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#tag talk#my tendency to go from 0 to 100 really does stab me in the back sometimes#I straight up scheduled two lunch dates tomorrow without realizing that Tuesday is the same day as Tuesday#one is morning lunch and the other is afternoon lunch so it's totally chill and okay but like. whoops#understimulated or overstimulated. you can never be just whelmed.#anyway. making friends is cool and after chewing through like fifty people on this social app I finally found someone cool#also I can put in so much work on dating apps but my first good friends keep on being coworkers.#that's highkey one of the reasons I wanted to get a job sooner rather than later. automatic social interaction#growing up is just the journey of me realizing that being anxious and paranoid isn't the same as being introverted.#cause damn. I need so much people interaction. I love cashiering because I talk to so many people every day#and then I get home and still send paragraphs to like five close friends and then still hunt for people online#hmmm. I wonder if it's also partly that talking to people is not the same as talking With people.#I can send a huge paragraph to someone but it's only interaction if they respond.#being needy drives people away. which in turn creates more need. driving people away even harder#idk. I'm so tired of having so many friends I never talk to. we both agree we're friends but they're always so busy#I'm always willing to sacrifice to spend time with the people I love but it feels like others don't feel the same#“we should hang out. we haven't talked in forever. we should watch a movie together” MATE I AM FREE AND AVAILABLE#like. don't tell me we should hang out if you're not going to hold up your end of making it happen. “sorry I'm busy” well be less busy#I get it's not always an option to just be less busy. but you can't find half an hour to just walk the city park together?#idk. people make claims of intent and never follow up with action. and I get it. I have wildly high social need apparently#and I try to keep on top of it. I try and restrain myself because otherwise I'm exhausting to be around; further driving people away#but I hate being a nuclear core that I constantly have to dump coolant over. my heart locked in a concrete bunker#wait. I'm gonna draw that shit
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You've been through many trials and tribulations that have only made you stronger! I'm getting specifically that you don't look like the things you've been through. From the outside, you actually look perfect, or your lifestyle does. People would never know the sacrifices it took for you to get here though. Most people wouldn't have even made it through some of the obstacles that you've faced. I also get the vibe that you're very reserved with your energy. Kinda like you don't speak unless spoken to. Not in a bad way though. You could be an ambivert. ENTJ? INFJ? You don't have to do the most to get attention, it comes natural to you. You know how to stand alone. Never been a "follow the leader" type. Your balance and stability are surprising as well. It could be because of your age. Or maybe you used to live a reckless lifestyle but managed to pull yourself out of it. I feel like you have a tendency to go ghost for awhile, but then randomly pop out on some new sh*t. People can never keep up with you. You're an enigma. It kinda frustrates people tbh.😂 On the flip side, you are very loving to those closest to you. You always trust yourself and follow your heart to wherever it leads you. You are your top priority and will always make sure your cup is full before giving to someone else. If your love is not being reciprocated, then you will simply leave. Your love is intense.❤️🔥 You could be a gift-giver or you enjoy doing acts of kindness. You always know what to do/say at the right moment. Lastly, your star qualities are VERY attractive to others.🤩 You're so humble about it too. You could be an influencer or have an active presence on social media. You have a lot of copycats and people that try to emulate your energy. It never really sticks though.
Confirmations: Confident, Intellectual, 777, Sarcastic, Smart-ass, Mixed signals, Intimidating, 1010, Charming, Promiscuous, Friendly, Competitive, Creative
You always find a way to turn your pain into power! It doesn't matter how many hardships you face, you never let it keep you down. You're always onto the next best thing. Always looking towards the future. Someone here likes to take solo-trips often or you enjoy hiking/being in nature. You often come up creative ideas or new ways to make money. Always willing to learn something new. That trait of yours is highly admired by your bosses/higher-ups. You work very well with others. When people work with you, it quite literally increases their luck and money flow. So be mindful of who you share that energy with. You are such a kind and loving individual, even at your lowest. Give yourself more credit boo!❤️ You're very committed to your self-improvement and personal goals no matter what you go through. That's something to be proud of.
Confirmations: Famous, Sexy voice, 111, Friendly, Funny, Someone here has a cat that is very clingy, 444, Pretty skin, Hermoine from Harry Potter, Elusive, Life of the party, Genuine, Beautiful, Seeing 8's everywhere, Someone here owns an exotic animal or you want one
You know how to transmute any negative energy/situation that is sent your way. You are an alchemist. This is my witchy pile.🔮 You like to play fair and see both sides in situations. Very unbiased. However, you'll also put a b*tch in their place if needed. Cause I'm getting that people like to come into your energy to test/bully you for some reason. But you shut that sh*t down real quick.✅ You may be very introverted, or you have this innocent/naive vibe to you. A lot of people blindly trust you. They know you would never try to cross them. You're a big risk taker. You might do something unconventional for work. People love how you march to the beat of your drum always. You might spend a lot of time alone or you keep a close-knit group of friends. You're not afraid to stand alone whatsoever. Nobody can steal your happiness. That is what's most powerful about you.⭐
Confirmations: Genuine, 911, 818, Mysterious, Intoxicating, 717, Witch, Self-absorbed, Pretty eyes, 737, 777, Uptight, Predator, Intellectual, Elusive
You're more than what meets the eye. From the outside, you seem very shy or monotonous even. But you're a true gem baby.💎Your charisma and charm is one of a kind. You stand out without even realizing it. Your wit and sarcasm is very attractive. You have a very unbothered vibe to you. In your own lane, and outta the mix. It makes me think of "Daria". You might go ghost pretty often. You're very big on self-care and your alone time. On the go a lot. ✈️People feel like they can't get ahold of you anymore. You're very focused on self these days. Me vs. me kinda energy. You're a natural creator. Very artistic and out of the box. You might've been this way since childhood. You're often the topic of discussion to those around you. People really enjoy having you around, whether you know this or not. You're a sweetheart once you truly open up. People feel lucky that they took the time to get to know you. You're a true friend.🩷
Confirmations: Clingy, 111, Wife, Light skin tone, 222, One night stand, Player, 999, Mixed signals, Addict, Psychic, Lazy, Outgoing, Eccentric
💖Please do not copy, repost, or steal my work. Thanks!💖
I missed you guyss xx!!🩷🩷🩷
#Spotify#tarot reading#tarot#pick a card#psychic reading#zodiac reading#collective reading#paid readings#fire signs#air sign reading#earth signs#water signs
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Hi, I love your writing - I was wondering if you could write about an MC who's sleep deprived? They're not an insomniac, they just lack sleep almost the the point of when RAD begins or even just awake up until then.
I see people keep talking about MC who have good sleep schedules.. But I'm not one of them, and I'm just curious as to how the brothers would react to them being up so late.
(Actually, it's 8 am for me rn and I still haven't slept..)
hi! sure thing :)
enjoy <3
Sleep Deprived Mc
Lucifer
if you think this man isn't sleep deprived himself, what are you doing
he's so dadcore. he himself could sleep more but scolds you for doing the same thing
however, his door is always open
if you just want to sit in his office while he does work, he wouldn't mind
Mammon
sometimes, he would occasionally stay up late (on accident)
but after you arrived in the devildom, his sleep schedule took a turn for the worse
basically, when you were awake, he was awake. when you were asleep, he was asleep
although, he'd often fall asleep on you while trying to stay awake with you. this is always your window to take tons of cute pictures <3
Levi
you're in it together bestie
whatever you're doing, even if it's just mindless scrolling
you can do it with him!
he won't try to stop you either lol. he's levi, not a hypocrite
Satan
he's another brother who doesn't want to admit he has poor sleep habits (like father like son)
often he accidently stays up reading
sometimes, a book is just too good to put down, and you just need to continue
he's got a potion somewhere that'll solve both of your lack of energy
Asmo
he's definitely the one who's always on you about your poor sleep schedule
beauty rest is important!
he's probably going to try everything until it's time for him to go to sleep
sorry, but he's not going to sacrifice his own rest. you're welcome to join him though, as long as you don't wake him up
Beel
he often wakes up in the middle of the night to snack
so, you might meet in the kitchen late in the night
he's more than willing to share with you if you want
he doesn't mind spending as much time as you want him to with you
Belphie
as the king of sleeping, he doesn't quite understand you
why would you choose to stay up like that?
no matter the case, he's dragging you to bed with him whether you like it or not
you can sleep, or don't. he just wants you as his pillow haha
#headcanons#gn reader#obey me#obey me!#obey me x reader#obey me satan#obey me asmo#obey me mammon#obey me lucifer#obey me beel#obey me belphie#obey me levi#omswd#obey me! shall we date#obey me! shall we date?#obey me shall we date
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I'm sorry but the more I think about the Rebirth ending the more I love it actually like. The whole trilogy has been a meta commentary of sorts and, specially, Aerith's death is at the epicenter of it. She both dies and doesn't die exactly because us, as an audience, want both things to happen.
People have been clamoring to be able to save Aerith since 1997, there were fake hidden hacks, AU fictions, retellings, everything. Everyone has been at Squeenix's doorsteps begging them to let us save her. Like, it's at a point where the "Square will let us save Aerith if you pay for the DLC" joke is much more than a decade old.
On the other side, there's this very expressive unwant for any change whatsoever from the source material. It's not a feeling that is exclusive to FF7 either, there's this very clear pushback against any new remake/adaptation that deviates, even slightly, from it's original. People don't want new content, they want the old one they experienced when they were younger, but prettier, they want to both feel the nostalgia and experience everything as if for the first time again.
From that camp, I think the most prominent argument is that FF7 is about loss, right? And they're not wrong. Aerith's death is the crux of the story, it's the very thing that made FF7 as known as it is, there would be no actual weight to what it's trying to tell if the heroine doesn't die in the middle of it, an unexpected, hurtful, avoidable death. What's the point of a narrative about grief if you can just... avoid losing someone? Avoid having it be cruelly taken from you?
And yet, you see, if want someone to die, if you want something to be taken from you, are you really losing it? In the original, part of the impact was that no one could see it coming, it was a straight representation about how death is sudden and takes away opportunity from you. Aerith doesn't go into the sleeping forest willing to make a sacrifice for the greater good, she has barely started her adventure, she makes a promise to go on the highwind, the group is one location away from finding out more about her ancestry and her family.
That's not true for the remake, tho. Everyone knows about her fate, about what is going to happen to her. That's probably the most spoiled moment in video game history. I personally knew about her death before I truly understood what Final Fantasy even was. So now we have an audience that is extremely aware of what, when and how her death is going to happen. That's why the Confluence of Worlds is put at that moment, because it's the single most expected moment in the entire triology, it's the one moment that made the narrative resonate so well.
The impact is impossible to recreate now, even for newer fans of the series. People want a 1:1 retranslation but such a thing would always be a gimmicky shadow of it's original. It's why the focus shifts, now the most emotionally impactful scene is not the killing of her but of her goodbye, in the church after the dream date. "Thank you," Aerith echoes "It's been fun", a callback to her conclusion on Remake where she says "I'm grateful for all the words we shared. All the moments and the memories. You've made me more happy than you know."
So she dies and she doesn't, both at the same time. Effectively in limbo now, narratively explained by lifestream shenaningans. We put her there ourselves, by refusing to move on, refusing to accept her death but also refusing to change, allowing a different outcome. I don't think that's necessarily a bad thing, at least, Aerith's words sound like the very sincere feelings of the developers, who are grateful for all the love we all have powered into their work all these years.
I just love it so much, I could spend hours talking about it.
#ff7 rebirth#ff7 rebirth spoilers#ff7 remake#final fantasy vii#aerith gainsborough#aerith#meta analysis#ff7
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Can we hear your thoughts on Leona! Yutu?
Since Leona died fighting the Phantom, Yutu obviously wouldn't have met him, and I'm wondering about your ideas between what Leona became after NRC, how the loss of Yuu affected him, Leona's death, and Yutu's opinion of him before and after meeting him. I had an errant idea of Leona having Died a Hero's Death and then when Yutu meets him it's like, "THIS is the guy my parent was willing to spend the rest of their life with???"
Anyway yeah. As a Leona Simp, I would much appreciate anything you write.
Does he like cats... you know I have always sort of seen Leona has having a petty rivalry with Grim because he thinks he should be the King Cat, so the image of Leona! Yutu lying in a field with a bunch of cats is sort of a perfect contrast. I like it: Leona! Yutu absolutely loves cats and they love him.
notes: they/them used for Yuu, for context on the fyuuture kid au can be found here and here. You can find even more stuff for it on my masterlist under the series section.
Leona and and his position in the kingdom's line of succession... Based off my understanding of what we see in the Tashmina event I think the Savanna would prioritize protecting their royal family over a lot, something that pissed Leona off. He went to fight the King of Beast's phantom because he saw it as a problem he made and that he needed to take responsibility for sure, but also because he had no faith in his brother to do anything meaningful about it. I want to say that his brother wanted to enshrine Leona as a hero for his sacrifice, but that this decision was very unpopular with his advisors so he was buried in the Elephant Graveyard without much fanfare. He is an extremely popular figure with the hyenas, as is Ruggie. They see him as restoring the Kingdom's honor in a way by defeating the false king, something no other country in the apocalypse can claim, but things are still rough since they can't rely on tourism anymore and the blot has been making the weather really unpredictable, leading to bad harvests and starving people.
If Yuu was Leona's... losing them wouldn't have a noticeable affect on him but it was a massively crushing blow. We know he hates his unique magic because turning things to sand is a curse in the Savanna, but did it really have to be his own family this time? The family he got in spite of himself, the one fucking person who chose him no matter how much he snapped at them and tried to convince them to see him for what he was; a worthless dead end that would only hurt them. And what's worse is he knows that whoever took them had his brother's cooperation.
"Couldn't let me have this one fucking thing could you?" He's laughing as he says it and not even the irritation in his sister in law's eyes makes him back down. "Stuff it. I ain't stupid enough for whatever line you got fed and I don't care about your justifications. You're gonna have to live with this one on your own, Falena. Just like I have to."
He refuses to talk to his other family after that. No matter who is asking or making demands, taking Yuu and Yutu away from him is just one step too far. His brother probably thought that Yuu would be allowed to come home and that's why he let them go, but that's not exactly an excuse Leona would be willing to accept from anyone, let alone the supposed leader of a state. He almost feels relived when the blot phantoms start wreaking things, Leona might just want to sleep until you come to wake him up again but fighting things gives him an excuse to get his mind off things. Dying is a relief, he doesn't have to deal with Idia's whining or living without you any longer than he already has. His only regret is that he had to take Ruggie with him.
I really love this fanart and head cannon fima11 had of Leona's hair being light when he was born, and the color getting darker as he grows, so the idea of something similar happening with Leona! Yutu when he's born is really sweet. Leona's hair sort of resembles a mane, it'd be cute if Leona! Yutu's did the same. And genetics are already so weird I don't think any earth doctors would like too much of it.
Leona! Yutu is a sleepy boy. His hobby is napping and his favorite place in the whole wide world is his bed. He has a bad habit of laying face first in his pillows because he snores pretty loudly and he doesn't want to wake anyone up, which sort of makes him look like he has passed out as opposed to just settled down for a good snooze.
Because he is being raised by a single parent in the human world and not a bunch of gossipy servants hired by emotionally neglectful royalty, Yutu is significantly less entitled than Leona is. He has good sense with his money and can work hard, he just has a bit of a problem with resting bitch face that leaves people thinking he is rude. And to be fair? If someone is testing his patience then he really can be. Apple didn't fall far from the tree, Yutu is absolutely brutal when people test his patience.
Yuu's memories of Leona don't exactly help with his perceived behavior problems, they recall Leona's catty personality and how rude he could be, but that he was so remarkably clever and so very strong, that they were in awe of him sometimes. I think they would mention that he struggled with depression due to a difficult upbringing and feel a need to make sure Yutu felt appreciated and like he could do anything he set his mind to, no matter who he was born as. Yutu just takes that to mean that being a bitch runs in the family and he fully intends to ride that excuse to the bank.
It's a nice thought but Yutu feels a bit conflicted by it. He has no doubt that Yuu will always love and support him, but other people? Yuu might be able to ignore what their neighbors say about them but Yutu can hear them loud and clear. They think Yuu's amnesia is an act, and that he's a weirdo freak. Not to mention they don't have any money so even if he wanted to be a doctor or something like that going to school would be a bit of a pain, even with his grades. He finds school to be boring, and even when he gets bullied by one of the coaches in to taking up a sport because of how strong he is it doesn't help much.
I could see him being very into space and astronomy because he feels like he doesn't belong in your world. He knows a lot of downright stupid stuff about UFO sightings and aliens even though he doesn't believe in them. He is SO DISAPPOINTED when Twisted Wonderland turns out to have no conspiracy theories to talk about, can't think the moon landing was faked if you never had one after all. If the world wasn't literally ending he would be pushing for the Sunset Savanna to win the space race, c'mon guys it is in our name everything the light touches totally expands to the stars-
Like the other beastmen Yutus he maintains his instincts, even in your world. He is extremely territorial about his things and especially your home. Like Cater! Yutu, he has strong feelings of nostalgia for your world, but unlike him it has nothing to do with the monsters or hardships. Lions just tend to stay in the same place for a long time so moving to entirely different world and ecosystem makes him feel weird, even if he prefers his beastfolk body to his human one.
Gets put in Savanaclaw by the mirror. He might like space but his preferred type of argument is rearranging someone's dental work before asking them to explain themselves. He'd be terrible at defending a thesis.
Leona! Yutu's place in the Sunset Savanna hierarchy is tricky. I think, as Yutu is his brother's child, Falena would want some sort of relationship with him as he does clearly love his brother. What makes that hard is that as far as the government is concerned, Leona is dead and that's the end of his part of the family line. Acknowledging that he had a son could further destabilize the already tense political situation in the Savanna since Leona's sacrifice is already a point of conflict between the royal family and a portion of their people. While Crewel has no problem telling Yutu about his father since he has a right to know, the fact that he is technically a prince is completely hidden from him for a long time.
We haven't really played with this idea yet, but I sort of like Leona having a ghost that hangs around his grave sometimes. Idia arranges for Yutu to go there on a day he thinks he'll be hanging around and while Yutu doesn't get to talk to his father he does get to see him and the look of pride in his eyes when the grumpy lion realizes who he is. Leona gets to pass on and be with Yuu while Yutu gets a lesson from his cousin about the concept of the great Kings living on in the sky and how the past lives on in him. Because while Cheka understand his dad's concerns like hell is he not going to meet his favorite cousin. His enthusiasm is really exhausting to Yutu, he appreciates the fact that someone has nice things to say about his dad but he isn't too sure how much he trusts this guy.
