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The cast of Blades of Light and Shadow and their Perfect Match types
Ever since I did my Blades/Elementalists attunement crossover to mark the anniversary of the Blades series, I’ve known I wanted to do something like this to mark the wide release of book three, and I love me some Perfect Match and the types system, so what better way than by incorporating that into a piece?
So the match types you see here are based on what we’ve seen of these characters up to book two, so any character evolution they may undergo in book three is not accounted for. You might also notice that, when deciding each character’s type, I went off of the core four traits instead of the match name or description, unless I needed a tiebreaker.
Finally, MC’s type is pretty subjective, as I’m sure everyone has a different idea of what their MCs are like, so for the sake of this edit set, Raine’s type is based on which traits she displays most in canon.
So, are you swiping right?
#playchoices#blades of light and shadow#perfect match#choices pm#mal volari#nia ellarious#tyril starfury#imtura tal kaelen#aerin valleros#valax#quality edits? in THIS economy???#fun fact you know how I mentioned I went off of the four traits instead of titles/descriptions?#well in Aerin’s case without looking at the traits I would’ve pegged him as a Scholar type instead but the traits said otherwise#and I realized it does fit with how he canonically uses (dry) humor as a coping mechanism. just like Damien who is the canon Joker type LI#so the actual fun fact is that if you go off of the traits he displayed BEFORE he betrayed MC in b1? THAT’S the scholar type#I just thought it was interesting when I noticed that#other fun facts is that the only two ties were with Imtura and MC and that’s when I needed the type tiebreaker#I don’t remember now what exactly Adventurer was tied with for Imtura. maybe Champion for sincerity.#I just know that when I realized I was tied between whatever it was and Adventurer it was obvious to me she should be an Adventurer#I believe MC’s tie may have been with Best Friend for sweetness#but again—between Best Friend and jetsetting Diplomat it was a no-brainer for MC#final fun fact is that I was a bit shocked when Tyril and Valax yielded the same type but as soon as it sank in it felt so obvious#they’re both so driven with their causes to make the world a better place. the fact that they go about it differently doesn’t change that#anyway ramble over shoutout to anyone who got this far
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scientists have big brains but the energy payoff is that their souls atrophy at a faster rate than usual so to combat that they need to read more books. and by more books I mean more clarice lispector
#should I give my neuropsychologist pi my copy of family ties and tell her to chill the fuck out#I’m being serious#every time I have to directly speak to her I get deep fear in my heart and her valley accent does not help matters#I can’t grow up to be whatever that is I need to keep my whimsy about me#I respect her like crazy btw I just think she needs to imbue her soul w some literature#And ik bc whenever my life is just nuts and bolts science I go crazy#Just like I am rn
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yeah u can put "i hate jkr" and "fuck terfs" in ur tumblr bio but. can u listen + reflect when a trans woman criticizes hp fandom without immediately getting defensive.....
#if a trans woman says 'my firsthand experience with hp fandom is that it's transmisogynistic'#in what world is the correct response to get angry at her and demand that she reassure u that not EVERYONE is transmisogynistic in fandom..#like either a) u have not been transmisogynistic in which case...just keep scrolling#or b) u have been transmisogynistic in which case. u should take such posts as an opportunity 2 reflect on ur own behavior#and whether or not a or b applies to u is a personal evaluation for u 2 make privately#but EVEN if u feel the post does not in any way apply 2 u. it's still good 2 reflect!!! we are all participating in a fandom#that is tied inherently 2 a virulent transmisogynist#the least we can do is be vigilant in our personal circles + spaces abt transmisogyny.....#also personally. i think trans women can say whatever they want about hp lmao#especially on their own personal tumblr blogs that u can very easily just block if it's so upsetting 2 u....#anyway. valid critiques and criticisms of hp fandom exist + part of being in this fandom in 2023 is accepting that imho#txt
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lesbians on a different post because the girls need their space ok
#anywho guys i need a reason to call reborn 'ribbon' in this au#its very cute to me and very girly very cute very. just my thing#also cutting ties like how people cut ribbons for an opening. a new start after an end type beat do whatever with that info#tsuna is just tsuna but then again either tsunako or tsunahime#katekyo hitman reborn#r27#sawada tsunayoshi#reborn#oh should i make a fem tag...um ill just call them#ribohime#alr thats my tag for now lol
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stranger things 4 is just like yess lets give nancy wheeler some friends. and then her friends mistreat her for nine episodes straight <3
#and no one even cares because theyre addicted to the memey grouping of st/ddie and r/nance the fruity four or whatever#i just have to tilt my head a little#let me be clear she does need friends she needs them very badly#but is this really the ideal friend group?#her ex boyfriend and his best friend who#very inconsiderately pushes the narrative that nancy needs to give said ex a second chance so that he can be happy#which she already has immense guilt over#oh and then eddie too but hes [redacted] so not a potential friend anymore and he never should have been#demanding the princess get him beer like shut up??#also same scene WHY DID STEVE GET THE CHAIR AND SHE SLEPT ON THE FLOOR#whatever#then later shes crying cause like VECNA and everyones just crickets#‘uhh yeah that sucks that you saw visions of your dead family but thats not real’#buddy it was YOUR pool vecna put her in and filled with blood#her guilt is tied to YOU#im just sad cause no one loves her#I LOVE HER#stranger things#nancy wheeler#text#ramble#st4
