#I think I wanna start a gratitude journal

[aventurineswife]

helos fre :3 random but any thoughts on self aware hsr 🙏🙏 ngl it's absolute peak to me cuz the fics I've read about it is so good I wanna digest it into my blood cells 😍🥰🥰/hj /lh

AHHHH I HAVE FEW BUT ITS PROBABLY NOT GOOD 😭🙏 (I might need to write a series about it in the future lmaoo)

The Express itself, and the crew aboard it, start referencing an "observer" that influences their journey. They might leave cryptic remarks like, "We wouldn’t have made it here without a guiding force…" or, "Are you out there, watching us?"

Himeko and Welt have deep discussions about the metaphysical implications of being part of a "game." Welt's past in other dimensions makes him particularly reflective.

Occasionally, your Trailblazer might break the fourth wall and stare directly "out" of the screen. They’d ask questions like, "Why are you helping us? What’s in it for you?" Or even, "Do you think you’re doing the right thing?"

Their dialogue changes subtly depending on your in-game decisions, showing that they’re paying attention.

Kafka is one of the few who seems fully aware that you’re pulling the strings. She might tease, "How long will you keep playing this game? Or is it playing you?" It’s unclear if she means it literally or as a metaphor.

Pela starts digging into the concept of "higher dimensions" where powerful entities (like the players) influence their world. You might find hidden journal entries speculating about the possibility of unseen forces guiding their lives.

Characters start commenting on how often you farm the same materials or run the same domains (?). For instance, Dan Heng might say, "You’ve had me fight this exact enemy over fifty times… What are you preparing for?"

When summoning characters, some of them might react to being "chosen." For example: Silver Wolf might say, "Took you long enough. Were you saving for someone else?" While Seele could mutter, "You really wanted me, didn’t you?"

As beings tied to the metaphysical order of the universe, the Aeons might perceive your existence. Xianzhou scholars hypothesize that you are an entity akin to an Aeon of "Control" or "Fate."

The Stellaron within the Trailblazer seems to have an awareness of you, treating you like an ally—or a potential threat. It might whisper cryptic messages about your choices or consequences.

Herta becomes suspicious of the odd behaviors in the universe and starts referring to you as a "prime variable." She might even try to communicate directly through simulated events, asking for your cooperation.

Some characters, like March 7th or Natasha, might express gratitude for your care and attention. "You always bring me along… Do you think I’m special?" they might ask, breaking the fourth wall.

Certain antagonists, like Cocolia or Jade, might break from their usual dialogue to challenge your decisions. "You think you’re the hero? You’re just another player, aren’t you?"

A secret cutscene or dialogue could play if you act in unexpected ways, revealing that the characters have fully realized their reality. It could be bittersweet, with them either embracing or lamenting their lack of agency.

Aventurine might acknowledge your influence subtly. After completing a mission for the IPC, he sends a message: "Noticed your knack for efficiency. You deserve a little bonus for all the extra effort you 'inspire.' Don’t let it go to your head." He attaches an unusually large amount of credits, as though recognizing you directly for optimizing his profits.

Argenti might kneel before the screen during a heartfelt moment (or after a battle): "O noble guide, it is your divine hand that shapes my path! I dedicate my blade not just to the people, but to you. May your will continue to shine upon us!" He also gifts you rare items or sends messages of gratitude, as though you're a divine figure he serves.

AHHH I wanna write fics for certain characters or something (this could also lead to yandere themes depending if the person/anon reqs for it).

[pikapig183]

Just rewatched Meet The Robinsons and you know what? I think everything is gonna be okay.

[fr00tbats]

shrieking screaming

[zais-zafu]

my simple manifesting "routine"

it's v automatic & random cos that's how I like it

state: I remind myself of the fact that I have it all through acting/thinking like "her" and rampaging whenever I feel like it to boost my self esteem

reminders: I have a minutely reminder that manifesting is instant and hourly reminders for self love, not doubting myself, taking care of myself, celebrating the present moment (ngl this all you need – it will be embarrassing for others to see at first but you will get used to it)

visualisation: I like daydreaming (was a maladaptive daydreamer) so I try to always consciously choose what to imagine when my mind wants to daydream (usually happens before sleeping)

vision boards: I do quarter planning and I create a vision board by the end of it, I keep it anywhere i could see it – wallpapers, chrome bg, etc. I'm thinking of employing visual subs into it (if u have experience with that please lmk !)

affirming: I have this setting on my phone that as soon as I unlock it, it launches my counter app & I do 10 sets of affirmations in wtv language/pov I feel like (switching the language/pov helps me a lot) + I affirm whenever I feel like it

subliminals & tapes: I recently started making my own subs and tapes (ima start to critically examine the submakers I follow too...), anywho ! I play subs and tapes whenever I feel like it, my earbuds are stuck to my ears 24/7 & I got yt premium for better access >:)

mediation & hypnosis: I meditate whenever I feel like it (used to do it once a day), I might sit in silence, play some frequencies/subs, do a guided meditation, or opt for a hypnosis if I wanna go for long and deeper.

