#Manifesting my future

[daydreamsandcaffeine]

In this new decade of my life, I want to find my person, grow in my career, deepen close friendships, travel more, and execute on all the experiences I've been wanting to do.

[ss-realkoi]

Wed. March 27, 2024

Study Day :)

TO DO: 1. Complete Chapter 1 in Section 5 2. Remember to take breaks! 3. Drink water & eat something 4. Take it easy

Kinda annoyed low-key because I started my period in the middle of the night, and my cramps are keeping me awake because they hurt so bad. The last time I got my period, as soon as it started, it was so painful I literally laid on the floor in tears, curled up in a ball. Since it's so early in the morning (12:40am), after I hopefully get some sleep, I'm gonna make a quick supply run to the store for some snacks. I'm at my boyfriend's currently, and he's asleep, so I'm studying at his kitchen table. While he's at work, I'll turn his bed into my desk, and get some more studying done while having something in the background, probably.

[guavi]

you're being . ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁silly . ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁

last panel without text bubbles under the cut

the room originally just had some shelves in the sketch but then i got carried away with plants, oops

[tarotbroad]

New Moon in Libra Spread Using Bohemian Gothic Tarot

https://labyrinthos.co/blogs/learn-tarot-with-labyrinthos-academy/a-new-moon-in-libra-tarot-spread Where am I most fearful of conflict? – What part of my life am I acting out of avoidance? Knight of Cups Rx How does my fear of conflict affect my life? – How does my choice to avoid conflict affect my situation? What does it do to me? Queen of Cups Rx What am I afraid of confronting? – What is…

[waatermelon-sugaar]

Borrowing my dads Range Rover today bcos my cars in the garage and I felt like a milf about to drop the kids at football

[nikkadiaries]

In Honor of Tonight's New Moon

Here is a list of important aspects in my life that I focused on so I can become the version of myself, one that I know I am meant to be. This is my commitment to transform into that Nikka in the next 5 months.

My Writing: my commitment to improving my writing skills is paying off. I am more clear in my words and I have a better understanding of grammar. My confidence in my skills to complete my novel is increasing every time I write.

My Drawing: I've always loved my drawing, but now that I've put serious consideration into improving my skill, it definitely shows just how much my style has changed. I definitely have a technique and a true-to-myself style. I am also steadier with my hands and confident in my ability. Also, I'm just having fun with it. I'm not as hung up on perfection anymore.

My Intuition: This is my constant work in progress but one I'm most proud of. This is the practice I do every day and it's definitely paying off. I feel so much more love and patience for myself and for others; it's definitely improved my ability to listen to my truth, to my opinion and I know how to respond clearly and surely when communicating with others.

My Body: My health is something that has become so important to me. This is truly what it means to take care of my body. I don't just work out on a regular and keep active, but I also take in great consideration as what I put in my body. I eat better and more concsious of my body's needs. I'm also more aware of what's going on with my body, with every part of it including my head. I seek out professionals and I'm grateful I have the means and ability to do so.

My Finance: This is the second improvement I'm proud of. The fact that I can manage my finances responsibly is truly a gift and I'm so grateful for it. Learning and understanding how to manage my money has been a blessing and saving grace as I'm more prepared and considerate of my spending. Still, I have also managed my finances to the point where I have extra spending money I can spend on a whim. (aka I can get take out if I want hehe)

My Family: Being more connected to my family has indeed been a gift and blessing. I am more open when it comes to my family and more giving and understanding. I love my family and I'm so grateful to have them. I'm so thankful that i've finally gotten through my mental blog and given in! Give in to the love that has poured on me ever since I came into this world. I am so grateful for the clarity as my family means the most to me. I'm also thankful for the strength and clarity (and confidence) to talk to my family and be open and honest with them. I am also grateful to myself for the improvements I've made that I'm even able to be open and honest with my family. Just thank you, this is the best blessing.

My People: My biggest thanks are to the family I have created. I don't feel alone anymore. One of the things that I've always dreamed of having is that sitcom-like friend group; that circle of people who I spend my free time with and gives me a reason to get out of the house. Or more accurately, spend time at my house. But more than that, I am also better at communicating with my friends, whether they are my circle who are present with me, my friends in LA, or my internet friends I've made. Even with the friends I use to be cool with but only talk to on social media; I take time to say hello every now and then, even if it's only a DM. At the very least, I do keep up with them on social media if they have it.

I am grateful for how much my life has changed and improved in 5 months. This makes me so excited and anticipate what else can change in the next year!

[bacchuschucklefuck]

they tried to rebrand as The Criminals but riz is literally the city council's treasurer and also turns out people in their late 20s don't really name their friend groups. so now they're The Intrepid Heroes

[lipstickmarks]

i’m just trying to live in a cute lil house and have cute lil babies and adopt cute lil pups with a partner who’s obsessed with me

is that too much to ask????

