#Idek how to feel in the best way

[insertisfruity]

From Madness With Love is so new it has basically no fandom and I'm going batshit bc the only way to cope with the clusterfuck that was that game is to INHALE so much fanwork that I know what the FUCK I feel about it/pos

I am still losing my shit and I finished it hours ago. I played 4 endings between 2 characters and I just. Idk how much FMWL (From Madness With Love) I have left in me. And yet I actually can't stop thinking abt it....

[yourlittlettoy]

Hi friends! Once again here using my Tumblr like a traditional blog where u share thoughts and updates and stuff haha.

Sorry for being gone for a bit, life was BUSY with plans and now I’m finally back home from a little trip visiting a lovely friend of mine (photos for visual-aid of said trip 😉😇). God I love summer and sunshine!! ☀️☺️🌊🚤🍉

So due to being less active, I did build up quite a bit of notification and message debt. Wanted to take a quick moment and say that unfortunately there is no shot I’ll be able to catch up on all of it in terms of responding to everything, even though I usually really like to stay on top of that; especially with tags and reblogs and comments on my posts! However, I did read and see everything that I’ve missed.

So to all of u that interacted while I was gone: the satisfaction from flustering some of you was absolutely enjoyed 😉~ and on the flip side the backfire from your teasy comments has also been suffered hahaha 🙈. Either way you already know I love seeing interactions from you guys and I’m just so THANKFUL TO HAVE HAD SO MANY TO CATCH UP ON 🥰 sorry again I can’t always be reciprocal, but please know that I adore all of you and am enjoying the heck out of being in your presences with or without direct line of conversation!

Anyway, if it wasn’t clear enough by now, I think the world of u community pals and I hope you all have a day as lovely and awesome as you! (Very lovely and awesome, to clarify haha)

Stay precious 😘💕

[guardian-angle22]

TK/Carlos + Touch

↳ 3.08 In the Unlikely Event of an Emergency

[spextered]

is this an unpopular opinion. i dont really like the way the manga is interpretating aubrey

[dockaspbrak]

A big thank you to my mutuals who like my nervous breakdown 2-4am posts. You're the backbone of my blog

[blindedguilt]

//Was thinking about posting this on my alt, but since I figure I've spoken about this frequently enough on this blog and it's THE dedicated Leonard Space™️... //I'm throwing up and crying thinking about how leonard had never gotten to experience romantic or sexual attraction (or will ever GET to experience those things, unrequited or not) without complete dread and self-blame and guilt and how that must have been growing up with the hope and expectations of "Being in love must be so nice, I hope I'll be able feel that one day" and not ONLY having that hope gradually dwindle as he grew into the "expected marriageable age" watching those around him go on with their lives and attain those things in a way that seems so natural but is so foreign to him and the absolute sadness of the point the notion of "attraction" and "falling in love" turned to complete and abject horror and disgust when he realises that this is what his mind has decided is "Normal" for him, and all possibilities and aspirations he may have had of a child, teen, young adult, etc. up to that point of even the bare minimum is now a complete impossibility. //how it fully sets in he'll never experience love. never find his own family or someone to be interested in and care about in such a way or even feel attraction without that weight attached.... like idc, actual relationships are one thing but if ANYTHING you should at least be able to know the joy of falling in love if even for a SECOND without any strings (Disgust, guilt, self-hate, etc.) attached!!!! guys!!!!!!! //HE'S WAY TOO KIND AND GENTLE AND HANDSOME AND CARING AND HUMBLE AND A GENTLEMAN AND HANDSOME AND HIS VOICE IS WAY TOO SEXY FOR THIS SHIT, HE DOESN'T DESERVE THIS!!!!! LET HIM LOVE!!!!!!! HE'S SHOWN TO HAVE SO MUCH TO GIVE IN SO MANY DIFFERENT WAYS (Parental, familial, just being an empathetic person towards his "enemies" in general) AND YET HE DIES HAVING NEVER KNOWN IT...... WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO HIM........... ouuugughhh.........

[curiosityjams]

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[juusasu4evagrrl]

Genuine question, does anyone want to hear about naruto from the prospective of a Liberian person grappling with the generational trauma of a brutal civil war or is that too heavy??