Oh right one more thing, I don't want to say each of the Savanaclaw boys would pass their magic on to their Yutu's so if we ever get around to Jack he won't, but Leona should pass on King's Roar to his kid. Causing a drought might be considered a curse but I want to say Leona! Yutu wears it with pride. He loves his roar and that despite all the effort put in to erasing Leona from existence he still lives in him. His head is fit to wear the crown, no matter what anyone says.
Leona clocks what Yutu is the instant he steps out of the portal. It's all in the kid's scent and what runes he used to make the jump. He takes some time to think about what it could mean and comes to a few conclusions. Firstly, if he has a kid with you then he will always have some sort of relationship with you, no not in the yandere possessive way (mostly), he just knows enough about himself and his wants to know that having a kid would not be something he did by accident. If he did that at some point in the future it would be because you were going to stay with him forever and he actually believed that. Something that clearly did not get to happen because of how protective Yutu is of his parent.
Yutu was a bit confused if he should go about interacting with his dad or even ask about him so you can imagine his surprise when he stops by Ramshackle to see Leona half asleep on the couch.
"Oh sorry Yuu isn't here-"
"I know." Leona doesn't even open his eyes, and is he seriously wearing his shoes on the couch? Yuu would kill him for that it's so unsanitary.
"Um. Ok I'll just leave you be the-"
"Why'd you travel back in time?" Oh Leona's eyes are open now and there is something about that stare that's nailing Yutu to his spot and tempting his tail between his legs. His dad must notice because he laughs and shakes his head. "Seriously? If that's all it takes to scare you shitless we really are fucked."
Leona doesn't outright say he knows he's his dad, but Yutu gathers that's probably the case from the difference in his attitude around him compared to everyone else. There's a degree of coldness and severity to Leona when he's giving orders that really isn't present when he's talking to him about overblots or his theories about who is responsible for the bad future. He's almost playful about it, like he is messing with a cub. Which Yutu supposes that he is but still, he doesn't like being treated like a kid. Something he very much regrets telling Leona because holy shit his dad is strong just like Yuu said he was.
I think Leona would make him play chess against him a lot. You can learn a lot about a person by playing chess with them, and since it's something Leona really likes to do he would enjoy sharing it with his son. I think he would also get a kick out of seeing Yutu get really competitive with him about it. Maybe there is some lion in this kid after all.
Leona also makes a subtle effort to teach him about how the court of the Sunset Savanna works. I think Leona would sort of enjoy the fact that his kid didn't grow up as royalty just because it meant he was free of the pressures that he had, but hate everything else he learned about Yutu's childhood. It inspires him to think a bit deeper about how he is going to address this when Yutu is born in this timeline, though he is admittedly lacking on solutions beyond refusing to die this time. He must have been really far gone to even consider making a heroic sacrifice that's not like him at all.
He does get the appeal of his father sort of? Sure he's lazy, but he is extremely intelligent and clearly a lot more knowledgeable about literally everything than Yutu thought he was. When they're working together he sees a very impressive person and reliable leader. When he sees Leona interact with you he has questions. Why do you let him pick fights with you so often? Yutu can tell he's making heart eyes at how you fight back but that's because he's a beatman himself so he can read his body language. And he's not crazy about how he orders you around because if his father is a Prince... wouldn't that mean by marrying him you would also be royalty? He is so confused...
Meanwhile Leona isn't rushing things just because he knows you return his feelings at some point. He wants you to choose to be with him of your own free will, wants the feeling that comes with knowing you did that and he is willing to play the game to get that. Every milestone he reaches is so much sweeter for knowing that he got you on his efforts alone, crappy attitude and all.
The reveal to Yuu, much like the reveal to Yutu is extremely mundane. Leona invites you to spend the night with him sometime after you get together and he asks you while you're curled up on his chest and he's holding you just a bit too tight (not because he's afraid you'll run, not at all) how you would feel if you could never go home.
"A little upset." Because you had resigned yourself to the possibility a long time ago now. There's a chance you're only in Twisted Wonderland because you died in your world anyway, might as well be grateful you're still kicking. "And if you stayed and things went bad here, would you still be alright with that?" You don't hesitate at all to his surprise. "I think I'd be safe if I was with you." Well he really hates to prove you wrong but you still deserve to know.
Leona is weirdly quiet in his anger. He roars sure, but that's to exert control. When he's mad he just gets smug and says a lot of hurtful stuff. He leaves the screaming to Yuu, and I could see a Yuu that got with Leona only to learn they didn't get to spend the rest of their life with him doing a lot of screaming. Preventing the apocalypse is a team effort now but first Yutu and Leona are getting scolded for not letting Yuu in on the secret sooner. Leona is down bad horrendous and Yutu wants to die, he hates making you mad.
If I had to make a list of characters I would trust to find a solution to an apocalypse, Leona would actually be pretty close to the top. He is going to bitch about it the entire way, but if he were given the facts before things went too sideways, I think he would be able to make a good plan to set them straight. And there is no way anyone is going to tell him that he managed to have something as precious to him as Yuu taken away from him and not have him do something about it. He'll swallow his pride and take his licks when he has to, but not on this. Never on this, whoever thought he'd just roll over and die is going to shatter in his hands and be like dust on the wind. He really hopes they have enough sense to be prepared....
#<3 asks#twst x reader#twisted wonderland x reader#future kid au#leona kingscholar x reader#leona kingscholar x yuu
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Of Duty and Desire | Chapter 1 | Neteyam x Metkayina!reader
He glanced away for a moment and clenched his jaw. When he looked back at you, you could see the frustration burning in his face. "I just-" he paused, staring at you intensely. "I've never wanted anything as much as I want you."
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Summary: You are the tsakarem of the Metkayina, promised to Aonung, and you have settled into your role nicely. Everything is as it should be until a family of Omatikaya refugees arrives, and the eldest son causes you to reconsider everything
A/N: I have been working on this piece for a while, but I literally had to rewrite this like four times so whoops. I appreciate all the love on my last fic, so hopefully y’all enjoy this too :) also, after this part I’m aging up the characters lol. Part 1 of idk
Neteyam x fem Metkayina!readers
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Freedom is oftentimes the sacrifice demanded by duty.
The privilege of choosing how to live one's life is swept away by the responsibilities one has to their family, their friends, or their people. You thought you understood the weight of duty when you became the tsakarem of the Metkayina, but you soon realized thereafter that the cost was higher than what you were willing to pay.
In the months following their arrival, you had gotten close to the forest children. You loved spending time with Tuk. She was bright and full of wonder, and she never failed to make you laugh with her occasional sassy remark. Lo'ak was determined and a fast learner, and you were constantly amused by his poorly-hidden attraction to your best friend, Tsireya. You became fast friends with Kiri due to her deep connection with Eywa and interest in healing.
But there was something about your relationship with Neteyam that was different from all the others. In the few short months you had known each other, your friendship had grown much faster than you had expected. He was kind and respectful, and he always knew how to make you laugh. He was as close to you as the friends you had known your whole life.
You had first met him one day rather unexpectedly after their arrival. You were under the cover of the healing tent when you heard someone approach from outside. You were surprised to find the oldest Sully waiting expectantly while gripping his wrist tightly. He dropped his grip in order to offer you the customary greeting of his hand to his forehead before immediately returning to hold his wrist again.
You offered the gesture back to him before asking, "Is everything alright?" He gave an embarrassed smile and said, "I touched a plant in the water with my hand, and now it burns. I was told to come here for a remedy." You knew immediately what it was, and you offered him a sympathetic look. Taking his hand, you inspected it to confirm your suspicion.
"We learn at a young age not to touch the sea nettle," you told him with a faint smile. "Think of it as a rite of passage." His lips turned upwards at your words. "Then I suppose I'm one step closer to becoming Metkayina," he joked. You chuckled as you searched for the treatment for nettle.
While he waited for you, he sat down on the floor and said, "I do not believe we have met before. I am Neteyam." You cast a brief glance over your shoulder with a smile. "I know who you are, Neteyam te Suli," you told him. "But you are right, we have not met. I suppose that is my fault, I have been very busy since you arrived." After finding the correct bowl, you sat down across from him and introduced yourself properly.
"You are the tsakarem, yes?" Neteyam clarified as you took his hand to inspect it for any remaining nettles. "I am," you confirmed, trying not to appear proud or arrogant in the title. "I spend much of my time here in the village. I have been able to become acquainted with your mother and sisters, though you and your brother seem rarely to leave the water."
Neteyam nodded with a small smile. "We have been learning so much," he told you. "It is all still so new to us." You hummed in understanding. "You seem to be adjusting well to the reef," you observed.
Before he could respond, you took the small bowl of oil and held it above his hand. "This will sting at first," you warned. He nodded, and you poured a small amount over his palm. As you had predicted, he tensed at the pain, and you could see the muscles in his arms flex reactively. He took a deep breath and relaxed as the pain ebbed away.
Carefully, you took your thumbs and rubbed them down his palm. "Let me know if I am hurting you," you told him quietly. He remained silent as you massaged the oil into his hand. You felt his eyes on your face, so you glanced up at him. He didn't look away, keeping his amber eyes fixed on your face, and he offered you a soft smile. You were only able to hold his gaze for a few seconds before becoming slightly embarrassed, and you quickly looked back down at your hands again.
"It feels much better," he said after a moment. "I'm glad," you replied earnestly. "I haven't touched sea nettle since I was very young, but I remember the sting of it very well." He nodded his head with an ironic grin. "I don't think I will forget this any time soon," he agreed.
You continued working the oil into his skin for a moment, and you still felt his eyes on your face, though you didn't look up at him again until you were finished. Dropping his hand, you said, "Try to avoid nettle in the future. We usually save the remedy for children, but I made an exception for you this time."
He grinned at you. "I am very grateful," he told you, placing his hand over his heart. "And I will take more care in the future." Smiling at him, you replied, "I hope so. I don't want to have to patch you up every day."
He looked at you in amusement. "I'm sure there are worse ways to spend the day," he teased. You shook your head with a small laugh. "Perhaps," you conceded. "But there are certainly more productive things to do as well."
"Thank you," he said as he moved to stand up. "I will see you later tonight?" You blinked in surprise. You saw him every night during the evening meal from afar, but since you had never spoken to him before, you were surprised at his forwardness.
"I suppose," you replied, then added with a smirk, "That is unless you hurt yourself again before then." He gave you a cheeky smile. "No promises," he responded playfully.
You saw the forest boy more often after that. Sometimes he would come in claiming to be searching for his mother and then stay and talk with you. Other times, he would come in with scrapes and cuts not severe enough to warrant Ronal's expertise, but deep enough to justify seeing you for help.
Sometimes, you wondered if he was getting hurt on purpose. You didn't mind though. He was sweet and enjoyable, and he always told you stories of himself and his siblings in the forest. You knew he missed it very much, but he hid his longing behind all the funny tales of his family.
One person who was wary of your friendship with Neteyam and his family was Aonung. He had his mother's distrusting nature as well as her pride, and as his intended mate, you knew he wasn't happy with how close you had become to them. He never said anything directly to you, but he would drop subtle comments about them when you were around. Whenever you were helping teach the forest children, he watched closely for how you interacted with them. You could feel the tension between him and the Sullys, and it all came to a head about two months after they had arrived at the reef.
You were sorting things when you heard a commotion outside. You looked out in confusion before Aonung pushed his way into the tent. You took in a sharp breath as you got a look at his face.
He looked awful. His eye was starting to swell, there was blood dripping from his nose, and dark purple bruises were beginning to form on his cheek. "What happened?!" You asked him sharply as some of his friends followed in behind him sporting similar injuries on their faces. Aonung didn't look at you, but one of his friends behind him chimed in, "It was the forest boys."
You scowled at Aonung. "What did you do?" You demanded to know. He shot you an irritated look. "You are accusing me?" he asked incredulously. Your scowl deepened as you glared up at him suspiciously. "Yes," you said. "I am." He scoffed at you. He wasn't afraid of your ire when he knew he had the privilege of being the son of the two clan leaders to protect him.
"They do not belong here," he told you. "I don't know why you are so fond of those freaks." His friends behind him muttered their approval at his statement. You turned your glare to them, and they immediately fell silent and looked away. Even if Aonung didn't fear you, at least they did.
"They are here under uturu," you said in a harsh whisper. "We must treat them with respect and dignity." Aonung rolled his eyes at your words. "Where is my mother?" he asked, ignoring your statement. You huffed an irritated breath. "Out," you responded crossly, walking over to where Ronal kept her store of medicines and other mending materials.
You pulled out a jar of ointment and handed it to Aonung. "For the cuts," you told him. "Now go." You pointed at the entrance of your tent resolutely, maintaining a level glare at him. He held your gaze for a moment before taking the bowl and walking away, his friends in tow.
You closed your eyes in exasperation. How could they all be so stuck up and stupid? You knew that Aonung took great pride in being the next in line for Olo'eyktan, but you had never seen him act so rude and self-absorbed. Honestly, it was embarrassing for you.
After a moment, you decided to go out to see if you could find one or both of the Omatikayan boys to apologize on behalf of Aonung. Stepping out, you headed over to where their family was residing. From a distance, you could see that Lo'ak was stepping out of the tent, his face downcast and irritated. He was still too far from you to try and call out to him, so you skipped briskly along the suspended walkways between you to try and catch up to him.
Despite your urgent pace, Lo'ak quickly moved in the opposite direction from you, but from their tent, Neteyam walked out into the light of the sun wearing a subtle smile on his face. Approaching his tent, you called out to him. He glanced up at you in mild surprise and offered a polite nod.
You studied his face for injuries, but besides a busted lip, he seemed relatively unharmed. "I know what happened with Aonung," you began. "Well, sort of. I am very sorry about him and his friends." He gave you a soft smile and shook his head casually. "It was not your fault," he said simply. "There is no need for you to apologize."
As he spoke, you noticed the fresh blood on his lip from his cut. "You are cut," you observed. "Come with me." You grabbed his arm to lead him back to the healing canopy, but he resisted, shaking his head again. "This is nothing," he told you gently. "I will be fine."
You didn't let go of his arm. "You have come to our home as guests," you said softly. "Aonung and his friends have treated you dishonorably. Please, let me make it right." You gazed up at his face imploringly, and after a moment, his face softened and he nodded. "Alright," he conceded and followed your pulling hand.
Entering under the cover of your canopy, you had Neteyam sit down while you took out a small cloth and a salve. Dampening the cloth with fresh water, you turned to where he was sitting patiently for you.
Taking his jaw in your hand gently, you turned his face so that you could inspect the cut better. Neteyam's eyes stayed on your face for a moment before glancing away to fixate on the tent walls. In addition to the cut on his lip, you also noticed some more purplish spots starting to form on his neck.
You traced your fingers over the forming bruises on his neck. Neteyam tensed at your touch, and his eyes quickly darted to your face. You pulled back your hand from his neck and said, "Sorry." He gave you a subtle smirk. "It doesn't hurt," he assured you. "Just sensitive."
"Ah," you said in a low voice, looking away from his eyes sheepishly. You started to clean away the blood on his lip. "What did he do to start the fight?" You asked him, changing the subject. He blinked slowly and shook his head. "It does not matter," he replied in a quiet voice, looking away from you.
Your grip on his jaw tightened slightly, and you turned his face back so he would look you in the eyes. "What did he do?" You asked again in a more insistent tone. You could see him contemplating, and you held his face and gaze in expectant silence.
"He was making fun of Kiri and Lo'ak," he relented. "He called them freaks." The grip of your hand holding his face tightened reflexively as anger burned in your chest. You closed your eyes for a second to regain your composure before turning his head back to continue attending to his cut.
"I am very sorry, Neteyam," you murmured earnestly. "He never should have said those things." In your peripheral vision, you could see that his eyes were fixated on your face, but you kept your focus on his lip. "You do not have to apologize," he repeated from earlier, trying to keep his mouth still as he spoke. "You have shown nothing but kindness to my family since we arrived."
You glanced up for a moment to meet his eyes. He was looking back at you with a soft gaze, and you became aware of how close you were to his face. You turned away from him as you felt your cheeks grow warm to pull out the salve you had. Taking a small swatch on your thumb, you brushed it gently over his lip. You could feel his eyes on you as you did, and despite your best efforts, you glanced up at them. A beat of tense silence passed as you looked at each other wordlessly, one of your hands holding his face while the other was tracing his mouth.
Worried that he may be able to hear your heart pounding, you thought desperately of something to say. "He is intimidated by you," you said finally as you dropped your hands from his face and looked down from his eyes. Neteyam cocked his head to the side. "Aonung?" He clarified. You nodded as you wiped the remaining salve off of your fingers.
"He is the son of Olo'eyktan," you explained, shifting to sit on the floor next to him. "There has never been anybody to challenge that status until now, but not only was your father Olo'eyktan as well, but he was Toruk Makto. We were raised hearing stories of him. Some sound too strange to be true."
Neteyam looked at you in curiosity. "Stories?" He repeated. "Like what?"
You smiled, somewhat embarrassed. "There are many," you said slowly. "He was once a human, a warrior from the stars." Neteyam nodded his head slowly. "That is true," he confirmed. You thought back for more rumors. "They say he killed one of the Na'vi to possess his body," you mentioned.
Neteyam let out a small, surprised laugh. "That one is not true," he said, amused at the story. "The Sky People grew his body from the blood of his brother and Na'vi blood, and his spirit now resides in it." Your forehead scrunched in confusion. "The blood of his brother?" You echoed, perplexed.
He shrugged his shoulder nonchalantly. "I don't even fully understand it," he admitted. "But the important thing is that no, he didn't possess anybody else's body to become one of the People." You nodded faintly, still very confused about Neteyam's answer.
"What else have you heard?" He prompted. You thought back to the way you imagined Toruk Makto before he came here. You had thought he would be large and intimidating like Tonowari, but with an authoritarian attitude and little humor. It was almost comical how he really was just like any other Na'vi father aside from some small physical differences and his accent.
"I thought he couldn't speak in the Na'vi tongue," you added. "We all thought he spoke a strange language." Neteyam nodded again. "When he led the revolt against the Sky People," he explained, "he spoke very little Na'vi. His first language is called English."
You tilted your head at the funny word. "English," you repeated. He smiled at your accent and nodded. "He usually only speaks it with my family," he said. "Many of the Omatikaya can speak it a little, too." You smiled back before asking, "What does it sound like?"