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It's a thing I already knew but all your beautiful analysis really made obvious (to me) how much of a grudge holder vale is. That man is never letting it go he's gonna hold his grudges into his grave
you know, I do think this is an interesting issue, because I'm not sure this is true of all his grudges. just sticking here with the grudges he accumulated in his capacity as a competitor, rather than just his general approach to life or whatever... how you judge this will kinda depend on how you feel about the 'reconciliation' he's experienced with some of his rivals - and whether you read the whole thing as sincere or not. now, personally I reckon he still dislikes biaggi, but also you are allowed to just dislike people so I'll give him a pass for that. some of the others, I'm a little more convinced by the whole reconciliation schtick
let's get valentino's take:
interesting that he mentions those three together, isn't it? and like, he's still not messaging biaggi or inviting him to his home - "even with max" kind of tells you all you need to know - but the other two? they said some proper nasty things to each other over the years!! I mean, the casey rivalry, there's some remarks from both sides where quite frankly I think I would struggle just a touch to get over it
I don't know, obviously this could all be pr stuff, but I kind of feel like... y'know, why bother? it's 2022, you're retired, who gives a fuck? sure it's a good look to be all magnanimous, sure it can be a bit of a way of twisting in the knife to the guys left in the cold, but also, who would care if you don't play nice? I think especially with jorge, you surely don't need to do all that, inviting him to your home and dancing with him... (which, again, some of the spats those two had...) and with the casey rivalry, if there's one guy who's still hung up about what happened between the pair of them, it's obviously casey (speaking of blokes who can hold a grudge). maybe this is giving valentino too much credit, but personally I buy it's more or less sincere. there's nothing to really indicate he's still particularly bothered by any of their past disagreements - he's basically going for the 'all's fair in love and motorcycle racing' approach. he knows he was an asshole, he accepts they were assholes too, whatever, that's how these things work. he's generally a fan of drama in rivalries, unsurprisingly, and he was happy enough to contribute his fair share - but he does see it as fundamentally being part of the game
to point out the obvious, check out who he's left out: sete and marc. that's where he can't let go of the grudges... because it's not about the offence itself as much as it is about the betrayal. this is the thing with valentino, right, it's about what kind of bond you had with him. if you weren't his friend in the first place and then piss him off as a rival then, y'know, whatever. obviously he's going to be vicious in trying to get back at you, but also he's really not going to waste his time feeling too aggrieved by it. I mean, think about how all the bullshit between him and casey dropped off sharply post-2012... from valentino's end anyway. think about how jorge and valentino pretty quickly got on again whenever they weren't fighting for supremacy within yamaha. they weren't friends in the first place, then they were enemies for competitive reasons for a while there, then it's over and valentino is basically happy enough to call it bygones
but... if it's a certain kind of bond you had with him and then you wrong him... that little mental list of all his past grievances, all your past transgressions, that's where it comes in. that's where he ices you out. denies you any emotional warmth. ensures that any interaction going forward is conducted entirely on his terms. where even any public 'reconciliation' won't truly be sincere.... or, certainly he's not going to forget what happened. if something else happens... it's like you've always got the potential of triggering this lingering resentment, in a way, where all that past stuff is still primed and ready to be called upon. he certainly doesn't just let it go
or, as he puts it in his autobiography:
Biaggi and I never talk to each other. I mean, we've never had a real conversation, anything that's lasted more than the requisite time to insult each other or put each other down, in the nastiest way possible. In any case, I don't hate him. It's true, we've never been friends, but hatred is something different, and that's too serious a word to describe our relationship. Far too serious. No, we have a reciprocal antipathy. No doubt this is a result of what we do for a living and the fact that we both want to win every single time. And perhaps it's also a function of the fact that we have very different personalities and very different ways of seeing things. Still, I don't think this means we hate each other, as some journalists have written. I think I could feel hatred for someone, but only for someone far worse than anything Biaggi has done. For example, if I were betrayed by a friend, then, yes, I could hate him. But Biaggi will never betray my friendship for the simple reason that we are not, and never have been, friends. Our relationship is very clear: we compete on the track - outside the track, each goes his own way. You could say we detest each other cordially.
