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Baptists and their goddamn food fixation can rot I have to go out and eat with random women cause a bunch of men were out having steak dinner or some shit
#I haven’t been able to go to church as if I wanted to#there’s no men in my family who attends that church#my dad and grandpa are dead there’s no reason to invite my mom grandma and me#I think it’s cause we didn’t go to#a chili cook off thing or a valentines date thing#so we got invited to a ladies dinner thing just to annoy me and my migraine shit#I haven’t gone to church the optics of the fat dyke only goes to food things is bad#I also loathe the oh have you tried xyz on your migraines?#I HAVE#I have tried a lot of things
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hate to say it, but part of ending the stigma around sexual assault means not assuming every woman blames herself. yes, female socialization encourages it, but that doesn’t make it a given, and the goal of all of these campaigns is to eventually diminish the proportion of women who do blame themselves. it is entirely possible, and increasingly common, for women to experience sexual assault and not feel shame or guilt, which we should be happy about. but instead, there are only so many times you can hear “you know it’s not your fault, right?” before it sounds like “it was your fault”. and there’s only so many times you can hear “don’t blame yourself” before it sounds like “you should blame yourself”. because it feels good to say, doesn’t it? sure, you don’t believe she’s guilty, but you do believe she should feel guilty, so that you can disabuse her of the notion. just something to consider.
#i think we are very pleased with the idea of female shame#even among people who genuinely do not believe women are at fault for being assaulted#you are still meant to pay the penance of suffering and self destruction#god fucking knows why#“i got mugged” “aww don’t blame yourself for walking around with those fancy shoes and visible wallet okay? it’s not your fault”#you’d be like girl what. i didn’t fucking say it was my fault but your mind sure jumped there fast 🤨#“my mom died” “wow. do you feel terrible crippling shame for everything you’ve ever done wrong in your life?#up to and including causing your mom’s death? because that would be totally wrong if you did”#like how could that possibly be an appropriate response#genuinely i think the feeling that i was going completely insane post-being raped because no one would believe i didn’t blame myself#was like. solidly half as traumatic as the actual event#like. it is okay not to feel guilty and shameful. it’s great actually. you’re not having the wrong response.
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Its really interesting that Jimmy’s chair is the one tilted away from the screen in this shot:
It’s indicative of how his and Jimmy’s dynamic was. He’s not staring ahead at the screen, he’s not paying attention to what they are doing. Curly is the only one looking forward. Jimmy quite literally couldn’t see the responsibility Curly had or was doing. Jimmy likely slacked off and avoided most of his duties. I mean the one time we know he pilots the Tulpar he steers it wrong and loses the team 4000 credits. Even in the positions they held objectively, Curly was always taking responsibility for Jimmy. Not to mention the “We can fix this” and only one chair at attention. Jimmy never had intentions to fix anything, throughout the game, throughout his entire relationship with Curly. Curly always fixed it? Why would it be any different here?
If he even took the slightest bit of responsibility, he would’ve stayed in the cockpit to see his plan through. In the end Curly did what Jimmy always expected him to do for him and took responsibility. Did what he always did and took responsibility at the wrong time…
#cross posted on twitter#I like think it’s insane how subtle some shots are but yeah#like he doesn’t even take the captains seat to try and crash the ship#the one time he took quote responsibility unquote he still did it from the inattentive side#and then ran from what he did and literally shielded himself from the consequences like closed the door and all like it’d be done quick#even if Curly didn’t run in we know it would’ve failed and everyone would’ve known#also I saw someone say that Jimmy assaulted Anya because he was trying to put a black mark on Curly’s record as captain#and I just can’t believe that because he didn’t want to be found out about it#like think about he can’t take responsibility and tries to avoid punishment you really think his ego would allow him to risk#his image and reputation just to get to Curly? he wants to drag curly down by using him as a ring on the ladder but why would he weaken it#first? he only has the job because of him and he’d know that like Jimmy is brash and done but his hateful acts are calculated in a way to#get to others and not back to him#I mean he crashes the ship cause this would go on his permanent record and it’s likely that Jimmy had never got caught for an offense this#socially or legally damning and that’s another reason he panicked so bad he’s clearly escalorty#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#jimmy mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing
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hi.
