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…was the soundtrack good, at least?
#tua s4#I’ve been too scared to watch it#but I know what happens and I know how it ends and I am PISSED#time to reread You Look Like Death again I suppose#but did the soundtrack bang? they usually bang#the umbrella academy#tua#tua season 4
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Every Gothamite has the same reaction to nightmares. Wake up (screaming or crying, pick your poison), turn your pillow to the cold side and pretend to sleep until you do.
#Janet Drake rp#maybe I’ve been away from Gotham too long#but i keep watching the door waiting for the shadows to move#i don’t feel scared though#janet drake#tim drake#tim drake robin#tim drake wayne#robin tim drake#timothy drake#dc red robin#dc rp#dc robin#dcu#dc comics#dc#gotham#gotham city#batman and robin#batman#batfam#jack drake#hospital arc
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Hey I just finished Hilda season 3 and I am forever changed.
I joke that I could write a thesis about some media but I could really truly talk for hours about how fucking good Hilda is.
It’s core strength, which tears at my heart and soul so earnestly, is that it is not just a story about child adventurer, but equally a story about the MOTHER of a child adventurer and it’s just so beautiful. So impactful.
I think Johanna may be one of my favorite characters… ever. I think she is Absolutey Incredible.
Season three was just so amazing, the whole series is. I beg y’all to watch it because it’s so so good and deserves all the love it can get.
#hilda#hilda netflix#hilda season 3#Hilda is so so important to me and I think it always will be#I’ve had a fear for a long time that as I get older I will no longer see myself in adventure stories bc I’ll be too old#bc they’re all written for younger demographics#someone once said something on here about how young ppl are easier to write bc adults get… specific… as they get older#and that’s so true and I was scared I’d lose my sense of adventure in the stories I read#but Johanna proved me wrong and was everything I’ve ever needed#I see so much of myself in her and she means so much to me#I’m gonna be sobbing about this the rest of the night#that and nursing a headache bc I straight up was either hunched forward or actively on my feet jumping while watching this season#god it’s so fucking good gang#and what a send off#that final goodbye. it’s been a year and we’re back and the raven festival and back to sitting on that wall#god it’s beautiful#my ONLY critique is that they fucked up woodman. I’ll expound later but they fully messed up woodman.
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I started watching Interview with the Vampire. My thoughts are now consumed by Interview with the Vampire.
#I know I haven’t been active on here in MONTHS but it looks like this show is bringing me back#I watched ep 1 yesterday#and had enough self restraint to wait till today for ep 2#I was going to make this post yesterday but there were too many vampires in my head#I don’t have the words to describe how much it has instantly become my new obsession#I was scared it was going to be another show that I’d heard was queer and was in fact just queerbaiting#but no. actual gays. vampire gays. textual vamp-queers#I will not be thinking about anything other than this show for the foreseeable thank you for your patience#determined not to get spoiled so I’ve blocked the tags and shall not be engaging with content just yet which is incredibly upsetting for me#but I know the wait will be worth it#also now I just want to draw vampires#madzillus babble#iwtv#interview with the vampire
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girl help she’s watching iphigenia (1977)
#IT’S JUST. ON YOUTUBE. TAUNTING ME#I’ve been too scared of this film bc the actress for iphigenia is so obviously young and i KNOW she was young#but watching it like that is another matter entirely and idk if im strong enough#in fact I know I’m not I’m ON MY PERIOD HELPPPP#iphigenia 1977
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Hmmm I kinda want to make a side blog for RPG Maker game development related things to be able to talk to more experienced people in that community, but at the same time I both don’t really think I’d get much attention and don’t want to accidentally spoil my own game (^^ ; ).
I have a rough story, concept doodles, a tileset, some character sprites, an enemy that walks around but can’t initiate battle yet (if I even decide to have a battle system), a couple rooms with some events, and a functioning run button, but I’m still lost on how to do much else at the moment. Especially since this program has the ability for scripting, meaning I’ll probably have to learn and actually retain another coding language.
