#i just had one of the waves but its 8pm!!!! thats too early!!!

[songofsaraneth]

i wish i could get normal sleepy like you read about in books where people just slowly get more tired as it gets later and then go to bed and fall asleep. instead i only experience Worse Sleepy, where i get slammed by an utter wave of dizzy exhaustion 3 times a day at random, during which i am capable of falling asleep within 10 minutes, but outside these (which last about 15 min each) i go RIGHT back to being either Awake or Awake But Shaking. and if i try to fall asleep in either of those states instead it takes me over an hour.

[eiro-ae]

Unsure

Genre: Fluff, slight angst

Word Count: 1.6k

Warnings: None

It was late afternoon when you had managed to make it home, a cute valentines gift bag in your hands, full with gifts and a card for your one and only valentine. It had taken you so long to hand make half of these items, but it was definitely worth it. You placed the bag on display on your kitchen counter before making your way to your room and pulling out your phone.

[6:23pm] Whatcha doin?

You waited for a moment, a giddy smile upon your face.

[6:27pm] Practice.

The one word response was a little new, he had always made time to give you an appropriate response because he knew you hated one word responses. However, you let it slide, just thinking that he must be super busy.

[6:29pm] I have something for you. Can you text me when you’re available?

Another moment passed, the three dots seemingly permanent on the screen.

[6:32pm] Sure, it’ll be a little bit though.

As much as you had hoped it would be sooner, you understood that he was busy, so you gave a small pout before replying.

[6:34pm] Okay, that’s fine.

To pass time, you laid there, scrolling through youtube. A few funny videos popped up, and of course you had to watch those. One in particular had almost brought you to tears from laughing so hard, so you decided to send it to Yangyang. You didn’t expect any response, and as you expected, you got nothing.

You continued to wait, for much longer than you wanted. It was getting later and later and not a single word from Yangyang. Your heart began to drop, bringing your mind to a thinking state. A state you knew you didn’t need to be in. You always overthought things, and you knew that, but you just couldn’t help it. Yangyang was the first good thing that has ever happened to you and you were just so scared that he too would get tired of you and walk out on you.  

It was now 8pm, and you still hadn’t heard a single word from him. Does he even know what today is? Did he just forget? Those questions brought you to another question, one that you had put off for so long. What are we?

You and Yangyang had been friends for so long, and you obviously had a massive crush on him, but… when he asked you to be his girlfriend, he was so confident. He kind of laughed about it, as if it was a joke. Of course you said yes, you’d be a fool to say no. His face had fallen, he seemed so shocked that you had said yes. You couldn’t tell if it was because he wasn’t expecting you to feel the same way, or if he was shocked you took his joke seriously. He never said anything about it, instead he just said okay before running off with his friends.

Now that you two were… together? You hated that you couldn’t quite label it. Anyway, he doesn’t treat you like his girlfriend. He still treats you like a friend. He never holds your hand, he never kisses you, he never calls you any names other than your name or some stupid nickname he gave you in middle school. You were starting to wonder if maybe he was joking that day, that he didn’t actually want you to take it seriously.

You shot up from your lying position, eyes wide and mind racing. Was he joking that day and now has to deal with you because you said yes? Was he just trying not to hurt your feelings? Did he not want you? Is that why he’s so distant? It would make sense. You could feel the familiar sting in your eyes, trying your hardest to push back the tears, telling yourself it was a stupid reason to cry and that you were just overthinking things again, but it only made it worse.

You gripped onto the pillow you had been holding before shoving your face into it as you cried. You didn’t even notice your phone going off behind you.

[8:22pm] Okay, I’m done. What’s up?

[8:29pm] Hello? Did you fall asleep? It says you’re reading my messages

[8:34pm] I know you’re awake, you never sleep this early.

You still didn’t even notice that he was blowing up your phone, even when he called you.

[8:37pm] 1 missed call

[8:43pm] 2 missed calls

[8:48pm] 3 missed calls

He was determined to reach you, but you just wouldn’t answer your phone. He knew how you were so it was only beginning to worry him.

[8:51pm] Please answer me, you’re starting to make me worry.

[8:56pm] This isn’t like you… what's wrong?

At this point you had calmed down with the tears, instead you laid there in your bed, curled up like a child, completely forgetting that you even had a phone.

[9:16pm] Fuck this, I’m coming over.

