and turns out I KINDA HATE-LOVE IT#it's SO MUCH WORK TAKES SO MUCH TIME IT CAN BE SO BORING AT TIMES#but also once you kinda check how its looking overall it feels so good and fun??#anyways ill probably get to those asks around the weekend when ill have some free time :)
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Made myself a little reminder to print out and stick up on my bathroom mirror :]
#as much as the thought of habit encouraging me to brush my teeth is helpful on its own#I am FORGETFUL and unfortunately am not thinking about him 24/7 to remind myself to take care of my teeth#so now I can see his handsome face every time I get ready for the day and make myself clean me teeths!#yippeeee!!!!#dr habit#boris habit#dr boris habit#smile for me#smile for me game#s4m#my art
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@flareboi you gave me a bit of inspo
#i had a whole dialogue in my head too but i deffo wont have enough motivation to draw it all out#so now the dialogue is just rattling around in my brain#king 'you ever plan on being a father?'#agent 'no. I'd be a terrible dad.'#king 'why's that?'#agent 'well i can barely take care of myself on most days. having to care for a whole other person too....'#agent 'and anyways; a child is so much responsibility. all this effort and investment; for what? so they'd grow up into a failure?'#king 'is that what your parents told you?'#agent 'shut the fuck up.'#king '....you're not a failure.'#agent '.....'#waughhh anyways. digs into a hole and dies clutching all my hcs#alan becker#ava agent smith#avm king orange#ava kingagent#my art
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Look, listen. The smoker on the balcony is obsessed with beauty and the fine arts while Cindy the skull is a contemporary artist all about activism and I need them to interact so badly because they would have THEE most heated art debate of the century. Cindy would eat him alive but that's not the point their back and forth would be legendary you don't even know. Lesbian on gay man violence.
#disco elysium#smoker on the balcony#cindy the skull#also if I can allow myself a bit of indulgence. they both have some issues with the concept of home#cindy with her emphaty check and the smoker with the whole being an immigrant. I could elaborate if anyone cares#THIS close to writing fic except I'm not confident with my prose so if anyone out there wants to take this concept and run#please you have my blessing
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I HATE tiktok and the Internet in general rn for the obsession with "oh this person's smellyyy" "Brother it STINKS over here" "BOO 💧🧼🧽🚿" and stuff like that. I wish I could put into words how demeaning and patronising that whole idea is and people implying anyone they don't like doesn't wash.
For one there's something grating about being insulted in a manner like we're in nursery again. But also WHY is that the go to insult. Why do you associate these things? Especially to those you deem "chronically online". Like I don't want to sound pathetic but it feels so nasty to me.
is it extreme to say this feels tied to ableism? And classism too?
#“take a shower” me sitting here with depression and no will to even move rn. That doesnt make me feel worse or anything#dry to wet change is also evil. and i get decision paralysis a lot and just struggle to motivate myself to do basic human tasks#and thats just me#what about the people with physical disabilities that struggle to find the energy and strength to do these things#And also like environmental factors too?#like kids can be unhygienic cause they arent being cared for and learning properly#people with learning disabilities and neurodiversity too may struggle with not being taught properly as its a “basic thing everyone knows”#people are homeless karen.#people cant afford to wash regularly#people grow up or are forced to live in unhygienic places and surrounded by smokers and alcoholics#people who are smokers and alcoholics and generally people with addiction can smell#people with health issues that cause them to sweat more#Like the list goes on#but idk maybe I'm just sensitive#anti anti#profiction#proship#neurodivergent#cringe culture#ableism#classism
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was talking to my brother the other day after i rewatched dark phoenix and he was like 'why is everyone so mean to charles in this movie?? were they always this mean to him ?? is it cause he's bald now- he lost his pretty privilege??' and i fear i havent recovered
#xmen#xmen movies#dark phoenix#charles xavier#professor x#snap chats#LIKE HE'S RIGHT 1000% I JUST DIDN'T EXPECT HIM TO SAY IT VLERKVJAKLJ#ANOTHER banger of a quote from my brother chat i screamed when he said that#adopting that into my belief system i fear#like really thinking on it they really did only start being especially rude after apocalypse im crying#dont quote me on that i have to rewatch apocalypse but as far as im aware. yeah 😭😭#and its SUCH a travesty cause i love how mcavoy looked in DP SO much he looks so good bald#like please if we were going to wrap up this era of xmen films why did we have to rerun DP#can we try again. please. i need him bald one more time in a movie i dont have to argue with myself i like#see DP wasnt the worst thing ever. probably. like scott got to do things again ..... and kurt .......#and the paris proposal. never forget that.#ALSO THE FUCKIN. 'no one cares charles' BIT ???? 97 ref'd that directly i know they did and i cheered#listen if they can ref the 'black leather suits' from the xmen movies i can believe they called back to that too <- delusional#anyway when james said thats the meanest thing erik could say/do to charles .... he was cooking ....#'thats the type of thing your wife/husband says' he was so right .... we know james never misses with the cherik takes tho#ok bye i have obligations that i need to complete so i can draw my favorite cue ball
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just looking at these hand poses was enough to give me carpal tunnel and that's how u know they're prime megu material
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#megumi fushiguro#yuuji itadori#megumi#yuuji#fanart#jjk fanart#itafushi#sometimes u gotta take a break from drawing megumi to draw different megumi and thats on self care#smiling megu for the soul he said heart emoji i said :D#i tried to do the poses myself and . u kno. im not convinced hands are meant to contort that way guys :( it hurt :(#so yuuji can share my pain i think tht bit is cute#tried smth a bit different w the skin rendering and i rly rly like it holy#very early era vacuumchan inspired :'> lov them SM sighs#also ripped megus jacket directly from a pinterest fit bc one of us deserves nice things :((((#if sukuna wont stop wearing megumi in canon ill just play dress up to cope
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Dear mod. I just wanted to ask how you're doing atm? Are you eating good food and sleeping well?
