#I forgot how good it feels to be me (draw lesbians)

[egonkula]

every time I draw them from the side, boobs call to me like the green goblins mask

[hoodedjelly]

my Jenny, Tuck, Brad, Shelden, and Vega older designs ^__^

i'm watching mlaatr, still not done, i think i got like 10 more eps (and if i'm being transparent i skipped around eps... i just wanted to see vega...). And i'm absolutely loving the show!!!! i love these characters a lot, didn't like Shelden at first i'm going to be honest, #1 Shelden hater for a bit there. but he chilled out in season two and i started to ship breldon with that too so now i just love him so much.

more about my personal headcanons:

Jenny: - I am under the belief that she is transgender. Jenny was made genderless, so her deciding to be a girl was strictly her choice and i believe that makes her trans. (She's also a lesbian) - she did grow a bit, im not gonna explain how idc really i just liked her being a taller lady :-) - she has A LOT of different cute outfits and hair styles, honestly too much to draw. she never transforms back into her base show outfit when crime fighting, she just fights in her cute summer dress she don't care. - her and vega are dating grrgrgrrrr - when vega is in rule she makes it so there is complete free access between earth and cluster prime for citizens in both places. - I say that cause i think when jenny is older she moves in with vega, technically living in cluster prime but visits earth like everyday. And brad/shelby/tucker/wakeman visit cluster prime - Jenny also hangs out with the nicktoons unite gang, but i deffo feel like its just that secondary friend group that you don't talk to with for months. when you talk again its the same goofiness as before - i think danny calls for her help when he needs it (also manny) Tuck: - he is still a little shit but we love him - adhd boy - questioning cis (he/him) - he got into robotics/stem and builds little silly things - with that, he gets help from Shelby - pretty much just a silly teen, he's on the internet a lot and has "cringe" interests - but idk he's having fun and being silly and finding himself (those interests is stuff like sonic and among us) Shelden(Shelby) - honestly kinda nervous about ppl thoughts on my Shelden, idk it makes so much sense in my brain - hits you with the transfem beam (she/they) Pansexual (she just wants anyone type of vibe) - I think when jenny is visiting vega often that leaves Shelby and Brad hanging out alone a lot. which they don't mind honestly, they are actually good friends! - but during that they just get closer and start catching feelings. Shelby eventually lets go of her feelings about jenny and realizes they were a real jerk and weirdo to her. brad helps them through that and eventually her realizing she's trans. blah blah they in love and kiss at some point. - Shelby is also a furry lmaooo her fursona is a cat.

Brad: - bisexual cis man (he/him) - Still his old brad self if i'm being honest. - totally forgot to say i think all 3 of them go off to college together (even though jenny doesn't have to i feel like she would prob want to just for the experience, but tell me if you think differently i'm still unsure) - i really don't know what else to say sorry brad! he's literally just as silly as ever man. he's just also gay - i will say here i feel it takes a lot longer for shelby and brad to start dating then jenny and vega. they got that slow burn kinda shit going on, since a lot of that is shelby being confused about her feelings. and jenny and vega just hit it off right away if im being honest, very high school sweethearts. - (also i think shelby makes brad make a fursona to match hers, so brad got a dog fursona)

Vega: - Lesbian cis (she/her) - That ending of her just ruling cluster prime was just so crazy to me cause like, aint she like 16? - i think she has a lot of stressed nights and fearing she's not doing the right thing for her people, and jenny tries to help as much she can - that is why jenny visits so much, she wants to help her. - very much got those nights were she accidently falls asleep at her desk, jenny finding her and giving her a blanket and a kiss goodnight - it's not like she's unhappy, she is actually very very passionate about her work and wants to NOT be like her mom - and yeah she deffo goes to robo therapy for the stuff with her mom. - i think it's a conflict where vega is scared her mom is gonna come back and jenny has to reassure her that if she does they'll get rid of her for good.

imma be honest a lot of my hcs are pretty half-baked and random things, im sure im going to think of more stuff in the future but that will be in different posts.

[anonymouscheeses]

Exorcist gang! (I'm so sorry it took forever to get to your ask. I kind of dropped the au for a long time and just now got the motivation to pick it up again.)

