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seiwas · 6 months ago

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home by daughtry reminds me of deku in the most he-wouldn't-do-this-but-it's-the-life-i'd-want-for-him kinda way 🥲😭

#my 'if only' song for him #can you just imagine.#if he chose to be kinder to himself and dropped everyone else #if he chose to be SELFISH #if he just CHOSE HIMSELF for fucking once #'i dont regret this life i chose for me'#bc he doesn't and he never will but just. imagine him throwing the towel in and saying aight im done like #he's done enough. IMAGINE IF HE FINALLY FEELS LIKE HE'S DONE ENOUGH. if he finally BELIEVES he's done enough #'these places and these faces are getting old' to every passersby every civilian every new person he's met for those few fleeting minutes #loving deku is knowing and accepting that you'll never be first #and youve come to terms with that over the years but it doesn't stop you from hoping he puts HIMSELF first for once.#you dont mind being third or fourth or WHATEVER #then you get the call #and he tells you he's coming home #it's not something unusual; he usually does that at the end of a shift or a trip or a mission or a meeting #but this one sounds different. a little more emotional. a little teary and sentimental. he sounds like he's gonna cry #and you can't tell if he's happy or sad but he tells you he's coming home #he doesn't say until later on that it's from signing closing contracts and retirement papers #bc after all this time he FINALLY feels like he's done enough. and that he can come home now. to you especially #and he's still a little sad don't get me wrong!!!!!! but it's relief and excitement and sorrow and guilt all in one and #GOSH IF ONLY #this is why deku is at the top of the list of writers i am HELLA reluctant to write for lmao #characters*****#there's SOOOO much to unpack #i talked so much again #TRULY MADE MYSELF SAD #anyway back to writing atsumu

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riddlerosehearts · 3 months ago

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i feel like a lot of people seem to forget that during idia's overblot flashback scene he says his life has been set in stone since he was born, and that it hurt how other kids would get asked what they want to be when they grow up but nobody would ever ask him that. and he says he always just wanted to be a normal kid, he just wanted to be a hero and go on adventures, he essentially just wanted to be free to be like everyone else. his trauma doesn't only come from ortho's death, it also comes from feeling completely and utterly trapped by STYX and the expectations his family's curse has placed on him for all of his life. from feeling like the things that he enjoys, the things he dreams of for his future, do not matter and never have. like he's all but completely alone in the world and the fictional media he loves is his only escape from it all. he literally wanted to go with the original ortho, to die, and his response upon being told that he loves the world too much to give up on it was along the lines of "who would ever love this rotten world?". ortho had to tell him that he still had a future ahead of him, because a very significant part of his issue is that he feels like he doesn't, or at least like he doesn't have the freedom to choose a future that he'll enjoy. with or without ortho, he's spent his whole life just feeling hopeless.

#idk where i was going with this post haha #but truly i do think people tend to act like all of idia's problems just come from ortho dying and that is so incorrect #i mean also ortho's death literally stems from All Of This to begin with #they both wanted to go on an adventure and have a bit of freedom but idia felt so trapped and so hopeless #that he thought the only way was for them to sneak out of the isle of woe on their own and then that led to tragedy #anyway now i've made myself sad :(#idia shroud #twisted wonderland

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shinybulbasaur · 5 months ago

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Rules: Make a poll with five of your all-time favorite characters and then tag five people to do the same. See which character is everyone's favorite!

I was tagged by @suddenrundown, thanks for the tag! I was so tempted to put "eliot's baseball hair" but I resisted (also polls don't allow strikethroughs. sad). tagging @michinaranja, @vero-niche, @acidmatze and anyone else who wants to play!

