#Looked at two places I could move out to & they are complete opposite vibes in terms of socialableness

[ante--meridiem]

To socialise or not to socialise, that is the question.

[tthoughtdaughter]

the girl across the street.

pairing: fem!reader x loser!ellie

summary: you’ve decided to move into a little house on ellie’s street, she sees you and almost dies from your natural beauty. being the big ass nerd she is, she decides to help you but continues to stumble on her words. instead of her helping you guys sit in your backyard for a bit and talk for hours only to find out you’re very similar.

warnings: none just fluff and ellie being a big loser.

a/n: ive been writing part 2 for ‘bad habits’ just wanted to take a break from it and write something i wanted to for awhile :)

it was a beautiful sunny day, perfect for you to move actually. not to hot, not to cold, just right! you called the people and waited for them to come so they could pick up the boxes that were stacked in piles among piles in your parents house.

they came and you helped them with very little strength into the moving truck. (you js picked up the light boxes but the people appreciated it.) they offered a lift there but you politely declined and hopped into your car.

it wasn’t so hot, but you still felt the excessive need to put on the aircon. you turned up the volume as one of your favourite songs had just come on, opening the windows and turning off the aircon (since it would be such a waste).

the whole ride there was a vibe, you felt a little sad when you had to hop out but you were beyond excited to see what your new house awaited for you.

you’ve obviously seen the inside before when you were looking around, but you just adored the street, the house itself — everything about this place was just so welcoming and you couldn’t wait to spend the rest of your time here.

you looked around as you hopped out, the moving truck had gotten here before you and they were already effortlessly lifting boxes into your house. you admired the little garden that you could build on out the front of your house. there were flowers everywhere, and it just looked beyond beautiful.

you genuinely couldnt believe you scored such a place. i mean apart from the rent being so expensive, you were still super happy.

you were talking to one of the moving people when you saw a glimpse of a very handsome girl staring at you through your window. jesus, you thought. you zoned out, completely out of it like literally not listening to whatever the guy was rambling on about. you were just staring right back at the mysterious, beautiful girl through her window.

she averted her attention from your lower half to your face and got extremely flustered after realising you were staring right back at her.

‘fuck, she totally saw you looking! stop being a fucking idiot ellie.’ she repeated over and over, turning around, crashing her palm into her forehead and falling backwards onto her bed.

you stifled a giggle and the man thought you were laughing at him. he full on side eyed you.

‘s—sorry! what was it you were saying?’ you smiled politely at him. you were an angel in disguise is what ellie thought. pretty face, hair, clothes, body..

you were the definition of perfect. now you probably thought ellie was a big loser.

you didnt, actually the complete opposite of a loser. you thought she was beautiful, charming even. though you two have never actually held a conversation before, you enjoyed the thought of talking to her.

ellie really really really wanted to invite you over, maybe bring something over to welcome you to the neighbourhood. but she had no idea how to cook properly or even bake, ellie doesnt know how she lives on her own. but it already looked like her next door neighbour, marjorie, was already bringing freshly baked cookies over.

fuck marjorie and her old woman cooking skills, there goes ellies chance. she watched you embrace marjorie with a warm hug, your enchanting smile plastered on your face. she swears if she ever catches marjorie bringing over anything else shes going to fully box her.

‘cant wait til’ that old bat goes into a retirement home.’ ellie spat. its not like marjorie is so innocent either, she constantly tells ellie to dress like a proper woman, whispering to all the other old women on the street about her being a so called ‘dyke’. yeah screw marjorie.

ellie rolled her eyes and fell back onto her bed, only to go into a deep, well-needed slumber.

the next morning, ellie had spent all day making a drawing of you, adding in all of your perfections, thinking whether or not to give it to you. she was in a deep ass ponder when she got a knock on the door.

‘marjorie, i dont have any more sugar!’ she yelled. then she heard your faint giggle. oh fuck.

she rushed up from her seat, completely forgetting to cover the very obvious drawing of you. she twisted the doorknob a couple times with her clammy hands.

‘h—hey! sorry..’ she stuttered. you just flashed her one of your smiles and came in. was she dreaming? why are you in her house? what the actual fuck is going on.

‘i uh, i got your text! you said you made something for me?’ you smiled again, this time it reaching your eyes. ellie looked so confused, like a lost dog.

‘i texted you?’ holy shit, holy shit. ellie was so baked this morning, she didnt actually mean to send that text to you. (please ignore the fact that reader literally didnt give ellie their number ellies just built different.)

her face dropped, all colour draining from it. ‘im so sorry, ‘i—i didint mean to actually send that text.’ she just babbled on and on and on until you glanced at her table.

‘who’re you drawing?’ you pointed at the table and she shuffled over to it. she shook her head and closed the drawing book. im such a mess, she thought.

‘’s no one.. not important.’ she smiled awkwardly. you just giggled, with your fucking cute mouth, she was internally dying, she felt so hot-headed.

‘oh! ellie, youre burning up! your face— its very red.’ you rushed over, concerned, oblivious to the fact that she was blushing over the thought of you.

ellie shook her head and shooed away your hands. she gave you a polite but very awkward, half-smile. ‘’m fine, its fine! i uh— dont wanna waste your time, you best be going.’

you frowned, was it something you did? why was she excusing you out of her house.

on the other hand ellie was stressing. ‘you best be going.’ who the fuck says something like that. she was staring at her feet, then she glanced up at your face and noticed the slight frown.

‘yeah, sorry. cya els!’ els? holy guacamole. she was even more red faced then before if thats even possible, the tips of her ears were quite literally bright red.

‘no-no wait, can you just maybe come by again tomorrow, i havent actually finished what i was making for yo—‘ shes said to much. you just stood there smirking.

‘so you did make something for me?’ she was completely and utterly dumbfounded. mouth agape and just nodding her pretty little head.

‘ill be here at this time tomorrow, dont fail me ellie.’ you grinned, you enjoyed teasing this “stranger”. not to mention she was completely ogling over you when she opened the door to you.

‘y—yeah!’ she swallowed hard. she waved as you left the house and you flashed her one of your stupid smiles with your pearly teeth that she’ll be thinking about for days.

well, ellie was officially fucked.

[wonton4rang]

how do u think bnd boys wld act around you when they’re high?

bnd legal line being high or involved in drugs is one of my favorite concepts, oh myyy. plus, most of these came out as smut kinda thingy so yeah 😔

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why'd you only call me when you're high?

pairing: bnd legal line x reader.

warnings: +18, smut, mentions of drugs usage, dirty talk, pet names.

summary: how would bnd legal line act around you when they are high.

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sungho; let's go to a parallel world where he might do drugs cause i honestly don't see him into it but yeah. i feel like he would turn into this excessively touchy/ funny guy that would just not know the concept of personal space. he would sit besides you, his hand on your thigh while it went dangerously close to your heat only for him to laugh at your blushed cheeks and kiss your lips to whisper against them "you would look so pretty sucking my dick right now". and it was great, yeah, if the other members were not sitting across the room in the other couch.

riwoo; he goes into subspace and i'm a 100% sure, he would be so lovey dovey and happy, making those awful jokes with a numb tongue before he goes completely quiet. tbh you didn't noticed at first but when you looked for him with your eyes and saw him facing the floor while he played with his fingers, you knew he was wasted. so you just made your way to him, holding his hands and softly kissing his lips, whispering a loving "wanna get out of here, baby?" that only made him excited because he knew what you meant, whenever you looked at him like that he ended up w his dick wrapped by your pussy and his legs shaking and hurting due to the intense sex you gave him. and he quickly forgot anything and everything that was making his head go to places.

jaehyun; myungjae is such an ecstasy boy, damn. he's horny asf 24/7 and when he gets high?? he could even come across as too dirty or pushy because he is making you rethink everything you say when he makes a sexual joke about it, his hands getting freaky on your body, grazing your boobs under that shirt, your thighs and even lifting your skirt a bit so he could go further. but it was all in public so you would tell him to shut it off, only for him to take you to his car and fuck the shit out of you on the backseat.

taesan; dongmin gives me one of the strongest "if i did drugs, i'd smoke weed" vibes ever, like damn. so be aware that when he got high he would be almost the opposite, his jokes wouldn't be as innocent as always, his eyes won't look at you the soft and loving way they always did, and his voice would turn two tones down while he barely responded to whatever you were saying because he was so lost in the way your lips moved he did not gave a single fuck about what you were saying. so he would start a kiss, a rough one, suddenly towering over your body and giving zero to none space for you to even backup or take the lead if you wanted to. he would be demanding, rougher than usual and very quiet, he would probably adventure and try new stuff only to be really ashamed when he came down from his high. but it was that or him simply listening to the music blasting out his speakers while he starred at the ceiling with your head laying on his shoulder or his lap and he played with your hair.

leehan; i feel like leehan could be two sides of a coin, no in between, he could either be super scary or super cute. i feel like he wouldn't like to do drugs as a daily basis so he would do it at a party, his head spinning so much his eyes could only register light schemes, he would love the vibe too, specially because you always were there with him to take care of his pathetic self. yeah, that until you both got back at home, he is typically one to be very active sexually so if he is on his "scary" side of the high, he would push you against the wall, whispering a mean "you're such a fucking slut. teasing me all night when you knew i couldn't fuck you there", his voice low and his alcohol infused breath hitting your face and it honestly made you nervous because you knew he wasn't thinking right. but oh well, he still fucked you and you were the one asking for more afterwards.

[soprawrites]

In the Dark

Shinji Hirako x reader

⋆ ˚｡⋆୨🎃୧ ⋆ ˚｡⋆ Prompt 3 from Spooktober Prompts List

🕸️ CW: sfw, established relationship, gender-neutral reader, fluff, haunted houses

🕸️ WC: 1,233

🕸️ Notes: Wanted to write something small for Halloween! Saw the prompt from the list and immediately thought of Shinji. Divider credit: @estrelinha-s

It’s a crisp fall night, the moon high up in the sky and casting down its silvery glow. It’s the perfect night to cuddle up with a nice cozy blanket, warm mug in your hand as you read a book or watch a movie. Instead, however, you find yourself at a Halloween festival with Shinji. He had surprised you with a date, saying that the two of you should partake in the festivities before the spooky season is over and done with. You went along with him, curious to see where he would take you.

The festival is decorated with all sorts of Halloween decor; pumpkins with faces carved into them, skeletons propped up throughout various areas, fake spider webs lining bushes and trees, lights strung about and giving the place an orange glow. The people working the event are also dressed in costumes, adding to the vibe. There are a couple of food stalls selling themed treats and various goods vendors as well. The festival also contains a couple of attractions; a small pumpkin patch, a theater that’s playing Halloween movies, and a haunted house. Eerie music plays in the background completing the atmosphere.

“Well, whaddaya think?” Shinji asks, a wide toothy grin on his face.

“It’s cute! Definitely gets me in the Halloween spirit.”

“Good, let’s go to the haunted house!” Shinji grabs your hand, leading you towards the very end of the festival where the haunted house sits, dark and looming.

“Shinji, right off the bat? Don’t you want to do something else first? I think I saw that we could carve our own pumpkins over there.” You point in the opposite direction toward the pumpkin patch, pulling your hand out of his grasp and trying to halt him in his tracks. He glances back at you, an annoying and cocky smirk on his face.

“What, ya scared?”

Rolling your eyes, you sigh playfully. “No, that’s not it. Don’t you wanna save the best for last? I don’t want to do the house right away.”

He glances at the haunted house and then back at you before his face splits again, a teasing gleam in his warm brown eyes. “It’s ok if ya don’t wanna. All ya hafta do is admit it.”

“Ugh, fine! You want to do the haunted house so bad then let's go and get it over with.” You rush past him in the direction of the haunted attraction, standing in the short line. Shinji follows after you, snickering at your reaction as he stands next to you. You fight the urge to smile from his laughter—it always makes you laugh without a doubt—but you can tell that he can see the amusement on your face.

As the line moves down, your turn gets closer and closer as you hear screams coming from the inside of the building. When it’s finally your turn, the attendant gives you a smile that sends a shiver down your spine before wishing you both good luck. Shinji holds his hand out to you as you walk inside the house. “Wanna hold my hand?”

“It’s ok.” You ignore him as you take a look at the decorations around you, Shinji huffing and rolling his eyes at your dismissal. It seems they’re going for a more old-fashioned theme, the house having rugged vintage furnishings and decor. If you recall correctly from the sign outside, the house is supposedly haunted by the old lord of the estate and his victims. It’s a somewhat classic theme, but you're interested to see where it goes nonetheless.

“This place is way too gaudy fer my tastes.” Shinji criticizes as he eyes an ornate table in one corner. “Hmm, you think? Don’t you have a lamp similar to that though?” You question, pointing out to an antique lamp that looks very similar to the one Shinji has in his room. “Mine looks nothin’ like that.” He dismisses, an impassive expression on his face. You raise your eyebrow, about to retort when a loud bang sounds behind the both of you. Startled, you jump as you glance behind you and see a scare actor looking at you creepily. Exchanging a glance with Shinji, the both of you continue your pace down the hall, working your way through the haunted mansion.

As you make your way through, a variety of jump scares occur; flickering lights, more loud and creepy noises, and actors coming out to surprise you. You take them all in stride, only a handful of them scaring you and making you jump and stand a little closer to Shinji. You can feel the smug aura radiating off of him whenever that happens and you just know that he’s thriving off of seeing you scared and moving closer to him. Though you bet he wants more—to see you clutching onto him or holding his hand—you don’t want to give him that satisfaction.

You both finally make your way toward the final bit of the haunted attraction, the exit in sight. Before you can make it any closer to the exit, however, the lights suddenly go out, making you unable to see anything in front of you. It’s a bit unnerving as you try to feel around in front of you, not wanting to trip.

“Aww, are ya so afraid of the dark that ya need me to hold yer hand?” You can hear the smug smirk in his voice, but before you comment on it his words hit you. “Uhh, I’m not holding your hand Shinji.” There’s a brief moment of silence as Shinji processes what you said.

“Then whose…”

His voice trails off, when suddenly the dim lights flicker back on. You blink your eyes a couple of times—having gotten used to the dark—when the sight before you makes you pause. Shinji is standing in front of you, holding hands with a scare actor dressed as a dead old lady who is staring at him with a haunted look on her face. He lets out a short yell as he yanks his hand out of her grasp, grabbing your wrist and making a beeline for the exit. You’re laughing, tears coming out of your eyes, as he drags you out and away from the haunted house. He doesn’t stop until you’re further away from the attraction.

“Alright, ya can stop laughin’ now. It wasn’t that funny.” Shinji grumbles, mouth set straight and looking unimpressed.

“Oh! Sorry, sorry. Right.” You take a deep breath to compose yourself but when you look at Shinji, you start laughing again. “Sorry, I just,” a few more giggles slip past your lips as you wipe a stray tear from the corner of your eye, “it was just so funny! You should’ve seen the look on your face.”

He rolls his eyes at your hysterical state, but seeing the way you laugh—face bright and uninhibited—has him softening his face, smiling gently. If you laughing at his expense is a way for him to see you radiant and lively, then he’d do it all over again just to see you smile.

“Whatever.” He grabs your hand, lacing your fingers together. “Wanna carve those pumpkins now?”

“Sure! I’m gonna try to carve your face just now so that you can see how funny you looked.”

On second thought, maybe he takes it back.

[outmakingmoonshine]

I wrote this reply a few weeks ago about the 773 tattoo on Carmy's arm that really looks like 223. You'll have to read that first because I'm not gonna explain it all again here and you'll need context to understand this post.

SPOILERS below if you haven't watched to the end of S3 yet

Right before this in Marcus's mum's funeral scene he's talking about having someone who really listen to you and pays attention to you and the camera does a not so subtle zoom in on SydCarmy's faces. Then the next scene is this one where Syd says she made the margins wider on the menus because Carmy always writes in them. We already know Carmy pays close attention to Syd and he does really listen to her even though it's like he gets amnesia right after and does the opposite of what she wanted, he does really try to listen and understand her in his own way. This an example of Syd really paying attention to Carmy immediately after being told how significant it is and how good it makes you feel. Carmy looked shocked that she paid attention to him and went out of her way to do something thoughtful for him and said "That's really nice. Thank you." Then Carmy goes on to do a checklist of the things they both need which also showed he knows her too.

Keeping the number meta above in mind, I'm not sure who first mentioned this (pls link the post if anyone knows so I can credit them) but sydcarmy both represent the number 2. In the post above I spoke about when the two 2's (sydcarmy) face each other and finally turn to take notice of each other. I'm pretty certain this scene was a small glipse of what their future together would be like if sydcarmy did face each other without anything or anyone coming between them. They become a cohesive unit, working together as one just like they were in this scene. Sydcarmy are mirrors of each other in many ways, just like the twos are mirroring each other on the clock behind them. I know one is technically a 5 but visually it's a 2 backwards and how else would they symbolize two 2's facing each other on a digital clock? Imo these numbers in this scene represent this moment being a good thing and a glimpse of what they could be, plus the whole scene gave me strong married couple vibes.

In numerology 9 represents completion/the end. The next number, 10, begins the cycle from 1 again or you could say it evolves, moves forward and keeps growing. 9 has other asociations but the core foundational meaning of it is completion. It's telling us in the end they will face each other and balance each other out, mirror each other. "Mirroring is an act of love." If that number sequence in the background of this specific scene isn't positive SydCarmy foreshadowing idk what is. This scene, the context, subtext and symbolism in it alone lets me know the sydcarmy love story and endgame is still very much on track. We're just taking a detour for now, like 99% of will-they-wont-they ships do right before the end of the story.

This shot showed directly after a Carmy/Claire opening scene in 3x05 and Carmy was laying in bed staring at it in some of the darkest blue lighting I think we've seen in the show.

I think this may even be a few shades darker than the sex scene with Claire. Imo it's because Carmy's in his darkest place now, he knows how he feels and who he wants but he can't have it. Carmy metaphorically turned to face Syd in the panic attack scene then fully turned, paid attention and listened to her in the table scene. Now he's somewhat aware of his feelings for her, tbh I think he does know but he's avoiding it because he's in a really dificult situation with Claire and he already let Syd down again after promising to be there for her. He doesn't love Claire romantically but he doesn't wanna hurt her either He's just stuck which is what I think this season was about, Carmy's still mentally and emotionally stuck in the freezer. Carmy said saying sorry to Claire was too hard and I think that's because he knows he has to tell her he doesn't feel the same way and it's gonna hurt her. We keep seeing cute flashbacks with Claire but I don't think it's because he misses her, I think it's because he feels really guilty that he lead her on so much because that's what the scenes were showing. He was acting all loved up with her and it's interesting that we the audience/Carmy never saw that last season and we're only seeing now it in hindsight. Remember the show is telling us the story through Carmy's eyes.

I said in the post above I initially thought the number 3 represented Claire and/or Marcus, but in 2x08 Carmy (2) asked Richie (3) to be the "go-between" and give Syd (2) an I love you note, literally putting the three in the middle of the two 2's so it made sense it probably represented him at the time.

And maybe it does, idk, he's been getting between them since S1 in one way or another, directly or indirectly. But it more likely represents anyone that comes between them. The third wheel so to speak.

Notice how the 2's aren't facing each other here in 2x08 because this was before Carmy faced what Syd means to him in 2x09.

And you may be wondering if the mirroring numbers represent how sydcarmy end up why isn't Carmy's tattoo 753? Well 753 isn't the chicago area code so it would raise questions why Carmy had a random tattoo of 753 so I think it was a choice to keep the symbolism but keep it subtle.

I didn't expect s3 to feel this bad (I should've tbh, this show always makes you feel the most) but I didn't expect it to go well for sydcarmy. That's why I posted this post the day before the episodes aired reminding everyone what the show told us to expect. They did warn us this wasn't gonna be a mushy gooey love story. It's not gonna be cute and sweet, it's gonna be ballbreaker and that's what Carmy's doing to Syd. He's doing to her what the NY Chef did to him. He's already making her sick, making her have panic attacks and he knows he's a "bad boss". He glanced her way when they were talking about it at the table in 3x10. When I saw Carmy confront NY Chef, for a moment I thought they were gonna have Carmy say the same to Syd one day in the future (this is how bad the whole situation felt while watching the show, it was truly horrible to watch) but I really don't think so. Carmy doesn't want to be anything like that arrogant guy so I can only imagine he'd be the complete opposite with Syd (someone he genuinely cares about) when he finally pulls his head out of his ass, metaphorically gets out of the freezer and faces the situation he's in like Cicero told him you have to run straight into it, you can't avoid it.