journaling/scripting: can't believe I almost forgot about this, but I script every evening to work my self concept, practice gratitude, and visualise my ideal life/scenarios.

rampages: so I sometimes do mirror work or talk to ai chatbots in order to vaunt in the morning and evening+ whenever I need it.

prayer: so I'm muslim & I like using prayer & religion in general as a way to regulate my nervous system + to manifest! I don't have anything specific I do outside of the regular islamic teachings.

media: I like using movies, books, music, etc. to get in the mood, raise my self concept, and also normalise my desires & take them off the pedestal.

lmk what u think of it and any cool/unconventional techniques you use !!

[venuslilgirl]

heeeey, best tips on manifesting someone back into your life??? i’m desperate 🥺🥺🥺 tysm

Tips : manifest a specific person.

(note : these tips are also applicable to manifest an ex back.)

Before we start, I wanna remind everyone that you don't need any of these tips to get your desires, only one thought is enough to make your desire come to you because your thoughts = your reality, you want something you get it, that simple ! since you're the creator of your reality you only do what feels good for you and receive your desires ! 🤍

Tip 01 : circumstances do not matter

When you check the 3D and see something you don't want, remind yourself that you're in control and keep being persistent, so It doesn't matter if your sp doesn't know you or if they're famous or they have blocked you..

Tip 02 : live as if

Living as if means that you live as you already have it, a lot of people call it living in the end, if you adopt the living as if mentality you are gonna live your life as if you already have your sp, act as if it's all done and you got your desires.

Tip 03 : let go of that sp

Let go of the idea of this one person being what you want and let yourself dream a little about the general idea of what you want: companionship, trust, sharing, love, celebration, etc. Let yourself appreciate these dreams without attaching them to some specific person. Let yourself see how these things are already in your life to some degree. When you let go of that specific person, then the universe will be free to bring you a manifestation of what you desire more perfect than you are able to imagine.

Tip 04 : visualisation

Visualize what it feels like to be with your sp and allow yourself to get excited about it to match the vibration of your sp and attract it to your life, the more vivid your vision, the better details really help your manifestation be stronger, you could also try creating a vision board for your perfect relationship. This can be a big help if you have trouble picturing things in your mind.

Tip 05 : journaling

These are some topics to journal about :

Journal about memories you wanna create with you sp as if they already happened.

Reflect on how your sp changed your life.

Design solutions to challenges you might encounter with you sp.

Write a letter of gratitude for having that sp in your life.

Write yourself letters pretending it was from your sp, write down anything you wanna hear from them.

Tip 06 : affirmations

Affirmations will always remind you that you are worthy of your sp's love, they can positively change the way you think, you can use affirmations to confront limiting beliefs.

Make a list of your desired affirmations to manifest your sp, you can write them down on a journal or on your notes app and repeat them everyday.

You can also use self love affirmations to become their energetic match, when you are being at your best you will attract that sp who meets all your standards

[huellitaa]

౨ৎ ⋆｡˚girly girl's guide to journalling 🩰 ๋࣭ ⭑

˚₊‧꒰ა benefits of journalling ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

• helps to regulate emotions

• understand yourself better

• a fun pass time! ♡

• analyse you, your habits, thoughts, etc

• de-stresses, relieves & relaxes

• productive & away from social media

• gives you control over something

• a way for you to get everything out, big or small, good or bad ♡

🧸𓂃 ࣪˖ chapter 1: beginnings

ok! so journalling is mentioned a lot in the girlblogger, wonyoungism, self growth, loa etc etc side of tumblr but when i actually took that advice started it was really really daunting and i procrastinated it for aaaages. so this is here to help you start a fun girly hobby that will help you out on your journey 🩷🎀

♡ the most important thing when beginning ur girl journal is figuring out its purpose. is it to plan, is it to document, is it for healing, is it for personal development, is it for manifestation, is it to glow up, is it for creativity, is it just to have fun? it makes it a lot easier to think of ideas once you have a set purpose in mind, but obviously it can be anything you want, any combination of these, or something other than these. i personally do a combination of emotional healing, personal development, manifestation, glow up, gratitude & just having fun, but its whatever u want bae. <3

♡ okay! first plan of action; get a notebook. obviously. lined or plain, black or white, big or small doesn't matter. anything you feel most comfortable and most drawn to. ♡

