#I have a friend who I love dearly
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
Unimportant Person
Unimportant words from unimportant people
Same problems, different days
Listening
I thought listening works
I thought that talking it out helped
But all it's done
is make you think you can dump everything on me
And make me hate talking to you
Unimportant thoughts from unimportant people
Every day, the same problems
I don't want to be disinterested
I want to be there for you
But you make me feel so powerless
And I'll never be able to save you
Unimportant person
Unimportant view
Unimportant words that I can say to you
Nothing matters
What's the point?
Because I'm an unimportant person
With unimportant words
With an unimportant will
and
unable
to
save
you.
Masterlist
#Ah#another old poem#I have a friend who I love dearly#but I never really could do anything to help her with her problems#and i would end up being a dump for her feelings or issues#It got to the point where any of my issues didn't seem important or special enough to be discussed#even though they were#I still love her dearly#but we don't talk that much anymore because I've distanced myself so much#original poem#my poetry#poems and poetry#poem#poems on tumblr#poemblr#poetryblr#writers and poets#writers on tumblr#writeblr#bit of a vent piece#Light's Poetry Corner
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
I love three houses discourse because I'm pretty sure everyone just picks their route based on which house leader they're the most gay for and then tries to defend their pick by pointing out the other sides's war crimes via twitter memes. Reader, all four of them do substantial quantities of war crimes. So many. We're just here because the woman with Issues and a big fuck-off axe said so, and then we gotta justify everything she did in the name of dismantling the class system. I mean, I'm here for that, but you could also try justifying Charm Man uses poison and perfidy to try to stop racism, A Sad Little Meow Meow gives no quarter instead of doing therapy, or the Thicc Pope tries to bring back her mom via human experimentation, depending on your tastes
#This is 100% swinging at a hell of a hornet's nest#Do I tag it?#Yeah fuck it we ball#fe3h#fe16#edelgard von hresvelg#claude von riegan#dimitri alexandre blaiddyd#rhea fire emblem#I should probably clarify that I love all of these characters quite dearly#Well except Rhea#I think she's a good character but I'm not feral about her like Edelgard or charmed by her like Claude or desperate to save her like Dimitr#discourse#edelgard discourse#Edit: I actually don’t care about 3H discourse either way lol#there’s plenty of interesting shit to talk about in this game#also I get that the people who say “x did war crimes” actually don’t mean “this was bad because it violated the Geneva Convention”#but any time I see something about how many war crimes someone did (usually Edelgard or Dimitri) I just think:#“Hah it’s a war crime to deploy Cyril to rescue Flayn because he’s still 14 then”#also I got into this game because someone told me ‘so there’s a gal with an axe and trauma’ and I booted it up#and I have a friend who likes Rhea despite his moral reservations solely because ‘she’s hot tho’#and that’s also really funny#point is I don’t really wanna participate in most fe3h discourse cuz I have shit to do but this post isn’t meant to be a dunk on anyone#I’m not upset when I see it; it’s either funny or fine or sometimes right#I’m just gay for Edelgard and amused by the idea of applying the Geneva Convention to a world where it Clearly Isn’t A Thing
269 notes
·
View notes
Text
I just need someone who understands, who really gets it someone who'll hold me through the worst of it all
#this feels ungrateful#i have plenty of friends who i love dearly who are really there for me#but sometimes i want somoene who gets it#who knows what it's like#someone who will hold me and hug me and not look away#i've been watching too much movies/shows#my expectations are too high#vent art#venting#mixed media#cptsd#ptsd
320 notes
·
View notes
Text
Yall we are actually getting new phineas and ferb this year I just remembered and am feeling like. Giddy, 2010s era joy about it 🥺🥺
#I truly thought pnf was ruined for me forever I’m just so glad it’s not🥺#it’s nice :)#phineas and Ferb#pnf#for a long time I was low key using phineas and Ferb to like. gain ‘fame’ (in quotes lmao bc I am not famous)#to gain friendships/relationships and what not#I saw it as a means to an end#and friends that’s not healthy whatsoever#not that making fandom friends is bad I love it I cherish all my fandom friends dearly!!!#but like. people who use fandom and people and friendship just to get ahead and build their platform that is fucked up#and I alllomost got sucked into that#I’m very glad I did not I’m just content now to be here and on insta and vibing#and to keep up my friendships with people just for the sake of being friends !!! and collaborating and making cool art on occasion ofc#and to appreciate pnf for what it is and not how it can elevate me#like I don’t want to turn my love of pnf into content for the sake of making me look cool#I want to make pnf content bc I want to make good art and express myself :)#also let the record show this isn’t about mwca I did an mwca project last month!!!#I’m very grateful for the opportunities mwca gave me like. having my work in the same videos as pnf cast and crew is pretty fucking sick😅😅😅#and I’m grateful for those friends!!!!#this is me reflecting on my personal state bc that stuff is so cool and awesome but it doesn’t define me ya know?