Even though this season was very hard to watch I think the same amount of subtext, symbolism and metaphors that pointed to sydcarmy in the last seasons is still all there. It's just more difficult to see, especially after 1 watch because there were barely any scenes that seem good for them on a surface level, they all went to Carmy/Claire. But underneath the surface a lot of the scenes imply good things are still to come for sydcarmy imo.

[seokmattchuus]

Na Kamden as a dom

Prefacing this by saying I am very delusional.

This is in no way accurate by any means bc all I've seen from other content is the opposite of this.

I wrote this for the sake of my sanity.

But moving on.

Somewhere in the middle of hard dom and soft dom but if you push enough, you get a brat tamer.

No, I will not elaborate because I don't even know what that means.

It just makes sense, y'know?

Like,

He's nice until he's not?

But when he's not nice anymore, he will fuck you up?

Definitely might take him some time to get there, but you can't tell me he wouldn't make the best brat tamer.

Like,

On the regular, he's not too strict but he's also not the most lenient.

Mostly because he uses his height to his advantage.

He doesn't need to you the voice because all he has to do is take a little step towards you and look down at you and boom, a natural brat-be-gone.

Can't blame you, though.

If he stepped towards me after being a brat, my five-foot-one-and-a-half ass (the half counts, okay) would cower like the chihuahua that I am (got that dog in me, y'know).

Like.

My hypothetical timbers shiver at the thought (in a good way).

But brat tamer Kamden?

:3

He likes to use pet play as a funishment.

Because he's still trying to give you a chance to make it up to him.

And he's also not trying to ruin you completely.

Just a little bit.

The degradation of having the full kitty get up is enough to humble you so you're not pushing it.

Ears, collar, tail, no clothes.

Because kitties don't wear clothes.

He uses the leash to keep you in place.

Or keep you from looking away.

He'll pull you up to be right in front of his face and hold you there.

He's a lover of forced eye contact so he can watch you struggle not to close your eyes.

Which leads to my next point:

If he is trying to ruin you completely, the tail might be a plug.

That vibrates.

Ororor

Maybe cuffs you to a cage and refuses to touch you.

Maybe uses a fuck machine instead. Because you obviously aren't going to listen. Why would he even try?

And he'll be mean about it.

"Awe, does someone want me to let them out?"

"If I let you out, don't think I'm going to make you cum."

"You get the machine, or nothing at all."

Or you're only allowed out if you're going to get yourself off.

Bc he's not about to reward you.

"You didn't want to listen, so you obviously don't need me."

"Show me how much you need it, and I might touch you."

I will not expand on this for my own sanity because I'm not trying to give myself thots. It's almost 4am.

Moving back to regular dom Kamden.

He loves reminding you how small you are compared to him.

All the time.

Holding hands and talking about how small yours are in his.

When you're sitting on his lap and he just towers over you.

Or his hands on your thighs.

Or when he has both your wrists in one hand.

Or when he's holding your wrist and his hand is just. So big.

He loves to verbally remind you, too.

Usually cooing at you.

Gives caregiver vibe lowkey, but he also just seems like the type to baby you anyways.

"My little baby."

"Look at how cute you are." (usually while pinching your cheek)

When he's feeling generous and wants to see you correct your own behavior, he likes keeping track of how much you're misbehaving.

I'm talking using a clicker all day.

And the final number could be anything, really.

How many times he's going to deny/keep you cumming.

How many spanks you'll get.

How many minutes he'll go without touching you (he might multiply it by two just for funsies)

Or how long he'll go on teasing you.

If he's feeling not-so-generous.

He's using the three-strike method and announcing them very loudly.

Does not care if you're around others.

Nope.

Counting down from three while walking towards you.

Or giving you silent signals to check you.

Bc he knows you're looking at him after messing up.

But he loves the attention.

And loves that you're doing it for his attention.

Wouldn't have it any other way, truly.

He also likes to threaten you with what he's going to do to you once you're both alone.

Just to rile you up some more.

But his aftercare game?

Unmatched.

He's gonna let you both nap before he washes you up.

Let's you relax in the bath after cleaning you so he can work on some food or snacks. Whichever you're in the mood for.

But you do get a big glass of ice cold water.

With a bendy straw :)

He gives you his softest hoodie to wrap yourself in while you both cuddle and watch tv.

Wraps his big ol' arms around you and holds you close while feeding you and maybe the occasional forehead kiss.

And asking if you're okay.

"Are you sure you're okay?"

"Nothing hurts, right?"

"My baby eats so well."

"Let me know if you need anything."

He's completely different from before. Total 180.

Big ol' softie.

[pricefi3ldz]

pricefield—a jealous max caulfield oneshot

summary; chloe doesn’t expect her teasing jokes to actually make max jealous. but they do.

a/n: this was a random idea i had that i wanted to quickly get out. my bad for any errors, hope you like it!

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“i think i’ve hooked up with every friend i’ve ever had.” chloe chuckled, gazing against max’s back who was busy robbing chloe of her clothes.

max turned around, raising her eyebrows at chloe’s words. “uh, you cereal?” the joke wasn’t hitting if it was supposed to be one.

“yeah,” chloe sat up on her bed, “now that i think about it, i guess i’m not exactly good at staying friends with people.”

max rolled her eyes, “you never tried anything with me.”

“course i did? look at us! we’re dating dumbass.” she smacked max’s side, making the girl shudder at the contact.

“you didn’t make any moves on me first.”

chloe couldn’t argue with that, since it took max to kiss her first for any progression between them to take place.

“mm thats because you couldn’t wait to kiss me!” chloe teased, biting her lip in amusement as max scoffed in denial.

“not true.”

——

if it weren’t for chloe’s comment yesterday, maybe max would’ve been more chill.

but now, as she waited out behind frank’s rv waiting for chloe, her stomach turned at the sight ahead.

there chloe stood, talking to a girl resembling someone she’d assume was the girl’s type. long blonde hair with purple highlights, tatted arms, and a sick septum piercing. somebody completely opposite of max’s style, but not so far off of a certain old flame who chloe had lost.

shit, she felt guilty for even dating chloe sometimes. the two probably seemed worlds apart, even if they were bonded with their shared memories.

lost in thought, max didn’t even notice as chloe walked back to her side, swinging her arm around her.

“yo super max, what’s with that face” chloe chuckled, leaning in to kiss the girl’s lips which snapped her out of the daze she was in.

“oh you came back” max sighed, giving her a small, yet uncomfortable smile.

“uh yeah,” chloe could sense the weird vibe around max. “did something happen while i was gone?”

max shook her head and sat in the car without another word.

for the remainder of the car ride, chloe tried to get max to cheer up, but max was busy in her head, ruminating over her thoughts. chloe hooked up with every single one of her friends huh? max couldn’t wrap her head around what she could’ve done with this new girl.

for the rest of the day, max felt pretty snappy, but insisted to chloe she was just on her period. not in the mood to talk.

chloe knew max too well for that though.

“so max, you gonna keep icing me out?” she sighed, standing over her while max looked down at her phone.

“i’m not” max mumbled, not making a very convincing argument.

“don’t give me that” chloe took max’s phone and set it down. she pulled max’s head up and pouted. “you’re scaring me.”

max shook her head out of chloe’s hand and looked up at her, leaning back against the bed. “fine fine i’ll stop.”

chloe smiled and sat beside her happily, propping her arm around max who flinched slightly.

“whats this? you don’t even want my touch now huh?” she was half sarcastic in her tone, but also genuinely looking for a response.

“chloe,” max started, looking down at her own hands while she fidgeted, “was that a friend of yours while we were at frank’s?”

chloe raised an eyebrow and nodded, “yeah, her name’s leila and she shows up sometimes. why?”

max stayed silent again, trying to collect her thoughts before she said something that’d make her sound like a possessive psychopath.

chloe’s eyes widened at the realization. “oh shit, you jealous or something?” she smirked, watching as max’s features visibly tensed at her words.

chloe laughed, she knew max was more jealous of a partner than she was, but the pettiness was unexpected—and adorable.

“well if you won’t say anything, i guess i’ll head down to leila’s.” max’s head turned to look at chloe now. “i’m sure she has plenty of words for me.”

max’s eyebrows furrowed, “very funny chloe” except, chloe genuinely found this entertaining.

“oh i know. leila reminds me of that everytime we speak” she taunts, giving max a wink. the teasing would kill max if she heard anymore, so she snapped and pulled the back of chloe’s head in, meeting her lips for a kiss.

chloe made a surprised sound at the sudden contact, feeling the blush that crept up on her cheeks. she was all talk until max’s lips were against hers and she felt her heart melt.

chloe moved her arms around max’s waist, hoisting the girl onto her lap to take some control of the kiss. she dragged her fingers over max’s skin peeking from her shirt, which max clearly seemed to be enjoying.

max was pretty easy to please. give her completely undivided attention, and the girl was content. but only if it happened to be chloe’s attention.

chloe pulled away after a few minutes, gazing at the flush on max’s face before chuckling. “so that was it? you’re a jealous little freak huh?”

max shook her head, noticeably flustered. “i’m not.. but yesterday, you know what you said.”

chloe’s face twisted in confusion as she traced everything from yesterday she might’ve said. eventually, she recalled what she said about her friends and let out a small ‘ooh’.

“oh max, you know i meant that about my past, right?” she spoke sincerely, “after you.. why would i need anybody else?”

max smiled slightly in delight, “well, what i said about you never making the first move on me still stands.” her voice came out thick with embarrassment.

chloe sighed and rubbed her hands along max’s back. “i just didn’t wanna fuck things up with you” a grin crept on her lips, “and you know, it was so hot for you to seriously kiss me.”

max felt another stupid blush painted on her face. “i thought i might’ve forced you into something and you started dating me out of pity.”

chloe shook her head, “fuck no. you’re my girl for life.” she pulled max closer “i’ve had things in the past, but i don’t regret that they’ve led me to you.”

max giggled in delight, “you’re speaking all softie like.”

“hm? you want me to give leila this softness instead?” max lightly smacked chloe’s arm while she laughed at her own joke in amusement. “you can’t lie, that was funny.”

max rolled her eyes playfully in response.

“but seriously, you know i wouldn’t dare to try anything with anybody else, right? i have you, you make me happy as fuck.”

max nodded, feeling finally relieved.

“leila’s cool, but not cool enough for me” she winked at max “you on the other hand, you’re SUPER max” she began to cover max’s face in aggressive little kisses from chin to forehead.

“thanks chloe,” max chuckled, still enjoying the kisses she was receiving “i love you”

chloe pulled away, taking one of her hands from max’s waist to stroke the girl’s cheek. “i love you even more.”

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not proofread <3

[allnightstay]

Day 8 - Nuzzles 🐙

Summary: Jinwoo finds himself in yet another dungeon. But this one felt strange. He encounters something unlike he's ever seen before. Or felt...

Lee: Jinwoo

Ler: you'll see 😉

A/N: This contains no spoilers. Midway Season 1 Jinwoo. He's not quite the little boy but also not the opposite.

Another day, another dungeon. Except he was solo on this one (no pun intended). His goal was to try and get through 5 before end of day. If that was even possible. Something felt off about this one, he thought. Whatever was lurking in at the end of the tunnel gave him a vibe he felt he'd never encountered before.

Continuing forward, he enters a somewhat small-opening area, but there's literally nothing there. Thinking he'd reached a dead end, he turns to head back the way he came from, until he felt the floor rumble.

Then it stopped.

Perhaps there was something here? The blue eyed boy froze, waiting to see if something else would happen.

The floor rumbled again.

Jinwoo positions himself, ready for something to possibly come from underground. He backs up when he sees a little hole begining to form on the floor.

Within seconds, two large tentacle-like objects come flying out from each wall on either side of him. It grabs him by the wrists, lifting him up, with two other arms comings from underneath, grabbing his ankles.

"Wh- what the!?"

Jinwoo pulls at his arms, looking both ways confused at what exactly was going on, and completely oblivious to the three other tentacles appearing right in front of him.

"Argh!! I can't get these things off of me!!" He yells, unfortunately he was by himself.

The three arms reach up, face level with the boy, and begin... nuzzling his neck? What in the world, what kind of dungeon is this??

Jinwoo begins slightly panicking, being that he can't move nor can he stop the ticklish sensation forming around his neck. He's worried this thing might hurt him, he needs a solution, quickly.

"Ahahehe, ugh!! Get these things off of mehehe!" He hates that he's laughing, first off, and growing increasingly annoyed at the fact that he's stuck.

One arm then creeps down to his waist, circling him in a hugging type of way, but the slithering is becoming even more unbearable on his skin. It tickles like hell. The other two arms slide under his shirt, reaching upward to his underarms.

You can't be serious.

Instinctively, Jinwoo starts thrashing around attempting to free himself, holding in his laughter in the moment of panic, but finds it incredibly hard to do so.

The two arms start flicking in his underarms, with the third around his waist now trickling around his belly button.

"Hmmnngg ahahAHAHAHA!! AHHH HAHAHA FUCKK!! NAHAHAHA PLEASEHEHEHEASE!! DOHOHON'T!!"

He's unsure of why he's even asking, begging really. Can it even understand him?

"NAHAHAHA DAHAHAHAMMIT!!" He fights even more to release himself from the tight hold he's in, but with zero luck.

It felt affectionate in the weirdest way, it kept "hugging" him yet it tickled like crazy.

One arm went from under his shirt to back up to his neck, nuzzling it again. He couldn't handle it. It was beginning to be too much.

"HAHAHA PLEHEHE- I CAHAHAHAN'T!!! NAAAHAHA STOHOHOHOP!!"

The arm around his waist slows to a stop, slides down his leg, and stops by his feet. It removes his shoe, and finally his sock.

"GOHOHOD NOOOHOHO PLEASE PLEASE DON'T!!"

Little sprouts form around the tip of the tentacle, individualizing into little tickly strands. His foot was about to be completely covered in ticklish sensations.

Each little tendril wrapped around his foot and placed themselves at each toe, while the bigger main piece remained at the center of his foot.

They all begin scratching, lightly flickering, some faster than the other, and some with a bit more pressure.

"NAHAHAHA OH MY GOHOHOD!!! Jinwoo could hardly breathe. The intensity of his torment was unlike anything he's ever felt. Sure he'd had plenty of ticklish memories in his past, but nothing like this.

10 minutes pass. During that time, another arm had surfaced and took hold of his other foot in the same way the other tentacle did.

He's nearly crying, frustration and giddy disbelief drowning him. He hasn't been tickled in forever but jeez this was not the way he'd want it to come back.

Another 10 minutes pass, and it finally lets up on him, lowering him and quickly disappearing, arms slithering back in their holes.

What the fu- his mind was running wild, he was still catching his breath, trying to put it all together.

He immediately ran out, despite not "finishing" this dungeon. The hell with it. He did not care one bit. All he cared about was leaving and never coming back.

Hopefully he never runs into this dungeon again.

[lullabyalikpoptarot]

TXT Dynamics (Beomgyu's Perspective)

I was pulled to this reading first, and understand why, since the cards flew out so quickly lol This doesn't look as heavy as Soobin's, so that is nice. Anyway, this is where the energies and dynamic are at the moment, it can always change. This is just some insight into their dynamics.

Yeonjun (Conjunction/8 of Wands)-With these cards it seems they may be teaming up on some activities. There is excitement with all the things they are doing. They may be having a lot of fun together. They may be excited about some upcoming projects. There seems to be a sense of unity with these two at the moment. They are both along for the ride of whatever things take them.

Soobin (House 5/The Father)-Interesting combination, both complete opposite energies here. Now does he see Soobin as a father figure?, or he may just see him as a good leader?, as this card is similar to the Emperor card. There is also a playful side to him. Also, maybe Beomgyu can act childish and playful around him. There is like a fun energy, but also a serious energy here. They can exhibit both together. They both can be stern and stubborn when need be.

Taehyun (Neptune/6 of Swords)-Their dynamic is a bit illusionary at the moment. I am not sure what that means, but that came to me. Neptune is about dreams, illusions, the metaphysical. Maybe they go to those places when they are together. Both of them seem to struggle to move on from things, due to their emotional nature at times. It is like they are both trying to work on things right now. Trying to move forward. Not sure this says much about their dynamics. Weird, but interesting message here. I don't quite get this one. I am sure this will make more sense after a while, like it tends to happen with me. I will just go with this for now.

Hueningkai (Square/6 of Cups)-There could be challenges from the past, or their childhood that they both relate to. Square energy could mean there are some difficulties in their dynamic right now, or that they are both working through challenges together. The 6 of cups gives me there is a sibling vibe here. He may see Kai as a younger brother, someone he should protect and take care of, makes sense knowing their dynamic. This one is kind of cute.

Okay, overall, his energy and dynamics seemed a bit calmer. I like to see this.

[battyaboutbooksreviews]

🦇 One Last Stop Book Review 🦇

Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

❓ #QOTD If you could live in a different time and place, when and where would you choose? ❓ 🦇 August expects moving to New York will only prove her cynicism right. The only way to live is to do it alone. That is, until a mysterious girl on the train hands her a scarf, sparking not only a major subway crush on the Q, but an adventure that will alter August's perspective of the world forever.

💜 Oh. My. Goddess. This book. THIS BOOK. This book hit me like a freight train (yes, yes, I see the pun). It's been a month since I read it because I couldn't find the words...I still can't. But I'll try. 💜 This. Book. Why did NO ONE tell me about this book?! 💜 From page one, this book is a childhood friend reaching out and tugging you into a warm, solid embrace before lifting you off your feet, spinning you around, and causing the word to blur. Casey McQuiston's narration is familiar, inviting, intimate. I couldn't stop annotating. August is raw and vulnerable and real, but still figuring out who she is away from her mother and messy childhood. We're only lucky enough to discover the woman she is alongside her. 💜 I don't want to spoil this story for anyone who hasn't read it yet, because there's a moment that changes EVERYTHING -- the genre, the plot, August, EVERYTHING. It's executed so well that I still feel the impact. WHY am I tearing up writing a review for this a MONTH later?! 💜 The underlying messages in this story are so heavy and impactful, yet written with such ease and grace and respect. There's: 🚇 Beautiful representation and discussion about virginity 🚇 Kisses for evidence-gathering 🚇 Exploration into New York's queer history 🚇 A Chinese lesbian displaced during the 70s 🚇 Lost memory 🚇 HIV/AIDs activists 💜 Beyond that, there's a beautiful sapphic ship, quirky cast of queer side characters, and sense of found family that's beyond heart-warming. I'm completely onboard for whatever Casey McQuiston has planned next.

💜 Literary Awards: 🚇 ALA Alex Award Nominee (2022) 🚇 Goodreads Choice Award Nominee for Romance (2021) 🚇 RUSA CODES Reading List for Romance (2022) 🚇She Reads Best of Award Nominee for Romance (2021)

🦇 Recommended for all readers; namely fans of Delilah Green Doesn't Care, She Gets the Girl, and Imogen, Obviously. This book is absolute magic. I read this in February but I can already say it's one of my top reads for the year. Yes, I'm still tearing up. What is wrong with me?

✨ The Vibes ✨ 🩷 Queer Found Family 🚇 Bisexual FMC 🩷 Diverse Cast 🏙️ Coming-of-Age 🩷 Sapphic Ship 🚝 Smut 🩷 Sci-Fi Twist

💬 Quotes ❝ Truth is, when you spend your whole life alone, it’s incredibly appealing to move somewhere big enough to get lost in, where being alone looks like a choice. ❞ ❝ August looks at her as the train reverses past Gravesend rooftops, this girl out of time, the same face and body and hair and smile that took August’s life by the shoulders in January and shook. And she can’t believe Jane had the nerve, the audacity, to become the one thing August can’t resist: a mystery. ❞ ❝ "Your friendly smile of acceptance—from the safe position of heterosexuality,’” Jane reads aloud, “‘isn’t enough. As long as you cherish that secret belief that you are a little bit better because you sleep with the opposite sex, you are still asleep in your cradle … and we will be the nightmare that awakens you.’” ❞ ❝ August laughs and wants so badly to know what it feels like to show off the person who’s yours from across the crowd...Maybe what she really wants is to be the person across the crowd who belongs to someone. ❞ ❝ “The attraction between you two is literally a spark, and it’s the same spark that’s bringing her back into reality." ❞ ❝ “I fell in love with you the day I met you, and then I fell in love with the person you remembered you are. I got to fall in love with you twice. That’s—that’s magic. You’re the first thing I’ve believed in since—since I don’t even remember, okay, you’re—you’re movies and destiny and every stupid, impossible thing, and it’s not because of the fucking train, it’s because of you. It’s because you fight and you care and you’re always kind but never easy, and you won’t let anything take that away from you. You’re my fucking hero, Jane. I don’t care if you think you’re not one. You are.” ❞

[kaebedom-me]

late afternoon cafe run

synopsis: you decide to head to jjk cafe for a quick pick me up but when you run into a situation involving your favourite barista you just had to step in to help him! only to be face to face with the scariest looking man you've ever seen! but wait??? he's actually really hot???

cw: yuji x reader, aged up! yuji, slight toji x reader, cafe au, fluff, nicknames (dollface, doll, cutie), toji flirting with yuji, slightly ooc! toji, i tried my best to make it gender neutral! reader, they/them pronounce, slightly proofread but not really

word count: 1885

a/n: i've been writing a lot for freyz the past two days so i wanted to write one just for me 🥺 anyways pls give love to the original pieces that freyz drew that directly inspired this fic! here, here, here and here! i also think it's fairly obvious that i have favourites- once again, my ramblings at the end!

