#alter tism

[northtism]

Me when ANYTHING happens in headspace

(we're watching house MD and it's desteny's favorite show and she's going feral)

[1nv1s1bl3-r41ndr0p5]

I'm petrified of going to school tomorrow. It's the first time going in since alters started properly fronting (because it's been half-term) and I've told a few people about it and now I'm going to have to talk to them. I know they support me but I can't get it out of my head that they think I'm faking because I've only mentioned it recently even though it's been going on for months. I've got fresh cvts on my arms and I'm more depressed than ever. I'm just going to give up telling people it's getting worse because they won't notice I'm dying right in front of their eyes anyway. I hate school and tbh ill probably get sent home again because we've got exams soon and I'm already stressed.

[discjude]

What are your reasons for liking Japeth and hating Rhian II? I'm just curious because Japeth seems to be a hated character in general.

So i pasted what i wrote before into a google doc and it was over a page long so here is a very condensed version, including my original preface. there’s also a tldr at the end if you don't have half an hour

quick preface just in case people get mad at me for this (dovesso stans are gonna hate me after this one):: I am not trying to convince anyone of anything here,,, this is entirely my opinion and I'm absolutely not trying to insult anyone that doesn't like japeth!! I completely respect it if you like rhian, there's a lot of good reasons to like him and as I'm writing this I realise I don't hate him as much as I thought I did. once again this is my opinion and it's alright if you disagree :)))

My reasons for liking Japeth mostly come from how complex his character is and what role he serves in the story. Though rhian is also very complex and i’m a very big fan of him being everything tedros isn’t as a king, liking japeth is mutually exclusive to liking rhian. Other than that, my two other solid reasons for disliking rhian is the way he treats kei (neglecting everyone else who tries to get close to you because you’re prophesied to marry Sophie? Dick move bro) and the fact that he’s ever so slightly homophobic which is neither here or there

Every other reason comes from me liking japeth, which is because::

1) japeth is very very complex and mostly very well written. Chapters like flesh and blood are very clear on what he’s got going on emotionally, he’s got a very solid motivation, and if you’re really looking for it he’s a clear parallel to Rafal. If you have read any of my other posts you will know i am a sucker for parallels

2) also speaking narratively, i think him being the culmination of every other villain in the series is Very Clever!! He’s evelyn and rafal’s child, rhian’s brother, a parallel to sophie and yknow the other one!! It’s very important to me

3) (this is the big one) i think he’s quite misunderstood and i don’t think a lot of his actions were his fault??? Obviously there’s some unforgivable stuff (if you saw what soman posted last week on tiktok you know) and he’s genuinely quite insane by book 6 but it’s made clear in chapters like Rhian and the Real Thing that there is Some Shit Wrong with him, notably issues with anger and becoming too attached to people. Sort of leading on from this, I don’t think that he’s the one solely to blame for his involvement in Camelot years: i think the two main villains of the last half of the series are Evelyn Sader and Aric. 

I Do Not Like Aric and I believe he’s almost entirely responsible for Japeth’s actions: because of Japeth’s over-attachment to him, he internalises a lot of Aric’s beliefs (the misogyny and only referring to them as “friends” are my best examples) and this ultimately leads to some sort of dependency, which kinda fucks japeth up a lot when aric dies.

Similarly the same sort of thing happens with evelyn and rhian. Evelyn forces a lot of prophecies onto Rhian, and that led to his delusions about becoming king which ostracised him from his brother and gives him this idea that anyone who stops him from being king is automatically wrong. 

It’s worth saying that i Do Not Like Everything About Japeth. Some of his writing and dialogue really falls through, and maybe having your first canon queer couple both be absolute psychopaths isn’t a good idea?? While I don’t think the queer rep done through Japeth isnt horrible, it's. Yknow. Not good. It’s also worth saying that i don’t hate everything about Rhian!! I do think he’s also cleverly written and, again, works very well as a parallel to old rhian. 