#i know most of you didn’t even realize i was gone#but man…#my mental health was like in a state of 📉📉📉 in the past 30 days like we love being mentally ill and fucking insane <3#it was mostly bc i panicked and started obsessing over possible water damage in my flat kind of out of nowhere#like it started when my landlord came to check my bathroom bc my downstairs neighbours had water stains on their ceiling back in july#which had been caused by their shower curtain apparently but i was already spiraling when my landlord told me so i was sure it was my fault#i was assuming it was bc of me bc i had sometimes been spilling some of my bathwater and i was like WHAT IF IT HAS GONE THROUGH THE FLOOR?#and it didn't help that it has been hot af and very humid in my apartment LIKE WELL OVER 25 DEGREES AND 60% HUMIDITY#anyways i couldn’t shake this not matter what i tried and my fucking insane brain made me think i was going to get arrested for like#flooding the whole building or for causing some sort of mold infestation#i had SO MANY panic attacks; i wasn't able to sleep; i wasn't able to eat; i was on edge and panicky basically 24/7 so fun fun fun :D#and i kept waking up in the middle of the night and HAD to go check my walls or the space below my kitchen#it was compulsory like i couldn't not get up and go check and tbh i would've thrown out all of my furniture if i could've to check for mold#(and shhhh i know how fucking insane this sounds but having a mentally ill brain that's anxious all the time does suck ass sometimes 🥲)#(the worst thing about it tho was that i was SO AWARE of how insane about this i was being and yet i couldn't stop losing my mind over it)#(also i was so ready to move tf outta here bc i couldn't handle being triggered 24/7 which is why my mom let me stay with her last week )#i was so out of it that i couldn't even let myself do the things i usually enjoy... like at all#like watching my shows or spending any ungodly amount of time on tumblr... or replying to messages i got from people who i love#ig this goes to show HOW bad this actually was for me mentally bc usually tumblr and my shows are like my safe place#anyways we finally had a leak detection dude come over today and we had him check the water levels in my walls#and he said everything is fine and he specifically told me i should stop worrying about any water damage BC THERE IS NO WATER DAMAGE#he also said that the weather has just been insanely humid this year so it's not surprising that the humidity levels are higher than usual#i’m still a bit scared about some possible mold but ig this is good enough for now#i am aware how ridiculous this must sound for anyone who's reading this now but couldn't let it go not even with meds so let me live pls :(#TLDR I WAS GOING THROUGH IT BUT I AM BACK I THINK AND I AM MOST LIKELY GOING TO START BOTHERING YOU WITH MY GIFS AGAIN <3#AND I JUST REALIZED I HAVEN'T EVEN SEEN ANY OF THE HEART KILLERS STUFF YET ASIDE FROM ONE OR TWO PICS LIKE :(#OH AND I NEED TO START WATCHING SUMMER NIGHT ;_;#sabrina talks#@AIRENYAH GIRL I AM SO SORRY I WILL PROBABLY REPLY TO YOUR MESSAGES LATER TODAY OR TOMORROW MORNING ;_;<3
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i got reminded of the scene in post-stormblood with varis and the alliance and it reminds me of this comic every time i think about it
#ffxiv#aymeric de borel#varis zos galvus#like we been knew varis is a fascist#but every time i think of “you speak of peace yet you use war to achieve it” i think of this fucking comic#bc the way the argument is presented is exactly that#ffxiv memes#stormblood#ffxiv shitposting#its so funny too bc w aymeric there wasn’t much of an argument varis could use other than the war#you know#the war that he helped end#and didn’t cause in the first place#so all varis had was ‘well your dad was cooler so’#and that was enough to shut him up#when it doubt go for the throat
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life is short post willace were-rabbit angst on main
#FOUR POSTS IN ONE DAY i was so scared i would forget to post some art if i didn’t do it Now#ANYWAY. let me explain this comic#first off i hc wallace still transforms every full moon bc he deserves it. as a treat#and he just has a big ankle chain in his basement lol so he doesn’t go on a rampage and cause a ruckus#and they think willard oughta know about this sooner or later so gromit takes him down to meet were-wallace on a full moon#and willard just gets overwhelmed. it’s a lot to process and the newness of the situation makes him extremely anxious so he freaks out#he feels bad about it the next day bc ultimately he doesn’t give af if his bf transforms into a giant rabbit monster on the regular#but it was just a LOT to process at once and i think wallace would understand sndfwuhilvwirughth#WHATEVER MAN I JUST THINK THEYRE NEAT#apple pie with cheese#no id#giddly’s art#chicken run#wallace & gromit#willard tweedy#cotwr#were-wallace#between me and pant-eater we have drawn so many comics where willard ugly cries HSJSHDBSJSJ#what can i say. i love me a sopping wet paper bag of a man 🫡
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I think some people are forgetting that I’m not an adult
So, reminder that I’m 17 and I’m fine with suggestive stuff and I won’t judge for nsfw stuff but please don’t leave that stuff on my posts
I’ve had one too many blatantly sexual comments and asks and it’s starting to make me a bit uncomfortable, please stop
Even if I was an adult it’s still weird to do that without knowing if I’m comfortable with it or not
#hexcii says stuff#specifically this is about my fae au#cause that’s where I get the most of this#yeah yeah I get it we all down bad for the jesters#but please#didn’t think this had to be said#also for the record if you find anyone doing this don’t send them hate that’s not going to fix things#don’t know if I need to say that but the internet is wild man
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Hard thing to come to terms with is that most of the irreparable damage dealt to you isn’t gonna be done by evil people hellbent on torturing you. It’s gonna be done thoughtlessly by people who don’t know better, or weren’t thinking much of you at all, or just briefly forgot that you are a human being.
