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boygirlctommy · 1 year ago

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OH GOOD LORD

#my post #rippposting #caps #THEYR EIN THE BLACK SEA AND EVERYHTING IS TERRIBLE #THERES OOZY GUYS HERE #A BUNCH OF EVIL GOOPY GUNKERS #EEUEGHHHH DDDD:#IM SO FUCKING SCARED RN GUYS #also the evil little beetles- FINALLY GILLION GETS TO KILL EVIL BEETLES!!!

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pleasedontcareaboutme · 1 month ago

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It's missing my father hours rn so imma just dump a bunch of pictures here and cry

( sorry i don't know the source of anything I just had them on my phone)

(also dont read the tags i just need to let it out lol)

#I just realized I can call him dad easier than my real dad and now I understand why am I so damn attached to him #I always knew he was a parental figure for me #but now I connected the dots #How when u have an absent dad and a d34d mom a guy shows up in ur life #that tells u life advice that both of ur parents failed to do so #and makes u feel safe the first time in ur life #ofc ud become attached #i know for sure its unhealthy how much i love and miss him #he occupies most of my thoughts honestly #But how could i not cling to him so much when he was the only one who gave me hope in life #i try to keep going and even tho he is not here i keep telling myself whatever he taught me. i keep reminding myself he wants us to live an #bloom and be free #and that's what ill try to do #but you know somedays i wish i could just disappear and be wrapped in eternal happiness #its so fucking hard to pull yourself out of the slump man im so fucking tired im so so tired #somedays i wish id have the courage to off myself but i know that deep down i want to live and ive always wanted to live but i have no idea #how to live. i feel like i finally found a purpose and someone i love. but at the same time im always doubting myself and im scared of losi #g this little hope again and i know i should cherish and use it instead but each day i have this anxiety because rn i have nothing else if #lose this i seriously will lose everything atp. but ill still try bc rn its this or death so i should try im just damn tired yes anyways #sorry for being depressing some days just dont work out but thats okay #yes at the same time i want to get out of my head and try to find some friends but i cant deny that im highkey fucked up and i just cant le #go of my past and i still feel like that helpless unloved kid and idk how to form relationships this way. i dont trust myself at all so idk #how to trust others. and i feel like in order to find ppl that would love me i have to overshare abt my whole lifestory bc it still dictate #my life heavily. and since i met this band its better cuz im learning to deal w it and i want to heal from everything but yes at the same t #me who would wqnt to be friends w. someone that has like a year of life experience and 18 years of depression lol #so yes its complicated. bc i have friends but im like the funny friend. the one that is as shallow as puddle and has no problems but honest #y im genuinely sufferint qnd have been sufferinz all my life so i want to come out of my funny friend role. but that wojld mean i have to t #ll the shit i went through to all my friends but tbh it would be so random so ye. i do have a plan though. how it could work. But yes im ti #ed have been tired for 7 years now. But this time around i hope i can successfully get out of this torture cycle lol.#ok sorry this is what happens after puberty guys i could beva research case for a damn mental institute atp xdd

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scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde · 10 months ago

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I truly wish I had any artistic talent just so I could lowkey redo all dramione fanart with Astoria because oh my god the ratio of dramione to drastoria fan content is so heartwrenchingly depressing

#if youre a dramione fan plz dont come for me #i just want this poor woman to be acknolwdged as a human being #AND THEY PRACTICALLY ALL INCLUDE SCORPIUS IN THEM SO 🤷🏻‍♂️SHOULD BE ASTORIA ANYWAYZ🤷🏻‍♂️🤷🏻‍♂️#astoria greengrass for president plz #stop making her some weird surrogate i beg of you #i miss her can she come back to life actually #actually guys uhh im god so i get to change canon and also ressurect people so i say shes alive hashtag facts #im yet again in a drastoria mood and feel like an orphaned victorian child begging for food and being stepped on instead #because there is NO CONTENT BECAUSE SHE IS SO UNDERRATED IN HER OWN MARRIAGE 😭😭#i hope all the dramione fans who are suck ups to draco know he would be appaled at how yall treat his WHOLE WIFE #LIKE THAT IS HIS WIFE PLEASE #anyway astoria supremacy bye #i also obviosuly dont condone art theft but some of yall dramione fans are getting far too big for your boots #if youre a drastoria fan dont go anywhere near dramione twitter they are all fucking insane #astoria greengrass #drastoria #im too scared to tag draco malfoy the dramione fans are more likely to find me 🧍🏻‍♂️#if this is incoherent i blame the fact its half 3 in the morning rn and im finshing a uni assignment so im practically delerious