I think that’s about it and i don’t want to write any more so if you have any further questions (or if you agree with me somehow) please let me know!! It’s also worth noting that i just really like snakes and went a little wild in 2020 when i read about cool snake villain

TL,DR: japeth’s nicely written and i think he’s generally misunderstood, he’s also got some nice parallels going on, I don’t explicitly hate Rhian but i don’t like him because he treats people around him like shit. I also think that Aric and Evelyn are more responsible for the twin’s actions then the twins are themselves. I condensed this all and it's still so long

also:

[missazura]

god I need to get my sleep schedule fixed this is not good for my body

how does one put a hyperfixation on pause?? like all I can think of is working on mirror caleb stuff 24/7, and I don't WANT for it to occupy so much of my brain

[madnessofthespirits]

he’s like

[northtism]

This is what my Tumblr feed should look like

SYSTEM ROLES I'VE CLAIMED PART 3

NOTE: These are TRAUMAGENIC EXCLUSIVE terms. We are anti-endo!

BELOVED: A beloved alter is an alter that often gives affection, joy and positive vibes to people within or outside of the system. This can be platonic, romantic, etc. A beloved alter often gives compliments and can be clingy, excitable, and optimistic. STARLIGHT: A starlight alter is an alter that is very in tune with spiritual or religious practices. They may be the only one in the system that practices any sort of spirituality/religion, or may just be the one who is best at it. CLEANER: A cleaner alter is an alter whose job is to clean the space around them, which is often their living space. A cleaner may be annoyed or distressed by the mess around them, which makes them want to clean, but is not always the case. FIRST AID: A first aid is an alter who takes care of the body or other people close to the system when they are sick or injured. FIRST RESPONDER: A first responder is an alter who is the first to front when there is conflict or distress, not necessarily to deal with the conflict, but to deescalate the situation before another alter comes to front to deal with the aftermath. CHAOS HOLDER: A chaos holder is an alter that holds elements of chaos in the system, whether good or bad types of chaos. They may be used to a chaotic and messy environment, or they may be there to express chaotic and hyperactive emotions. LIBRARIAN: A librarian is a type of gatekeeper who may have files or books in headspace (if there is a headspace) of information about the system, often oddly specific things. Librarians may also double as caretakers due to their often relaxed, laid back, chill, calm and/or logical nature. RESTRAINT: A restraint alter is an alter who puts restraint on a current fronter by fronting or using passive influence. Restraint alters restrain current fronters from making impulsive or bad decisions, typically, but can be other things, too. DREAMER: A dreamer alter is an alter that deals with dreams the system has. They may manage memories from dreams, feelings caused from dreams, etc. LANTERN: A lantern alter is an alter that deals with sleep/nighttime. They may front to put the body to sleep or they may front if the current fronter has issues being in the darkness at nighttime, etc. Lanterns deal with anything night related. MORBIDIST: A morbidist is an alter who is morbidly curious and dives deep into dark topics as a way to educate the system and keep them away from further traumatizing themselves

[wolfertinger666]

I'm going to sound very unusual because I cannot word shit right due to the tism ™ but I'm extremely averse to most plural "rep" because it feels like it's made either to be a big thing, comedic thing, or scary evil alter number 42532664367(saying this as someone with the "scary alter") so I kinda do feel like shit sometimes.

I do think about drawing more art to represent myself with plurality and doing it in a delicate manner. I think more plural characters should exist but like, in a way that their mere existence is making fun of us or demonizing us...

[northtism]

I just fronted for a doctor's appointment I'm such a big girl/j

ANYWAYS FRONT REPORT BECAUSE I LOOOOOVE OVERSHARING N TALKING ABOUT MY SYSTEM AND AND BEING SILLY AND GIVING OUT INFO LIKE ITS CANDY/HJ

Current front; grian, Sean, Claudia, Rosie, jack met, Brandon, Dani, Eros, Theo, Judah, 015, Lio, me, Reece (okay wow that's a lot)

Problems; Sean, 015 (? I think that's it)

Report;

Grian - he's just here, numb (like usual)

Jack met & theo - just kinda here

Eros & Rosie - talking with eachother

Lio & Brandon - making sure nobody's gonna k*ll themselves/j

Judah - stressed out of his mind (abt 015)

Me - twinning with judah

Dani - my assigned protector, looking after me and her son (grian)