#it sucks. cause you want your suffering to mean as much to the cause as it does to you.#and it helps your narrative human brain to have a villain to funnel your rage towards#but thats hardly ever how this shit works.#and if it does then the blow hits different. ppl who hurt u with intent approach u like a person & its the dehumanizing that hurts the most#most of my bad experiences were done by people who were hurting or simply not thinking treating me like a means to an end or a punching bag#the worst thing thats ever happened to me was done by a complete stranger who didn’t Care.#we dont wanna admit Carelessness’ capacity for heartbreak cause all of us are careless. we’re Good People who never set out to hurt someone#but sometimes its enough to just. not recognize someone. be absent minded at the wrong time. get overwhelmed and lash out.#then BOOM. irreversible damage to the Eternally Unpredictable Other’s psyche. total accident.#most ‘villains’ absent-mindedly stumble into the role by total accident. this consciousness shit sucks i wanna go back to monkeytown.#rose ramblings
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you canNOT make this shit up what the fuck what the fuck why are they LIKE THIS. i literally spammed my priv insta cf story about this last night ugh they’re so in love it hurts im even more terrified for them.
#tetro danganronpa pink#tetro pink#tetro danganronpa#didn’t mark this for spoilers cause i don’t think it really counts?#best way to get people invested in something new is throwing gay people at them#it worked on me#sigh#what are we going to do with you guys#kamimura kazutoshi#hasegawa ken#hasegawa/kamimura#omg do people write shit for them on ao3#local lesbian drops a fic on someone’s ocs instead of finishing chapters of their ongoing akikasa fics#idk maybe we’ll see
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People jumping ship cause of the new masks is very ahhhh. Telling. Tbh.
#very much so#tell me you where only here cause of the looks without telling me your only here cause of the looks#listen. I miss the old masks already too. that’s not the point.#you can mourn for something without that taking away your joy for it.#‘it’s all moving so fast’ iii has been turning red since July.#‘they’re evolving too fast’ or we just got here later then others.#‘I can’t even listen anymore’ sucks to be you. the music that has been put out hasn’t changed so I don’t understand this one#‘they’re gonna get cancelled over this’ ok. I guess this is just thinning out the people who were real fans and who where fake fans#I’m gonna be a sleep token fan til the end. if this is the way they want their image to go? I’ll follow. if we get heavier music next?#sounds fucking amazing to me. (I listen to heavier stuff anyway).#idk I just think it’s so so so fucking telling. that if your jumping ship cause their Live Performance Aesthetic has changed… you didn’t#mean it when you said sleep token was important to you.#like I’m 100% MOURNING the old masks. I am BMO with Finn’s old hair sobbing about the old masks.#but I know this too shall pass#this is how I fucking felt about Vessel’s mask change#and to everyone going ‘what about Vessel and the Chior!’#1). VESSEL HAD A MASK CHANGE EARLIER THIS YEAR!!! he isn’t gonna change masks again so fast those fuckers r expensive!#2). the choir did have a change?? they wherent wearing robes at all and where in body chains they looked amazing#I get we are all neurodiverse and hate change but take a deep breath before you renounce all your sleep token love#I’m guessing Vessel will get a new mask in April again. for the kick off show.#tonight was a closing show. and he didn’t FEEL GOOD. I wouldn’t be surprised that if he was gonna do something with a new mask#if he pushed it back because he didn’t feel good.#he performed a whole show while we could TELL his throat was hurting. fuck.#I want to wrap him up in a warm hug and give him hot water with honey in it.#idk I’m rambling. it’s just telling.
