#What is Median

[easynotes4u]

Median: Meaning, Definition, Properties, Nature, Properties, Merits & Demerits | Statistics

In this article, we will discuss the Meaning, Definition, Properties, Nature or characteristics, Properties, Merits & Demerits of Median (Measures of Central Tendency – Statistics. Meaning of Median (Measures of Central Tendency)- Statistics Meaning Definition of Median (Measures of Central Tendency)- Statistics The median is a centrally located value that splits the distribution into two equal…

[alexandriaellisart]

sunset blvd

[phantomrose96]

huh!

[cozymochi]

back on that Tia supremacy 💚🪷 and an ask for her incoming!

outside of Grim and the the card bois ofc, is there anyone else Tia is on particularly strong friendly terms with? :>

Im just gonna hand you the controller because I drew a blank.

[SMASH ANNOUNCER VOICE]

“CHOOSE YOUR CHARACTER”

[thecranewivesrpf]

the only thing you can do about your troubles is project them onto your blorbos

[imjustaf444keriguess]

POLL!

copied from this post except its actually 1 week and on its own post so new people can find it

using we/our pronouns for the poll and using "personal" and "umbrella" as short for "personal label" and "umbrella label". non-singlet used here to refer to anyone who is not a singlet, whether median or multiple/plural/system and regardless of origin or disorder status! not enough options for all the labels i want to include but its close enough. i also added median which idk if it's a personal label anyone would use but i know there are people who don't identify fully as plurals/systems but aren't singlets either (if you prefer median over median system or something u could pick that? idk i noticed i could make 12 options and median experiences are sometimes different than "true plural" or "true system" expeirences

[applejongho]

just saw someone say that sakura (lsfm) has great knees (to do the duck walk in crazy) for someone that's "pushing 30" and i ju

SHES 26????????????? thats YOUNG???

[median-culture-is]

Confused median culture is “wait am I X, no wait X is more like this. Am I Y? Are X and Y blurred? Is this a new facet? Did Z split? WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON”

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[fish-n-friends]

holy shit i forgot we're a system.

guys we are a systen. what the fuck . what do you mean we're 4+ people. what . what. what

(what not switching for like 3 hours and doing the exact same shit you did pre syscovery does to a mfcker)

[talishere]

Did find out I am plural (from just my own experiences and others) We are chilling tho asked other systems listed experiences and was able to get responses

Most likely a Median or Monedian!

Still going to sit and think about this but from what I have I am able to talk to one other being in my head (no clue about the persons pronouns) I do know there name is Jepson!

(Added tags for traction n people can list experiences and thoughts ideas and questions)

[compacflt]

wip wednesday: picking at it slowly but surely

[lefluoritesys]

That warm feeling when you lose 4 hours of your life, but you aren't worried that something bad happened because you know who fronted and trust them.

-host

[shiftperception]

ok I take it back. ‘median system’ is extremely similar to my guys’ setup. ‘mono consciousness’ too i think(if the following is what it means) cause when im using them more as psychological devices than ocs you get the memory backlog, you get the memory backlog, everyone gets the memory backlog. “switching” is just imagining from another character’s pov so it’s the same consciousness all the way down. and they are still characters as much as i love to put them at the pixar inside out control panel in my mind, so it’d be counterintuitive to write in one of them not having the memories on purpose.

[kaiserouo]

i got to 483 plat and i'm instantly broke

but oh yeah my operator is actually my operator now and i can take ordis everywhere

oh wait ordis doesn't follow me. okay.

[ectonurites]

your blog is *dc facts* *dc facts* *dc facts* *dc facts* i feel a deep spiritual connection with smith college for girls *dc facts* *dc facts* *dc fa

DSGFHGJzkhsjl ok yes the dc facts quantity is spot on

and while i can understand how one would glean that impression of my relationship with smith based on things i've posted.... truthfully it's not that i feel connected to it, instead it's that i just have a weird relationship with it by virtue of being a (former) resident of the town the college is in yet not ever being a student there

[put a shitty summary of my blog in my inbox?]

[doin-just-fine]

What the brain doin?? PT. 1 of a questioning median system's journey

"Why do I think I'm plural?"

Hello!

I am making this post for those who think they are a Median System. I've noticed our community is small and that there aren't many recourses out there to compare experiences to. The few that do exist have been very helpful so I thought I'd add to the pool to compare and contrast with.  In this post I will discuss how I reached the point of believing I am a Median System, why, as of right now, that label fits the best for me, and what my system is like on the inside. 

(THIS IS A SAFE SPACE FOR EVERYONE REGARDLESS OF ORGIN, LABLE, KNOWLEDGE, OR IDENTITY)

How did I get here?

I started learning about what plurality was in 2018 for a college psych course. At that point in time I just found it interesting; fascinated at how the brain reacted to trauma and why it would split off as a way to cope. A tiny part of me thought "am I....?? NAaaah!! I would know!! It would click and everything would all make sense and I would just know!!! Plus I don't have enough trauma." I developed a hyper-fixation on it for a bit but it fizzled out and I didn't reflect on it again for a while. 