... I mean. he said it, not me. and given this book was first published in '05... biaggi can't betray his friendship because they were never friends... I'm not saying he's thinking about sete, but it has to at least be a possibility, right? he's talking about one rivalry here and refusing to even mention the other... and the one he's refusing to mention is the one where he was friends with the other bloke. I don't know, maybe that's reading too much into it! and anyway, even if this passage wasn't really about sete, it's obviously still revealing. "detest each other cordially" is essentially what he was doing with casey and jorge (or from his point of view in any case, not entirely sure they'd agree with that). the grudge comes when he feels let down by you... and then, yes, he'll never let it go
of course, he's willing to set aside his grievances for a while if there's sufficient motivation for him to do so. in 2009, when he had so definitively won that rivalry with sete, why bother kicking up a fuss? in 2016, quite frankly it was just too much, and it was getting to the point where it was obviously hurting him too. on the one hand there was the media furore that had been going on non-stop since sepang, on the other hand it was also hurting his own approach to racing. there's reports from the time how visibly aggrieved he still was in the first few races of the season, and it took until they got back to europe for him to... y'know, have fun again. it's not sustainable to be walking around with a constant dark cloud over your head and broadcasting burning resentment towards your two main rivals. certainly not for someone like valentino - he needs to be having fun! the slight rapprochement needed to happen, in a way, because otherwise those years would have been even worse for everyone involved. but that doesn't actually translate to forgetting any of those grudges. this is about convenience more than anything else
goes to show, really... most of the time he doesn't take these things personally. I talked about it a bit in this post, how maybe it's also something that changed over time for him: the question of whether he was willing to develop these kinds of bonds in the first place with competitors... because he does possess a certain level of self-awareness in terms of what these kinds of rivalries are like and what they do to interpersonal relationships. ideally, you don't want to be hurt by a friend like that, right? better not to have that kind of emotional attachment with your competitors in the first place. how unfortunate it'd be if all those years after sete the circumstances aligned for him to see a competitor as something like a friend again... because, after all, those are the only people who could betray him. those are the only people where he thinks he could truly hate them
#this response kinda got away from me a little bit but I wrestled it to a stop before it really went on a tangent#we were this close to a sepang 2016 sidebar#anyway listen I restricted this to how he conducts himself *in competition* for a reason so y'know. I do think it's a difference#ugh this is tied very closely to another post in my drafts that ideally I'd link to but one of these has to be posted first so#anitalianfrie#brr brr#idol tag#kinda maybe#//#sg15#i do frequently think about casey messaging valentino about his daughter btw....... kills me a little#but also again when I get to the casey thesis this is like a big pillar of it - this slight disconnect within casey#he was still slagging off valentino the rider on a 4hr podcast like a year after he's sending him a bunch of messages about his daughter#he's still slagging off valentino THIS YEAR. they're very funny to me. I can buy valentino can separate these things out#but casey? very interesting of him#I think it's actually kinda notable how little valentino has relitigated past grievances post retirement when compared to his rivals#With One Notable Exception. I do feel like at a certain point of fame and success you should try and be above this kind of thing#but I mean there is a universe where valentino is calling casey weak for laguna or whatever in 2024#batsplat responds
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I enjoy shipping because it's fun
BUT
I much prefer:
"these two characters are so Unwell™ about each other it's shattered the concept of amantonormativity. Whatever they have going on has nothing to do with romance or sex and is closer to symbiosis or celestial bodies combining into something new."