So, I’m not very far at all lol. Idk how well that’d go over on the established fandom website, but eh.
#text post#incoherent rambling#project update#game project#I’m still also debating whether or not I can actually even make a proper horror game too#It’s the rule of like just being a horror fan doesn’t make you good at horror being afraid of something does? ya know?#I am trying to go with things that scare me personally but it’s been difficult#either things aren’t concrete of concepts enough or are wayyyy too oddly specific to make anything about#which is quitter talk I know but how does one translate the childhood heebee jeebees of watching top ten gaming videos past bedtime 💀💀💀#or like the way too broad general fear of lack of control without making it too on the nose or too vague#truly a balancing act writing is#kinda ironically I am also a little bit less afraid of hospitals after having been to one for myself rather than family members#which makes things both more and less difficult???#on one hand I have better references for them now but on the other hand I’m desensitized to it 😔#I think I get used to things a little too easily for a lot of things to stay scary#the thing was a scary movie the first time I saw it and now it’s a comfort film#funger was a very scary game until I first died and reloaded a save with little consequence and now it’s just a spooky but fun rpg#but then at the same time thinking about a movie studio logo before a movie that scared me as a kid cause there was a monster in it#still gives weird left over shivers but actually seeing it doesn’t anymore for some reason#I feel like that’s how it’s worked with most things I’ve ever been afraid of in my life besides concepts like death control or idk drowning#ugh writing is HARD#but actually making a functional and fun to play game is harder oh my god do I not know how to make puzzles#I have made swivel chairs that can be knocked and walked over but that’s about it and idk what to do with that knowledge lmaooooo#and I don’t want the entire gameplay loop to be read text search room get key repeat cause that’s boring#I have also desperately tried making a stamina system but there’s not much help with that online especially not in the rpg maker forums#the no necroposting rule sucks all the threads for questions I have never get answered and never will cause no one is allowed to due to age#anyway idk what to tag this probably won’t get seen since it’s not my usual anyway but eh whatever I’ll think about this#hopefully I remember the passwords to two blogs 💀💀💀
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what’s up with me and plane crashing dreams. perhaps my life long obsession with the show air crash investigations is hitting or smth
#this is the second time in a row#I slept like four hours but i still managed to dream something#and I dreamed all of this between this post and my last reblog.#basically it all started that I was reading a post (idk if it was Twitter) of a woman saying that she had to wait for 3 hours on a airplane#for the bathroom to free and she had to stay awake the entire time#and a moment later I was on that plane too. watching her. I was about to return to my seat (I think). also i was in first class. the only#way I’ll ever experience it) but OUT OF THE NOWHERE my last year surpervisor for an expo and her husband (which I saw once a picture) stand#up. and she starts screaming something about “something sweet coming for women”…? I have no idea what that means. but all the women/girls#on the airplane stand up (they were all sleeping before) and start to crowd in front of me and i start to feel like we are going down. DOWN.#and we were in fact. going down. crashing. and I was scared as hell so while everyone was laughing/celebrating (???) I was screaming of#horror. but just before we crash I wake up and I’m in my bed (but I know I’m still dreaming. because it’s like a slow downloading of the#image). I wake up and I decided I’m late for school (which i don’t have) and I get ready quickly and I march in full force to the bus statio#then I realize there is no school and I’m outside at 5am. I found a supermarket cart and idk why but I take it with me and only when I get#home I realize that the supermarket is nowhere close to my house (like irl) and now I have a freacking shipping cart and I decided to park#it in my garage#and then my mom woke me up as my alarm for 7am went off.#I feel like by brain has been fucked. I’m not used anymore to sleeping poorly because I’ve taken a great interest in better sleeping since#last year and I can’t stand this now ugh.#good morning people tho#dream