Neteyam shrugged. "What do you want me to say?" He said in English. You couldn't help but giggle at the strange language. "What does that mean?" You asked. He smiled at you in amusement. "I simply asked what you wanted me to say," he clarified.
You hummed thoughtfully as you came up with a phrase for him to say. You looked out at the afternoon sun casting brilliant reflections on the water outside of your tent. "The sea is very beautiful," you said finally. He looked out at the water for a moment. "The sea is very beautiful," he replied before looking back at you and adding, "and so are you."
You tilted your head and eyed him suspiciously. The pause between his words sounded like he said something extra. "All of that means 'The sea is very beautiful?'" You questioned skeptically. He glanced away for a moment with a faint smile. "Not all of it," he admitted. He paused for a moment, and then he said, "I said 'The sea is very beautiful, but I miss the forest.'"
"Ah," you said, nodding in understanding. "It must be very hard for you to be away from it." He sighed, looking back out at the sea with a far-away stare. "It is," he agreed after a while. "It is so different there. The sounds, the smells, everything. I don't think I have ever spent so much time in the sun as I have here."
You laughed at his last statement. "What do you mean?" You asked. He pointed out to where a few large, craggy precipices jutted out over the water. "The trees where I am from are higher than those cliffs," he explained. "When you are in the forest, very little sunlight reaches the ground."
Looking out to where he pointed, you shook your head in amazement. "I cannot even imagine trees like that," you said in wonder. He turned to you with a soft smile. "I'll take you to see them someday," he promised.
You smiled up at him, but it quickly faded away. You shook your head and looked away from his face. "No," you sighed regretfully. "I am tsakarem. It would not be right for me to leave the reef." He hummed in understanding. "I imagine your intended would not be happy about it either," he commented, watching you for your reaction.
You shifted uncomfortably. "No," you conceded quietly, "probably not."
When he didn't respond, you glanced up at his face and saw he was gazing at you expectantly. "He is not entirely to blame," you defended gently. "He and I have a great responsibility to the clan. He has carried it his whole life, but I am still getting used to it." He gave a small nod in understanding. "I have carried it my whole life, too," he said, then added in English, "but it didn't make me into an ass."
You smiled at the strange words and shot him a quizzical look. "I said, 'It is a heavy burden to bear,'" he translated for you. You nodded in agreement, and you missed the wry grin on his face.
"It must be nice for you finally to be free of that burden," you reflected. He heaved a heavy sigh and shook his head. "Even though my father is no longer Olo'eyktan, he still holds the title of Toruk Makto," he countered. "It is one that will always follow him, and so it will always follow me."
He stared out at the water in contemplation. There was a pause, and Neteyam gave another sigh. You could see the weight of his family's legacy on his face, and you felt a sense of compassion for him. "A heavy burden," you repeated his words quietly. He didn't say anything, lost in his own internal musings.
Even though you knew that the expectations weren't quite the same, you felt that on some level, you understood the struggle of upholding the standard of greatness in life. Your parents were very proud of your status of tsakarem, and you felt the pressure of it from them as well as Ronal, whose expectations were higher than everyone else.
"I never understood how heavy it was until now," you commented. "But I accepted my role. You were born into yours." Neteyam looked at you carefully and tilted his head in curiosity. "You accepted it," he repeated, "but did you actually want it?"
His question caught you off guard. As you pondered it, you felt a strange mix of emotions stirring in your chest. Nobody had ever considered that you wouldn't want to be tsakarem. It was easy to get swept up in the honor and prestige and forget about the fact that you were surrendering many of the freedoms you had previously enjoyed in order to prepare yourself to help lead the clan.
Your throat tightened unexpectedly as you thought about his question. Neteyam must have noticed your reaction because he shook his head apologetically. "I'm sorry," he said. "I did not mean to upset you." His words snapped you out of your thoughts. You shook your head dismissively and gave a weak smile.
"It's okay," you assured him. "I just..." you trailed off, not sure of what to say. After a beat, he took your hand comfortingly. "You carry the title with great dignity," he told you reassuringly. "And you bring honor to your people."
Your chest warmed at his words, easing the strain of his earlier question. With a shy smile, you asked, "How do you say 'thank you' in English?" He chuckled at your question. "Thank you," he told you in English.
"Thank you," you repeated in his funny language. He gave you a warm smile. "You're welcome," he replied. "You're welcome," you echoed thoughtfully. He nodded in approval. "That was almost perfect," he complimented. You hummed at his praise. "You'll have to teach me to speak it perfectly," you told him. He smiled as he looked at you. "I will," he promised gently.
You felt your cheeks warm at his soft gaze. You had never seen eyes quite like his. They were a shade of yellow you had never seen before, almost greenish in the reflections from the water. In the prolonged silence, you realized that he was still holding your hand, so you blinked and pulled it away gently while you desperately thought of something to say.
"Your cut will heal within the next couple of days," you said finally. He blinked as though pulled from deep thought and nodded gratefully. "You are very kind," he told you. "Thank you."
You smiled. "You're welcome," you told him, trying your best to accurately mimic the way he said the phrase.
He chuckled at your use of his language. "You're a fast learner," he praised and then sighed. "I should go find my brother," he added. You nodded in understanding, and you both stood up. Before he could leave, you said, "Please send my apologies to Lo'ak."
Neteyam shook his head with a reproachful smile. He brought his hand up to your face and tilted your chin upwards with his fingers to look him in the eye. "You need to stop apologizing for things you didn't do," he told you earnestly. Then, he dropped his hand and walked out of the tent before you could reply and before he could see the deep blush forming on your face.
Later that evening, you had taken Tuk out to feed the ilus. Waist deep in the water, you both giggled as the pod of ilus gathered around, swimming in eager circles around you. You and the young girl took turns feeding them one by one.
"I think this one likes me," Tuk giggled as one of the animals nudged her side affectionately. "Yes, well, that one is notorious for loving whoever has the food," you said with a laugh. Taking a fish from the basket, Tuk fed the cuddly ilu. "Then I'll feed him every day," she said with a bright smile.
From behind you, you could hear someone moving through the water. You turned and saw Neteyam wading out to where you and Tuk were standing. Noticing her older brother, Tuk called out, "Look, Neteyam! Come feed the ilus with us."
Neteyam offered his sister a quick smile before it melted into a more urgent look.
"Have either of you seen Lo'ak?" He asked. You glanced at Tuk, who looked back at you with the same confused look. "I haven't seen him since I saw you last," you told him. "Is everything alright?"
Neteyam glanced quickly at his younger sister before looking back at you. "It's probably nothing, I'm just looking for him." He started to walk back out of the water, and you could see the look of agitation on his face. You handed Tuk the basket of fish and said, "Here, you keep feeding them, I'll be right back."
You moved out of the water to follow after Neteyam. He must've heard you behind him because he slowed down and waited for you to catch up to him. Stepping behind him, you asked, "What's wrong?"
He shot you a worried glance. "I've looked everywhere. There is no sign of him, and nobody has seen him." Your forehead scrunched up at his words. "When did you last see him?" You asked. He gave a loose shrug and replied, "Earlier today, same as you."
"At your home?" You clarified questioningly. He nodded. "Yes, after my father told him to go..." he trailed off, and you could see that a thought had entered his mind. His worried face hardened into aggravation, his jaw clenched, and his head tilted as he fought to compose his anger.
"What is it?" You questioned in concern. Neteyam took a moment to close his eyes before muttering, "Aonung." Your stomach dropped a little bit at his name. Surely, he wouldn't have caused any more trouble than he already had.
Neteyam turned from you sharply and walked at a brisk pace towards the village. You struggled to keep pace behind him. "What about Aonung?" You asked, confused. Without breaking his stride, Neteyam said, "My father told Lo'ak to apologize to him earlier, and that was the last time I saw him."
A feeling of unease settled over you, and you prayed that Lo'ak was just off brooding somewhere instead of being in trouble. As you both quickly stepped across the beach, you caught Aonung's familiar form standing in the shallow water.
"You," Neteyam called out to him in a hard tone. Aonung had been staring out at the water towards the Sea Wall, but at the sound of Neteyam's voice, he whipped around. He was immediately defensive as Neteyam stepped up to him in the water.
"Where is my brother?" He demanded. Aonung scoffed. "He's your brother," he replied in a haughty voice. "Aren't you the one supposed to babysit him?" Neteyam shot the other boy a burning glare and took a step forward to get in his face, causing Aonung to take an uneasy step back. "I kicked your ass once already today," Neteyam stated. "I will do it again if I have to."
"Enough," you said firmly, not wanting a repeat of their earlier altercation. The boys didn't say anything, still holding each other's glare. "Aonung, do you know where Lo'ak is?" You asked. After a brief pause, Aonung's eyes glanced away from Neteyam over to you, and you saw the uneasy look he had.
Your stomach sank. "Where is he?" You pressed, feeling frustrated at his silence. You could see his hesitation before he finally relented, "I'm not sure. We...we left him at Three Brothers Rock."
You inhaled sharply. "Aonung," you whispered, horrified. He didn't look at you, the severity of his actions sinking in. Neteyam was a little lost. "Where is that?" He asked you, desperate to know where his brother was. You didn't answer him, still looking at Aonung in disbelief.
"How could you do that?" you asked quietly, and he averted his eyes. You glanced back at Neteyam. "It is way out past the reef," you said. "It is not close, and it is very dangerous for him to be alone."
At your words, Neteyam's face twisted in anger. He stepped towards Aongung again, but you had anticipated his reaction and moved quickly to stand between them and placed a hand on his chest. "No fighting," you told him sternly. "We need to gather a search party for Lo'ak, not waste time giving each other more injuries for me to tend to later on."
Both the boys stared at each other for a moment before Neteyam looked down at you and gave you a barely-perceptible nod. You let your hand drop from his chest and looked over at Aonung. "When did you leave?" You asked him.
He shook his head uncomfortably. "It's been a few hours," he admitted. You closed your eyes with a heavy sigh. Neteyam huffed a sharp breath and grabbed Aonung by the back of his neck. "I'm done with this," he muttered and marched him back to the village.
A search party was quickly organized. Several warriors and divers on skimwings and ilus assembled to search for Lo'ak. With the sun receding behind the planet, you and the rest of your friends were ordered to stay within the Sea Wall.
You saw Neteyam pacing anxiously on the beach, looking out for any sign of his brother's return. You walked up to him carefully. "I'm sure they will find him soon," you assured him, breaking him from his thoughts. He heaved a large sigh and looked out towards the water.
"I should have been with him," he murmured. "This wouldn't have happened if I had been with him." You looked at him with sympathy. "You can't blame yourself," you told him gently. "If anyone is to blame, it is Aonung." He didn't argue with you, and you both knew you were right.
You sat down on the sand with a sigh, and after a moment, Neteyam followed suit and sat down beside you. "I have known him almost my whole life," you said as you sifted some sand between your fingers. "He has always been proud and stubborn, but he has never been malicious." You couldn't deny that Aonung's behavior towards the Sullys before had made you uncomfortable and disappointed, but this was on a whole new level, and you felt as though you didn't even know him at all.
You sighed again and looked over at Neteyam. He was staring out at the water with a blank gaze. You weren't sure what else to say. You couldn't assure him of his brother's safe return because there was a very real chance he was not safe. So, you just sat in silence beside him.
As the evening turned into night, Lo'ak eventually returned unharmed, much to the relief of you and Neteyam. After taking the blame for Aonung, an uneasy but not unfriendly relationship started between him and Lo'ak, and Neteyam put aside his anger for his brother's sake.
The next day, Lo'ak recounted how a lone tulkun had saved him from the akula the day before. After describing the creature who saved his life, Tsireya quickly realized that the tulkun was the outcast Payakan.
"I'm telling you guys, he saved my life," Lo'ak explained insistently. "He is my friend."
Everyone had doubtful looks, but Neteyam stood up with a jaunty smile and grabbed his brother by the shoulders. "My baby bro," he said lightheartedly. "The mighty warrior who faced the killer tulkun and lived to tell about it."
Lo'ak was not amused and pushed his brother's hands off of him. "You guys aren't listening," he huffed and walked away. You all called out to him, but he continued away in irritation. Tsireya followed after him, and the others all disbursed to start the day.
You remained sitting there, perplexed at what you had heard. Everyone in the clan knew about the dangerous, young bull who had killed both Na'vi and other tulkun, and Lo'ak's assertions of Payakan's innocence unsettled you. Deep in thought, you hadn't even realized that Neteyam had stayed behind until he asked, "What are you thinking?"
You blinked, startled out of your thoughts. You gave a short sigh. "Tsireya is right," you told him. "If it was Payakan, then your brother is lucky to be alive. Payakan is very dangerous." Neteyam looked out for a moment to where Lo'ak had stormed off. "He seems to think differently," he commented.
You shifted uncomfortably. "I do believe your brother sees Payakan as a friend, but there is a reason for his exile." You looked out at the water and shook your head faintly. "The good thing is that Lo'ak is safe," you told him.
He smiled at you warmly. "That is true," he conceded. "And I appreciate your concern for my brother. It means a lot." You shrugged and replied, "You are my friend. What concerns you concerns me."
He offered his hand to help pull you up. You took it, and he pulled you up effortlessly. After you steadied yourself, you moved to walk off, but Neteyam didn't let go of your hand. You looked up at his face questioningly, and he was staring back at you with a soft smile.
"I'm serious," he told you earnestly. "Your friendship means a lot to me. Thank you." His face was so sincere and his voice so heartfelt that you didn't respond for a moment. "You're welcome," you replied finally. He held your gaze for a moment, the corner of his lips turned upwards, before dropping your hand and walking away to begin the day.
As you watched him disappear, you couldn't help but wonder why it was exactly that your heart was beating so quickly.
Chapter 2
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hi! i just discovered your blog! firstly i want to say i love your writing! the great war has me hooked! i’m a ghost reader (i must admit) but i love it sm 🫶🏽
anyway, my question for you is: do you think klaus dying in the season 5 finale was out of character for him? everyone i ever come in contact with always talks bout how dying for hope was his character development but it felt so simultaneously out of character for him. there’s no way klaus would leave hope alone in the world— he knew what that felt like. and she had just lost her mother like— *sigh*
i know joseph wanted to leave and killing klaus was the only way to make sure that the character couldn’t come back but it just. made. no. sense
what are your thoughts? (also sorry if you’ve already answered this some kind of way 😩)
Hi! First of all, thank you so much for reading my stories! That means so much to me! <3
I've talked about this a little before at the very end of my post about Klaus being a good father. I think him dying at the end of Season 5 was semi-in-character for Season 2 Klaus, but not where Klaus should have been in Season 5. People love to make it this great sacrifice, but in reality it was him running away from responsibility. A main character flaw for Klaus was that he wanted a lot of things without putting in the work. He wanted to be king of New Orleans, without having to do the political work necessary. He wanted the love of his siblings without being a good brother. He wanted the honor of being Hope's father without the responsibility of being her father.
We even see glimpses of this in Season 4. He spends all of his time spoiling Hope while Hayley does the work. I would have loved to see even one scene of Klaus doing Hope's hair or preparing her food (not compelling it) or disciplining her. Anything to show he was a father and not just a glorified babysitter.
We see the most improvement for Klaus when he takes the Hollow and separates from his family. I find it more impressive that he separated from Elijah and Rebekah more so than Hope. It seemed like every chance Klaus could "sacrifice" himself and be away from Hope, he did. I'm by no means saying he didn't love Hope. It's clear he did. But I think he allowed his fear of Hope seeing him for what he was to stop him from being a good father.
So in Season 5, when Hope has just lost her mother, he decided to orphan her rather than let Elijah die for her. Like you said, a lot of this was just due to JP setting up Legacies and Joseph not wanting to continue. They really couldn't set up Legacies with Klaus being alive without making Klaus look terrible. But honestly, at that point, he had already abandoned her for years, what's a few more? Him staying away is the same thing as him killing himself unnecessarily for her. She was still left alone. At least if he had been alive, he could check in with the family and keep pressure on them to raise his child.
But being dead was easier and Klaus tended to take the easy ways out.
As I said, this was a character regression. What would have actually been character development would be Klaus sticking around, without Elijah to clean up his mess or Hayley to raise his child or Cami to constantly set him on a better path. Hope needed Klaus to put her first and he didn't. He put his own fears above what Hope needed. Hope had to lose both parents in the span of a week because of him. Because there was another option. Elijah was willing and ready. When Elijah told him he had the Hollow too and would die by his side, Klaus should have let Elijah take it all and die alone. Elijah would have felt better leaving Klaus alive and Hope would have at least had one parent.
Klaus was good at showing up and doing the grand gestures for Hope. But he could never bring himself to do the day to day things that a child needs from her father. So, while I do think most of Klaus' behavior was OOC in Season 5, especially when the show was trying to pretend he had this great character development, it wasn't completely out of character for some of the earlier versions of Klaus.
Thanks for the ask!
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The quotes I believe are every characters' thesis statement in Willow (2022) and why. Elora: I believe that love is the most powerful force in the universe. Kit: You're afraid. So am I. But you know what? My fear, it doesn't get to decide. It doesn't get to, to define me. I'm not giving it the power. I'm giving it to you. I have never believed in anything my whole life. I believe in you. Jade: Yeah, and when you love someone and they need you, yes, you jump off the edge of the world to go and get to them. Graydon: One day you and I are gonna be in charge. And when that day comes, we don't have to do things the way our parents did. Boorman: I finally figured it out. This isn't my story. It's yours. You're the one. And all you gotta do is believe in yourself, and you'll be unstoppable. Willow: You know, it's taken me a long time to learn, it's okay to fall, to make mistakes. I've made lots... The trick is to embrace your defeats as well as your victories. You pay for both in the end. Be decent. Be fearless. And know this, wherever the adventure leads, I'm with you. Airk: You know, defend the realm and just be the best brother, and husband, and father, and son that I can possibly be. Because that is what you do when you have honor, right? Scorpia: All we have ever wanted is our freedom. That our children would not have to live in fear. They'd serve no master... We have no barrier to hide behind, no army to defend us. All we have is the fear our masks evoke, the determination to survive, and each other... Freedom, rebellion, passion, joy. To the break of dawn! Sorsha: Everything I've done, I've done to protect the people I love. It costs a lot. Madmartigan: It was the hardest thing I've ever done. But love is sacrifice. You've gotta be willing to give up what you want for what you believe in.
