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seiwas · 1 month

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home by daughtry reminds me of deku in the most he-wouldn't-do-this-but-it's-the-life-i'd-want-for-him kinda way 🥲😭

#my 'if only' song for him #can you just imagine.#if he chose to be kinder to himself and dropped everyone else #if he chose to be SELFISH #if he just CHOSE HIMSELF for fucking once #'i dont regret this life i chose for me'#bc he doesn't and he never will but just. imagine him throwing the towel in and saying aight im done like #he's done enough. IMAGINE IF HE FINALLY FEELS LIKE HE'S DONE ENOUGH. if he finally BELIEVES he's done enough #'these places and these faces are getting old' to every passersby every civilian every new person he's met for those few fleeting minutes #loving deku is knowing and accepting that you'll never be first #and youve come to terms with that over the years but it doesn't stop you from hoping he puts HIMSELF first for once.#you dont mind being third or fourth or WHATEVER #then you get the call #and he tells you he's coming home #it's not something unusual; he usually does that at the end of a shift or a trip or a mission or a meeting #but this one sounds different. a little more emotional. a little teary and sentimental. he sounds like he's gonna cry #and you can't tell if he's happy or sad but he tells you he's coming home #he doesn't say until later on that it's from signing closing contracts and retirement papers #bc after all this time he FINALLY feels like he's done enough. and that he can come home now. to you especially #and he's still a little sad don't get me wrong!!!!!! but it's relief and excitement and sorrow and guilt all in one and #GOSH IF ONLY #this is why deku is at the top of the list of writers i am HELLA reluctant to write for lmao #characters*****#there's SOOOO much to unpack #i talked so much again #TRULY MADE MYSELF SAD #anyway back to writing atsumu

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chloecherrysip · 1 year

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"I hope you told your brother how much you loved him, because you're probably never gonna see him again."

"..."

"Was that too dark?"

"YES!"

"Sorry."

#mario movie #mario move spoilers #super mario bros movie #super mario bros #mario and luigi #super mario bros movie spoilers #cherrysip edits #i was gonna make a different gifset today but then i found that new trailer and WELL HERE WE ARE lol #TOAD SERIOUSLY CAN YOU READ THE ROOM HERE???????????#first time in the town was kinda funny second time was genuinely a bit upsetting to the point that i gasped when i heard the dialogue #mario would prefer you Do Not Say Things Like That!!!!!!!#he is no way shape or form emotionally prepared to grapple with the idea of his brother being dead or never being able to find him #that would end him. that would destroy him. he would truly not know how to go on. so that is just firmly Not a Possibility in his brain #(and now i made myself REALLY sad thinking about mario remembering this conversation a little later and wondering #when WAS the last time he told luigi he loved him????? he can't remember. he loves his brother more than anything and anyone #but he hasn't said it outloud in so long and the realization of that is extremely painful. there's some more angst for you!!!)#anyway this is just a compilation of all the significant scenes where mario and luigi are actually together we've seen so far and I CRY #also the brand-new one of them running through town!!! omg it's perfect #with mario doing unnecessary parkour and luigi just diligently jogging along on the outside and avoiding the mess #the characterization even in the tiniest moments like this is truly CHEF'S KISS #will be working on more gifsets because my brain just needs to stare at all this until the movie comes out lololol

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goldensunset · 7 months

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xion's theme is the perfect piece of music truly

#furious at myself for not having saved it but like #didn't someone a long while back write like a video essay #saying how it was sort of like a folk song #bc it truly is a recurring anthem #it's horribly sad but can also be made into like a triumphant refrain #it can express sorrow and relief and anger all at once #with the way different versions of it have been made and used in different situations #just. aaaaaaaaaaaaaa #kingdom hearts

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w1tchybusiness · 3 months

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i could write a 100 page essay about what a fucking masterpiece warframe is. i will write many words in the tags. please readem if you want my 'tism.

