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[kratosnaturals]

WIP Saturday Monday #4

The circles slowly being drawn on his back finally broke him down for good. That softness in her voice, that all too familiar softness. He could almost hear it again; ‘you’re working yourself to death, Nick’, ‘take a break, Nick’, ‘stop acting like you’re invincible,’ ‘Nicholas Valentine, I’m not going to raise a family all on my own just because you can’t take care of yourself.’

He didn’t want to think about a life not his own, a woman who never loved him, synth Nick, emotions that weren’t his, memories that didn’t belong to him, feelings that would never be reciprocated-

A soft grunt- “Hey- hey it’s alright. I’m not going anywhere. I’ll stay as long as you need.” Was that what he needed? No, it was nonsense, and yet Nick could not care less. Instead he pulled the other in closer, closer, until her knees hit the side of the bed and she threatened to fall onto him, and he found himself not minding at all. His hat, now having finally slipped off, fell to the floor, but he couldn’t care less, for when was the last time he was held like this?

Centuries. Before Jenny died, even. On her funeral, that dreadful, rainy day, when his life turned into a shade just as grey as the sky that morning, not even his own mother held him with such care. Did he, or the old Nick, even take the time to grieve? Probably not. No, if they had one thing in common it was the tendency to bury themselves in their work until they dropped.

Wet soil and dried white lilies behind his closed eyes, the withering petals of a red rose scattered on a dusty mahogany desk, a cold cheek against his warm lips. Restless nights of whiskey and old cigars, broken only by the soft scent of jasmine and roses on his pillow. All too vivid, all too far away.

Did he even take the time to actually process everything he’s lived through in the past century? Probably not. No, no he did not, and now this house of cards he so carefully constructed collapsed in on itself, in fire and ash. Into a rubble of synthetic blood and rusty sinew posing as family. Oh, the sins that were not his own stung like a naked flame licking at his skin, like a thousand cuts.

A little treat, to celebrate passing my finals and being allowed to graduate and attend university in a few months :) And to finally having time to do things.

[scorpsik]

It's not anxiety per se for me, but result of bullying. Same effect.

fuck small talk how old were you when anxiety took over your entire being and turned you into someone who’s unrecognizable from your childhood self

[razzafrazzle]

Just Checking In! (aka Something About Red Triangles)

[incognitopolls]

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[bisexualsoup]

yesterday i was insane about that fictional man. today i am insane about that fictional man. tomorrow? take a wild guess brother

[rivetgoth]

It's honestly crazy that discussion around testosterone HRT skews so much towards the beginning stages of it (to the point that you have dozens of guys thinking their transition is "failed" if they don't pass by like a year in lol) and what the initial changes of the first couple of months to years look like, like the classic laundry list of those early basic changes like bottom growth, voice drop, etc, when IMO literally none of that compares remotely to the depth and intensity of the long term total masculinization you start to experience like 3-5+ years in.

[badolmen]

People against piracy fail to realize that no, I can’t just ‘buy it.’ They stopped making DVDs and Blu-Rays. They’re barely offering digital copies for download. I am not spending money I could use for food or bills to pay for a subscription service just so I can always have access to a beloved piece of media. Especially not when the service will remove media on a whim without concern for how the loss of access to that piece will make its artistic conservation nigh impossible.

For example, I recently learned that Disney+ had an original film called Crater. It’s scifi, family friendly, and seems cool - I would love to buy it as a holiday gift for my little brother! But: it’s exclusive to D+ and THEY REMOVED IT LITERALLY MONTHS AFTER ITS RELEASE.

The ONLY way I can directly access this film is through piracy. The ONLY available ‘copies’ of this film are hosted on piracy websites. Disney will NEVER release it in theaters, or as something to buy, and it may NEVER return to the streaming service. It will be LOST because we aren’t allowed to purchase it for personal viewing. If I can’t pay to own it, I won’t pay for the privilege of losing it when corporate decides to put it in a vault.

So yes, I’m going to pirate and support piracy.

Edit: if you are able, use $5 you would otherwise use for a streaming subscription to donate to a GazaFunds campaign.

[awwkie]

Amok Time being Chekov's first episode will never not be funny to me. It's his first day on the job and the first officer is in heat

[cubbyhole-for-flea-bee]

Macaque spent the whole season Big-Damn-Hero-ing and was NOT happy about it xD

[sergle]

ALSO IMPORTANT TO NOTE, people dropping mad mad sums of money on gfms and charities and stuff are extremely impressive but that DOES NOT MEAN that putting like $5 towards someone's fund or any good cause is any less valuable, a lot of crowdfunding is about momentum and those single digits add up super fast, you do not need to be Rolling In The Dough to make someone's day!! moving the dial at all is extremely positive!!

[froopa-coopa]

in the safehouse

[xshinina]

*Married life playing in the background

This idea was probably funnier in my head

[theproblemsofdonhi]

Big Luffy finds a weird looking cat.

[incognitopolls]

"For good" meaning that you had a reasonable expectation that you wouldn't be moving back in with your parents later. For example:

If you moved to college but still returned to your parents' home in between terms, that would NOT count as "for good."

If you moved out expecting it to be "for good" but later had to move back in due to extenuating circumstances (e.g. you lost your job or your housing), count the FIRST time you originally moved out "for good."

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[chloesimaginationthings]

I can’t wait to see mangle in the FNAF 2 movie,,

[yoggybloggy]