#Its 4am........sigh
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Finally got glisten... I got to bed now
#I AM FREEE#Well im not actually free until i get Vee. But rn i have glisten and that's all that matters#Its 4am........sigh#text#text post
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"Remember, no tears, okay?"
#pingdoobles#fnaf daycare attendant#fnaf dca#fnaf sb#fnaf au#fnaf eclipse#fnaf#fnaf dca au#dca fandom#dca au#dca eclipse#dca#EBY#eclipsed by you#cw bright colors#cw eyestrain#eyestrain#bright colors#i was feeling some type of way i think#the au name is kind of placeholder but tbh it's growing on me#its messy as fuck but its almost 4am i was NAWWTT attempting to clean this up im gonna SLEEP!!!#i should really get to writing that first chapter for AO3 sigh#EBY eclipse
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shoganai daburu nanda……….
#milgram#milgram fanart#milgram project#mikoto kayano#john milgram#milgram john#midokotos just… hinted by the green part i guess… hmm.. sorry mido ill draw you next..#es’ art journal#wanted to say it was my favorite sketch but i took 3 hours crying over centralizing the damn drawing….#sigh… but personall a fav mikoto doodle… his hair looks more detailed here thanks to this brush. i also finally drew the t2 outfit for the#second time. so like thays an improvement…#its 4AM PELASE
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i wish i could get normal sleepy like you read about in books where people just slowly get more tired as it gets later and then go to bed and fall asleep. instead i only experience Worse Sleepy, where i get slammed by an utter wave of dizzy exhaustion 3 times a day at random, during which i am capable of falling asleep within 10 minutes, but outside these (which last about 15 min each) i go RIGHT back to being either Awake or Awake But Shaking. and if i try to fall asleep in either of those states instead it takes me over an hour.
#i just had one of the waves but its 8pm!!!! thats too early!!!#if i go to sleep now (which also. is a RACE to get in place before it ends) i will just wake up at 1am forever whcih is worse#SIGH#i always think having a 2-3 hour sleep night like i did last ngiht will cure me but 90% of the time it just means more Shaking#not even more Sleepy#which is CHEATING on the universes part i think#anyway gonna treat myself to bedtime ibuprofen tonight and im hype about it#this is what makes an exciting night in ur 30s kids#ramblings#i usually get a wave between 1-4 which is the devils nap siren call and must NOT be answered#and one between like 5-8pm which is too early to be useful#THEN NOTHING TIL 4AM#then im so tired between 6-11am every day no matter what#thank u dspd
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sighs i wish ppl weren't in constant state of criticising media. its ok pointing out flaws and issues and especially if its something that is wrong -> like bad bad rep or weird content.
however. someone can like something thats mediocre. thats okay. i can enjoy a story thats a 6/10 at best and find a personal enjoyment of 10/10 from it.
even if i genuinely thought it was peak content, and it wasn't, theres nothing WRONG about that. why is everyone up on their high horses acting like theyre better than other people because they watch [ public agreed ] high quality media.
let me like my shittly written series' in peace and stop scrutinising every minute detail or i might go insane
#rant#delete later#its 4am im just raging#SIGHS#😭#like i reallt dislike mha but im not gonna start getting on someones ass abt it#bec i know i like stuff which is the same quality level or even worse#like omfg#ITS MEDIA#ITS TO TELL A LESSON OR FOR ENJOYMENT#IF ITS ENJOYMENT LET ME.LIVE#prsk id also not very good writing but !! OKAY AND !!! MY SILLIES ANYWAY !!!#ravenclod yaps
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i could make an incredible cell/cells joke right now if thedas had bothered to invent microbiology yet and im mad about it
#absolutely maddening trying to figure out how advanced science has gotten in any fantasy world but DA has never been straightforward#IT SHOULDNT STOP... MAGIC SHOULD MAKE SCIENCE HAPPEN FASTER ACTUALLY#i want to Believe but most of thedas hasnt even invented gunpowder yet which came like. SOOOOO much earlier in IRL science#but also we cant make explosions through sheer Willpower (IVE TRIED)#so it makes sense the only ppl who figured that one out are the ones who almost eliminated all mages in their society/contain the rest#ANYWAY. sigh#ramblings#my writing#its 4am this is my sign to go to Sleep fuck
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just recorded a video and finished the last chapter for underwater...
