#I have a friend who I love dearly

[the-lights-are-loud]

Unimportant Person

Unimportant words from unimportant people

Same problems, different days

Listening

I thought listening works

I thought that talking it out helped

But all it's done

is make you think you can dump everything on me

And make me hate talking to you

Unimportant thoughts from unimportant people

Every day, the same problems

I don't want to be disinterested

I want to be there for you

But you make me feel so powerless

And I'll never be able to save you

Unimportant person

Unimportant view

Unimportant words that I can say to you

Nothing matters

What's the point?

Because I'm an unimportant person

With unimportant words

With an unimportant will

and

unable

to

save

you.

Masterlist

[azure-clockwork]

I love three houses discourse because I'm pretty sure everyone just picks their route based on which house leader they're the most gay for and then tries to defend their pick by pointing out the other sides's war crimes via twitter memes. Reader, all four of them do substantial quantities of war crimes. So many. We're just here because the woman with Issues and a big fuck-off axe said so, and then we gotta justify everything she did in the name of dismantling the class system. I mean, I'm here for that, but you could also try justifying Charm Man uses poison and perfidy to try to stop racism, A Sad Little Meow Meow gives no quarter instead of doing therapy, or the Thicc Pope tries to bring back her mom via human experimentation, depending on your tastes

[hel7l7]

I just need someone who understands, who really gets it someone who'll hold me through the worst of it all

[anonymocha]

finally coming out as a dyke in 2023 is realizing i dont need to pretend to simp that Guy just because everyone else in my friend group does

[yanderespamton78]

rb and put in tags the name of the stuffed toy(s) you sleep with

[one-sexy-fucking-toucan]

I was thinking about it today and there is enough similarity between The King and Siffrin for something. I don't know what but there is something.

[plantsonplutoart]

i’ve literally never talked about this on here but this quarter I’ve been taking a Harry Potter focused english lit class (truly a win for random uni english courses everywhere ) and today is the last day :( I’m gonna miss everything about that class but mostly the Professor.

He loves All the Young Dudes guys, hes a wolfstar truther, he’s one of us! 😭 how am i supposed thrive if I don’t see that dork every other day for 2.5 hours

[smokeandhubris]

when ryuu says “i’m not doing this for you” to kazuma ohhh my god.. he became a lawyer for kazuma’s sake but it’s not about him anymore and maybe it hasn’t been for a long time….

ryuu starts this journey as a substitute. a locum student lawyer. he says himself, when he first came to great britain he was “nobody”. all he had was a dream that wasn’t his a huge shoes to fill. in those first few days, he was an outsider, both in and out of the courtroom. in the courtroom, he’s merely the fill-in, substitute for his best friend, a truly brilliant lawyer, while he himself is a stranger to law as a profession. outside the courtroom he is a foreign man in a strange country, a fact that he is constantly reminded of by those around him.

in every way that matters, ryuunosuke naruhodo is an outsider.

those few precious moments in the courtroom however, change things. it is, perhaps, the only place where ryuu can prove himself. the only place where he can show what he is capable of and prove that he is worth something more. for these moments, ryuu becomes not just a “locum student” but a defence attorney in his own right. and he’s good at it!

he proves just how capable he is and more than that, he becomes passionate about it. he learns and grows through his time in the legal system and develops his own beliefs and goals. through law, he finally forms an identity for himself outside of being a mere substitute and an outsider. he’s a lawyer now, an advocate of truth. he’s grown magnificently into his own man.

“i’m not doing this for you. i’m doing it for the truth”

and it’s true. ryuunosuke is now a lawyer in his own right and is serious about his pursuit of the truth. it’s not about kazuma and his dream, not anymore. maybe it hasn’t been for a long time.

[faaun]

procrastination is starting to have its consequences finally

[madamescarlette]

don't you love when you're like, okay now I'm going to leave this sorrow in the old year so I don't turn into a crotchety bitter person over it, and then you walk on feeling all refreshed and bright no longer carrying it on your shoulders, but then the sorrow wanders after you like a child who was lost in the supermarket weeping its eyes out and it says to you where did you GO I was lost! I was lost and I missed you!!! and you can only sigh and take it by its hand and say to it very well. here's your seat. I'm sorry I left you behind, I promise it was with the best of intentions, but I want to do my best by you, so let's sit together and try to figure out what you're saying to me.

[demortuis]

looks at my hands. dorian being protective and tactile when it comes to the right people romantic or platonic wait listen i promise

[wizardnuke]

um personally i think that if your girlfriend is insecure over you being friends with another girl you should run far away really fast. but i may be misreading the situation. i don't think i am though.

[angelgendered]

Eeee this time tomorrow my train will be just leaving my local train station and I'll be on my way to London. I'm so excited, it's honestly silly. More rambling under the jump bc I didn't want people to have to scroll past this screed lmao

Something about travelling alone in my wheelchair for the first time further than birmingham makes me feel strangely emotional tbh. I can't pin what it is. Maybe that for nearly a year before my CES surgery I could barely walk and didn't have access to a wheelchair of any kind so I kind of just stagnated at home. And for two years+ before that I was suffering with such bad pain in my back that even with double crutches I could barely walk.

