#I need to feel less anxious again

[running-in-the-dark]

my husband has a bank appointment tomorrow (scary) and I'm so stressed out & anxious about it that I had to take my emergency anxiety medication. it's fine, I've only taken it once in the last, idk, 4 month or so , and I needed it rn. need to sleep. that wouldn't happen otherwise. so now I'm listening to Thursday Murder Club and hoping it'll work quickly

[cathalbravecog]

veep dad comfort art

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

crippling anxiety hours let's go

[vraska-theunseen]

aughhhh. aughhhhhjhhhh

[steelycunt]

ridi im sorry i need to rant and i think youll get it 😭 like not to be a bitch but this fandom kinda going off the rails and annoying the shit out of me https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRbYASpf/ everybody in the comments unironically loving it,,, i mean wtvr ship who you want but its kinda getting delusional like ppl are just operating on thin air and pretty fancasts atp and i do Not understand or emotionally connect with any of it. at least w wolfstar theres so much material and foundation to explore but what is all the rest of this?? just hot celebrity fancasts and crack. to be fair part of me respects taking a terfs canon material and making everybody gay but the way it seems to be so oversaturating fics and the fandom that characters dont even feel like their original selves .. atp its all just surface level OCs

hello! yes! i'll be honest talking about things like this always make me a little nervous, and i feel obligated to preface anything i say with a disclaimer that none of it really matters, nothing i say matters, and you should do what you like, because--who cares. i am not an authority on--anything, frankly. my opinion holds no more weight than the next guy's, and all i'm doing here is giving it, so. essentially what im saying is--people are perfectly entitled to disagree with me, but people are not entitled to be mean to me about it xx

having said that. it is my personal opinion that s x barty is one of the worst fucking things i have ever heard lol. who even is barty who is that guy. why would s be interested in him at all. i do not understand it it does not make sense to me. from where are we sourcing the character traits and personality that we are giving barty that would ever endear sirius to him, because it objectively cannot be canon.

overall i do not get the new interest in barty + evan + pandora (+ regulus, but we won't go there)...at all, other than guessing that people were bored with the marauders and wanted a new version of them (and new celebrities to fancast) while simultaneously changing next to nothing about them other than superimposing them onto the first slytherin side characters they could rustle up. i expect ive become a bit of a broken record in regards to my dislike of the popular meow-meow-ification + complete absolution of regulus as a character in order to make him a loveable oc (just as i think erasing all the negative traits that r/s have in order to make them more likeable is just as boring), and all of that applies to those other guys as well (with the slight difference that they are, somehow, even less interesting and significant than regulus in canon), so i won't get into that too much. but i think what you say about having no emotional connection to any of it is exactly right lol--it is a sort of shift? i guess? in the fandom that is simply of no interest to me. they are characters that i just have no emotional investment in and admittedly struggle a little to understand why other people do. i am emotionally invested in, like, five characters overall (and even out of those--there's only two i'm really here for innit xx) and i personally cannot extend that investment to a creepy little side character who is mentioned maybe twice in the entire series.

and that is okay! i do not need to understand it. i don't want to say it annoys me because honestly--i don't go there, its nothing to do with me. if i dont like it i just wont interact with it, and the fact that it doesn't interest me has no bearing on what other people are into or want to do, and i couldn't give less of a shit what people do with the canon material, which is largely garbage anyway. take the bits you want from it, play around with those and ignore the rest. in that respect we are all doing exactly the same thing. but yeah i think s x barty is genuinely awful lol. hate it. very terrible. he's already got a loser werewolf boyfriend and he loves him so so much. leave him alone.

[sepiasys]

Why am I like- forgetting my tags for my blog? Like the tagging system. I switched acct on tumblr app bc post limit bullshit ykyk? I’m gonna pretend that’s why /hj

[lamatisse]

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[orcelito]

Actually we r at 6 months now without any major deaths in my life, which is great! That's the longest I've gone without any major deaths since last May! The second longest was 4 months between July and November last year. Wow !

[kittlyns]

I had yet another long, strenuous day yesterday and didn't finish work until super late and then I couldn't fall asleep until well past 2am cuz I was in so much pain from standing literally all day

[kimtaegis]

today was good.

[pepprs]

i know i need to shut up abt it esp bc i don’t know for sure if i actually got exposed to covid but like. it’s just so fucking frustrating and terrifying. not just in the case of covid but with other things too like driving. you can take every precaution to keep yourself and the people around you safe but all it takes is one selfish careless asshole who can negate that in a heartbeat and ruin your life or maybe even end it in some circumstances. lol

[im-still-a-robot]

How is anyone in this house functional.

[brick-van-dyke]

//vent

So I'm anxious and frustrated as fuck for several reasons, but at the top of the list right now is how my mum followed me around this morning and, over and over and over, kept bringing up the person I have told her, several freaking times now, makes me go into a complete panic and continually just kept not stopping with "oh I'm sure it'll be okay"s and other versions of trying to reassure me (or herself I think) that I'd be okay to let in said family member who traumatised me immensely as a child and just. As if me agreeing wasn't enough of a reason to just say what to do then just drop it, she just...doesn't stop bringing it up? Following me around, saying things to reassure more herself than anyone that this is Fine and I'm so Brave™ for this when really I just want her to stop bringing him up and making me more and more anxious each time she follows me around like she's lost and needs to make sure I'M okay when she's the one who's pushing her anxieties on me. The entire conversation was just "look it's gonna be fine" but really? We both know full well that I'm never actually fine with him around and just doing this because I have to, but instead of just letting me get this all over and done with, she needs to vent to me how SHE is anxious and feels guilty and remind me over and freaking over how everything is Actually Fine and Great, the way she usually does when she doesn't want me to say it isn't because then she'll just double down.

[dredshirtroberts]

hey. hey universe. hey fucker universe.

no one said you could bring back the Wednesday Curse, bitch. fuck off with this shit i didn't need any of this first thing today.

[archaeolitikum]

mum stop calling me challenge

[georgespaniel]

i do worry lads that this is getting a tiny bit too much for me