You were annoyed. Kind of. Not entirely. But something happened and you're sort of kind of annoyed? Really, it's just an excuse to visit your favourite café a little ways away from your place. 

You had happened across it while exploring the area when you first moved to town. It had been a little busy when you went in then but the service had been phenomenal; it was a tad bit pricier than other cafés in the area but completely justifiable (to you).

The handsome pink-haired young man that had been working the cashier during your first ever visit was hands down one of the nicest people you’ve ever met in your entire life. He practically radiated with good vibes and a kind of sincerity so warm and sweet you think you could get diabetes from spending too much time with him.

He introduced himself to you as Yuji, recommended a drink and pastry, and welcomed you to the neighbourhood. And that had been the end of you, you were hooked, you knew then your soul was signed away to the sun personified to visit this café whenever you could.

Your feet were already taking you out of your door while you day-dreamed. You definitely weren’t hoping that your favourite barista was in today, no, you were going to get a quick drink then come immediately back home to work. 

You thought about what drink you wanted, this had always been your biggest problem whenever you visited them since they had such a large variety, it didn’t help that every drink you’ve tried up to this point had been delicious.

“Welcome!” A voice you recognised greeted you.

It wasn’t too busy today, there was only one massive guy that was in the queue. Your eyes quickly scanned the café, the pretty and friendly brunette was behind the coffee machine tapping away on her phone, and a flash of blonde just went to the back. You also noted the dogs that were behind the baby gates at the back of the café excitedly watching the counter, that meant the broody black-haired guy was here today.

You were practically vibrating in your spot in the queue because you didn’t have to see past the extremely well-built customer in front of you to know who was working the counter. You took out your phone to fiddle with it, trying to act cool and distract yourself.

“C’mon, sunshine, couldn’t you do it for me?” the man in front of you asked.

A shudder went straight down your spine when you heard the man in front of you speak. It sounded so impossibly deep, you subconsciously stepped back a little, mind sensing some kind of trouble. You peaked up a little from your phone to observe.

If Yuji was good vibes, then the man that stood in front of you is bad vibes, overpoweringly so. You thought he’s the exact opposite of Yuji. You could even picture in your head a very menacing and scary face for the man, you gripped your phone a little tighter, you felt like you needed to watch this man like a hawk in case something happened.

“I can’t, I’m sorry, I already made plans tonight.”

Yeah, that was definitely your favourite barista speaking. Good on Yuji for sounding so sure of himself! If you were in his place, you surely would’ve started crying at the mere sight of that scary man’s face.

“Sunshine… Please?” The man drawls, almost purrs. “I’ll buy you your favourite manga, I’d even take you out on a date as thanks if you just did this one tiny favour for me.”

You felt like you were going to wet yourself, your heartbeat was thumping so quickly in your chest. If you were in Yuji’s shoes right now, you’d definitely start crying while trying to serve danger personified. Your mind started to race. But why was he just standing there harassing Yuji?! Was he even going to order!! Did he just come in to bother Yuji because he knew Yuji couldn’t do anything but be polite while working? That’s so sick!

You weren’t sure if it had been bravery or stupidity that took over your body when you suddenly shoved your phone into your pocket. “Excuse me,” you started, mustering up your best angry scary face.

The two men turned their attention to you, confusion clearly written on their faces. You, however, were only focused on the absolute unit of a man. You had severely underestimated the height of this man; he was so huge you hadn’t even realised he was leaning down to talk to Yuji a moment ago, and now that he stood up to his actual height you seriously started to regret your decision.  

“Are you seriously talking to him like that? In broad daylight? How shameless are you?” you said through gritted, glaring at the man.

You were so proud of yourself for sounding so tough! That was until you made eye contact with the scary man. His sharp green eyes bore into yours; you felt your cheeks started to heat up and you almost fell to your knees. You were so wrong, you had it all wrong! He didn’t look anything like the mean, grungy, stink faced man you pictured! No!!! You were face to face with God’s personal favourite creation, handcrafted to perfection, an absolute beaut of a man. No, no, no. You were looking at an actual God because there was no way a human being could be this beautiful.

“I’m sorry?”

Your anger from just two seconds ago just dissipated. You were truly dumbfounded. Speechless from the sheer perfection that was this man’s face. You wanted to look away, but you had to keep looking at him; he was so mesmerising, there’s no way you could physically tear your eyes away from him.

“Fushiguro-san, don’t scare them!” Yuji’s voice pulled you out of your trance.

You watched on as this “Fushiguro-san” eyed you then back at Yuji, his eyes seemed to have sparked a little with recognition before a sly grin started to form on his lips. Your eyes caught the movement, subconsciously flickering down to see the scar on his lip stretch. He let out a hearty laugh.

Something about the way he looked right now made you almost lower your guard. But no! You had to keep it together, in your gut you think you know he’s not to be trusted, you’re just temporarily blinded is all!!

“Listen,” he chuckled, and, oh God, maybe the feeling of wanting to wet yourself hasn’t gone away after all. “It’s a misunderstanding. Promise, dollface.”

“Fushiguro-san!” Yuji huffed.

Fushiguro-san turned his attention back to Yuji and gave him a pout. You briefly wondered how you’d react if Fushiguro-san, in all his glory, gave you that look. You think you’d cry.

“I won’t take your shift tonight and that’s final,” chastised Yuji. “Also, stop trying to hand your shifts to people at the last minute because you don’t feel like working.”

Just then, the tall blonde walked out from the kitchen with a tray of hot pastries, Yuji moved to help the blonde with the tray.

Fushiguro-san turned to you again and offered you another smile. “Worth the shot, yeah?”

You weren’t able to answer. Not when he looked so charming. Your brain steaming up while trying to process how it was physically possible to switch up his demeanour so quickly from a beast to the most charming, handsome man you’ve ever seen.

“Come here often?” He asked you.

Your eyes snapped back to meet his. As if really compelled by God himself, you nodded yes to his question.

“Good,” his voice drops, purring the same way he did to Yuji. Fushiguro-san barely had to step at all to get into your space, he leaned down so close to you, you could drown in his cologne. “Come by later next time, while I’m on shift. I’ll treat you to something as pretty as yourself.”

You gasped. You tell yourself it must be because you had been holding your breath, not because of Fushiguro-san, no way his charms were working on you. No, it’s definitely because you’re so scared right now.

Fushiguro-san hummed, eying you like prey. “Cat got your tongue? What happened to your spunk, doll?”

“Ah! Toji-san!! I told you not to scare them!” Yuji’s voice pulled Fushiguro-san’s attention away from you, much to your dismay.

Fushiguro-san laughed and reached over to ruffle Yuji’s hair, mumbling about how he was just messing around. He then turned to you to excuse himself and walked toward the back where the dogs were. They were jumping and whining, incredibly eager to greet him. You watched as he dug out a couple of treats from his pocket and fed it to the dogs.

“I’m really sorry about that,” Yuji pouted a little when you looked back at him. “Fushiguro-san just likes to mess with people because he can.”

You nodded, still feeling a little dumbfounded. “Ah,” you let out when it finally connected in your head that they were co-workers, possibly even friends. Man, you really wanted to be swallowed up by the ground right now.

“Thank you for standing up for me though! I appreciate it!”

You met Yuji’s eyes bashfully; he truly was an angel.

“Do you want your usual?” Asked Yuji sweetly. “Nanami-san just whipped out a fresh batch of croissants, we have your favourite today too!”

“I think I’ll do my usual and the croissant,” you finally started to relax again.

“Of course! Please, have a seat. It’ll be on me today as thanks,” he offered.

You protested him, you hadn’t done much you told him. But Yuji was very insistent, already stepping to the side to grab the croissants he laid out with Nanami-san earlier. He wanted to properly thank you. You stood there, watching him, you didn’t think you’d be this helpless when you walked into the café today.

Yuji quickly came out from behind the counter with the croissant and a small selection of spreads that he knows you like. He then guided you to the seat you’re fond of, asking about your day and how you’re feeling. Sweet Yuji even pulled out the chair for you, too! Oh, your heart can’t possibly take this.

He set down the still warm croissant in front of you and smiled at you again. “I’ll go make that drink for you now, okay? If you need anything else, please call for me!”

“Thank you,” you sighed, looking up at him. Today sure was something.

“Anything for you, cutie,” Yuji winked. “I’ll be right back!”

Your heart almost stopped for the umpteenth time today. You felt heat rushing back into your cheeks, muttering a small “yeah” to Yuji before shyly turning away.

You’re not sure if you’re able to return here again after the mess that was today. You snuck a glance at Yuji who was humming away behind the counter making your drink. Then you looked at Fushiguro-san who had just finished playing with the dogs; he turned to you as he was walking, you chalked it up to some sort of delusion or hallucination when you thought you saw him wink at you before disappearing into the back.

No, yeah, you’re definitely coming back. 

i like to think that toji's nice and chill in this au because everything is nice and chill that is why he is the way he is uwu

he just looks scary kinda like a bear uwu

aged up! adult! yuji because i want it to be

also I'm a huge advocate for toji/ita actually so that's why they're like that in the story

this route is supposed to be yuji x reader x toji for me 🥺 LOL

harem au when? they all want you 10/10 best route

also, i couldn't fit it in the story but toji can be read as a brother to megumi rather than dad. ofc he can still be megupapa but i thought oniisan toji is very good very cute too

yuji and sukuna are twins but contrary to popular hcs i hc sukuna is baby brother uwu

panda is panda in this au i like to think uwu

choso is biggest bro in the itadori family, followed by eso and kechizu

it's actually a very rowdy time when reader eventually has to sit down to have dinner with the itadori brothers as his official lover

[from-dre]

Many Million Dreams Ago • Ch. 6 of 10

“Your girlfriend doesn’t look too happy today,” other employees would sometimes say to me.

“Oh, that’s just how it is if she isn’t smiling,” I explained. It was true. If she wasn’t beaming with joy from ear to ear, she had a sense of annoyed anger. The smile she wore though—, it made all of that wash away and even sparked something angelic in her.

We’d plan on going out to romantic dinners every once in a while. We’d get to the place, take our seats, and immediately feel like we were more grown-up than ever before in our lives. We spoke at length about this and that while going over the menu and deciding which meal best suited our given mood for the night. Inevitably, the waiter would ask for our drink orders as well and with that—, we’d decide on two very mature choices. Wine or fancy margaritas or something else that seemed to fit with our vibe. I had reached the point in my journey where whoever I was dating and I could enjoy a glass of Chardonnay and not use it as an excuse to completely forget about tomorrow. It was a nice reminder that I too, was finally growing up.

When we weren’t out trying new restaurants or circulating through our favorite ones, we’d make a stop at the local church on Sunday mornings. It was surreal—, being in such an important place with such an important person by my side and all the while, knowing that there was no chance of ruining our good energy as soon as we’d step back out into the shining sunlight. Memories would sometimes come flooding back in; an old flame, a prior church, so many broken pieces of our hearts left out in those empty parking lots. It was just another example of how far I’d truly gotten.

That Christmas felt especially special. We’d both packed as many gifts as possible underneath my white light-wrapped tree I’d kept in the corner of my living-room which gave the entire place a nice, warm glow. I got her a couple of new outfits that I knew matched her style; dark army-greens and Earthy-browns. She’d gift-wrapped a huge rectangular-shaped board and upon opening it I saw a beautiful black and white picture of us kissing blown up to poster-sized dimensions and neatly framed all around.

“This is amazing,” I said to her, surprised at how artful the photograph turned out. It was from the very beginning of our relationship. Now we’d have a keepsake from that time-period forever hanging on my bedroom wall opposite my bed so that it’d be the first thing we’d see when waking up in the morning.

Even though I was beginning to feel a certain sort of joy again, the days were starting to blend into each other—, restaurants, movies, even going to church began seeming mundane. Like we’d already done it a thousand times before. It wasn’t that I didn’t enjoy the outings and especially the company, but I was getting the faint feeling that we were becoming stuck. That this was it—, there was nowhere else to really go. No level to rise to, no separate stage to reach. We’d found out almost everything there was to find out about each other and now we just sat in silence, waiting for the night to roll around so we could head back off to sleep. Finally, she snapped me out of my constant daydreaming by asking a very grown-up, very mature question—, something I was far from having the answer to.

“So what’s your five-year goal look like?,” she seriously said. I had no clue as to what that even entailed. I understood the point of having such a plan, but I was the last person who’d ever truly considered it before.

“I’m..., not sure,” I admitted. I knew I’d at least want to move somewhere different again. That I’d need a change of scenery sooner or later—, and that I even wanted her to be there for it, but other than that, I was just a shadow sifting itself from former faults. I was still healing in a way, still dreaming that everything would somehow circle around and I’d be able to become all I’d fallen so short of long ago. It didn’t take much time for her to follow-up the question with something even deeper.

“We should look into getting homeowners’ insurance,” she suggested. I had no idea how little I actually knew about being a responsible adult. No wonder I’d been such an ineligible bachelor before. Still, she saw something special in me and that went a long way in my trying to appease her expectations for future plans.

“Yeah—, we should,” I finally said of the insurance. I just wanted to make her happy—, to make sure she didn’t regret the decision to open up her heart to me.

“My friend wants to have us over for dinner,” she unexpectedly said one day. “She’s getting married next September and wants me in the wedding, so we have to go.” She’d already been preparing her speech—, this was something very important to her and I needed to be on board one-hundred percent.

“Okay,” I reluctantly agreed, knowing I’d have to be on my best behavior around the prospective spouses. It’s not that I didn’t want to go, I liked being involved in her world, with her friends. They’d just lived a different type of life than I had. If they only knew, I’d think to myself, remembering all the wasted nights of being wasted and all the hazy days that’d follow. I was so much more acceptable now—, dressed better, spoke more sensibly, acted a touch above my previous years. Still—, the lit embers inside my soul burned onward, letting me know with each exhale of thick smoke that something still raged within. That young rebel never really did completely disappear—, he’d just fallen into a deep sleep that nobody else could wake him up from. How do I get back there? Do I even want to go back there at all? I didn’t know the answers to the many things which kept my mind racing in the middle of the night. All I knew was that once the sun went back down, I’d be laying next to her again—, and that she liked who I was.

The day arrived that we’d be heading to her friend’s new house. I maintained keeping my butterflies in check, knowing I was representing her and wanted to do as good of a job as possible in making her proud to show me off. We arrived and I readied myself to be the person I’d always known I could be—, sharp, stylish, and somewhat-cultured at the very least. The door opened and beyond it was a cozy atmosphere that just oozed nearly-newlywed love. Above the fireplace stood two wooden capital letters, one for each of their first names. The kitchen was neatly organized and the dinner table was beautifully set up for four people. It was all so—, grown-up. I needed to act mature and make sure that this was all very routine and customary for me—, to have such friends that bought nice homes in nice neighborhoods and lived nice, normal lives.

“Let’s eat,” said the fiancées. We took our seats and spoke at length about new movies, books we’d read, and slightly touched on when my girlfriend and I would tie the knot ourselves. My stomach slightly dropped at the question. Not because it was a completely foreign concept, but because I wasn’t anywhere near ready for that sort of thing at this stage in my life. I’d already looked down that path in the past and almost took the first few steps towards it, but now—, I was farther away from it than ever before.

We made our way back home and so, for the second time in my life, the arguments didn’t take long to follow. We’d been growing weary of one another’s mannerisms for a while and though I still found most of hers somewhat charming, she was probably getting fed up with mine. She could tell that I wasn’t as excited about things as I’d once been—, that the ditch of real life that I’d fallen into was keeping me stuck inside of it like quicksand. She needed to intercede with something—, anything. So she did.

“Just know—, if you’re not at that wedding, this relationship...” she trailed off. I knew what she’d meant. I’d felt it myself for a while. Still—, the thought of actually attending the event itself brought me down into a depression I couldn’t tell her about. Again—, I had nobody to confide in. I wouldn’t have been able to explain myself anyway—, that it was the atmosphere, the designer dresses, everything working together to remind one of what it truly meant to marry their soulmate, once and for all. I didn’t want to go to something like that. I’d been around weddings my entire life and always let myself daydream about my own someday. This was a new chapter of my life though—, and from here on out, I wasn’t allowing myself to lose anymore time doing something like that.

All of my negativities, pessimism, and destructive depression came back like a wrecking ball. She noticed all of it and didn’t know what advice to possibly give me that’d snap me out of my self-loathsome behavior and back into the real world she’d helped me face all this time. We’d begun arguing over the smallest and simplest things and always went on to regret it later.

On another random night, we’d been bickering for some time and had retreated to separate rooms of the apartment when the sound of her sobbing shook me back into the present moment. I walked into the bedroom and saw her curled up underneath the covers facing the wall.

“What’s wrong?,” I asked from the heart.

“I wish we could go back to when we first met—,” she said. “I wish things could start turning around for us.” I knew she’d been getting tired of the constant fighting, but this was a new side of her I hadn’t yet encountered. I felt a strong sense of empathy rush over me—, if only it would’ve lasted a while longer.

The arguments kept piling up—, one on top of another. It was a different type of personal disappointment though. One that seemed more advanced than the many nights I’d spent awake so many years prior. This time, it felt more consequential. Like I wasn’t just living for today or tonight but that my actions would have an affect on future emotions and moments altogether.

The perfect example of that came one morning when we’d both woken up with incredibly negative energies surrounding us. The way she rolled out of bed, got dressed, and was applying her make-up all felt so forced. Like she didn’t want to be there at all. Maybe it was just my imagination or maybe I’d been right all along about her fleeting feelings—, but either way, I couldn’t take much more of it.

“Problem?,” I asked her while she smoked before leaving to go to work.

“Not one—,” she coldly replied, smashing the rest of her lit cigarette into the black ash tray with all the hostility she’d been holding inside her and storming out of the bedroom. I just quietly stared up at the ceiling before noticing an empty cup on the nightstand. I reached for it, snatched it off the table, and hurled it as hard as I could at the hanging portrait of us kissing—, shattering the protective surface into pieces and leaving a giant mark on the photograph itself. Not two seconds went by before she came back into the bedroom, wanting to see what the loud sound was. She noticed the broken Christmas present she’d had specially made and just looked back at me with the most disappointed eyes I’d ever seen her make. Years later, she’d go on to tell me;

“That was the moment I started letting you go.”

Some time passed by but the wound never truly healed. Finally, on a day that seemed on its surface to resemble all the others before it, I was half-asleep on the living-room couch when I felt her presence walking right up to me. She bent down to kiss me on my forehead before standing back up. It’d be the last one we’d ever share together. She walked towards the front door to leave as I slowly began waking up. I could tell something was different about the way she’d let her lips touch my skin for so much longer than usual. There was an added sadness lingering in the air, probably from the night before or our last fight.

“So, tonight then?,” I asked of when we’d see each other again.

“Probably not,” she said with slight attitude.

“Why?” She just shrugged from the bottom of the stairs. That was enough to let me know something was wrong. Like we’d been heading down this road for a while but now we were finally at its end. I couldn’t make too much sense of it. I just knew I wanted to change direction. I wanted to change myself and my relationship and my life overall—, I just didn’t know where to begin. A thousand things were piling up inside my mind and I wanted to say all of them at once, but there was only one phrase that I could come up with. “Have fun at the wedding,” I said, slamming the door shut. I couldn’t see it, I couldn’t make out the tearing sound, but I knew—, on the other side in the stairwell was a heart breaking in two, just like mine had been for a while now. An already-broken bridge began crumbling apart, piece by piece—, falling into the nothingness underneath. There was no more structure linking our two worlds together. We were finally on our own—, again. A familiar feeling to say the least.