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rocketpoweredmohawk irritates me so bad
he knows hes an ableist cunt but simply doesn't care
#sighed loudly#idk#its 4am#im tired#does this make sense#f1#formula 1#lance stroll#aston martin#ls18
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just found out that some people apparently think milo murphy's law is transmisogynistic, perry is bad ace rep because he's ace as the "safe" option for queer rep, dan and swampy are bigots who shoehorn all of their queerphobic rhetoric into all of their media, and that phineas and ferb was a bigot's paradise all along... it's joever
#i just find it ironic considering a whole lot of dwampyverse fans are queer and enjoy what the shows have given us#and are appreciative of perry being ace rep#i never once thought of any of this in a negative light before#but the video i just watched (which is like. 30 minutes of reaching and has 18k likes) just frustrates me#i personally dont think the krill hunter episode was a jab at trans people and instead was just a deliberate joke about cis men#but i guess people think otherwise? idk#the only thing i ever found questionable at all in any dwampyverse thing was the tokyo segment of summer belongs to you#just... sigh... i guess im not allowed to enjoy dwampyverse content as a queer person of color anymore...#pack it up everyone... it's over#i have so many reasons for why i disagree with a majority of these takes but#ive already spoken about it so much elsewhere and its 7 in the morning and i feel physically drained#from reading about first world white queer discourse about non-issues#had to shake out the last of the ranting somewhere to feel at ease now im going back to sleep#wish pain from my operated foot didnt wake me up at 4am and my cat didnt keep me awake now i feel so chronically online#ria.txt#work has been a bitch but ill hopefully post art stuff soon...#though after the whole hacking thing i feel like restarting this blog#tags are longer than the actual post sorry im tired and yelling into the void
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am i the only one who feels like forcing a nuclear family dynamic onto switch is like seriously infantilizing to sora. he and natsume are literally like one year apart .. and him being as strongly autistic coded makes it more uncomfortable tbh
oh no i totally get that! i do think there are instances where people really water sora down to simply being a "child" which really sucks. im someone whos autistic myself so i also understand the discomfort that comes with this
i will say though i feel the issue is less "viewing switch as a family where sora is their kid" and more "viewing sora AS a kid" because hes approaching 18 years old himself now. itd be gross to continue infantilizing him
i feel like the reason this happens so often though is because in the text itself sora gets coddled alot by natsume and tsumugi. natsume sometimes outright being written like an overbearing parent to sora. but i dont think this is the writers infantilizing him either. rather i think this is the writers trying to create parallels in the story
natsume is someone who hates being coddled and seen as a child and weak, yet after the war he was left with just that. feeling like a weak child who couldnt do anything and was protected by his niisans, but still left all alone by himself. and then the next year starts and he runs into sora again. we dont know how this encounter really went, all we know is sora felt alone and like an outcast and was taken in by natsume and tsumugi. i think when natsume saw sora like this he couldnt help but see himself in him. seeing that weak child he himself was (esp since when natsume was an actual kid he would also speak in third person like sora) and i think this was what triggered him to basically devote himself to protecting sora. not wanting what happened to natsume to happen to him either. but he failed to realize that, while his actions are out of nothing but love, hes doing the very thing he hated when people did to him. sora loves natsume more than anything of course and doesnt seem to mind too much, but even sora has stated numerous times that hes not a kid and doesnt wish to be viewed as one. and iirc didnt tsumugi also once say natsumes "refusal to let sora grow up" was a cruel thing to do to sora or something to that effect?
i feel like people see natsumes (and in turn charas like the oddballs) treatment of sora and view it very surface level. they see him coddle sora and in turn wish to do so too! but in doing so it overlooks WHY natsume is doing this and the complexities of it all, and in turn leads to sora being infantilized
what i wanna say is i dont think theres anything wrong with portraying switch as a family. i dont think theres anything wrong with viewing sora as a cute little guy! but when you start viewing him as an incompetent child who needs guidance and cant do anything on his own without natsume or tsumugi is when it starts getting really gross. i dont think we should shame people for how they find joy in switchs relationship with one another, but i wish we wouldnt reduce them to roles and tropes. theyre complex characters ! hes not a kid hes his own person !!