#does bulbasaur truly count as a character? irrelevant. he is my boy i can't not include him #and judge me all you like for vriska but she's been a favorite character of mine for over a decade now #she means so so much to me. my horrible problematic daughter with so many problems and crimes to her name and also a spider theme #what more could i want! i'm kinda sad i don't talk about her as much anymore but she's always there. in the corner of my brain #anyways i know i don't talk about the apothecary diaries as much either but this is a formal recommendation to everyone to go watch it #it's literally about an aroace with drug autism. i feel so seen #i tried to get a decent spread of characters so honorable mention to tsukishima haikyuu and mithrun dungeonmeshi #who got cut so this list wasn't all anime because i don't talk about them much despite the brainworms sldkjfsl #i also kept it to just one character per media cause it made it easier to keep myself to just five lsdkjfslf #otherwise it would be half the cast of trigun and half the cast of leverage and-

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mythtakens · 5 months ago

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Firefly 1x12 The Message

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goldensunset · 1 month ago

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‘the children yearn for the mines’ is a little too real to me bc when i was a kid and my older siblings were trying to get me into pokémon i really never cared to try playing. BUT. i was obsessed with the underground mining minigame in dppt. i used to beg my sister to let me take a turn playing and set it up for me bc i didn’t know how to so i could go mine for gems nonstop until i cleared that entire cave section of glittering wall spots which always made me so sad bc i was having such a great time. i didn’t even understand the significance of what i was doing but 7 year old me was high off of it

#years and years later when i actually played platinum myself and it hit me like OH this is the game with the mining thing!!!#you have no idea how happy i was #…and also sad. it made me kinda heartsick bc in my childhood nostalgia dreams #my brother and sister used to play online together and do capture the flag #and their little minigame battles in the underground with their cool secret bases were so fun to watch #like that was back when the wifi connection was working and the games were alive and relevant #but i came back to it far far too late. when it was a mere relic and i was alone with no other players #still. hearing the music again brought a smile to my face #pokémon #dppt #i am once again rambling about my very special relationship to sinnoh #i didn’t play pokémon as a kid but also yes i did it was part of my childhood. like without really knowing much about it #the lil character sprites. hearthome city theme #the contests #the crunchy sound of the map opening #and the incomprehensible map itself #the bike and surf music #empoleon and staravia’s cries as they went to use surf and fly #truly. being a younger sibling watching your older sibling play has such an impact on you #it’s all nostalgic to me too i just didn’t know the full context of it myself back then #couple all this with the weird feeling of having played pokémon legends arceus as my first own game #and THEN going and finally checking out dppt #it was like double nostalgia. two different half-nostakgia experiences #just. agh i make fun of gen 4 for a lot of things but it is fundamentally my heart isn’t it #i also literally am incapable of talking about it for more than 5 minutes without bringing pla into it lol #pokeposting

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chloecherrysip · 2 years ago

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"I hope you told your brother how much you loved him, because you're probably never gonna see him again."

"..."

"Was that too dark?"

"YES!"

"Sorry."

#mario movie #mario move spoilers #super mario bros movie #super mario bros #mario and luigi #super mario bros movie spoilers #cherrysip edits #i was gonna make a different gifset today but then i found that new trailer and WELL HERE WE ARE lol #TOAD SERIOUSLY CAN YOU READ THE ROOM HERE???????????#first time in the town was kinda funny second time was genuinely a bit upsetting to the point that i gasped when i heard the dialogue #mario would prefer you Do Not Say Things Like That!!!!!!!#he is no way shape or form emotionally prepared to grapple with the idea of his brother being dead or never being able to find him #that would end him. that would destroy him. he would truly not know how to go on. so that is just firmly Not a Possibility in his brain #(and now i made myself REALLY sad thinking about mario remembering this conversation a little later and wondering #when WAS the last time he told luigi he loved him????? he can't remember. he loves his brother more than anything and anyone #but he hasn't said it outloud in so long and the realization of that is extremely painful. there's some more angst for you!!!)#anyway this is just a compilation of all the significant scenes where mario and luigi are actually together we've seen so far and I CRY #also the brand-new one of them running through town!!! omg it's perfect #with mario doing unnecessary parkour and luigi just diligently jogging along on the outside and avoiding the mess #the characterization even in the tiniest moments like this is truly CHEF'S KISS #will be working on more gifsets because my brain just needs to stare at all this until the movie comes out lololol

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w1tchybusiness · 8 months ago

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i could write a 100 page essay about what a fucking masterpiece warframe is. i will write many words in the tags. please readem if you want my 'tism.