Right on the money! I just narrowed it down to three because I can't do anymore(lazy ahh). But they can't actually drive motorcycles because none of them have a drivers license so they just try to seem badass by saying they are a biker gang. All christian but they have no idea how it works and do things looked down upon by the christian community. Left Victoria. Middle Stephanie. Right Kamaria. Kamaria got a tattoo of the upside down cross to seem cool but she knows it's St. Peter's cross so it's kind of a double meaning for her. I also gave Kamaria three toned lips because I jst found out that exists and I had to include that in some character. Atleast one.

Maybe one day I'll draw them as angels just to do it.

For context, they are exes 😫

Are there still feelings? Kind of, they just aren't over eachother yet. Right now tho they are mainly enemies. Valerie(Vaggie) is kind of like Blitzø(relationships wise), but less of an asshole. It was mostly her fault they broke up though. She was uninterested and embarrassed by Kamaria almost all the time so ofc Kamaria doesn't stand for shit and ended it before it got worse. Valerie is like that with Charlie in some ways, but of course that's for growth purposes.

Oh also Valerie dated Lute too before she dated Kamaria so it's just this entire problem within the group bro.. Like, Lute is not over Valerie and not in a "I am in love with u still." Way, but in a "I hate the way you walk, the way you talk, I hate the way dress-" ahh way(and in an i am still in luv wit u way but shh). Lute has no idea why Valerie broke up wit her ass and takes it out on Kamaria. Kama takes no shit and bounced out that place quickly. Good for her ig. She still an asshole too, anger issues ahh, everyone except Charlie(until the vee accident 😏)deserves a kick in the ass.

Pretend Charlie is in her human form. I'm still workshopping it right now! 😔 so yeah nobody else except Valerie knows she's a demon jst so you know!

Chaggie aren't dating yet! But they will one day 😈

For now it's kind of just pining. On both sides ofc.

"So it mine el" we say in unison.

PLEASE TELL ME SOMEONE GETS THE REFERENCE?? THIS IS SO AWKWARD NOW...

Helmets and glasses off! I think they look pretty nice but im not great at making my own character designs from ground up. Which is why I havent shown my actual own OC's. Victoria is trans because I said so. Kamaria is probably Lesbian but she doesn't know yet, it's kind of a label she uses until she knows for sure (so me). And Stephanie is Stephanie (she don care. She don kno 💀). I FORGOT THE FLAME ON KAMARIA'S JACKET RAAAA.

They also all have a picture on the back of their jackets that's jst wings and a halo. So do with that what you will.... if u wanna make fanart that is..... pls..... I'm begging..... jk but it would still be cool lmao.

They used to be in a gang with Adam and Lute but after Valerie was beat up real bad by Lute they all decided to just part ways. Not on good terms... So it's just Adam and Lute now who jst act like they are all that when they cant pack a punch at all 😒. I'll show Adam and Lute's designs in the next update (or somewhere) but that's all I have right now. I can't wait to draw the duo ughhhh‼️‼️‼️

(I have also changed a few things from my original idea, so if your a hxd au og from the first like... 3 posts I made abt it then ya... there's major changes. I'll go through them deeper in my next updates on this au!)

[tobias-wants-to-write]

Hey just letting anyone whose interested know: I have a side blog for short original stories. This blog is for original stories but its more about my books I want to write or are currently writing like Alma's Grave. (By the way if you want to hear more about that or want updates just send me an ask)

My side blog is @here-have-some-stories. I have about three stories on there, two of them complete and one of them still in progress, but chapters come out like chapters on A03.

The first one is Silent Laughter. Silent Laughter is a short horror about a sleep paralysis demon and a boy named Jimmy I think. I forgot my own characters name. He's pretty much alone in the town and is slowly being hunted and tormented by the demon. A lot of it is cliches but I'm actually kind of proud on how it turned out. That one is complete so if it sounds interesting and you wanna go check it out, you can read the full thing right now.