♡ second, establish a range of pens, pencils, colours, etc. you're going to be using so you can keep consistent (if thats your thing) and make it all pretty! you can tailor this to you in any way; said range doesn't have to be big, you can literally just use the same biro and 2 colours, pencils, all the colours, one colour, or none if you want; its all yours! ♡

♡ lastly, i'd suggest to gather a bunch of stickers and materials and fun cute things ur gonna add in the pages of your journal, as it makes it pop off the page and look more visually appealing and layed and feel more interesting overall. i use stickers, coloured paper, ribbons, receipts, doodles, print outs, logos, labels, gems, sticky notes, and things i find from my daily life too. you don't have to do that much or any at all if you don't want to, but i highly recommend it! just for ur personal enjoyment ♡

one thing i'd suggest is trying not to keep a strict schedule on it, like "i have to journal every day etc" because i did this and it demotivated me sooo much. don't do that! just do it when you feel you want to! it's supposed to be fun, not a chore!

🧸𓂃 ࣪˖ chapter 2: setup

♡ okay so! once you've got all the basics set up, i feel it should be pretty self explanatory from here onwards, but since this is a guide i'm not gonna leave u by yourself. this is optional, but if you're planning on making journalling a hobby or a regular habit, i'd say the first thing you wanna do is enhance & expand. find some plastic folders to attach or create paper pockets or little sections where you can put resources to stick in in ur journal so you have more space, customise, and so on. i feel this is very overlooked but its sooo fun and its really creative and and makes it so unique to you <3

♡ one thing i'd suggest too if you're doing this especially or just for any type of journal really is looking on pinterest for inspo!! this is for everything really. covers, layouts, page inspo, page ideas, customisation, journal prompts, shadow work, titles, doodles etc. i keep a board of these on my pinterest & it really helps <3

♡ one of the first things i did when i set up my journal a few months ago was do one page just an index of pages to make so i had a basic structure to go off of. this went from basic journal pages you see everywhere like about me pages n all that to the most obscure shit you could possibly imagine. this is helpful because it gives you a frame to work off of when you're at a loss for what to do in ur journal. i already have a post on this so i really recommend that if ur looking for ideas cus there's LOADS <3

another thing on pinterest; don't force urself to stick to a specific theme you've found or try and avoid doing or writing certain things in ur journal cus you wanna stick to a specific aesthetic! again, it's supposed to be fun, not a chore, and it's supposed to be completely unique to you, like a physical version of your inner world. its perfectly fine to take inspo, just remember its yours. you are your own person & you don't have to show it to anyone, it doesn't have to make sense to them, just have fun 🩷

🧸𓂃 ࣪˖ chapter 3: resources

links ˖⁺‧₊˚♡˚₊‧⁺˖

@prissygrlsorority's beauty binder

journalling index by yours truly <3

shadow work prompts for literally everything

@prettygirlmjmjmj's personal journalling prompts

@honeytonedhottie's diary guide

inspo ˖⁺‧₊˚♡˚₊‧⁺˖

lots of love! <3

[kreemkreem]

Hello, so today I wanna talk about manifestion.

So before manifesting anything.Its important to make yourself calm . Even manifesting a simple wish we should be calm.and yes self love is also equally important.

But the question is how?

It's like that

Do breathing exercises.

Start doing seven chakras meditation.

Be in nature.

Start bathing with salt water.

Never rush.Be more patient.

Take one wish or 3 wishes .Not many in starting stages.

Never suppress your emotions even negative. Don't suppress them.

Start doing Hoʻoponopono prayer

Most important start being grateful even for the things small things.like : I am grateful for eating the food.

Don't watch tv shows or films you think make yours emotions trumblent.

Try not to eat takeouts

Read or listen manifestion stories every day.

Start doing self love spells .

Never forget important days like new moon and full moon for manifestion.

Start a gratitude journal and if you are manifesting money then start doing money journal along with gratitude journal.

Thankyou. If you read all this.This is for the beginners who are just knowing about the manifestion.so be kind.

And yes my english is not that good if there are any grammatical mistakes feel free to point out.i will be grateful. 😊😊😊😊

[iliveforyouilongforyouvesuvia]

i think i found my fav arcana blog, i rlly love ur hcs and writings!!! (and i don't even usually read that much,,)

i wanna know how the m6 would react to mc, who does journaling but never had anyone read their journal, offering the m6 if they want to read their private journal

The Arcana HCs: M6 reading MC's journal

~ I kept a journal for several years until my siblings were old enough to decipher my handwriting and use it as blackmail lol. Thanks for the prompt anon, enjoy! - brainrot ~

Julian

Noticed you writing in it every day and has been dying of curiosity to know what you're writing about but respects your privacy too much to even bring it up

There have been one or two times when you left it on a table (not open) and he spent a good five minutes fixated on it from across the room, mind going crazy

You finally walk in on him one afternoon, draped across one side of the couch and twisting his gloves while staring holes into the notebook on the opposite armrest

So you sit down next to him and let him read it with you

Double checking multiple times that it's okay for him to be reading this - "are you sure that you're sure?"