#ive been playing on and off since 2019 but its only recently when i dumped destiny 2 (probably for good) and picked it up #to fill the grind-shaped hole in my heart #that i have uncovered just how FUCKING INCREDIBLE warframe is #everything about it makes me incredibly autistic #from its masterful utilization of an incredibly styled and individual soundtrack full of absolute bangers #to its seemingly unique understanding of how and why an MMO is special to and because of its players #and its truly special story- a uniquely human take on the “post-ruin scifi” tale #it knows exactly how and when to yank on your heart to make you weep like a baby #and it knows exactly when you're going to get angry and want vengeance #and it knows when to let you let loose and unleash hell #SPOILERS FOR THE NEW WAR AHEAD #IF YOU THINK YOU COULD PLAY THE GAME PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DO #SPOILER WARNING #i think the narmer corruption of fortuna was genuinely one of the most gutpunchingly horrible moments ive ever experienced in a video game #i started playing when fortuna was already in the game but the story of fortuna and vox solaris was really what made warframe stand out 2 m #i would drop into the orb vallis as gauss and dash around doing bounties and fishing and mining because i really loved everything about #fortuna and wanted to spend as much time there as possible #for me vox solaris was my proudest achievement (in warframe.) to say “i helped that! i did that!” was an incredibly good feeling #the story really spoke to me on a deeper level #and vox solaris has always been my favorite faction as a result #so to do absolutely everything that i could #to lift together with my tenno brothers and sisters and yet STILL fail?#and to have it rubbed in my face by the corruption of the greatest shining pillar of hope in the warframe universe?#felt like i got kicked in the stomach #i felt sad and angry. but most of all i was DRIVEN.#which is GOOD. because RARELY does a video game present you the “you lost” scenario and have it feel not only satisfyingly painful #but MOTIVATING.#my only complaint with the new war is that i didnt get to hack ballas to pieces by myself #i had real flashbacks to running around helping people as gauss while approaching the final boss with erra #and to step onto the ballas arena as gauss prime. i nearly came from the narrative significance

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panthermouthh · 10 months ago

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creecher my beloved <3

(or in other words, very cool and awsome art, and i am loving the frankenstein stuff)

He’s just a lil guy <333 so what about the atrocities <333

#thank u <3333 #I have a small backlog of stuff #but I haven’t finalised stuff bc I am v busy this week lol #and also I am flip flopping between them despising each other like in the original text #and Victor being insanely and unmovingly devoted to the creature and thinks he’s the most beautiful thing in the entire world #truly a face only a mad scientist could love #and I made myself sad thinking of the creature killing Victor anyway #and Victor isn’t mad #he made him this way after all #he still loves him and forgives him even as he’s dying #because he’s perfect #he’s the perfect creation #and Adam will never know why he couldn’t make him Better #oughh I made myself sad again #asks #anon #Frankenstein

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crazynerdandproud · 4 months ago

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Alright that’s it, Gerry Keay is my favorite character in tma. Just listened to episode 111 and I am emotionally devestated. Also glad he gets to rest. Also I love him. I refuse to call him Gerard (cause apparently it’s that and not Jared Jon why have you been saying it like that) from now on I’m just calling him Gerry. That or goth king.

#I love this him so much #absolutely devestated as well atm #gerry keay #also something something never meet your heroes and how it’s kind of the same for your villains too and his encounter with Lietner #shows that #also a good way of showing how soemthing that was the bogey man of your childhood #can turn out to really just be sad and pathetic #I personally think you should get to face that #get to a point where you truly internalize it #Srry getting off track #also while I do stan Gertrude for her wits and think she would have made an amazing blue ajah aies sedai #I also will probably never be able to bring myself to actually hold any fondness for her beyond that of an intellectual respect

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imminent-danger-came · 1 year ago

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I WAS LOOKING THROUGH PINTEREST AND I HSD TO START FUCKIMG PACING AROUKD THE ROOM

MK ANS MEI MK AND MEI A HERO AND A WARRIOR?????? WHEN DOES THE PAIN END GAAAAAAAAWD WAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH

The grind doesn't end when you're in this deep with the legos.