Elora's is extremely obvious. As the heroine and chosen one of our show, her quote not only represents who she is and what she believes, but the most important message that the show wants to leave us with. At the end of the day, love above all things. Let that be your guiding force. It's what all of our characters come away with. Jade lets go of her ideals of duty to follow her heart to Kit. Kit learns to love and gains courage through it. Airk is saved by Kit through the power of love. Graydon becomes who he's always dreamed of, partially due to his love of Elora. Elora is able to fully grasp her power through her love of Graydon. And Elora tells us throughout the season that love is the most powerful thing in the universe, at first taken as a joke by Airk, Kit, and the audience and evolving into the hopeful statement we're meant to latch onto.
This is Kit's big moment. She spends the entire season having everything she thought she knew stripped from her. When you have nothing left, it'll make you reevaluate what you truly want and what you believe. We know that all Kit has wanted is to be brave and loved and I would argue that quote is part one of the thesis of Kit. It's Jade's love that gives Kit the bravery to take the leap of faith. As she stares at the edge of the world, she's probably at her most fearful. But she's spent her whole life giving into fear, fear of loss, fear of rejection, fear of abandonment. She knows what it means to give fear power, so she chooses to give the power to Elora, to love, to hope, to finally believing in something greater than herself. And by choosing not to give into fear, she also inspires Elora to do the same. Fear no longer gets to control Kit and we shouldn't let it control us either.
Like Kit, Jade is completely stripped of everything she knows about herself. Her honor, her duty, her history, her beliefs, her identity, it all comes into question. But she had to lose all of the things that she thought made her Jade Claymore in order for her to truly follow her heart. You don't jump off the edge of the world out of duty. You do it out of love. Jade does it for Kit. Graydon does it for Elora. Elora and Kit do it for Airk. And while I don't think Jade fully knows what any of what she's learned means for her and her future, the one thing she does know for a fact at the end of the season, which was the only thing that she was uncertain of at the beginning, is that she is totally, ridiculously, desperately in love with Kit and that love is returned. It's like Elora said, love is the most power thing in the universe and Jade now knows that.
Graydon's quote, I find, is one of the most important quotes of the show. This is the story of the next generation learning from the previous one’s mistakes and trying to do better. All of our younger characters are forced to confront the mistakes of their elders, especially Willow, Sorsha, and Madmartigan’s. Kit as Elora’s protector and learning that love comes before dutiful sacrifice (her parents). Jade learning love before duty and honor (Ballantine). Boorman facing the mistakes he made with the older generation and making the better choice with the younger one. Going on this adventure with the others, Graydon is able to find his true self and make his own choices. Just because his father wants him to be one thing, doesn't mean that Gray has to be that. He gets to be his own man. You get to be who you want to be, not what your parents want.
Boorman desperately wants to be the hero of the story and that’s probably the source of a lot of his bravado. He feels shame for leaving Madmartigan for dead, for lying about his escape from Skellin, because it’s not a heroic tale. He was a teenager/young man when he went after the Cuirass with Mads. He was Jade once upon a time, a squire in service to Tir Asleen royalty. The problem is that Boorman thinks the cuirass is the only way he can be a hero and being a hero is the only way to make up for his mistakes. But the cuirass is not meant for him; it’s not his story. The way for him to come full circle and become whole is to make up for his sins against Mads by giving the cuirass to his daughter. He’s not the hero of this story, but I do believe he’s the hero of another.
Willow gives us another important message of the show that we've seen throughout the season. Our mentor's journey over the course of the season is to let go. Willow can't seem to accept the consequences of the past. The loss of his wife. The departure of his son. The loss of Elora. The fact that he never became the sorcerer he thought he was meant to be. All of this causes him to be incapable of training Elora with any sort of true openness or understanding. Where Elora needs freedom and a safe place to fail, Willow only provides restrictions and pressure. The world can't afford for Elora to fail. And if Elora fails, she dies. But in the end, it's only his ability to accept his failures and victories that allows him to help Elora grow to become the hero she needs to be. And it's an important lesson for us.
Airk is a character that could have easily played into his own trope of charming playboy prince without a care in the world, but this quote helps separate him from stereotype. In episode one, I'm sure we would all admit we all believed, like Kit, that Airk didn't know Elora's public name. But he did. And throughout his time resisting the Crone, Airk proved time and time again that he truly was honorable and that all he wanted was to be good. Madmartigan's departure and Kit's future ascension left Airk looking for his purpose and trying to prove to his family that he was everything his absentee father couldn't be. He does everything he can to be a good boyfriend, a good brother, a good son, a good diplomat, and, in episode seven, he does everything he can to be a good man.
Scorpia is an inspiration. She has lost so much, but still finds the strength to care deeply in the face of her grief. She's lost her mother, father, and several brothers and sisters, but finds it in herself to keep loving. She may be mostly concerned about her people, but it's their philosophy of life, of freedom and liberation (another analysis yet to be written) that sends her on a crusade to save all of those people in Skellin. Not just her people, but all people. And I think that will be important in the war to come. As much as Scorpia will want to avoid war, her belief in freedom for all and rebellion will convince her that it's necessary. The entire Wildwood episode shows us the joy and passion and freedom that's a stake, what's worth fighting for. There is no freedom under the Wyrm and Scorpia will not accept that.
I think it's important to discuss Sorsha and Madmartigan's quotes together, because they explain their mistakes as well as layer them with complexities. One of the things that kind of irritates me is when people paint Mads as saint and Sorsha as awful, because they're cut from the same cloth (Kit, I love you, but I blame you for this). At the end of the day, they were willing to make the hard sacrifices if it meant protecting their kids and saving the world. Neither one of them could have foreseen the harm that their choices would have, but they did what they thought was right. They are one and the same, united in their cause and parenthood. But every single choice also cost them so much sacrifice, the biggest one being their chance at parenting Elora, and I think a lot of people forget that, especially when it comes to Sorsha.
#willow 2022#willow#kit tanthalos#jade claymore#elora danan#graydon hastur#thraxus boorman#airk tanthalos#venoma scorpia#sorsha tanthalos#madmartigan#willow meta#meta#watch me write essays for most of these
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pls tell me about odette and why you want to trap them in a snow globe and shake them until they’re concussed?
the fact that you compare hilbert to odette makes me already quite fearful
Hi!❤️❤️❤️
Okay, so Odette... Odette very much deserves to be trapped in a snow globe and a lot more if you ask me, but I'll let you be the judge.
While her crimes might not be as bad as Hilbert's (attempted murder of child and gaslighting vs genocide and I'm sure a lot of other stuff that I'm unaware of), the emotional wounds she causes are just horrible.
Let me give you a (hopefully) very quick rundown of what's going on here (if you have any questions here's my wip intro with links to all storts of things including characters or you can always ask):
The majestic country of Galla is floating in the sky, put there by the doves themselves to protect the humans from what lies beneath. The Black swamp, a place filled with monsters, fear, and madness.
Odette at 19 years old is a triarhist, one of three future rulers of Galla. They may be humans but their powers are devine, all powerful, that exist for one purpose alone: To protect people.
She is kind, clever and compassionate. She loves her people with everything she has and even as a young child she took her duties very seriously. She is also selflessness, always willing to help another.
She would do anything to keep her people safe like she's supposed to.
Odette, when she was little, was terrified of the Black swamp, of the stories about the place. Of having to be the one who stand been it and her beloved people if it comes to that. So she came up with an idea:
Build a machine and destroy the Black swamp for good.
However, her father disapproved, saying that what she wanted to do was way too extreme, that they were safe where they were. So Odette hid her plans, deciding to bide her time until she is officially crowned on her 20th birthday.
But someone found them... and Odette had to keep them quiet.
You see, Odette has a boyfriend, another triarhist, just like her. Endre. They love each other, understand one another better than anyone.
Endre has two younger siblings: Adél, the main character (15 yo) who idolizes Odette, she wants to be just like her, and Ákos (10 yo).
Sweet, little Ákos: smart, extremely curious, but unfortunately still naive. He was bound to find a secret drawer, with Odette's plans hidden deep within. He was bound to be confused and even frightened.
And Odette looked at him. The kid she helped teach how to read... and she pushed him off the edge of Galla and he fell...
All
The way
Down
Into the Black swamp below.
Anything for her people, right?
There are many reasons I hate Odette. Tiny things that just make everything worse.
Odette is selflessness, she doesn't care what happens to her as long as her people are safe.
Her selflessness stretched so far and so so thin that her sacrifice somehow became Ákos.
And she thinks she did the right thing.
😁Now let me just list a couple of my favorite (maybe petty) reasons to hate Odette:
Why I want to trap Odette in a snow globe:
Ákos for a long time blames himself for what happened partially because Odette was so perfect.
Ákos in general is just so confused about the whole thing. It's very hard for his young mind to wrap around the fact that someone that loved him could hurt him like this.
Like I said Adél wanted to be just like Odette. Now, she will spend the rest of her life fearing that she succeeded.
Endre lost the only person who could understand what he was going through as an heir!
Ákos was wearing a cat mask that Adél made when Odette pushed him. He looked adorable and innocent, and she still did it! Seriously, how can someone look at this and hurt him:
If put in the same situation, Odette wouldn't hesitate to do it again because she thought it was necessary.
I could go on, but for the sake of simplicity here, it is.
Tldr: She looked at a kid who saw her as a big sister and went: YEEET!
Thank you so so much for this ask! It made me really happy! I hope I answered your question well enough! ❤️
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For the character ask, Hawkeye and Leonard McCoy
Thank you! 💖
Hawkeye
Something I like:
Hmmm... I like that he's the heart. The emotional centre, the empathetic one who encourages everyone else to share their feelings, and incredibly open himself. He has multiple subplots where his goal is to get someone to talk about how they feel. He himself never represses his feelings (unless traumatic amnesia does it for him lol) and is always willing to share them/yell about them/start riots/etc. He's nearly shameless and almost never gets embarrassed about anything. He tells everyone when his dick stops working, his attempted solution when his (and bj's) prank goes wrong in Bottoms Up is to pants himself so they'll be even lol, he tells random people apropros of nothing that he was just sectioned in a psych ward in GFA, he shows up to morning assembly in a jockstrap to piss off a general once (not shown but mentioned), etc etc.
He's a very refreshing character that way, I love it. I'm used to being a fan of characters with a lot of hidden depths and interesting contradictory traits and big issues, but with Hawkeye what you see is what you get. He knows himself and he wants everyone else to know him too. And not in a shallow, simplistic two dimensional way - he's a complex and interesting guy - it's just his particular personality. He's overall a self-actualized, emotionally healthy, confident but self aware guy thrown into a hell that fucks with emotionally open people extra hard.
He's the sanest guy Sidney knows.
Something I dislike:
We're going niche with this because every other answer I can think of is something I've talked about at length. So in the occasional episode there are moments when he gets earnestly upset at someone and rather than eg making a caustic, mean joke, he'll respond in a humourless way, and honestly I think those moments are awkward lol. The examples I'm thinking of are Hey Doc, when he's upset about Frank not caring about a stolen microscope and just earnestly calls him heartless, and Preventative Medicine when he tells the xenophobic patient to shut up instead of eg cruelly mocking him. There are probably other examples occasionally.
I don't think it's ooc or anything, everyone has their off moments and Hawkeye can be an earnest emotional guy as I gushed about above lol, I just don't like them. I love when Hawkeye's wit gets mean when he's upset and it feels like a missed opportunity for that.
(And actually since I've talked about how much I love Hawkeye's openness before, I'll also add something v specific as an alternative answer for something I like:
I love that there are at least two lines indicating that he doesn't like John Wayne. (Disliking a John Wayne movie in LIP, "Who's John Wayne?" joke in Movie Tonight.) It makes perfect sense as a detail, John Wayne being the epitome of propagandic 50s manliness that the show spends a lot of time sending up, but it's just a great detail on a character level.)
McCoy
Something I like:
I love that he's open about his fears and discomforts and a bit of a worry-wort and not that into living on a spaceship having constant adventures lol while also being incredibly brave and badass. The moment that made him my TOS fave was when Khan was holding a knife to his throat and he told him exactly how to use it to kill him <3 And the moments he sacrifices himself for others - testing a medicine he just made on himself, volunteering for torture in The Empath, etc - are also badass af. But also he needs Spock to save him when he's thrown into a gladiator match because he doesn't know how to actually fight. Excellent combination.
Something I dislike:
There are the episodes that make him the bad guy in his arguments with Spock where he goes too far and that's always a little hard to watch. I kinda blame the writers for favouring Spock lol, but it's not exactly ooc and often it makes sense from Bones' pov, when Spock is behaving in a way that seems to him to be borderline sociopathic. And there are a couple eps where Spock comes across worse too at least. But yeah, sometimes McCoy needs to chill a little and remember that he knows Spock has feelings and viciously insulting him isn't a great way to bring out those feelings.
Send me a character and I’ll tell you something I like about them, as well as something I dislike about them
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My diary on Sunday.
hello, it's me again.
today, I would like to write about something that happened a few days ago. It was amazing to me. I realised that my life had a few changes in some way very positive. It makes me insane. Because of the changes in my mind, in the way I talk with myself, and how I am tolerant with others, it gives me peace.
It's a right decision when I start to go to school again; I love my college school. It's a chance to meet new people. They are very nice and acceptable. Some help me a lot. I am very appreciative of all the things they were kind to me.
Well, what's next?. Okay, I would say that my ex-boyfriend, whom I mentioned in the previous diary, has a new girl friend, lucky for her. I wish him the best. He deserves all the good things that I could not bring to him.
My work schedule seems better than ever. Although I don't have many lessons to do, I have more leisure time to rest. Spending time for myself to recharge and unwind. My mind is slightest than ever.
But I am always ready for the storm ahead, the day that is very challenging. But I consider all the obstacles in my life as new opportunities for growth.
I feel more alive now. I'm open to receiving abundance in my life.
I'm very grateful for the family I come from.
The lessons I could learn. The good food I am consuming.
The clothes I can choose to buy.
I'm fostering meaningful relationships in my life. I'm very appreciative of all the books I have read, which helps me to broaden my insight and vision.
I'm willing to travel abroad to explore new things ahead.
I would achieve all the goals that I used to set for.
Thankful for all the good songs that I have listened to. It's always made me feel calm and creative.
Now, the people around me are almost teachers and guidance people. I never forget thank you for myself as all the sacrifice, the spirit to never give up on the things I want, the body in which I build muscle, and for caring for myself in a healthy way. And finally, I'm very proud of who I am becoming.
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Fought for Me
Chapter 10: I Promise Now
(Guys I am so sorry for being the biggest liar on planet Earth. This was supposed to released a month ago. To be so honest I don't love how this chapter turned out but I know exactly how I want the last two chapters to go so this is a sacrifice I'm willing to make. Also this chapter is way longer than I meant for it to be. Anywho, please enjoy and let me know what you good people think!)
Raya did not wake up in a particularly good mood. Aulia was extra testy the night before and Charanya was nowhere to be found so she can't even complain about it to her. She's also unable to find Namaari which is very strange. The woman's usually like three feet away from Raya for the most part. Must be an off day all around.
Aulia is thankfully not a fussy baby ninety percent of the time so Raya can handle these kinds of one off days. Certainly doesn't mean she's going to enjoy it though.
There isn't much for Raya to do today. Heart has absolutely flourished in the recent months thanks to the help of the other four lands. Aulia is hanging out with Ai for lunch so Raya figured she should just eat her own meal outside by herself.
It is a truly beautiful day even if Raya feels like a walking corpse. Sun is shining, sky is clear, and there's a small warm breeze keeping her at a comfortable temperature.
Honestly, eating this meal alone felt really nice. Peaceful, even. Raya loves the people around her. She really does. Spending this time with family and friends is what really makes life worth living. But so many people all the time gets overwhelming, especially for her.
Therefore, Raya will take in this moment of serenity and enjoy it. She takes a large bit out of her food and savors every flavor. Damn, this food is good. Nothing can ruin such a beautiful moment-
"Princess Raya. It is an honor to be acquainted with you again," the voice Raya unfortunately recognizes as Mali stated.
Raya fucking hates it here.
Seriously, was one moment so much to ask for? She gets a little bit of peace and this binturi materializes out of nowhere and ruins? This may be a bit of an overreaction, but Raya kind of wants to kill herself.
Raya worries she's getting a little too comfortable after the Druun left. The Heart alpha's not even wearing scent blockers and yet Raya still didn't realize Mali was there until now.
"Mali. It's been years," Raya stated, allowing annoyance to creep out of her tone.
The Heart princess should be mature and have a civilized conversation, but hell. She's young and lived in the wilderness for several years. The people will give her a break for acting petty. So, Raya looked at Mali's mouth and stared. She stared hard.
"Indeed it has. I came to- is something on my face?" Mali asked when she took note of Raya's intense gaze.
"Oh no, it was my mistake. Thought I saw something stuck in between your teeth. Looked an awful lot like an antenna," Raya said with a wicked grin.
Mali awkwardly coughed in her hand. Good. Be awkward, you evil rat.
"Charanya was always very creative," Mali sighed.
"Didn't really give her much of a choice now did you?" Raya glared.
"I did not. That's why I came up to you. I wanted to apologize for the way I acted when we were kids. Both Noya and I were on a power trip and egged each other on because we thought we were so superior to the rest of the world. Then the Druun hit and, well, you know what happened. Certainly got my head out of my ass and made me realize how much of a binturi I was. So, I'm sorry. Truly," Mali told her sincerely. Even her scent was remorseful.
Damn, that's an actual apology.
This.......is not what Raya was expecting. She knows she talked rather optimistically with Charanya about Mali turning over a new leaf, but Raya honestly didn't think it was actually going to happen.
"Thank you. I appreciate the apology. The Druun changed a lot of things for a lot of people. It's all water under the bridge in my books," Raya told her with a light smile.
No point in holding a grudge. But Raya would keep an eye out, just in case. As long as Mali didn't mention the courting this would actually be a fun conversation between old classmates.
"That's good. I wanted to apologize in person because I figured you were unable to read my courting letter," Mali shrugged.
When is it Raya's turn to be happy?
"Oh? And how did you know I didn't read such a letter? Maybe I didn't even know you wanted to court me in the first place," Raya shot back.
"I saw you and Charanya chuck mine and many others gifts in the dumpster. Then I heard you both say it would be a waste of reading the letters so it's a good thing you burned them all," Mali explained.
Ah. That would do it.
"Ahahahahaha so the thing is-" Raya said with incredibly nervous laughter.
"Don't worry about it. Whatever your reasons are, I completely understand. I figured since you hadn't read the letter, the least I can do is apologize formally," Mali smiled.