Unfortunately usually the rest of the fandom seems to reduce them to romance and that's fine but it's not why I'm here
#except for the svsss fandom#you freaks know whats up#svsss#fandom#and its not like the characters cant fuck or marry or whatever#but to me it should be because thats the closest they can come ti actually becoming a singular entity#and most fandoms dont get that#thank god for svsss
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It's missing my father hours rn so imma just dump a bunch of pictures here and cry
( sorry i don't know the source of anything I just had them on my phone)
(also dont read the tags i just need to let it out lol)
#I just realized I can call him dad easier than my real dad and now I understand why am I so damn attached to him#I always knew he was a parental figure for me#but now I connected the dots#How when u have an absent dad and a d34d mom a guy shows up in ur life#that tells u life advice that both of ur parents failed to do so#and makes u feel safe the first time in ur life#ofc ud become attached#i know for sure its unhealthy how much i love and miss him#he occupies most of my thoughts honestly#But how could i not cling to him so much when he was the only one who gave me hope in life#i try to keep going and even tho he is not here i keep telling myself whatever he taught me. i keep reminding myself he wants us to live an#bloom and be free#and that's what ill try to do#but you know somedays i wish i could just disappear and be wrapped in eternal happiness#its so fucking hard to pull yourself out of the slump man im so fucking tired im so so tired#somedays i wish id have the courage to off myself but i know that deep down i want to live and ive always wanted to live but i have no idea#how to live. i feel like i finally found a purpose and someone i love. but at the same time im always doubting myself and im scared of losi#g this little hope again and i know i should cherish and use it instead but each day i have this anxiety because rn i have nothing else if#lose this i seriously will lose everything atp. but ill still try bc rn its this or death so i should try im just damn tired yes anyways#sorry for being depressing some days just dont work out but thats okay#yes at the same time i want to get out of my head and try to find some friends but i cant deny that im highkey fucked up and i just cant le#go of my past and i still feel like that helpless unloved kid and idk how to form relationships this way. i dont trust myself at all so idk#how to trust others. and i feel like in order to find ppl that would love me i have to overshare abt my whole lifestory bc it still dictate#my life heavily. and since i met this band its better cuz im learning to deal w it and i want to heal from everything but yes at the same t#me who would wqnt to be friends w. someone that has like a year of life experience and 18 years of depression lol#so yes its complicated. bc i have friends but im like the funny friend. the one that is as shallow as puddle and has no problems but honest#y im genuinely sufferint qnd have been sufferinz all my life so i want to come out of my funny friend role. but that wojld mean i have to t#ll the shit i went through to all my friends but tbh it would be so random so ye. i do have a plan though. how it could work. But yes im ti#ed have been tired for 7 years now. But this time around i hope i can successfully get out of this torture cycle lol.#ok sorry this is what happens after puberty guys i could beva research case for a damn mental institute atp xdd
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can my hare fursona be an arctic hare even if they aren't native to northern europe.......
#i know i can do whatever i want forever#but can i actually....#idk why having a native species feels so important to me!! maybe because i feel strong ties to my environment or something#but i feel like i should get to have a poofy winter coat
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when I want to write something self indulgent to give me all the angsty and cuddly hurt/comfort feels but I can't because I end up feeling guilty because I'm seeking after feels that I feel in an inappropriate place because my mom told me one time when I was 15 that I shouldn't search that out or it's probably sexual sin but it confuses me because ALL the feels happen that way for me even if it's entirely platonic and nonsexual and so I don't know if it's okay to want to write to that because apparently all pleasure of any sort, even over platonic stories, is sexual or comes with a possibly probably sexual feeling and I also am having a hard time figuring out what's genuine conviction from God and what's just my anxiety/OCD/perfectionism/fear of failure
#like I feel like it's conviction. but also when I analyze it... I'm not doing anything sexual??? the stories I'm writing are#ENTIRELY platonic#it's like. found family feels.#but then why do I feel so guilty/convicted over it and feel better/less guilty when I stop writing anything feelsy#like... I guess I'm only allowed to write plot and can't ever write hugs and hurt/comfort anymore#my mom keeps saying I should journal all this instead of venting it at everybody and honestly maybe she's right#idk how to handle this but also I feel like if I just find a holding pattern where I can strike a healthy balance of lile#like* what is correct and healthy for me to enjoy#then the anxiety over it might pass? I don't want to avoid conviction though but like. why am I convicted over#writing a story where someone who's been treated like a monster finds a family who loves them#like.. is it because I'm seeking out whatever that feeling in my lower belly/groin is????#but that's like... so tied up in enjoyment and hurt/comfort to me that idk if I'm ACTUALLY looking for that#or if this is just what I write#and idk if that even is sinful in any way at all!!!#and why can't I just get over this? like I keep going in circles with it and it's so frustrating#idk this is totally tmi I just got hit with this awful feeling after work today and the only thing I can pinpoint it to#is this specific thing I've been writing. but even though yeah I've been getting feelsy with it... it's PLATONIC#ENTIRELY COMPLETELY NONSEXUAL. so like... is it that pleasure feeling that's the thing I'm being convicted over??#probably. bc that's the only thing that eases the feeling of conviction/anxiety/guilt#and also probably no one is reading all these tags lol sorry guys I'll go away now
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having fun working on a commission for arturo. he wanted one of his ocs (angel, left) included in the commission, and another oc (paulina, right) that we brainstormed together for the sake of this fic.