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n0bluev · 4 months ago

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@fushiglow hmm….wonder who i’d draw this for all of a sudden and why… 🤔🤔

#your reblog surprised me #THREE BUNS SUGURU (STAR WARS ER JUST FOR YOU!)#theyre covering riko or smt and smuggling her places (??)#drawing this i was like ‘oh suguru’s curses in a star wars environment should be robots and stuff #so this suguru is a mecanic (he makes them from scrappy parts people have thrown out #and trash materials (and hard work 😎)#diy pokemon #because what is the cursed energy people are letting out if not junk theyre letting go of #so yeah ; basic geto takes shit and turns it useful #i do realise thats already very generic for star wars (junk robots junk robots!) but like. yknow. this guy takes shit people wouldnt bother #trying to sell. miam. junk of the junk. geto my favourite recycling bin you were designed for a luxurious lifestyle clearly (gege not me!)#(and stuff…………. but im lazy to put my vision in words rn hah..)#gojo’s probably a princess #(let’s not lie. hes basically a prince already (clan heir is a different look on him))#this made me want to write ?.??#problem is i dont remember much about star wars (watched it as a kid (we have the cds) appart from the very basic storyline… i forgot 😔#then theres the jawa’s first appearance cuz for some reason they scared me and i am marked for life (THEYRE JUST SILLY LITTLE GUYS 😭😭))#thankfully i lowkey want to rewatch everything so these issues can be fixed #(unthankfully either way the chance of me writing anything is very slim BUT WE NEVER KNOW RIGHT)#(hashtag diverging your attention from that other older post is it working /j/j)#omg glo i still didnt read balance (i think of it from time to time but im intimidated to read it because i know its right up my alley and #that i will love it and lately idk why but i need to ready myself emotionally to read peak fiction (this is so dumb but its true 😭😭))#my bad im rambling lol #WAIT FUCK SAME THING FOR BUNNY’S RECENT THINGY THAT GOT IN MY AO3 UPDATE MAIL #A LOVE STORY TOLD THROUGH THE LENS OF A THIRD PARTY MY BELOVED #(itsg ive searchef for these types of stories in advanced search before #AND NOW THAT I HAVE SOME BY AUTHORS I ALREADY ADORE .. IM- I SEE THEM BUT. THEIR CONTENTS STAY A MYSTERY. IS THIS MY BODY SUBCONSCIOUSLY FI #FIGHTING THE TEAR LOSS I WOULD GET??? IS THIS MFING [BALLING-MY-EYES-OUT] PREVENTION !? WITHOUT MY PERMISSION..!? TCH!)#my bad. ramble again o7 — see ya glo !#wip

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raspberrysmoon · 4 months ago

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moots are you aware of how much i like you? how much do you think i like you? like do you understand how genuinely wonderful i think you all are. i have a list of peoples names and pronouns so i have them on hand at all times. i genuinely. do any of you have any clue of how much i like you. i dont think you do

btw. 99.999999% of the times its Not no

#raspy rambles #i am. im havinng a crisis #im struggling rn #and genuienly #i know i dont reach out to anypne almost ever #mostly bcs im scared of being annoying or too talkative or weird about it #but i want to talk. i want so desperately ro be included in things. im just not talkative enough for people to think of me for that yk? l #ok. mini name drop but not really timw #🪻💫❄️🥀 especially. man i love you guys and i dont think you jnow it #and i dontt hink thats your fault in the slightest. ans that hurts me a little tbh #bcs youll never know how strongly i care for you. entirely because i cant get my shit together and man up and talk to you off anon #i fucking. i sent ❄️ an anon like. twnety minuyes ago being Mildly Weird About It #and i now feel like my world is crashing down around me #well. i didnt mean for the tags to look like that #razz rants #ig

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scalpelsister · 5 months ago

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what if i lost the will to live like. as a joke. what then.

#i am fine ftr im just. exhausted haha #NOT to overshare about my personal life too much but my dog is dying. my horse is being given back to his og owner this summer / fall.#my dads kicking me out in two years (in favor of his girlfriend and her kids bc he would rather live w them!!!)#his alcoholism is driving me crazy bc hes treating me like absolute shit and berating me constantly #and stealing from me 🙃#ive lost my healthcare benefits + now have to either raw dog therapy out of pocket or loose my therapist #a therapist that took me a year of being on a waiting list to get in w btw #and idk i just genuinely feel like a loser rn like. im a 23 year old unemployed fat virgin who plays video games all day like. 🧍#where is this going for me. what is the point of it all. in two years im going to be fucking homeless on top of all that #unless some miracle happens bc as is i am too disabled to work.#im just reaching a point where i deeply dont care anymore. whatever happens happens im done fighting it #and ik its the abandonment issues talking here but knowing my dad is planning on abandoning me. 👍#thats two for two on parents leaving me. my entire family has at this point so like truly i cant trust any relationship #like if my PARENTS find me that unbearable. and my best friend who knew me my entire life thought so. then truly every relationship #i ever have is on a fucking timer like. idk if any besties r reading this im sorry i promise this is in no way a dig at yall #bc you guys do really make me feel loved and secure in a way no one else has but. id be lying if i said i wasnt still scared #anyways enough oversharing #i really am fine and safe rn btw like. at minimum u guys r stuck w me until arc*ne season 2 comes out 😂#my post