Reading about himself from your perspective and how he makes your life better makes him so happy

He also notices how you've kept his love notes and flowers pressed between the pages and the sheer romance of it will make his brain melt

Blushing, stuttering mess

Now whenever he writes you something or picks a flower for you he's thinking about the best way to make it relevant years later, since he knows you'll save them

Asra

Journaling started for you as a daily exercise when you were relearning to write

It was Asra's way of giving you a piece of your life that you had total control of, and of encouraging you to chronicle your days to cope with your memory loss

Over time it also became a place to write down all the things you wanted to say to them while they were gone

So late one night, when you're stargazing together and you find you're on the second to last page of the notebook he gave you so long ago, you reread it with him

It's one of the most precious moments you'll ever share with them. No magic or adventure involved, just the sweetness of revisiting your history together

It also gives you the chance to let him read all the things you felt you couldn't tell him, which brings so much resolution

By the time you're finished reading and talking and snuggling the birds are starting to chirp and the sky is getting lighter

For them, reading about all the ways you noticed and thought about and loved them when there was so much distance between you two makes their heart so full it aches

Nadia

At first she assumed it was something like a planner, where you would write down leads and information and connections

But then she saw the different notebooks you kept for studying, and the system you had to keep track of your scheduled events

She was a little embarrassed at how long it took for her to realize that it was a journal

Once she knew, she was intrigued. She wasn't going to pressure you to show her at all, but she's certainly curious

One day you're flipping back through your entries and you begin to giggle. It's the last thing before she caves and asks

"MC, my darling, what's making you laugh?"

You're immediately scooting over to make space for her next to you and pointing to the right spot on the page

It's a small anecdote you had recorded of Natiqa pranking Nahara and Nazali when Nadia wasn't around

Once you two start reading together she doesn't stop. With your permission, you spend the next two hours reminiscing

You write about her like she's the most important, wise, and confident person in the world, and it fills her with humble gratitude

Muriel

Noticed on the trip south. Wasn't curious. Didn't ask.

Now its been months, you two live like an old married couple in the woods, and he has no idea how to bring it up this late in the getting-to-know-you game

Practices the possible words to ask you in the early mornings while he's feeding the chickens and you're still asleep

The chickens don't have much feedback

You, on the other hand, have mistaken his stoicism for disinterest, so you haven't taken any initiative to let him know that you're open to talking about it

Inanna gets fed up one day and grabs your journal in her mouth, leading you on a chase through the woods, right to where Muriel is fishing

Casually drops it as soon as he tells her to, right into his lap, and heads away for a nap

You sit down next to him and check for torn pages. As soon as you feel his interested gaze, you're offering to read it to him while he waits for the fish to bite

He's not ready for how often he features in your stories, but hearing the way you describe him as safe and gentle and precious makes him feel so fuzzy inside

Portia

The first time she sees you writing she's already asking what it's for

As soon as you tell her it's a journal, she's asking you to let her read it. If it's written by someone as mysterious and exciting as you, it has to be good!

At this point you've known her for all of two days, so you say no

Disappointed but understanding. She doesn't pester you about it, but she makes sure to let you know that she's very interested if you ever feel like sharing

You take your time, but one evening after dinner while you're snuggled up by the fire you'll pull it out and start reading to her

The best audience you've ever had. She is honed in, hanging onto every word while she covers a very happy Pepi in scritches

As someone who fell in love with novels because they whisked her away into adventures she didn't feel important enough for otherwise, hearing you recount your shared story like this tugs on all of her heartstrings

She'll laugh and cry and gasp at all the right moments. From now on, she treats your journal like a sacred thing. After all, it's the most important story in the world

Lucio

He was already sneaking peeks over your shoulder when he was stuck to you as a not-ghost. Man has 0 concept of privacy

You knew he was looking because he was commenting on your handwriting and gossiping about any tidbits he thought were juicy

Considering how you barely knew him at that point, you didn't write in front of him again for a very, very long time

It actually created a lovely habit - at some point during the day, you'll take half an hour to yourself and journal

It's been months now and you've forgotten why you had the habit in the first place, so when it's raining one evening you just stay in the inn and write next to the fire

The difference in Lucio's approach speaks volumes. He asks what you're doing, and when you tell him, he asks if he can hear some of it

He makes no move to get up from where he's polishing his sword (it got wet)

He listens while you read, interjecting with a comment or two, perfectly content

He's a bit sheepish about what you had to write about him in the beginning, but hearing how much he's changed fills him with healthy pride. Oh, he adores you

[k3nofficial]

Health & Wellness Journey....

