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zaphiyy207 · 2 years ago

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rkgk: Nothing to see here, just a definitely not injured Bandana Dee wearing definitely not torn Meta Knight cape

Currently working on a fanfic so here's just some sneak peak. Points if you recognize the butchered background I have to made up on the spot

#bandana waddle dee #meta knight #does it considered meta knight when it's only his cape #like is it still meta knight or just knight in general #I am definitely free #i am actually very busy #i wish to work on this properly so have a sketch instead #doodle #kirby of the stars #hoshi no kaabii #hoshi no kirby #kirby right back at ya #the fanfic is still on chapter 1 and it's currently my coping mechanism for Hydraulics #What was even that module i am just #confused?????

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iamfuckingsorry · 5 months ago

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"Do you know where we are going next?" I asked ART.

Y'know what, I think maybe I don't need any more Murderbot books. I think maybe ending things here is fucking perfect and as much as I love Wells's writing I'm genuinely not sure it can get better for me.

Like, so much of the books are about MB learning how to be a person, about becoming okay with being a complete individual with everything it entails. The first thing it does once it's actually allowed to decide on its own is it runs away from it all (admittedly to go on a mission to confirm some things about its past, because it genuinely just wants to be *good*). It shoves all its emotions away as much as it's able to. Then shit happens, and it makes its first friends, makes decisions based on these friendships, goes through a lot of emotionally intense situations...

And we get to this point here. MB having zero doubts about going with ART says a lot about its relationship with ART, but it also says a lot about its relationship with its humans - it knows that wherever it goes, when it comes back, the humans will still be there. Its humans actively acknowledge its struggles with being a now-free SecUnit and MB is willing to entertain the discussions to an extent and share information about its deeply personal experiences. Hell, System Collapse ends with MB admitting it might be somewhat broken, but that's okay as long as it can keep doing its job, and agreeing to basically do counselling - this is the guy what would rewatch its favourite TV show again and again in order to avoid acknowledging it even had Emotions a couple books back.

Reading this, I know that MB will be okay. It has hopes and goals and genuinely believes in itself and it has an amazing support system that its willing to lean on for the first time in its life. I'm convinced it'll go on to do great things with ART. And that's really the only thing I need to know.

#Murderbot #murderbot diaries #tmbd #system collapse #Herr's personal tag #Also like. System collapse dives deep into MB's feelings about its life as secunit prior to the events of all systems red #I find this conversation from when they were discussing what would happen if the BE folks got to the colonists first /very/ telling #MB going on about how life as a corporate slave is absolute fucking hell #ART drone saying that they can't just kill people because the alternative is worse than death #ART: would it have been kinder to kill you before you'd disabled your governor module?#MB with zero fucking hesitation: /yes/#(followed by my favourite ART line ever. “You know I am not kind.”)#Like. MB would not have always admitted that it had hated its life as a secunit this openly #Saying it was shit is one thing saying I would rather be dead than think of me or anyone else going through this again is a very different #And here it has zero issues stating that. At least when talking to ART #And then later on it goes on to offer its actual memories for a publicly screened documentary #Because it knows it's the only way to make people see. The only way to save then from the same (ish) fate #And it's willing to do whatever it takes to save these people it's never even met before from what it views as fate worse than death #Including opening up and acknowledging its past experiences and past/current feelings #And I'm just like. Man I couldn't be more proud of you if I tried.#You go MB. Holy fuck I wish I could do what you've done. You might just be the person to defeat this evil capitalism my dude

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suddencolds · 17 days ago

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.(personal)

#signing off for some time #i have some things to sort through 🫡#please expect something relating to au yvverse on valentines day! (i will be back by then)#a non-snz journal entry before i leave (not expecting anyone to read this):#i think writing humor is an interesting challenge #i remember reading a book in uni where i thought the narration was very interesting and pleasing and sharp #but then reading the reviews for it half a year later and seeing people say 'i couldn't stop laughing when i was reading this' / 'people #on the train were giving me weird looks because i was laughing so hard / this is the funniest book i've read all year' etc. and i remember #feeling distinctly confused... i had not registered that the irony and the sharp commentary were supposed to be funny; they were simply #texturally interesting to me 😭 i also remember submitting a short story draft and having a professor say in workshop 'your writing is very #funny. it reminds me of [movie he liked] which i also found to be very funny'#and i was like 😃❓ (i had also not intended for the story to be funny. but i thought it was a compliment that he read it that way)#humor is so inexplicable to me #i'm working on a series which i actively want to be funny and every time i write out a joke i'm like... fretting a little internally #like do i even know what humor is 😭😭 it's like this relay race exercise where (1) i hand off a scene and (2) the audience interprets it as #playfulness... neither of us is allowed to drop the baton in order for this to work 🏃‍♀️ it's a little scary??!! it feels so vulnerable #i think it's an interesting problem... trying to find all of these little pockets where i can modulate the tone towards playfulness #alsooooo unrelated... these days i find myself feeling the instinctive need to apologize to everyone 😭 i thought i would be fine #but now looking at myself i'm like... girl something is broken here 😭‼️ i tried rephrasing this in like 10 different ways and #nothing seemed right. anyways for good measure: i am sorry #truthfully i still feel like just half a person sometimes #perhaps i shall reemerge from this break metamorphosed into someone more tolerable 🐛 -> 🦋