38 notes
·
View notes
Text
finally coming out as a dyke in 2023 is realizing i dont need to pretend to simp that Guy just because everyone else in my friend group does
#finally coming out as a dyke in 2023 is realizing i can be insane abt women the same way my friends are insane abt men#life changing#mochats#im sorry to my friends who think me simping that guy was genuine#i was just trying to fit in#its a good time to admit that 90% of the time i also dont care abt male characters same way how-#-some straight women dont care abt female characters#i refuse to waste my power on a guy everyone else cares about#im tired enough and i have assignments to do#if i become an outcast for only sparing my energy on women then so be it.#i care about my friends and love them gushing abt a Guy but i personally cannot be made to care in a way they do#not just because i think (often neglected) female characters deserve more of my attention but also because-#-my attraction does influence my interest LETS BE FR HERE#growing up is realizing that putting attention on things you dont care about#is exhausting#as fuck#and i kind of hated how i feel like i wasted my youth energy drawing characters idc abt to please others#now im just tired all the time#while wishing i can draw more women more often#so like#dont do that#draw and write what YOU want#btw its not that i dont care abt men i just have such low energy lately that if i care for anything else but women — it may be unfulfilling#live laugh fatigue#every time i see a guy fanart i scroll past life has never felt so good#(unless its by a friend which i will appreciate dearly i love my friends art and how passionate they r)
50 notes
·
View notes
Text
rb and put in tags the name of the stuffed toy(s) you sleep with
#i have quite a few on my bed but i sleep with jevil because hes the softest#kinger has a big cardboard plate in his head; spamton is verr spikey and caine has so many cardboard panels to help him keep his shape that#he is actively uncomfortable to sleep with akjhkhadfs#i love them all dearly tho#i like learning about things like this its interesting to realise that everyone around you has a life and memories and specific objects tha#mean a lot to them and why they mean so much to them#just every now and then i have the realisation that “heck everyone in the world is also living”#like that dude who you accidentally bumped on the way to co op. he has a life. he has a family. he went to school and he has friends#he woke up that morning and brushed his teeth and picked and outfit. maybe took his kids to school if he has any#he also had a chain of events that led him to that exact moment when you bumped into him#then you walk away and never see each other again. you go on with your day and keep going with your life and he does the same#woah i got very deep in the tags#reblog and put in tags#idk what to tag this with
51 notes
·
View notes
Text
I was thinking about it today and there is enough similarity between The King and Siffrin for something. I don't know what but there is something.
#the toucan squawks#isat#in stars and time#They're both from The Country of course#But also they both have rather similar reasons between their use of Time Craft#The King was afraid of losing the place and people he loved so dearly again and so he wanted to freeze it all so I couldn't happen again.#And Siffrin was afraid of loosing their family and so made a wish that he wouldn't have to face the loss of the people close to him again#There is something here#Like I think that Siffrin and The King could have switched places very easily#And also the fact that Siffrin only survived because they have people who love him#I feel like TheKing might have been a very lonely person before his antics/post Countryn't considering the lack of mention of anything/one#Near him or anyone he loved. I think he was too scared of the loss that comes with love and closeness and chose isolation which lead to the#Events of the game#I think that if The King had friends and people close to him then things would have worked very differently#In fact I think if he did have that then maybe Siffrin would have done something drastic instead#It's just Argh y'know#STARS it's such a good game
20 notes
·
View notes
Text
i’ve literally never talked about this on here but this quarter I’ve been taking a Harry Potter focused english lit class (truly a win for random uni english courses everywhere ) and today is the last day :( I’m gonna miss everything about that class but mostly the Professor.