Good morning Angels! Let me just start off by saying I am soo happy with how far I've come in the last couple of weeks. Being realistic I've had my days but what I've noticed is my bad days don't turn into bad weeks anymore. Before if I had a bad day I would bring it into the next day and sabotage my entire week because of that one bad day. Now I'm able to almost completely reset at the start of a new day which is crucial.

Yesterdays recap:

I meal prepped for the week. All anti inflammatory meals and protein focused. Baked sweet potato bites, honey lemon shrimp, salmon salad, and white rice. Today I plan to put together some more things. Like little fruit salads with fruit that's already chopped and washed off for a quick snack, Overnight Oats for breakfast, Broccoli for lunch and dinner sides. Last but not least my gut and immunity shots. Consisting of Oranges, Ginger, Turmeric, Lemon juice, and Black pepper. If time permits I also want to make some chicken that I could eat for lunch and dinner.

I'm so so glad I did this I just know it's gonna make my week a lot easier. This was also my first time meal prepping so I'm very excited.

Todays morning recap:

Breakfast- Scrambled eggs w/ tomato's, green peppers, onions, and cheese. Chicken Sausage and Strawberries. A cup of green tea with lemon (and made my matcha after).

Wrote in my Gratitude journal & did my morning prayer.

Taking my vitamins after I upload this :)

Started on laundry (starting with my sheets).

I started my morning a little differently today. I woke up took the sheets off my bed and hopped in the shower. I'm normally a shower at night gal, But I wanted to try showering in the morning to see if it helps start my day with a better energy. I think it did. I felt more ready to start the day and get things done. I was moving a lot quicker too! I'm probably am still going to shower tonight because I need to work out today. Being honest I haven't done a workout in like 3 days :( I'm not proud of it but I'll get there. We're getting the basement done and its gonna have a gym so hopefully that will help having a dedicated place to go and workout in. In the meantime I do wanna get in the habitat of getting some sort of physical fitness in because I know it will help me so much!

Anyway girlies it's Sunday Reset!

Change Sheets.

Deep Clean bathroom.

Deep Clean room (including vacuuming & wiping down surfaces).

Finish Laundry (and put away if time permits).

Take out trash.

Clean up kitchen.

The best part of Sunday reset is waking up the next morning with a clean space and a clear mind. Anyway... That's all for now! Sending peace and love through the screen! 😘

[unveilandresist]

hi! just a heads up that I'm starting a little community on here if you wanna join! everyone is welcome. especially if you normally hate gratitude practices or toxic positivity. me too.

I'm a person w severe postviral illness with special interests in history and epidemiology and that can be really depressing in late stage capitalism and a pandemic that is definitely not over, (we've been misled, happy to share resources if you message me). we live in challenging times.

first, a disclaimer. I've never actually been a 'positivity' person. I don't think emotions are good or bad and think avoiding so called negative emotions is really detrimental. It's normal to feel all kinds of ways, it's part of being alive.

what I do know is that in terms of evolution and survival, the human brain is more likely to hold onto and remember so called 'negative' information and experiences to keep us safe. it's adaptive. but it doesn't make us particularly happy.

so I'm starting this little community because I want to practice paying attention to the life affirming things because being a person is hard, and it can help. You're welcome to join!

the last time I did this with a group it really helped my day to day mental well-being. I'm just gonna post 1-3 things every day or few days that I appreciated.

they can be so tiny. having struggled with suicidality in some shade or another throughout my life, sometimes the stupidest, simplest things are the most life affirming. silly little walks, etc. sitting outside on a nice day eating a sandwich. watching the clouds. whatever it is.

[danae-inprogress]

Weekly Reflection

Hey, loves!

I know I haven’t posted my mini diary entries in a couple of days but I’ll explain myself. My week was very productive as you can see from my entries up to Thursday, but then I had to slow down. I ended up being a little unproductive and I kinda blame the heat. It’s already bad in my country, even though it’s just June.

It’s not that I didn’t do anything, but I wasn’t very consistent with both my routines and my to-do lists. I still made progress with my monthly goals, though.

I truly wanted to share this funk with you though, because I used to feel guilty when I’d slow down. If you think of it though, it doesn’t make any sense to feel this way because it’s impossible to keep being productive and mindful eternally.

It might be essential to embrace our slow days, and to accept that sometimes we have to slow down in order to move forward with more vigor.

Anyway, I’m very happy with how the week went. I think I had a good start with this month.

Highlights of the week

I wrote around 3.000 words. Just 12.000 more for my monthly goal!

I did some yoga - it’d been a while.

I lost some weight - although, most likely it’s just water weight.

I made progress with my Spanish lessons.