i decided to let my computer charge a bit after writing for a while, so i decided to make picrews of the ocs (couldn't resist with makowka, long time fave tbh) just to help make the visualizations of them "tangible."
then i decided to make the rest of the mcs as picrews lol. take this as you will.
anyways,,, enjoy.
also, before you ask, yes. i did give benji a little gay boy earring. i asked simon if it was okay and he said all things are as they should be.
#mission impossible#makowka picrew#ocs#i was tied on what headwear to give luther#but i couldnt help myself. i just had to give him the signature black beanie.#my favorite guy. running the show from inside the van.#didnt actually look at pictures for references while doing this (so afterwards... looks a little funky)#i looked them up AFTER to put up as reference so yall (the ether) will know who i was even trying to depict LOL#i do truly miss brandt and carter. i will not lie.#and dont fucking get me started on ilsa. i swear to god. im. sick.#whatever. this is a reflective fic. arturo isnt making me do current angst. ty jesus.#but if i must... i will provide#anyways. 🤧🤧 agent gómez? agent cevallos? welcome to the imf#this is your mission... should you choose to accept it 😍#ethan hunt#luther stickell#and his lil beanie#ilsa faust#benji dunn#and his lil gay boy earring#jane carter#william brandt#julia meade#nectarine on: mi#nectarine on: writing#writing community#commissions open
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anyways actually reading through awakening’s story and i really wish they had like owain or morgan or literally any other kid be a mandatory recruit because lucina has absolutely no one to talk to in the main story? and its like “well chrom is there” but then. thats it. i get to the part after the basilio vs walhart scene and lucina is just off in a corner while everyone was else talks and the dialogue is literally just
Lucina: Gods, I could’ve stopped him… I should’ve stopped him…!
Chrom: ok so castle next?
Lucina: Is everything I’ve done for nothing? Twice now, I’ve failed to change fate!
Flavia: yeah we have to go hit walharts castle
Say’ri: it’s what my brother wouldve wanted
Lucina: Maybe all I’ve done is prolong the inevitable… Maybe the future is doomed no matter what…
Robin: real ok check out this sick strategy
and then the scene fades to black. NO ONE IS TALKING TO HER its honestly really sad like. oh my god. owain is in my party just let him join or something. why is she even here right now
#ann plays awakening#lucina u deserved so much better than this omfg 😭😭😭#i love awakening i really do#literally tied with cq for my fav fire emblem game and one of my favorite games EVER#but its just. sometimes. sometimes it makes my eyes roll out of my skull#SHES JUST FUCKING TALKING TO HERSELF#take her out of this scene and nothing changes#BUT ITS SO STUPID BC SHE SHOULD BE HALF OF THE FOCUS#BC SHE LITERALLT TOLD HIM NOT TO GO FIGHT AND HE DID#you could USE THIS TIME to explore lucina’s anxieties more#but nah. brush over her anguish for a second time to go to one of the worst maps in the entire fucking game#whatever
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Guy yuri finals is bingqiu versus hualian I'm sorry tgcfers but there is a correct answer to this and if you still want to give hualian a chance I'd better only see ONE, maximum, piece of propaganda about how "they're yuri because the 800 years of yearning!" Some of us yurists believe in UHAULING and HARD PHYSICAL GIRLSEX
#slash jay but also it does make me sort of ehh how the majority of other ship propaganda for the poll has been focused on#how much the couple is yearning like#is that all lesbian shipping is to people... how long a couple can go without actually being explicitly romantic ?#lesbian bed death but made a rule ?#its not that srs i know its not like a conscious thing and I'm obviously not trying to be like everyone has to follow my definition#or theyre problematic and should die or whatever. im just like curious on the perception and genre expectations#tied to gender
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Look, one of the fundamental things I keep an eye on for DC writers these days is "is this person plotting a story arc that has sufficient escape valves in case of cancellation".