Ah geez. Why does Raya feel way more awkward than Mali looks when she's not even the one that basically got rejected?
"I really do appreciate it. There's just so much going on, and there's my daughter, so courting is really not on my priority list," Raya attempted to explain.
"Like I said, I totally understand. Friends?" Mali asked, holding out a hand for Raya to shake.
Oh hell, why not?
"Friends," Raya agreed while shaking her hand. Maybe Mali really isn't so bad after all.
"Say, now that we're friends and all, are you coming to the blue moon festival in a couple weeks? We could use the bodies," Raya told her.
"Oh, absolutely. I think that," Mali began.
As the Heart alpha was speaking, Raya spotted Namaari. That little binrturi! Where has she been?
Very easily distracted, Raya basically forgot that Mali was talking and called out to Namaari.
"YO UNDERCUT! WHERE YOU BEEN?!" Raya yelled.
At once, Namaari's neck snapped to where the Heart omega is located. Further proof that Namaari has embraced her Undercut identity, in Raya's personal opinion.
"I've been looking for you everywhere! You just disappeared," Namaari frowned as she walked towards her.
"Not surprising you could only find me when I revealed myself. You have a history of being a questionable tracker," Raya grinned.
"It's not my fault. You're so small, how's anyone supposed to see you?" the Fang woman smugly asked.
Raya rolled her eyes and was about to respond when she noticed Mali out of the corner of her eye. Oh right! Better be polite and introduce them.
"First of all, I'm going to get you back for that comment. Second of all, Namaari, please meet Mali. She's a friend from childhood. Mali, Namaari," Raya smiled.
Honestly, given their personalities, Raya expected the two to get along quite well. She was quite surprised to find that both of them looked at each other with a mildly irritated expression. It's like the two alphas were inconvenienced that the other was there.
Maybe they already met before?
"Pleasure to meet you," Namaari said in a way that absolutely did not sound like it was a pleasure at all.
"Pleasure is all mine, Princess Namaari," Mali said with crossed arms.
"Have you guys met before? You seem to know each other quite well," Raya asked with rather nervous laughter.
"Nope. First time meeting," Namaari shrugged.
Huh. Weird.
"Indeed it is. I have to run, but it was nice catching up with you, Raya. I'll see you at the festival, if not sooner. Have a wonderful day," Mali said with a small wink.
With that, she left. Raya immediately nudged Namaari's.
"What was that all about?" the Heart woman asked.
"What was what all about?" Namaari asked, apparently trying to play dumb.
"Are you sure you two have never met before? Kinda seemed like you hated her. You guys were doing that weird nonverbal alpha showdown thing," Raya said with a raised brow.
"No idea what you're talking about," Namaari simply stated.
Ugh, whatever. It's honestly not that important.
"If you insist. Just at a curiosity, have you seen Charanya at all today? Couldn't find her for the life of me," Raya explained.
"Nope. I can't seem to find Tien either. Weird," Namaari mumbled.
"HEY! RAYA! BINTURI! WHERE HAVE YOU PEOPLE BEEN?" Raya's dearest friend screamed.
Behind her, Tien was following like a lost puppy. Well, speak of the devils and they shall appear. Huh, now that Charanya's here, maybe she has some insight on the whole thing with Mali.
"Ranya, super quick random question? You didn't happen to hear anything about Mali or Noya, have you?" Raya asked.
"No way! You had a weird interaction too?" Charanya gasped.
"Oh yeah! She did a whole apology and from what I could tell, it was sincere. Anything like that happen to you?" Raya asked.
"Yes! Noya came up to me and also gave me a genuine apology. Who would've guessed?" Charanya asked thoughtfully.
"Not me, that's for sure," the taller omega huffed.
"I'm sorry, who are these people?" Tien asked.
"People we knew from our childhood. They were little jerks but changed their ways, I suppose," Charanya shrugged.
"I thought you guys were friends," Namaari said, now very confused.
"It's a very long and irrelevant story. Guess they grew the hell up during the Druun," Raya shrugged.
"Looks like it. I will be keeping the bugs on standby though," Charanya noted.
"You know what? I'm not too sure I want to know," the Fang princess muttered.
"Okay, I realize this is an abrupt topic change, but you guys are coming to the blue moon festival right? Ba's really excited about it so I've been harassing everyone I come across to attend," Raya explained.
"You already know I'm going. Ma and Grandma wouldn't miss it," Charanya nodded.
"I will too. My mother's leaving in a couple days but she should be back in time for the festival. Guess she has a date or something," Namaari shrugged.
Charanya, well aware of the fact that her grandmother is probably the date, looks like she wants to vomit. Now that Raya's thinking about it, does Namaari know her mother's date is Charanya's grandmother?
Oh, Raya needs to see that reaction.
"You're coming along too, aren't you?" Namaari asked, looking at Tien.
"Yes. My family will also be attending," the other alpha stated.
"Please don't tell me your father's coming," Charanya begged.
"No, he will not be joining us. It's just my mother and brothers," Tien assured her.
"What? Why don't you want her father to come?" Raya asked her friend curiously.
"The man hates my guts," Charanya bluntly stated.
"He does not hate your guts," Tien frowned.
"If I was on fire and he was holding a glass of water, he would quench his thirst," Charanya stated with an eye roll.
"You exaggerate," Tien bluntly stated.
"Literally every time you bring Charanya up, your father looks at you like you shot him in the leg," Namaari added.
The other three were quite shocked that Namaari backed up anything Charanya said. Then, the shorter omega absolutely cackled.
"I mean if Namaari's agreeing with me, you have to be wrong Tien," Charanya said between giggles.
"I did not come here to get ganged up on," Tien huffed with a light blush on her cheeks.
"You knew what you were getting into when you met me," Charanya snorted.
"No, I really didn't."
"I literally broke into your tent running from a guard who saw me destroy property. Please be serious Tien."
Raya snorted as the two continued to bicker. Namaari seemed to be zoning out and Raya, being the good friend that she is, stepped on the Fang woman's foot. Namaari, now out of her daze, winced and turned to glare at the omega.
"Is there any particular reason why you did that?" Namaari glared.
"No, it just felt right," Raya smiled.
"I can not believe I put up with you."
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Aulia loudly shrieked Raya awake the very next day, which is always a fun way to wake up. That little girl does not give Raya peace ever.
The Heart woman groggily sat up and shuffled to her loud child. Once Aulia was tucked safely into her mother's arms, the shrieks devolved into simple yelps of indignation. It was probably time for a diaper change. And change it did.
Once Aulia was in a clean diaper and new clothes, she became perfectly content to play with the edge of Raya's shirt. The Heart woman took the opportunity to reapply her scent blockers and brush her hair.
Due to the fact that she's still waking up, Aulia yawned very loudly. Her baby yawns are so damn cute. Aulia throws her whole head back when she needs to yawn. Raya loves it honestly.
Then the Heart princess was struck with the rather painful reminder that Namaari also throws her head back when she yawns. It brings Raya to a subject she does not enjoy thinking about. The subject being the fact that Namaari has zero clue she has a child.
Honestly, the past couple days, Raya's starting to get the feeling that she should tell Namaari that Aulia's hers. She's seen how those two interact and they obviously deserve to at least know about each other.
But damn, Raya's terrified. She's terrified of how her relationship with Nmaaari will change because no matter how good or bad Namaari reacts to the news, things will change between them.
Also, hiding the fact that Namaari has a child is probably grounds for war, but Raya is sorta kinda hoping it doesn't come to that. Ugh, why does this have to be her life? Why couldn't she have gotten knocked up by some nobody with zero authority whatsoever?
There's also the issue of how to best tell Namaari. What does someone who has been hiding the fact that she has a kid with a person for well over a year say to said person? Hey man, remember when we fucked for a week straight? Well we procreated and the creation was Aulia, my kid.
...Raya's going to have to fine tune the script a little.
Even with all her worries, something in the Heart woman's gut is telling her to fess up soon. Namaari's going to have to learn the truth eventually.
Given the fact that Raya is pretty confident in Namaari's character, she can safely say that Namaari doesn't seem like the type to abandon her kid despite her young age. She also doesn't seem like the type to start war over the situation. Then again, Raya didn't think she was the type to get pregnant at seventeen. Toi, life is so stressful.
"You know, you're like my favorite person in the whole world, but you give me heart palpitations," Raya honestly told Aulia.
Aulia merely smiled in response. Raya smiled back and pressed a light kiss on Aulia's cheek. The contact caused her sweet baby to giggle. This prompted Raya to give her another kiss. In a flash, Raya pressed small quick kisses all over Aulia's face. The baby erupted with pure laughter and began squirming around in Raya's arms.
The Heart woman laughed and was about to continue her kisses when someone knocked on the door. At this hour, the only people that could be out the door are Charanya, Namaari, or her father.
"Which one are you?" Raya yelled.
"The Fang one," Namaari replied.
"Mkay! Come in!" Raya said.
Namaari then entered the room and practically slammed the door behind her.
"Sheesh, what did my poor door ever do to you?" Raya snorted.
"My mother is making me lose my fucking mind," Namaari groaned as she face planted onto Raya's bed.
"So business is as usual then?" Raya asked with a raised brow.
"More so today than others. I think holding Aulia would solve my problems," Namaari said while holding out her arms.
Raya rolled her eyes and gently handed her daughter off to Namaari. Aulia, now recognizing the Fang woman, smiled and lightly patted Namaari's nose with her tiny baby hand. Namaari grinned at the gesture and poked Aulia's cheek.
Those two are so adorable together it physically hurts. The reality that Raya is going to have to fess up soon weighs heavily on her mind. She needs a minute to gather herself.
"I'm going to change in the bathroom really quickly. Mind keeping an eye on her?" Raya asked as she hurriedly shuffled through her closet.
"No problem. She's safe with me," Namaari easily replied.
"I was talking to Aulia, but the gesture is appreciated," Raya smirked.
It took a split second for the jab to register in the Fang alpha's brain, but when it did Namaari decided the mature thing to do is to throw a pillow at Raya.
"You are so lucky you're holding my daughter right now," Raya said while pointedly looking away from Namaari.
"I know, I need to get my hits in while I can," the other woman laughed.
Raya scoffed as she closed the bathroom door. Okay, don't sob. A little bit of crying is fine, just do not make it obvious or auditory.
So there the Heart Princess sat, curled up on the bathroom floor in literal tears while her baby and the woman she loves are playing in the next room. This isn't how she wanted her life to turn out. Raya didn't want to fall in love with someone unattainable, she didn't want her child to be doomed from the start to grow up in two homes, and that's if the parentage reveal conversation goes well.
This secret Raya's hiding is huge. It's a literal child that she shares with Namaari and she has been lying about it for months. Namaaari may not forgive her for this, and honestly? She'd be in the right.
What would happen in the unlikely event of Namaari ending up being so enraged that Raya kept Aulia hidden from her that she really does start war? Would Raya have to surrender custody of her daughter? Would she even get to see her again? How would she-
"Raya, you okay in there?" Namaari asked.
Shit. This probably isn't the best time for a break down. Raya hastily rubbed her hands over her eyes to get rid of the tears. She took in a few deep, calming breaths before answering.
"Yeah, I'm good. Ended up with a bit of a headache this morning," Raya lied.
She also decided to take this opportunity to start actually changing her clothes. Washing her face is probably another good step.
"That sucks. Want me to get you anything? I know a couple teas that get rid of a headache in the blink of an eye," Namaari offered.
The guilt is starting to eat Raya alive. The Fang alpha needs to stop being so nice to her. She doubts it'll last once the truth comes out. Maybe Raya just needs to soak this in while she can.
"That's fine, it's nothing major. I think I'm also just tired. Some people like keeping their Ma awake all night," the Heart princess grumbled.
"I wonder who could be so cruel. It's definitely not Aulia though. She's the picture of innocence," Namaari teased.
"You are so biased," the Heart omega said while rolling her eyes.
Now that she looked presentable, Raya swung open the bathroom door. Namaari simply shrugged.
"How do you expect me not to be biased? Look at her!" Namaari insisted.
Raya stared at Aulia for a second. Then Aulia giggled. Raya tried really hard not to react, but she just couldn't help it. She had to smile back.
"Okay, points have been made," Raya relented.
"Thought so. Alright Aulia, I'm going to have to put you down real quick. I need to ask your Ma a favor and there may be some begging involved. I don't want you to see me like this," Namaari said while placing Aulia in her crib.
Oh? A favor? And one that could potentially require groveling? Huh.
"Raya, I have a request. A very important request. A request that will save my life," Namaari said.
"I have a feeling this is going to be ridiculous, but I'll bite. What is it?" Raya asked.
"So remember how I said my evil mother was making me lose my last shred of sanity? To very briefly explain, she keeps trying to set me up and she's using this festival as an excuse," Namaari started.
Oh. Okay. That pisses Raya off way more than it should. Her inner omega was going ballistic at the thought of Nmaaari with someone else. Shit, she needs to respond and sound normal.
"Huh. How do you feel about that?" Raya asked in what she hoped was a calm voice.
"Not very interested, which is why I need your help," Namaari told her.
This is great news! Now Raya doesn't feel the insane urge to climb on Namaari and make out with her to stake a claim.
Awesome. Love this for her.
"Alright, what do you want me to do?" the Heart woman asked.
"I just need you to be around me as much as possible. Just constantly talk to me, compliment me, sit right by me, cling to me, and generally do not leave me alone," Namaari requested.
"Oh, so I'm gonna be cockblocking you while simultaneously acting as your adoring fan the entire night?" Raya clarified.
"That's correct," the Fang woman nodded.
"I swear to spirits Namaari, if this person is a total bitch to me," Raya started.
"Oh she definitely will be. You know very well how vicious omega socialites are. The ones from Fang are a particular breed of insane," Namaari shrugged.
Wow, the idea of another omega flirting with Namaari genuinely makes Raya want to rip her own hair out. Raya's probably going to go into a literal coma when Namaari starts to court people. Seriously, one problem at a time.
"What am I getting out of this, exactly?" Raya frowned.
She was not willing to say that Namaari staying single is more than enough motivation to do this. Curse you, unrequited feelings.
"Uh, my eternal servitude and devotion?" Namaari tried.
"I already have that. Next," Raya said smugly.
Honestly, the Heart princess thought Namaari would deny it. Instead, she kept quiet and continued to think.
"I'll give you my dessert for the next month," Namaari offered.
"Now we're talking!" Raya beamed.
"So you'll do it?" Namaari asked hopefully.
"I'll be on you like a leech," Raya giggled.
“Oh thank the gods,” Namaari sighed in pure relief.
Raya merely smiled as she thought about all the ways this favor would inevitably blow up in her face. You only live once, as they say.
Apparently Raya is going to make her one life as painful as possible.
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"I don't want to go," Raya bluntly stated.
"Are you actually fucking with me right now?" Charanya deadpanned.
In Raya's defense, she honestly woke up feeling like absolute hell this morning. Her head is pounding, her throat is all scratchy, and one of her nostrils is completely clogged. Raya vowed she would play off her cold symptoms until after the festival to support her father, but she is coming to regret that choice.
"Listen up punk, we already agreed to go to the festival. Ba's so excited," the shorter omega insisted.
"We'll also probably be seeing Mali and Noya. I don't know what the hell their problem is with Namaari and Tien, but I swear they always look like they're going to brawl whenever they make eye contact," Raya frowned.
She had originally thought the absurdity with Mali and Namaari would go away. Then she heard from Charanya that Noya and Tien had issues which is just so much more confusing. Why can't alphas get along? It's so ridiculous.
Raya and Charanya suspect it's some power struggle they do. Alphas always have to be the best, the strongest, the fastest, blah blah blah. Alphas are so moronic.
"Admittedly, I hear you. It does sound like a disaster waiting to happen. Try to remember that this festival is supposed to be fun. Let loose! Live it up!" Charanya insisted.
"Yeah, I guess you're right. I don't know, I just have a bad feeling," Raya frowned as they began walking.
"You always have a bad feeling," Charanya ever so kindly reminded her.
"True," Raya admitted.
"C'mon, let's get dressed and grab a snack. You'll feel better," Charanya smiled.
Snacks did always make her feel better. Worth a shot.
Right when she thought she couldn't get anymore inconvenienced, Noya came rushing down the hall to the two of them. She stopped for a moment before looking at Charanya with a hopeful expression.
"Okay, super long story short, there was a total outbreak with the chefs. About half of them are down with the flu and we really need more people that can cook. Therefore, I'm kind of begging for your help," Noya sighed.
"Oh, damn. Yeah, of course. I'll see if I can grab my grandmother to join us," Charany agreed.
"Thank toi," Noya said with pure relief in her voice.
"I can help, too," Raya offered, momentarily forgetting she had a job to do tonight.
"No, no you can't," the annoying omega shot back.
"When it's not jackfruit jerky, I'm a good cook!" Raya pouted.
"I know that, but you're the princess of Heart. You have to be present in these events," Charanya reminded her.
Unfortunately, the shorter woman is completely correct. Raya has so many stupid responsibilities because she's a stupid princess. Plus, with the evident possibility of her getting sick, it's for the best if she stays out of the kitchen. Although, the flu outbreak did explain why Raya feels awful.
Wow, so Raya doesn’t even get to have her emotional support childhood friend in her time of need. Do the heavens hate her? Did she commit some heinous crime in her past life to deserve this?
"I'm afraid you're right, Ranya. Alright, go on. Don't put poison in the food of people you don't like," Raya instructed.
"Or bugs," Noya smirked.
"One time, Noya. Literally one time," Charanya grumbled.
"To be fair, it was a very memorable time," the taller Heart omega grinned.
"If you two binturis keep talking, poison and bugs will appear in your meals. Raya, just let Tien know where I am if you find her. She's probably already helping with the food, honestly, but just in case she isn't," Charanya told her.
"I will. Guess you two have to go save this entire festival. Good luck! Don't hurt yourselves!" Raya said as the two began to rush away.
"Right back at you!" Charanya yelled over her shoulder.
"Later Raya!" Noya waved.
It is so weird having a decent conversation with Noya. Growing up is just so weird.
Well. Looks like the only thing left to do is actually attend the festival. Raya grit her teeth as she made her way out of Heart's castle. As she walked the halls, she noticed several alphas perk ip with their heads swerving in Raya’s direction. The Heart woman tried to shrink herself as much as possible as she rushed to where she needed to meet Namaari.
Another tally to the list of reasons why Raya isn't totally loving the festival is because her scent blockers are running dangerously low.