Things settled down after that. The apartment grew more silent by the day. The friends coming over got more impatient with my gloomy nature. Wine lost its taste but not its effect. The bed felt empty but not the sleep. Anything to pass another day. Anything to make it through another mundane week. I quickly realized that there was nothing else left for me in either the city or the state itself. The environments I’d made less-than-perfect memories in remembered my mistakes all too well. They’d remind me of them whenever I’d pass through. I needed a change of scenery, a change of lifestyle. It’d been time for me to move away for years, but only recently had I caught on to the notion for myself. There was only one place on the planet which could cure me of my despondency. I was finally headed towards my own personal heaven; L-trains, taxicabs, and crowds galore.

[only-lonely-lovers]

09.06.2022

tags: blowjobs, public sex, pantomime, kissing

notes: notably sentimental ~first time~ for twins. this is PART 1, there's a little more in PART 2

つ：-pretends the white line continuing up isn't just lighting but is amane's yukata parting all the way up his leg showing up to his thigh-

あ：Just a little flash for you all a taste

つ：licks from your knee to your hip in a long line

あ：so that's what we're doing…

つ：HIEEE

あ：I'm listening though

つ：we're getting... cotton candy.....

あ：sounds nice… Are you excited?

つ：hai it comes in two colors

あ：It's whimsical like that. all colorful and fluffy. really food meant for an event like this

really just suits the night. It's like how it's exciting to just get a little of everything, the yakisoba is more exciting to have on a night like this. and we can meander with it or sit down and eat in da grass….

つ：un un

あ：and we get to do this all for… hours…!! into the night

You really get the impression Amane was in a good mood all night

つ：yes.. so pep in his step, loving another year's tanabata festival….

a boy with no problems, nothing on his mind but enjoying the night. it must have been so exciting to see the dinosaur masks among the options and both get one. i wonder who saw them first

whether amane sees them first… and buys 2, places one on tsukasa… or whether tsukasa sees them first, and is so excited, while amane simply walks to the vendor and pays for 2 while he's ogling them excitedly and rushing to put it on…

saying something like "we have to pay for it first….!"

あ：either is kyooot… you could imagine Tsukasa spotting it first and being simply overstimulated by his own excitement on Amane's behalf

it-- it's am… it's amane's favorite thing out of all themasks here… he would definitely want this one!!!

Amane handles the transaction… but after taking a sec to look it over, it's like hell yeah though aw, tsukasa these ARE cool…

つ：THESE WEREHNT HERE LAST YEAR THEYRE NEW

あ：an emotion like. nods. that's right sweetie. [puts it over face for a sec] [poses] RHHH….

つ：RUSHES TO PUT ON HIS fumbles a little. gets it on. it crunches a little in his hands, the thin plastic, indents from how he holds it firmly RRRURURUR!!!

あ：[peeks one eyeball out] Woow…. [this is exactly what i wanted yes.] Pretty good though i think mine was better. still good though. [leans in and tonks the noses together]

つ：nuzzle nuzzle nuzzle nose [guy at booth staring] [wishing you'd move and make room]

あ：obnoxious children time [throws head back] [headbutts]

つ：POH nearly falls into the booth display. Amane catches his wrist quickly. NOW the festival stall vendor shoos them out for being troublesome and we run out, holding hands. skeedaddle style

あ：deemed pests… appropriately…. i bet they really are like rats running around, to many people. weird bug eyed twins

つ：you do not like to see two unattended kids….

a funny trajectory for the night is actually like. SEEING some young couple doing stuff behind a booth while trying to just like running away from the vendor all silly. youve got your masks on half-way falling off and you stop and pant, pretending you've been like, running from something more dangerous cuz its exhilarating. then you stop and look up and theres some blowjob teens staring at you where you wandered to.

tsukasa is just like looks cluelessly. amane is like OBSERVING THE HAPPENINGS COHERENTLY WITH BRAINCELLS

あ：experiencing . the sight

very much like hyuEUGH but also i think its like. stands there completely silently like . when griffin is like we're in enemy territory

つ：maybe a good vibe would be to… grab tsukasa's wrist and run in opposite direction like a madman, and be like. . . [gets.. manic actually] HA HA HA HAHAHAH!!!

HAHAHAHA!!!! running like madman thru tanabata with tsukasa dragged along cluelessly

the adrenaline of having already been running, and then…. this…. its way too funny. overstimulating. horny

あ：sounding hysterical for a sec lol. just really like… going to run into your lungs burn and you're catching your breath loudly scampered away from the crowds

つ：got yourself sequestered away… then clamp your hands on your knees for a second.. then maybe, on tsukasa's shoulders….? just to be like HAW HAW in his face a little kflsd;g blast him with your hot breath

i think seeing amane out of breath and running so hard always makes tsukasa feel feelings…

あ：wait its like my drawing. this emotion

crazy guy voice UAHHHG FJKDGH

つ：JUST HORNY AMANE THINGS!!!

あ：ahaha… I C.. i cant believe w- hhh….[ruffling own hair fervidly]

but you know ithink amane is weird and genuinely also likes feeling like wheezy and his body burning in a moment like this… you can feel a bizarre nostalgia somehow, for coughing heavily and being all hot in the face well, you just feel GOOD rn….

つ：TSUKASA! THOSE TEENS WERE…. having… ………………. [quiet] s*x……….! …… hahahahaahaAHAhaha ears burning, hot across face mmm… tsukasa just likes to observe him like this….

あ：sucking in breath in sharp gasps sometimes. swallows audibly. wipes sweat off face. grabs tsukasa by the front of his yukata, rocks from side to side, like bouncing on either of his feet makes you wobble

s-- ss*x…… ah ah, i bet they had to, ah, sneak to do it, they probably cant do it anywhere else, this is probably theirbest chance huh…. hahah….

つ：best chance? sneak?

あ：gets like this

well yeah… I mean, there's no way their parents would let them do it Otherwise, they'd just be doing it at home, right but -- but you're not supposed to til you're older… And all that.

You know how people are about, sex, don't you…? [uncontrollably] baka. ww [grabs either side of cheeks and plays with face]

つ：un…. [thinking, while amane holds him] [sticks tongue out, thoughtful, looking around] is it fun to do it at Tanabata? [thinking about 'cant do it anywhere else' and 'sneaking' and stuff… but does that mean it isnt fun?]

pulls candy apple he's been holding up to his mouth and starts mouthing it, stimming, hardly meaningfully eating it

あ：Ohhh… [releases, just rests a hand atop his head] it's fun. It's fun anywhere.

[thinking more himself… hums.] I mean, if they're doing it in the first place, they must at least feel like it's worth it. The risk might make it more fun…

I bet they feel… clever, like "oh, everyone thinks we're just out here playing games… but really… we're…." [sticks tongue out]

つ：amane is thinking so abstractly to tsukasa, tsukasa is like. thinking. is the weather nice for it. like is it warm. are the lights nice and the fireworks. like is it a good environment for that. much like one would wonder if its good to like do any activity in any random place

people probably do it inside but is it nice feeling outside. he's thinking but amane's answer addresses none of this, so he's like hmmmmm…. it's fun anywhere…? wow….. thinking …. risk? more fun? trying to compute….

[stupidly] are they gonna do it all night? or do they stop

あ：poor tsukasa. Your brother jumps to thinking about… things like underhandedness. gomen.

gets kinda spaced out thinking all night like geez… [8 yo thinking] Iii…. [voice gets smaller] i dunno if you can do it all night… maybe. if it's good. if they're good at it. ?

つ：[sortof thinking] [mouthing apple] should we do something we can't do at home? [amane's so interested….]

あ：uh…………………… ah………………………………. m………….. [feels . confused. ] ….. like what…?

its suddenly like. wait. what can we do that we cant do at home. [is like horny so these are difficult things to parse]

つ：ah, I dunno, something…… [literally thinking completely vaguely, brainless] like that? or something you wanna do?

あ：[just stares]

つ：[receives nothing, has no empathy, just looks around mouthing apple]

あ：… [shakes head] [stretches arms behind back] Ah… Sorry. I'm just still thinking about it. [quickly] the sex. stuff.

I can't think of anything that exciting anything, AS exciting, you know? Mnn. [crouches. flops back onto the ground. sticks legs up]

つ：looqs gets on hands and knees to join, observing

あ：ahh, it's not fair though, those kids were older… [rambling, mind wandering] it's always, like high schoolers doing stuff, you know. or middle schoolers. but we're not there yet… [sighs]

つ：[leaning on elbows, on stomach, looking at Amane] but its already not allowed, right? you said. for them. you have to wait to break rules? but people can't know theyre doing it, you said?

あ：Huhm. well, no, that's not it. chigau chigau. um, I think it's just easier, cuz…

つ：may as well tell tsukasa you cant steal until you are 16.

あ：………………………………………………. [talking out his ass] cuz………. there's more uh. there's more people who wanna do it…? you need two bodies. [seriously] at least.

つ：oh.

あ：i guess… i guess i don't know if our classmates ever think about this stuff… [makes a face, like ew lol] but uhh, it's not like we even know anyone…. so it wouldnt matter… its uh, complicated, i guess

つ：we gotta know someone? [tilts head] we're two people thats enough, the amount? isn't it?

あ：[it's so direct that. like amane actually cannot even feel anything about this. it's just like, tilts head and kinda lopsided smiles] Tsukasa…

つ：[mouths]

あ：like: oh honey…

つ：he's comically direct… thinking so simply about the rules of this

あ：It's enough, yeah. hahh. [just laughs. but like rolls to his side.]

つ：rolls with him, opposite way, just enjoying the grass… the, candied apple gets grass stuck to it…. he looks at it, then abandons it sortof carelessly….

あ：but like. [you know what? i'm not even going to address the fleet (brothers. incest. 2 boys)] … Tsukasa. are you really thinking about it

[almost like, i gotta own you a little bit about that thing you said actually]

つ：[very simply] I wanna have fun at the festival [picks some grass, looks at it]

あ：Don't we all.

つ：[the grass has become candied a little, some red off the apple melted off onto it… candied grass… wow]

I want you to have fun at the festival, Amane [looks up from grass blade]

あ：[i face you seriously and i grab your face] but think about it You remember what you saw right. yeah? [nods your head for you]

つ：looks into eyeballs

あ：Do you really think we could do that?

つ：ueh-- [i mean he didn't see it well or coherently. its like. a kinder version fo birds blurry memories of wieners all sortof distorted]

did they have something we don't? [like… a tool or toy… thinking] you dont need anything else, right? they didn't have anything else?

あ：no, that's not it… Wait, I'm wording this poorly. Let's try again I think you're thinking too much about , like technical stuff … but would you like it?

つ：[thinks… about how excited Amane's been… about this, how much he was laughing… it's like he saw people playing a really exciting game and got excited…] [nods, nods, nods, nods]

あ：[walked tsukasa all the way here himself but feels like. a little slow when he just nods.]

つ：I'd like it! Amane would like it?

あ：[covers face with hands] [turns away wordlessly]

つ：[its funny, the other foible is they dont know what side of it the other is imagining…] it might be a lil complicated for amane, lol

あ：We're not discussing it no. its like eughdfjkghdf

つ：like . you dont wanna-- 'do' all of it

あ：[dramatically] I'd only like it ONE WAY though [crosses leg] [is in denial about this conversation like. i've mentally filed this away as , just some silly weird convo we're having]

つ：[oh no, i made Amane… mad?] we can do it your way you can show me what to do! [PROPS self up on palms over him, giiiiiiiiiiii's down]

あ：[face starting to burn again… but it's not, uh, exhilarating this time. it's… embarrassing.]

No, iii don't gotta do that. i KNOW for a fact actually, you-- you must be imagining it wrong… you don't really know what you're talking about, you wouldn't like it

つ：[spiritually, ears going down. then springing back up] But I would! … and Amane can teach me! [thinking… very hard… touches, own lip] [trying to visualize] it was… a kind of…. 'chu'…. right? [there was a mouth thing going on…. and a kissing face]

あ：ohmm time to . blood pressure drop. hmm…. mouth dry… but kinda like. braindead. nods

in own mind, replaying it. seeing the… the silhouette… fsszzzz…. echoing words of tsukasa earlier, proposing they do something they can't do at home. pulse getting louder between ears. starting to feel like… suspended

つ：Its a secret thing, right? [looks around] I won't tell anyone. it can only happen at the festival, right?

あ：blinks heavily. nods.

つ：we should do something we can only do at the festival!

あ：looks around. we are indeed, away from everyone and everything. and no one is going to come looking for them.

つ：and maybe amane can even think.. that... he'd... do a better job playing it off/recovering, than those stupid teens.....

あ：my little pea is sizzling. my own stupid thoughts. of like. who would even expect it. we were supposed to just be playing games. blah blah…

つ：they're brothers, so visibly, and young, it… maybe it would be even easier to pretend anything else was going on indeed, who would… suspect it

あ：it's like everything he said is loaded into a gun who would… who would…? think….?

つ：you see one teen girl on her knees before a boy… you know what is going on… but….. …… it wouldn't… 'look like' anything… ….if it is only teens who do that stuff… not…. little kids adults would just think they were sneaking some cookies or something

あ：temptation and impulse… it is descending on him like a cinder block on the chest but I like the atmosphere of going from being so foosy and like ugh to like. just getting 100 yard stare and silent has no instructions

but … clutches . the front of yukata the… PLACES FINGER OVER OWN LIPS AND THEN OVER TSUKASA'S LIPS. WORDLESS SHHHHHHH.

つ：STARES

あ：Ehmm you like the reality of Amane having NO GRACE... fumbling mentally, like, pos.. positions....

つ：suddenly its like cant talk gotta steal gotta steal fast

あ：its descending upon me how easy it is for my yukata to shuff out of the way like oh my god i'm just wearing little boy shorts [ahmm my tummy is so tight from da apprehension ohhh]

つ：tsukasa is like ouhh the quicktime event uhmng. ? raises to, raises onto knees-- oh-- wait one was standing, one wasn't, amane.. is standing, so I……

あ：I think at least, Amane assists, like… going to pat Tsukasa's head and kind of, indicate, knees yeah… this height…

つ：crawls to... closer... thinking like ah, it IS familiar... it WAS like this [picture in brain becoming less fuzzy]

あ：[grabby hands... give me your face]

つ：ooouhh… I get to…. ….. I get to be the …. 'chu'…. one…..? little sparkles in eyes, thinking this….

あ：kiss boy….

つ：amane really feels excited….. grabbing him so much, wao… its really that kind of hands-on sortof game…! ahhhh as nearing the yukata happens, its so warm…. its like a window in summer, with the curtains drawn, when you can feel the sun baring down on the back of the curtains….

あ：radiating heat, like a beacon…

つ：thoughtlessly, he rubs his face into the material of the yukata simply 'cuz he's nuzzly…. and its warm

あ：heep-!!! sucks in a sound. gets really STIFF, and more on toes, like standing to-attention. if he weren't so tongue tied, he'd be like tsssuuuKAS!A!! but I think Amane really has a lump in his throat. hands grapple around restlessly on tsukasa's head, pattapatpat

its just like jesus…. tsukasa is really bringing his face closer…?? is he really that ready… i mean, what if he didn't like it…. [suddenly] oh but, i'll, kill him, he'll have to deal with it djkshg IDC…..

つ：I'll make fun of him for it being his idea if he doesnt like it i'll be like. well what did you think, baka i warned you!

あ：I told you so.. ugh… you owe me!!

つ：you should think before you talk, when you don't know what you're talking about!

あ：[thinking all this but looking like a scared rabbit slipping hands under own yukata]

つ：contentedly rubs head against amane's warm thigh while amane's hand fiddles under the yukata…

after a beat is like oh, [distantly] right, it's…. sex… so it involves his…….

あ：it is such a can't talk gotta steal sitch… ughh i gotta… i gotta….

lol the thought of tsukasa being like 💭I will help! reaches under and tugs down shorts but to Amane it feels so. like being pantsed. but sexual

つ：suddenly becomes proactive

あ：😭like what the hell

つ：RIGHT THAT PART…! suddenly thinks harder about what sex is just reaches under bottom of yukata and tugs. like s. so firmly that amane's cock catches on the fabric and it pulls against it, which is like HIEIEIKGHK. Amane makes a noise and Tsukasa quickly puts a finger to his own lips🤫

あ：…….💢 ugh this is going to make him impatiently grasp for his own cock and grab tsukasa by the jaw and cram a thumb in to pry mouth open. SHOVE.

つ：get back at you!!!! you cannot outpace me DONT YOU TELL ME TO BE QUIET finger in mouth does shut tsukasa up. chuu….. slides tongue against thumb while hooked forward

あ：, experiences this. ah tongue across finger sensation, distracting in its own way. like a little zap

つ：gazing up at Amane's response…..

あ：actually cute to think abt just getting distracted for a sec…

つ：is this part of… sex…? don't know…. are fingers involved? he doesn't remember…. rolls tongue over knuckle…… salty… a little grass-blood, a bitter hint of that from amane rolling around…. scent of dirt on his palms

ah, can feel his fingernail, smooth… traces tongue over that, it glides so smoothly…. ah, wait… chuuu… its a chuu thing…. wraps lips around… kisses, they make you pucker… like you're eating lemon!

あ：Ah, it's cute, it's like even this little gesture could feel complex to Tsukasa, such a tactile experience. many senses stimulated Amane watches… rubs the pad of his finger against seam of gums and teef…

つ：and from the mouth of his yukata, the sleeve, blooms the heat of Amane's body, with every movement of his arm.. its like being in front of a very dull, dying hairdryer, sometimes a hot breeze puffed out as the sleeve sways or compresses

tsukasa looks at the patterning on it, the nice dark colors…. Amane was suited to the dark color

あ：Everything scarily oscillates between feeling like it's happening in a rush, to achingly slow, grinding to a halt…

Thoughts race, as much as they are just vanished, head is an empty auditorium, silence. Just having a moment where he is touching the inside of Tsukasa's mouth. It's so weird… this doesn't feel too unlike… an interaction they could have, outside of this

…. tugs Tsukasa forward, and more decidedly positions finger to prop his mouth open. get it… get it over… Bring your mouth over, upon..

つ：ah, this isn't the final kiss, right, right…..

あ：Going to feel scary, once the wetness from Tsukasa's breath is felt, the humid exhale… reigniting that sense of-- heep-!!

つ：it smells so different from the rest of Amane…. not only unfamiliar, but not an everyday scent… not the usual sweaty scent, not like his body, nor his hair…

not even like when his arms are held over his head sleeping beside tsukasa in summer… not even that scent.. a really different scent. audible sniffs.

feels like the cloud of his own breath meets the cloud of amane's… body part, it's vaporous all around

あ：s-sniff?? smell??? smelling it-??? the sm.. the smell...??

つ：the inside of his yukata…. also is a prison of the smell, and every movement wafts it out, too.

hard to believe he couldn't smell this before, actually, even standing beside him

so distinct, and so much of it. hot in the air. maybe the yukata traps it all…. oh, his shorts, too

あ：An extra layer, hugging it all against his body… Accumulated scent….

… Tsukasa surely doesn't mean to but, lingering and drinking in details really leaves Amane feeling teased, like, mhgh…. he's really not… uhh, mentally prepared for this sort of thing, hasn't actually thought hard about self IN sex, it's only just starting to crystalize you know… puberty… so i don't think he can repress a whine… but it feels unfair.. like.. ugh but it shouldnt be me who needs to be reminded to keep quiet… YOURE. ..,, why i cant … if you just. hhurried up…

つ：like what, aren't you, serious, about doing it….

あ：[hissing whisper] Tsukasa…! … just put your mouth on it….

つ：[snaps out of the haze] [goes to say 'hai' but realizes he's supposed to be quiet] [simply, ………… kisses it] … and then rolls tongue out under it, peering up at Amane

well, the finger…. he was touching my tongue….. that was like an example, I get it the finger is like a thingie

あ：The foolish thing was, thinking that this would 'help'. Amane nearly has to bite his tongue to choke back more sound -- LOUDER too, crackling up his throat. body shivers…

ahm, but, his eyes roll back dramatically too, it's like sss..

