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The pylidaigh, a type of vampiric snow ghost, as imagined in folklore in and around the Highlands.
This is a ghost believed to come into being when a person dies in the snow and their body is not found before their soul (still trapped without its funeral rites) 'freezes' inside of it. The body then reanimates into a pylidaigh's twisted form. It looks like someone who slowly died of starvation, just a thin layer of flesh over bones. Its skin is as white as the snow itself, so pale it can blend seamlessly into a blizzard. Most of its body appears subtly stretched and lanky, save for its exceptionally unsubtle long, skinny arms, which drag on the ground behind it when it walks. After a big meal of blood, its belly swells like the abdomen of a tick.
A pylidaigh can only tread across snow and ice, and so doorways and windows are best kept clear of snowfall during the winter in order to prevent it from reaching inside. It mostly comes out to hunt during blizzards when there is little that can prevent it from catching its victims.
In spite of its fragile appearance, a pylidaigh is supernaturally strong, and can run at great speeds when it wants to. No mortal weapons can pierce its body, nor can any bonds known to craftsmen hold it in place. It is usually said that chains forged like iron but made out of ice can bind a pylidaigh and render it immobile, but this smithing technique remains tragically elusive to the average joe.
This ghost is either cast as a wildly dangerous but tragic figure, or one that is more simply malicious. In either case, it is described as experiencing nothing but bitter cold. It shivers endlessly. It retains distant memories of what it was to be alive, and it is motivated by a futile desperation to experience the feeling of warmth again.
In more sympathetic framings, it is described as using its freaky gibbon arms to capture its victims and pull them into an embrace, rather innocently trying to warm itself against their body. This inevitably fails, and the embrace becomes a bone crushing squeeze. When that too fails to warm the ghost, it rips out the person's throat and drinks their blood until the victim is as cold and drained as the pylidaigh itself.
In other cases, this more pitiable narrative of a ghost seeking warmth with no comprehension of its actions is discarded in favor of making it purely monstrous. Here it is a type of vampire with an insatiable thirst, practically a physical manifestation of the worst of winter itself. Some tales acknowledge both variants, suggesting a pylidaigh's violent attempts to warm itself may be initially devoid of malice, but turns into an act of furious jealousy of the warmth of the living after years of suffering.
The only (more or less) surefire method to permanently kill a roaming pylidaigh involves trapping it with fire. They are attracted to any source of heat, and will attempt to warm themselves with the flames (if not tempted away by a juicy living human body). The fire itself cannot kill them (as the sheer cold of their body is more powerful even than flame) but they can be trapped if kept near the fire long enough for the snow it depends upon to melt. This does not kill the pylidaigh either. The monster will remain in stuck in place (and potentially become a threat again if it snows more) for the duration of the winter. Only when the spring comes and all the snow melts does it revert into a normal human carcass (though mysteriously invulnerable to decay), at which point it can be cremated.
Pylidaigh in the wilds also revert to a human corpse during the snowless seasons, but will roam again each following winter unless it is burnt in the interim. It is of critical importance that any human corpse found in high mountain pasture is cremated- not only out of respect for the poor soul trapped as an earthbound ghost, but to prevent the threat of the possible dormant pylidaigh emerging next winter.