He loves All the Young Dudes guys, hes a wolfstar truther, he’s one of us! 😭 how am i supposed thrive if I don’t see that dork every other day for 2.5 hours
#he’s the dorkiest academic#seriously i don’t have any other marauders-loving friends irl#he was the only one who understood#this nerd demonstrated martial art moves in a suit in front of the whole class to show us why he liked the elemental bending in avatar#harry potter class#i’ll miss you dearly Philip#he loves the adventure zone#loving the McElroy brothers is a green flag#he’s such a silly little guy#english lit class#harry potter#all the young dudes#marauders era#the marauders#he’s one of us#marauders fandom
66 notes
·
View notes
Text
When I got my first job at 16, I was suffering with severe depression and suicidal ideation of all kinds. I was a shell of a person that hated and dreaded every waking moment of my life. Every breath felt like a waste of time
During my days of training, I was blessed with incredible coworkers that brought me out of socially anxious shell and really showed me the fun of working in the industry. One of these people is a family member of mine, though not related by blood
I didn’t know him then. We probably said “hi” to each other once or twice at a family gathering and maybe had one awkward side hug since he joined the family. That was the extent of it
But through work, I attached myself to him. He became my comfort. Who and what I looked forward to every shift. I was a stupid, depressed teen who swore like a sailor, and yet he, in his abounding grace and love, showed me those qualities every shift. There was equal amounts of teaching as there was snark, playful insults, and remarks. He made me laugh enough in one shift that set me for the week
It’s been quite a few years since I was that age, of that mentality, and since we’ve worked together as coworkers. Tonight, he sat beside me at a Christmas Eve party as a tease, and we laughed a lot. We threw toys at each other, shared half a brain cell, and laughed so, so hard at each others antics
He has no idea the extent that 16 y/o me loved and treasured him. He probably still doesn’t, and I don’t know if I’ll ever tell him. But boy is it sweet to hear his laugh and to eat Christmas ham beside him and know that his presence is something that I owe a little bit of my life to
#the last 3 or 4 days have been exceedingly long and busy#so forgive me. but he is someone I’ll talk about for forever#I really really love him#i came home from every shift and texted my best friend every little thing that happened between he and I#he was who and what I found joy in#and while I only see him on occasion anymore#I love him so so dearly. one of the best guys I know#and not just for how I’ve experienced him. but for who he is. he’s wonderful#absolutely wonderful#nobody’s listening L
14 notes
·
View notes
Text
It's scary sometimes how closely a song can resemble your life experience of something
#vent#Well never have sex#by#leith ross#nearly perfectly describes my relationship with all physical touch#i dearly miss the people i know would love me the same no matter what parameters i ask them to follow#i care deeply for the people near me who im friends with#but a lot of them can only feel that love and care is real with physical touch#and i understand that#i feel the most myself when im with people who i feel physically safe with#but conversations about how much they need physical touch especially when theyre centered around me#immediately trigger the part of me that feels like physical touch can only be transactional#really this needs to be a more open conversation#but i don't think theyd be able to handle that#svampp posts
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
How fortunate am I to have so many Things to love and be excited about, to appreciate and look forward to?
Things I feel so strongly about that they stumble into my mind, univited, at random times of the day? Things that spill into my speech and vocabulary without me noticing? Things that impact my vision to the point where everywhere I look, everywhere I go, I see ghosts of them?
How lucky am I to have so many Things I love and cherish enough for them to reshape my very person, change my beliefs and make me grow? Things that make my own loved ones see the Things out in the wild, and go out of their way to make sure I see them too?
How wonderful is it that I have Things that I love so much that the very act is deemed and dubbed "not normal", making my love for them seem like it's more than they are supposed to recieve? An out-of-the-ordinary and above-the-norm appreciation for the Things that make the people around me shake their heads, call me "silly".