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I’m going to lose my mind oh my god I am so scared for this quincenera wtf
#NOT MINE BTW I MISSED MY CHANCE LMAO#but Jesus Christ family I’ve never met before flying in from Panama…. god I’m so scared#I’ve already been dealing with some wack ass imposter syndrome ass shit cuz of how I was raised this is gonna make it SO MUCH worse#I DIDNT EVEN KNOW PANAMANIANS GOT QUINCES#i was raised with almost zero influence from any culture whatsoever I wasn’t even raised close to that side of the family#and like I’m mixed with white but I can’t even use that as an excuse cuz the cousin who’s quince it is is also mixed#and that side of the family is super tied to the culture and they speak Spanish and shit#i don’t even speak Spanish even if the family from Panama doesn’t think ima. total embarrassment what if most of them don’t speak english#when I’m surrounded by white people 24/7 I feel like a total outlier but the second I’m around anyone else latine I feel like that but WORSE#i don’t speak Spanish I don’t know anything about the culture I’m from the fucking pacific northwest and do digital art and watch anime#i am so far completely removed from everything I’m gonna be sick#my grandma is already so judgy about stuff my uncle was even WORSE and made fun of the stuff that was too white or too American about me#my cousins throwing the party are the least of my worries cuz at least their mixed and second/third Gen too#but oh my god the family I’ve never met before I’m so scared I’m so scared#i was already thinking like. can I even call myself latine bc of how I was raised and how far removed I am from everything. I’m mixed so -#-should I just associate myself more with the white side of my family. am I being fraudulent by identifying with that term just bc I have -#-the blood is that even enough maybe that kid had a point when he said I shouldn’t count as hispanic if I don’t know spanish#and thinking about showing up to my cousins quince as. me. it’s terrifying it’s awful I want to go I want to meet these people I want to -#-celebrate my cousin and be happy for her but GOD what if everyone hates us and just tolerates us cuz we’re related to them#i would say we’re the black sheep of the family but I feel like white is more fitting cuz I feel like we’re just slightly brown white people#god god god I’m so stresssd out by this#is this a weird thing to be worried about is this stupid is this selfish#and to make matters worse I DONT KNOW WHAT TO GET HER FOR A GIRT#vent
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grrr watched a scary movie while stoned. regretti
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So me and my friend unpacked that night terror I had the other night & basically I am now on a self-imposed horror ban because I genuinely think if I keep consuming horror with my current mental state I will have a full-blown psychotic break 😔✌🏻
#for the uninitiated: basically i dreamed of an entity that was ‘the personification of fear itself’ and it was standing in the corner of my#room heavy-breathing and looking at me. it followed me through 3 layers of sleep (dream within a dream; regular dream; WAKING -#i hallucinated it during a sleep paralysis incident)#and i was unpacking it with my friend and i was like ‘i think the reason i was able to fall asleep again so fast (within 10 minutes lol)#and the thought of it hasn’t really bothered me when i’ve tried to sleep since is that it felt like more of a warning than a threat#like it kept getting worse each time i saw it but obviously i was fine. like it never tried to harm me. it just stood there’#and she was like ‘so do you believe in symbolism in dreams?’ i said ‘i don’t believe in prophetic dreams and i don’t believe that dreams#always have meaning. what i believe is that when the conscious mind shuts off for sleep; the subconscious starts unpacking stuff completely#at random and starts working through it. i think it’s a complete roulette. i think the best example of that is the time i had a dream that#one of my teachers was selling teddy bear ties just because he wore a tie with teddy bears on it once. i had that dream about a week later.#i was not in any way preoccupied with his tie; i saw it once and that was it but my brain obviously decided to use it’#so she was like ‘so you think that you dreaming about an entity that was the personification of fear itself is completely random?’#i was like ‘oh no not really. that makes perfect sense to me. all the movies i’ve watched and books i’ve read and podcasts i’ve listened to#have been horror’ and she was like ‘and you think that’s healthy for you?’ ‘oh no not really. plenty of it scares me. i even got scared the#other day listening to true crime; which doesn’t usually happen to me but i guess the 4 hour serial killer documentary wore me down’#she’s just like ‘for god’s sake’ lol#so i’m like ‘i mean if i interpret it your way; about dreams having meanings and messages; i guess i’m being warned that i’m dwelling too#much on fear. i’m inviting it into my space deliberately. it’s the main emotion i’m experiencing from the media i consume. and i don’t know#that that’s necessarily… good?’ and she’s like ‘no i don’t think it is. maybe you should read a sci-fi or something or rewatch that reality#show you like?’ and i was like ‘that actually seems like a good idea’#so. no more horror for me for the foreseeable :( i just want to get through the seasonal depression. and get my grief for mabel down to a#manageable level. i mean it’s somewhat manageable now but i still feel sad and guilty all the time and cry randomly#i’m thinking about signing up to be a dog fosterer for the rspca. i mean i work from home; i have an enclosed garden & plenty of time#and i could use the companionship. i just don’t know that i can take on a multi-year commitment right now#personal
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it kept raining aaaaall day and it’s nice and cold out and i’m gonna sleep so well :]
#ty tropical storm hilary .this is just what december is like for us#glad ot wasn’t too bad and that earthquake scare wasn’t worse#the notif saying 5.5 freaked me out real bad#but now i’ve been doing finals work for sum semester with nice rain in the bg all day and i’m so relaxed <3 <3#which is such a relief after last week. o was so stressed while at (redacted) that my watch literally said my resting heart rate jumped up#to 99 BPM!!! what the fuck.#anyway. enjoying this :]
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I finally got around to watching the latest season of demon slayer and omg it was soooo good!!!! watching this just reinforced my love for tanjirou, he’s baby!!!! and I loved genya too he was so cute!!!!
#I enjoyed it a lot more than I was expecting#especially since zenitsu and inosuke weren’t really in it#and nezuko omg 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺SHES JUST A BABY 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺#it was soooo good omg#now I have to watch jjk but I’m scared bc I heard the latest arc#is out to kill everybody lol#I’ve also been really sad lately and I think I wanna rewatch love stage for comfort#but my family comes in my room too often LOL#like my niece came in my room today while I was watching demon slayer just to take a nap???!#like lady pls get out omg#—in store chit chat! 🍫
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The fact that ppl can remember things is just wow. Like give me some of your brain power I just need it for a bit
#everyday I realize how horrible my attention span is. every single day#serious note since I’ve been realizing that it may not just be autism it may also be adhd#but I like struggle so much. and even outside of when I struggle I have a lot of oddities that are explained by adhdautism#my attention span is the most glaring one bc I literally cannot watch movies with how bad I can’t focus#but other things like my very high energy to very low#hyper fixation on things (tho also may just be my interests they kinda go hand in hand)#fidgety ness like I never realized how much I just do I cannot just sit or stand without filling the space with a song or dance#not even getting into the autism side bc my head hurts#the thing is I see this and recognize that hey I’d probably do a lot better if I got this checked out at some point#but I’m too scared to bc I physically cannot ask for help and go mute due to stress if I try#hey we’ll see this Friday with my next therapy appointment if I actually talk out any of my real issues instead of dancing around them#ruse rambles
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the way tik tok has ruined the editing community hurts me so much like i will literally make mutuals on there and be like “omg we’re friends :)” and then they turn around and copy one of my edits, like same intro scene, same audio, same character like i’m sorry this shit would have never slided in the vine or insta editing community 😭
#i’m always too scared to say anything too#i just watch like 😧😮#‘somewhere in the haze got a sense i’ve been betrayed’#like on instagram you woulda been @‘ed and attacked on several pages for that behavior 😭#vine too#i miss the old editing community#but pls if anyone has any ideas on how to handle having your edits copied all the fucking time lmk#one account has done it several times too#the copiers are lowkey always worse than mine too 😳
