#achingly so

[fertilizing-daffodils]

Time is such a weird thing now. I feel like I'm stuck though I know I'm steadily moving forward in just about every aspect of life but every time I stop and look around I'm just confused by what I see.

[booasaur]

Special Ops: Lioness - 1x07

[clarisinne]

Harvey / (Cringefail) Farmer pt. 30

it's the flower danceeeee

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[vasiliquemort]

Lies? In my house of God? More likely than you think.

[syn0vial]

most understated romantic moment in nona the ninth so far is palamedes using his extremely limited daily time-to-exist to furiously shove disgusting fruit mush into his/cam's mouth, finish the bowl, declare, "thank god! i did it," and then immediately cease to exist for the day bc all that mattered was that cam got a full meal and didn't have to taste how bad it was.

[slavhew]

And I just have to tell you that I

Love you so much these days,

[nerdy-frog98]

You are allowed to dislike season 3 of Bridgerton all you want (because everyone is allowed to have bad opinions), but if I see someone say that Colin was “out of character” ONE MORE TIME, I may commit a crime.

[gingermintpepper]

One of my biggest pet peeves is the assumption that something has to be sad for it to be tragic.

I've always been a big believer of the 'Apollo has an awful love life'/'Apollo is plain unlucky with love' line of thinking but it does bother me that the general reasoning for that statement is given to the concept of 'Apollo is somehow undesireable and thus rejected' (Cassandra/Daphne/Marpessa) or 'his lovers die young and thus their love is unfulfilled' (Cyparissus/Hyacinthus/Coronis). I personally think that's a very unfortunate way of looking at things - not only because it neglects the many perfectly cordial entanglements and affairs Apollo has had, both mortal and divine - but because it presents a very shallow interpretation of the concepts of love and loss and how loss affects people.

Apollo can still grieve lovers that have a long, healthy life. The inherent tragedy of an immortal who knows his lovers and children will die and cannot stop it does not stop being tragic simply because those lovers and children live long, fulfilled lives. The inherent tragedy of loss does not stop being tragic simply because someone knows better than to mourn something that was always going to end.

What is tragic is not that Apollo loves and loses but that loss itself follows him. Apollo does not love with the distance of an immortal, he does not have affairs and then leaves never to listen to their prayers again. He does not have offspring and then abandon them to their trials only to appear when it is time to lead them to their destinies. He raises his young, he protects the mothers of his children, he blesses the households that have his favour and multiplies their flocks that they may never go hungry. He educates his sons, he adorns his daughters and even in wrath he is quick to come to his senses and regret the punishments he doles out.

Apollo loves. And like mortals, there will always be some part of him that wishes to protect the objects of his affections. Apollo, however, is also an emissary of Fate. He knows that the fate of all mortal things is death. He knows that to love a mortal is to accept that eventually he will have to bury them. There is no illusion of forever, there is no fantasy where he fights against the nature of living things and shields his beloveds from death. Apollo loves and because of that love, he also accepts.

And that, while beautiful, is also tragic.

[napping-sapphic]

I talk so much about how i want to fall in love for all the things i could do for someone and all the things someone could do for me but deep down, if i’m being honest, i want to fall in love because i just so desperately need to know that love is actually real and that there are people out there capable of truly loving me

[zishuge]

Mysterious Lotus Casebook (2023) | Ep. 5

[koukaaa-descent]

so the poll was a mix of 'yes make them kiss' and the secret third thing

this is like passionate wild kissing with Tongue to me. it may not have the explicit gesture itself but this mere concept fucks me up worse than kissing. It's like I was looking at something I shouldn't be looking at the entire time I was making this. It felt like I was intruding on a private moment

[vaguely-concerned]

It was worse, when I was a kid. I remember the time you caught me telling her 'I love you'. And I can't even remember what you said, but I remember that I had you on your back -- I put you straight on the fucking ground. I was always so much bigger and so much stronger. I got on top of you and choked you 'til your eyes bugged out. I told you that my mother had probably loved me a lot more than yours loved you. . . . Were you ten, Harrow? Was I eleven? Was that the day you decided you wanted to die?