The next one is Massacre Masquerade. This ones my favourite. I actually care about the story and I love the characters. This one is about a kind of alternate universe where there are modern day knights. The new knights who are just about to start their jobs are having a masked ball as a celebration. The disasters that are not accidents start to happen and people get murdered. The building gets put on lockdown and no one can leave until they find a clue of who did it. The murderer planned multiple "accidents" though, and while everyone is locked inside, more murders occur. The main characters are Deacon, Leon and Bailey. The entire thing is a murder mystery, and I'm proud of this one as well, even though this is the other one that isn't complete. I've already planned everything about this story and I'm excited for when I get it finished. If this sounds like the type of thing you're interested in, then go check it out and rate my writing skills. Also it is a gay romance as well, but that's not the main point its just a bit on the side which is how I like my romance

My other story is a two parter called Paper Love. Paper Love is heavily inspired by that one queer animation about those drawings who are in love and try to be together, I can't remember what it's called. Paper Love is about two drawings, one a fairy and the other a steampunk elf and they could see each other from across the room since they are hung up on different walls, and even though they don't know each other, they're pretty much already in love. And yes, this is also queers. They're my pretty little lesbians. Go read it if you want.

I also have two short stories I wrote in English that I felt like posting:

The Slide - Something about murder that happened on a slide (read the warnings)

Just Need Time - Something about depression and getting help with that

If any of this sounds interested, feel free to go and check out that blog. I very much welcome it, and not a lot of people have read it so I'm trying to find more people to read it and give me feedback on whether its good or not.

[pillowsresearch]

MORE INFO UNDER THE CUT 💤

LAST UPDATED JULY 21 2024, INTERACTS FROM @kirbytripledeluxe

pillow is a (breathe in.....) gender apathetic transfem aroace lesbian. it primarily uses she/it, but if you use a different pronoun she won't really care. in fact she will give you a thumbs up before walking away to go blow someone up. it also likes girls despite not being at all interested in a relationship. this means no shipping!

she's also slightly aplatonic and has very little empathy. and she doesn't acknowledge boundaries well. doesn't mean it can't do good, though (no matter how uncomfortable it is)

she has ocd! mostly based on my own lived experience with it. her compulsions often have to do with good/bad luck.

the part of its face that got torn off in tpot 9 was never fully recovered due to how bad the damage was. it will take a few more recovers or an actually good stitching job to fully heal it. the eye on that side is fully blind for the time being because of this! tbh i just kinda use it as an excuse to draw some cool scars EHHEHEHE

i am under the impression that she would NOT kill as gleefully if recovery wasnt so readily available. its a genuine effort to help out alongside satisfying her curiosity.

she can indeed read and write because i say so

tba

no nsfw, shes asexual and this is an all ages show. settle down

please dont bring up emeto stuff. rocky dni /hj (mentions of feeling sick is fine in the right contexts, but please at least ask first in dms or something)

breaking the timeline IS allowed! this blog is meant to take place at least post tpot-12 but i can make exceptions

magic anons are allowed but please dont be too excessive with them

you are totally allowed to get bloody and gory with it. i am a pillow tpot fan i love when theres blood at the function

that being said, that is not her entire personality and id rather it not be treated like that. and keep in mind that death is fairly common in the bfdi universe, unless i or another RPer choose to treat it seriously, its really not that serious

if i ignore an ask, im either saving it or dont know how to answer it. or i just dont want to. or i forgot. theres a lot of reasons i could be doing that.

whether i treat this blog as a joke or not will depend on the day, PLEASE be normal if im treating it seriously.

ooc messages are marked with . well. ooc. i am not canon to bfdi please do not have characters acknowledge me

tba

ill come up with a tag system as i go .......

[mugeesworld]

One Piece Fans Green & Red Flags!!

I seen someone do this on tiktok and thought I would do some of my takes😋 this is as a joke so don't take it to heart

Also these are HELLA specific so don't ask how I know I just do ok

Green

The one piece fans that are still in alabaster and instead of watching one piece they are scrolling on the tiktok # of it. +extra points if you're already doing fanart of them.

non binary luffy/chopper fans (quite silly people I enjoy your company. You probably have a saved collection of videos of cats with silly sounds. Don't lie to me ik you do)

Asexual Zoro and luffy fans

Platonic Nami and luffy shippers (ya know like brother sister dynamic)

Female plus size sanji fans (cough cough me. But I've seen all y'all out their. You freaky bitches)

Usopp fans (enough said)

People that love the usopp and Nami bestie duo.