My dear, beloved Things, may I always stay silly for you ❤️
#yes this is yet another post about legendborn lmao#but also one of my friends sent me a post with a reminder to log into Genshin today#just to get the birthday-greeting card for one of my/my favorite character#and they send me this because even though it's my favorite character#this person also knows I don't actually play genshin that much and knows that I would probably miss it if they didn't remind me 🥺🥺#and my friends let me yap about Legendborn the other day lol#and my fellow legendbornian-in-crime commented on my insta story about annotating the book that “noone loves this series more than you”#which ofc isn't *TRUE* true but it still made me feel all fuzzy lol#my parents also got me a few sets of silver earrings for christmas bcs I mentioned in passing I wanted more silver jewelry#and one of the pairs they got me was with owls because Owl City has been one of my favorite artists since forever#and I THRIVED in 2012-fashion bcs the owl jewelry was fkn EVERYWHERE and I got SO MANY because it made me think of Owl City lol#and my brother got me The Book Of Bill bcs both he and I love Gravity Falls SO MUCH#I just love ✨️ loving ✨️ things I guess#so this post is very much a love letter to my special interests and hyperfixations <333#currently have had 'Tears Run Dry' by Patrik Jean on repeat for the past 2 or so days bcs it's fkn STUNNING#but it also makes me think about my friend's ArleFuri fic bcs it just fits so welll 😭😭#and at the same time (and the reason I have it so within reach lol) is bcs I have added it to an OC's playlist for a story I'm writing#I have so damn many things I love and I almost start crying thinking about how fortunate I am to have all these things I love so dearly#and live in a time where all of these things exist and I get to experience them all at a moment's notice#and just simply get to indulge in fandom behaviour and have people around me who also LET ME do that#i love hearing people yap about what they're passionate about regardless if I know what it is or not#like how beautiful isnt it to see someone's eyes sparkle and looking like they're itching all over because they simply can't help it#they just can't contain their love and passion for the Thing ??? absolutely incredible#tove rambles#oh and don't fkn get me started on how 'Dream Catcher' by Set It Off basically is the reason I'm so determined to become one#and it being part of how I made my 17-year old self believe I could actually do what I CURRENTLY DO nearly 10 years later
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
when ryuu says “i’m not doing this for you” to kazuma ohhh my god.. he became a lawyer for kazuma’s sake but it’s not about him anymore and maybe it hasn’t been for a long time….
ryuu starts this journey as a substitute. a locum student lawyer. he says himself, when he first came to great britain he was “nobody”. all he had was a dream that wasn’t his a huge shoes to fill. in those first few days, he was an outsider, both in and out of the courtroom. in the courtroom, he’s merely the fill-in, substitute for his best friend, a truly brilliant lawyer, while he himself is a stranger to law as a profession. outside the courtroom he is a foreign man in a strange country, a fact that he is constantly reminded of by those around him.
in every way that matters, ryuunosuke naruhodo is an outsider.
those few precious moments in the courtroom however, change things. it is, perhaps, the only place where ryuu can prove himself. the only place where he can show what he is capable of and prove that he is worth something more. for these moments, ryuu becomes not just a “locum student” but a defence attorney in his own right. and he’s good at it!
he proves just how capable he is and more than that, he becomes passionate about it. he learns and grows through his time in the legal system and develops his own beliefs and goals. through law, he finally forms an identity for himself outside of being a mere substitute and an outsider. he’s a lawyer now, an advocate of truth. he’s grown magnificently into his own man.
“i’m not doing this for you. i’m doing it for the truth”
and it’s true. ryuunosuke is now a lawyer in his own right and is serious about his pursuit of the truth. it’s not about kazuma and his dream, not anymore. maybe it hasn’t been for a long time.
#im so so soooooo normal by the way#i love ryuu so dearly. can u tell he’s my favourite aa protag….#did i mention that im so normal#it just so. asoryuu drives me crazy. your my best friend but i have no idea who you are and maybe i never did.#i did all this for you but in it i found myself and maybe that’s more important.#ahahahahhahahahahahhahahahahahhahahahahha WOW um still nromal btw#aa#ace attorney#the great ace attorney#dai gyakuten saiban#ryunosuke naruhodo
104 notes
·
View notes
Text
procrastination is starting to have its consequences finally
#on my friends living room floor they love together but one of them has been london for weeks or maybe months#to be with her love. im on a foam mattress from one of their beds next to a glass bottle of water opened by one of them#in a mug given to me by another. the weather felt like my childhood today and it also felt like 2 years ago.#(put space in the heavens Einstein's idea and hes your friend too so nothing to fear) around the table they drank and laughed and i thought#i hope you keep growing so full with the love you receive . i hope your appetite becomes insatiable from how used to it you are#and i know youre all leaving soon but i hope one day you miss this and that youll be happy you miss it#its worth missing i think#i thought he didnt care but he said after exams hes going walk around this area over and over#(this is near where he lived and where we visited almost daily for a year)#(hed come across the bridge on a lake)#we went where she used to live and at the entrance a fox sat calmly. it just yawned and stared.