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you know you hit rock bottom when your only listener is an ai bot because everyone in your life doesn’t care

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Life is BDSM and i don’t know the safe word

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giving your ocs your trauma is so funny because just because my oc has a rocky relationship with their dad and has no mother figure doesnt translate to me always having fights with my dad and feeling like my mom is never there for me pfttt nooooo

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and how do I not get mad? how do I not get upset? how do I shut down the feelings when you text like we’ve moved on when nothings changed?

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when i leave, i go. when i leave, i go. when I finally fucking leave, i will fucking go. and i will bring nothing with me.

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when your between phases but you’re not. when you want to tear everything down of who you are and what made you so you can become someone new and maybe, just maybe make other people proud of you. but you can’t because you had fought so hard of becoming yourself and goddamn did it take forever to be comfortable in your own skin.

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i don’t know how to explain this. it’s like i grew and became a person i liked. i’m comfortable with who i am and i’m in my skin. but at the same time i grew up as a people pleaser so when someone nitpicks something about it, i change who i am. and it always between this back and forth of who i am and who people want me to be and they have good points of what i should change, but is it so bad to be flawed? is it bad to be who i am? will i ever be enough if i changed for people around me. i know it won’t. that’s already the outcome. but it just sucks already being comfortable with both yourself and with change. it reeks of imposter syndrome and it sucks.

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it sucks it suck it sucksssssss when the ones who are suppose to support you are the ones who are tearing you down

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i’m happy that i grew. well at least i think. was fatshamed again by my dad, but it didn’t make me shrink. didn’t make me feel like shit or bad. it didn’t affect me.

is that bad?

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wouldn’t it be nice once your mind stops screaming while it runs a million kilometers per hour?

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why do tears feel hot?

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the battles I pick

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I want to scream into the void

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"Stop saying 15 year olds with weird interests are cringe, they're 15" this is true however you should also stop saying adults with weird interests are cringe because who gives a shit

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shaking six year old me by the shoulders YOU WERE RIGHT. YOU WERE RIGHT ABOUT LOVE AND ABOUT FAIRNESS AND ABOUT SHARING IS CARING. YOU WERE RIGHT. THE ADULTS DON’T KNOW ANY MORE ABOUT TRUTH THAN YOU DO. KEEP BELIEVING IN THE FAIRIES AT THE BOTTOM OF THE GARDEN. NOTHING IS “JUST THE WAY IT IS”. I AM SORRY THEY EVER CONVINCED YOU TO FEEL SHAME. YOU ARE REAL AND A PART OF THIS WORLD. YOU WERE RIGHT.

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i’m not tired. i’m just fucking pissed at the world.