つ：WHOA--! looks possessed!! whoa!! what'd his eyes do……

ah, wraps lips around it, wait, kiss, proper…. the kissing motion naturally sucks amane a little further in ah, how much goes in, I don't know… --AH it tastes, saltier than his finger, ah, it's really, really warm……

the skin, smoother than the ribbled divets in his knuckles, pliable, moves over the shape of it.. right, right! [forgot. he has one of these] yea the skin does that sortof thing, it can move… sortof…. experiments with it, right…. it's this part…. slides tongue firmly over and back, feeling skin tug……

あ：It f. It feels good. It feels good. Unfathomable, the immediacy of the intensity, it's-- he's just not ready to, feel so much, concentrated, feeling, in his cock. Everything at the tip feels like it sends pulses of heat, p.. pain? to the gut, up your spine, you can't stop fidgeting!! A-ah. Hot. the mouth his hot. It feels like Tsukasa drank tea. but he didn't… that's just, that's just the mouth, lips… Sssoft. Soft? Never really consciously thought a boy could have a, nice soft mouth, it's not what you think. [stupid, reductive]

Shifting weight on feet, it kind of makes Amane pivot, sway like he's in a dance -- it pulls himself out of Tsukasa's mouth a bit, rests more against the edge of his mouth. Brushes against lips lightly, side to side… but even that feels really good, since… when does it feel this good. It's a body part that's always on him, it's always been known to be like, sensitive, taxonomically, yeah, it is… But what is this-? Scary. But magical…

つ：pauses, letting Amane move it against him as he wishes, imagining its another tutorial, just like the finger….

あ：It's a magical sort of evening, actually, isn't it…? Beautiful sights and… exciting moments, ah, so much fun had… with… Tsukasa… [reduced] It felt good, to be with Tsukasa, all evening, never wanted to be too far away. It's… it's nice to have… this focused attention, time… It's like, they're in their own little bubble.

Shakes head. Trying to gather self, ah, eyes squint. It's like there's a warm fog… Ruffles Tsukasa's scalp. … what a familiar gesture…! Astounded by it, dumbly. Ruffa ruffa ruffa

つ：oouuuo i like a ruffa IT MEAN I DO GOOD??? wiggles a little. tugs hands on the draping cloth of amane's parted yukata, against his either thigh. he's having fun, isn't he…?

あ：Maybe this is fine… Mmmaybe Tsukasa could just, grant him this little taste of excitement. Why wait… and ah, why not… like this, what more trouble would there be to get into-? Right? [not thinking very logically…. getting wrapped up in own pleasure]

つ：nobody has to ever find out, and its only for Tanabata....

あ：Tries to focus… Slooowly… pushes hips forward… Like the- like… hump gesture… yeah… Pull hips back… move them forward…

つ：like the colored chicks and the masks, it'll go away after today, when the stalls disappear in the morning….

あ：An indulgence… like, as much as maybe mom or dad wouldn't like how much food you guys bought and ate really or, this and that, too many sweets… but who needs to know…

つ：tsukasa tries to keep up… take the hint, of pressure, as it pushes against lips, I'll kiss it into my mouth, again, then…..

あ：Catching up mentally for a sec like, ugh , wait, s. sex. SEX motions… mghh… shove.. ah, wanna do it… like, like TEENS do it, not tepid!! but n. but no, I could do it more…

つ：what is even the point of doing a risky thing carefully

あ：I could do it better [has nooo metric for what that would even mean]

つ：a risky thing. it's already a risk whether it's full force or weak, it's the same degree of risk, it's the same--! he could do it better than teens

あ：all this swirling around in his head… while he clutches at Tsukasa's face, two hands planted firmly. and bucks forward -- though.. for all the resolve, it's quite clumsy, he's not… thinking to make sure they're lined up. but it's probably entirely exciting for Tsukasa -- Amane seems so purposeful nonetheless

Cock kind of crushes against outside of lip, clumsily bumping up Scent is coating Tsukasa's skin…

つ：scent is so strong…. all he can smell anymore, the grass is gone, the festival booths are gone, the fried oil scent and the candied apple nearby, gone, nothing but this new fog….. pushing into his skull, vision blurring, it's like a steaming window inside of his head

exciting to be held, to be directed-- want to be directed.. please show me don't have to be polite while showing me, can always push me around, just want to know what to do, don't want to mess up, don't want to be called stupid….. want to do it well, make it nice, it's only for Tanabata

why did Amane want to know if I'd like it… it doesn't matter does this mean Amane is liking it?

so purposeful-- is it because-- he is frustrated, or, because it's good… these thoughts finally make tsukasa's throat make a small noise, which buzzes around amane

mysteriously… more overwhelming than usual, and he doesn't know why… the feeling of wanting to do something well, for Amane

the feeling of anxiety inside of him, is not unusual…. but it accosts him differently. pulling his chest a little… its like all the things that can't fit in his foggy hot brain are tangling in his chest with nowhere else to go

あ：Focused boy… just really thinking about… his performance. Ehmm, wanna be impressive… Shuffling about, adjusting his posture ever so slightly, trying to adjust how he's balancing his weight. Scuffing zori against the ground. Bump, bump… He has the looping gif of the teens in his head, though they're comically becoming less vivid in Amane's mind, like guff, like your brain can't retain too much about them. They've given you the information you need… becoming slippery in your mind… Just reduced to silhouettes, motions. But it's also being used to think about what the two of them must look like right now…

The idea of discretion is actually carelessly discarded, in favor of obsessing over how much their postures, everything, must undeniably resemble sex right now. Tantalizing. Looks just like it….

This is all occurring before Tsukasa makes a sound, I think. Because that sensation is a new thing to feel overwhelmed about -- vvv… vibrations…!!

BUz..z… buzzing…!! All around…!! Feels like Tsukasa hummed all throughout his body…!! it reverberates… creates a shiver, while he really leans on his tippy-toes. startling… but ah, sssso cool. [braindead] h.ttt..t. h… hot. hot hot. It's muffled, because… cock is in his mouth… blocking the sound…

Pat pat pat pat pat… Pets hair, dances hands all around. Uahhg.h….

つ：uueuueee hhhe feels excited, Amane, he doesn't move like that any other time….

WISH I KNEW WHAT INCREASING THE THING MEANT, how to do it more harder better…. doing something so cluelessly is difficult for Tsukasa!!! the feeling in the chest is so much!! like worms wriggling tickling his lungs and heart, hah, haaahhhhg.. whines again, like an overstimulated puppy

he likes it he likes it, right? not, , impatient because i'm-- too slow, it's because Amane is excited?? I don't wanna be quiet--!! pulling at his yukata…. mmm but i gotta be quiet… thats the only thing he told me

あ：Ugh… Amane is just soooo… pleased, on this evening, he's more open and receptive in ways. He's also just so young, and sexuality is so new… I think the end result is feeling like UAHHh uahhh i wish i could hug tsukasa right now. you're doing me such a favor lol-!!!

ah poor Tsukasa though… Even experienced adults can struggle during sex, and they have more communication going on….

つ：amane's role is simply to feel like god this is fucking awesome tsukasa is such a trooper i would not do this AOAUooo hmmmmmm

あ：your brother is no help… He thinks that, maybe you, somehow understood the noises were hot-? doing them more…? feelszzlzz goood hhghhgf.g…

つ：he really isn't getting grossed out and stopping

あ：shoves harder…

つ：can't help but make a sound in surprise, O-okoh, faster, or, d, deeper!! its nto deep enough-- ITS SUPPOSED TO BE IN ALL THE WAY, IS THAT IT? SWALLOWS TO BASE, closes the small gap until his face is pressed flush to amane's torso before him

あ：this is awesome > this is agony cock experience. but its still awesome. I think he comically was not going as 'deep' bc of like, already overwhelmed with it all. but mgngh but also oh god all the mouth… scrabbling, clawing hands grasping at Tsukasa and tugging at the fabric of his own yukata. Let's out his own whine… starts out quite strained, but is finally a sound that really escapes him. mirroring your overstimulated puppy status

really. coughs. slaps palm over own mouth for a sec.

つ：--AMANE MAKE SUCHA SOUND TOO ARE WE FEELING SAME THINGS KINDA?

あ：panting heavily into his own sweaty palm… feeling the way moisture just traps against…. feels like if you both peered at each other, you'd be… pleading eyeballs

つ：looks up so quickly with such thoughtless ferocity that Amane's cock pops clean out of his mouth with a noise that rivals the fireworks, then feels like AHH OH NO and immediately swallows it back down

あ：angh, [rub rub rub rubs own face]

つ：when your cock is small. it easily pops out and back in. such is the way of the little boy didnt think about that when you decided to have preteen sex

あ：I did not remember my baby cock.

hmm thinking… I kinda like the thought of like. amane genuinely starting to buckle so much it slike gdhf.gh. fumbles backwards to rest back against the back of a stall… or some sort of structure… but this is like a. [grabs tsukasa by the hair and moves him with me] deal

つ：need support oh god the blowjob has become dangerous and life threatening can 8 year olds die from blowjobs

あ：ahmm but you like the look… shoulders pressed back, legs more out.. chest rising and falling quickly

but i st. but i still push into mouth god help me continues whining. hiccups. maybe this is a way to die

つ：ah… agog… it. really looks like amane is…. feeling the same things….

i wish i could tell amane, that i like it and it feels good and he smells nice. can we talk now? he's talking. sortof . i want to let amane know!! I-- !!! [BRAZEN IDIOT WILLL] "Ahmah-- ne," cock drapes, drags, against his lower lip as it slips out, but he keeps it close, as close to it as he can, muffling just a little, "Ilike, it--feels, good! its good! you-- aha--!" aaouhh my head is so dizzy…. "I-- I like it, Amane!" he was worried he wouldn't, right? ah.. and tsukasa…. he wasn't even thinking about liking it, that wasn't … why…

あ：Watches on, feeling awed genuinely, at the look of it all, Tsu... Tsukasa just talking around, it, and ah, as it's out in the open air... it feels cooler, because it's wet... from Tsukasa's spit... Tsukasa's words pelt him, the tone makes him blink slowly. It takes longer to process what is being said

Tsukasa stopped to, breathlessly tell him that he liked it…? Mmh… Such a, such Tsukasa thing to do, really, get all caught up in the moment and stop what he's doing thoughtlessly. He's out of breath too… well, that makes sense, aha… Marvels as well, at the ways they feel similar. Tsukasa's face is flushed too… [reaches out and touches it compulsively] It's so much hotter than his palm… His bangs are sticking to his forehead from the sweat. The hair has gotten more ruffled, from all of Amane's grabbing and tousling… Looks fluffier… It's honestly, a messiness that suits him though. What a picture this is-! Framed by the pale of his yukata, so pristine by comparison, bright and light and delicate…

[exhales] this is, a safe space and also this Amane cannot read the commentary. but i think you could describe him as feeling something like, love struck… ugh, but he's really feeling it all, you know!! A night with your best friend. It's like fireworks in your chest!! And then getting to do something like THIS, this thrilling, and, Tsukasa likes it… ahahah…

laughs aloud. Aha….! Offvvv. Of course-! you do…

eyes squinch I was overthinking it….

つ：its simple, finally the familiar feeling of comfort comes into play, just hearing him talk as simply and directly as always....

あ：mm mmm…. crouches! touches foreheads rubs… back and forth

つ：LEAAANSS!! M!!!! "Amane….!"

あ："… haha. You smell like me." [voice low]

つ：>:o "I DO!!"

あ："It's weird…"

つ："its really strong" "its everywhere"

あ：…………………………………… [closes eyes.]

つ：[dumbly] "it all smells more right now." [beams, pleasantly]

あ："You're smelly too." defensive. "It's hot out." what do you want from me!!!

つ："I am?! oh."

あ："Yeah. I can smell you alot." [inhales.] [gets. dizzy.]

つ："I can't tell." "I can only smell you"

あ：imagine he tucked his face closer to like, crook of neck to whiff

つ：stiffens a little at being sniffened like a dog at a dog park

あ："Well, I'm letting you know, your stink is in there too."

つ：ah. well. brazenly nuzzles against Amane's cock, because there's no reason not to. feeling so pleasant. I like that Amane said he could smell himself on me… mmmm…. mmm i want. smell….

あ：cough cough ahghh ahckg hacl hakc

つ：as amane is crouching the idea of getting even lower to do this is funny tbh

あ：you duck between his legs like a cartoon ostritch

the way the dynamic simply seamlessly continues. even if you make me horny sighs. but like gets back upright pat pat.

つ：its just tsukasa…… amane while he isn't literally immediately experiencing the blowjob: it's no big deal amane in 2 sevonds experiencing the blowjob: AHAOUEUGOHGG

あ：OOO UUHE AHHH OUHGHH ouhghh eve six. somehow haughtily is just like eh whatever…. Oh it's just messing around. like whatever.

つ：tsukasa is just having his simple little good time isn't he…. hehe

ah but so pleased to have talking confirmed okay…. "Amane..!" nuzzle, nuzzle ahhh anxiety gone resolved amane… love meeeee, happy with me, playful, we are having fun

あ：rubs your shoulders "Tsukasa." curtly.

つ：SHUDDERS BUT DOESN'T KNOW WHY

あ：[tilts head.]

つ：why things feel different right now is an enigma….!

あ："…? Tsukasa…? You… okay?"

つ：laughs, breathily, "uh huh! un" paws at Amane's yukata… "I wish it was OK to do this at times other than a festival." matter of fact

あ：[looks at you with immense pity] [but then the concept like stirs around in his skull and a tumbleweed blows through amane's brain] opens mouth closes mouth opens mouth

つ：tsukasa thinks but oh well, and licks your cock

あ：aghh fh oh not again

Tsukasa you don't know this but that's actually well played. i think amane was just going to be enigmatic and quiet but feeling tongue on cock again is like ohg of hgjfkd

"Ahhgh mmmmaybe wec an just get good at sneakingg" like oh my god im not ready to leave it "It'ss hgjust gotta be a secret"

つ：mouth is hung open w cock resting on tongue, tsukasa doesn't understand what he is quite hearing. hm?

あ：hic

つ：….. …. "ih-- duhn't havf be , fessval….?"

あ："Maybe there's other eventssor….g h…." [feeling like lungs are filling up with water] "or….f fffff….. no one sns… home….?" [bumps hips]

つ：for the first time of this event simply holds amane's cock with his hand like he's never thought of this, to lift it a little away but. ilke keep it. warM? held? odd impulse and not thinking about it

ah, he bumps into tsukasa's hand…. wah, the skin movement, felt it there--! so interesting

あ：simply keeps dipping in and out of Tsukasa's palm, even as he is trying to pause

つ：…. "… we can do it at home?" wide-eyed, head tilting. hand pumps a few times on sheer instinct

あ："Mhm mh mhmh" voice gets unflatteringly high. OH ANYHT GUIHNF stamps feets

つ："really????" pumps cluelessly, its like momentum more than conscious action at all

あ："Un, un, home… at home wh. i m. ah. if we're alone and…" [eyes rolling] "I dunnno maybe w'ell just get good at it..g…h…" teeth chattering holds tongue between teeth pads out the motion

つ：ouuhhhg also feeling gassed by this..a aaouuhh…..? gets… visibly dizzied "good at it… I wanna be good at it…." wobbling a little "for Amane…."

turns… back to his cock in his hand, thinking about this simple phrase, which is satisfying to think about…. ah, a skill… something to do, beyond just… existing, with Amane, something he could practice…. that Amane wanted to do, mentioned, first….

Amane really seems to like it… I don't see him like this….. it's so different. it doesn't have to be just Tanabata….? thats so much to think about….

あ："You…" swallows, squeezes eyes tightly, before opening them, and they're less hazed and lost but more… focused, suddenly, affixed. Staring down at him. Thoughts were swirling, trying to conceptualize… variables of, house, home, hours? School… time alone? Parents? How does it all come together…

But-- it all gets knocked out, hearing that reply. Squints… "Tsukasa." swallows again, licks teeth. "You… you'd really like that…?" voice getting quiet. "This…" punctuates, sliding in and out of hand…

つ：mmmmezmerizing…. looks at hand like oh i didn't know i was doing this. whoa whats going on here. watches wetness bead out… leans forward to lick it on instinct, just as he would tears

あ：breath quickens… sounds like he's hyperventilating…

つ：doesn't taste too dissimilar from tears….. saltiness…..

ah, distracted by the taste hitting and buzzing brain/tastebuds, so he forgets a question was asked, falling out of time, instead getting back to putting it in his mouth, thinking: wait, its supposed to be mouth…

i got distracted talking… supposed to…. do this, right now

becomes very focused, for the first time in all of this, for some reason. perhaps doing a few pumps taught his hindbrain something intuitive. bobs on his own, over it, in-out

fingers still wrapped around the base a bit, but more out of thoughtlessness-- like holding something while you leave the room unnecessarily….

brain is…. leaving…..

i really wanna be good at something. for Amane i really want to be good at this, if he likes it

あ：It's just so easy to derail one another, mutually. It's all so pressing and distracting, isn't it? Watching Tsukasa's mouth enclose around it, the motions, feeling… graceful…. Stomach-turning kind of grace… It looks natural. ah, it's pretty….

Isn't it weird to think… pretty… But, ah, what about it isn't pretty…. Like the yukata… It's made of nice fabric, print… Our shared face, there's nothing wrong with that… Look at it, all day, don't we.

つ：its the serene devotion emanating

あ：Having focused more, Amane's able to drink in more details… The concentration… the lack of hesitation… … there's no way the people earlier were experiencing something like this, actually… [becoming strangely certain…]

つ：probably just some . fffucking…. stupid teens, barely know each other barely doing anythin,g, barely wanting it

あ：What, some classmates? If, even that

つ：no way. no way she. told him shelikes it no way

あ：She couldn't have looked so into it. Must've felt like a chore… her mouth would just get tired and… that'd be that…

They aren't going to go home, to the same house, at the end of the day. They're not going to take a bath together.

つ：they are not in matching yukatas amane i assure you that

あ：[exhaling] "You really do. You just do like it…" muttering… fills in the blanks himself…

つ：humms in reply… feeling serene being told a plain fact

ah, i do like to think it's… somehow become bizarrely graceful bobbing. hit a stride… reached pure bliss

あ："If you could do it more… you'd do that?" ah, squeezes pea. mnn wait ugh… "For me? Like you said…."

つ：comprehend the rhythm-- motions-- experienced it enough, subconsciuosly logged it

あ：ugh, chest squeezes to see…

Unfiltered admiration… It's, it's impressive. Tsukasa is being impressive. Fff… feels good… ahh… teeth what to chatter, feel overwhelmed. Tingling all across the skin.

つ：humms... "for Ahmma-ne"..... thinking the words to self. ah, feels good to do things for Amane.... swirls tongue around

あ：Chases after, trying to sync rhythm with own motions now… though, they're understated, slow pumps… He's trying to not lose his thoughts. Though, what comes out is less… thoughtful than he means

"It'd have to be for me. Like this. Iiii. I wouldn't wanna do, what you're doing." huffs…. "- ssso… you'd have to keep doing it…" "Like this…"

つ：ah can barely understand but is a dizzy mess and nods obediently. heard 'you'd have to keep doing it like this' and that sinks in. feels like a bell rung.

あ：presses palm heavily against one of his eyes

つ：wants me to do something....

あ：… can't help but get severe, suddenly… "If we do this, you couldn't back out. O-kay. It ff… itffffeeels really good, it wouldn't be fair. You can't. Say you're gonna and then… change your mind…"

Muttering under breath at times, rubbing own mouth. it's not liable that tsukasa will hear or understand all of it, but Amane is moreso talking to himself

つ：its so high concept. its unthinkable for tsukasa to even consider the imaginary concept of changing his mind or backing out

あ："Seriously…" sucks in saliva. "If this is… going to happen outside of Tanabata…" still struggling with such a thought. looks down. "It's only fair…" huffs. "You're." huffs…. h-hhaha…? "You're."

"You're already good at it…" losing. faculties.

つ：aaoaooguooououououawo whiiiines WANNA BE GOOD A T SOMETHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

あ：heep…. eyes roll back again -- do eyes DO that this often?? feels like they are spinning… can't- can't even control them… do they just DO that… what the hell… why would your eyes do stuff…

つ：ahhh overstimulated but determined to not stop but struggliiiiingggg, whines.... whiiiines

あ：Starting to open-mouthed pant…

つ：aahhh good at it. . not only for tanabata. going to be good at something. pppraised. aahhhhh please

あ：Ohhm… he's freaking 8 years old…

"Tss…. tsu.. tsukasaa…." whines back… parallel… IT'S OVERWHELMING, WE'RE ALL OVERSTIMULATED ACTUALLY BY THE THOUGHTS. feels a LITTLE nauseaous. but also it's the. feeling close. to coming. antsy.