Dadan fans (period)

People that make fanart of zoro and chopper being cute

People that draw robin with that one nose shape and also draw her like that one lady from criminal minds.

FROBIN SHIPPERS (RAHHHHH🔥🔥⁉️⁉️⁉️🗣️🗣️)

Trans men Franky fans (you started wearing button ups over t-shirts huh. Elite style and funny as hell)

Female Franky shippers (Bless y'all. Y'all my favs probably. Making the best edits I swear. Probably looking for a man's like Franky cause you kin robin)

LESBIAN NAMI FANS (PLEASE LOVE ME ALL Y'ALLS COSPLAYS BE EATING SO HARD BABES)

Nami x Vivi shippers (yeah😋)

Introverted female robin fans (hit my line)

Female buggy fans

Trans men zoro fans

FEMALE OR TRANS MASC WHITEBEARD STAN'S (very rare to come across. Y'all great but y'all need to heal your dad issues)

People that don't leave out Franky, jinbei, and brook in writing stuff

People that write for Franky in general.(he needs more love)

Marco simps (brave soliders right here. You really picked that mf? Yeah me you. IT'S ABOUT PERSONALITY OK???)

Sanji fans that actually find his training arc fun and not gross

Female Mihawk stans (naughty gal😼 you like them cold)

You know what?! Any trans masc one piece fan that picked a character and was like. Yep! He's literally me! Im literally him!

Jinbei fans (you guys are either sweethearts or middle school boys(the mean kind)

Brook fans that do fanart. (See cause y'all gonna eat every time)

Bon clay fans that actually like him and don't just make fun of him.

I forgot his name. Umm Coby? I think? Yeah Coby fans.

Rayleigh simps (insert sound *I'm so hungry I could eat at Arby's! She really is hungry!* Me too girl me too.)

Same for garp ^

The people that been making the shanks love actions edits 😋

People that make corecore/hopecore edits of one piece

Ik I've said it a bunch but the drawing community that has been carrying the one piece fandom on tiktok. (Ty for blessing us)

Plus size one piece fans +points if you cosplay

That hot old lady that took chopper in and the hot old lady with Rayleigh fans. (Those two would be such good friends and serve some major cunt. Drawers! Get to it you know what to do.)

Red

Sanji and zoro fans that ARE CONSTANTLY BICKERING IN COMMENT SECTIONS ABOUT POWER LEVELS AND BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH SHUT UP

People that feel the need to tell sanji fans about Fishman Island every chance they get as if other characters don't have their red flags. I said it.

That one person in every comment section with a luffy profile pics saying the most absolutely rude or embarrassing thing ever like "post the on IG reels" (you are immature and not in a good way like luffy)

Zoro fans that's also like Patrick Bateman for the wrong reason

"Yamato is a woman" ("we'll actually Oda said 🤓" EHHHHHHHH *family Feud buzzered noise.* GET OUT)

People that shit on the one piece live action cast. (specifically the ones complaining about nami and her sister. BOY I OTTA!)

People that talk shit about big mom just cause she fat. Like babes so is your mom....

People that still watch one piece and try to say how much they love it but are racist, homophobic, transphobic. When one of the biggest things for luffy is to not be judgemental. You are not him⁉️🗣️ you are a asssss

Akianu fans.

MOST black beard fans (I ain't forgiving no one for what he did to whitebeard I'm not hearing it)

"Zoro would kill the whole crew for luffy🤓" would you kill your whole friend group/family for your best friend/mom or dad..... I didn't think so.

People that hate on English dub watchers. I'm a slow reader y'all. Plus it's hella funny.

People that weren't at least a little mad about GARPS actions in marine ford.

Nami x luffy. Robin x Law. And robin x zoro shippers. Also Any gross illegal ones with gross age gaps.

Thats all I can think of right now!

[dognonsense]

My original folkpunk song Train Track Diorama

its about how my bus stop was being redone so they keep skipping it now when im taking the bus home, so instead i have to take a route where i take the train tracks home.

