I hate the start of a new year because I have so many high expectations and I can never manage to achieve even one of them… For how many years have I told myself that I was going to become a better student, that I was going to lose weight, that I was going to get a boyfriend, etc?
Tomorrow I have to study and be on a diet when all I wanna do is read a romance book.
I know that at the end of the day I will feel the opposite of proud of myself.
There could be many reasons that you are alone , even when you are trying to do your best to find a life partner. Some things you need to evaluate and think about are
1> Do you love yourself the way you are : If you don’t love yourself , chances are that you will convey the same to the guy by acting needy & showing a lack of confidence.
2> Is your heart ready to love : Your own past…
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Just had a dream that I was sent back in time with all my memories.
The dates seid it was only two years back, but it felt like so much farther back.
And I felt truly happy because I was sent back. I really did. I was so happy that I'd been sent back
Being sent back so far meant I had so much more time. It meant I had more money to not spent pointlessly on garbage, so much more experiences I could have that aren't spent in misery and isolation. I had more time to make my body something to live in instead of a hollow repulsive exhausting husk.
It meant I can prepare for the political hell I know is coming, that we all know is coming. More time to attempt to spent with family. More time to improve while this brain develops, to learn skills, to develop good habits.
I had more time. And this time I knew I had more time. This time I wasn't a worthless brainless zombie shambling through life, I had a soul and a goal and drive. I knew what I wanted in life now instead of what hurt. Instead of what fucking hurt. Instead of loneliness and rot I. Had. Hope.
And then I woke up
I woke up
I then woke up to ants swarming my desk, which is inches from my bed. They were on my phone. They were everywhere. I had to spray ant poison into my desk and i know it won't help. The smell hurts.
no but the thing is. they KISSED. on screen. it was a real scene, not deleted, not removed from a script, it HAPPENED in front of the world's eyes. and AND the actors are normal about it and the whole cast and crew is normal about it and it's not vague and it's IMPORTANT. no matter the rest of it and what came after it, it happened!!
im not sure if people can understand what forever alone means...
like literally being alone forever, never being loved or having someone to care of you, except from yourself
walking up alone in bed, running alone, cooking only for yourself, being anxious alone, fixing your plumbing by yourself, hanging that painting up on the wall without having someone to hold the ladder and in the end of that tiring day, sleeping alone
sometimes i feel it would be easier to cry in somebody's arms and not in my pillow and it could be more fun to celebrate with the company of someone else and not with a glass of wine