I finished season 5 of a show I’ve been watching. It’s ridiculous but I’d been stuck in this season for like 3 years.

I’m working consistently on my self-concept and confidence.

I got closer to a special person.

Some brainstorming

I could have journaled and practiced gratitude more, and it’s something I’m intending to do this week.

I’d like to start working-out and moving my body more consistently.

I’d like to utilize affirmations more and plan more specifically my ideal life and self.

My attention span has been kind of shitty, and I blame being too much online for that, lol. I have a hard time focusing on what I read, a show or a movie, so it’s something I’m actively trying to improve. It’s NOT easy.

I think I’d like to take my writing more seriously -finally-. So, I wanna research on how I can do that, and maybe start being active on websites like patreon and ko-fi.

We’ll see.

Have a lovely week, everyone!

[solitarystarrywitch]

if you are making a vision board for 2025 (and bonus manifestation tips that worked for me)

More under the cut!

1. the materials— let's take this one step further

a big thing that i think really worked for me was having a copper wire wrap around the border (i used a stretched canvas) and gluing on corresponding crystal chips to what i wanted to manifest onto the vision board.

i genuinely feel like it has to do with how metal is a conductor, and copper is known to be a conductor for energy, spiritually, so it acted as something that connected the intent of the board, to the photos i used, to the crystals i glued on, if that makes sense?

i literally wanted to manifest an ipad to have a start at digital art. and wouldn't you know it, my friend got a stylus that wasn't compatible with her ipad, so she had to get a new one, and she sold her old ipad to me. i literally thought manifesting this would be a long shot because, in reality, im poor. no matter what the affirmations for manifesting say, i also have to acknowledge the reality that i'm not in a financially stable place in my life. but im so lucky and grateful that instead of paying full price for an Apple ipad (and you know apple is NOT cheap,) i had a friend that sold her old one to me for a much much lower price.

i thought "oh i'll probably have to spend months saving up"

I bought her ipad in January, the very beginning of 2024.

2. mindset + gratitude— im a lucky girl/guy/enby

i'm not sure how popular this concept is on here since i heard it from tiktok, but it's this thing called "lucky girl syndrome" where it's this affirmation goes

"i'm a lucky girl, everything always works out for me"

and i do believe it works.

and i do believe when it goes hand in hand with gratitude or a gratitude journal, it's much easier to believe the affirmation and therefore be open the good fortune and luck that it brings. because think about it, you have this gratitude journal that's filled with all the blessings and positive things that are already in your life or that you've already manifested, and the more it gets filled, the more you're slowly gonna realize "huh, i have all these good things going for me, i really am lucky." and it just reaffirms the affirmation.

3. reality— let's acknowledge it, let's talk about it, let's work with it

i always thought affirmations could never work for me because the thought of my actual reality would always be in the back of my mind. but then i started using affirmations that met me halfway or gave me something i could work with.

instead of "i'm rich, i'm wealthy" when i actually wasn't, i used "im grateful for the money that's on its way".

it expresses gratitude to the universe , it expresses what i wanna manifest, and it's more of an affirmation that it is coming, not necessarily already here, but it's coming and that what i wanna manifest will be in my life either way.

if "i am wealthy, i am rich" works for you or has worked for you, great. i'm so happy for you, genuinely. but it couldn't for me. and i know the whole "programming your mind and your affirmation" is a thing, but it was something i found difficulty in doing, so this was a great alternative for me.

．. ☆ . ＋.。 . 。, ☆ ﾟ. ＋ ☆ * 。ﾟ. o, 。 . ＋ ﾟ ☆

i don't think many of the common manifestation methods are a one size fits all. if it works for you, amazing. but sometimes some people gotta customize or find a different method altogether, and that's cool too.

remember, you're working with energy, and some methods aren't compatible with your personal energy, and that's completely fine.

[helperhome]

Reconnecting the Mind, Body, and Soul

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The next steps...

So, you've written out your baseline responses and have taken ample time to reflect... now what?

(you got dat journal handy, right?)

First, and most importantly, write yourself a note thanking yourself for finding the strength to begin this journey. Congratulate yourself for everything you've been through and express gratitude for every experience, both good and bad.

Right now, we are at the beginning of the assessment phase, with new questions to ponder. If you'd like, do that check-in questionnaire before we dive in.

The questions for today:

How does my mind treat my body?

In what ways am I being unnecessarily hard on myself? (This can be strictly mental, or perhaps even physical if you wanna get deep into it.)

What do I feel I am missing in my life? Go back as far as you can to see where the problems have started. Ask your child self what they need.

How can I be the person I need?

This step is all about your actions. First, we assessed the way we were feeling, now we will look at the way we are treated, both by ourselves and others.