Like there's, I like sasuke cause he's a cool dude, very wholesome do tell, and then there's, I like sasuke cause the government also tried to eradicate my people group that one time and holding empathy for that dumbass kid teaches me to examine a my own experiences with compassion, honestly what a downer like who cares.

I don't know thoughts???

[senxitive]

I want to take this moment to acknowledge that I feel confident in my decision. Before it slips away and I start back with the "what ifs." I made the right decision, not only for myself, but the other people it would have impacted and things must get better from here. The time for action was months and months ago, all that is left is trauma and pain now. And I am right to move on. I can't let this affect me any longer.

[dapgolf]

i watched dans video instead of getting ready for work and so now i definitely don't have time to rb gifs and posts on tumblr BUT I WILL BE BACK

[ozlices]

ive never felt so simultaneously hollow and heavy at once. i genuinely cant breathe from how heavy my heart is in my chest. im so dissociated i have a worse headache than i already did from crying and it's so fucked up and cruel to make me feel like none of this is real bc i wish it wasn't more than ive wished for anything in my life but is is. it's reality whether it feels like it or not. i watched my light leave this world and now i'm trapped in darkness without her and it's so empty and cold and i can't get the images and sounds out of my head of it happening and it hurts so much and i don't want to fucking keep going bc i lost my reason to live and without her what the fuck do i have to look forward to???? slowly but surely losing my rights for fucking existing??? i just...

ive dreaded this... for so many years. i knew it'd break me completely. but it's under such worse circumstances than i could've ever imagined. ive already been under such a constant strain for literal years now that my health declines more everyday. and now this. on top of everything else. on top of everything else she's gone. she was my emotional support and she's gone and she can't help me anymore and she never will be able to again and it hurts and i don't want to be in this sick, fucked up world without her but i cant handle the thought of my loved ones feeling the way i do right now over me so im just trapped.

why is this real why is this real why did this happen i wish it didn't i wish it didn't i wish it didn't

[yakamozarda]

I think i should like. Talk to my therapist about taking a gap year bc i feel like i need a proper rest that wont be related to anything i wanna do in long term and just Chill but at the same time idk how to. Rest. Like it is legit something im bad at i cant fucking rest more than a week and i feel like i need more than a week to fucking unmentally ill myself or some shit. I dont fucking know man

[anothermonikan]

Okay clinging desperately onto the fact that I hated having my hair straightened as a kid because of how girly it made me look as some sort of proof that maybe I'm not that cis actually

[head-without-a-fucking-brain]

Istg writing fanfics would be much more easier and fun if i was just confident about my english skills. ಠ⁠︵⁠ಠ

[tojisun]

gasp

you guys ever think about beta gaz x omega reader x alpha ghost

how they pulled you into their fold only for ghost’s rut.

how kyle doesn’t leave the nest because ghost calls for him. don’t mind the fact that you’re a ripe and unbonded omega who is wet with slick; whose strong pheromones fill the nesting room—simon’s alpha still calls for kyle.

how simon breeds you. god, he breeds you good.

he fills you up and fucks you for hours that your pussy’s all bruised and your cervix’s straining with how filled it is, but you want more. you need more because this alpha is pack alpha. he’s the best alpha, with his thick sperm and his strong libido, and the way his size and bulk just shrouds you with surging protective energy.

but—

“kyle,” simon rumbles, his voice straining his trachea. he reaches out, begging, and you mewl at the reminder of who else in here is pack.

the bed dips behind you and you peer up, amidst the fever of your rousing heat—sparked by the alpha’s rut—and watch as kyle curls his arms around simon’s neck, pulling him close.

the two of them share a quiet moment, their eyes doing most of the talking. the moment is charged, almost tangibly so, then kyle is tipping his head to the side, presenting his neck for the alpha.

simon rumbles once again, his scent spiking in his pleasure—pleased not by your cunt but by kyle’s submission. and you know you should feel slighted, that you should take this as the alpha’s rejection of your omega because your neck is still unmarked; you are still unclaimed—but you do not feel that churning. you do not think that this is a rejection. not when their hands fall to touch you, to map your fever-warm skin, so greedy and tender and kind.

your walls clench around simon’s knot the moment his sharp canines maul kyle’s skin, digging and tearing. because a mark on a beta’s skin would not be permanent—not the way an alpha’s bite on an omega is—so simon will find a way to at least make it last.

kyle’s pleased whimper fills your ears and that—

that is what pushes you to cum once more.