Oh bless you, anon! Regrettably, neither of those things, no. My appetite has been very poor since my surgery, and I'm more than a little sleep deprived with all the jobs I'm juggling at the moment - buuut... I'm alive. My head is good. My work is good. Always manage to make everyone happy, oh, yes sir, but can't wait to pass out for a whole day and then hang out with some friends. It'll heal me.
#mod speaks#i'm doing some of my best work!#kind of unstoppable at the moment! but. very. very exhausted.#very popular at my new workplace and very popular with the clients at the moment.#but it means when i have spare time it's Solely for A) sleeping and B) spending time with the people i love#oh and C) spending time with the people i love's pets.#very important.#i do miss drawing for myself but it'll happen when i have a quiet patch#but honestly right now i'm enjoying my success. successful career. successful social life...#spiderpool is like.. the third circle in the venn diagram.#i don't think i can have all three. i can only have two at a time.#i'm trying to squeeze in “self care” somewhere in there too. which involves exercising and getting enough sleep.#that one i'm really struggling with at the moment.#i think that one has to take priority over spiderpool too. sighs.
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now that i have it in person i tried cloras hairclip and I LOVE IT SO MUCHHH💖💖💖 ill probably never actually wear it in my hair BAHAHA but i love having it regardless🙏😭 now i just need to commission myself a seb to go along with it😇😇 (also one of my readers got this commissioned too and AAA??🥹SO COOL!!! I HOPE YOU ALSO LIKE IT WHEN IT ARRIVES/IF IT ALREADY DID💖💖 and thank u again to joinhas/marcia on etsy!!🧎♀️)
#this is me procrastinating bc i still have to beat the final boss in elden ring LMAO tralala~ lets put on cloras hairclip instead~🥰#i wonder if my reader will actually wear it or if itll also just be a souvenir to them HAHA#if i had thinner hair i might wear it but my hair is so thick that whenever i wear it half-up like this i need elastics plus a clip#and even then i dont trust it LMAO#i aint about to risk this falling out when im walking around BAHAH a hairclip from walmart tho??? sure who cares#also this made me realize how hard it is to take a pic of the back of your head jfc#but it ALSO made me realize that i can now use myself/my own clip as a reference for cloras hairclip from multiple angles WOOOO#im my own 3d reference as usual LOL
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"There will be times when the struggle seems impossible. I know this already. Alone. Unsure. Dwarfed by the scale of the enemy.
Remember this: freedom is a pure idea. It occurs spontaneously and without instruction. Random acts of insurrection are occurring constantly throughout the galaxy. There are whole armies, battalions that have no idea that they've already enlisted in the cause.
Remember that the frontier of the rebellion is everywhere and even the smallest act of insurrection pushes our lines forward.
And then remember this: the Imperial need for control is so desperate because it is so unnatural. Tyranny requires constant effort. It breaks; it leaks. Authority is brittle. Oppression is the mask of fear. Remember that.
And know this: the day will come when all of these skirmishes and battles, these moments of defiance, will have flooded the banks of the Empire's authority and then there will be one too many. One single thing will break the siege.
Remember this:
Try."
#i have so much to say and nothing to say#i can only let nemik do the talking#because repeating this to myself was the only way i was able to fall asleep at all last night#i love you guys#take care of yourselves#take care of each other#try#my posts#karis nemik#andor
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