Sean - nonverbal, still having a really bad breakdown but holding it together

Claudia & Reece - interrogating 015

015 - screaming it's head off at Claudia and reece

Sean's still upset over something that happend, he misses his partner

015 is being interrogated because they are a child (4-8yrs old) and we have noticed some very concerning behaviour

examples; someone (out of sys) being listed as his partner, everyone else blacking out and coming back to things, concerning photos in our camera roll

015 isn't taking this well at all and not giving any information to Reece and claudia

[thesapphicdesign]

i keep saying to become unpredictable is to become unstoppable to motivate myself to do art and witchcraft cuz ya girl an Artemis homie, and then I fucking get sucked into a mental touch of the tism moment where I keep mentioning to Artemis about the fact that I want to be her bestie and then Athena comes on the call and starts to remind me to start shit because if I don't I'll become like ODYSSEUS on the ISLAND and then Poseidon's here for some reason, and then they all remember I have a tumblr account and then they all focus their energy at ONE TIME to help me visualize a fucking horse plinko with the words "This you?" On the FUCKING SIDES. WHAT TYPE OF DIVINATION IS THIS?? I WAS JUST LOOKING AT PRETTY FACE MASKS WHILE WAITING TO GET READY FOR WORK.

Anyways here's Artemis's alter.

Gonna turn it into a double wide bird house soon to be That BitchTM.

[northtism]

Us when our headspace is literally in the void (black ground and sky but there's whole buildings there

headspace culture is the headspace not making any logical sense

[clownery-and-fuckery]

Headcannons for you and this one is super personal but hey its disability pride month and I figured I'd give you a taste of my tism ok? ok don't look at me.

Tech doesn't enjoy affection. At all. Unless it's him that offers it.

^ what I mean by this is that he'll offer Omega his hand while they walk for her to hold, he'll pat Hunter's arm when he's stressed/thinking hard and he'll lean on Wrecker while he works, he'll seek out Echo after nightmares for affection. But he will never, ever accept affection that isn't initiated by himself

he'll squirm out of hugs from Wrecker/Omega, he'll twist his hands out and away from Hunter and Echo, he will shrug you off if you touch him. he will push you. the only one who won't touch him is Crosshair

Hunter and Tech have very different kinds of sensory overloads. Hunter's are fast and hit hard but only once. He needs to decompress for a few hours or so, in the dark and quiet, and will mostly sleep through things, unless he gets a migraine, then he'll just be slow and sluggish for the day.

Tech, however? His are slow building and hurt. His whole body itches from the inside, to the point of burning him, and his skin is suddenly uncomfortable on his bones, his back sweats, his eyes hurt. Everything sounds wrong, even the quiet. His clothes hurt, but so does the air against his bear skin. He often needs to walk away, rip off everything, and more often than not his stimming becomes harmful. He'll pull his hair until it rips, he'll slam his fists against his head, scratch at his skin until it bleeds, bite himself to try catch the itch he can't find. They last hours, and they're exhausting. And he cannot, CANNOT, stand being around people before, during, or after. It takes a while to get used to being around people again.

Apart of Crosshair's mutation is an addiction gene- one that ran in Jango's bloodline, that was originally altered and erased in other clones, but not in Crosshair. He stims to stop it, picking at his nails and the skin around it, his lips, chewing on toothpicks, but he can't get away from it. He smoked, drank, he has many needle tracks close to his wrist so he can pick at those, too. He can't help it. He's addicted to it.

Tech has a lot of vocal stims. So does Wrecker and Hunter, often they'll repeat each other for hours, latching onto a phrase, an accent, a sound, and copy it for hours. It can get tiring. Wrecker clicks his tongue when he's working on bombs, mimicking the ticking.