When walking home i like to listen to folkpunk and sing as loud I want cause ill often be heading home at 1am and be like ah yes karaoke time on the train tracks.

But when its not 1am and brighr out I'll hunt for train spikes since i think they look cool. The most I collected was twenty in one day but i changed it to nineteen because i enjoy lying and think its a funner number to say. I think I have about 30 spikes total. I keep 4 spikes in my bedroom inside the diorma box that i keep random crap i find. Sometimes i take photos and draw whats there. I also pick up random thrown away toys, art supplies and bits and bobs :3

the chorus is kiss me with teeth, rip into me and take a bite, show me a fight. i like to bite :33 monch monch I'm a puppy girl i bite what can i say. I guess its kind of an exploration into my own repressed sexuality of growing up in singapore and having so much of sexuality being taboo, to the point where if i kissed ppl with teeth theyd always be like woah omg ive never kissed someone like that ur such a violent kisser and its just so weird. Repression of sexuality and all that and just outright yelling KISS ME WITH TEETH!!! and i also really like the imagery of teeth. I have a human teeth necklace and about 10 fake tooth necklaces!

I feel like I should reveal that I am stoned right now writing this. So stoned that i was meant to be grinding my weed and got 4 nugs in it before writinf this essay. And now my cat is yelling at me from outside my door. Allow me to compose myself. I was always meant to be watching ruthless lesbians on the button by film cooper on youtube. My life is so busy yall. I have to watch youtube, smoke weed, and post on tumblr ALL AT ONCE!!! I dont know how I manage it.

I forgot where I was in the song. Oh then! Look up at the ceeeeling! Greet the spiders!! Im looking up right now and there she is a cobweb with a spider above me in my bed. I'm working on having a good relationship with spiders and treating them as friends since they kill bugs.

oh but im new to spiders because in singapore our lil bug eater is a gecko! So growing up in the tropics ur little geckos live in ur house year round and eat ur bugs hide behind paintings and stuff. I was going to add a verse about how my dad tried to train a gecko in his room by killing ants for it and leaving them out and leaving bottle caps woth water out for it. My dad was not a fan of ants. It was very silly of him.

hope you enjoyed this deep dive into train track diorama with your favourite folk punk jester: Meme!!!

[variousqueerthings]

favourie movies i watched for the first time in the first half of 2024

(yeah I originally wrote this post in July and forgot to finish it, shhhhh ignore the date)

a death in the gunj: i went into this one not knowing what was going to happen. it's a profile of a young man who doesn't fit in the world around him, portrayed in a microcosm of familial events -- it was so intensely emotional and set off a lot of the underlying thematic thread of this year's watching

beau travail: this is one of the "top 100 movies lists" movies that i watched and i spent a good deal of it wondering where it was going and what it was exactly doing and we get to the final scene and my mind suddenly flips and goes "oh it's been doing it the whole time!!!" it's a film that felt like i was soaking in it, rather than watching something chronological or putting together a puzzle. white, colonialist toxic masculinity in djibouti and homoeroticism

maurice (vietnamese film club extended edition): i've seen maurice sans these scenes before, but then this youtube channel uploaded a version with the deleted scenes spliced in and ohhh my goodness it gives so much more Moreness to the whole story. i also read the book for the first time afterwards and truly the movie follows it so closely, but yeah. there's something special about maurice, on a meta level as well as quality. doubly so with the deleted scenes

to kill a mockingbird: yeah yeah i'd never seen it before, duh it's a really good movie. tbh i do think there's something in the water of more classic hollywood Cinema. a messy af place, but i'm a sucker for the beautiful acting, astounding scores, the sincerity of the story and the acting. it's a perfect film

the watermelon woman: interestingly, on the flipside of the "movies that mean something" scale, about as non-hollywood as you'll get, a movie about who gets remembered in movies, a movie about documentation, a movie that wanted to make a documentary, but instead is making a movie about trying to make a documentary (that isn't a documentary), a movie about black lesbians throughout history, a movie that was nearly impossible to find for awhile (god bless piracy), a movie about in/visibility