つ：I MUST KEEP MY MOUTH ON HIM NO MATTER HOW DIFFICULT IT GETS

degrading into just whining… back and forth. ahhh name is, love to, hear it, like this, why?? what does it mean, if amane whines it? mm nn no, wait, ah I'm whining rn, ah… didn't notice, oh, it's the same feeling again….

there's. no way amane feels like this….. the same, really?! nnn.. bbbut he's the one saying good things. whiiiness

to tsukasa he's, on the better end of things. spoiled here praised, played with, tasting smelling so much…. a dream

あ：There are ways it feels like a whoole experience surely, hard to imagine what Amane is getting out of it, by contrast… Not being talked through the experience or pet…

つ：FEELS LIKE THE LITTLE PRINCESS HERE CANNOT IMAGINE WHAT AMANE IS GETTING FROM TSUKASA JUST DROOLING ALL OVER HIM AND WHINING

BUT IF IT COULD BE SO SIMPLE I CAN DROOL AND WHINE ALL DAY

あ：But that's just the bias, feeling like Amane is all enchanting… on Amane's end I think at this point Tsukasa is lke scary, my scarily capable and sexually potent otouto actually, i'm starting to preemptively feel afraid at the thought of experiencing a taste of this and somehow this not going well later. DON'T YOU DO THIS TO ME. THIS IS RUINING ME AND IF EEL IT SO HELP ME…

I think it'd be cute actually if he came while rushing to cover his own face… hide… and then also immediately FALL. slide down to the ground. lays on the ground like a rabbit shot with an arrow bleeding out

つ：tsukasa would be so shocked by fluid and dealing with that WHOA if its dry though its like what is happening i dont know excessive twitching and squeezing and then amane dying

あ：one likes either option… romantic first fluid nut on tanabata

つ：destiny

あ：ohhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh the moon and stars

つ：either way its like its suddenly become more alive than ever which is startling and slightly scary. like its doing everything. then spits in his mouth then just slips clean out as Amane flies away to the ground

left on hands and knees processing liquid in mouth, dripping down chin….. takes a second before moving it around with tongue, feeling odd thickness to it, no idea what it is at all, spit? it spit in me? it did something…..

kiss me… back? i drool all over it it drooled in me

あ：whoa. so mysterious feeling bodies can do so much

つ：uhm uhm… swallows it.

あ：amane is kind of writhing. i think the mania is also getting to him like thrashes kicks legs

つ：licks lips. looking like birthday table boy swallowing licking and then looqing

あ：hmmm. this is one of those. like. post nuts that just isnt graceful. GROANS AND KICKS. and moans. OHGHHGH

つ：watching amane like a very interesting bug. whoa

あ："FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

つ：!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOW WE'RE REALLY NOT BEING QUIET ANYMORE

あ：rolls over and rips up grass claws at the dirt

つ：blinks. whoa! "whoa….."

あ：somehow im thinking about him getting up though and looking at tsukasa like. flushed. panting. about to cry. and yet menacing. "YOU'RE going to keep doing that later."

つ："yes."

あ：[closes eyes] "Good." keels over again

つ：[stupid] "…. do you want more now?"

あ：hm……. "I w…" [quiet] "………. yeah………….. b-but."

つ：crawls towards accidentally menacingly

あ：HIEHYGF crawling backwards like its a zombie movie MATTE MATTE matte matte matte ahh nnn TSUKASA!!!

つ：tilts head. why go

あ：My st. my tu… my tummy hurts. w.. wait!!! wait aminute

つ：sits

あ：and my… **** feels sore.

つ：!! ah!!

あ：[holds hand over it like its a wound] s…. so… not right now…

つ：IT SPAT something at me, is that 'cuz it got hurt??

あ：…………………….. I GUESS? [RUBS FACE] chigau.

It um… [i dont fucking know the science of come.] It did the thing Cuz it felt really good, actually. Umm… Like.

Well it was all good. [serious.] but that part.. um… [looks around] like.. LIKE!! like the "pop" [hands close and open] part of the firework

つ：whoa…..

あ：… it felt like… it felt like that… I think… even the.. the part like.. up up up… going higher… [frazzled, ruffling own hair] like, uh… yeah… and then… pwhhh…

つ：[listening to attentively]

あ：[wiggles fingers]

つ：…… oh its a thing you can do too much. like eating or running. or something. are you tired?

あ：………… nods.

つ：we could go home now

あ：… aren't you tired…

つ：NO!!

あ：… Your mouth isnt tired…?

つ：[WIDE AWAKE] [sortof. testing jaw out. messing with it] …. no!?

あ：mh. [… well then i wont feel bad about anything wtf…] Sure… okay, then. Let's just go home. =,= ……………………………………………… i wanna bath….

つ：beamssssss we'll take a bath!!!!

あ：you run it…. [yawns] saying this and dusting self off… settling things back in place.. ah, but mindlessly hold hands at the end of it all

つ：as we always do. walk home hand in hand

あ：Gonna sleepily slump on tsukasa in da tub Gonna be like mghh tsukasa….. Get me… a snack… Before bed… fetch

つ：he will be so fetcheth you things master. and amane will feel so justified the penis incantations i have been weakened. tsukasa is fine. i almost died. inch of my life out there on the grass

あ：You got allll hot and sexy sucking coxk for no reason and it almost killed me. i need to learn to forgive you for that

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つ：Tsukasa: [laying on tummy, idly asking after a few sessions] does it really feel good for Amane…. ?

Amane: of course it does [annoyed]… it's you who's the confusing one… [defensive] what do you even get out of it…

Tsukasa: ? you pet me and tell me i did it good, i always like that!

Amane: [got so horny hearing that he got nauseous-- yeah you like that, don't y-- but then recovered quickly and doesn't like the statement anymore, in a pragmatic way] is it really like anything then? for you? it's not different? [sortof … a little reserved about this… suddenly like: wait I…. maybe don't like it if Tsukasa isn't horny whatsoever and its just me]

Tsukasa: …. [no mouth] no its different from stuff [no idea how]

Amane: ok. it feels different, right. but how. I'm not touching you. you know?

Tsukasa: no, you pet me [literal]

Amane: NO-- I mean. y. [sighs] okay … do you… does it feel like… [realizes this takes more.. braincells, to talk about. and that he has a real question in his heart right now! how to tackle it…] [clutches…. own shirt] like here… it goes fast [heart] … and. it's hard to breathe…

Tsukasa: [mystified that Amane is confirming, aloud, the synchronous feelings] hai….

Amane: [nods] and… its. tingly. All. over.

Tsukasa: IT IS TINGLY!

Amane: [doesn't like this conversation but does] [you dont' like Tsukasa Not being horny and you also don't like him being confirmed horny.] yeah, and. and it's different. it's different. uhm. its even different-- hearing. listening. to. uh. each other. like- like, say, names….

Tsukasa: whoa, you're right. [staring at nothing]

Amane: [also staring at nothing] yeah. [shakes head, knocks out of it] wait, so you really feel that stuff? just doing it? I thought it was just, what you did to me that made me feel that. I don't get it.

Tsukasa: why not?

Amane: [frustrated] its like if-- I ate a sandwich and YOU got full! or something! like why would that happen? m- [struggling] my body. feels new. and weird things. 'cuz of. you know. you're. touching it.

Tsukasa: mhm.

Amane: but why would just you touching it make you feel weird

Tsukasa: I dunno. It's special?

Amane: [flinches. mrngh ugh no… lame, to say that. ew] I guess…

Tsukasa: [simply] I've never heard you make noises like that. Or look like that

Amane: [feels called out] you make new noises, too…. [defensive]..

Tsukasa: [oh true, the whining is so new-feeling] do you like them?

Amane: ………………….. [puts a pillow over Tsukasa's head] [has no pupils or mouth]

just like thing in my brain last nite/this morning the way convos could be so casual and so stupid is funny to me, the charm of being way too familiar

あ：kawaii… Whimsically I was enjoying the thought of, like later just getting to rap about stuff, talk about the details i was thinking of Amane just being like. so……….. what's it. taste like. [uncontrollably curious] Like… is it just, whatever. is it neutral. or is it a little ah.. weird but…. like Tsukasa just is good at working past that.. or.

つ：Tsukasa the world's biggest freak: oh it reminds me of your tears! but its a lil different [touches finger to lip] bi..tter? like… [thinking] … tea? [thinking] if you put tea and sweat and crying together ina cup

あ：LOOKS………………….. [but says nothing.]

so if you put all of those in a cup, you would drink that.

つ：if Amane wanted me to

あ：oh one of those moments where Amane just pities you. like, Tsukasa… clicks tongue

I worry about you, you know. [holds your face condescendingly though]

Would you really drink anything if I made you. [going to get horny about the sureness of tsukasa's reply]

つ：hai.

あ：ooooooooooooooooooooh youve made me so. [redacted]

I was really enjoying thinking of the immediate aftermath of this sitch where. They have almost like an entirely normal night and Amane passes out so hard snzzzzz…. And we just fall into our routine so normally it's like w/e, we have breakfast, oh another day. Like Amane's brain just suspends from the events and you're just eating dinner with your parents. I actually was kind of thinking about, like a whole 2 days passes by or something, a lot of time just doing normal stuff. but then you're both alone in your room and you process your parents went to do some errand, or you're not going to be really bothered for hours, and it's like …………………………………. [the room darkens]

Looks around

つ：darkness descends upon you

あ：Sensing… opportunity its like ah god i wasn. i wasnt really thinking about it

つ：you have blowjob vessel with you at all times

あ：Tsukasa innocently fiddling with some toy has a plastic dinosaur wordlessly walk up to and be like. tug tug. but after this it's really like the cumrotting. OHH ITS JUST SO EASY!!!

つ：for tsukasa it is also like oh fell out of my head haven't been sminking about it but its like-- THE SMELL is back

whoa i can just smell it again. though i do like to think after blowjob tsukasa is suddenly vaguely atuned to cocksmell wafts when they happen. like you guys get into the bed and the sheets plume as they do and youre like snf.

あ：There's a good smell here :) I'm sure it's just ilke a-ah… there it is…! It actually exists normally, I just didn't know that was the smell…

つ：now i recognize a new color

あ：And the world. became a little MORE special of a place.

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つ：

あ：I actually had a bunch of miscellaneous thoughts within this scenario… like, random little conversations where Amane is curious what Tsukasa is experiencing/feeling, but also since the "nut and keep sucking" experience is on my mind, thinking about Amane dealing w frustrations of penis limits. feeling like, but i want it more and longer. trying to overcome this. it's also like, he doesnt like feeling as though someone Tsukasa has more stamina, it's always me prying Tsukasa off… huff huff. [want to be impressive]

Just bemoaning to Tsukasa outright, about wishing it could last longer. which could be interesting for Tsukasa to hear bc. [memories of Amane ripping him off abruptly] its just interesting these desires could exist, conflictingly

つ：oh. then why do you pull me off. sortof mindset about it

あ：[finger to mouth innocently] Especially when its like. pries off. AND. is like. dont touch me ouhh dont lay on me

Amane both petulantly, flippanyly huffing about wanting this outside of it happening, but then also agonized whining for it during… Much for Tsukasa to digest

Tsukasa, who always wants Amane to get what he wants. like hueue…. how do i halp…

つ：its like awe… what do do i keep going or not…..

あ：Which Amane do I listen to…😰 But one day Amane just humbles himself and tasks you with a mission Sits on my knees in front of you we are facing each other sitting

つ：tsukasa listening to this like. hmm…. so. I listen, to the Amane, now but I don't listen to the Amane, later. but what if the Amane later wants me to listen to him….?

あ：Like Amane is underestimating his own reaction here I'll just power through it I'll just…. want it

つ：when the time comes he's going to get scared when tsukasa doesn't stop easily and does indeed just bare down and continue

あ：The resistance. It can be scary We make, some new noises today

Thinking about the Amane tasking Tsukasa with this like. Trying to emphasize, like, we'll just experiment. I wanna see what it feels like… maybe we could just make it last a bit longer… I'll just like… try and focus. But if you're not tired, you should just keep at it [not expecting to tear up from fear]

つ：brain is like nOOO I'M UNDER ATTACK HELP!!

あ：you cave and are just like ST. STOP!!! STOP!!!

I actually like the dramatics of saying "stop" and "no" aloud its really ilke. well its the part where its noncon

i think it would be interesting whether or not tsukasa listens… like i think it's cute if he's just so good boy brain and like :< about it and does let up… but then you have amane meditate on it and is like. wait. no. i mean. i thibk. i think we're ontos oemthing [hand over mouth, thinking]

つ：i imagine the first 'try' tsukasa doesn'thave the werewithal to continue ignoring once he keeps pulling and asknig stop and sounding upset

maybe only lasts a little while… then is just like…. amane….. do you really want me to stop….. i know what you said before….

あ：He's just so programmed to listen…. er, and, I mean, the second Tsukasa lets up, amane will shove him awayand pull his hips back like. >_< [wheeze] So… its not like… reassuring at first

つ：just be like.. mm. p. pets. pets. you… did it good…. tsukasa [straining] uhm, i just wanted to. uh feel it. right its … hard…

あ：mutter an apology. its like. sorry… its confusing…. but you were doing what you were supposed to

つ：you just want to do what I say, don't you…… 💭I… need to get better.. at not saying…. no, or stop….

あ：See i like the thought of Amane having to problem solve actually you meditate on it… it was an educational experience

Actually i think a babystep could be like… just… staying completely still… and letting it rest in Tsukasa's mouth… we just breathe here

Maybe if we go… reeeally reeeeeeally slowly…. but I think this is more soothing for Tsukasa as well, like. just getting pet repeatedly. Amane can have more mental faculties to be like. [swallowing] "um, you're doing fine…"

つ：when he starts hissing and flinching, having a mind to pet

あ：Maybe you still just have to tap out, but you feel better about how far you got… crawls over and just nuzzles

… without all the primal terror… you can report that this time it was um um… interesting… it's, it's nice, it's.. intense but. like… feels good still….. It was better that time…

つ：fidgeting. I like that it lasted a .. a long time. tsukasa is just wigglewiggle uuuu ah good…. did it good…

あ：[quietly] It's fun.

つ：I'LL DO IT AS LONG AS YOU WANT! we'll get really good at it!! we'll do it for hours! I know you can, Amane! if you want it you're good at difficult stuff

あ：chokes coughs blood spiritually. ohhh you think i can be your little blowjob champ get real good at getting a blowjob. help

つ：a part of amane like . we shouldn't ought have hadsex at the tanabata

あ：I have a feeling it was a mistake.

つ：meestake

あ：I think this is why. People don't have sex. With their siblings It's too easy, isn't it Teens need… to sneak out of the house to do it It must be good for you. Growing up

つ：to have to wait for the festival times and then to sneak theres gonna be a day. in the middle of the night amane is like. wait it could happen now. if we're quiet

あ：That's when you'll really be broken I also feel like. when you discover. just pantomime. its over part 2 invent humping. uahhhhhhh [brain disintegraets]

つ：ahh i was thinking about inventing humping… to one day be like. tsukasa. there's something else we can… do. like what we've been doing. something. teens typically do if we're already doing this…. i figure why not…. if we don't like it. we just won't try it again

あ：Scuffs shoe It's whatever you know. Just. We'll take our temperature on this

[the air increases humidity as you both feel the, like vibe of 'marking property' that humping gives]

つ：something neither of you can begin to articulate, to yourselves or each other. amane would see it as simply a physical transaction-- like the BJ, it's just about acquiring a sensation and being horny….

there's some subtle feelings of ownership to a BJ, but not too much, and its easy to handwave, I feel.

あ：The ahh part where, cock makes you weak, a blowjob makes you feel. weak.

being so young and tender too, you're more often just whimpering and clinging while getting sucked off

つ：it's the act of it all, you cant have many thoughts during.

あ：it can often feeeeel like tsukasa is just doing you a favor…

つ：he is fanning you with a big leaf now and again

when you get into…. baring down on Tsukasa…. grabbing him in place, squeezing him steady, pushing him against the floor, humping….. it feels… different….. and tsukasa feels it, too. it's just… visceral. forceful.

あ：It is simply different to… grab, move, squeeze, shove against Tsukasa's whole body… pin him against a surface… You're also more ah, coherent. for it

In the first place, I think instructing Tsukasa to get into position already feels like "."

つ：face away from being the logical first attempts.. lets not make this awkward

amane also like. fidgeting. look. if you dont like it-- or wahtever-- just. tell me later okay. and don't. laugh or…. I'll do something

あ：Eheh yes, especially since we're trial running… Can't deal with Tsukasa having his very focused little pinpricks. dont look

つ：I don't want you to talk. just-- put up with it. for. this first time.

so awkwardly…. having tsukasa maybe palms against a wall. standing or on knees, i wonder…. but its comforting to have tsukasa pressed to something, so he really can't move much….

あ：I like the vibe of against a wall Let me… approach this

つ：holds.. hips hips. i imagine it would be like… mmm… awkward. just looking, thinking. but actually starting is like. ffffine ok ok here i go uhm. just. does it

grabs. bumps against… more uh, cartoonishly at first pull to, and away from not knowing the actual hip-movement

あ：A lot of it just feels awkward and, like "is this anything"… is it going to feel like anything, for either of us.. but some part of you vaguely is like, interested, seeking something. so…. persist

Kawaii. like approximations it really takes a second to figure out how. like. to get a rhythm It can feel sort of wrong… like… isn't it smoother… it should just be like. bump bump bump

End up feeling like, it was essential to instruct Tsukasa to not look or say anything. Feel like he would turn around and leave , to be interrupted rn

But mm… I believe in Tsukasa's gracefulness and , also eagerness, just going to be receptive and quiet. Maybe wiggle… Whatever Amane is doing is interesting

つ：bumpbumpbump.. it feels interesting… more of his body is involved in this….. can feel that thang up against him. amane wants to rub it places….

あ：It is interesting to feel it like this. Something you've been getting familiar with Can't see it but know it…

I think any sort of… like, receptive, or playful sort of wiggle/sway from Tsukasa is good incentive. it ah. make you horny to feel/see [grips tighter]

… it's all… not nothing… I always think the way a curved spine contours very artfully against the chest, when you're looming from behind. it feels so neat. like ah, bodies… its nice to rest your face against shoulders/back too…

つ：i like to think of amane getting an increasing urge to press closer…. pull harder… at first being sortof like, ah, at a distance-- more similar to like, how we casually hump at fridge

bump. bump…. not wanting to immediately be too overinvested, a reserved amount of involvement like if you did just this and felt really embarrassed you could just, forget about it…

あ：Uhuhm… noncommittal enough. not even holding onto Tsukasa that firmly or anythin…

Light pressure. just ah, getting a feel for the territory but as a result it's cute, the spike of interest and intensity…

thinking about him really leaning face against and rubbing between shoulders. i always feel like this is just comforting. inhale Traps hot breff against Tsukasa's back

つ：feels tsukasa shudder from the breath and feels sadistic

あ：Man when I remember how little self control we had before though. how much it felt like goootttta do it... gotta hump until we're sore

つ：my creep goosebumps are manifesting m.mmm

oh yeaaahh babyyy. my spine and his muscles and hips.. unlike BJ you can really hump for a long time, especially if you dont really have apointed goal to it and aren't coming….

あ：Oh you can feel like such a creep all loomed from behind. tbh the quality where you can't see the other's expression….

つ：first session could get pretty ribbled and last a long time.. despite the start. wrap arms around his waist. really make him feel like. fklsgjlfh….

oh, this one really involves more than, just my mouth or something….. if the other thing is a kind of kiss, this is like a kind of hug

あ：oughh. the way you see the world but youre not wrong

つ：more firm…. shallow… quicker humps. i dont need to pull away all the way, he thinks… ah, its like the BJ…. its nice to do it shallow and stuff…. it doesnt have to go in-out full length every time….