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sundial-bee-scribbles · 7 months ago

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meow〜

#my art lol #vocaloid #vocaloid fanart #kaito vocaloid #meiko vocaloid #vocaloid meiko #vocaloid kaito #kaimei #sorta?? can be read as platonic/romantic idc interpret as u wish #red #blue #black #there's a funny bonus that goes w/ this but i hate how npf doesnt register breaks properly anymore and fucks up post titles #so i just wont add it here ig. rip. there was ALSO supposed to be a companion piece to this that was darker n edgier #but i am not drawing cyber cat kaito ever again bruh I DIDNT THINK IT WOULD BE THAT HARD TO DRAW BUT WHAT IS GOING ONNN #anyways when i first played project mirai i realized meiko had this module and i was like 'holy shit they can both be cats'#2nd attempt at drawing this cause i didnt like how the first version was coming out. this was supposed to be more emo but eh #me everytime i draw like yeah this is honestly not my best work. post it.#IDC i had fun doing this even if its not the most polished. and i gotta move on to other things #if i agonize over one art piece forever ill never get other shit done. so yuh. make it look decent enough and move on

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vaguely-concerned · 5 months ago

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*fully sweating bullets and thousand yard staring into space as the king of hearts starts to talk about losing the person you love and what you'd be willing to do to get them back* this better not be fUCKING thematic foreshadowing for what this story is meant to head towards eventually (I say, with little hope and great trepidation). we're just going to be thematically microdosing on that in the main krew right folks. no one's going to be lost forever. right??!?!

(though I must admit that the idea of some of them dying and being brough back because that is someone else's heart's desire -- because 'what would even be the point of being given anything else, if you aren't here with me' -- would render me fully incapable of being normal ever again and forever goodnight)

#I swear to GOD if I have to deal with permanent or even only semi-permanent coalecroux grieving widower arc #I will surrender myself to the ocean and float aimlessly around gazing up at the stars unblinkingly forever #once upon a witchlight #legends of avantris #I don't necessarily trust the king of hearts or the purity of his motivations as of now #but this seems to be a thematic underpinning nikkie is building up here #(which from what little I have gleaned is not actually that present or important in the original module? I just read the tvtropes tho lol)#this is one of the things about actual plays I'm worse at parsing -- they work differently than conventional written fiction #and my writer's brain still craves that structure and engages in the pattern recognition it would around conventional fiction haha #when of course the strength (and tbf sometimes weakness) of the medium is its unpredictability and capacity for curveballs #I am as they say. perhaps. a little bit of a control freak that way. I do not. how do you say. 'go with the flow' easily #but honestly if I trust this in the hands of anyone it's this group they've built up some really nice Themes through this thing

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carnivalls · 14 days ago

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See the thing is. I know I'm good at writing. Like I have my weak areas or things I need to improve in, but it's not a skill I otherwise spend a lot of time feeling insecure about because a) if I don't believe in my writing literally who will b) if I want to publish my writing I ought to at least feel a resting level of good about it because editors and agents likely will not be cradling my face like a prize cat and telling me how talented I am while asking for their edits c) I've always had an audience for my writing even at its worst– I started sharing my original works online when I was around 16 & that really helped sell to me the idea of 'there will always be someone out there who likes what you do' d) untalented men never think this hard about the quality of their works and they always end up published anyway and e) I don't have many other thoroughly developed skills so why not have one I feel good about. Having said this. Awkward feeling to realize you're one of the authorial weak links in your postgraduate creative writing degree's social circle