Hunter clicks his fingers while he walks in crowded spots, to match his heartbeat. It's more grounding than trying to stretch his senses

Echo has phantom pains, but his bones also click and crack constantly, they sound painful, but he really doesn't feel a thing. Wrecker, Hunter and Tech latch onto the sounds sometimes, he laughs about it

Tech has headphones that he has for his s2 outfit, to replace his helmet. They muffle the sounds just fine, and he's rarely seen without them (one time, a group asked for a holo because they had "never seen an autistic person before")

^ speaking of, many people speak down around Tech once they find out he's autistic. They don't call him "normal", they instead take on that condensing tone and speak slower and start explaining things unnecessarily to him, which Tech never knows how to respond to, because he's always taken by surprise (his go-to is to just go quiet)

Hunter goes nonverbal much more often than Tech, but it's not as noticed because Tech talks so often, the silence left once he does is always picked up on

Wrecker has chronic pain, but he never mentions it. He and Echo will often rival in terms of where they are on the pain scale, but they keep that to themselves. It's something they share that no one else really goes through. It's nice that they have that.

The yellow in Tech's goggles are very soothing, to him. They keep sensory input low, and at one point, he chose to have that comfort over his own sight, until he found a way to combine them

Hunter has the perfect balance of eye contact/no eye contact. He mastered it because he's always talking to superiors

Wrecker makes too little eye contact. He tends to wander, attention wise, and he has a lot to think about

Crosshair makes too much eye contact. He's trying to kill you with his mind. He wants you to explode. He thinks he can do it if he starts at your eyes long enough. Also, it's a trained habit.

Tech makes too much or too little eye contact. Like Crosshair, eye contact is a trained habit. However. He gets told his staring is creepy. So he's very focused on timing how long he's "allowed" to look away. He tends to not listen that way. He listens better when he's not looking.

Tech can be very thrown off by a change in routine, despite their lives. If Hunter has made a plan, and changes it without warning, there's a 70% chance Tech will botch his job because he's off kilter. He gets very overwhelmed and distressed. He has a list, he has to stick to it.

Wrecker is the same, but instead of becoming distressed, he gets angry. He doesn't understand why the plan has to change immediately, its very frustrating because often times there will be no immediate explanation

I have more, but that's a look into my experience with autism through the boys. there's a few other hcs that don't really apply to the specific autism experience but that's ok. again. don't look at me.

[roadkillromcom]

# INTRO

“ burn the page, ”

“ my little dark age. ”

. . I'm Toby or Lyx, Preferred use of Toby . .

. . 18 year old Artist and Writer . .

. . BPD, NPD, Psychosis, Tism, OSDD haver . .

. . I go by He / She pronouns . .

. . Bigender + Bi + AroAce . .

. . Heavy MH fixation ATM . .

I will be posting art

Mainly being art of my fixations

Or OC art

Occasionally will be posting vent or

Alter art

“ YOU BROUGHT UR DOG ?! ”

- Alex Kralie

[aachria]

I just binged all of sssbmty and I would like to thank you for your service. This fic genuinely altered my brain chemistry and also sent me into a spiral when I had the realisation I would never be as funny or iconic as Ed.

On a side note this has made me realise I am a raging aromatic and I now know other people actually feel this way and I am not in fact broken 💪💪

Anyways, the point is you have written I daresay the best piece of literature I have ever laid eyes on and I would literally lay down my life for you in the most non weird way possible.

I just realised this is meant to be a question so what are your general opinions on pork buns??

Aw thank you bb but you’re lying to yourself if you don’t think you can be as funny as Ed. It’s all about timing, no matter how shit your joke as long as you say it at the right moment you’re set.

You would honestly be shocked at how often characters I make give people gender and sexuality crisis’s. Like it’s a weirdly high amount. I accidentally transed multiple of my friends genders with one of my dnd characters.

I have never actually eaten a pork bun. Don’t boo at me please I’ve just never been presented an opportunity and I don’t go out of my way to try new food because I got that sensitive tism palate that will shoot me if something is textured wrong. I’d give myself a like 70% chance of liking them tho.

[new-kanon]

The Polycule

💕🏳️‍🌈

The Triad (of ex's back in a love/hate-ship, founders)

🇺🇸-🇮🇱/🇵🇸 - Vampire

×

🇺🇸-🇮🇱/💙‍☸️‍💚¹ - [redacted for plot]

×

🇺🇸🇨🇱² (🤠) - Werewolf

💕

+

The Couple (of really smart yet moronic dumbasses, main duo bc duh its my channel...)