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(or, ghostgaz x reader objectification again. pt idek atp)

[honeytonedhottie]

get ready to get back to school⋆.ೃ࿔*:･🗒️

i can hardly believe that school is coming up. in like, two/one week. ISNT THAT ABSURD? i feel like summer just flew past but im very excited to start my junior year of highschool…💬🎀

BUYING DREAM SCHOOL SUPPLIES ;

when ur school supplies are cute, you'll feel MOTIVATED to put them to good use. idek what it is. 99% of my school supplies are pink and because of that im motivated to take good notes, study my notes etc because seeing the sparks of pink just make me so HAPPY.

so ofc this year my school supply list has remained consistent in its color scheme of pink, pink and more pink 🎀. some things on my school shopping list are ->

notebooks

a binder

dividers for the binders with adorable labels

pink and purple gel pens (along with black gel pens)

pastel highlighters

looseleaf paper

a fluffy pink pen

FIX UR SLEEP SCHEDULE ;

ik a lot of us (including myself some times) stay up for way to long and feel like our sleep schedule is BEYOND repair but it is not. u need to be getting back into a consistent sleeping routine that keeps u healthy and well rested not only for back to school but for ur own well being. you'll have plenty of time tomorrow for what u choose to stay up all night doing, i promise.

FOR MY ONLINE GIRLIES ;

so this year i'll be taking a semester online so i've been dabbling in figuring out the perfect routine for an online school regimen. one in which i could balance personal and academic life in a healthy way (get sunlight everyday, sleep on time etc) some things that im going to prioritize while doing a semester online are ->

♡ getting fresh air everyday

♡ going for a walk everyday and making sure to stay active

♡ NOT doing school work in bed

so a tip i've learned is that the things that u do in bed, your mind will like, associate ur bed with it. so for example if ur constantly playing video games in bed, when its time to relax and go to bed, when ur in bed your mind will be like "time to play video games". so i will not be doing school work in bed, also for a healthy change of scenery…💬🎀

♡ going out with my friends and calling them everyday so that im not isolated

♡ keeping a steady and productive routine

SETTING GOALS ;

lets be goal oriented, A+ academic barbies this year ✍🏽. to make sure that ur doing ur very best its important to set goals for urself. having something to strive for is a great way to stay motivated and disciplined during the year. my goal for my junior year is to keep my straight A streak and finish with my law distinction (im 3/4 of the way done). and ofc its important to break down ur goals, and i'll give an example of how i did this.

so in freshman year ik i wanted a distinction in law, and to get a distinction in law i would have to take 4 separate law courses. there are 4 years in highschool so if i took one law course per school year i'd have my distinction. but i wanted to expedite the process so i took one course freshman year, and two courses sophomore year. this year i will take one more.

this frees up SO much time for me to get another distinction and since i've already taken a course of business in freshman year, i'll strive for my business distinction too…💬🎀

if u dont know where to start with goal setting for school here are some ideas ->

♡ maintain ur current GPA or try and raise it

♡ never get below a B on any assignment or test

♡ do every single homework assignment (never take a zero)

STAYING ORGANIZED ;

staying organized is CRUCIAL for being successful in school. i use notion to keep myself organized during the school year. by putting down dates for tests in my calendar, ik when i need to start preparing. and by making a todo list everyday i can stay on top of my assignment.

if u struggle with school organization, set aside an hour a day to just make sure that everything is in its place. and it doesnt even have to be an hour, just set aside time every single day to make sure that everything it where its supposed to be. it'll save you SO much time in the future and you'll rly thank urself for it in the future.

and to end this post, i'll share some school/academic related affirmations 💗

🗒️ im literally the definition of beauty and brains

📔 im the top of my class

🗒️ i must have perfect memory cuz i remember everything im taught in class

📔 im literally a GENIUS

🗒️ i effortlessly stay at the top of my class

📔 wow, im smart, pretty, AND talented?? god rly does have favorites