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so apparently radahn has to be dead before you can access the dlc. wow i wonder why that is /s
#could this be vindication after all these years#you mean to tell me malenia didn’t go to caelid to fight big chungus cause she’s a petty bitch? you mean there was an actual reason#have the redditors been wrong this whole time#you mean both r and m are much deeper complex characters than what the majority of the fan base makes them out to be ??#you mean they haven’t been these shallow one dimensional characters this whole time#alpha giga male vs virgin bitch female isn’t canon???#i should stop i’m probably jumping the gun here#we still don’t know exactly what will happen#but i just think it’s funny that the stars have to be moving again in order to access the dlc#almost as if that was malenia’s goal all a long#miss blade of miquella the woman that you are#elden ring
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Curly not immediately punishing Jimmy for assaulting Anya is something I don’t think a lot of people are viewing in the complex context for Curly as the superior to both of them and closest confidante they had.
Like I am in no way saying he didn’t under react or fail Anya by not being harsh or direct with Jimmy but it really is the case that he really couldn’t. Imagine being stuck in such a confined space with very little areas to genuinely hold someone if they commit a crime. It’s not like this was an event that occurred before they departed or that they have easy communication with The Pony Express to ask for how to proceed when something like this arises. Not to mention, Jimmy’s relative power in relation to Anya as the co-pilot and second in command, he has the knowledge and access to do something to her had Curly directly punished him in this setting.
They were also Curly’s friends. It’s not just the case of him mediating something between his subordinates but people he is personally invested in don’t want to see spiral further in Anya’s case while also not wanting believe his friend go that bad in Jimmy’s actions. They were both suicidal and Curly putting Jimmy’s stability first is both out of bias but also the fact he’s aware at some level Jimmy is a danger to himself and others if not constantly placated. Combined with the fact he was in denial or just not piecing together what Anya said it’s hard to say what he buying time for and what he had treat as urgent. This isn’t even saying he doesn’t care about Anya but he’s not going jump to the worst conclusions about his friends even if part of him acknowledges the evidence saying so. It’s a complicated thing but he’s still human and needed to process it on top of trying to keep a ship that already took on a lot of water from further sinking, metaphorically.
I just personally think that while Curly failed Anya, it was a scenario where there wasn’t much he could do to the best thing by her safely and like Jimmy, we are underestimating what a good leader would do in a very fragile and tense situation like he was in. By the time he may have been ready and had a plan, things were much too late.
#like in my one Anya still respected Curly after he didn’t punish Jimmy so I assume he still respected her or reassured her he’d do something#it just was never enough because sadly Jimmy just needed to be removed from the ship and that’s not possible#cause no matter what Jimmy was going to do something stupid to fix it and Curly had to be thinking of a way to avoid that but also trying to#play the subjective role of friend and objective role of captain with two of the people he is currently closest with#not to mention how he’s a big picture guy and it’s not an excuse but those little detail and subtle behaviors are probably lost if the big#picture looks fine still and he admits he’d drive himself crazy trying to look for it#like weirdly Curlys character is only seen through the people he tried to protect and we judge him on his failures but we don’t get too much#on his insights directly as Jimmy is unreliable and he tries hard to be gentle with Anya#personal note is I don’t think Curly underplaying Anya’s trauma is a guy code protecting my bud thing but more a flaw in his personal#character in where he just wants everything and everyone to be ok in the end and taking responsibility that isn’t his to bare like he can’t#make up for what Jimmy did but he tried and that’s the problem really cause he’s just used to actually fixing it for him and it’s the case#this is the one thing he really couldn’t like I think he’s a good guy but he’s trapped in his and a bunch of other peoples worse moments#anya mouthwashing#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#mouthwashing curly#curly mouthwashing#mouthwashing anya#jimmy mouthwashing#captain curly#nurse Anya#mouthwashing spoilers#rape tw#suicide tw#also last thought is how he like also was being emotionally drained by Jimmy constantly like Anya and his relationship with Jimmy parallel#each other in such a way that both him and Anya warily follow the words of the others abuser because they fear the physical or emotional#repercussions if they don’t like her not being able to really tell curly what happened and then curly not being able to do the same and how#jimmy assaults and dehumanizes both when they are no longer a service to him like god they are more adjacent than Jimmy and Curly like Curly#messed up in a already messy pile Jimmy mad it into a dumpster fire in a landfill they are not the same