#im still awake. heavy sigh#sorry if this is incoherent its approaching 4am i gotta be up at 8 oops#ask#all of this is like my own interpretation btw yada yada
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I hate when you're very sure you're over something, but then you're awake at 4am and clearly Not Over it yet :/
#something something thinking about how my childhood ex-best friend is the reason i think everyone is gonna leave me eventuality lol#and i havent thought about them in YEARS#but the past 8 months it's been bad again#like. it could justify going back to therapy bad#and its gotten better. at least i dont hate my birthday anymore like i did though all of high school#and like. okay it basically stems from how i was the only one who put in effort into maintaining our friendship after#we went to different high school#and they would hang out with the other memeber of our friend trio but NEVER would ask me#and things then slowly fell apart#and that period of my life was when i was the most depressed and heartbroken#it's so much better now#cuz i realized#“well. i cant stop people from leaving me. the only thing i can do is be a good friend and trust them not to break my heart like ***** did”#cuz like. im still best friends with my kindergarten bestie. so like#***** is an outlier and should not be counted#and most of my friends are extremely introverted or on anti-depressants. so i dont mind being the one who makes plans#but sometimes its 4am and the thoughts GET TO ME#sigh sigh sigh#“***** is an outlier and should not be counted” damn. that actually does help.#thanks 4am brain <3#unfortunately its 5am and im too awake now rip#ive had friends comment over the last year about how much they appreciate the effort i put in#why can't i just cling onto THAT#sigh sigh#it'll get better
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not to sound like one of THOSE tool fans but. . when they made Lateralus. . ..yeah they did that....
#its 4am.#shakes water bottle#idc abt the Incredibly Deep Message You Can Never Truly Understand Unless You Complete This 10000 Day Ritual#that everyone makes a big deal about#(see what i did there)#good song sound good yeah#sigh#i love tool#go relax and listen to lateralus#they said dont analyze it#turn ur brain off just this once Mr. Tool Fan No.12789#its gonna be ok
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genuinely kind of miserable over where worms at rn too . betrayal arcs always make me so sad
#im glad shes still in good graces w lisa#WHO *KNEW* BTW.#and the descriptions of coils power is really cool if a little confusing << this is probably bc i was readimg it at like 4am. however.#im on the coil interlude rn but taylors last thing left off on a cliffhanger and im afraid her answer was no. because shes gonna be ALONE#and its gonna be SELF IMPOSED isolation and thats gonna make me REALLY sad bc im gonna miss brian and alec and rachel#like i know theyre not gonna be gone for GOOD but also. i definitely dont think theyll be around as much as they have been . sigh#THIS IS NOT DETERRING ME BTW. AT ALL. I STILL WANT NOTHING MORE THAN TO BE READING RN#i have a bunch of like. silly fun not story based podcasts to catch up on while im at work#bc i need constant background noise or else ill die#but also those are kind of killing me to listen to rn becasue all i want are my silly little characters#i GUESS i can relisten to more pd. but thay will just make me want to think about pd.#SUFFERING today lads. someone save me
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can't sleep :(
#its 4am#i still havent slept#not even one second#ive been laying here for hours#im bored#& also kind of sad that im not falling asleep#was on tumblr the last 20 minutes so i have something to do cause it got a bit unbearable#gonna try falling asleep again now#:/ sigh#diary#thoughts
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I am so sorry for all of you who followed me because of my Alicent thingy thinking I am doing something interesting here cause
...you will get spammed alright
Like spammed spammed. Like very spammed. Spamming is how I do things here
So, my apologies in advance 😭
#its 4am and i should not be here but GUESS who is up#i love random cases of insomnia#its like it comes over to see me have an actual sleep routine and goes#'damn bitch you live like this?'#sigh
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just kinda dying over all things zackseph atm 🫠
#zackseph#sephzack#its 4am#listened to hero after a fic binge#sigh#love this pair so much#they are beautiful#🥹
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