The tears had picked back up, and you hated yourself for it. You kept telling yourself to stop being a baby, that it’s a dumb reason to cry. After another ten minutes you had expected it to die down again, but it only picked up even more and you were to the point where you were choking on your tears. You didn’t even hear the door to your apartment open, nor the footsteps that led to the opening of your bedroom door as well.

Yangyang stood there, watching your shaking figure and listening as you cried. His heart had dropped and he was more than confused. He slowly made his way to you, announcing his presence.

“No, no, no, come here.” He lifted you up as he sat on your bed before pulling you to him. You latched onto him, crying into his shoulder. You wanted to stop but it was only making it worse now that he was here.

After a good few minutes, you were able to calm down enough to pull away from him. He looked down at you with a concerned expression.

“Why were you crying?” He asked you softly as he moved a strand of hair from your face. You didn’t know how to tell him, you felt like maybe he’d just look at you like you were stupid for it. However he has a way of making you tell him what he wanted to know so you just learned to give up and tell him anyway.

“I.. um…” You sighed, looking away from him. “What are we?” You deadpanned, bringing a wave of silence into the room. Yangyangs brows furrowed as he thought about the question.

“What do you mean?” He asked, genuinely confused at the question.

“I mean.. You asked me to be your girlfriend, but you looked so surprised when I said yes.” You started. He was still quite obviously confused.

“Well I mean, I was…?” How did you even properly explain to him how you felt?

“I know but… it seemed like maybe you were joking when you asked me out? And maybe you were shocked because I took your joke seriously? I mean, you haven’t treated me any different from that day. You never hold my hand, you never call me any cute names, you never kiss me, you never do anything and I was starting to wonder if you were just dealing with me because you didn’t want to hurt my feelings.” It was silent again, and you were starting to regret even telling him that.

“That’s not it at all.” He states plainly, going to grab your hand before sighing.

“It was never a joke, I wanted you, I still want you. I was surprised because you said yes so quickly and I was expecting a no. I was so nervous that day but I had to do it. I never do anything with you because I’ve been too nervous to. I didn’t want to move too fast because I didn’t want to scare you off. I guess that was the wrong choice. I never meant to make you feel like I didn’t want you.” The explanation was enough to make you cry again, but you forced them back. Yangyangs hand made its way to your cheek, rubbing away the tears that had already fallen.

“If you want me to hold your hand, just tell me. If you want me to call you baby, I will. If you want me to kiss you, don’t hesitate to ask me. I’d love to do all these things, I just didn’t want to rush you.” You looked up at him with glossy eyes, searching for any hint of insincerity in his own, but there was none.

“Kiss me.” You spoke softly. A soft smile tugged at his lips as he looked down to yours. He angled your face as he leaned down, his eyes closing as his soft lips met your own. The kiss you shared was gentle, but it meant so much to you. You kissed him back with such feeling, and you could almost understand how he felt just by the way he kissed you. When he pulled away, you were slightly disappointed, wanting nothing more then to attach your lips to his once more. He gazed down at you with a smile.

“So.. about that gift.” You let out a giggle before lightly smacking his arm.

“Kiss me again and I’ll go get it for you.” He smiled before leaning down to meet your lips once more.

“Gladly.”

This was based on a dream that I had. I honestly forgot I wrote it but I thought I’d go ahead and post it. 

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Wanna-One Ha Sungwoon - Communication

✽ suggested by crunkykiss :)

✽ featuring: ha sungwoon

✽ genre: fluff

✽ word count: 1,255 words

✽ summary: who knew that even a language barrier couldn’t affect mutual love?

recently you transferred to this boarding school in seoul as your parents found a good job there

having learned korean for only a short amount of time, you were not able to construct simple sentences or phrases

so this kindof created a language barrier between you and majority of the students, who only knew korean

however, to ease your transition into the school, the school principal has assigned you to a “buddy”, who knows korean and english

basically like a lil portable translator

so you basically stuck to her like a magnet

barely knowing the korean language, you decided to take external classes to learn korean yourself to prevent any miscommunications between you and other people

you had to travel about half an hour after school everyday to this tuition center where they had korean lessons

so your schedule was extremely packed and hectic

sometimes you just felt like moving to seoul was not worth it and you wanted to go back to (insert your origin country here)

one day when you were on the subway to get to the tuition center, and your classmate, ha sungwoon

as he did not exactly talk to you often, he was not aware that you have problems speaking korean

he sat down beside you and started speaking korean, which was totally gibberish

all you could make out was “hello, i am ha sungwoon”

and yeah thats about it

he then started stuttering and kindoff looked away many times

you had no idea what he was saying!!!