#Imagine this thing Naruto running towards you at 20 mph#This was loosely inspired by me getting hypothermia once while camping very close to a town but on a mountainside a few#miles above it. Think it would be considered moderate I knew what was happening but was very confused and disoriented#Knowing my body was too fucking cold and my heartbeat was too slow and I couldn't stop shivering#Looking down on the lights below and being like Bro I Have To Get There And Get Warm Or Am Going To DIE#I woke up from sleep while in this state which like. Thank god because otherwise I might have legit died but it felt like I was dreaming.#It was so surreal just like walking then driving towards the lights knowing I NEEDED to get there NEEDED to get warm.#I was able to drive down without getting into an accident and got to a hospital so it ended up okay and my arms didn't strecth#out like a gibbon or anything.#folklore#hill tribes#I've been working on a pylidaigh folktale for a few days but it's taking a while because I keep going back and fourth on whether#I'll write it in character voice or not
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The Bad Kids + Summer drinks
#ill explain the drinks after character tags For anyone who cares#dimension 20#fantasy high#gorgug thistlespring#fabian aramais seacaster#figueroth faeth#kristen applebees#adaine abernant#adaine o'shaughnessey#riz gukgak#btw none of these r alcoholic cuz i love my silly sweet drinks#gorgug has melon soda Cuz i think that’s the best ramune flavor i am not debating Facts#fabian has a blue hawaiin frozen punch Purely for the aesthetics#riz had thai iced coffee because once again it’s the best coffee and I am not arguing facts#also there’s so much trig and astrophysics references on his tattoos because i love math and projecting#speaking of projecting fig has a rooh afza because i love projecting myself in silly ways .. best swana drink To Me#kristen has taro boba because I felt like giving her a protein shake would be Too obvious and taro is So Good#Lasty adaine has a strawberry Italian cuz she deserves a sweet drink#ive worked on this for So long i think u can tell which were the last . im so sorry#going to pass out And never do this again / silly#taya art
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and! barbarian!fig! its her
#fantasy high#dimension 20#figueroth faeth#fh class quangle#if u look at the junior year design and think tifa lockhart: yeag#I already thought the cleric!gorgug junior year design kinda is very aerith so. lol#but! I do feel like these designs maybe portray the clearest arc out of all of them so far. I like that#some of it came from a bit of necessity which is really fun that mirrors the actual play format thats cool#(necessity being freshman year riz is pretty much a huge block of red flannel lmao. kinda stole figs canon color coding for a bit)#(and he's got the owlbear jacket from taping the games in sophomore year... so I cant give fig the big red blocking until#junior year lmao. coincidentally this forced me to be a bit more dynamic with her concept which is great)#her second pair of shoes very sonic tho. I kinda enjoy that lol#tbh I really love that canon gorgug is like in a pair of chucks 24/7 that is SO funny for a barbarian I hope to keep the energy going#with class swap fig I think a barbarian who wears like collector sneakers is awesome. the foot support is so important to their work#the general idea of a hyperfem girlypop barbarian still ticks for me tbh. idk enough abt the zeitgeist to know if thats passé now or not#but doing Fashion on ur job of bodily tearing ur opponent apart with the least flourish possible is just a hit for me#her knee brace is from like an injury back in her cheer days that she got by overexercising in hope of being good enough that#the team couldn't let her go. the team then used that same injury as a pretext to let her go#I think abt her arc tbh... fig's thing in canon junior year abt the point of her rebelling. I feel like a lot of it can also apply to rage#both knocking things over and holding onto things don't like. make anything new. destruction without at least a glimpse of a vision#of the after is ultimately a cynical defeatist point of view... strategic barbarianism for fig babeyy#yay! once again its time for me to Fucking Sleep. but hopefully I can hammer out a proper ref for riz and gorgug both in the#following week inbetween doing my job. its that time of da year lads (<- fully seasonal worker)
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sss day my favorite national holiday WOOOOHHHH
bonus
#pokemon#trainer lyra#rival silver#soulsilvershipping#timeskip tag#bao beis#i had so much more planned. but alas. college.#ANYWAY. sss my everything. ohh. always thinking abt them.#this is very obviously lyra's room! all the pink! massive bed to fit all her pokemon! the champion paycheck gets you that much at least#and plants!!! no. 1 horticulturist in johto#she's living somewhere around the base of mt silver... decently close to the league and her hometown#so i like to imagine her with a huge greenhouse so she can take care of plants even in the harsher climate#meanwhile silver has one of those decrepit malelivingspace flats in viridian. he's making it work.#i can only see sss properly moving in together liiiike in their late 20s#after they get to enjoy young adult independence for a while#but before they permanently settle down they should go on silly adventures again... just once. or twice. or#as much as i like to entertain the thought of them being homebodies i think they'd rather spend their lives travelling haha#since silver never got to fully experience it as a kid on the run#being a wanted man and all#and lyra is itching for the getaway#they deserve to be in nature and responsibility-free and *frothing at the mouth*#BTW i put my whole wyvussy into that wall decor#lisia signed poster... rosa's resemblance as mei(!!!) in the totoro one... bell tower + whirl island pics //#pokemon constellations... and those gen 4 mail templates that no one actually used. probably from dawn. champion penpals :]#i debated doing a lance poster because celebrity idol funny but nah she'd bin that immediately after moving out#oh yeah the drawover was um. inspired by the nonebinary neochamp fit. so happy for my son.#i'm glad i managed to finish the big piece in time otherwise i would've just posted that LOL can you imagine#okey bye happy sss day
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so i finally cleared prometheus on 32!