Oh how Raya hates going without her scent completely covered. She doesn’t like how alphas suddenly become much more interested in her and she especially doesn’t like how a shift in her sense gives out her true emotions.
Raya is still wearing scent blockers to make it less obvious, of course, but it’s not enough to fully hide her scent. Not by a long shot. The Heart woman just wants the night to be over and it hasn’t even started.
Making her way through the crowd, Raya was surprised to find Namaari heading toward. She’s quite a ways away from where they were supposed to meet.
“Oh, I thought our rendezvous point was the fountain,” Raya said, mildly confused.
“It was. I could just smell your scent so I figured I’d walk to you,” Namaari told her.
Well now Raya’s embarrassed. She pursed her lips and avoided Namaari’s eyes.
“Makes sense. Been running low on scent blockers lately so I guess everyone’s just going to have to deal with my scent,” Raya said while trying to keep the tone light.
“It’s not a bad thing. Your scent smells nice,” Namaari shrugged.
Don’t freak out Raya. Don’t do it. That’s not an appropriate reaction for the situation. Oh for the love of all that’s good in this world, be normal.
“Thanks, so yours,” Raya managed to muster out.
Namaari then looked as red as Raya probably was. The omega’s heart was beating out of her chest and all Namaari did was compliment her scent. How is she going to survive a whole night of acting all lovey dovey with the Fang woman now?
"Oh, um, fair warning, I think I'm coming down with the common cold," Raya sheepishly admitted.
"That's fine, I've got the immunity of an ox. I could be surrounded by people dying of plague and not get sick. Besides, I think I'd rather contract whatever illness you have than endure matchmaking by myself," Namaari sighed.
Raya snorted as she continued walking with Namaari. Man, that woman really does not want to be set up.
“Princess Namaari! There you are! I’ve been looking for you everywhere,” a grating voice exclaimed.
“Ah, Minh. It’s been a while,” the Fang alpha said while sounding like she had the urge to vomit.
Given the obvious distaste coming from Namaari, the girl approaching had to be the vicious omega socialite from Fang that Virana arranged. Namaari looked down at Raya’s face with an expression that screamed ‘save me’. If Raya wasn’t irrationally angry when someone was so blatantly interested in Namaari, she would have laughed.
Alright, time to be an insufferable admirer. Show time!
“Well hello there! I’m Princess Raya! Namaari said your name was Minh, right?” Raya asked in the fakest cheery voice possible.
Realizing Raya’s presence put an immediate damper on Minh’s attitude and scent. The other omega crossed her arms and eyes Raya up and down.
“That’s right. Being so…close to Princess Namaari, I’d have thought you would have been able to hear that,” Minh said with an edge in her tone.
It physically hurts the Heart woman that she can’t just cuss this girl out. Honestly, it will probably be ineffective anyways. She supposed this is the time to really start fawning over Namaari. Besides, Raya figures that she can use this opportunity to say her real thoughts that she doesn't have the guts to say out loud. It might be fun if Namaari gets flustered.
“I mean, can you really blame me? It’s very easy to get distracted when Namaari speaks,” Raya said in a low voice while gently stroking Namaari’s arm.
Raya decided to be a little extra bold and link their arms together. As it would turn out, Namaari is wearing scent blockers so smelling her mood shifts is out of the question. But from the pink tinging her cheeks, Raya would say her words and actions had the desired effect.
“I’m flattered, Raya. If such a beautiful woman like you can think so highly of me, I must be something,” Namaari hummed with a light smirk.
Fuck, now it’s Raya’s face that turns a whole new shade of pink. Looks like Namaari’s playing offense. Raya’s never been one to go down without a fight. The Heart princess’s internal schemes were cut short when Minh cleared her throat.
“We should probably take our seats. The chief was kind enough to place us at the same table,” Minh said while pointedly looking at Namaari.
“My mother does love organizing. Raya, you know where our table is, don’t you?” Namaari asked.
“Of course. It’s why I’m here after all. Wouldn’t want you to get lost, dep la,” Raya smirked.
Namaari rolled her eyes and discreetly jabbed her elbow at Raya’s side. The Heart woman fought the urge to laugh and lightly jabbed her right back.
“Princess Namaari is perfectly capable of finding a table,” Minh snapped defensively.
“Princess Raya’s right, I’m afraid. I can get hopelessly lost without a guiding hand. I’m grateful for Raya’s help,” Namaari rather dramatically declared.
If Namaari keeps this up Raya will genuinely not be able to contain her laughter. Who knew the princess of Fang was so damn dramatic?
The silence was rather awkward but the three of them made it to their designated table with zero issues. Minh very quickly took the seat one Namaari's right, causing said woman to grimace. Raya tried really hard not to laugh at Namaari's face and sat down on her left.
"Oh, where's Aulia? Is she with Charanya or something?" Namaari asked.
"Ah, no. She's with Ba. That man is so excited to tell people she's his granddaughter. Those two are obsessed with each other," Raya snorted.
The Heart woman caught Minh trying to get Namaari's attention. Well that just won't do.
"Hey, speaking of Aulia, I finally got her birth certificate finalized! So yes, she legally exists," Raya beamed.
Namaari shrugged and rested her chin in the palm of her right hand. Then the binturi gave Raya a smirk.
"I don't know, dep la. If I can't see the birth certificate, then I just don't know if you're telling the truth," Namaari grinned.
A spike of irritation coursed through Raya. Namaari has seen her damn baby every day since she's been in Heart!
"Do not make me smack you Namaari. Aulia is a real baby with a real birth certificate!" Raya snapped.
"Until I can verify that this alleged birth certificate is a valid legal document, Aulia just can't exist now can she?" Namaari smugly asked.
Raya gave Namaari a sarcastic smile and leaned in so close their noses were almost touching. Namaari's smug smirk slowly fell from her face the closer Raya got.
"You make it very hard to swoon over you, Namaari," Raya whispered.
"Oh, but you do it so well Raya. You've got a real talent," Namaari mumbled.
"Of course I do, I'm good at everything," Raya quietly giggled.
"Not everything. You're terrible at making that god awful jackfruit jerky," Namaari grinned.
"I hope I end up sneezing on your face," the Heart woman pouted.
With that, she finally pulled away just in time for the food to arrive. The Heart princess stuck her tongue out Namaari before taking a couple bites of her food.
Minh started speaking, but Raya just kind of tuned her out. She's not particularly interesting and her voice really irritates Raya's ears. Namaari once again jabbed her elbow into Raya's side. Shit, that's right, she has a job to do.
With much exaggeration, the Heart omega yawned and rested her head against Namaari's shoulder. She then tilted her head up to look at Namaari's face.
"You're really laying it on thick, dep la," Namaari grinned as she pulled Raya closer.
"I am nothing if not effective," the Heart woman smirked.
"I find it very on brand for you to do me a favor then proceed to make me work as much as possible for it," Namaari muttered.
"It's been a long day, you know. I've been so stressed out these past couple weeks with the baby and the festival. I'm just exhausted, I can't even muster the energy to pick up my own fork. Feed me, dep la," Raya said, while trying painfully hard not to burst into laughter.
Namaari's eyes widened at the demand, clearly not expecting it. She really should know by now that with Raya, she must expect the unexpected.
"That's a bit beneath Princess Namaari's station, don't you think?" Minh cut in with a harsh glare.
Oh this binturi has zero clue what Raya's capable of. The Heart woman now leaned in so close to Namaari that her lips grazed the Fang woman's ear.
"I wouldn't mind being beneath your station. Again," Raya whispered.
For an extra kick, Raya blew air into Namaari's ear. If Namaari gets to joke about their week long sex in a cave, then Raya can too.
Deciding she had done enough, she retreated back to her original position of resting her head on Namaari's shoulder.
Namaari was rendered speechless. Her face took on a whole new shade of red and she began hopelessly opening her mouth only to close it once more. It feels so good to win.
"So, Namaari, what do you say? Think you can lower your station? For me?" Raya asked while batting her eyes.
It's a pretty odd feeling so obviously flirting with the woman who Raya is keeping a life changing secret from. Oh, better keep the thoughts light right now, her scent blockers are not what they used to be.
"Of course, Princess Raya. I'd do anything to you," Namaari eventually responded.
Raya's brows furrowed at the phrase. That didn't seem quite right.
"Uh, don't you mean for me?" Raya asked.
"Sure, that too," Namaari purred.
The implications finally registered in her brain and which very quickly sent her into a coughing fit. Raya may or may not have done that to hide her blush. How does Raya even end up in these situations? Eh, it's probably because she's an idiot.
"Well get to it Undercut," Raya demanded once her blush died down.
"You'll make an excellent chief with how bossy you are," Namaari scoffed.
Despite her unnecessary attitude, Namaari did feed Raya a bite of dinner. She continued on like this for a little while until Raya felt full. Given the fact that Raya was evidently coming down with something, she had Namaari stop feeding when her plate was halfway done.
"You must really not be feeling it if you can't eat. Do you want to turn in early?" Namaari asked worriedly.
Raya pursed her lips in thought. She really doesn't think she's in an emotional state to be with Namaari alone right now, even if it's just to walk back to her room. On the other hand, she feels like actual hell.
"I can hang back for a bit longer, it's fine," Raya sighed.
"You're sure?" Namaari frowned.
"Yeah, I'm just a bit nauseous," Raya mumbled.
"Better hope she's not pregnant again with another bastard," Minh muttered under her breath.
At once, Raya's jaw dropped. Minh whispered so quietly that Raya's not even sure anyone else heard the remark. Huh. So the bitch called her daughter a bastard. There are so many feelings of rage inside her head that she can not choose which idea to express first.
Oh, they could smell it too. Minh must have realized she had been heard because she raised a cocky eyebrow as if to say 'what are you going to do about it'?
This is not the Druun times, Raya will get into serious trouble if she claws this girl's face off. Ultimately, the Heart princess didn't need to say anything. Mainly because Namaari beat her to the punch.
"What the hell did you just say?" Namaari hissed.
Raya peeked around Namaari's shoulder to get a look at her face. Sweet god if looks could kill Minh would be six feet under. Minh clearly did not expect the Fang princess to hear her comment, or at least care enough to respond, so she quickly tried to back pedal.
"What I meant to say was-" Minh started.
It was like her annoying voice unleashed all the bad stuff weighing down on Raya because her nausea suddenly hit so much worse. She knew she would throw up very soon.
The Heart princess hastily made it to her feet and sprinted a few feet away from the table. She thought she vaguely heard Namaari call after her, but Raya was too preoccupied to check. Then, she hid behind a tree and vomited her guts out.
Thankfully, she was done with that uncomfortable experience in only a couple of seconds. What Raya wasn't so thankful for is that the vomiting seemed to be the gate that unleashed all her feelings of illness.
Raya suddenly felt incredibly hot, her sore throat only got worse, and now she's pretty sure both of nostrils are clogged. It certainly doesn't help matters that her eyes began to feel incredibly heavy.
"Hey Raya, are you okay?" a voice asked.
It looked several blinks before the voice could be identified as Mali. Huh. Somehow, the Heart alpha doesn't look quite right.
"Have you always been so blurry? Or is it like, a new look you're trying out?" Raya asked.
"Oh, that's not a good sign. C'mon Raya, I'll get you to your room," Mali said while reaching a hand out to her.
The loud footsteps erupted from behind her. Raya looked back to see Namaari in all her undercut glory.
"Shit, are you okay? I knew I should have dragged you home when you said you weren't feeling well," Namaari sighed.
"M'fine," Raya mumbled.
"You're the worst liar ever," the Fang alpha sighed.
"It's fine, Princess Namaari, I can take her back to her room," Mali told her.
"Please, don't trouble yourself. I'm more than happy to take Raya back to her room. I was going to spend the night anyway. Wouldn't be the first time," Namaari snapped in a harsh tone that was very unlike her.
Malie seemed to be very irritated but Raya never did catch what she had to say. Her eyes were heavy, the day was too draining, and her stomach was now way too empty.
Raya's body could not take the strain of consciousness. So, with as much grace as Tuk Tuk trying to knit, Raya face planted on the ground and promptly passed out.
It was probably for the best.
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Raya woke up to Charanya at her bedside, reading one of her old books. The scratchiness in her throat was damn near unbearable. Raya weakly flung her arm out to Charanya in an attempt to grab her attention.
Thankfully, her plan was effective. Charanya stopped reading and hastily stood next to Raya's bed.
"Hey sleepy head. You need anything?" Ranya asked quietly.
Raya lightly tapped her throat, their way of saying water. They made up the nonverbal code back when they were ten and one of them got sick. Charanya was always much better at playing nurse than Raya was.
Chranaya nodded and grabbed a cup by the nightstand.
"Here, the tea helps with a sore throat. It should still be warm. i've also got water right next to you in case you need it," the other woman assured her.
Once Charanya handed her the tea, Raya downed it in one gulp. By the spirits, she was so thirsty. At once, she could feel the tea soothe the burning in her throat. The immediate calming reaction was very appreciated.
"Where's um, our other family members?" Raya asked now that her throat feeling much better after the tea.
"Ma turned in early, Grandma's probably still up talking with Chief Virana, and Ba's with Aulia. They were all worried about it and wanted to stay, but I shooed them off. They knew I could handle it," Charanya explained.
Raya nodded in understanding. Now that Raya isn't blinded by thirst and discomfort, she's noticing Charanya looks pretty upset. Ah, so Raya's not the only one who had a miserable night.
"You okay over there?" Raya questioned despite already knowing the answer.
"It's been a shitty night," Charanya said after a beat of silence.
“That makes two of us. Would you like to start us off with your shitty night?” Raya asked.
“She thought I was fucking alpha,” Charanya simply stated.
“Uh, who did?” Raya asked, very confused.
“Tien. I’ve known her for two years and she thought I was an alpha literally until two minutes ago!” Charanya snapped.
Um. Wow.
Hell, it's no wonder Tien hasn't made a move at this point if she really thought Charanya was an alpha. A courtship with two alphas typically doesn’t end well. That situation also applies with having a relationship between two omegas. They’re simply too similar.
Plus, the scents. The scents are a big reason why those two pairings usually won’t work. When Charanya has her heats, the scent really aggravates Raya because of the fact that she’s a fellow omega. A lasting courtship isn’t necessarily impossible, but it’s pretty rare.
Tien has been pretty blatantly into Charanya for a long time now. Maybe the assumption that Charanya was an alpha is what really held Tien back from actually courting her?
“Wait, okay, tell me what happened. You know, calmly and rationally,” Raya insisted.
“There is so much to unpack here,” Charanya tiredly whined. “So Tien walked into the kitchens to help with food preparations. As I assumed, her and Noya started bitching at each other so I had to separate them. Noya made some offhand comment about how her younger self never thought she’d be getting bossed around by an omega, which is dumb because that’s how most courtships work. Next thing I know, Tien is saying that I'm an alpha!”
Raya blinked. Wow. Though she has to say, a lot of little things that kind of confused her made perfect sense. That knothead comment Namaari made at Charanya awhile back makes a lot more sense given the fact that knothead is an exclusive alpha insult for obvious reasons.
"So then I'm like 'what kind of drugs have you been taking because I've been an omega since birth' and she was just stunned into silence. It took several minutes for her to use her damn vocal cords again. Afterwards it was just, I don't know, weird. We still talked but it seemed like her head was somewhere else. How is this even real life?" Charanya groaned.
"I mean shit, Ranya, even I don't know what to say," raya sighed.
Seriously, what could she say? Sorry that the girl you were in love with was under the impression you two would never work out because she thought you were an alpha?
"Me neither. I just wish I knew why she got so weird. I mean, is it because she thinks I'm like, beneath her now that she knows I'm an omega?" Charanya frowned.
"I honestly don't think that's the case. I may not love the girl, and she may not love me, but she doesn't really seem to look down on omegas solely because of the fact that they're omegas. You're really just going to have to talk to her when she's not so off," Raya shrugged.
"When did you become rational?" Charanya frowned.
"I'm sick off my ass right now, I don't have much of a choice," Raya shrugged.
The shorter Heart woman smirked at that before leaning back against her chair. Then she let out a long, drawn out sigh.
"Well, that really concludes my awesome thrilling night. What about yours?" Charanya asked.
"Other than me vomiting and passing out, the only thing really worth mentioning is that the girl Virana set up with namaari called my daughter a bastard. That was a pretty fun way to end my night," Raya sighed.
"Where the fuck is she?" Charanya bluntly asked.
"I am not telling you that information," Raya told her.
To be fair, it's not like she actually knows where Minh is anyways.
"Who the fuck does she think she is, calling my god daughter a bastard? Oh I will tear the binturi apart!" Charanya scowled.
"No you won't. Mainly because I'm not telling you who said it," Raya snorted.
"Are you serious? You're just going to let that freak get away with it?" Charanya glared.
"I mean, to be fair, Namaari very quickly stepped in. She got all pissed off on my behalf. But that was also the part when I needed to vomit so I kind of missed the rest of the conversation. She definitely heard it from Namaari, though," Raya shrugged.
Charanya huffed and crossed her arms. She pursed her lips before giving Raya a harsh glare.
"Please don't tell me things that are going to make me like Namaari, my night is bad enough as it is," the younger woman pouted.
Raya laughed at the comment before it quickly devolved into coughs. Charanaya could only wait until the hacking was done before offering some water.
"Yeah, I'm going to bed. I can not stand this," Raya sighed.
"I have to say, I'm feeling pretty beat. And hey, check it out, they gave me a cot so that I could sleep here with minimal risk of contracting your disease," Charanya beamed.
She pointed to said cot that Raya hadn't noticed until now. It was tiny, but it could certainly fit Charanya. The mat was a decent size so it shouldn't be too uncomfortable.
"You know, this kind of reminds me of when we were kids and we begged our parents for a sleepover," Raya smiled.
"Yeah. Feels like a lifetime ago huh?" Charanya asked.
"Totally," Raya agreed.
The two sat in silence, reminiscing on a past so far away it was barely even remembered. Details were fuzzy, but the feeling of warmth and happiness was ingrained in Raya's mind.
Ah, the simpler days. How she yearns for them.
"Wake me if you need anything, Raya. Love you, sleep well," Charanya yawned.
"M'kay. I love you too, goodnight," Raya mumbled.
A moment of silence passed over them. Naturally, Raya had to break it.
"Can you get me cookies?" Raya asked.
"Are you fucking with me right now?" Charanya asked with a scowl.
"PLease?" Raya begged.
".......I hate you."
"I love you too!"