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you have no fucking idea what i went through (was a one direction fan on march 25 2015)
#i could talk about that day for hours. i genuinely had to sit down cause i got dizzy. whenever i think of that day i do not see it in color#it’s just grey. i didn’t go to school on the next day and my classmates lowkey thought i had killed myself.#still can’t believe we got dumped via FACEBOOK!#*
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Crystal Winter has a really pretty colour palette, I think it’s neat they leaned more into purples rather then blues for the ice character
#say what you will about Epic Winter as a special but Crystal’s cool looking#personally I think the special was fine but it should have happened earlier in the timeline#maybe after way to wonderland but before dragon games#cause then Apple going from ‘we don’t need destiny’ in wonderland to ‘actually I do in fact want my destiny again’ in dragon games#wouldn’t have been such an abrupt change#But how would the daring stuff work you might ask#well tbh I’d cut that lol rosabella didn’t get any time to be a character and I prefer daring and Lizzie lol#ever after high#eah#epic winter#crystal winter#eah Crystal#ever after high art
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Went to Michaels again, you know we had to do it to em
#michaels#cotl#lambert….#i had to make sure that they didn’t just leave the word CULT there and some random mom or someone thinks we’re actually promoting a cult#because… we like being in michaels…#and we dont wanna be banned or some shit#from silly cult game mention#lambert posts#mel talks#cult of the lamb alters#Narinder straight up fucking hated Michaels#but he’s getting used to shit so it’s to be expected ig#he hates extreme colors for some reason#complains about it burning his eyes#this reminds me that i have to post that uhh alter thing so everyone that actually reads these knows who we are and shit#because NO ONE knows who i am#I am Mel#…Im not even gonna try and… talk the rest of this shit out#im prolly gonna post it tonight or tomorrow too#cause I think I have to update it to explain Nari probably..#since Lambert will keep this guy in front with everyone else#and maybe one day—Narinder will (unlikely) post something himself on here!#won’t that be fun!#sweating…#ok i gotta go#cult of the lamb lambert#lamb cult of the lamb#cult of the lamb#doodles#doodlings
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I want to preface this post by saying that I love the cat king as a character, especially one that has such a major impact on Edwin and his relationship with his queerness and learning to be okay with it; HOWEVER, I also believe that everyone that genuinely believes he should be a love interest for Edwin should read this. (Also if you just like the cat king as a character and want to understand his character better and why his and Edwin’s relationship is not something that would be healthy or “real” for either)
#dead boy detectives#edwin payne#the cat king#i do not ship them but I don’t want to hate on those who do (mostly) I just want to kind of inform people of the creators meaning for their#Relationship because I keep seeing people saying they hope they get together in s2 and it’s really confusing to me#Their relationship stems from the cat kings own narcissism and predatory behavior and Edwin’s need for someone to push him into under#Standing that his queerness doesn’t have to be torture and can be something giddy#even if he doesn’t return those feelings#The cat king does like Edwin but he doesn’t know anything about him. He likes the game and then he likes the kindness he’s shown despite#Knowing the cruelty he’s presented to Edwin#Queerness and preformance always go hand in hand#He’s a older secretly insecure character#Edwin is the younger#genuinely kind character that shows him that projecting his hurt will never get him what he wants#It’s about the isolation of queerness and the walls put up and the coping mechanism used to protect yourself even at the risk of hurting#Those just like you. That kiss from edwin was to say “I’m sorry your loneliness had caused you to be cruel. It’s the easiest way to feel.#And while I cannot and will not give you what you want or need#you deserve to feel happy and not like you have to gain the attention of uninterested people#I can’t even explain all my thoughts about their dynamic it’s just so much it’s just about the predadation from older queers because of#The trauma they’ve endured and the cycle of hurt and the way we can break the cycle with kindness while also protecting our youths by#Healing those traumas#Something the cat king learns and accepts#Off topic but I don’t like people defending their age gap because#Yes; Edwin is 86#but he died with a teenage boy brain and then spent 70 of those years in hell where he certainly was not getting his brain developed while#The cat king has possibly hundreds of years of sentience and experience. The power imbalance is not if y’all. And that part of their dynami#Is actually very clear I think but some people didn’t catch it?? Or didn’t care??? Idk man
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