How do you treat your body? Be brutally honest with this one. The more honest you are in any process like this, the more you will get out of it so always try to keep that in mind. When you wake up in the morning, do you take care of yourself? Or do you neglect yourself, rolling out of bed 15 minutes before you have to be out the door? When you look in the mirror, do you think kind thoughts? When you are in the shower/bath, how violently do you wash yourself? Are you washing yourself the way you'd bathe someone you love and cherish?

When you make a mistake, how do you respond when no one is watching? Do you hit yourself or cause other bodily harm? Do you restrict your food/water intake? When you feel like you need a break from your current task at hand, how do you respond to yourself? Are you forcing yourself to skip the break and keep on moving? Do you feel anger and frustration towards your lack of energy?

When you're out and you see a couple, how do you feel? What is your initial response internally? Is it positive? Or, when you see someone bonding with a parent or adult figure, how do you feel? Do you feel bitterness or a lack of some sort? When you are with friends or family, do you feel heard? Do you feel like they truly care about the words you speak? Are they supportive when you do something degrading to yourself?

Chances are, these questions may have invoked a negative response from within you and thats completely okay! I asked them intending on doing so. Now that you've experienced your reaction to them, go back to the bulleted list and write out the answers to those questions. Be as thorough as possible, releasing all of the emotions that bubble up to the surface.

Right now, in the assessment phase, the goal is to gather as much data as we can. If we are going to tackle the puzzle within you, we need to have a full understanding of what we're working with.

[gabapentinblues]

1.6.2025 nightly journal, tw; sh and ed

had a hard time waking up, i always wanna sleep past 8am but then i dont have enough time to myself before group. it was grey and cold today and i had kinda a hard time getting up and getting ready. im always so exhausted in the mornings.

my check in was okay, my weekend wasn't terrible. there's a kid whose bipolar is pretty bad rn and hes really agitated and confrontational, so that was interesting this morning. i think i might get dunkin tomorrow to give myself a treat, something to look forward to. i have to work after group tomorrow but i really just want to quit my job.

we talked a little bit about measuring progress and how do we define that for ourselves bc ultimately its up to us. and i was just asking myself what do i want out of this program, and thinking abt how the idea of not being in the program is terrifying to me. i mentioned all of my issues with my impulses and really wanting to build up mindfulness and gratitude.

i wrote out a loneliness iceberg bc that is the hardest emotion for me to deal with. underneath my loneliness there is definitely fear and i wrote out all the fears that i have around feeling lonely. my fears that no one will ever stay with me and i will always be abandoned, my fear that my life is meaningless and nothing is worthwhile, my fear that im too much and not enough and people arent going to prioritize me. im afraid that my feelings of emptiness and loneliness arent going to go away.

im trying to confront my fears, to have awareness and take care of myself. im trying to stop binge eating and self harming and compulsively smoking weed.

today i was able to make it thru my day without binge eating. i had a protein yogurt, a breakfast bar, an apple, pretzels and hummus, hot chocolate and half a bowl of restaurant ramen. its going to take a while for my appetite to get used to not overeating anymore and im trying to be patient with myself. im not going to be able to jump right into restricting, so this week im just focusing on not overeating.

i got home and made hot chocolate and got back into bed. i ended up sleeping for like an hour. ate my small lunch and didn't really know what else to do. i got sad and started thinking about how i dont want this to be my life while i was waiting for my friends. i self harmed and cut pretty deep. i didnt have enough time to completely stop the bleeding before i had to go meet my friends so i bled thru my jeans a little.

i met up with my friends and we got ramen. it was snowing and windy outside. my friend called the tattoo shop down the street and asked if theyd have time for walk ins. we went there and my friend got her septum pierced, our other friend got a small tattoo and i got snake bite piercings.

then we stopped and got a drink at an arcade bar on the way home. it was a nice night even though i sometimes felt like a third wheel. i let them come up to my apartment to warm up before they had to catch the bus. i finished the bottle of wine i got yesterday and hit my vape a couple times.

now im just sitting in my room getting a little buzzed. doing a good job being present and not over eating. grateful for my friends and that i can be open and honest with them, for the small bit of extra money i can spend on fun things, for snow

[braiding-sweetgrass-science]

Week 1

Introduce the equation: Reciprocity+Responsibility+Gratitude=Abundance (write it somewhere in their nature journals?)

-Talk about the difference between abundance/scarcity in general

-Define Reciprocity, Responsibility & Gratitude

Introduce the idea of kinship...kindling is from the same root word...two pieces of kindling rubbing together to make fire

We are going to give you a goal and each of you will need to fill a role in order for this to work...you'll be collecting kindling to start your own fire, first you'll try and rub the sticks together to make it and if that doesn't work we'll give you a flint or farro rod (idk what it's called)

potential jobs: (there can be more than one person on a job ya?)

collecting sticks for kindling

collecting fire starters (i.e. dry leaves/grass etc)

person blowing on the fire to ignite the spark

keeping the fire stoked

Once it's lit....we talk about kinship and not just between humans, but humans and the world/nature/environment, animals/nature, animals/animals etc etc and how its call connected and if one person doesn't do their job...i.e. use their god given gifts then it doesn't work, the fire goes out etc 

and now that we've all used our gifts/did our role to create this abudance of fire what are some of the ways fire is used for good? 