his face became really red

after he ended his sentence he just looked at the floor

he then covered his face and became mumbling to himself

{how do i tell him in korean, that i don’t know korean!! what is this situation}

you looked back at him, to see him looking at you, with this sort of fear on his face

“i don’t know korean”

he looked at you for a moment and kindoff just retracted

“you.. don’t understand?”

he said it in his korean accent and paused after each word which kindoff made it sound funny

you laughed and nodded

he kindoff got shocked and looked away in shame, once again blushing

“it’s ok sungwoon,”

and before you know it, you actually reached your stop

you wanted to wave goodbye to sungwoon, but he stood up with you?

you two exited the train together, without saying a word

unknowingly, you two began walking together, and approached the same building

“y-you, go here too?” he asked

you nod your head

he then smiles and acknowledges your answer

before separating to different classes, he waved goodbye to you

you waved back, only to see him depart, skipping away

{lol what a dork}

as the lessons progressed, you progressively began to understand korean better

you desperately tried to remember what sungwoon was trying to say on the subway that day

but you can’t get yourself to remember what he said, since it was such a blur

so you just tried to forget it

the next week, you took the same train to go to the same tuition center

for some reason, you caught yourself looking around the cabin trying to find sungwoon

unfortunately you couldn’t exactly find him

which kindoff make you feel a bit sad

when you reached the tuition center, you found out you were actually 20 minutes early

“great..”

so you just sat outside the building on one of the benches

occasionally, you just glanced around, hoping sungwoon would appear

for some reason, you just felt like seeing his beaming face that day

until it was time to start class, and you begin gathering your stuff you place on the bench

“y/n!!”

you spun around, only to see sungwoon running as fast as possible

his hair was all messed up

you couldn’t help but laugh a bit

when he reached, you noticed his forehead was all wet

you whipped out a tissue from your bag and gave it to him

he smiled, beginning to dab his forehead

“thank you!”

you looked a bit shocked

after waiting for him, you two walked in together

you saw him running towards the english block

{so he takes english? maybe to communicate with me, ahh what are you saying, you are nothing to him aha}

for a few more weeks, you two continued the cycle of waiting for one another before heading to the tuition center

he even began speaking small phrases in english

you spoke in korean as well, and he patiently corrected you

it seems as if those half an hour rides to the tuition center weren’t so dull anymore

after each session, even if his lesson ends earlier than yours he would wait since it usually ends around 8pm-9pm

he couldn’t bear to have you walk alone at night (AWW such bf material)

after one of your late sessions he was walking you home

its been about 6 months since you two began talking, and you felt that it was the right time to cONFESS

when you two reached your gate, you pulled out a hand-written note from your pocket and placed it in his hand

you thought it would be kindoff heartfelt if you wrote it in korean, so you did

he looked a bit shocked

before you could open the gate and enter the house, he taps you on the shoulder

you turned around, and he also puts a note in your hand

you both made eyecontact and he broke it by looking away

“this is for you, please read it”

you asked him to read it too (in korean) and he smiled

after waving goodbye, you immediately slammed the gate shut and ran up to your room (girl you cannot contain your excitement can you)

you flopped down on your bed without even removing your socks and immediately started reading the letter

oBVIOUSLY it was a lil love letter written in english, by the one and only sungwoon

he explained that he was trying to get your attention ever since you entered the school, and he never got the courage to talk to you

until the day on the subway

on the letter, he wrote a phrase that he stated he said on the subway

after reading it and translating it a little, you let the letter slip out of your hand

{sungwoon actually said that i looked pretty that day}

you hugged your stuffed toy and kindoff just layed there for half an hour staring at the ceiling

{what do i do now??}

after going through your bedtime routine, you laid down on your bed and settled into your bed

as you closed your eyes, you got a notification on your phone

“good night, y/n” - sungwoon

you kindoff just fluttered inside

“good night, sungwoon” -y/n

after that night, you two were super close to each other

you two interchangeably spoke korean and english to each other

after your language classes he also enjoyed bringing you to cafés where you two can have late dinner together

you also kindoff like making fun of his height since you were still growing and he stopped at 168cm

“y/n, stop sucking the growth out of me, i need it more than you”

you would just laugh and pinch his cheek, which he kindoff hates since he hates being cute and wants to be manly

even though he just acts cute all the time (boi choose one)

but he bears with it because he knows you love it

yall are cute bye

✽ this may be a bit short im sorry!! hope you enjoyed :)

✽ suggestions box is open!