#part of the issue is definitely also like. i am good at what i do! its just that im the only one doing it #40 people in my fuckass degree and im the only one who writes fantasy fiction. we had one more girl but she did romance & dropped out #(to be an agent) (this isnt a sad story)#but yeah no im mostly surrounded by very talented poets and screenwriters. which makes my works seem a little. frivolous. in comparison #and my friends especially are so fucking talented it makes me ill. and they engage politely with me about my writing but its also #superficial and i cant blame them because its simply not what they write/what theyre interested in! i feel the same about poetry #but my friend actually seemed surprised a while ago when i mentioned a thing id been writing and i joked that it looked like she was #surprised i could have good ideas and she didnt answer. and like. man.#i am a good writer! i fucking know im a good writer but im a good FANTASY writer and these people are. different writers and theyre good an #im floundering in this environment next to them and theres something not as like.. artistic in what i do its so fucking embarrassing #and they also display just such a lack of curiosity as to others' writing like.. they wont check the moodle forum to read what the others i #our module have uploaded for each assignment?? like arent you even just CURIOUS? but now im also just wondering if theyre like 🤞 this #with each other in a way that excludes me and my stupid flop ass fiction. i dont know. its just so silly. everyone always talks about #finding community in writing groups & degrees & such and that is exactly the last and most isolating place ive ever been insofar as my #writing goes. like at least way back in high school no one cared in general. here people do care. just not about what i can bring to the #table. although again i really dont know if this is a larger scale lack of curiosity/involvement in others works so i digress.#notnow #tbd #sorry this is a very priveleged complaint to have i AM deeply enjoying my degree and ik im so lucky to get to go where i attend. i just #occasionally feel sad. and knowing i failed my last assignment (which WAS fiction) (one chance to prove myself! cute) isnt helping much #if the poetrypeople are better at me even in the thing im meant to be good at. baby we're about to enter the mental health meat grinder.#but we stay silly. i think i just need to find people online etc to talk to about writing again like i did at 17.#just full insanity paragraph analysis. that was fun. i enjoyed that.

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jrueships · 6 months ago

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guess whos not going in at all this week, actually

#MY MANAGER EMAILED LIKE 2 HOURS B4 I HAD TO GO IN #she finally changed my schedule (1 day) to the night shift today #(i emailed her to be safe just kinda casually reaffirming im going in at the new time & then asking if any other shifts wanted 2 be changed #bcs that sounds great to me whstever option she goes with #she ignored that question & i get a new email from her asking if i completed a training. lets called it DOC #basically a long time ago she said 'i will send you DOC instructions soon' .. a few days pass and i get three 50 paged packets #one is called NAVIGATING DOC #im like oh ok cool that must be the DOC training shes talking abt bcs the other 2 packets were abt various trainings #NAH BRUH. APPARENTLY THE DAY IM SUPPOSED TO GO IN. SHE MESSAGES ME SOME ENTIRELY ALIEN PROGRAM #and is like 'u completed this right? cus if u didnt u cant come in today.'#LIKE?? MAYBE I WOULDA IF U SENT THE SHIT #but it's also like. dam i shouldve emailed prompting her to send what she said she would n clarifying BUT FUCK #WHY DO I GOTTA?? IM NOT THE MANAGER #she literally told me the name of the program rn thru email so i type it in and see like four hour long modules to complete #mind u i aint never even been informed a WHISPER abt this new program. nothings even labeled DOC TRAINING #but my struggle is. was i notified this?? and i just didnt see??? was i supposed to clarify with her what the DOC training was exactly??#the only thing ive heard abt doc training b4 this is 'i need to send u DOC training soon' in EMAIL. so i expected an alert #abt THE DOC TRAINING... in an EMAIL notification. WHAT THE HELL IS THIS #idk man #i dont even care bro like im busy as hell & the work is just to build clinic hours so i dont care abt the money factor #it's just like. can we get this first day jitters thing over with already?? im so over this bro #yaddayadda i emailed her an apology n ill be on that ASAP shit. but i did let her know i am basically justnnow seeing this site #n if there was any email or notif that couldve/tried to inform me of its existence 2 pls let me know / figure out how to find it #so the issue doesnt occur again & i dont have to keep botherinher which im so srry of bcs med is stress n shes just trying to get by #but still bro im a lil miffed bcs she probably thinks im stupid now and now im wondering if i AM #bcs WDYM ONLINE MODULES. AINT NOBODY SAID SH IT EVEN ABT THE EXISTENCE OF THEM!!! i wouldve pressed harder 4 clarification #if i knew it was an ONLINE MODULE i had to look out for on some randomass site i didnt even know the name of until now #instead of the EMAIL UVE BEEN 'COMMUNICATING' WITH ME ON #ARREGHHHHHHHH IM NOT STUPID. I SWEAR IM NOT STUPID FUCCK MY BAKA LIFE

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peachyykira · 4 months ago

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#so fucking irritated #this powerpoint i have to do?#has NOTHING TO DO with what was discussed in the modules this week #i have to do a whole powerpoint about healthcare fraud and abuse #which were not explicity discussed #it was mostly privacy of information/hipaa/medical records and laws about like domestic violence???#and this is the same class where i dont do super great on the exams and the discussions dont really make sense #im so mad #im mad at myself #AND im mad at this fucking teacher because wtf #every single week i am using sources for the discussion posts that arent what she provided and do you know why?#because they are almsot always inadequate or not even relating to what she wants us to discuss #🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃#just a few more weeks of this #i can do it #right?#yeah. i can do it.#but please get dont let my other classes be like this #always #i wanna scream