#ive been playing on and off since 2019 but its only recently when i dumped destiny 2 (probably for good) and picked it up #to fill the grind-shaped hole in my heart #that i have uncovered just how FUCKING INCREDIBLE warframe is #everything about it makes me incredibly autistic #from its masterful utilization of an incredibly styled and individual soundtrack full of absolute bangers #to its seemingly unique understanding of how and why an MMO is special to and because of its players #and its truly special story- a uniquely human take on the “post-ruin scifi” tale #it knows exactly how and when to yank on your heart to make you weep like a baby #and it knows exactly when you're going to get angry and want vengeance #and it knows when to let you let loose and unleash hell #SPOILERS FOR THE NEW WAR AHEAD #IF YOU THINK YOU COULD PLAY THE GAME PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DO #SPOILER WARNING #i think the narmer corruption of fortuna was genuinely one of the most gutpunchingly horrible moments ive ever experienced in a video game #i started playing when fortuna was already in the game but the story of fortuna and vox solaris was really what made warframe stand out 2 m #i would drop into the orb vallis as gauss and dash around doing bounties and fishing and mining because i really loved everything about #fortuna and wanted to spend as much time there as possible #for me vox solaris was my proudest achievement (in warframe.) to say “i helped that! i did that!” was an incredibly good feeling #the story really spoke to me on a deeper level #and vox solaris has always been my favorite faction as a result #so to do absolutely everything that i could #to lift together with my tenno brothers and sisters and yet STILL fail?#and to have it rubbed in my face by the corruption of the greatest shining pillar of hope in the warframe universe?#felt like i got kicked in the stomach #i felt sad and angry. but most of all i was DRIVEN.#which is GOOD. because RARELY does a video game present you the “you lost” scenario and have it feel not only satisfyingly painful #but MOTIVATING.#my only complaint with the new war is that i didnt get to hack ballas to pieces by myself #i had real flashbacks to running around helping people as gauss while approaching the final boss with erra #and to step onto the ballas arena as gauss prime. i nearly came from the narrative significance

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panthermouthh · 5 months

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creecher my beloved <3

(or in other words, very cool and awsome art, and i am loving the frankenstein stuff)

He’s just a lil guy <333 so what about the atrocities <333

#thank u <3333 #I have a small backlog of stuff #but I haven’t finalised stuff bc I am v busy this week lol #and also I am flip flopping between them despising each other like in the original text #and Victor being insanely and unmovingly devoted to the creature and thinks he’s the most beautiful thing in the entire world #truly a face only a mad scientist could love #and I made myself sad thinking of the creature killing Victor anyway #and Victor isn’t mad #he made him this way after all #he still loves him and forgives him even as he’s dying #because he’s perfect #he’s the perfect creation #and Adam will never know why he couldn’t make him Better #oughh I made myself sad again #asks #anon #Frankenstein

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mythtakens · 5 days

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Firefly 1x12 The Message

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imminent-danger-came · 8 months

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I WAS LOOKING THROUGH PINTEREST AND I HSD TO START FUCKIMG PACING AROUKD THE ROOM

MK ANS MEI MK AND MEI A HERO AND A WARRIOR?????? WHEN DOES THE PAIN END GAAAAAAAAWD WAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH

The grind doesn't end when you're in this deep with the legos.

This is a very specific Mei and MK dynamic that I kinda adore

#very Samadhi Fire Part 3 of them.#*head in my hands .png* oughgh. I made myself sad #lmk #lego monkie kid #samadhi fire part 3 #asks #solarartzz #See Mei and MK are so good because they have an insane level of devotion to each other that's 100% platonic #(though I respect romantic goldendragon shippers)#But also aro/aro solidarity #The 4x02 handhold was truly everything to me #I need Mei and MK to do something fucked up for each other. <3

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lunarharp · 8 months

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lazy scribbling of my baldur's gate 3 characters

#*emerges from 430 HOURS of life-changing playtime blearily like a lost and confused kitten*#i lost my interest in drawing bc everything is too sad & horrible right now. it was a luxury and privilege to lose myself in this instead #what follows will be my personal and trivial emotions about that #i'll do better proper drawings later. for me. they are both so very dear to me... deeply dear...unforgettable journeys of fate #truly have played like one possessed for the past few weeks. you have no idea. what do i do now. what do i do.#their personalities are so vivid to me though they mostly made the same choices. both intersex and they/them - canonically <3 #i missed out on FOUR PARTY MEMBERS in my first playthrough due to not understanding anything whatsoever.#gloaming ended up with wyll and pavane romanced karlach and astarion. and ended up with the one i did NOT plan on. this wasnt the plan #one of the most fulfilling romance paths i've ever..i cant say more..it all got too immersive and now i have to just.. MOVE ON ??????????#live in THIS world where i can't gut imperialism personally and emerge alive from that?#without Long Resting? without my character requesting a kiss from their beloved after a tough day ??#without preparing my little spells? without channelling divinity from my death god to keep us all alive?#without dyeing my man's clothes fancy colours for him? without him Approving whenever i lie and double-cross our enemies #without sharing clothes with my ex? without choosing to eat the heavy food first so that the weight is easier on her Carrying Capacity?#without orchestrating ways for all of my friends to kill the abusers that ruined their lives for a decade or even 200 years?#without experiencing degrading horrors on a daily basis but in a cathartic way where we always make it back to our rooms at the inn #WITHOUT SPEAK WITH ANIMALS???????????#at least there's music. just like with persona 5 that will always be with me. always #like how p5 melodies take me back to those feelings. those rich and personal feelings.... BUT THIS WAS A WAY MORE NUTS EXPERIENCE #i thought i would hate it. i did at times. thought it would desensitise me to various things. it did. but there was so much more..it was...#Well anyway *continues my life* imagine if dnd was real..something to think about

