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Sorry for sounding miserable and depressed, its because I'm miserable and depressed

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a tshirt that says here against my will

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ketzal_coatl

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kinda tired fighting for a life i don’t even want

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new game plan called shield yourself at all times and never let anyone in . this will have no repercussions

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trying to get my life together or die in a gas explosion whichever don't care

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where i post from ♡

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& you know what it actually IS lifechanging to smile at strangers & say please & thank you & goodmorning & compliment someones outfit & help someone in need & be more accepting of loving other people just because they are other people!!!

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at least i took a good nap

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the last 12 months have sucked, i didn't think things could suck this bad for this long, no one seems to know how to diagnose me or support me, but whatever's going on is real

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yeah no i definitely quit my job, took a 30 day loa (which i ended up extending) from my other job, did almost four months in a partial hospitalization program, started self harming more frequently than i ever have in my life, broke my lease and moved back in with my parents, and admitted myself to the hospital bc whatever's going on w me is just made up and fake

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today i could look at th burnout vs depression resource i got and take some notes, try to clean my room and maybe read a little, or i could avoid everything and watch tv and sleep, which sounds much more appealing

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they're telling me i could have autistic burnout, but at this point i don't believe anything anyone says