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immortalsins · 6 months ago

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flipflopping between 'this bio exam will go ok since i did zero studying for the first one and still passed' and 'i'm going to fail abysmally i need to give up on sleep, cancel my travel plans, and lock in until i know whole textbooks off by heart' so i'm stuck here with paralysing guilt and fear obviously

#the zero studying for the first exam was quite a time #the start of the downwards spiral that i'm still in tbh #and technically i've passed the whole module so ?? no need to even do this exam #it could go terribly and i'll be fine #but at the same time i know i could do better and i'm just. not doing it.#i genuinely have a problem idk if it's the confirmed autism or my adhd suspicions coming back to bite me #but i CANNOT focus #and it's kind of terrifying how little control i have over where my mind goes #i can't do anything to stop it drifting away from what i'm supposed to be taking in and idk why #is that adhd fr. or am i just stressed #it's 7pm and i've gone over one topic #not good enough . pathetic. failure material #idk how to fix it !!!!#<- medication.#most likely #but it's not like i can just try that out

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acesammy · 7 months ago

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Why cant this just be a fucking normal math class

#like #give the lecture -> let me do the homework -> take the exam #that's ALL you need to do in a fucking /math class/#why does it have to be so fucking complicated #i just looked at my grades thinking 'oh yeah i've got this on lock' only to find i've got a bunch of missing work?????#and i have no fucking CLUE what the FUCK it even IS #its not in the syllabus its not in the modules its not in the assignments it wasnt brought up when i met with the professor #i see one (1) mention of having to do discussion boards but i CANT FUCKING FIND THE BOARDS #and NONE of this is graded well and theres NO process to it #it feels like a fucking free for all and how the HELL am i supposed to learn the concepts when im too busy #trying to fucking figure out the structure of the goddamn class #anyways #i'm back to complaining

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exopelagic · 10 months ago

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what WAS the normal child response to learning abt climate change actually. bc I’m pretty sure ‘depressed for at least 6 months and becoming deeply fascinated by apocalypses for ~3 years’ was prooooobably not it but who am I to say

#did NOT realise how much this has shaped me actually #also am not exaggerating when I say depressed I. cannot remmeber a lot of it but my parents were Worried about me #anyway I joke abt how I’m a biologist now bc of pokemon and that is very true but this is probably a pretty big chunk too #it’s just wild like that happened when I was 11 and I was DEEEEEP in the apocalypse trenches until I was at least 14 #I think I wrote my first longish story when I was? 13? about waking up after some massive chunk of time to a world with no people left #that concept rlly held onto me for some reason. just all the people suddenly disappearing #I’m saying all this like I’m not still rlly into apocalypse stories but it is a mere shadow of its former self #anyway I’m so grateful for the conservation module I took this year bc learning abt the state of everything + the way out of it #scientifically instead of piecemeal from the news and the shit I could read abt. has been rlly good for my everything honestly #didn’t properly sink in until two months ago I don’t think that year this is kiiinda what I would like to do with my life #bc I’d always been resistant to the idea of doing conservation or climate science or anything bc historically thinking abt it for too long #has been BAD for me and I didn’t think I could do that forever while keeping most of me #but now I’m at a point where like. okay very likely I’m gonna be an actual scientist. and while pure science is cool and worthwhile #and I still have feelings abt how there’s no funding or anything for studies without immediate practical applications #(THEY NORMALLY COME LATER AND EVEN IF THEY DONT ITS WORTH KNOWING EVERYTHING WE CAN KNOW SHUT UUUUPPP)#i do wanna do smth that’s gonna make a difference bc like I’m kinda in a position where that’s possible here #anyway my masters is gonna be ecology and hopefully with a microclimate focus which is cool as hell and will hopefully keep stuff open a bit #and I’m gonna try do as much as I can next year. there’s some very cool stuff happening I might be able to join #anyway wow this took a turn #climate crisis! woo!!#luke.txt

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scarletcomet · 2 years ago

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i was talking with my dad because i don’t really understand a lot of things in my computer engineering class, and my dad has a degree in computer engineering. he said i should try to meet with the professor. i told him that the exam is in the morning, and he was like oh people usually start studying more than a day in advance. like first of all, i did not start studying today. second of all, did he miss the part where i’ve been severely depressed for the last like month to the point where im going to have to take incompletes in all (except maybe one) of my classes??