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kingxfmischief · 6 days ago

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#o;; beyond the gods (ooc)#ope one more politics post but tags only so its easier to go by #politics tw #current events tw #trump tw #im legit terrified and crying rn ans just gonna give up and go to bed #i honestly dont know what to do if trump wins #bernie moreno is gonna win here #as well as three republican supreme court nudges #we just fucking got abortion rights in our constitution last fucking year and theyve tried to prevent it this whole time #now theyre gonna full on fucking reverse it #and if trump wins on top of that were just all fucked #but i have to go to work tomorrow and interact wiht the oublic like nothing is wrong #and i cant do that if trump wins #i legitimately dint think i can survive another trump presidency guys #im scared

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halfdeadwallfly · 6 months ago

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i left a bowl of soup on my desk two weeks ago and forgot about it for one day. and it has been growing slowly moldy. it is terrifying. i am so scared of it. i am so scared and i need to get rid of it because it is getting so bad and there's like at least four different types of mold on it and at least one i don't even recognize but i'm just so fucking terrified to touch it or even get close to it guys i need help what do i do i am honestly so terrified and i am starting to get scared to be in my room and i feel like i kind of can't breathe in here which is not really good and also i am such a shitty roommate but i am just so scared i cannot emphasize how fucking terrified i am

#boink #ocd #i keep saying ill deal with it #and then every time i look at it im like shit #its mold #fucking #its fucking mold #and then i leave it #and then obviously leaving it makes it get worse #to the point where like this thing is actually probably becoming a biohazard #what the fuck do i do with it #i am the disgusting person you hear about #but im starting to literally avoid my room because im so scared of the mold radiation or whatever the fuck #i feel like its touched everything #im scared to sleep in my room tognith #genuinely if anyone has any ideas for how to deal with this rn #like ig just suck it up and fucking deal with it #but guys i do not think the cbt worked well enough for me to manage that rn #like if anyone with ocd has ideas for how to minimize the obsession and the fear so i can just get it over with #like anything i can do in the moment idk #i feel not well and even though i literally know that its not related i just keep connecting everything to this fucking contaminant #and at this point who knows honsetly that actually could be the case #because i have fucking problems and i let it get out of hand #im kind of losing it

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bmpmp3 · 7 months ago

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i do think its kinda funny when i see someone in the year of our lord 2024 talk about vocal synth music like its all gone downhill since like 2010 because like dont get me wrong i love a good niconicodouga-ass 2008 ass vocaloid joint BUT also like. the past couple years have had the most fascinatingly creative and expressive uses of vocal synthesizers ive ever heard in my life DJFSKHJDFS dont write it all off just yet!!

#usually i only see that from people who havent actually listened to any vsynth music from the past 15 years so i understand why they got to #that conclusion. and also usually theyre people who didnt listen to much vsynth music in the first place LOL they just dont know #but it is still a little funny. brother there are things beyond your wildest dreams if u just look #like some personal highlights: the stuff by rinri - particularly their use of the meika girlies #dont carry our memories away is LIFECHANGING the whispers. the spoken parts. the BELTS #plus the haunting and unrelenting instrumentation. fantastic song #and naisho no pierced's propose + birthday + gift sort of trilogy of songs. gift especially has been unreal #again the dynamics of soft intimate whispers to belts but also those fuller high notes with edges of growlyness.#plus the songs just generally rock. and those LYRICS. absolutely intense like physically painful and frightening like #yearning and codependency and possession. and the tuning and production just amps it up more #OH and slave.v.v.r has been doing crazy things for even longer but i only started getting into his stuff recently and holy shit #love eater is like. the scariest vocaloid song ive ever heard not because of the lyrics. but because of the tuning #im like. scared. i cant stop listening to it. the heavy synthesized breathy main vocals and whispered harmonies plus the VOCAL FRY #i didnt realized vocaloid5? i think? has a vocal fry option built in i heard? thats crazy #but specifically in love eater the fry and growl is amped up so deep and loud and clear compared to everything else it like #emphasizes the artificiality of the voice while also amping up the expressiveness #its awesome. and on the older slave.v.v.r songs i heard i will hit you 8759632145 times with this piano. also so fucking cool #addicted to that song. 1) its a great jazzy rocky piano tune with this piano flourish at the end of each phrase that sounds fantastic #but also 2) the lyrics are insane. using kanji to write english??????#people are doing wild ass things with vocal synths rn you guys #this isnt even getting into some of the really unique synths themselves too. adachi rei is awesome i love that shes just like #the perfect inbetween of sample based and reconstruction based vocals. shes a sample based synth #but her samples were drawn by hand LOL shes like dectalks granddaughter to me.....#a really good use of adachi rei is iyowa's heat abnormal/heat anomaly/whatever its called ITS AWESOME thats what it is hjrkfdgfd #i think the fact that vocal synths can be so realistic and clean and noiseless out the gate now has made people really stop worrying #about like. realism all together and looking more into expressiveness. omg vocal synth modernist movement