✽ i might be offline more frequently, finals are coming up ://

[boddari]

170224 First SF9 fansign experience

Hi so yes as what the title said I’ll be writing about my very first fansign experience in Seoul. I really wanted to go to a fansign at least for once in my life, and trust me, it’s worthit.

I’ve been liking SF9 (secretly) and I happen to be in Seoul during ROAR promotion. I went to Korea with two of my friends who, is a fan of EXO and the other one is not really a big fan of idols. I wanted to go to music shows to see them performing but I didn’t want to leave my friends so I ended up not going. However, on Tuesday, I suggested my friends to go see some idols leaving from The Show and they agreed so we went there and I saw SF9 for the first time. ;__; (ok sorry its not related to the fansign but I just wanted to share)

Here is the real story. On Monday, 20th Feb, SF9_FANCLUB announced on twitter that there will be a fansign at Yeouido on the 24th.

I was hesitating whether I should just try my luck (because fansign is a lottery and you are not guaranteed to go in). The period of buying the albums at the store are from 21~23 Feb, I needed to go to the store at Yeouido.

So basically here are the things you should take note:

Date and time of the fansign: 24th Feb 2017 at 7:30PM KST

Location of the fansign: Noryangjin CTS Art Hall (Private fansign) *private fansign means its inside a hall / *take note they usually don’t tell you which floor is the fansign hall so you need to ask the staffs there

Period of buying the albums: 21-23 Feb 2017 8PM KST

CD Store: Yeouido IFC Mall basement 2nd floor

Winner announcement: 23rd Feb 2017 10PM KST at ypbookstore website *it might different for fansigns

Short story I went to the mall and bought the albums, waited for the announcement and got into the fansign, it was like one of the happiest moment in my life.

Finally d-day I deadass still couldn’t believe I’m going to a fansign and went to the venue like super early because I don’t want to be late for it (lol). Waited for like 15 minutes outside the hall before we could pick a random number (for our seat inside) and then go in. I took a number and picked 32!!! I went inside and turns out I was in the middle 3rd row and I freaked out.

It was closer than what I expected and it was kinda like a 'Hot seat' because there were 2 people trying to exchange seats with me. Thank God I said I didn't want to, if not I won't be sitting infront of Hwiyoung (huhu).

When I was waiting for my turn, I called Hwiyoung because he was waiting for the next person to get signed and the fan sitting beside me (a korean) is super nice and friendly, she asked me if I wanted help because my voice was too soft (I was shy lol) so we called Hwiyoung together and he waved!! Anyway the seating arragement of the members that day are Zuho, Rowoon, Chani, Dawon, Jaeyoon, Inseong, Taeyang, Hwiyoung, Youngbin.

Before we go up to get our albums signed, the staff will tell us to put a small sticky note and write the members’ names so that it will be easier for them to find their page. We got to write post its for each member.

First was Zuho, damn.. He is so freaking hot I can’t breathe at that point, he signed the page, read my post it, I asked him if he were a girl who does he want to date. He answered no one, its better for him to be alone rather than dating the members lmao. And then he put down his pen, and stared at me I DIDN’T KNOW WHAT TO SAY, I forgot what I wanted to say. So I was like “Hi, its my first time going to a fansign..” he responded “oh, its your first time? where are you from?” told him I come from Indonesia, he said he went there and Malaysia too when he was young but he forgot where was it. He asked me if Indonesia and Malaysia are just beside each other and I was like.. um yeah. LOL I was very nervous at that time. I even forgot that we are the same age because he really looks and speaks like an oppa I’m gone o<-< we said bye bye and he said let’s meet next time!