Because, realistically, even if you've been handed a headline title and an ongoing run, any writer should be tying off their story every 12 months and immediately before every major company-wide event. They shouldn't need to yank that cord, but you can always tell the difference between someone who has figured out how to exit their arc in advance and has just had to compress the story, and someone who's been caught on the hop (for active examples of this, go read literally any comic leading in to either Infinite Crisis or Flashpoint, as everyone got shuffled on their titles after both. You can see when teams were informed they were about to lose their books and when books were needed for the event in terms of how the stories all suddenly pivot to Getting Stuff Done ASAP).
There is also the evil cousin, 'run extended beyond expected plotting and ideas' which can show up but obviously is a rarer beast to spot.
#interestingly Zdarsky's Batman run is actually a current good example of making sure to plot to leave the book every 12 months#Failsafe + The Bat-Man of Gotham make a short but coherent run#He then used 136 to pivot the story in terms of the downward spiral but if cancelled could have used it to tie off the stories#as of 148 + 149 Zdarsky has pulled Bruce out of his downward spiral and tied off a 2 year storyline#and you have examples of both him having to rush a storyline (148 should have been two issues) and a coherent end point as of AP#he's now clearly ready for his third year's pitch which looks like a 'rebuild relationships' one but it's not essential#someone else could pick up the title after AP and send it in whatever direction if needed#because Zdarsky made sure to contain when he set things on fire to be resolved IN that year's arc#and you can really see the structural stuff AS he's been messed around quite a bit about when he can work on his plot#as he keeps having to redirect around events
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to me the most inexplicable character in the musical is zeus. in The Horse And The Infant he's impassive and impersonal. he never utters odysseus's name. he remains perfectly calm and unfazed when odysseus tries to object ("i could raise him" etc etc).
all this is a far cry from his attitude in Thunder Bringer and God Games--mockingly calling odysseus by his name and title, taking gleeful pleasure in his suffering, even attacking his own daughter in a fit of rage over it.
it baffles me. when did he start taking so much personal interest in odysseus? what exactly has odysseus done to incur this deep, long-lasting hatred? is it just main character syndrome or is there an explanation?
#in tH&tI when he says 'you can say goodbye to--' he leaves the chorus to complete the sentence#as if his thoughts were 'you can say goodbye to whoever or whatever it is that you're attached to idgaf'#it's so funny actually. he really doesnt care (and why should he)#epic the musical#epic zeus#my post
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I finally read The Song of Achilles and I will genuinely never recover. I knew the myth but that didn't prepare me for this book. I actually can't breathe. there's just.. so much?? the writing style, the focus of the descriptions, the vocab just EVERYTHING.
In my almost 16 years of life, I have never been able to choose a favourite book, I've had a favourite series, a few favourites but never just ONE that I truly loved more than any other book but I think this might be the one.
I don't know how to describe how it made me feel but my heart is aching, the hopeless romantic inside of me is crying out to be loved the way Achilles loved Patroclus or the way Patroclus loved Achilles.
This book made me feel a strange nostalgia for running around a huge garden with big trees and sun-soaked grass and hedge mazes that I distantly remember from my childhood. I've always loved figs but now they will always be special to me because I will always think of them.
I've always had the urge to just run, sprint across an open field and probably end up rosy-cheeked collapsed in the grass and eventually manage to regain my breath and sit up to make daisy chains and bathe in the sun, it would feel so freeing. This book is like how I imagine that would feel because despite the gut-wrenching, heartbreaking ending they were still together. They will always be together. Nobody can ever separate them and that is what I want. A love so deep that I am permanently changed, a love so deep that when I long to be alone as I often do I can find them and curl up in their arms. I want a love like Achilles and Patroclus because I struggle with any kind of socialising, even with my friends and loved ones, but they are one. They don't need to worry about saying the wrong thing or saying nothing at all because they will always be one. Always.
This book has actually changed the way I think forever I fear
(pretty please read the tags)
#recently I have liked to imagine soulmates as two pieces of cloth woven together#maybe not everyone has a soulmate#they are a single blue or red piece of cloth#or any colour really but whatever#they can be tied to another with string or something stronger#a deep friendship or love will bring them close but they are still separate people#but soulmates#they are different they are not seperate#perhaps achilles is blue and patroclus red#they each are their own colour but in the middle the threads of the red and blue cloth are woven together#a vibrant purple is made from where their souls connect#they are so deeply imtwined in each others lives and hearts that they become one#why should they be seperate#what purpose would it serve#they love each other so deeply that they cannot consider another so why bother pretending they are seperate#and two pieces of cloth tied together you can untie them#they can drift apart#but if the threads are woven together#they are one#they cannot and will not be seperate#the song of achilles#achilles#patroclus#patrochilles
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