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metalsiren · 2 months

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the way that sawyer becomes a different person around her parents makes me cry every time. this bubbly, warm, bright girl just shrivels into something so meek and uncertain of herself, it hurts my heart so bad. she truly transforms into her younger self just pining for her parents' approval, something she's never going to get though she has endless hope that she will someday. 😭

#° 𝔡𝔢𝔳𝔢𝔩𝔬𝔭𝔪𝔢𝔫𝔱 ; ✞ headcanon.#wow I just made myself sad #because like #she truly just wabts to make them proud #but all they do is snub her and degrade her #look down in her accomplishments #and this is OUTSIDE of the fact that they dont believe that she was a**ault*d for years

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acheemient · 11 months

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Oh my god.

I don't know why I didn't realize it before or why this stuck me so suddenly, but:

Aziraphale is not on Earth anymore.

For the first time (for any large amount of time) in the Earth's 6000 years of existence, Aziraphale is not on Earth.

With Crowley.

Think of how Lonely that must be.

#good omens #ineffable husbands #crowley #aziraphale #good omens spoilers #can you even imagine how crowley is feeling right now?#for the first time in 6000 years #crowley is truly alone #oh i made myself sad

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dayurno · 4 months

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have u read oh my queen, we are here again & if u have what r ur thots!!!!!!!!!

yeah yeah my beautiful and kind and talented and beloved @onereallygoodlambonastick wrote it so of course i read it....!!! the patron saint of fighting for kevin day's rights :) made me incredibly and heartstrikingly sad! especially all of andrew's parts :) fanfics that gave me clinical depression

#soys aftg angst remains unbattled to be honest theyre not even in the fandom anymore and still eating the girls up #asks #SORRY i know you wanted a more in depth commentary but i will do ANYTHING to bring up my friends works #also i truly do mean it the fic made me so sad i cant sit here and ponder too heavily on it id kill myself #but i really liked the nuance in kevins and wymacks relationship #and i think andrew was really good on that one

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machidielontheway · 6 months

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so i "did nothing" today of what i had planned (groceries, 'mental health walk') but i also : - did the laundry - put away the dry cloth of the previous laundry run - waxed (which i wanted to do yesterday so i'm glad i did it now) - practiced my instrument (twas not great as it was a bit mindless, but i finally found the source of one recent sound problem) - washed my hair - did a little callisthenics - downloaded some songs to begin making a collection - learned that even if i'm not feeling it, putting the right song WILL give me the energy necessary to do the thing. i do not need to want to hear the sound for it to work.

so even if i didn't do a "specific activity" outside i still did things and that's good !

#3615 my life #this post comes from the fact that i always 'ruin / waste' my holidays by doing 'nothing'#when i want to do 'things'#and i'm beginning to see/add nuances to what is things and nothings and what feels like doing or not doing #it was sunny today (as much as it can be lately.) and in general i'm dog holding it's leash about it #and if i don't go out i feel like i shot myself in the foot and is doubly sad #but i thought about it and actually didn't want to go truly it was not uuuh i saw it again lately. it was not demand avoidance #because it's fucking wimdy and i hate the wind and behinf outside in the cold wind #so actually i was much happier home #day did not happen how i planned it but in the end i don't feel like i fucked it up. i did things that made me feel good #and or will help me later #and i shouldn't ask too much of myself. like for cleaning : one thing a day is already great ! all in it's time.#that's how the brain learn it's not a chore and is able to do it more readily and agreeably the next time

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dont-open-dead-inside-25 · 8 months

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god, do people just... express emotions on accident? is that it? because every time i express something other than unbridled joy it's a deliberate and calculated move... isn't it, if you don't like someone/what they're doing you make micro changes to your behavior and then when they ask about it you say it's fine because that's the script for that situation..? if you're uncomfortable you show it in the "im trying to hide this feeling" way... like you're perfectly capable of not showing any emotion but that's not what you're supposed to do. people are supposed to be able to tell that you're hiding something you have to hit that sweet spot. and if they're close they can ask you what's up and if you're feeling rebellious you can tell them and then you can talk about it. if you're upset and "hiding" it and the person doesn't notice that's their fault. they're not doing their part in the social interaction. right?

