#SPIRALING

[zillygoose]

engineering degree is worth it. it is worth it. i'm gonna make fucking bank. it is worth it. i should've paid attention in calculus class.

[nonlethal-au]

So, what *is* in that notebook anyway?

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did you forget?

[lestappenwdc]

Us: Max is so obsessed with the inchident joke it's getting embarrassing

Charles: HOLD MY INCHIDENT BRACELET

[rivtictics]

Wilford, Dark and engineer Mark as plushies!! I'll try to make them in the future as actual plushies.

Also if you have suggestions for other Markiplier egos or other characters from the Markiplier Cinematic Universe let me know in the comments!!

[in-tenebris-et-in-solitudine]

[youraverageventblog]

It really hurts when you realize you aren’t their closest friend anymore.

[sneakyhotdog]

im feeling empty. hollow. like there is a hole in my chest and i can’t seem to do anything at all.

[happilyghostlyarie]

Me: I am aroace!

There's no if, but's, or maybe's about it. I know what I am!

Someone: *Asks me literally one question*

Me: *Spirals into a hole as I struggle to identify if I am aroace or pan and poly or just the most ridiculous blend of all of them for the hundredth time*

[iwanthermidnightz]

god she’s unhinged 😭

[furiousgoldfish]

Since I live my life in constant state of dissociation from what happened to me, it gives my existence a lack of logic and continuity. I will often start forgetting that some bad things happened to me, and then start blaming myself for being tired and in pain all the time, for having trouble feeling safe around others, for being so different and odd compared to other people.

So recently I've been trying to really come to terms with what happened, it reduces my levels of guilt and fortifies the real timeline of my life. It makes my state and my symptoms make sense to me.

However, whenever I go back and confront the actual events of what happened, I get freaked out by it. I can't seem to understand how I had survived it, and how come I'm still alive right now, and it starts feeling wrong that I should be alive still. And that sends me spiraling for a while, and then I end up dissociating and distancing myself from the event once again, just to stabilize.

I've been in this loop of trying to confront the past, and then spiraling and not understanding how life after that was possible, and I can't seem to make peace with it. Has anyone managed to process stuff that seemed unsurvivable?

[bunamine]

✨ Divine Psychosis 🦋🌈

if noone's got us, then at least psychosis & aberrant salience got us~

love everything everywhere

[yuki-ume]

Uzumaki (Uzumaki: Spiral into Horror)

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1998-1999

[smolbean-17]

Oh NO

[herlavendersyrup]

“…it’s so lonely in my mansion 😪🎶”

[pain-is-my-game]

I hate the persona that I've created after all this time. It's not who I want to be and at this point I don't know how to change it. The words that come out of my mouth are never things that I want to say. I only say what people expect of me. I don't think that I can ever be a full person. Just a hollow shell trying to act out a role that I never wanted in the first place.