So now having this newfound freedom that a power wheelchair gives me? I feel on top of the fuckin world. Is it inconvenient when I can't just get an Uber or hop on the underground worry free? Yes. It's annoying as fuck. But also, there's ways around inaccessibility!

There are buses, and I'm fortunate that my chair has excellent suspension, making even bumpy pavements a breeze. Well. Except for the dreaded cobbles. Find me a wheelchair user that doesn't mind them and you'll have found a liar lmao.

I'm writing a lot of these long posts this week. Esp the past few days leading up to going to London. I think it's cause I genuinely didn't think I'd get here?? I thought I'd either be dead by now or forgotten by everyone except for my family.

I felt like I'd be house or bed bound entirely, (and probably would be were my mum not proactive in taking me to a and e and my consultant at stoke being so intent on operating kn me at like 7am the next morning,) because of my back and the pain I had back before my op.

I felt like no one would care- not friends or doctors or anyone. But I've been proven wrong by my rl and online friends and family and people like Hadley and I treasure all of them so much because they're all, in some part, key to the fact that I haven't become bedridden and more suicidal than I was at 28 29 anyway. I thought I'd be dead befoe I was 30, then I reached that milestone and kicked the can down the road saying I wouldn't live to 35.

Well now I'm very nearly 33. And I feel great tbh. I still have pain and fatigue and memory issues and diabetes and a myriad of other mh and physical issues but im HAPPY. I haven't been so happy since I was in my early 20s! I feel like my life has turned a corner and I'm over some kind of crossroads now. Things have changed wrt my health physically and mentally and being late diagnosed autistic, but it's soemthing im trying to take more in my stride now. The support of my loved ones is key to this, as is my freedom and independence.

I'm feeling mushy this morning, sorry if you read all of this.

[joojdraws]

Future Rarold and Mousey (1979) based on my headcanons and stuff! 🥔🌽💕

[aropride]

added my system blog to my pinned with my main url for the first time in 9 months 🫡 whther it will stay there very long remains to be seen

[waterfallofspace]

A Word-Filled Update

that no one's asking forrrr~

Sooooo, hiya~ ^^

Realized I kinda dropped out without much word, and wanted to give a lil update to anyone who may care, (and specifically to all the unfilled requests that have been sat in my inbox for months now T~T)

Dropping it under a cut because it gets quite long~ but I'll also TL;DR it with: been a bit burnt out, trying to get back into this, I apologize for all the unanswered asks, and I will be trying to get to the ones I can, but I'll be focusing more on trying to enjoy the process of making content~ Thank you to anyone who's stuck around <3

(Tw for brief mention of mental health/neurodivergencies~ nothing in depth or dark, but just incase anyone wants to avoid that <3)

Nothing serious has been going on, mostly just burn out and a bit of drama in main friend group, combined with free time just being a lot more limited recently~ (not a bad thing, most of it is because I'm getting to talk more with friends I've gotten closer to this past year~)

That said, I've been trying to get back into content, making it, reblogging it, etc, without letting it become all-consuming. I find, with the way my brain works, mostly to do to some wonderful neurodivergent tendencies, I tend to fall heavily into 'all of nothing' mentality.

This shows up in my day to day life, (ie: can't wash the dishes for weeks until I suddenly do them all in one day) and I've definitely noticed it with content creation. Need to write and finish a story in one go, record a wav as fast as possible, always afraid I'll lose that motivation.

But honestly? I love making content on here! And I'm not a huge blog, nor do I care if I am (at least trying not to, if I'm being painfully honest~) but I genuinely love making content. Whether it's just for me, a request that I am hoping one specific person will enjoy, or a story I write with a community in mind, I just love creating~

So, I'm trying to ease my way back into this! Bit by bit, let it be fun, and enjoyable, with less internal pressure to produce as much as I can, as fast as I can, and make it be perfect.

I won't lie and say 'numbers don't matter to me', if I'm honest, they do. But I'm learning more and more how to let it be about the content, and to just enjoy the process~ (and if people like it, that'll be a wonderful bonus!~)

Wooo this is getting so long, I apologize sincerely! Last thing, something I've mentioned a few times previously but never really let myself get into... requests~

I'm so honoured that people care about my content enough to have asked for things, and getting any ask, request, praise, ask lists, heck even just a 'hi!' is honestly the best part of this blog for me!

Buuuut, I definitely worked myself into burn-out before with a "every request needs to be filled and fast" mentality, that led to just... not filling any.

So! I'm going back through my inbox, and deleting some older ones that I don't have a clear vision/motivation for. I apologize to anyone who requested them, though by now it's possible they're long gone~ But I think this will help me not only start enjoying the creation process without feeling so overwhelmed, but also start actually getting more content made~

There are definitely a bunch that I still adore, and am thrilled to get to test out, but if there's one you remember sending, and you really want to see it completed, please feel free to send another ask saying what it is you want done, and I'll see if I can get that going <3

And if you've stuck it out to the end here- uh hi! ^^ I'm sorry this is so long, I'm such a words person, but I appreciate you so much, not just for any support you've offered, but just bothering to read this <3 I genuinely didn't expect most to make it this far, so thank you so deeply <3 and I hope to see you guys around as I start reblogging stuff more!~