[sexy-celestial]

2023 is:

Regular facials, manis, pedis, massages, Brazilian waxes, lash lifts. Glowing skin. Glowy makeup. Fluffy curls. Microshaded brows. Laser hair removal. Perfect Rx Skincare. Veneers. Intoxicating perfumes. Shopping. Diamonds. Designer bags. Credit card rewards. International travel. Networking. Career certifications. Investing more. Brunch with the girls. Picnics. Farmers markets. Art galleries. Museums. Fresh flowers. Silk scarves. Big sunglasses. Beautiful lingerie. Silk robes. Receiving lots of gifts. Lots of sunlight. Hot yoga. Nature hikes. Tennis lessons. Green smoothies. Candles that smell expensive. Sleeping 8+ hours a night. Bubble baths. Studying foreign languages. Absorbing as much knowledge as I can. Book clubs. Pottery classes. Cooking with fresh herbs, vegetables, and spice. Champagne. Charcuterie & bruschetta. Gelato. Fresh bread. Ocean air. Hugging my loved ones. Pet cat. Giving lots of gifts. Journaling. Meditating. Gratitude. Volunteering. Donating to charity. Manners. Etiquette. Charisma. Therapy. Healthy boundaries. Radical personal responsibility. Positivity. Self care. Abundant love.

[esmeislewd]

I really like "dumbification" in feederism~

How many calories did you eat today?

uh I don't know? I'm hungry though so can I have a snack?

When was the last time you worked out?

ummm don't know and don't feel like it~

What are you going to have for dinner?

uh like whatever my feeder gives me?

How fat are you?

not sure...but I like it!

Being able to think doesn't really have any impact on your ability to gain so stop thinking and stop worrying, just mindlessly eat and watch the pounds pile on.

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

you want a new kind of guy, fine, i raise you: the lady i was briefly roommates with in college who once smoked a blunt at a party and then spent an hour confessing earnestly to me that she genuinely preferred reading detailed episode recaps over actually watching the tv show in question

[daily13]

doodle requests #1

i love me some bisexual women in tuxedos

[tarotbroad]

Week 33 - Message of the Speaker of Stones (#TarotReading #ShiningTribeTarot #52WeekProject)

I couldn’t think of what I wanted to focus on in my reading this week so I decided to pull a card from The Shining Tribe Tarot and create some questions based on the energies of the card. I drew the Speaker of Stones Rx, and developed these questions. Speaker of Stones – The Shining Tribe Tarot How can I unburden myself of some of the obligations & responsibilities I now carry?  The Chariot…

[chiuuee]

pet for days 22-24 of #slowtember 🥺

[sharkrocket]

daniil crying daniil crying daniil crying

i like to imagine that he almost never cries and i just wanna know what finally makes him break down and ugly cry

OH MAN, I 100 percent agree with this, he strikes me as the kind of person to bottle up everything and try to push all his emotions down, but those emotions end up manifesting in negative/self-destructive ways until the weight of everything finally causes him to break down

There's a fic I love that does this really well, please read Shedding Skin by Plaguedboar, I binged all thirteen chapters in two days and was ugly crying by the end of it

Daniil and Artemy come to a slow harrowing realization about their feelings towards each other, but they both recognize how dangerous and destructive acting on those feelings might be. After Daniil takes a bullet for Artemy, it drives a wedge between them, Daniil pushing Artemy further and further away, as Artemy increasingly believes that Daniil sees him as something dangerous - something with the capacity to destroy him. That if Artemy allowed himself to love him and keep him in the town, Daniil will die

❗ SPOILERS ❗

The reason why Daniil ends up taking the bullet is because he realizes that he's also in love with Artemy, but truly believes that he's not worthy of being loved and that he'll ruin Artemy just like how he's ruined everything else he's touched. So, by dying by saving Artemy's life, it would have have been the best thing he could do for the both of them. However, because Artemy ends up saving him, Daniil becomes devastated and does everything in his power to make Artemy hate him and leave him, if he knows what's good for him. In turn, it causes Artemy to question if he's even capable of loving anyone. Thus, begins a cycle of Daniil being as cold and hateful as possible, throwing insults and being self-destructive, while Artemy keeps trying to save him, which only pushes Daniil to be more hateful and self-destructive....

❗ END SPOILERS ❗

There's a beautiful moment at the end where it culminates in Daniil walking out into the steppe to die, and against all odds, Artemy finds him there. After all this time, after all the insults, the coldness, the violence, Artemy decides to love Daniil despite it all and follows him into the wide expanse. Even then, the Capital Snake is still trying to spit venom - doing everything in his power to get Artemy to leave and let him die, but it doesn't work because Artemy finally sees through the facade. He reaches past the Bachelor's many roles and holds on to the Daniil that's terrified of loving and being loved in return, and that's when Daniil finally breaks and allows his vulnerability to bleed through

PLEASE READ THIS!! The angst and catharsis of it all is immense, and I can't recommend it enough!!

[russadler]

“And that kid — He’s a good one. David.”

“He’s gonna amount to something someday.”

— Frank Woods, Call of Duty: Black Ops 6 (2024)