justanotherquinnfan

[mymiserablediaries]

There is an ache in my heart for the imagined beauty of a life I haven't had, from which I had been locked out, and it never goes away.

[a-meh]

[classycookiexo]

[weepingdreamersandwich]

I wonder if my parents realize that they've already lost me. That my smiles are fake and my eyes are constantly searching for escape routes. That I'm just biding my time until I can be free of them. I wonder if they know that I was never theirs to keep.

[shotsyfeather]

Parents - *We are trusting you blindly coz we love you, never break this trust*

Me - *nodding happily thinking I'll never do any wrong*

*Talked to a boy*

Parents - *You broke our trust, ungrateful brat*

*Got little less marks*

Parents - *You broke our trust, ungrateful brat*

*Gave my best friend something*

Parents - *You broke our trust, ungrateful brat*

*Made a social media account*

Parents - *You broke our trust, ungrateful brat*

*Got a call from a friend and they don't know about it*

Parents - *You broke our trust, ungrateful brat*

DO YOU WANT ME TO BE A FUCKING ROBOT WHO WILL WORK ACCORDING TO THE GIVEN INSTRUCTIONS ONLY ??????????

[mirroringshards]

ive been thinking a bit recently and i thought id share how i hid things, for any of my followers that may be in a toxic living environment and need to hide something such as a phone or any other small object.

1 - wrap it. wrap it in toilet paper or napkins, this is to stop it from making noise and to hide it even more. the messier the better.

2 - put it in something. put it in a small box or container that nobody would expect to look in. make sure that its hand-held size and can safey hide the object. the smaller, the better. some things may be able to fit in empty pill bottles, wallets, mini drawstring bags or empty acne pad containers.

3 - hide it in plain sight. take the container and put it somewhere nobody would really expect it to be. for example, the bottom of a cluttered nightstand, in the very back in the corner of your closet, in a shoe, just anywhere that will hide the object while still making it appear "normal" or hidden away.

this guide could be used for secret phones, religious items youre trying to keep a secret such as tarot cards or crystals, etc etc. anything small, heres a guide to hide. probably wont work for clothes or bigger items but you can definitely try lol.

[amomentwiser]

"Why don't you spend time with us?" they say, "Keep your phone away at the table."

Parents say they want to talk — until it's about anything real.

They don't want to know about how their plans for your future make you feel.

They don't want to know your fears, hopes or dreams.

The things you're interested in — your favourite music, games and movies;

Or the things you've come to believe.

Sometimes it feels like parents don't want to get to know you as a person. They only see you in relation to themselves.

Or sometimes they do talk about music and games and movies, and it's even worse — because the conversations you want to have are serious.

And it's worse because it becomes very clear, that they don't want to have conversations that matter. That, god forbid, make them feel.

They want to avoid talking about all the times they yelled at you. No apology, no acknowledgement. Just glaze over those parts and pretend everything's normal. Neither guilt nor remorse.

And you're left wondering whether this thing you have a memory of actually happened, because everyone is acting like it didn't. And whether your anger is warranted, because everyone is acting like it isn't.

An unspoken decision: "Yes, we were harsh earlier, but we felt bad and are being nice now"

The implied demand: "...so be grateful,"

The undercurrent of a threat: "...or I'll get angry again."

And a push to move on: "Why do you bear grudges? Leave the past in the past."

All these little clues, that you learn to read in their body language and their eyes and their vibe.

And then they balk when you don't call them. Or jump at the chance to spend time with them — or even have a relationship.

It's weird, loving people you don't like. That you'd never choose of your own volition; that you'd never be friends had you met in the real world. People you're indebted to anyway, because they took care of you your whole life and changed your diapers and drove you to school, and what friend would ever do that?

Had they been overly abusive I would've cut them off without guilt; if I didn't know that despite it all, they really did love me, I wouldn't have cared about hurting their feelings.

Some people... you love them only because they are family. If they were a boyfriend, I would've broken up with them; if they were a spouse I would've divorced them. Alas, they are my parents, and I'm destined to love them. To give up a kidney for them if need be, but not any days out of my workweek.

I don't have these conversations with my family because I've come to realise that this is something they're not emotionally equipped to handle. Too much self-awareness would bring out memories not only of the mistakes they made with me, but also all the times adults in their childhood failed them; of all the ways they themselves were wronged; all the years they wasted because of choices they didn't know they had; and all the things they wish they'd done differently. So I understand; the flood of anger and regrets it brings to the surface must be draining.

But that also means that I'll distance myself from them, because for me, their misunderstood love is draining. And because this has to stop somewhere; someone has to start choosing differently — and I've decided it'll be me.

[milaisreading]

"Strict parents raise respectful children"

They raise kids who are pretty good at hiding and lying when necessary

[cvndlemoon]

that girl didn't want to die, she just wanted out of that house ♡⋆ ˚｡ ⋆

[like-this-post-if-you]

Like this post if you had restrictive parents

[barebon35]

I think a good way to judge the actions of parents is to look at them and ask yourself how Riz Gukgak would respond to hearing that story. Like can he imagine his mom doing that? Would Sarah Lynn ever do that to Fig? Would Jawbone walk away unconcerned if you dropped that in conversation? Would Gorgug have gone into a rage over that? Would Cathilda treat Fabian that way? Lastly, is it something you can see the Applebees or the Aelwyns doing?

[lovebeing-a-girl]

I wanna be wild I wanna go out late at night and just roam around with my friends and get McDonald’s and scream until my throat hurts

I wanna live my teenage years but I am losing them to my strict parents

[the-aloof-intellect]

is anybody else’s biggest fear their parents finding their tumblr account?

[classycookiexo]

[mymiserablediaries]

Girls appreciate what you have. Even the silliest things. One day I might tell you why.

[shotsyfeather]