あ：Sometimes doing staying really close and against is nice… mm…

つ：… but it is fun sometimes….. mmm… experiments with shallow, short humps close to tsukasa's body… then pulling away, holding him by a hip at more distance, and slamming into

あ：Really exploring the territory hmm i fjsdgh i do think it's just easier to feel like. egotistical about it. maybe its hard to leave it due to this as well

つ：stands still. like ah hm, wait a minute... he moves his head to me sometimes.... hmmm.. grabs tsukasa and pulls HIM towards, but keeps himself still.. moves tsukasa to his hips. brain pops fizzles

あ：Drags you upons… the collision can feel so dramatic!! impact…

つ：tsukasa himself easily sorta wobbly and not sure wtf is happening, trying to stay steady, has to get a better stands on the ground to not be shaken

あ：All the partition of clothes and stuff really helps keep it from being as, overwhelming and raw as a bj. but still very satisfying

つ：amane can see the utility of it all…. that you can be harsher, and the 'target' is so broad, its not like trying to aim for mouth… so you can really pull away, and pull back, and slam….

it all feed into itself though-- doing this like. mmm but i should try to do some slam with the other thing too, can't i do some…. not exactly like this, but…. more than I have

あ：Getting more comfortable and aware of yourself. yabai

つ：[pulls tsukasa over harshly a few times repeatedly, until tsukasa is panting trying to stay steady, and jostled] Amane, despite being the one requesting silence as always, is like…… [way too careless, because he expects how tsukasa will answer, by now] you really don't mind even if it's so rough?

shakes his head. he's try to be GOOD BOY UNLIKE YOU and was told to be quiet again…

[sneering behind him] can I get even rougher. [knows how you willl answer but wants to fuck with you] …. tsukasa nods, of course

あ：He is shitty like that

つ：horrible brain: i will make you regret agreeing so easily

あ：Maybe you should think twice. sticks tongue out

つ：finally a situation where maybe i can make tsukasa blanch first really awful harsh slamming repeatedly awful porno manuevers and he's amane, so he really can be tongue out THIS . HO

あ：Making Tsukasa pant is exciting… any involuntary sounds made are, like. It makes Amane feel like he "won" =,= he sucks

つ：little stops and hiccups and ah-- hhg--khk-- scritch scritch, feet unstable on the floor hands scratching the wall….

あ：Squeezes your middle so hard you squeak… and so on fucking. he's amane also so. he laughs

つ：tsukasa is . very surprised just by all the-- roughness. amane isn't really such a… ah, he's not your, jock brother in such a way, you know, he's not like headlocking you or something….

he's not. wrestling you to the ground typically…you have your little games, and when younger you had some rowdy ones, but…. he's not a frat boy! he's not usually just. i mean hitting you or something. just slamming is wild!

tsukasa thinking… so he wants to be rough….? he wants to be this rough….?

あ：We're.. weird little guys, we're typically sentimental and hand-holdy, the familiarity just lends to some playfulness, but… I think even the rougher rowdier games were under the pretense of, some RP or imaginative play. we're at most liable to get wily in the pool or something

I think the lack of proxies is really interesting… it means, Amane, just wants to be rough with, Tsukasa so Tsukasa has to process…. you want to do that to me…? He wants to hear me make these sounds…?

つ：its all so. very blank while this is all going on. despite panting physically mouth open stares at the wall

あ：… I think it's uniquely overwhelming for Tsukasa to process…. simply because it is not typical of Amane to do this… Like mnn… because it's not just in his general nature to be aggressive like that. What is this… [radio static]

つ：i think it would be really funny if Amane was having fun being really gnasty tongue sticking out snarling a corner of his lip slamming tsukasa and then unexpectedly comes and is like. stills.

forgor it could happen. didn't. wasnt trying dont feel strong anymore

あ：How do you play this off You feel the come leaking down your leg

つ：going from crushing it to just still is incriminating

あ：the wet spot. its just like. i mean theres no good options bc weakly bumping and then being like hue is also like. i think tsukasa understands What happened

You simply linger. still. hand on tsukasa. and then cough. [jenny's awkward christian grey voice] Well, that was great. (edited)

つ：maybe its just like. walks. away. goes to bathroom to like. handle this. like. wipe cock down just came all over yourself. its just. covering your cock in your shorts. soaking

sssmmmmallest spot of soaked-thru come on tsukasa…. he simply rubs his hand against the spot and brings it to his nose while amane is gone, licks it tooo…. like ah. it is the stuff.

あ：incriminating… It's interesting to think, that even without umm… mouth stuff… wetness… it could happen just force… rubbing against…

つ：he liked it as much as the other thing…..

a dokis moment alone against the wall still, unsure also if he should move or not.. its cute for amane to come back in and tsukasa has not moved an inch.

dokis of. ah he-- mm… we'll do this more, then… if he liked it.. we might start doing this too…. regularly… whenever we can…

あ：[gets dizzy]

つ：and... if we dont have to take off any clothes or, get anything out...... that seems easy

あ：[rubs face.]

つ：really don't understand his own feefee, but it's the odd ownership feeling of it… feeling, branded… roughed with treated like his… just can't have that thought formed, yet

あ：This stage where everything is just percolating…

Ah for the humble little Tsukasa I think there are dokis to be had, also, at like -- oh, yay, another thing I can do… that Amane likes… two whole things. a frog in a well like me… maybe feel a little spoilt. How did I get here…

つ：and, uhmmm it was my, suggestion sortof in the firstplace… that we could do it… so….

あ：._. me do something good 👉👈💦…

つ：i do think dryhumping is a new problem eventually, but at least at first maybe amane is a little like. avoidant of doing it again for a Second

like i. cant think about how i was there immediately >> whyd i come so hard so suddenly

あ：It's kind of embarrassing. To reflect on.

つ：and you gotta come back into the room and be like-- … tsukasa…. tugs pulls him away from the wall its over, tsukasa…

you. [through teeth] did good… pets…. ruffles hair.

あ：Trying to balance, wanting to breeze past this/move on but affirm it was good >> Like ah. that was good. maybe it's something we can do together, too. Oh uh, you can talk. now.

つ：[EXHALES LOUDLY AS IF HE WAS HOLDING BREATH] turns around and beams at Amane

あ：[looking put off] ….

つ：...... [OPENS MOUTH WIDELY] [has nothing coherent to say immediately] [looks around] [thinks so hard]

あ：............................................................. [im choosing to not be mean.... so i wont tell him to actually be quiet again....]

つ：HOLDS amane's hand in both of us suddenly it-- was-- fun! really fun! [SHAKES HAND AROUND]

あ：[resigned] Mhm…. [sigh] Good to hear you had fun. [but like… stretches leggy out] It was… interesting. [kinda kickin leg out, crosses it behind other] It gave me… ideas~ ^^

つ：sparklinggggggg

あ：[feeling smug again finally] So, look forward to.. the future~ [tongue sticky outy face]

this does feel like. its time for sadist brother to percolate thinking about. fucking you hard. sorry here it comes

つ：going to dream about slam now that i know the slam going to bleed this into the BJ stuff its like. but tsukasa has been such a good sport. and he doesn't. mind so. why should I… hold back

あ：going to treat you worse during it

つ：start really moving tsukasa's head forcefully. get more creative with positions.

あ：if tsukasa likes it so much…. really. grab by the hair. freely move you over cock the… objectification

つ：like moving over top of m.

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あ：Hm the appeal of this scenario is like watching Amane like, real-time evolve into horrible pervert naturally as he gets more confident and acts rougher its like… gets more talkative during.. starts. dirtytalking. im sorry tsukasa.

つ：ITS GONNA BE ROUGH FOR TSUKASA!!!

あ：Like oh. he's saying so much Since this stuff started so 🤐 its … an unexpected shift but also its like wjfdgjhf when the dialogue is like [warped voice] you like that don't you, you little

つ：oh its all gonna be. tell me you like it. wanna do it. more tell me don't you wanna do this for hours?

あ：I can tell you're thinking it [out of breath]

つ：you like it more than you can say. i can tell. cuz of how you. hhlook at me

あ：you should tell me though. how you want it. don't you think i should hear it. it's just you and me here. why hold back

つ：LIhkKE-- [Amane hooking a thumb in his mouth to make it harder to talk. kind of just as a bullying thing. coming out.]

あ：hooking thumb in mouth, tilting head side to side

つ：Wannit! Wanna-- lihkk-tt do it! aaahahaaa.. I liiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiike… I lliiiiiiiiike when… Amane…. ♥ isssz, rrrough, haha like this… he's rougher when we do this, you don't hold back

あ：Mmm oh he loves to hear it…. it's just like [nastily] That's right The way you are means, I don't have to hhold back. at all! aha You're easy like that

つ：I want, to be the person Amane neeverr holds back with.... [dazed, out of it...]

あ：Hahaha… hahah, aww, Tsukasa… [mock scandalized tone] You want to be special-? You want to get what no one else can… ?

つ：eeouuuhhmm… squints one eye . kicks at floor nnhnnnn.

あ：[tilts head] Hmm, it would be nice, wouldn't it…

つ：it sortof hurts to hear….

あ：[going on] getting to be special… mmm… I can see why you would want it…

つ：Amane…. I like when, Amane looks at me… [wobbly] you look at me more since starting this I like that

あ：[simmers…]

つ：touch… [paws at a sleeve] me more…. since….

あ：Amane is stupid, he doesn't expect to have words pain him… but it's like ahh.. The sincerity… I think it's a real balance of being horny about it and getting chest pain

つ：and feeling condescending, as he does amane with his capacity to pity the little creatures

あ：Yes. like ah. Tsukasa is… being pathetic….💔 Holds face in both hands

つ：is that what's under tsukasa's surface… tsk tsk… hold my little dummy

あ：[lower voice, pitying] It's nice to be looked at, and touched, isn't it…

つ：nodddddd… no mouth gazing at. pitiably

あ：Well, as long as you always listen to me… if you keep being, just like this. [pat pat] Thennnn why would I ever hold back…? You got this far, right?❤️

つ：mmmmm. nuzzles into hand for a moment, sortof restlessly. presses face into palm by turning himself

I WANT Amane to do whatever he wants!! I want [thinks about these words.. Amane was asking him about whwat he likes and stuff…….. its so hard to think about things in terms of whatever he's wanting…]

I want… Amane [gets still and looks around at the floor] I do like it [thinking harder.] it tastes good because it's you and it all smells good I like it.

[very simple. but it is going to sound the way it does] I like that I can swallow something from Amane and put it in me and I have it in me all day

あ：It's so simple and yet. amane really needs it to be so blunt. rghhhg…. that IS what's hot about it, isnt it…!?! rhgh

You like it cuz its me… JUST me… it. [becoming severe] it couldn't be just anyone, right-? You wouldn't like just any person… You wouldn't get on your knees for someone else. right.

つ：[FLABBERGHASTED] NO!? NO ONE?! no….! no….. no one else-- ?! no! [getting caught in it] I dont wanna smell like someone else!!!! I dont wanna put someone else in me!!

あ：spiritually Amane is steepled fingers pleased and simmering thats right…………………….

つ：only Amane!!!

あ：but you know like. thinks about it for 1 second as well and is like ugh. no. fufjghf.g never anyone else's come. oooh. OOOH. ONLY me. Never anyone else, okay?

つ：possessive guy discovers an inch of his fetish

okay!! yes! never ever! never!

あ：I don't want you to smell like anyone else either

つ：no! gross

あ：You don't need that

つ：no! never need it!!! [very definitive. firm] only AMANE. [but childishly so.]

あ：Good, good. I like the sound of that

つ：if Amane stops doing it it'll never happen again [surprisingly intense statement but said very plainly]

あ：Im-impressive… this is actually kind of high concept for amane. the future? houh….

つ：never ever. not even at a festival [as if festivals are places you just have sex. tsukasa's conceptualization of being a teen]

あ：Never... ever, even if years pass...? [quiet]

つ：never ever til I die [so easy for tsukasa to say things like this]

あ：impressive good boy otouto wtf… ah. kinda got blasted with a beam by this [breathing 1 inch from your face] That… that is how it should be… why- why should it be any different? Til.. til we die We'lllll [getting manic] WE'LL JUST do it lotssss then cuz whoo.. who cares !!

つ：oh in his miasma. staring. breathing shallow uh. uh huh.

あ：Who cares… who cares!! It's just us… hhahaha-!! ah…

つ：hehehe.hahahhehehaha.

あ：but it's always just us… isn't it?

つ：mhm.........

あ：mm…. [rubs face on face]

つ：!!!!! RUBS FURIOUSLY

あ：ohmmm my amane brain. im inventing the thought of kissing its happening what are we doingggggg [tongue lolling] its almost funny we havent gotten here but if i have your undying loyalty. idk lets fuck around

つ：its always funny how its not a thought between them it has to be like, amane thinking like….. ah. i always feel like… it's amane…. pitying tsukasa…. in a way… in the way he pities yashiro for clearly being into him…. the feeling of ahh… poor little thing…. really likes me, huh? hmm..

あ：ah, if the only way you're going to experience anything is through me… I grant you a little somwthing

つ：the easiest way to crack into it isn't as an earnest confrontation of his own love, but pitying tsukasa for being. madly in love with him it would seem

I like the thoguht of it being like a little pin drop for Amane… like ah Tsukasa… is a little weird about me.

あ：i think he's sick

[suddenly entering a 1000 yard stare state as i think harder about kiss] … ah, but I do like it being out of some sense of pity, ohhhh pity for your circumstance… In the middle of nuzzling their faces together, it occurs to him suddenly, the impulse. A real spur of the moment thing, where Amane holds Tsukasa's face and tilts it, firmly, aligns their moves. Soft press for a second, while Amane peacefully lids his eyes shut, then swipes his tongue out, over Tsukasa's mouth. Kisssss with tongue… that real stuff, like teens do. Won't be satisfied until it feels properly 'adult', tongue meets tongue. Though it doesn't end up lasting very long (still childish in this way) — it's exciting nonetheless… makes it feel like there are sparks in Amane's throat, very low in it. Crackly. Exhales heavily into Tsukasa's face.

"A little something. Siiiince, you won't be kissing anyone else, either." laughs. evilly. "I don't want my little brother to die a kissless virgin though." [you have my pity voice]

i am, throwing you a bone.

つ：stares with tongue barely poking out. aohhh ppooor tsukasa…. little brain obliterated

you're talking to him from the other end of a wide expansive gymnasium. its like that hannibal scene though where theres two hannibals and one is right next to his ear. saying the words.

kiss. kissing….. mouth to mouth. he kiss me…. kissing? kissing…. a kiss. amane… kiss me? does not say anything but starts wide-eyed leaning closer to amane again….. o 3o

あ：………………….. [looks at you.] [but like lol. yeah let's do it] [like the kombucha girl like AHAH.]

つ：oh sure. so pitiable…. are you so eager for it… lol

あ：in amane's perspective, he is giving you an extra 5 kibbles. cuz he feels so sorry for you.

つ：just a little something for my hungry pet

あ：leans in

つ：makesa tiny noise ah

あ：Wow. it is like kissing a virgin tho licks

つ：VIBRATES LIKE CHIHUAHUA

あ：it must feel so strange right. like tsukasa is usually the one whomst licks. for tsukasa it's like mgahhh lick ME? but this is a context where amane is like. oh i know people use that thang. tongue.

つ：HE LICK MEEEE!!! drool on. me i want to have amane's drool in me

あ：desire unlocked

つ：more. substances this time i wil focus on the taste of it very very very hard

あ：moar… it is of course, not fair if amane walks out of this fine, so he should have to deal with being miserably horny about kiss. even if its delayed. like you walk yourself this far out of a sense of, i'm pitying my poor lil brother lol. but it is you who is lying in the middle of the night on your futon like . wish i was making out rn [arrested by it]

つ：I would like him to suffer despite it all. Eventually should roll over in the night get on top of Tsukasa to kiss him in a wild impulse. Had a boner for so long its painful. But fsr instead of protocol drag tsukasa to cock the makeout urge manifests. but then you're on top of tsukasa who is groggily startled and gasping confused for hair and. you realize. through the force of your hips moving on their own while these responses arouse you. that you can. make out and hump at the same time

あ：it doesn't have to stop…. [math equations flying aruond] Actually everything at once

つ：eventually going to crawl over tsukasa's head to put dick in mouth its going to be everything all at once like ughruhgjgh ouhhg wait waaait wait mm wait i canmm

あ：yes chasing it like…. AND, I WANT -- THIS its like unlocking a skill tree i can think of.. POSES Ah the intensity of like. cocksuck while straddling face though. hueee….

つ：getting all the way to humping down into face. its gotten as bad as it can get for Amane

あ：ooo eee ooo. In a way this is actually the worst timeline zim voice worse…….. or better

(~link to PART 2 down here for convenience~)

[pepsiiwho]

Okay. Going in order of top to bottom. Spoilers maybe. Lots of rambling. Love u

Ryoji: He's literally half of MC's soul or something. He was created and takes the form he has now thanks to MC and knows him unlike any other. I think Ryoji when he sat in class or stared at the ceiling awake at night would imagine ripping MC open and crawling inside, reviling in the warmth he can't remember having but misses like a limb. I think he has a lot of violent unnatural thoughts like that, being the personification of death incarnate and just is fine with it. It's a fact of life he's had since walking into that classroom and seeing MC. The sky is blue and sometimes orange and the river flows at its own pace and the clouds float endlessly and MC's blood probably tastes like ambrosia. I think Ryojin would be a major home wrecker as well. He doesn't particularly care that MC is in a committed relationship, he'd probably just see it as a fun obstacle to move through. He is MC's and MC is his. As it should be and as it has been. Something is wrong with this guy btw.

Akinari: He doesn't have much longer on this earth and spends his remaining time basking in the fleeting joy of the one other person who seems to just get him. MC doesn't pity him, doesn't walk across eggshells. He's just normal and kind and a breath of fresh air, something his tired lungs haven't had in a very long time. He writes, newly inspired, because of MC. He gets up every Sunday and walks to the shrine, stumbling and coughing into his fist just to ensure he can see MC. He is dizzy from love and a lack of medication. He is not at peace, yet, but this is making it both easier and harder to let go. I think, if he was allowed more time, he would doodle their names together in his note book, writing self sustaining fan fiction about their possible union. He's a horrible romantic turned pessimist and this ... friendship of theirs is feeing into a part of him he could've sworn long since failed, with his initial diagnosis.

Chihiro: The freshmen who's found herself madly in love with the only senpai who's ever been kind to her. Similarly to Amada and Maiko and even Aigis, I don't think this is romantic as it seems. She's imprinting these emotions onto the first man who was ever kind to her. Her father was, is?, abusive and her male peers find her too prudish to give her the time of day. She's had little to no good interactions with the opposite sex before now, erring the line of neutral and actively harmful. MC is kind and popular and cool and smart and gorgeous and he never yells and spends time with her to look at stupid manga and to just talk and walk together. He is the anti-isis of everything she assumed a man could be. He's straight out of a shoujo manga. I think she would be happy with him but he wouldn't be happy with her. They're in two different places. But just being near him is enough for her.

Maya: Shrugs. It's a vibe. Bitch is pitiful tho.

Keisuke: OKAY OKAY HERE WE GOOOOO!! HERE WE GO. okay. Don't touch me. Okay. So, Keisuke says in plain English that he's a becoming a doctor for the same reason his father did: to protect someone he cares about. I'm of two minds with him.

1 . he's far too pragmatic to allow himself any sort of active romance while trying to pursue his new goal of getting into med school and becoming an established doctor. He needs to focus and he doesn't understand the concept of multitasking in the macro or micro (for fucks sake, he could stay in the club as a minor hobby or pursue art on the side, again as a hobby but he completely gives up the entire thing to focus all his attention on studying. He's got horrible tunnel vision and I think it's a case of rich kid syndrome! oh no..) BUT, HAVING SAID THAT— 2 . Keisuke actively and constantly uses MC as his North Star and lucky charm simutaniosly. He goes through med school reminding himself of why he's even doing this. He's 2 days deep into back to back all-nighters to prep for a cadaver lab he has to ace if he's going to pass this class with high marks and in a moment of rest lays his head on the desk and imagines MC's chuckle. He sees pale hands holding a paintbrush without experience but doing it anyway. He feels thick hair between his fingers and smells that signature scent, a phantom in his study corner. He's invigorated suddenly and dives right back in, ready to work.

He's so down bad he's in school for 8 something whatever years and finally becomes a doctor and his first thought it "I wanna see MC" so he does. He went without any sort of relationship or anything more important then a quick fling (sexual activity is good for positive reinforcement and memorization in relation to test taking says a 2013 Harvard study—) and the FIRST thing he does is set up a dinner with MC.