"Whatever. Whore."
#raya and the last dragon#raya x namaari#namaari x raya#raya and namaari#ratld namaari#ratld#namaari#raya disney#rayaari#ratld raya#omega raya#alpha namaari#omegaverse
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Meme Time
Over in the OC community I’m apart of, there were some memes posted and I got a few questions there, so I’m gonna put all the questions asked there in one big post.
And since an oc wasn't specified, I'm taking this as an opportunity to answer the question for all of them. I'll also do the questions that were put on the red emoji post too, since that also wasn't specified and I'm feeling chatty.
Spoiler warnings for IkeSen, IkeVamp, IkeRev, IkePri, and Obey Me as a lot these answers are gonna pull from various routes and story lines as I like to mix and match ideas to suit my needs for my OCs' stories (Ex: Clara is romantically involved with Nokto and a lot of her story follows the events of his route, but I also like to pull elements from Rio's route to enrich their friendship, things like that.)
Other things of note, I'll be talking about various themes depending on the question. Some things will go into topics like depression and things adjacent to that. There's also gonna be talk about sex and sexuality, thoughts of having children, and various other things that might be uncomfortable for some readers. The questions are featured first so you can skip between them if one of the questions makes you uncomfortable.
The Memes:
Emoji Asks (Orange Edition) (Yellow Edition)
(Red Edition)
Put below the cut because, yeah, it got kinda long.
See you lovelies below~
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🌅 (sunrise) What does your oc look forward to every day? Do they have something to look forward to in the first place? What makes them wake up in the morning? Why do they want to be alive?
Houki (IkeSen)
Houki wasn't really the type to look forward to anything when she wakes up in the morning. Before she had been worm-holed, she was a noble lady of leisure, spending her days reading for hours on end, really only stopping when her mother nagged her to be more social or the servants gently prodded her to make sure she had eaten something every few hours. Now that Mitsunari was in her life, she looked forward towards to saying good morning to him, and to him responding back with how much he loved her.
Ophelia (IkeSen)
Answered here!
Thea (IkeVamp)
Thea looks forward to seeing her loved ones every day. The people she sees has changed over time, but the act of greeting her loved ones in the morning is still something she looks forward to each day.
Abby (IkeVamp)
She is also the type that doesn't look forward to anything in particular when she wakes up in the morning, save for after she and Vincent got together. Like with Houki and Mitsunari, she and Vincent say affirmations of love in the morning. She looks forward to hearing Vincent's voice in the morning, quietly whispering sweet things to her in sleepy Dutch.
Maddie (IkeRev)
Maddie looks forward to having breakfast with Harr and Loki in the morning. They talk about their plans for the day, local Cradle gossip, and teasing Harr for putting apricot jam on his toast a little too thick… again.
Clara (IkePri)
Clara looks forward to going to the bookshop and seeing her regular, smiling customers. She loves helping out fellow book lovers find their perfect books and it gives her recommendations for her next read.
Miri (Obey Me)
Miri looks forward to every day because there's always something going on. Devildom always has something happening so she's never bored in her day to day as there's always something to do.
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🍊(orange) - Is your oc more selfish or selfless? Are they willing to sacrifice themselves or their goals for others? Why are they this way?
Houki
In a way, Houki was more selfish in that she used to only pursue knowledge just to know it, not that it had much practical use or that she used the knowledge she had to really help anyone, save when she was transported and she saw the importance in helping out, especially with Mitsunari.
Ophelia
Ophelia is selfless, despite having the moniker of the 'Ambitious Widow'. At the end of the day, she just wants to make sure her family is cared for and will go to great lengths to make that happen, sacrificing herself for their sake.
Thea
Thea is willing to sacrifice some of her goals for her loved ones because they are important to her and she wants them to succeed in their endeavors.
Abby
Abby sacrifices herself and her goals to please the people around her because she wants to keep up the image of the 'good, devoted daughter', even if it's extremely detrimental to her mental health.
Maddie
Maddie is selfless, willing to sacrifice some of her goals for her loved ones so she can help them pursue their goals. She wants to help out because she feels it's the right thing to do when people help her first, so she's naturally going to return the favor and help them out when they need it.
Clara
Clara is selfless, willing to sacrifice some of her goals for her loved ones and only a little bit of herself. She kind of had to if she wanted to pursue a relationship with Nokto, now King of Rhodolite. She changed her social class for love and has a lot more responsibility placed on her now that she was going to be a queen.
Miri
Miri is selfless, willing to sacrifice herself and her goals to make sure her loved one succeed. The demon brothers helped her come into herself, becoming more confident and understanding of the new world around her and she cares about all of them as though they were her family too.
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🏵(rosette) - What is your character’s most prized possession? Is it something they could never bear to part with? What makes this object so special?
Houki
A book of fairy tales she bought for herself while she was in the Sengoku era. The writing system here is a little different compared to home and at first she had tried to read one of the tactics books that was lying around Mitsunari 's room, but found it too difficult to read. So, after she had earned some money working as Chatelaine, when there was a book seller in town, she and Mitsunari searched among the seller's wares for something simpler for her to learn from. It's special to her because it shows how much she has learned and adapted to Sengoku life. It was also one of the first books she read to her son, helping to inspire his love of reading as well.
Ophelia
She isn't the type to place sentimental value on objects because she doesn't know when that object would be taken from her like other things have been in the past. If she's keeping something, it needs to have practical use, else there isn't a sense for keeping the object if it's just going to weigh her down. Which is why she holds onto the hairbrush that Kennyo gave to her once they became close. It's sturdy and has a use, plus it has flowers on the handle so it's nice to look at some days.
Thea
Her sewing kit! She's had it since she was a little girl. Her mother and her dads helped to gather the materials together so it has a lot of sentimental value to her. It's light blue with flowers on the lid.
Abby
Her first sketchbook. Le Comte had gotten it for her when he saw that getting her dresses wasn't making her happy. She had asked him if she could have his discarded invitations and letters so that she could practice drawing on them. He gives them to her, but the wheels were starting to turn in his head. So, he takes her shopping later on to the stationary shop she gets Arthur's and Mozart's ink from, feigning that he was looking to get a new pen and wanted her help in selecting one. Comte makes small talk with the shop owner, making it look like he's distracted, but he's watching her as she browses the shop, seeing her linger on a particular sketchbook, a look of longing on her face. He secretly tells the owner that he also wants to buy the sketchbook the young lady is looking at (along with some basic drawing supplies) and to have it sent to the mansion later on that day. She cries a little when she sees Comte next, explaining that no one had gotten her one before because her family didn't like her pursing art, but she wanted to so badly. After a bunch of hugs and a few more tears, he reassures her that her passions won't be denied here, that he wants her to do what she loves. It's one of the reasons he's gathered some of the greatest minds together in his mansion, so that they can pursue what they loved in their previous lives, so it would be hypocritical of him to deny her that much. After that, aside from doing chores with Sebastian, she was rarely seen without it. Vincent even had the foresight to take it with him when he traveled to the future to find her, taking comfort at her little doodles and studies while he searched for her.
Maddie
A necklace that's been passed down through her family, originally belonging to her great grandmother (who was Alice the First). She was wearing when she traveling to visit her grandparents in London when she ran into a white-haired gentleman that wore glasses. He was pleasant to her and apologized for knocking into her, but her necklace had been replaced with a pocket watch, and when she had tried to get her necklace back, she followed the white haired man to Wonderland, whoops.
Clara
Her copy of Midnight Cinderella: Alyn. It was the first book in the series she had read as a young girl, looking for a more challenging read after she had exhausted Mr. Akatsuki's stock of children's stories at the time. It helped inspire her love of romance stories and her love for the Midnight Cinderella book series as a whole. That well-worn copy means a lot to her.
Miri
The items that the brothers gave her in order to be able to summon them to where she is when she needs them. A lot of them have sentimental value to her. Pictures with Asmo that evoke special memories, the script from the play she was in from Levi, the body switching book (now powerless) from Satan, the keychain that was the mate to her original one from Mammon, etc. Lucifer's Ring of Light, while also his summoning token, it originally serves as a tempering object for her magic so that it doesn't go out of control as it has done in the past.
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🍑 (peach) - What are your character’s thoughts on sex if they have any? What is their sexuality? What is their sex life like? Do they even have one?
Houki
She sees sex as more for procreation than anything, only getting bold on occasion or when she has bouts of curiosity (it's how 'The Experiment' happened) (it's one of my rare full-on smut fics so I won't link it here, but you can peruse my masterlist to find it).
Though she doesn't have the words for it, by modern standards, she's closest to demisexual with a dab of bi-romantic (as in her home game, her first suitor was a warrior princess that was just at the Summit meeting for the free food and to look at all the pretty girls, which is valid of her, tbh.)
Otherwise, she doesn't have much of a sex life as it doesn't interest her much outside of fiction.
Ophelia
Ophelia isn't interested in sex as she has other things to worry about, plus she has some trauma with her previous marriage so she's even less likely to get sexually intimate with a new partner because of that. By modern standards, she's closest to a sex-neutral ace with some touch aversion (specifically towards kissing). She doesn't have a sex life nor does she want one, thanks.
Thea
Thea is polyamorous as that was the kind of relationship that her parents had, her mom and her two dads. She really can't choose between Theo and Arthur as intimate partners, so she didn't and is in a relationship with both of them, loving them in tandem. Her sex life is wild, as I'm sure you can imagine.
Abby
At first, she was scared of it, wanting nothing to do with it after a snooty rich boy forced himself on her. With Vincent, he always gave her reassurances and would stop if she was visibly nervous or unsure. He always wants her happy and comfortable first above all else. And after his constant reassurance and telling her how beautiful he thought she was, they got her to her first orgasm. As her confidence grows, she gets bolder, and after they had been apart for a year, they spent their first night together not separating (literally) for long. As for her sexuality, she's demisexual. Vincent was her first love and she wants him to be her only love.
Maddie
Maddie is bisexual. She thinks of sex as an expression of intimacy. You show your most vulnerable self to another at their most vulnerable self and there's something beautiful about that. She's pretty exclusive to Harr these days, helping him to build confidence in himself, letting him try what's comfortable for him and only pushing a little a time, just to get him out of his shell.
Clara
Though she doesn't have the words for it, Clara is demisexual with an active sex life thanks to Nokto being a horn-dog. At first, she preferred just reading about sex in her books, clinging to tropes that she hoped to experience in real life. Unfortunately, becoming Belle turned those plans upside down, especially after she caught Nokto's eye.
Miri
Miri is pansexual. Gender expression isn't a factor to her when it comes to liking someone and given that she's in a relationship with a demon, how someone presents themselves, gender-wise, seems small in the grand scheme of things. She sees sex as a way to show someone that you love them, as mentioned in Maddie's entry, it's a way to get emotionally close to someone. As for her sex life… well… her partner is a demon, literally. That should be descriptive enough in of itself.
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👑(crown) - How does your oc feel about power? Do they hold any? If so, what kind of power and how did they attain it? If not, would they ever want power? How do they feel about those that hold power over others?
Houki
Houki, while from the nobility class, her family was branch family to a much bigger complex main one, often ignored for the most part and left to their own devices. She is cautious of those in power as they can often force you into doing things you don't want to do. She was forced into a role her cousin had ran away from, and she couldn't refuse the role else her family would lose favor and funding from the main family and her family wasn't about to let that happen. She doesn't want power because it can quite easily be taken away, something that's still true even now when she's in Sengoku era Japan.
Ophelia
Doesn't trust anyone holding power over her. Though her family was from the nobility class, they were poor nobles and were often at the mercy of other, richer nobles. Not to mention her home country recently went through a political upheaval, uprooting the old royal family and putting in a new one. So, yeah, she has a strong distrust of those with a lot of power. She does not want power as that is something that can be taken away, very easily and very violently, as she's seen almost personally.
Thea
Thea is probably the most neutral of my girls towards authority figures, if you can call it neutral. Nothing really bad has happened to her specifically and her relationship with authority, but her mother has instilled in her to at least be cautious around them. Her dads lived through a time where being open about their relationship was, at best, frowned upon, while her mother was a victim of inaction because someone had more money and power than her family had and paid for their silence. She wishes she had the power to make authority less corrupt than they are, but she doesn't have that kind of power and to undertake that task would be a horrific uphill battle.
Abby
Abby doesn't trust authority figures all that much as, like Houki, they have a tendency to make you do things you don't want to. And in Abby's case, her distrust comes from authority's inaction. Those in power have a way of making things they don't like disappear, horrendous actions as if they never happened at all, and no consequences for those horrendous actions. Abby was a victim of inaction and she's been scared and distrustful ever since.
Maddie
Maddie's position as Alice the Second gives her leverage in a power struggle between the Red and Black Armies. If the Red Army has Alice on their side, they can overtake the Black Army and assimilate them for total control over Cradle. The Black Army obviously doesn't want that to happen, so they want Alice to be on their side, so that they don't lose their sense of identity and freedom. Maddie, having this role thrust upon her, isn't too pleased with the situation as the Red Army often uses underhanded tactics to bring her to their side (kidnapping usually being a favored method of theirs) and really, she just wants to go back to the Land of Reason at the end of the day, so being thrust into a war she wanted no part of puts a sour taste in her mouth.
Clara
Clara is in a unique position, being Rhodolite's Belle, where she can observe the authority directly and have authority of her own on how her home should be run, namely that she's choosing who will be the next king. It's a big responsibility, especially with the threat of war and/or assimilation from the other nations on the horizon. She didn't want the position initially as, again, it's a big responsibility to choose who's gonna rule over your kingdom. Holding the fate of your kingdom in your hands is intimidating, after all. She pushes through, however, choosing to the best of her gained knowledge of the princes and for what she thought was best for Rhodolite, given the circumstances.
Miri
Magical abilities aside, she kind of fell into power by virtue of who she associates with. She's in good graces with the local royalty along with seven of the most powerful demons in the Devildom. Not only them but she's also has friendships with some high ranking angels, one of the most powerful sorcerers in the Human Realm, and a reaper. Miri is surrounded by a lot of influential people, to say the least.
With her ties to many kinds of powerful people, she wants to use those ties responsibly, to try and bring a sense of harmony between the three worlds, not an easy feat especially when the worlds are at odds with each other with tensions that can be cut with a knife.
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🐥 (baby chick) - How does your oc feel about parenthood? Do they have children? If not, do they want any? Why or why not?
Houki
She sees it as an inevitably, being a noble lady, thus she's expected to provide children. She's fairly neutral on the subject of children, as in she doesn't care one way or the other, she just know she's supposed to have them someday to be a good wife or whatever. However, due to health problems, she was only able to have one son, Shigenari. She's felt bad that she can't do more and has said that she would be understanding if Mitsunari wants to take on a mistress to make up for her inadequacy, but Mitsunari never does, just proud that Houki and Shigenari are healthy and happy, and that's enough for him.
Ophelia
Ophelia isn't interested in children as she already had her fill of them from her siblings. There were too many of them and not enough to go around and she didn't want to put any child what she went through. She's also infertile, meaning if she even wanted them, she can't have them biologically, not with the technology available to her in Sengoku Japan. Adoption pretty much is her only option if she really wanted to, but it's not likely at this point in time.
Thea
Thea thought about it and thought 'yeah, maybe someday!' And then someday comes and she's got fraternal twins, a little boy that looks like Theo named Vincent and a little girl that looks like Arthur named Mary Louise. Comte and Leonardo are confused about that one too, given that children produced from a vampire and a human is rare enough already, the fact that the twins also look like both their fathers is also baffling. She loves her kids regardless.
Abby
Her and Vincent’s first kid came as a surprise to both of them. She had a vague sense of 'yeah, maybe someday' with Vincent after they babysat some of their artist friends' kids occasionally, but then they're separated for a year, spent their first night reunited 'catching up' and then the symptoms started, taking both of them by surprise. Abby was the more worried of the two, given that she and Vincent didn't have a lot between them nor did she know if she was ready for parenthood. She and Vincent talked it out, deciding to keep their little guy, Theodorus, named after his uncle Theo. Abby gets in touch with her extended family and they help her get a bigger place to live and all the baby supplies they could ever need. She loves her son and watching him grow. Then, she found she was pregnant again. She wasn't so scared this time, having her safety net and that she knew what to do this time, thus giving her and Vincent their second son, Wilhelm. Then it happened again with their third child, a little girl named Anna Cornelia, affectionately called Cora. So, yeah, parenthood has grown on her, loving all her kids as they grow up. She couldn't imagine her life without them now.
Maddie
Maddie isn't really interested, wanting to focus on her studies and her business more. If it's in the cards for her, she's not gonna be mad about it, but it's something that isn't a top priority to her.
Clara
At first, it wasn't really a priority to her. She liked playing and interacting with the kids in town, but that was about where it ended for her. Except then she became Belle, fell in love with Nokto, and the two were married not long after. Then, there were pressures began from the nobility at court, strong hints that the king needed an heir, some being especially harsh towards her because she was a commoner originally, some telling Nokto to his face that he should have a noble wife so at least his children will be legitimate. Nokto ignores them and takes her away so they can talk privately. He reassures her that he will look to her for her decision. If she wants kids or not, that's up to her and her alone. He's got seven other brothers, after all, one of them is bound to have a kid at one point or another and he could always name that kid as his heir, it wasn't as big of a deal as the snooty nobles were making it out to be. Clara thanks him, feeling better about the issue.
I'm still on the fence about giving her and Nokto kids. Maybe I'll change my mind in the future about it, but as of this posting, there are no plans to give them kids.
Miri
She's got too much going on for her to think about having kids of her own, what with also trying to keep with the demon brothers and that's a job and a half. If she ever does, she certainly is ready for anything any potential kids could throw at her!
That aside, I have had some late-night thoughts of different AUs of her having kids with Diavolo and Simeon on different occasions, so I'm not completely opposed to the idea, but in her main timeline, she's not interested in having kids at the moment.
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🎺 (trumpet) - Is your character talented at anything? How did they gain this skill and why?
Houki
She's really good at reading books and retaining the info she's earned. She earned this skill because it's one of her main hobbies and she loves reading a lot.
Ophelia
Maybe not especially talented at it, but she takes small pleasures in caring for a garden. It gives her time to reflect and think without anyone around her, plus, if she's particularly frustrated that day, she can take it out on the weeds and dirt. She had been away from Nobunaga and company for a while, looking for something to do, and had saw that the local garden had been neglected, starting to be overgrown and messy. It was something she sometimes dabbled in back home when she wasn't being called to meet with various nobles and she somehow always felt more at peace when she was in a garden, she could never put her finger on the reason, but she always just liked working in a garden.