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avianii · 10 months ago

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WII SPORTS RESORT THEME GOES SO HARD

#ANII ISTG DO YOUR HOMEWORK OR SO HELP Me I WILL DELETE COD #just casually screaming at myself #i swear im not insane #dO yoU NEed YOuR mEDs #YEAH IF I HAD THEM BUT NOooOOOOOoo You"LL GeT ADDICTED TO ADDERALL LIKE BITCH DOES IT SEEM LIKE IM FUNCTIONING RIGHT NOW #ok fuck that cod thing geninuely scares me #that shit took 6 hours to download #pls dont take cod away from me #i need my military propaganda gays #oh shit i need to redownload mw2 #NO #You guys know that one biker guy on insta #who just kind talks to a camera while sitting on his bike in empty parking lots #thats what i feel like im doing rn

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normalcannibalism · 2 months ago

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i honestly kinda wanna revamp(?) my artstyle again. but also i really like my current one, idk. the "ideal"artstyle that i'd want is just wildly different to my current one and i really enjoy my current on it's fun to draw like that but i knowi will enjoy drawing in pretty much anyway. idk the main problem with my art rn isjust. how stiff it is. it isn't really as expressive as i want it to be, which was always the goal i had for my art. i want it to be more wacky and i think a thing that's really preventing that is just. ahg how do i word this. idk my artstyle feels stiff, i dont think the lineless i usually do is helping either?? it has to be. clean. perfect. i dont really want that. butim also just> AGHm artstyle crisis, these are happening WAY more than they used to. i want my art to be less appealing tbh. ulgly. i love ugly art

#imptxt #i really think part of the reason why these are more cmmon is because im seeeing other artists' work and just.#PEOPLE ARE SO TALENTED!!!!!!!! why arent i like that #i also just. want a super specific vibe for my art :/ but i cant do that rn #but that's moreso because im scared of ruining my image online (BLEHG)#if i even have one. the fuck even am i #HI GUYS. im ramsey.. and im struggling #ive revamped my entire artstyle once before and it REALLY worked out for me. but. now i'm kinda baxk to how i felt when i was fucking. 13?#i am still happy with my art though. unlike then. i hated my art #ALSO seeing people who are younger than me or the same age as me make better art than me.#not good for my confidence. i feel awful and guilty #it's probably gonna be even worse when im an adult. Fuck #ohhhhhhhh im gonn a feel like SHIT #god. i need to learn stuff about art but idont wanaaaaaaaaa #FUCKawful hell time HI

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sensitivegoblin · 2 months ago

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Stupid period vent

If youre a cis man; kiss a uterous haver on the forehead today

Cus fuck this feels like a mental parasite

#:(#i hate getting my period :(#im so emotional #fuck a stupid tiktok has me hyperventalating over hpw i miss my mom and i was 4 again #my dad doesnt come home for another 3 hrs......#i need a hug so badly i wanna call him and ask him to come home but i shouldnt #.....fuck i think i might need to #i hate that i was literally fine until that stupid tiktok....#have you guys seen the cat Mao cartoons on tiktok? i always get sucked and forget theyre always emotional #this one was about a mom cat and a kitten and the mom cat died #i hate my mom and think she did horrendous things to me i shouldnt be screaming how much i miss her #fuck.#i dont wanna keep growing up and watching everyone die or leave #fuck im spiraling so bad #the safe thing might be to call my dad but i really really shouldnt make him leave work #i can never do the right thing im so fucking broken #i really need a hug and a joint #if i dont message you back im ok: i just feel very uncontrollable rn #going back n forth between anger and heartbreak #ALL OF THIS OVER A FUCKING TIKTOK #im so fucking stupid..#ill be okay i just hate being alone when im thinking about my mom/dark stuff #im not even sewerslidal im just extreamly emotional and its scaring me #if im not ok by 3pm ill call my dad #i feel nothing one minute and then i feel everything and rinse repeat #i just hate that i get triggered so easily #i already feel a lil calmer im just tired n need a hug #i know that im safe my body just physically does not feel safe #so im like trapped in my head #but if my dad was here hed be able to pull me out