-warmth

-preparing food

-light

-etc

This fire is a metaphor for our lives...is our life going to be abundant or scarce? God is a god of abundance, are we going to join him in that or anxiously try and hold onto what we have? How are we stewarding the fire of our lives? How are we or how can we be using our abundance? What are some practical examples of that you guys can think of? 

i.e

-harvesting all of your fruit/veggies and sharing with neighbors or processing them etc

-sharing anything you have with a friend or other

-what are you good at? do that thing well...(encouraging, attention to detail, making people laugh, being creative, problem solving, always looking at the best in situations, planning, dreaming etc etc) (verse that comes to mind for that is: Romans 12: 3-8) idk if we wanna include that or not but if so it's below and I thought of it later but basically I think saying the same thing of everything and everyone having a place and a role and all of creation/people are depending one everyone else to fill that role--interconnectedness  

For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the faith God has distributed to each of you. 4 For just as each of us has one body with many members, and these members do not all have the same function, 5 so in Christ we, though many, form one body, and each member belongs to all the others. 6 We have different gifts, according to the grace given to each of us. If your gift is prophesying, then prophesy in accordance with your[a] faith; 7 if it is serving, then serve; if it is teaching, then teach; 8 if it is to encourage, then give encouragement; if it is giving, then give generously; if it is to lead,[b] do it diligently; if it is to show mercy, do it cheerfully.

[unsadgalriri]

May 20, 2024

It's been a long time since I've journaled. I was so busy living. Not in that gay way. I was just busy with school and job hunting and then starting a new job. A part of me wishes I journaled a little more cuz a lot has changed since I last wrote a real, sincere entry. For starters, I am almost in my second week at The Beverly Hills Hotel as a Guest Researcher. I fucking did it. I left In-N-Out. Honestly, I cried when I left because of what I went through during my time there. I mean in Westwood. In-N-Out has a special place in my heart for a variety of reasons. For one, it kept me fed. For two, it was a source of healing when I lost my dad. I made so many friends there. People helped me find my confidence again. I felt so appreciated and loved and everyone told me how handsome I was every day. Thank you God for placing me in the right place at the right time. I sincerely found peace with the fact that I was going to be at In-N-Out for a while. I was thankful for my job, and thankful for my promotion. I was thankful that Vega gave me a burger coin. Not only did I achieve my goal of becoming a Level 6 before leaving the company, but I was actually becoming a decent cook. I would've been a fucking BOSS. Anyways, when I made peace with my job and began to appreciate it instead of loathe it, everything started to become better. Life was better. I was more at peace. I had more time to focus on myself and on school. And now I know what it is like to appreciate things. Life is so expensive. There was a time when I couldn't even afford a drink from the gas station. Now I take a little time to be thankful for EVERYTHING. Gratitude gives everything so much meaning. I think that's what I like most about life; appreciating what you have and not focusing on what you don't. I can't lie, getting this new job has made me want to work so hard. I want to promote as fast as I can. I just can't forget about my family. And baby Ariel is getting so big now. I just don't want to miss out. I'm so thankful for everything. For my education. My brain. My apartment. My job. My camraderie. My new money. My new life. I just can't be angry anymore. I choose not to be angry anymore. I just need to let go what my dad did to me, understand he just did his best, and move past the storm of the last two years. These last two years changed me forever. The loneliness I felt. Isolation. Immobility. Worthlessness. Anger. Misdirection. Rejection. It was the worst time period of my life ever. But I grew. I learned. I know my worth now. I know I'm a good person. I know I'm a kind person. For a moment, I felt like I lost myself and, well, actually I did lose myself. I just didn't have any fucks in me to give at one point. I had to confront so much and trust those around me to know I wasn't a bad person. I'm not a bad person. I not a perfect person. But I'm so much better than the person I thought I was. I have so much to give. So much tenderness. I really am like a golden retriever idk. I really want someone to be obsessed with me and vice versa, but I can wait. For now, I am FUCKING. I am fucking so many hot guys. I need to close shop and start working on my body next. Ugh, I feel so FERTILE. Bitch I haven't felt this good in a long time. I wanna go OUT. I'm excited for life again. I trust that God will keep me afloat even when I fuck up. If I fuck up. I probably will fuck up lol. Anyways, I'm doing good!