#finn says shit #why is it supernatural that's making me realize these things #anyway sam got his soul back #and one of the main things of focus is that while his soul was gone he was “pretending to care”... and i didn't realize he did in the first #place #i mean when they were talking to witnesses i thought he was just. really good at appearing sympathetic. but you're trying to tell me it was #real? he actually felt that way?#because if you really and truly feel an emotion why are you expressing it #i thought he just acted sympathetic to get the witnesses to feel more comfortable opening up to him #which is why it was weird to me that soulless sam didn't put on the sad face. because the sad face IS the best for finding information #feelings of witness notwithstanding #finn watches supernatural #coming back i have more to say #the fact that it was really feeling these things as opposed to pretending that made sam human has got me feeling some type of way #i think of myself as a very empathetic person but maybe #i dont know #do i even know what empathy means?#maybe im just good at pretending #god #um #autism #i guess

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moltage · 8 months

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i've tried everything, different ways, different times, different places. i just can't seem to find my passion for writing back.

#writers block my ass this shit has been going on for years #you love going around telling people that you write when in truth you haven't written anything in ages #i don't even consider myself a writer anymore because it feels wrong to call it that #everything i put out is influenced by something. ifeel like i can never truly be original #a few shitty pieces i wrote at the peak of a fixation don't really count because i've abandoned them too #yes i've written them but im so afraid to associate them with my name #how does one hate what they create so much #yet still want to create #when will it be satisfying?#when will i be like yeah. i like this. i made this. this is mine.#i dont think the problem is language either like sure it can be improved but i can't even write in my own language?#i used to love writing in turkish and peopel would praise me for my stories but looking back at it even that wasn't original #it was never mine #it was always about something that affected me #this is sad its just sad.#writing

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tightjeansjavi · 5 months

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Word of advice from Gi, do not take a trip down memory lane in your camera roll unless you’re purposely trying to hurt your feelings and send an 8 minute voice note to @strang3lov3 about the guy you lost virginity to, and the same guy broke your heart and fucked one of your friends behind your back!! Even though it was years ago, dudes a piece of shit 😒

but looking at those photos and seeing Gi in that era ugh, it kills me. I used to smile more and laugh and I was so carefree! I just wonder where that Gi is at because I feel like I don’t know who she is anymore and I hope I get to meet her again someday ❤️‍🩹

#talkswithgi #sappy post #tw shitty men #I’m like not even sad #it’s just that looking back at those photos made me feel something #I hope I get to meet that version of myself again someday #i miss her #she was truly living her best life

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nordsea-horizons · 8 months

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hi! i just wanted to say that you are absolutely my favorite acnh creator, i always look forward to your posts, as i find so much inspiration from your content. i love your decorating style so much, it’s so simple and almost nostalgic. i always look forward to visiting your islands, i enjoy them immensely, they give me such a warm and comforting feeling. so thank you for that!

i think it’s super neat that nordsea is your forever island. i was wondering if you would be able to post a picture of every map from each version of nordsea you’ve finished thus far. i think it would be fun to see all the different versions next to each other, to see how many ways you can design the same island. i’ve never even finished one island, but you’ve finished so many, with the same exact canvas. your creativity and talent truly knows no bounds!! :)

hii, tysm for this super sweet message😭💛 i appreciate your support so so much, thank you for taking time to write this to me😳🥺💕 sharing my islands and talking about them on here brings me a lot of comfort and makes me enjoy the game so much more!! im happy to be here and i do truly appreciate anyone who stops by my blog💛 the fact that it can be a comforting place for others and not just myself makes me feel so happy😭

now the reason it took me a minute to respond to this ask is bc of this post request! i dont mind at all if anyone wants to make a post suggestion like this, its all good and fun, but.. you really got me here😂 i dont loooove my maps in general and im also sadly terrible at saving the ones from nordsea bc the da has been the same for two years now so i dont need to keep track u know👀 i already know i dont have every single one saved so im sorry about that! however i will do this for sure with as many maps as i can find, im working on it now💕

this is the oldest map i have of nordsea! you can still see the original version and im always surprised bc this is not at all the map i would pick today👀 but yea, thats the base, i’ll get back to you on the rest😅💛

#when i started this island i didnt mean for it to be a forever island actually i just did it casually😳#tysm again for this message! it made my day for sure💛💛#also anon dont feel bad about not finishing an island! there is no right or wrong way to play this game!#im always a little sad that im part of making it seem like this is the way to have an island in acnh bc it really doesnt have to be!#i enjoy all types of playing and love seeing others do things completely different from myself! the most important thing is to have fun and #hopefully be creative in the way you want!#i share my islands for fun and to be part of the community! i get so much inspiration from others and enjoy all types of islands/gameplay!#i hope you can have fun on your island! truly💛💛#reply

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