Next, Rowoon’s turn. His first impression was “Oh, Anastasia~!”. On my post it I asked him what to do if I miss him. He was like “If you miss me.... JUST COME!” asdfgsd... ;___; okay but for real I didn’t expect him to answer it like that so I was very flustered and was like “Uh?? Come??”. And since my korean isn’t that good I actually wanted to say “Where to get all the money?!” but I just ended up laughing... He continued “Whenever!” and he wrote “Come whenever, we are going to work hard.” Then I suddenly blurted out “Oppa, you’re so handsome” (Why.. in the world.. I said oppa..) He said “Ah no..” and then I continued “We are the same age but can I call you oppa?” Guess what was his answer? “Ofcourse you can!”. Then when I was about to move to Chani I said “I love you!!” and he gave me a ♡ sobs he’s the cutest. ;___;

Chani was so fluffy and cute with his mushroom-like hair. I asked him how old do I look and we had some miscommunication right there and I just told him that I’m a 96liner. He asked me where do I come from, told him from Indonesia and asked if he knows Indonesia (LOL SORRY) and he said “ofcourse I know!!!!”. He said I look like a cat sobs and drew a cat for me and he did that “Jjan~~~ jjan~~~~” sound while drawing. I told him I watch Signal and he said thankyou and bye bye.

Next was Dawon. I don’t know how to explain, he’s such a bias wrecker and is VERY handsome irl I was so mind blown. When he first read my name he said “Anastasia? It’s not your real name right???” Damn Dawon, tbh I was abit sad back then, feels like the name doesn’t suit me that you had to ask something like that lmao :\ he also asked if in Indonesia they use ‘Anastasia’ as names, I was confused???? Seriously, he needs to come to Indonesia and see that there are alot of pretty names here.. Okay continue, I asked him to write a message for me in english. He forgot about english for a moment and was like “What is there to write..” so I told him its fine to write in korean. In the end he wrote “Thank u for coming.. I love you” love his effort eventhough its just a simple message. Before I move on the Jaeyoon, he said my name is pretty~

Jaeyoon is the most sincere person omg I just love him so much he’s so nice and so bubbly!! He also asked if Anastasia is my real name and I was like yes! Then he signed the page and read the post it I asked him what does international fans mean to him. He tried to speak english because he knew I’m not from Korea I’m so touched ;___; but he had some difficulties so I told him that he could use korean!! He was so shocked and was like “OOOHHHH” CUTEST! He told me that international fans are his power.

Inseong and me spoke english most of the time. I asked him to draw me and he said he didn’t know what to do “because you’re already pretty” I WAS BLUSHING... You know, when a person draws you he kept looking at you as he draw... I was trembling so much lol I told him I love his drawings and then I asked him to come to Indonesia and the rest was blur. ;___; (I forgot to tell him that I’m also a left handed :( )

Moving on is Taeyang, it was his birthday on the 28th so I told him happy birthday (since I won’t be meeting him after that) and he said thankyou. Asked him to write a heart fluttering message and he wrote “Noona~ thankyou for coming~ let’s meet often in the future~ ♡”. I heard he never call anyone noona I don’t even know why he wrote noona there lmao.

Finally, Hwiyoung!!! He greeted “Hello~” with his deep voice gosh my heart just stopped beating. I gave my ryan bracelet ;____; he offered his hand and let me put it on him. I said jokingly “Let’s get married~” he was like “married?? Wow, when?” then I told him “Tomorrow?” then he said they have music shows recording tomorrow and then I answered “After the music show!!” he said “We still got fansign after that though” omg this kid lol I just laughed and he continued “I want to get married faster too~” OTL bye guys it was nice knowing you all. Continuing, he asked me where do I live, I told him I’m from Indonesia. He then signed the page and read out my post it, I asked him to give me a cute nickname and HE GRABBED MY HAND, then he said “Meong meongie!! (Puppy)” hahaha.... I was panicking and he saw my face “You didn’t like it?” I said “No no I like it I like it!!!” then he said “Puppy because.. you’re cute”, while drawing a puppy on the post it. I also asked him if I could call him oppa, he told me “Ofcourse, I don’t really care about age when dating.” LOL PLEASE SOMEONE COLLECT THIS BOY. He asked me how long does it take from Indonesia to Korea, I told him 7 hours, he was like “7 HOURS?!” then he asked until when I’ll be there and I told him I came from the 20th, he thought I had 20 days left (i wish) and he said “ah its a pity” (that I had to go back soon).

Last, Youngbin. I was still shook so I didn’t say much to him, he’s so manly and so adorable sobs. I didn’t know what to say anymore so I just wait for him to sign the page and then he read my post it I told him I’m studying in china and said thankyou and he’ll always support me~ (I should be the one supporting you tho ;___; ily) and we said bye bye and he reached for my hand~

Thats the end, thankyou for reading my shitty fanaccount I suck at writing but I’ve tried!! If there is any question please don't hesitate to ask me here or curiouscat ;;