In 2021 I took a course that looked at the abstract ideas and philosophies behind what consciousness really is. I decided that for my final research paper in that course I would write about DID and other forms of plurality and what implications their very existence meant for how we define consciousness. After that, the hyper-fixation was reignited. I started to reflect on myself again but came to the same conclusions. Until, I met my now partner, who is a system, in 2022. They taught me a lot about plurality. 

It's a bit fuzzy when I started questioning myself again or why. EDIT: I remembered! I ran out of ADHD medication and had to go without it for a couple weeks. For context, I haven't taken a break from my meds since I started them at age 8 and at the time of running out I was on the highest dose of really strong stuff. After this break I started to notice how much my meds suppressed my emotions and creativity, eventually I got more medication. I then started asking my partner more questions about how they figured it out they were a system, how they knew, what did they do, how did they navigate embracing it, etc. I was a bit obsessive about these questions and it wasn't hyper-fixation level obsessive, this was "I need these answers to survive" level obsessive. I started noticing anxiety around these questions that I had never felt before. Ya know, totally normal singlet stuff. 

I started a notes app note titled "Psychological analysis of myself" after I had a panic attack that felt like someone else was having it through my body. Like genuinely, it snuck up on me (unusual for my anxiety I usually can see it coming a mile a way) and then it felt like my body had the panic attack without me, I was just there along for the ride. It freaked me out, which is why I started the notes app. I started diving into more research on OSSD and more nuanced experiences of plurality that never came up in basic psychology research. 

Then the denial started. Heavy, aggressive, degrading, denial. I pride myself on have decent esteem and self love but this denial laughed in my face. I only felt this once before when I was failing a math class in 2019. It was the first class I had ever been so close to failing I tore myself apart about it. It was so unlike me to be so mean to myself. When having this denial dialogue in my head about how (aggressive language warning) I was attention seeking faker who was just lonely and wanted to feel special, it was always stated in “You are…” statements. For example: “You’re just faking.” “You’re stupid.” “I can’t believe you think this.” When I would have these conversations with myself I would feel myself getting tired. Not tired in a way where I needed a nap but more like a drifting tired. I know this may be connected to dissociation, or switching (unclear).

So in my notes app I would write the thoughts out as they came. I realized I was having a chat with myself. A great app for honestly singlets and plurals to download is ANTAR. It’s an app that lets you chat with you "emotions" to sort out emotional hang ups but if you label the emotions as your alters instead you can chat with your system! These conversations are why I didn’t fully fall back into denial stage.

For a moment I did. I concluded that I was just being silly and dramatic and blowing things out of proportion. But having those conversations on my phone that I could go back to and look at didn’t let me stay there for long. 

I went back and forth on the denial thing for a minute only because I couldn’t find label that fit how I felt about my potential system until I happened across Median System. There was the click. Everything fell into place. I sat and read the definition and just thought “That’s me”.

Why “Median System”

A Median System is describe as 

A median system (also called midcontinuum) is a system where members are not as distinct or separate from each other. It can be considered being somewhere between multiple and singlet.[1] Some are dependent on a single individual, or the dependence can be mutual in that there is no central individual. Some median systems feel more blurred between themselves[2]. Others may also be based around a shared identity or kin. The members of a median system are often described as aspects or facets. Some median systems may identify as different archetypes[1]. Despite being more fluid and similar, median systems can be very diverse. Median systems are often opposed to multiple systems, with multiple systems experiencing more distinction between headmates. Some may also oppose it to partitionary systems, but in fact, median systems can be either partitionary or blurian, as variance in identity and presence or absence of memory sharing do not necessarily go hand-in-hand.

For me, part of the reason that I was in such denial of possibly being plural was because I have little to no amnesia in my day to day but unlike OSDD-1b (which also lacks amnesia) I don’t have distinct others. It felt like me all the time but sometimes adjacent. Someone described the difference as feeling like a snake with multiple heads rather that multiple snakes in a cage. And a Median system it feels like being an individual with multiple consciouses instead of multiple individuals in one body. 

Other ways that I experience my existence are as follows: 

I sometimes use plural first pronouns when referring to myself because before this realization I would be talking about myself and my brain as separate from me.

I used to joke that I felt like a system that just never fractured. 

The way people describe masking but for me it feel like a more extreme level, where I’m not TRYING to change my behavior, it just sorta happens and I’m “someone else”. What I called masking felt more like skipping songs in a playlist to get to the right one instead of putting on a mask. 

Another thing I experience is sometimes I expect to see a different face in the mirror and I get weirded out while still recognizing that, that is me and my face. 

This one might be a stretch but I have seen other Median Systems mention it. I notice that proper singlets have 1 go to aesthetic. It may change over the years but that typically have 1. I have never been able to consistently identify with 1 aesthetic I typically cycle through several. Specifically for me it's punk, grunge, hippy, cottage academia, and dark academia. With a funky gender identity on top of all that.

I wrote this post on and off over the course of a few hours and I lost my train of thought. Please let me know if you have questions, clarifications, comments, or your own stories. My asks are open. I will probably speak more on this at a later date.