southern comfort: a documentary about the final year of robert eads, who died of what would have been initially treatable ovarian cancer, but who had been told he didn't need his ovaries removed and then later was denied treatment until it was too late. this is incredibly sad, yes, but it's also a movie about the trans south, a community documentation that feels incredible in its existence, a group of people who would risk being forgotten were it not for the hungry, beautiful need to document

the zone of interest: one of two oscar-nominated movies on this list, i had never heard of this term before, which was shocking to me -- but even moreso when i realised how few people in my life knew about the term either. this film is not-about auschwitz from the pov of its commandant, rudolf höss and his family, and about how easy it is to casually dehumanise. the director - a jewish man named jonathan glazer - faced censure for drawing parallels between his movie and the treatment of palestinians, especially considering Big Walls

fahra: a movie based on the real-life recollections of a survivor of the first nabka. fahra gets locked in a cellar while her village is overrun by troops and tries desperately to get out and find her father. the way it's told -- almost never leaving the cellar -- is both deliberate in that this is what happened, but it also serves as an intimate eye through which the audience is given perspective on some of the violence perpetrated during the first nabka and since

the advocate for fagdom: a documentary/portrait of bruce la bruce, the creation of queercore, queer punk scenes in the american 80s, tbh it's just a good time and a good insight into history -- particularly enjoyed the bit where they talked about queer already being not radical enough in the 90s and wanting to shake things up. *glances at corporate queer* oh little did they know (or maybe they did)...

monkey man: i was not necessarily the only trans person at the screening of this film i was at, but i was definitely outnumbered by heterosexual couples and we'll never know what the other cinema-goers felt about it, but this being mainstream-but-not. mainstream, in that dev patel is a name that draws audience, not in that this was all his production and certainly not a massive budget film for what it was doing. mainstream in its cool action set-pieces, not in that it's politically right in your face. dev patel is hot, also

the holdovers: the other oscar-nominated film and one i feel went waaay under the radar. hearkened back to an older era of american film-making that wasn't in a hurry, that had a simple story with deep reservoirs of feeling to tell, with quirky (but real) characters going through things together. the fact that it's set around the vietnam war makes that image even stronger. i just felt things. movie emotions, the emotions you get when you're watching such a solid fucking Movie, yaknow? *harry styles voice* It's a Movie

desire lines: gay trans men and mascs and gay saunas and lou sullivan and documentary but also the story of a middle-aged iranian trans guy who meets a younger american trans guy in an archive and they bond and he gets invited to the trans night at the sauna, i was so emotionally overcome by this film that i couldn't go back to the film festival i was at the entire rest of the weekend (two whole days i missed after this film got to me!!!) where do you hear gay trans men and masc stories? ever???

femme: fucked up gay revenge story in which a black drag queen (played oh so fucking well by nathan stewart-jarrett who is getting what's his after being done dirty by misfits back in the day, oof my boy is killing it in angels of america, in candyman, in this gem!) is hatecrimed by a group of white homophobes, and then proceeds to meet the leader of them in a gay bathhouse... oh if you can deal with the delicious tension of it (practically nonstop) it's so so worth it

secretary: first of two james spaders i watched for the first time, making me come to the realisation that mr spader is a Freak and so so good. a young woman yet to uncover her latent sub-side (the great maggie gyllenhaal) leaves a mental health institution and gets a job as a secretary for an incredibly repressed dom... and youknow....

crash: the other james spader i watched for the first time, ngl i was building to crash because i need to know when sex is going to happen onscreen, i need to approach it from the side, i need to be analytical about it lest it get too discomforting for me. i actually don't mind sex so much onscreen anymore, because im quite desentised to its being "not-real," but it still needs a bit of build. point being, these people get off on car crashes and that part is hot. idk what that says about me (kinky ace)

kamikaze girls: two girls from two different worlds meet, one is a member of an all-girl biker gang, the other wishes for nothing more than to be a rococo era girl (helpless, feminine, prone to fainting, beautiful, cared for). it all gets very gay very fast. this movie was delightful, i had such a good time

angel's egg: i am getting more into watching animation on the whole and so far this is the one that's knocked me the most over the head this year. i cannot describe it, it needs to be watched. it's just visual poetry wrapped in a fairytale wrapped in a series of questions, but you've gotta just... bask. just live in its world