#it felt important somehow. i think maybe their impressions of me will never be close to how i feel inside but i think#i love them enough for that not to matter. i dont think theyll ever know this. i dont think if they did it would change much.#and seeing them smile makes my heart glow anyway. today i tried their malaysian tea the ginger burned my throat#they warmed my heart. hes going to canada soon and hes going to the US soon and shes going everywhere soon ill never understand#how were supposed to live with memories and with seperation and with the past but we do it anyway so i think it doesnt matter much#i wanted to write a poem for the lab rats with the fibre optic wires lit with blue forcing them to turn around and around#something about how im sorry that the two photon arrays burned the inside of your brain. im sorry about the sharp points of multielectrode#arrayes. im sorry about everything we do to you. she asked to see me tomorrow. im trying to have self control but i miss her so awfully#last night my friend talked to me and i updated on everything that happened with love and the lack of it and she just started laughing#and she told me about the same thing from her side. and she told me about how she loved london because she would walk the streets#and she felt like the people were her. and her eyes would go over the people and the bag of bagels and the construction men they probably#have a kid at home maybe shes a daughter. this kid is crying for her mother and the building you just walked past caused#blisters and pain and people died in it and very likely people were born in it. we talked for hours and i felt like#i was holding her hand just like that time she held mine watching a horror film. i love her so much#my friend is a genius and i remember her picking up the charms of my phone and staring at the leaf hanging from them. shes side stepping to#music drinking dangerous cider and cocktails from a movie and chit chatting with billionaires and undergrads#i love her dearly. his head covered in electrodes. she tells me about a syrian guy shes in love with and she says#what you feel and what i feel is like cocaine. ive tried a lot of fucking cocaine.#she says ive reminded her of what living actually feels like and to never put energy into someone who doesnt see me this way.
32 notes
·
View notes
Text
looks at my hands. dorian being protective and tactile when it comes to the right people romantic or platonic wait listen i promise
#hello i have been so busy. i want to engage more however.#i have stuff in my drafts and am getting used to a new work schedule.#but I've been thinking. and may reiterate this more than once so please forgive me.#i believe in all kinds of love. as someone who loves my friends very dearly. outside of romance is especially interesting.#and it will obviously be interaction to interaction. but. the journey.#dorian learning how to get and be close to people and having to learn more about himself and personal boundaries or likes.#vulnerability is so scary wow wahoo but my god once he's there? the attention to detail and the care and loyalty.#the strength to band together or learn how to be apart and know the relationship will hold true. despite.#sits down. that's all#i may promo myself soon but omg scary#happy Tuesday!#mobile.
10 notes
·
View notes
Text
Future Rarold and Mousey (1979) based on my headcanons and stuff! 🥔🌽💕
#today's 18 months in a row i love rarold so dearly#it just is crazy in the best kinda way#thanks to my friends and everyone else who always have been so supportive of me since day one#your words are always melting my heart ❤️#be kind my neighbor#bkmn#1979 au#rarold#rarold bkmn#bkmn rarold#raroldverssary#mousey#oc x canon#corntato#art#procreate#jooj draws
26 notes
·
View notes
Text
um personally i think that if your girlfriend is insecure over you being friends with another girl you should run far away really fast. but i may be misreading the situation. i don't think i am though.
#i may be misreading. all i know is she got pissed at my friend while we were hanging out but friend has mentioned that she's 'got#trauma over being cheated on' which is understandable but we have been friends for a year and also i go out of my way to try and make this#girl understand i want to be her friend and i'm not trying for anything. i have a fucking bf. she has met my bf. she has seen how i am#around my bf vs around her gf. we r legit just friends. what the fuck man. please be normal and don't stress ur gf out like this. it's mean#:( idk all i know for sure is she said something that upset her while i was out of earshot but im using context clues and im not stupid.#genuinely i think she is misreading some stuff. yes me and her gf/my friend get along really really well but it's like.. two kids who met i#a playplace kind of way. we do shenanigans and talk about stuff. i do not want to fw her. i am not willing to fw such a heavy smoker.#i love her dearly but sometimes i think she is- love and light- incredibly pretentious in a way that irritates me a little. fine for a#friend. intolerable in a partner. many reasons why i would never. also I HAVE A BOYFRIEND. THAT I AM SO SERIOUS ABOUT.#insulting to me. honestly. but i could be misreading but i don't think i am.#and insulting as fuck to her gf who is head over heels possibly blindly in love with her my god.#idk i just don't trust that she isn't still insecure about me. and i don't like that she said something upsetting while we were having fun.#i don't like it.#girl i dont want your gf for so many reasons. also i am in a relationship what the fuck girl. what the fuck do you think of me. and also#have some fucking trust in your own gf. insane behavior. insane. she would never ever cheat on her she is possibly one of the most honest#and like. morally sound people i have ever met. she would never. it's so fucked up to think that of her.
8 notes
·
View notes