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green-crocs12 · 10 months ago

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me and my friend were rewatching jujutsu kaisen and into like the 12th episode the gojo hyperfixation HIT.

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felixisfruity · 3 months ago

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dude my family has GOT to acknowledge their problems. if you get into an argument and then pretend it never happened it‘s not making SHIT better. im so sick of this

#felix babbles #MY DAD IS THE PROBLEM #he needs to acknowledge that NOBODY gives a fuck that he‘s an adult. you still can be wrong. you ARE wrong. a Lot.#the things he‘s said. jesus #he‘s not even a bad guy #he‘s a nice person. he‘s certainly not abusive and cares for us #but he does do some very fucked up shit and for some reason im never allowed to address it or i get in trouble #shock of the century: ur kid didnt really like it when you said [specific minority] doesnt care as much about their education not because t #ats how they were raised or they have more important things or Nope. because theyre in that minority. or that‘s at least what he made it so #nd like. and countless other things #also you cannot just say „i dont do this thing anymore so you cant be mad at me“ DUDE ARE YOU JOKING RN. i literally flinch when someone ge #s close to me. and i refuse to even walk by you when you’re mad. because you taught me when iwas little that i might get fucking hit #and he doesnt do that anymore. which is awesome. and im glad. but he didnt apologise. and if he did it wasnt enough if i dont remember it #im still. scared of him. and it‘s fucked up that im not allowed to be #swagever. at least that ddint happen today #vent #anyway

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princessmyriad · 7 months ago

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#personal #i have doctors appt today with a new doctor its literally not even a real appointment i just need some stupid forms signed #but guys im so stressed im so scared ive already cried once about it today i just. i fucking hate doctors so so much #theyre all so bad. im not in the mood to be dismissed again today and its 15 goddamn degrees so everything feels bigger and worse than it is #if they dont sign the form i dont get paid any more and if i dont get paid i cant continue to try and sort out my medical #which means i continue to not get paid and im just. so scared. so so fucking scared i dont even care if we find the start if the path #to vetter my health i dont care about gettinf better right now i just need this fucking form signed but #ive already been dismissised for it once and i have new doctor jitters. what do you mean i have to tell someone new that #i have ptsd and anxiety and depression and fibro and alleged bpd but its probably autism actually and hope #hope and prey they losten to me because its other doctors that have told me this and im definitely computer illiterate i couldntve come up #with all this on my own i promise ive done zero research into my own symptoms i live with every day im a simpleton im an idiot #please believe me dr refer me to ypur colleagues for further testing but in the mwan time sign the one form i need please #im so scared. i dont know what to do. my tarot says to tryst myself and find my own authority about the situation #but like literally legally i cant i have to rely on the hope this new doctor gives her signature or i dont get fucking paid as stated #i hate this i feel so shaky and nervous and nauseous and awful 😮‍💨#and im supposed to do groceries today. im at the very end of my shopping like if i dont go get food today #then i dont eat tonight but its cold and rainy and im super stressed abt the appointment so idk if ill be able to go shopping after #i dont wanna die anymore but like rn i kinda do this is too much today feels like too much #help me im drowning

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scringee · 5 months ago

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#this is a vent so don't read the tags if you dont want to #im really like. scared i guess is the right word #not going to try and make this about myself at all the problem im having is i literally dont know who I'm meant to vote for this year #unfortunately i know my dad and hes a vote blue no matter who kind of guy and i just can't #i cant vote for fucking biden this year not after hes been funding and backing a genocide #and its been like #genuinely hard #whst do i do? who do i vote for if it comes down between fucking. trump or biden #i know if i dont vote trump will win but if i do vote i bring someone complicit in aiding Isreal in an ethnic cleansing #thats terrifying #why did i have to have my first election where im able to vote the fucking Mussolini v Stalin #i hate this i hate the world because then every post rn is about project 2025 and how if i dont vote biden im basically voting for trump #i just dont know what to do. it makes me feel fucking sick to my stomach #fuck everything in the world right now #we're so cooked #vent #scringee mouth

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