(and now i can get round to testing out the other weapons bc i unlocked eos' torches and then never looked back)
#chronos was fucking easy to clear did that months ago#but god did it take me forever to work my way through the surface#kept at it though bc back in the original hades early access i cleared on 8 and 16 (or what became 8 and 16 anyway)#(the heat totals used to be higher bc it used to max out at 140 - i wanna say it was like 20/60/120 or something like that?)#but regardless i managed the first two tiers when lernie was the final boss#but never managed much higher before the full game came out#and even once that happened i think my record is 27#and im continually mildly irritated i didn't get that last statue when getting that last statue was objectively easier#so this time i was not waiting around! i dunno when the next major update is coming out but i know it's soon#and fuck doing that boss (probably atlas) on 32 goddamn fear#(god bless the chronic illness kicking my ass this year? have an art piece i've been working on literally since the game came out)#(really excited to finish it)#(but it has been much easier lately to play hades in bed than to draw hades stuff which requires my desk)#hades 2#hades sgg#supergiant games#melinoe
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challenging myself by engaging in the ancient art known as "dynamic poses", but making it harder on myself by ignoring the noble practice of "using references"
featuring belvedere and florawell
#my art#oc#florawell#belvedere#goblin#dragon#i prefer the wips i posted to my sketch blog tbh they look better than the finished thing. but nevertheless.#i also accidentally gave belvedere furry hands this time instead of his usual bald goblin hands#i think it makes him look sleeker but i prefer his ratty hands. we live and learn#fun fact i have around 20 ongoing projects which i have been workin on simultaneously which has resulted in me not getting much done#but now they're all nearing completion at once so you'll see a bunch of art from me soon maybe#when i open comms (VERY SOON.....big things coming....) i'm considering tacking on an extra option for sketches like these#cause i can do them for relatively cheap without spending hours working for peanuts#anyway. i'm seeing a horror movie yet again tonight. immaculate was surprisingly good so let's see if this one is good
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They’re holding hands :)
#idk how I managed to position them so perfectly#but now I don’t think I can ever move them again ever#legends of avantris#once upon a witchlight#ouaw#torbek#morning frost#frostbek#I’ve been cuddling the two of them all day#because I feel like shit and they make me feel better#I mean I have other plushies that are significantly better to cuddle with#both in size and squishability#but also#these are my emotional support gay furries with separation anxiety#and they make me feel better#also unrelated but i recently counted the amount of plushies I have in my room#and I have about 20 in my room that I know about#which honestly might speak volumes about my childhood#since the oldest one here was from when I was about 14/15#and the rest I got once I started working when I was 17 and older
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Thanks for the tag! This is going to be interesting! Anything in brackets is extra info I think is interesting. No promises all these are going to see the light of day, but that is how the cookie crumbles. My unused WIP pile haunts me:
Down The Mountain, Under The Door chapter 2 (this one’s already at 1.6k and at the rate it’s going, this fic may be a bit longer than the 4 chapter I have planned)
Recovery Is A Long Road
Prey To The Gods
Catching Them In 4K (this one’s based on an old concept of mine from 2016-17 that never saw the light of day)
A Bit(e) To Eat-Early Days
A Bit(e) To Eat-Later Days
Little Ember
Second part of Traumatising Someone is the first step to friendship
Set in YCRBYCH
To The Other Side chapter 3
After Image (this one was meant to be a fic released for April Fools)
Saved for when I figure out which story I want to rewrite and come back to. (this one does actually have an idea for it, taken from something I wrote in 2016~, I just never got around to renaming it. Extra fun fact: this was meant to be the first UT g/t fic I posted to celebrate me getting back into the fandom)
A lot of my fics only get titles just before I post them, so these are just the g/t ones I named because summarising what goes on in some of them is difficult. Feel free to guess at the plots of each fic, although I’ll give a hint- none of them are vore, despite the titles.
wip title tag game
RULES: Make a new post with the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it!
Delicate
TBD
How helpful is f/o in the kitchen
Pairing: Buuhan x Reader
Untitled - “The people say you are cruel and you do nothing to change their minds. You…give them a reason to speak of you unfavorably.”
In Another Lifetime II - Shige
Untitled - There was an envy of you among the other parents in the school district.
Untitled - “Hello again. Sweetie.”