This is a very specific Mei and MK dynamic that I kinda adore

#very Samadhi Fire Part 3 of them.#*head in my hands .png* oughgh. I made myself sad #lmk #lego monkie kid #samadhi fire part 3 #asks #solarartzz #See Mei and MK are so good because they have an insane level of devotion to each other that's 100% platonic #(though I respect romantic goldendragon shippers)#But also aro/aro solidarity #The 4x02 handhold was truly everything to me #I need Mei and MK to do something fucked up for each other. <3

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lunarharp · 1 year ago

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lazy scribbling of my baldur's gate 3 characters

#*emerges from 430 HOURS of life-changing playtime blearily like a lost and confused kitten*#i lost my interest in drawing bc everything is too sad & horrible right now. it was a luxury and privilege to lose myself in this instead #what follows will be my personal and trivial emotions about that #i'll do better proper drawings later. for me. they are both so very dear to me... deeply dear...unforgettable journeys of fate #truly have played like one possessed for the past few weeks. you have no idea. what do i do now. what do i do.#their personalities are so vivid to me though they mostly made the same choices. both intersex and they/them - canonically <3 #i missed out on FOUR PARTY MEMBERS in my first playthrough due to not understanding anything whatsoever.#gloaming ended up with wyll and pavane romanced karlach and astarion. and ended up with the one i did NOT plan on. this wasnt the plan #one of the most fulfilling romance paths i've ever..i cant say more..it all got too immersive and now i have to just.. MOVE ON ??????????#live in THIS world where i can't gut imperialism personally and emerge alive from that?#without Long Resting? without my character requesting a kiss from their beloved after a tough day ??#without preparing my little spells? without channelling divinity from my death god to keep us all alive?#without dyeing my man's clothes fancy colours for him? without him Approving whenever i lie and double-cross our enemies #without sharing clothes with my ex? without choosing to eat the heavy food first so that the weight is easier on her Carrying Capacity?#without orchestrating ways for all of my friends to kill the abusers that ruined their lives for a decade or even 200 years?#without experiencing degrading horrors on a daily basis but in a cathartic way where we always make it back to our rooms at the inn #WITHOUT SPEAK WITH ANIMALS???????????#at least there's music. just like with persona 5 that will always be with me. always #like how p5 melodies take me back to those feelings. those rich and personal feelings.... BUT THIS WAS A WAY MORE NUTS EXPERIENCE #i thought i would hate it. i did at times. thought it would desensitise me to various things. it did. but there was so much more..it was...#Well anyway *continues my life* imagine if dnd was real..something to think about

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metalsiren · 7 months ago

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the way that sawyer becomes a different person around her parents makes me cry every time. this bubbly, warm, bright girl just shrivels into something so meek and uncertain of herself, it hurts my heart so bad. she truly transforms into her younger self just pining for her parents' approval, something she's never going to get though she has endless hope that she will someday. 😭

#° 𝔡𝔢𝔳𝔢𝔩𝔬𝔭𝔪𝔢𝔫𝔱 ; ✞ headcanon.#wow I just made myself sad #because like #she truly just wabts to make them proud #but all they do is snub her and degrade her #look down in her accomplishments #and this is OUTSIDE of the fact that they dont believe that she was a**ault*d for years

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goldensunset · 1 year ago

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xion's theme is the perfect piece of music truly

#furious at myself for not having saved it but like #didn't someone a long while back write like a video essay #saying how it was sort of like a folk song #bc it truly is a recurring anthem #it's horribly sad but can also be made into like a triumphant refrain #it can express sorrow and relief and anger all at once #with the way different versions of it have been made and used in different situations #just. aaaaaaaaaaaaaa #kingdom hearts

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rawliverandgoronspice · 16 days ago

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the incredibly delicate tension between: we need art to feed us and connect us and make us feel like things have a purpose, and: art is slowly but surely making us more complacent and cowardly