You remember how the fuck-off great aunts always used to say, 'Suffer and learn'? If they were right, Nonagesimus, how much more can we take until you and me achieve omniscience?

I'm never not thinking about this part of harrow the ninth. what a fucking perfectly distilled microcosm of gideon's and harrow's childhood. two children clawing at and choking the life out of each other over the entirely fictional premise that either of their mothers ever loved them.

[sharkgirldick]

Sometimes I'm taking it easy and sometimes I can't stop imagining how someone's lips would feel against mine.

[ricecaqes]

i get super calm whenever people illustrate/depict the loop transformation. just kidding im absolutely fucking lying. and i need people to keep doing that

[citrus-allegorical]

Day 1: coffee and cola

The first household coffee maker wasn't available until 1972, so that's an electric percolator up there. People were just drinking dogshit coffee in the 60s and I respect that.

I don't know if I'll manage any other days but I'm glad I was struck with an idea for this one.

[queenlua]

choice excerpt, emphasis mine:

When Cavanaugh wasn’t killing time on the floor, she and many of her colleagues spent the days rehashing their arguments over the bill and fighting about matters of procedure. They only needed one Republican to vote against the bill for it to fail. All of the Republicans hated the filibuster, but several of them disliked the bill that had prompted it, too. They struggled to understand its relevance. They had campaigned on expanding broadband access, reducing property taxes, making the government more efficient — things they felt actually mattered in the daily lives of their constituents. They hadn’t run for local office because they wanted to take up arms in the culture war, especially not for a cause many of them had never thought about before and didn’t have much interest in thinking about now. “I’ve spent way more brainpower on this than I ever wanted to,” Senator Jana Hughes told me. One day, a freshman senator named Christy Armendariz led me to a bench in an empty hallway. She found it puzzling that a reporter from New York would come all the way to Nebraska to cover this affair. “I don’t watch the news or get the newspaper,” she said. “Is there anything going on I should be aware of?” I mentioned that other states had passed similar bills and that a federal appeals court in the same circuit as Nebraska had ruled one of them unconstitutional. “So is it a big widespread thing?” she asked. As far as she could tell, ordinary Nebraskans did not know about the issue. “I knocked doors for a year, and nobody brought this up.” She said she wished the bill had never been introduced.

state-level politicians are often, lbr, kinda dipshitty, but the wounded-deer-routine of oh-deary-me-i-can’t-possibly-know-anything-about-the-news is the exact type of dipshittery that particularly makes me go “aaaargh” and tear out my damn hair

and i find it extra annoying since i honestly believe you don’t have to be some hyper-lefty bleeding-heart to oppose this (vile) bill.  there’s a very solid, boring, small-c conservative case to be made against it, on the basis of, “why the fuck is the state senate passing laws prohibiting stuff that should really be left to the judgment of a doctor and their patients, the AMA and board certification and malpractice suits already exist to cover Actual Medical Abuses and this is not that, nuke the damn bill”

(and i don’t think that reasoning would even be particularly out of step with their base!  people like their local representatives, and “keep Big Government TM out of your child’s health decisions” is the kind of thing that markets well in that area, etc)

anyway, if anyone could make that case & weather whatever blowback came of it, it’d be a self-avowedly "not even into the bill in the first place” state senator who’s coming up against their own term limit anyway, who need not be especially accountable to the national party, and who works in a state where senators are very explicitly a part-time not-well-renumerated thing (so, like, worst-case scenario, you get primaried out of office—boo hoo, oh no your measly 12k a year is gone, seriously just get another part-time gig it’ll be fine)...

...buuut they’ve apparently all got jell-o spines and/or blackened coals for hearts, so,,,