My Future is With you
Saiyans going to Black y/n's family cookout
CHAPT 2. CORRUPT
Thigh Sex. - Shinjuro Rengoku
Sex Pollen. - Xeno Trunks
Swan Song
Radship week
Over a beer bottle
Untitled - "I don't get it. I did everything right, I got you to love me. Y-You love me."
In Another Lifetime II - Paras
Taint and Ravage
Neither Goku, Nor Vegeta II
I wanna feel you in my bones.
Spoils of War
no-pressure tags: @dreadsuitsamus @yeowangies @actuallysaiyan @beneathstarryskies @vegeta-bananabluish @emmacornell @loki-love @vampcubus and anyone other writers interested in participating! ♥
#ask game#g/t#atlas speaks#I work on like 20 at once#until I get hyper fixated#at which point you get what happened with DTMUTD
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day before a 5 day holiday weekend. office empty. got me thinking thoughts.
#thinking about raupi kaur hollie mcnish and the movment of populist poetry#how all media is populist right now and it’s no surprise its happening in a time of economic uncertainty AND a devaluation of art in society#not to mention a rise in anti intellectualism#thinking about how fanfiction is no longer a practice for writing but more an opportunity to get likes and reblogs#every day I see posts about how authors feel pressured to write for a specific character because all others are ignored#to you I say the mass market appeal is NOT worth you writing something you don’t care about#your audience of 20 will be more endeared to you BECAUSE you are feeding their niche#thinking about the inherent dichotomy between art and money because once you create for the common denominator you lose something#look at marvel movies - hell the state of movies in general: ZERO intellectual curiosity#everything is made to be consumed by the most amount of people#and it SUCKS ITS FUCKING GARBAGE#art should comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable#if everyone finds your work palatable then it’s not art it’s content to consume#RANT OVER#… or for the next 20 minutes until I get another thing to Think About
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While communing with Ankarna, Fig learns of the war dances that her worshipers used to do, ones performed with glorious, flaming blades, that now only she remembers the moves to.
Almost immediately after, Fabian gets ambushed and Plane Shifted to Cassandra and Ankarna's marital domain so that he can learn and perform them for the first time in centuries. They're full of large, flowy movements, precise, intricate swordwork, and lots of jumps and flips, all of which are Fabian’s specialty.
Along the way, Fabian ends up having to summon his Fire Elemental to keep his blade burning quite often. And to his surprise, Ankarna is just absolutely delighted by it. Recounting that the braziers that it’d been summoned from had probably once had her symbol etched into them. Long faded now, she's sure, but still. She's glad it's power had been protecting the mortals that had saved her. She even goes as far as to give the Fire Elemental a little divine power boost, granting Fabian the ability to cast Searing Smite.
Fabian performing the war dances obviously goes viral on Kristen's socials but so does a video of him unknowingly casting Lay On Hands first time mid-battle as a first level Paladin of Ankarna. Just like his step-sis!
#I saw someone once say that Fabian’s build would’ve also worked as a Paladin multiclass#And i mean... Ankarna is RIGHT THERE! He admits he goes into something like Fig's german shepherd mode#dimension 20#fantasy high#fabian seacaster#fantasy high junior year#ankarna#fabian aramais seacaster
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Rewatching act 2.... yeah ISHA WATCH OUT FOR THE CYCLE ISHA!!!!! NOOOOO
#ambessa setting up the logs on a fireplace while literally adding fuel to the fire with cailtyn... subtelty#silco spent his whole life trying to rile the undercity together STUPID JOKE THAT IT IS you have the chance to pull it off#isha is the true revolutionary after all... jinx get up to her level#was jinx scared of having hallucinations when the girl she released was gonna touch her shoulder??? and then she didn't#what i find really funny is that warwick knows how to use elevators and that funicular to the prison#also there is a lot of blood when he appears in the prison.... it was surprising#vander recognizing jinx with the name of powder after she complained about it eariler its just crazy crazy crazy#people commenting that its unrealistic how caitlyn bests vi when they meet in episode 6 as if there wasn't a montage about how she lost her#edge because of alcohol and living like shit.... she's not like jinx lmao....