#thoughts #don't mind me I'm just having very complicated thoughts about artists and how art is being weaponized by power #I have zero good answer about that because quite frankly I don't have the mental health to walk that line right now #but yeah I can't help but think I'm just Not being helpful in any way #like a lot of what I dedicated myself towards and sacrificed things for might actually be a trap #not only for me but for community and connexion #I don't think it's true in every context btw. but I think it's starting to be true in 2024 #that we are spending a lot of time cosplaying at good praxis and Correct Emotions through art without challenging stuff #at the same time I cannot blame anyone and it would be hypocritical of me to do so #this world is being made purposefully overwhelming and lonely and art is soothing and feels warmer #I do think art is good for the soul and for our humanity. I do think that truly.#but yeah I don't know how we manage to breach past art and use it as a resource for actual meaningful actions.#again perhaps it's just The Mental Illness speaking --though I don't think it's entirely that #but yeah I just... I'm just really wondering about that balance of existing beyond art #while not rejecting art as full on bourgeois distraction which imo is also reductive and reactionnary #I don't know. I'm just kind of really sad about a lot of things honestly.

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ecoustsaintmein · 20 days ago

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Also: watching 'Spiel auf Zeit' and seeing Thorsten do 'old man parkour', i.e properly running and jumping and rolling and chasing perps on rooftops...

then fast forward to Zerrissen and he doesn't even bother because of his...'Knie'

was meant to be funny, but also sad at the same time.

#i truly made myself sad and i have so much angsty fic bunnies where sebastian and thorsten grow old together #Altlasten style #in their Alters WG #tatort stuttgart #thorsten lannert #sebastian bootz

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triglycercule · 27 days ago

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yada yada happy halloween to these FREAKS (and you guys :3 and myself i gusss :3) doodle from art class that i GUESS could be considered halloween...... idk ok idk ok something was up with me when i drew this

#look killer would like being praised more but to be fair since when has anyone been truly canon with him #to make myself not tweak out i can just pretend this is my fanon #i mean like mtt to me is the epitome of finding slight comfort in suffering when theyre not beating eachother up #dust and horror are affirming killer's terrible thoughts about himself!! how sweet :3 <3 theyre so made for eachother #horror looks like he has a second eye but dont be fooled i just didnt shade that in #i NEED to lock in on that animation. i dont think i have any homework today #i just have a short worksheet and then i'm good to draw i really should really really should im so sorry #disappointed in myself smh more than any of YOU ever will be #originally this was gonna be them in their halloween costumes looking down but then i was like #wait i dont wanna draw killer so ierased him and then just put horror and dust in their normal outfits bc i liked it #and i was like hold up hold up i gotta include killer somehow. SOMEHOW.and then this is the resuly #listen these guys dont freak around but they do various other things that are almost just as freaky as sex #that was more of a side blog thought triglycercule. i know. i will elaborate more there i guess #i ate so much candy today!!! and i didnt even go trick or treating!!!!!#theyre so smitted and enamoured with eachother :333 i love that for them #theyre so cannibalism core. theyre so if i cant have you nobody can core. theyre not soulmates but instead eachothers curse. theyre so UGH #only the murder time trio can match the other 2's freaks i fear nobody else can #its either less crazy or more crazy and these 3 are the perfect amount of balanced to even the other 2 out #i love that one kist animatic that that one really cool twitter kist artist drew #i know theres probably a really good horrordust animatic out there somewhere 2 #WHERES THE HORRORKILLER ANIMATIC HUH!!!! WHERE!!!!!!!#horrorkiller once again left out of the trio duo ships......... this is biased i fear #people just hate to see unhealthy bitched unhealthy smh. they can handle toxic kist but they cant handle toxic hrkl???? BLASPHEMY #triglycercule's rambling again (like a dementia patient) i should get to work #i found my first ever sand au fan out in the wild today. this is a moment in history i fear #i will never find another sans au fan in the world until i pass 30 years of age and im sad but whatever #i cant wait to get a job so i can start ordering stickers of my trio #i cant WAIT to get a pinmaker one day and start my very own mtt ita bag #i want a pinmaker so bad god. just so i can staple their faces all over #tricule rant

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