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I hate this garbage app but I love my besties from it
#a post I saw earlier is still bugging me and it’s so stupid but#like OP clearly didn’t know wtf they were talking abt but#seeing that still makes me :((#why can’t people just not speak on things that they know nothing about#‘if u regress u should **********’ for what??? sitting in my bed alone coloring??? bc that tends to be the extent of my regression#also mind your own fucking business#‘based on ur likes’ based on my fucking shit I took last week shut up#camshitposts#camrants#angry baby screams#I’ve honestly been too scared to even mention regression here bc it’s so divisive#anyway if u want to block/soft block me go for it even if we’re mutuals#your comfort in your internet space is more important and I won’t be offended#just. please don’t be shitty. idk. I don’t even want to post this anymore but at the same time it’ll help me get over the anxiety of it#this is my internet space. if u don’t like if u can create ur own without me in it <3#anyway uuu yeah hi I’m cam sometimes I like to color Pokémon and watch bIuey fucking sue me
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Y’all my work place has been absolute shit to a working mother lately on top of not taking racism claims seriously and constant scare tactics instead of using mistakes as teaching moments and I’ve been wanting to quit so I put in my two weeks today because the coworker that’s been treated like shit also is quitting and it kinda gave me a push and my store manager texted me telling me my experiences are wrong and trying to make my coworker look bad 😐 said he’d forward it to upper management with his statements of proof but little does he know I’m contacting HR tomorrow with my statements of proof you’re not scaring me off
#bro said he never used scare tactics and then proceeds to use a scare tactic#also like we got a review saying someone experienced discrimination and I heard the store manager make excuses as to why the customer was#wrong and didn’t actually get discriminated against 😐#and then to make me feel dumb in the text he was like “umm that claim happened when the coworker you love was on the clock so#and I’m sitting there like. bro I HEARD you LAUGH about it. idk how she responded because she never talked to me about it I only know you#and the other two managers’ reactions and only one of y’all cared! that’s bullshit!!#and I’m sorry she has a toddler and a newborn and they keep getting sick and she’s trying to juggle taking care of them and work#she was the only employee left that had been there over a year#and y’all tell everyone she doesn’t wanna work ask why her fiancé can’t watch the kids and then say you’ll cover her shift then stand in the#back all day to make her look bad#like her fiancé has a job too her family isn’t available and the toddler rn can’t go to daycare because of a bad rash#she gives her all man and yeah she worked the day of that racism claim but so did the person who yelled at a deaf person#while it’s more likely it was the mom coworker I won’t rule out that fact that it could’ve been but she shouldn’t be treated like shit over#taking care of her kids. if there was an investigation and she was racist then she would’ve been terminated (hopefully)#but also just the amount of times I’ve gotten a ‘hey team’ text and dreaded opening it#because he always paints himself as perfect and then doesn’t give us tips to improve#it’s just don’t make this mistake again or you’re fired#and most of the time the mistakes were just that because we were never taught NOT to do that#like stacking certain discounts and taking certain returns etc etc#plus the two managers under the store manager and minus the mom coworker just constantly start drama and lie#it’s so frustrating because I never know if I should trust their word or not#and then they don’t finish their work and claim that it was someone else’s work#so that they can claim they did all their work but the other manager didn’t but then the other one says the SAME THING#I am working with adult children and a shitty elementary teacher#well not anymore because I’m not finishing my two weeks thanks to that manipulative text#idk what you expect when you text your employee saying that actually you’re wrong and I won’t let upper management think you’re right#so tempted to just text back ‘have fun finding people to cover me’#I’m just an associate so like I don’t have to be there#but teehee if you’re gonna be an asshole I will too#I’m mostly just pissed tbh especially after everyone acting like the one manager walked out and quit when she had a mental health problem
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