tetsuo: the iron man: feel like there's nothing I can say about this movie that other people haven't said much better. I don't know much about this period of film-making, this feels like the intro to it all (for me), and it's. I mean really I ought to just go out there and make some fucked up movies in black and white with a bunch of simple special effects that come together to leave you oh-so-disturbed. they all become machines and fuck and vore each other i don't know what else to tellya

love lies bleeding: idk what to tell you man. fucked up lesbians. greasy smoker butch stewart, who's jonesing the entire time and so fucking into her pretty bodybuilder girlfriend who you think is the reasonable part of the equation but truly truly not. there's some body-stuff in there i did not expect. everyone is kind of terrible, and the score is great. lesbian crime hits different, it just does

SO FAR TOP MOVIES FOR THE SECOND HALF OF THE YEAR: Flee I Saw The TV Glow Death By Hanging It Must Be Heaven The Act Of Killing/The Look Of Silence Becket This Is Not A Film

[currymaker]

i got tagged by @knightochan-official i forgot about it. because im tired

Named after anyone?

alice margatroid. you know her

Last time I cried?

dont remember. i cant cry anymore okay actually i think it was that time i had a mental breakdown at a restaurant in portland

Kids?

lol

Sports?

i love volleyball. i wish i could play it but theres not very many teams that accept. yknow

Sarcasm?

?

First thing I notice about something?

the level of jank

Eye color?

the most common human phenotype

Scary movies or happy endings?

bittersweet endings

Talents?

i can survive anything no matter how much i dont want to. im also good in bed i guess. i dont really have any other talents

Place of birth?

one of two cities

Hobbies?

i dont do anything anymore. i suppose cooking. i do cooking. and streaming. id like to get into sewing but thats something i dont have anybody to help me learn it and id like to get back to drawing but i dont have enough confidence to weather the shame feeling from being bad at it even though theres literally nothing wrong with that

Pets?

rabbit soon

Height?

average

Favorite school subject?

medicine

Dream job?

lesbian brothel prostitute

[rose4pup]

Fun facts about me

I'm a m!n0r but anyone can interact just don't be weird

I'm new to tumblr (I came from tiktok 4n4 community its very different on here.)

My whole family is 0bese SOOO

I'm a f00d addict despite trying so overwhelming hard to res

I first image is what I dress and look like vs what I want to look like is second image.

I want to be a game developer for horror games

I love Fnaf, Anime, Creepyspasta,Little pet shops, Welcome home, drawing even though i suck, despite wanting to make horror games i am easily scared.

My whole life i have been 0bese except for when I was 8 and had to move to a different Country City??? I was very close to d!abetic and had to be put on a vegan diet with my sister. we got very th!n and I still thought i was f@t even then. then when we moved out with our dad because he thought they weren't taking care of us when he figured out the conditions. we gained a ton of weight, both me and my sister. i forgot to mention since like 3rd grade I refused to eat lunch, then in 5th grade (184 lbs) i started p*rging and skipping bre@kfast and lunch then b!ng!ng at home. I stopped doing that during summer and gained back so much weight.in 6th grade I would redo the not e@ting,b!nging, and p()rging cycle all over again. during that summer I gained to 194. I then starting locking in, first time I got a calorie counter and steps tracker. but i Iwas more wannarex!c, I'm pretty sure I'm a 4n0rex!c or at least junk0rex!c but whatever. then I moved with my dad again and bought a scale and got more in control. I lost to 175 lbs. and then I had to move with my mom because of financial issues. so, I moved back to my birthplace. then I gained back so much, like I mentioned majority of my family is obese or at least overweight so with all the unhealthy eating, lack of a scale, no self-control, constant fast food and my granny's cooking I got to a disgusting 225. Now I'm trying to lose back all that shit and keep failing. as of writing this i have only had liquids except for my f@t@ss eating four mini reeses from my uncle.

I was really slow in k-2 grade then in 3-7 i got a random boost of intelligence but i wasn't really smart just have good memory and I'm always reading cause I've been a gacha kid since 2018. (if your reading this I promise this isn't my best grammar)

I like danganronpa but i am broke so i watch kubz scouts and biju mike play it. I'm watching the playthroughs in the wrong order no spoilers please. I love fnaf, butI enjoyed the movie despite hating the lore changes.