In my current world, he sees that MC is happily taken (still with his high school sweetheart, of course) and he is as crushed as he is unperturbed. A part of me, the part my heart rests in, thinks he would always love MC in some way but one day move on. He deserves to move on and love and be loved. The part of me with hands and access to google docs knows he would kiss his teeth and smile and say congratulations on the long relationship. He would then, the moment he gets home, strap himself in, take a deep breath and get ready to once again play the long game. He's done it once before already, he can do it again. Yuko is sweet and he loves her as well, they were all friends, but she's ... simple. Shallow. A realtionship with her is all good and fine, but it can't last forever. MC is too complex, too multi-faced to be comfortable with such a humble girl. This was just another test he had to pass that's all. And now that he had a nice cushy job, doing what he loves he can wait for as long as necessary. He's a rich kid at heart and is used to getting what he wants. This hasn't changed.

In a better world, everything listed above is ignored because they admitted their feelings for each other shortly after MC graduated HS. Keisuke goes to school, keeping this relationship with the man of his dreams as a reward to be earned. Once he earns it, he basks in that love till the end of his days.

Tanaka: This old ass man has issues .... During his support (don't look at me FE3h fans fuck off) he kept constantly commenting about MC's looks and supple young body. For most of them I assumed the secret we couldn't speak of was tanaka actively pursuing an underaged boy. Apparently it was just giving free advice and bad mouthing orphans. Sure. Okay. To me Tanaka is a closeted gay man, always has been always will be and falls into that particularly nasty genre of 'early 2000's gay and predatory'. He never got the chance to experience a boy like MC when he was younger and he'd like the chance now. He won't get it, and he won't act on it surprisingly but he would like to. Creep.

Teacher Bitch: Shrugs. It's a vibe. Bitch is pitiful tho. Also she like says it so,... yaknow.

Yuko: YAYYYYY HERE WE GOOOOOO!!! okay. I'm normal. Lol

Yuko is arguably one of the most well adjusted people in this entire fucking cast and she acts like it. She's a relatively boring and uninteresting girl, unknowingly so mind you, and this is like 90% of her draw. Not to MC post this isn't about him BUT Yuko's simplistic problems and the ease she brings is something no one on this list can replicate.

Remember how I said everyone basically sees MC as this lovable pillar of a boy, someone who's perfect and kind and stable compared to the mess that everyone else is? Yeah he sees YUKO like that. She's level headed and dependable, keeping him grounded and reminding him of the good things in life to live for. The simple things. When your house mates are dropping like flies and you're actively attempting to save the world on a month by month bases you get jaded and tired quickly. Yuko is his charger of sorts. He loves walking with her and just listening to her bitch about the track team or the bitches in her class or a show she watched the night prior with an unsatisfying ending. She has single handedly kept MC from offing himself more than once. Huzzah!

Anyway, Yuko! I think that while she loves MC so much and is so glad to have a boyfriend who isn't cheating on her or using her for something or another, she's a normal girl. She day dreams about him but knows when to turn it off. When she's managing teams, doing her own sports or just generally trying to pursue whatever is the goal at that moment she's focused. She doesn't really have the personality needed to devote herself entirely to one person and let them fuel her life (like a certain someone cough KEISUKE cough) so she has a great balance of things in her life. She's so normal I love her hahah can you tell who my favorites are? LOL

Bebe: see, our dear frenchmen was a hard one to place. I was stuck between putting him a tier higher with the sickly crowd but what saved him is ability to take a step back. Honestly, while I think bebe is in love with MC, in some capacity, I don't think he would ever pursue it.

He's a bit of a Japan fetishizer imo, (his love for the country either being a bit too much or a flag pointing at his deeper trauma in relation to his home country and specifically his family) and his affection for MC feels like a natural extent of that. No one else in the school would really give him the time of day, especially with his eccentric personality and style and general obvious "foreign-ness" so MC got the brunt of his affections. Having said this, I think bebe had bigger fish to fry so he couldn't allow himself to focus on MC entirely. He just didn't have the bandwidth for it. Also, again, I think a lot of it was just a general interest in Japan and its people as a package deal, not MC intrinsically.

Mc being there as Bebe mourned his aunt and dealt with the brunt of his uncle's promptings to come back only added to those affections. Again, MC is a pillar. We know this. Anyway, Bebe goes back to France stays there for a few years before marrying a nice Japanese woman and getting a citizenship in Japan forever! He comes back and the first person on his list is his best friend who was always there for him. They stay in touch as pen-pals and they're close. Bebe would name a baby after MC. Shrugs

More tmw. Falls and dies.

realationship explanation chart. Requires little explaining save for the 6th tier. Further thoughts under the hood. Spoilers ahead for anyone in the green tier. Long post below ;D

Aigis: Her entire backstory shapes the events of the game and links her fundamentally with the MC... I know you can pursue a romantic relationship with her so obviously she has,... some feelings there for the taking, but past just user choice I think it's more imprinting then actual love built of knowing someone. She's fought with you and protected you as you protected her. You're the first man, and human, who saw her as more than a machine and that sticks with her. I think the complicated nature of her past with you would make it difficult for her to parse these emotions and as such a wide label such as "romantic love" is too constricting. Do I think she would willingly date MC? no. Do I think she would think she would willingly date mc? yes.

Junpei: Fucker has 100 million self esteem issues with only 90milion of those being actively irritated further by MC's place in relation to himself. He's straight, this I do believe, but I think his complicated feelings when thinking about his own usefulness and purpose in comparison with someone who is so, seemingly, perfect would mix the bag heavily, so to say. He def has those almost gay thoughts like "why is MC so perfect and hot and sexy and everyone loves him" and this is never examined further about what this may mean. Could go into "I have eyes" category, but there's too much ire and sourness there for a blanket "of course he's hot and I recognize that". Would never say it or think it but he would be down for a game of spin the bottle. Type of guy who would be perfect in a "gay-chicken" or similar "fake dating au that turns too real" story.

Amada: He is a child so the romantic feelings in question aren't even close to the same bracket of anyone else on this list, save Maiko. I think considering the... fucking everything that Amada went through during his life and particularly his arc, having someone who is such a constant pillar and so stable would be really defining for him. It's more hero worship than anything, but it looks like a school yard crush as well. He wants to be like MC and idolizes him so much that he, in a child like way, forms a crush on him through that want. It's wholly innocent and serves more as a means for others to tease him when he's older than anything else. I see them as older brother and younger brother dynamic but point stands.

Maiko: Functionally the same as Amada. Won't survive into adulthood. Strong older brother type found her in a moment of unease and change and was a kind constant. That's all.

Takaya: Fucking has something wrong with him. I think there's a deep jealousy and hate inside him to see MC have the life he never got, one of rest and comfort and acceptance without this evil power thrusted upon him. I think he hates MC for thinking he's better then them ( not true) because he's never suffered (not true) and never had the world turn it's back on him (not true). He wishes MC joined them, even still, and I think momentarily mourned that considering how much he tries to make us see his way of thinking. The man lacks strategy it seems so I don't believe it was just "AHH I wanted a strong ally that's alllll" or just "I need the dark hour and tower untouched and unbothered!!". I think he's sick in the head.

This was fun I will be doing the other tiers. Yay

[tajellie07]

Caught

Fandom: Boku no Hero Academia

Tags: no quirks, rainy mood, boyfriend vibes

Pairing: Dabi x Reader

You looked out your window at the cold autumn rain. It's one of those times when your boyfriend would leave on a business trip, and you wouldn't see him for days on end. You flopped onto your bed and curled up. The memories of tussling underneath the sheets sparked a sense of longing. The way his voice drops a few octaves when he says your name, his perpetually warm hands running over your body. You shivered, but it wasn't from the cold. Your fist curled in the sheets as warmth rose deep inside. But are you sure you want to touch yourself? It wasn't as if he forbade it, he just made it very clear he likes to be the one to please you. But he wasn't here right now so... you bit your lip. After a moment of contemplation, you gave in. Your hand snuck into your shorts. Your breaths came out in pants as you imagine his thick digits stretching you, reaching your deeper places.

"Tou", a high whine fell from your lips when you added another finger.

"Seems someone's missing me", Touya's husky drawl sounded behind you.

"Dios!" «My God!» Your neck snapped to the bedroom door, "I knew it!" You pound at the mattress. Of course, you got caught! "Mi Sol", «My sun» you started towards him.

"Stay right there", you froze on the bed. His voice brooked no room for argument. Yet Touya didn't look angry, quite the opposite, he seemed pleased.

You rubbed your thighs together and watched him move around your shared room. You finally gathered the courage and asked, "why didn't you call, Cariño?" «Darling»

"I did", there was a ghost of a smile on his lips as he took off his rings and watch. Then he finally looked at you smirking, "seems you were too preoccupied."

Suddenly the room fell silent, but the atmosphere was warm. Touya leaned against the vanity table and crossed his arms by his chest. His eyes swept over you with a tangible heat. You couldn't help your subtle twitching.

"You don't want those shorts?" he arched a brow.

You quickly rid yourself of the shorts and top, he will rip your clothes. You had barely looked up when his lips crashed into yours. You trembled against him, too taken aback to react. Your breath hitched when two fingers pressed into you without warning. Touya took the opportunity to slip his tongue into your warm cavern. You could feel the smooth metal against your tongue. You were gasping for air when he pulled away.

"Your hips are moving baby", he dragged the word in a way that shouldn't be legal.

Before you could give a snappy retort, Touya sank his teeth into your neck, which earned him a raspy cry. Angled his fingers into your G-spot, hammering at the bundle of nerves as he littered your neck kisses. His lips never left your skin as he pressed your back against the mattress. Kissing down your neck, Touya situated one of your legs over his shoulder, the other by his waist. From your neck, he kissed down the valley between your peeks. He took a hardened nub between his teeth, rolling it while his free hand roamed your exposed middle. Your hand came up to cover your mouth. The muffle moans caught Touya's attention. His eyes became stern as he looked directly into your eyes.

"Don't", you understood and lowered your hands slowly. He pressed a kiss to the abused nub before going even further. He thought about teasing then went against it. He put his tongue flat against you so you can feel the metal balls before dipping in completely. Your back arched off the beat, a cry on your lips. Without realizing it you reached for the closest thing, Touya's hair, and held it with a tight grip.

"Papi", you whined when you felt the vibrations of his moans against your lower lips. He hummed to show he was listening, fresh shivers rocked your body. "Please", you begged. It had been a little over a month, you were needy. Who could blame you? "Damn it Dabi!"

As the words left your mouth, Touya pulled away and flipped you over. "Ah ah ah", he tutted playfully, "I'm the one in charge."

Your arms are held tightly behind you and pressed against your back. The sting in your shoulders made your body arch up naturally. You whined, writhing against the sheets.

"You're not supposed to like it", he chuckled amused.

"Oh shut- Puta Madre!" «Motherfucker!» You moaned as your body arched into him. Without prep or warning, Touya slid in inch by painful inch. "You're lucky I'm a masochist", you panted heavily.

The Jacobs ladder, warmed by his continuously rising body heat, pressed against your walls. You whimpered pitifully. It hurt, but it felt so damn good. Touya continued to press slowly, watching your expression for signs of actual discomfort. Another moan broke from your throat, you clenched around him when he bottomed out. A satisfying hiss left his lips. You got your breathing under control and glanced over your shoulder. Touya merely smiled at you not moving. You pressed against him. Using one hand to keep your wrist bound, the other held your hips in place. You wriggled in vain.

"You better go all out and give me what I bargained for", a serious light glinted in your teary eyes, "or I'm gonna be pissed when I wake up tomorrow." You licked your lips, "Papi~" You were asking for trouble and you knew it.

He finally began to move, the pace abrupt and brutal it ripped a startled cry from your throat. "Don't blame me later", he grinned.

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[belphies-cuhm-sluht]

Can i request the Brothers with mc who is shy and likes to hide behind them when there scared.

Brothers With A Shy GN!MC (Headcanons)

Lucifer

He wanted to start taking you with him to his meetings with Lord Diavolo. You were important to him, just as Lord Diavolo was, and he liked having the two most important people in his life in the same room. Plus, having you there would help make him feel a little less stressed and way less overwhelmed by the way that Lord Diavolo acted.

Walking to the castle was one thing, his fingers slid between your own and holding your hand tightly. He could have just zapped the two of you to the castle, but he really enjoyed the calm, quiet walks he had with you. When the two of you got to the castle, he didn’t even realize at first that you were slowly inching your way further and further behind his back. Barbatos wasn’t exactly scary, he just gave off this… vibe… it was hard to put your finger on.

Once Lord Diavolo came out though, that’s when he noticed that his arm was now completely bent behind his back, as were you, and you were holding his hand so tightly, if you were any stronger you’d probably cut off the circulation in his fingers.

He held up his finger to Lord Diavolo, silently asking for a second so that he could talk to you in private, pulling you to the side and out of earshot of everyone else in the room. His smile was soft and warm as he listened to you, nodding slowly and thinking of ways that he could make this easier for you.

“If you’d like to go back to the house, I absolutely understand, dear. I wouldn’t mind keeping you on my lap though, if that would make you feel better. Whatever makes you comfortable, I’ll do it for you.”

Mammon

You were unsure whether he was capable of being shy. It would probably be strange for someone like him to feel that way. He was a model, he was in magazines, he had photoshoots lined up for the next year and a half. You never questioned whether he felt that way because he never gave you a reason to. He was outgoing, boisterous, and easily excitable.

His modeling gigs were a big thing for him, something that he wanted you to be a part of as well. Not in front of the camera obviously, well, unless you wanted to be in the pictures with him. The main reason he didn’t want you to be in the magazines with him though is because he didn’t want any other demons looking at you. Not that he’d ever have to worry about that.

He walked into the warehouse with you, the lights were bright and everything was… so much… It was a lot to take in. You didn’t know how he could possibly handle that at all, so much attention, it seemed scary. Showing you around wasn’t bad, but then he started introducing you to people and you couldn’t handle that. You slowly moved to stand behind Mammon, holding onto his shirt and trying to hide your face in his back. He turned around to look at you, kind of confused with the way you were acting. Your voice was low and timid as you explained and his eyes went soft as he started dragging you towards the exit.

“I didn’t know yer that shy, babe. I wouldn’ta pulled ya out here if I did. We’re goin’ back home, I didn’t need those pics anyway. Come on.”

Leviathan

If there was anyone as shy as you were, it was Levi. The guy hated leaving the house and being in public settings as much as you did, but when it came up that he was meeting with a couple of the demons that he played online with and he wanted you to come you almost choked on your water.

Of all the brothers, you never once expected that he’d be the one who wanted you to go out and be around people that you didn’t know at all, like, not even one little bit. You had heard him talk to these people so many times, but you didn’t know one thing about them, and now you were supposed to sit at a restaurant with like, five of them and stay the entire time? You were already slightly panicking just at the thought of it.

You were practically shaking as the both of you walked up to the restaurant, scooching further and further behind Levi until you couldn’t be seen by anyone in front of him, and hopefully by none of his friends either. He took a second to look around the restaurant, spotting his friends who all waved in his direction, and then he looked beside himself only to see that you weren’t there. Mini panic attack, but once he sees you behind him he lets out a sigh of relief, shoving his hands in his pockets while looking back and forth between you and the table full of his online friends.

He didn’t waste a minute, shaking his head to his friends before walking back out of the restaurant with you next to him instead of behind him.

“I didn’t want to be there either. We’ll order Akudonalds… marathon an anime, alright? Just the two of us. We’re never doing something like that again.”

Satan

Interacting with people was such a hassle, and he felt like he lost half of his IQ points whenever he had to even be around any other than you and certain brothers that he can actually tolerate. That’s why when Lucifer told him about some silly formal event at Lord Diavolos castle, he did everything, literally everything to try to get out of it.

Much to both of your disappointments, there was nothing either of you could do to not go. To Satan it sounded lame, and to you, it sounded absolutely awful. Having to get dressed up and be around a bunch of people, a bunch of demons who probably didn’t like you in the first place because you were a human. Nope, it sounded like a nightmare and you’d very much like to take a sick day and just not go.

The both of you walked into the castle, arm in arm. The main foyer was already packed with demons dressed in their finest, and even if they weren’t looking at you, it sure as hell felt like they were. It was hard to move behind Satan's back with the way your arms were connected, but that didn’t stop you from unhooking your arm and moving behind him anyway. You didn’t want to be looked at by anyone but him, and now he was definitely looking at you.

Explaining to him was easy, and while he obviously cared about how you felt right now, it was also a great excuse to get out of there.

“I promise, when we get back to the house, we’ll sit by the fire in the library, and I’ll read to you all the books you want me to. But first…thank you for this wonderful reason to not have to be here. Let’s go.”

Asmodeus

The two of you were polar opposites in the social department, and while most people would think that would be a problem, it was actually really nice. You balanced each other out, and he was always mindful of how you felt in social settings.

Taking walks with him wasn’t something that you could do often considering he was a high profile demon, basically celebrity status. On the very rare occasion that you could walk together down the streets of the Devildom, he and you took full advantage of it. You knew that you didn’t have a lot of time to enjoy it though, there would always be the one fan who would cause a scene, and then a mob of other demons would start running in your direction and he’d quickly have to get you home. It wasn’t all that bad, but it did become irritating and having that many people come at you at once was always a nightmare.

This walk was no different, and as soon as you saw the first demon, heard the first squeal, you shifted yourself to stand behind him, squeezing your eyes shut and waiting for it all to end. You felt his hand reach back to grab your own, comforting you as he dealt with the fans that had circled you.

He turned to you as soon as they were dispersed, smiling sweetly at you as he brushed his thumb across your cheek.

“Perhaps next time we’ll take a stroll through the garden instead. How does that sound, my love? Just the two of us, under the stars… I’ll pick your outfit and everything! We’ll both look beautiful!”

Beelzebub

Being the center of attention wasn’t a big deal to him, it neither made him happy or upset him. His ability to focus on something that was most important to him and completely ignore the world around him was a gift, one that you wished that you could obtain.

His favorite places were either being with you and Belphie, or being at the gym, and he came up with the sweetest idea that instead of having his two favorite things at two different times, why not just bring his favorite people to his favorite place?! To him it was the best idea he’s ever had, but to you it was the craziest thing you’ve ever heard. The gym? With a bunch of other demons? Demons who might look at you? Absolutely not. You were still adjusting to being with Beel in the same room as Belphie when it was movie night… and you knew the guy!

Of course, you loved Beel, so you weren’t going to turn down his offer, especially since he seemed so happy about it. It wouldn’t hurt to test the waters a little bit, try to get used to things. No harm in trying… right? Wrong. As soon as you got in, everyone in the place came up to Beel, asking him about weights and spotting and a bunch of other gym things that you couldn’t even focus on because the only thing you could hear more clearly than their words was your heart pounding in your chest.

He could see you move behind him out of the corner of his eye and he felt bad… he felt really bad. He didn’t even question you until he got you out of the gym and back to the house.

“I’m sorry, honey… I’ll have a rest day, and I’ll spend it here with you. We can have snacks and movies, or we can just… snuggle…? Would you like that?”

Belphegor

This man hated being out in public probably more than you did. Not because he was particularly shy, he just hated people that weren’t you or Beel. It was a logical reason, one that you understood, and you didn’t blame him for it. You’d much rather stay in the attic with him all day than have to actually face anyone.

His brothers had different plans for the both of you, and by his brothers, it was just Mammon who wanted to spend time with his little brother. You were all for staying home while Mams took Belphie out, but he refused to let you stay home. If he had to leave the house, so did you. Neither of you were happy about it, but Mammon seemed so excited, and Belphie found out that he didn’t have to pay for anything, so it might actually be worth it… might. He’s not banking on it.

Apparently there was a fair going through the Devildom and Mammon thought that it would be something that Belphie would like… all the noise and lights and… He actually thought it was something that Belphie would enjoy. It’s the thought that counts though, and Mammon really wanted to spend time with Belphie so you couldn’t hate the guy for trying by good god the place was packed. It was awful, and it was loud, and there were people everywhere. It was a nightmare on steroids, the only thing worse would be having to make a public speech in front of all these people.

You didn’t just hide behind Belphie’s back, you got behind him and wrapped your arms as tightly around him as you possibly could, not wanting to get swept away in the sea of people. What better way than to become a statue in the middle of the walk way? He chuckled softly, patting your hands as he called out to Mammon to tell him he was going home before turning around and walking leaving the fairgrounds.

“Don’t change. Never change… and go with me everywhere my brothers force me to go… okay? I really like having you around.”