#rewatching so recently is so weird i imagine it is as close as being dr manhattan as i can get it is literally happening all at once#also the people of piltover are so dumb... lets let the government implement martial law and put this 20 something with 0 political#experience on charge with the army of this outsider agent. alright. i can tell you guys dont vote in this oligarchy you know fuck all#well i guess in that case it isnt the people of piltovers fault... just the important families that contribute in this oligarchy...#putting count fagula in charge.... salo is speciallt dumb but we all knew that#katie leung needs awards btw.... and interviews#“do not test this or you will yearn for caitlyn's dungeons” be careful singed my friend vi fell for that and look at her... her dungeons...#vander reaching for isha not jinx.... OR VI.... she just stopped him#“hes gonna kill you” and vi fighting vander to protect jinx.... yeah#and then she trusts jinx and the beast turns into vander... he serves as a recognizing tool for their true selves...#their mom being so worried about how to name vi and then names the second one POWDER kahdksjsk never not funny... also the barber of zaun#when vi joins with jayce she unlocks this loser flop aspect of her mother's inheritance.... two losers joining to maximize their joint flop#also vander kinda giving up this promise to protect the girls instead of bettering zaun... how it puts him in a standstill bc it's either or#like damn there is nothing as undoing as a daughter for reals. she didnt experience that bc she died so now vander has to and here we are#episide 6 starts with the end of the episode when viktor drops that metal piece..... hello..... is this anything#“do you think this place could work” underground utopia.... DYNASTIES AND DYSTOPIA FEAR IS NEVER AN OPTION SO DYING'S NOT A REAL PROBLEM#didnt ambessa suspect anything when they spent loke a full minite staring at each other 😭😭 she's lost her edge...#just like when she clocked sevika but not jinx... when there's a strong butch in the area her radar gets jammed up#and caitlyn leaving her weapon behind... ambessa thought she was gonna fistfight warwick or something#the metal thing falling when viktor dies repeats THREE TIMES WHAT DOES THAT MEAN#watching arcane season 2
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#kirby#daily kirby#my art#digital#hal laboratory#nintendo#I've been picking away at kh:3d for a while#I watched all the cutscenes before years ago but I'd never played it before I started last year#I got to the xehanort fights right before my wife got home from work#so after she and our partner went to bed I was like 'oh I'm close to the end of the game I'll just finish it out'#reader it took me 3 hours lmao#it's only like a 20 hour game#(I only died once or twice so that was not why it took so long)#(I was playing on beginner mode because playing kh1 on normal made me want to cry so I don't bother)#(the challenge is not the fun part for me in this series.)#I really like kingdom hearts :) I love earnestness.
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Today I got to have an entire 3 message long dm convo with Alex Hirsch. I am never getting over this high.
#Alex Hirsch#this is the greatest day of my life#I even managed to show total decorum#didn't even use any words like decorum#I wanted to. but I didn't.#didn't even use the word macabre. wanted to do that too. I used normal words that normal humans use#as to not sound like a complete and total tool#hopefully ahfkajgkkak#I restrained myself to only saying 3 messages bc any more than that and I'd have to publically execute myself for overstepping boundaries#and I didn't even use any key smashes! and only One socially acceptable emoji.#I can't stop myself from using emojis entirely. those are a disability accomodation at this point ahfkjskgjskgjak#hey are these normal things to think#I think so#I got his twitter message directly at the start of my train ride and I've been processing my emotions for the rest of the trip#I keep nearly flagging down the train attendants to be like 'hiiii can I tell you about the good news :) not in a jesus way I promise'#but once again: restraint 🙏#you're WELCOME train attendants#it was so funny though Alex was like 'lemme know what you want to have grunkle stan say!'#and even when given permission to talk I was like damn he's going to kill me if I send a message#but I sent it#and he was very very nice#and will be sending me the grunkle stan recording tomorrow (✷‿✷)#work is going to be physically impossible tomorrow#sorry customers please pardon me while I run to the produce cooler and scream at the top of my lungs for 20-30 minutes#fluffle talks#what's the opposite of emotional devastation. bc I'm that right now.