💕

🇺🇸-🇮🇹 - Yandere Slasher

×

🇺🇸-🇸🇻/🇯🇵 🏳️‍⚧️ - [Redacted for plot]

💕🏳️‍🌈

&

The Mom/Dad Friends (squads' only braincells, funders)

💕

🇪🇬 born 💙‍☸️‍💚¹ - Femme Fatale

×

🇩🇪 - Rich Mad Scientist

💕

¹ Romani

² Chilean flag listed as Texan?

TECHNICALLY shouldn't be posting this HERE but FUCK IT.

While writing my Pookie shit, revising the Creepypasta/Pseudo Lovecraftian arg lore, and BayHearts' magic reconing, I've come finding myself & our haunted household writing exaggerated stereotypes of us as characters in a larger than slice of life POVs. With Cthulhu Mythos cosmology. Looking at Buffy's, Charmed the Comic series', & Marvel's Demons + Old Ones. I need my monkey brain to stahp getting new ideas. At least everyone is scripting their own fuckery this time round.

[bacolotl]

Yall the tism is tisming

I won't even try to defend myself, here's Mark from At Last ( @cristinaecho , Vosky from On Another's Sorrow ( @de4thart ) and Robbie from Reaching Out ( @gay-cryptidz aka definitely not my evil alter ego)

Closeups:

[1nv1s1bl3-r41ndr0p5]

Hey! I'm Petrichor/Petri, and I use he/they pronouns :)

I've been on Tumblr for many years now (different blogs) and I decided I wanted a fresh start!!

~about me~

I am a minor- over 18s are welcome on my blog, but no NSFW accounts please!! (terfs, homophobes, racists, etc. = DNI)

I am autistic- a lot of my posts will be related to this!! I also have a lot of mental and physical health problems, so be prepared to see a lot of vents :)

I have been battling a self-harm addiction for 9 years (currently not clean :/) and disordered eating for 6 1/2.

I am transgender FtM and bi-aroace (technically, I'm nebularomantic but, but I say aro usually as it is easier for people to understand).

~what do I like?~

My favourite film is The Imitation Game (my beloved <3), and I like shows and flims such as: Ghosts, Horrible Histories, Bridgerton, Heartstopper, Sherlock, Moomin, Good Omens, Bluey, Stranger Things, Shameless, Hidden Figures, Brooklyn 99 and Coraline.

I LOVE musicals. My favourites are Hamilton, Six, Dear Evan Hansen, Hairspray and Les Misèrables.

I like reading too!! My favourite books are The Seven Sisters series by Lucinda Riley

Music is my main coping mechanism, I listen to music every day and it helps me massively :)

>My favourite band is Bears in Trees and I mostly listen to indie/vent music and musicals

My hyperfixations are plants, stationery, writing, poetry, Hamilton, anagrams + word puzzles, birds, sharks, alpacas, space and The Imitation Game.

I have an ESSA (emotional support stuffed animal) called Penelope. She is a penguin and I take her everywhere!!

IMPORTANT!!

I am trying to cope with what I believe is DID. I've noticed signs of it for a while (many years) but recently it's got a lot worse and I can't hide it anymore. If you know me irl and I haven't told you, feel free to ask (tbh that goes for anyone on here) about it.

Currently there are 4 entities? alters? headmates? that appear? front? this terminology is confusing and idk what I'm allowed to say bc I'm not officially diagnosed.

E (irl me), co-host (🌿)

Petri/Petrichor, co-host- I use their name for my tumblr now (🦠)

Brynn, protector I guess?? (🎧)

Rain, child alter and only speaks French (🌧)

Sparrow, child alter and is non-verbal (🦅)

don't hate us for this, it's scary and we're just trying to figure out what's going on as a system.

(also if it is DID instead of maladaptive daydreaming I would be a traumagenic system)

☆about my neurodiversity☆

•about my mental and physical health•

my mutuals are:

@kaipler-22b

@mossy-introvert

@loulooser

@s1l4s-w0rsh1ps-t0m4t03s

@sunshinerosefromthedead

@sp4rklemuffin

tags!!

#petri rambles

#petrichor's thoughts

#petri vents

#petri-tism

#petrichor-blimey

#petrichor outside!!

#rain 🌧

#brynn 🎧

#sparrow 🦅

#sparrow's silent rambles

#petri 🌿