#actually ed

[cockroachmotherfucker10]

Do it halfway. Take one piece of trash out of your room, throw one dirty shirt into your hamper. Go to one class and miss a different one. Start a drawing without pressure to finish it. Give yourself space to Be without the expectation to Become, and do small things to make the Being livable.

[fairys1ze]

lost 3 lbs in 2 days and I'm thrilled

[roxiibixh]

Thinspø

[powerrangersystem]

[bpdmaxxer]

Angel♡ 16 it/its

Traumatic system

I do not want any interactions saying “I’m worried about you” or “get help” and so on I’m getting psychiatric help from professionals and am a psychiatric patient meaning I do get help. besides this is none of your concern. Thanks

If I ever talk about my weight I do not want any comments saying “I wish I had your problem I wish I was underweight” keep your mouth shut i am on an unhealthy weight do not use me as inspo or others.I recommend you seek out for help.

This is a Side blog I won’t be able to follow back

I made This Account for my own comfort

I am pro recovery!!

[pessimistic-me]

it's not that I'm suicidal.or necessarily want to die right now. i just don't want to be here.

[fatty-mako]

why can't i cut my stomach off with surgery? remove these stupid rules, let me lose weight!

[1c3-c0ld-r3x1c]

"People say I look happy, just because I got skinny. But the old me is still me, and maybe the real me. And I think she's pretty"

Literally described my mental state.

[cockroachmotherfucker10]

Being fat, actually fat, with an eating disorder is fucking hell.

People assume you have BED, and if you actually do have BED people are so gross about it. If you have a restricting disorder people get concerned when you start eating more. People get concerned if you start to like yourself. People love to see you fucking miserable, and will completely ignore your misery in the same breath. It makes them feel good. They benefit at your expense through weight stigma.

So many physicians prescribe disordered eating to us. ED specialists in many places won’t even consider how EDs affect us. Our own community uses our bodies as inspiration to hurt themselves. Because nothing could be worse than looking like us, right? How are you supposed to love yourself when so many people actively don’t want you to?

To the fat person reading who needs to hear this, I give a shit if you recover. I give a shit that you are hurting. So many people don’t notice, so many don’t give a fuck, but I do. You deserve better. I want you to eat even if it means you gain weight. I want you to be happy in your body as it is. I want you to feel loved, I want you to feel seen.

If you are fat with BED, I see you. There is so much stigma and it is not your fault. Your weight isn’t “your fault”, you are sick. It’s not a moral failing. You deserve compassion, and the extent to which people project their own issues onto you is awful. You deserve to be comfortable in your skin, and your body is wonderful.

If you are fat with purging tendencies, or with restricting ones I see you too. We get praised for hurting ourselves, or no one notices. I see you. I’m sorry.

I wish so badly the world were more compassionate to you, but if no one else gives a shit, I do. Fight for recovery for me, even though I know that journey can be so, so lonely when you aren’t thin.

To those of you who have recovered, to those of you that may. You are worth it. You may be fat for the rest of your life, and that’s okay. It’s wonderful, your body is wonderful, and I see you and I’m proud of you. Sadly I know many of us recover alone, but I hope you know you aren’t. I’m rooting for you.

[d13tpepsist4n]

im at the cne at toronto rn and i just saw the most insane thinspo. im talking like boney ass legs and this girl was so skinny and pretty. she wore a skirt and everything and my sister told me “u wish that was u huh” like wtf rude?? and she knows i have an ed

[roxiibixh]

Food isn't a reward, it's a privilege.

Stay skinny xoxo

[powerrangersystem]

[dead-seraphim]

Little by little I start again and feel sick, I get dizzy when I walk, I feel tired all day, but the effort is paying off even though I suffer in silence.

[how-my-brain-spices]

I want to be so proud of myself for getting better but being a normal weight make me feel like shit

I wish I didn't constantly care about my weight or how my tummy looks

[ivycopper]

For all my severely ED'ed folks who are still only dreaming of recovery - this post is for you, too: Drink your electrolytes first!

Mix:

1l of water

1 teaspoon of salt

1 teaspoon of baking powder

2 tablepoons of sugar

You can add orange or lemon juice, or eat an orange (if you can manage). Bonus points if you also eat some banana.

I promise you, this will clear away some of that mental fog, slow down the damage starvation does to you (though it'll still be damaging af, but you know that), and keep your muscles from cramping.

Stay safe, you got this.

do it scared do it stupid do it alone etc etc but don’t do it hungry. eat a snack first