Thea
She's really good at sewing. She can make whole outfits in a matter of days, just give her the material, some thread, and let her go to town. She developed her talent for it thanks to her mom and her dad Benito, who both had interests in fashion and making clothes, thus inspiring her love of it as well.
Abby
She's not as good as some the other artistically-inclined members of Comte's mansion, but she likes drawing and painting with watercolors. She wasn't allowed to pursue it until she came to the mansion, thriving under the great minds that surrounded her and the love and support to help her continue following her passions.
Maddie
Singing! It ties into her powers, but she's always loved singing, coming up with little tunes on the fly when she was little and singing along to whatever tune was playing on TV or the radio.
Clara
She likes baking, bread especially. It was one of the first things she learned to cook and it's something she's created bonds over, with Mr. Akatsuki, Rio, and Yves, so bread has a special place for her because of that.
Miri
She's a quick study at magic! Any spell that's placed in front of her, she'll be doing it in no time, something Solomon is quite proud of.
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⚠️(warning) - What is your oc’s go-to weapon? Do they prefer melee weapons like swords or brass knuckles or do they prefer guns and other ranged weaponry? Do they even use a weapon? Why or why not?
Houki
Houki isn't a fighter type so she's never had the need for weapon, never really been in a physical fight. The one weapon she has is her wit and she will use it how she sees fit.
Ophelia
Another non-fighter so she doesn't have a go-to weapon. I remember in the beginning of her development I had given her an iron fan, but that's not especially useful for hand to hand combat. If she has to choose between melee or ranged weapons, she's going with the ranged ones. She doesn’t have a lot of physical strength, so something that can be handled easily and where she doesn't have to be close to her opponent, the better.
Thea
Another non-fighter, but she was given the choice, she wants melee weapons, swords especially. She thinks they're cool and always wanted to own one.
Abby
Especially not a fighter, she prefers to avoid combat all together, she doesn't want to be involved at all. She doesn't want a weapon as she doesn't want to fight and that's her stance on that.
Maddie
Her weapon is her voice. She uses magic through making suggestions to inanimate objects, made stronger if she's singing while doing it.
Clara
She's, first, a non-fighter, but will use the skills she does have to protect those weaker than herself. Given that she works in a big bookstore, she has super strength from lifting books and shelves since she was young.
Miri
She has a magic staff that she can change the size of to help enhance her magic. When she's in combat mode, it's as tall as she is. In everyday mode, it's a necklace she wears around her neck.
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💄(lipstick) - What does your oc think of their face? Do they have a positive or negative opinion? Do they wear makeup? Do they have a skincare routine? What traits do they like most about their face?
Houki
She thinks her face is okay, for the most part. She only wears makeup for special occasions, so she doesn’t wear it often. She only washes and dries her face as a skin care routine and that's pretty much it. As for what she likes about it, she thinks her eyes are a pretty color.
Ophelia
She used to wear makeup all the time because she needed to keep up the image of a rich noble lady, and that included wearing makeup. She doesn't do it as much anymore since she doesn’t have a pressing need to wear makeup in her day to day. She will use a cream at night to help with dryness tho. What she likes most about her face is that, aside from the mole on her chin, she's never had a pimple or blemish, a miracle with how much makeup she used to wear.
Thea
She thinks her face is okay, but it doesn't lend itself that well to historic makeup styles because of all the freckles on her face. She does think it's fun to wear dark red lipstick sometimes though, to emulate the 1930s-1940s makeup style because she thought it was a fun style and likes to try out different styles when she can. Skincare routine-wise, she'll wash, dry and use a powder when she goes out in historic styles, as was the style of the time. What she likes about her face is her smile. She thinks it's nice.
Abby
Abby doesn't like her face that much. Extra oil and acne haven't done her any favors in the confidence department and creams to try and correct the acne have left her with some scarring. Some makeups irritate her skin so she really can't wear very much of it very often. Thanks to her time in le Comte's mansion, she's had help in finding products that help her skin out, some of which are still manufactured in the modern day (or at least close equivalents.) If she had to pick something she liked about her face, well, she thinks her nose is okay? Something small and button-like. It's got its charms.
Maddie
Maddie likes her face! She loves to wear makeup and look pretty! She makes her own soaps and creams so her skin always looks great. Her best feature, she thinks, is her smile.
Clara
Clara thinks she's got an okay face, not outrageously beautiful but not ugly either. Just something normal. Ever since she took on the role of Belle and had to be a noblewoman to hide that secret, she started wearing makeup more often and using creams to moisturize and clean her skin. She thinks a freshly washed face is the best feeling after a long day. Her best feature is her eyes, specifically her long eyelashes.
Miri
Miri has grown to like her face more than she used to. At first, she didn't really care that much about it, only using basic soaps to clean it and living with the dryness left behind. Since coming to Devildom and getting her pact with Asmo, he has dragged her into making regular beauty routines, helping her to pick out what this or that product is best for her skin and, now, she has fun when she looks in the mirror, seeing the pretty sorcerer she's become over time. Makeup-wise, she doesn't really wear it save for special occasions, like fancy dinner dates or upscale parties at Diavolo's castle. Her favorite feature is how soft her skin feels, especially after a spa day with Asmo.
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🥊(boxing glove) - Has your character ever been in a fight? Did they win? Do they fight often? Are they professionally trained or self-taught? Do they enjoy fighting or only do so when necessary?
Houki
Physical fight, no. She doesn't know how to fight save for what she's seen from her time in Sengoku era Japan. She has been taught one self-defense move by a warrior princess she met, but doesn't know much else other than that. She doesn't enjoy fighting, preferring to only do so when it's absolutely necessary.
Ophelia
She has not been in a fight and would prefer to keep it that way.
Thea
She has been in a fight before, when she was a kid. She and her mom had made her a Halloween costume together, Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz's blue gingham dress. She was so proud because she had (mostly) made the dress all on her own and she looked pretty cute in it, thank you. But, some school bullies started calling her names and making fun of her and her dress. When she had finally had enough, she attacked the main bully, giving him a piece of her mind with her fists. She had to be pulled off before the fight was settled. Since then, when she came to 19th century Paris and had a run in with some scruffy lads, she asked Jean and Napoleon to teach her proper self-defense, so she could look after herself should she find herself alone and getting accosted again. She doesn’t like fighting as a whole, but she does deem it necessary sometimes, if nothing else to protect herself from harm.
Abby
She doesn’t like confrontation, so she hates the idea of getting into a fight, period.
Maddie
Maddie has been in a fight before, technically, also when she was a kid. Some kids were making fun of her for various things (her singing, that she's fat, other mean things that kids will say), so, while it wasn't intentional on her part, she had made a fake flower as was her hobby at the time and thanks to her powers starting to bloom, all her negative feelings were transferred into her flower. Since she didn't know she had powers back then, imagine her surprise when her bullies started bothering her again only for them to be strung up by their ankles from the ceiling by a giant string plant stem, embroidered flowers dotting it everywhere.
She had to transfer schools because of that but she did win that fight, technically speaking.
Overall, she prefers to take peaceful routes, trying to avoid a fight if she can. But if she can't avoid it, she's still got enough power to put an end to the fight quickly.
Clara
Clara has been in a few fights before. Mr. Akatsuki taught her some moves so that she could protect herself when he wasn't around to look after her (and if Gilbert ever found her, so she can protect herself from him, according to Mr. Akatsuki). She mostly uses her skills to protect those weaker than herself, even standing up for Rio once early on in their relationship. She prefers not to fight unless she has to.
Miri
Miri has been in a few fights, yeah. She prefers not to fight unless she absolutely has to, wanting to talk things through first before she has to bring out the magic. Solomon has been her teacher in magic, teaching her defensive spells, healing spells, summoning spells, and various other incantations useful for daily life. She also learns some curses from Satan, should she ever need them.
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🧣(scarf) - What comforts your oc? Is it an item? An action? A person? Whatever it is, how and why does it comfort them?
Houki
Thick book she can hold onto. The heaviness grounds her back to reality, that she's holding onto something heavy and tangible. It comforts her to know that.
Ophelia
Holding herself. Sometimes, if she's holding onto one of her arms, or if she's got her arms crossed, she's probably trying to self-soothe herself. She's not the type to immediately reach out when she needs help, so she's often left comforting herself in small ways and this is one of them.
Thea
The smell of fresh laundry. Doesn't matter what the object is, if it smells fresh and clean, that's comforting to her.
Abby
Sitting some place quiet helps her to calm down. Her room or the library in le Comte's mansion were her go-tos when she was there. She wants to be away from the noise and that quiet comforts her.
Maddie
Talking to her loved ones, it's usually the quickest remedy of comfort for her.
Clara
Holding onto one of her favorite books, or any book really. Thick books are best for this. Books are a frequent comfort for her when she's feeling down, so that's her go-to.
Miri
She talks to her brothers and her friends if she needs some comfort. Something about talking about what's bothering her always makes her feel better. She's also quick to do the same if they need it, always willing to be a listening ear for her loved ones troubles.
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#answered asks#houki of jiyel (oc)#ophelia of revaire#dorothea reid (oc)#abigail clarke (oc)#madeline fleming (oc)#clara laurent (oc)#miriam (oc)#houki asks#ophelia ask#thea asks#abby asks#maddie asks#clara asks#miri asks
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I think my ask on the other blog got eaten by tumblr so I'm just re-ask it here. Can we get more lore on Douglas, Jack, Fytó, and Mayor Ignis?
O shid??
*proceeds to break all my bones*
So they are all part of this lil item head world iv created where depending on what kind of head you have will determine your status in their society. Like Jack the poker chip owns a family passed down casino, Douglas has a cash register-ppphhhhone thing-????, Fytó is a pitcher that uses his head as a vase, and Mayor Ignis is a chandelier.
Ignis is, to put it lightly, a horrible father and Mayor. He hasn’t stepped into his office for years besides to do his mandatory speeches and conferences. Instead, he spends majority of his time at the casino livin’ it up and getting absolutely wasted. His son (Phoenix) is heavily disappointed in his father and refuses to associate with him, living with his mother in a different city.
Also not only did Ignis basically abandoned his family and job, he has also given finance and power to the CEO of the country’s most used and morally corrupt banker.
Douglas.
Nobody really knows of Douglas’s origins- the bank has existed far before the birth of Ignis and mysteriously has been seen as the most intimidating and powerful bank out there. He has destroyed countless of businesses and ruined lives of millions for his own profit. He’s a disgusting man. Anyone who even utters anything about having money is said to be cursed by a mail the next day saying they owe millions to the bank even if they only have pennies. Douglas is cruel, and thrives watching people suffer and beg underneath his foot as he laughs maniacally. One of those people being Jack.
Jack is a skilled player in the ages of poker and gambling in general. He knows when to quit, and he knows when to move forward. He’s a really smart man who cherished and loved his family’s casino with all of his heart to a point he is willing to make sacrifices to keep the place afloat. However one year he has been fed up with the threats the bank has been making to their casino and has decided to fight it. Douglas has told them that he could be completely free from the threats and money issues as long as he could defeat Douglas in a single game. At first Jack thought that would be a easy win due to his skills and knowledge, however after losing aggressively to a cheated hand, they were forced to give ownership to Douglas.
In the poorer side of town, there is a little flower shop just barely outside of the bustling streets. Another family owned business of kettles, pitchers and tiny little tea cups. However due to their heads not being wealthy enough and not having enough history, they have no choice but to replace the meaning of their heads from drinks to flower pots. Fytó, the eldest brother of all of his 6 sisters has been keeping the place running with his grandmother after his mother and father went missing after ignoring too many bank statements for years. Fytó has always done his best to take care of his grandmother and little sisters as he does most of the chores and work- it kept him busy from his racing thoughts and fears of being discovered again and taking him away. His remaining family means the world to him and he has no doubt in his mind that his mother and father are either slaving away to make up for the money or were merely killed to be sold. He’s terrified- but his sisters and grandmother as always there to fix him up just when he was about to completely shatter.
Humans, completely forget I spelt Ignis’s name wrong JDHGDGDGD
#It’s been years and I still don’t know what to call this lil world smhh#There are more characters but so far these 4 are the most wrote out#The city is huge and is based being more in the past than the present#Power exists but heavily limited to richer areas#Also funfact#Fytó when he feels one of his flowers is not getting enough sun he will put them in his head and do field work
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hi mim, i'm sorry if this comes across as rambling, but i wanted to ask you, how do you choose what to study/pursue when you don't know what you want? i recently moved to a new country with my family and i've taken a gap year to prep for an entrance exam back home, but i don't know whether i want to continue in the new country or go back to my home country, whether i should study x or y degree, i just feel torn both ways. and what makes it worse is that,secretly, i would love to study english lit or anything to do with languages, but my parents would never allow it unless it's a last resort. i just feel like i'm betraying myself no matter what i choose in the end. would really appreciate any advice on what the heck to do <3
Oh anon, this is such a tricky situation to be in and I can absolutely understand all the doubt, worry, and confusion you're going through. I grew up with a lot of friends in variously similar situations and it's never as simple as just telling you to "follow your heart" or "do what you want" because all the various considerations that you have to make and bear look different for everyone, and they cannot always be so easily dismissed or ignored.
I think one thing that might help in this is to focus less on what you want as a career, and maybe spend some time trying to figure out where your values lie and what kind of life you envision within those values--take the subjects that you enjoy most, for example: what exactly is it about those subjects that excite you? Do you value a host of different and new experiences, or do you prefer to deepen the experiences you've already had? If you enjoy working with or being around people, what capacity does that enjoyment reach its full potential for you? Is it in receiving new knowledge from others or being able to share new knowledge with others? Is it in providing aid, information, or comfort to people? Is it in working out a particular problem? How important is financial stability to you, and what are you willing to sacrifice or not sacrifice for that stability? What are the broadest possible options within that category? Do you want a stable 9 to 5 where it's easy for you to plan things out because you have a reliable routine? If not, why not? What does "stability" mean for you in the first place?
Some of these are all fairly vague questions, I'm aware, but I think it helps far more sometimes to isolate these things, rather than look at them in terms of what career you do or don't want, because focusing on "doctor" or "architect" or "teacher" or "accountant" disguises the day-to-day reality of what those jobs contain, and this reality is what will tally far more with the things you actually value. For example, my favourite subjects in school were languages, English, history and the sciences: my top two choices were biology and literature, but if I were to go to university now, I absolutely would not study English literature at all. I love it deeply, but what I love about it is not something that I can only get from a degree. What I value about literature is not necessarily something that would align with studying it as a degree. On the other hand, mathematics has always been something I had a very fraught relationship with; i also don't like the idea of being boxed in by expectations (my reading and watching habits are testament to that)--however: I'm not opposed to studying accountancy despite it being something most people don't associate with me at all. And I'm not opposed to it because the things accountancy involves--a fixed work week (which also means fixed free time), a particular set of problems requiring a particular set of tools (I enjoy that kind of focus)--are things I can see myself doing provided it's in the name of something important to me. Does this make sense?
I also want to add that whatever degree you choose, whatever job you settle on, is not a life sentence: just because you choose engineering or data science doesn't mean you will be an engineer or a data scientist for the rest of your life. You can, at any point in your life, at literally any age, change course or pursue something new or something radically different. You don't come with an expiration or a use by date--as long as you are still here, the world will still be here and the opportunities you find within it along the way are endlessly broad and full of surprises. It's a conversation that's cropped up quite a few times on this blog so I have an entire tag for it here, which I hope will go some way in giving you some hope, anon (and if it helps, I never went to university, but here I am losing my mind over literature on the regular and subjecting you all to it, too 💗).
As for the issue of what you want to study and where--I don't know how immense the pressure is from your parents, or how open they are to compromise, or exactly what their own reasoning for their stance is (I'm not saying that it's fair, only that it may help to know what "education" and a degree mean and symbolise for them, and if, once you know that, there's wiggle room available for you), I also don't know what your financial situation is or how much freedom you have in that regard and these are all things only you know. I will say though that it's important for you to make a list of concrete differences, pros and cons, and considerations between studying in your home country and studying where you are: what will accomodation look like for you? what universities are in your options and what do you value in those universities? what are the financial constraints between the two countries, if there are any? Are you able to mix programs between faculties so that you can do a major / minor degree? one that will allow you to compromise between what your parents expect and allow you to pursue a subject important to you?
I think the last one is something I would advise you to try and look at in line with all the questions from above (and you can absolutely add in more questions of your own for yourself). I don't know if your parents are set on a few, very specific courses by focusing on specific careers (i.e., the usual Big Three of Medicine, Engineering, Law), or if they are a bit more open and just looking at degrees themselves (which would be broader, if not by much). If it's the latter I think it is absolutely worth seeing if there is something that can align with the values most important with you and somewhat placate your parents also--just as an example, if they insist on something technical and scientific, there are a range of options in linguistics which also open up the pathway to languages for you: additionally, languages and multilingualism is something important and if it's something that helps broaden your prospects for employment (I hate talking in those terms, but you know what I mean) it might be worth bringing up, especially if you can tie it in or find a course that allows you to bridge the gap, even somehow, between your own interests and your parents' expectations.
Again, I'm sorry that you're in such a difficult position, anon, and I'm sorry too that I can't offer more to you. I really do hope, though, that some of this has been useful to you, even in just a small way. Sending you all my support and best wishes. Regardless of what you decide, please don't ever think that you are done for after decision. The world is so much bigger and so much broader than you can even imagine right now, I promise 💗
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Been watching hibike euphonium!! Came for the strong character drama, but being blown away by how many feelings its unearthing for me??!?
I didnt expect it bc I'm long past that chapter in my life, but I'm being reminded of when I was still making music. I hated ensemble. I hated spending so much time on, sacrificing my weekends, endless repetition, that goddamn question "will you be able to play it for the show?". Hated it!!! I never had any friends and I couldn't understand others!! But this show made me realize.... there's people who are so passionate about this. There's people who are willing to sacrifice day and night just for the passion. And I'm not one of them! I quit and it was the right decision. And I'm glad :)
On the other hand, seeing Kumiko struggle over wanting to improve made me feel so much about my relationship to art 😭 idk if it was the point of ep 11, but it made me realize the distinction between being passionate about something to the point you want to be special, and just simply doing something out of love. there's always the question about pursuing art professionally. I've wanted to become special with my art. But. I think Kumiko made me realize that at its core, I simply just love it. That is all. I'm doing it bc I love it and that love is driving me :)
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