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#one piece#sanji#black leg sanji#everysanji#punk hazard#ch659#so i've been. obsessed. with mahoyaku recently.#literally taking a break from reading it rn to work on my queue here bc i want to keep it up#but its soooooo...#you should read it if you like gay wizards#its a fantasy isekai the player is a sage that oversees a group of 21 wizards#(well. 20. one is a ghost hanging onto life. it makes sense i prommy)#who are there to Fight The Moon once a year and keep it from destroying the world#and the last fight with the moon was really bad it killed literally half of the sage's wizards#so the player. the new sage. decides to try something new and bring the wizards to live in the sage's magic house.#well its not their house its got a name but u get it#and its basically trying to make the wizards get along and not kill each other so that they can work together#to not have such a disastrous fight with the moon#if you like sanji i think you might like nero one of the eastern wizards.#and bradley too. bradnero...#okay anyway back to filling my queue but read mahoyaku okay
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it's not sinking in that today might be the last day in my house and town for many months to come
#like how do i even feel#on one hand im excited because like now that i finally agreed to dads stupid whims he technically will have to give in to things#ive been wanting since FOREVER like going to the gym#plus it's impossible to eat junk food when he's there he won't even let me kacchi maggi because maida hai bimar ho jayegi#and aadhe se zyada din toh pyaaz ye sab nahi kha sakte so it rules out any outside food#which is so good because like i just found out im pre diabetic lol#like borderline sugar like ab kuch nahi kiya toh seedha type 2 diabetes#so i need to eat healthy or ill literally die#i mean eventually but whatever being diagnosed with this in my 20s would kill me#also simply the fear of living with him is so much that i HAVE to study#and i want to now it's high time#but yeah want doesn't really work for me#i read a quote somewhere that 'goals' don't mean anything because winners and losers have the same goals#and i was like WOAH. like the person who gets an all india rank had the same goal as me: to pass the exam with good marks#but they succeeded and i didn't so it's isn't our goals that differentiate us#which ik is obvious but like still idk put things in perspective#anyway yeah that way my life MIGHT be fixed#but there's also living ALONE with my sociopathic FATHER who has more mood swings than me on pms#and being cut off frm the rest of civilisation and yk developed roads and buildings and ice cream shops#i guess it is mostly food ig :( which is good like the most junk food i can eat there is a burger from a nearby stall and that's pretty#much it they literally do not even have havmor or anything in walking distance forget scoop wali ice cream#but i like my bed and i like my ceiling with the stars and i like looking out of my window and knowing that the first ever crush of my life#lives right next to me and i like knowing that ill meet my bestfriend atleast once a month#i don't really love my mom or my brother tbh but idk maybe ill miss them it's weird ive never lived without them#i don't know i really hope that this is like a boot camp kota types experience rather than so much isolation that i sink deep into#depression. but then ive hit pretty shocking lows this year so hopefully i can handle it#my sister did say that when she lived alone with him for a month it was quite peaceful and okay because he usually gets more angry when mom#is around warna mostly he's fine#i don't know i don't know bhagwan ji please ab aur mushkil mat banana life bohot jhatke de chuke ho already ab pls#mujhe apni galtiyo ko sudharne ka mauka dena 🙏
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I sent an email to the admissions dept for the school with the radiography program I'm interested in (despite it maybe not being feasible for me as the most competitive program in the state outside of MD programs) and they replied sooner than I expected to set up a call talking abt transcripts and I am so crazy nervous
#oughh bro i have to send over my lackluster transcripts with a whole lot of Ws and Cs and an F#and go like okay so i know it LOOKS bad but... hear me out.....#i know the worst that could happen is the guy tells me theres just no way im getting in without an associates first#which sucks because i already have a bachelors i dont wanna have to redo gen eds ffs#they only admit like 20 people into this program a year so i feel like i cant mess up talking to the transfer admissions guy#he might actually remember 😵💫 even if my embarrassing transcripts wont be memorable enough#like i did end with a 3.5 gpa but also i was in school for like 8 years and i did exceptionally bad#for a variety of reasons including but not limited to: family deaths. (toxic family stuff). poverty. coming out. twice.#my grades shot up once i was eligible financial aid finally and not paying out of pocket while working 1-2 jobs#it still looks terrible#idk how to have the confidence of the average cis white man who walks in with a 2.1 gpa to an interview for med school#personal stuff#im so nervous#like#if this maybe works out and things maybe go to plan i might have like. an actual career? that i enjoy? that feels fulfilling?#a career that can actually go places? so many modalities to choose from. i can help people. and i can go home at the end of my day#and make art and not think about whether what im making is furthering my career or not#also xrays and radiology are just. soooo cool. i love bones. and organs. i looove getting imaging done at my appts because then i get#to ask them questions about what theyre doing n how it works.#i wish id felt more confident when i was younger that maybe i could succeed in sciences
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