To the like… 2 people that actively follow me, and like, the 5 that passively do, hi. I’m not dead. Again. I realize I should actually write my own things but I’m also full of writer’s block and very much like listening to your prompts. It’s good practice. Someone remind me also later I need to add the Krisis boys as well to my roster. They’re very cool. Anyways feel free to like, interact at all.
historical drama/sitcom where two gay best friends (woman and man) get lavender married--and proceed to spend the Fancy European Honeymoon their parents paid for acting as each other's wingman
ALSO IMPORTANT TO NOTE, people dropping mad mad sums of money on gfms and charities and stuff are extremely impressive but that DOES NOT MEAN that putting like $5 towards someone's fund or any good cause is any less valuable, a lot of crowdfunding is about momentum and those single digits add up super fast, you do not need to be Rolling In The Dough to make someone's day!! moving the dial at all is extremely positive!!
Genuinely, how do you stop wanting your family to love you? Wishing they did? My brother reached out for the first time in like iver a decade and it was really just to talk about himself but damn I could hear how alone he was and how bad the depression and self harm had become and like.... I really can't tell if I'm just ignoring my own feelings to take care of someone again but also like so what??? So what if he doesn't really love me, so what if he's using me because he's in a low place, so what if there's years of unaddressed issues and borderline abuse (that happened because he was also being abused) because I fucking hate it but I WANT to take care of him. I want to try and (if he will even speak to me again which I highly doubt) show him the same kind of love that was shown to me after I got out from under my parents thumb, the kind of love no one in my family ever gave or received. The kind of love that broke me in the best possible way and let me become someone new who didn't want to constantly kms or self harm. I want that for him, because despite everything I do love him. But as always, every single member of my family is a violently sharpened bear trap. He is the smallest, softest bear trap, but he is still a bear trap, and I know I'm going to get hurt... but I don't want him to keep living like this or worse succeed in killing himself.... idk.
the confession (jensen's version) | the night we met
"In my mind, I was sitting there thinking that... you know, it was like this flashback—you know they say that when you're about to die your life flashes before you. In my mind, I was flashing back to Lazarus Rising and seeing him walk through the barn with the sparks flying and all of the sudden all of these clips in my mind of Castiel and walking into the lake, and all of these things that are ingrained in my memory and seeing this now character have to say goodbye, but also knowing that my friend was in there having to struggle with this as well and I just thought he did such an artful job and such an incredibly nuanced performance in that moment that I was really proud of." x
inspired by @drulalovescas's post | watch it on youtube