I liked wonyoungism and in the beginning of 7th grade i had a huge kpop phase but thats gone now.

In 5th grade I thought a was bisexual andIi was a feminist, 6th grade I was a man h@ter and a lesbian despite me being obsessed with male gay romance but whatever. now I'm realizing I was straight and in denial(plus i started hearing stories about crimes commited by men on women and how common it is but now i'm realizing anyone can be evil so i no longer hate me i hate everyone. true EQUALITY) I only had two crushes on girls, and they were just my close friends and I had misread feelings, i was jealous of my best friend(5-now) thinness, beauty, curly hair, fashion, and personality i literally wanted to be her and i was obsessed but i misread it as a crush. then my other friend who treated me like shit despite me being her first real friend. in the past i wanted her validation but now I don't and that makes her mad. Idk but her treating me unfairly and always mocking me for my weight despite being overweight herself manifested in me craving her validation and believing it was a crush.

I've been a gacha tuber for 4 out of the 5 years i've been a youtuber and I only have 1,500 subs i feel like i should give up but i genuinely like my story telling but i never make the videos because i hate nearly everything i make so i never try anymore.

I like minecraft,roblox,gacha,pinterest,wattpad,AO3, and idk what else to add currently.

when i say i'm an anime fan i mean i know a few popular ones, jjk,beaststars,demonslayer,black butler,made in a abyss,danganronpa, ajin demi human,tokyo ghoul,hunter x hunter, Komi can't communicate, blue exorcist, attack on titan,chainsaw man,my hero,helluva a boss if that counts.

I like melanie martinez,aesteria,6 rarely human,ketseki,mitski,ayesha erotica,lumi athena,odetari,rebyzx,thats a few most songs i listen to i only like that one song by the artist and not the rest.

I litterally have no life and sit in bed all day with dreams and hopes but never getting up to do them but the funny part is i can get up to eat like bro thats the one thing i don't want to do but for some reason i was end up eating while thinking i'm never g0nna e@t again, promising to fast tomorrow just to b!nge.

I know its cringe and common but my favorite animals are wolves, A+ for loyalty an family team work. I also love cheatahs.

I love animal facts and documentaries.

I didn't grow up in jamaica,i'm only half jamaican.

Since I was only skinny for 2 years i ate the fact, I have barely any pictures plus the fact in most pictures I do have I realized its very unlikely I will have a thigh gap as skinny me looked skeletal up top like literally dead but for some reason my thighs were still muscly. but ! have grown alot since then.

I love lavender,rose pink and black.

If you want to know (sukuna 1,gojo 2,toji 3, choso 4,I know none of yall like mahito but he 5, geto/kenjaku 6. smk.)

Bye now and I hope i'm not sharing to much.

block don't report ig

[sammypog]

pinned post (:

hiiii! you can call me sammy or sam (or samuel if you’re feeling a bit silly) and i’m just hanging out here idk

go follow my sideblog @poetrypog where i occasionally post my mediocre poems

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i use all pronouns!!! switch it up don’t just stick with one, otherwise i like everything, neos & xenos included!

i use a lot of labels but mainly i’m just super queer super gay and super trans :3

also i’m probably neurodivergent!

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i talk about a lot of things, normally just whatever i’m obsessed with at the moment, and sometimes i reblog stuff too. i do make art sometimes but i don’t post my art very often so don’t expect much from me lol

my current fandoms:

jekyll & hyde

frankenstein

moby dick

gravity falls

i have no mouth and i must scream

oppenheimer

house md

glass animals

bigtop burger

taskmaster

the song of achilles

good omens

the band ghost

doctor who

other things i like:

painting and drawing

art in general

guitar

reptiles

animals and nature in general

poetry

writing in general

history

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obligatory dni list

all of the obvious: racists, nazis, zionists, transphobes, TERFs, pedos, homophobes, ableists, xenophobes, sexists, zoophiles, rcta/ecta, proshippers, exclusionists, etc. if it’s an ideology based on hatred just assume i don’t support it.

i support all neopronouns, xenopronouns, and xenogenders as long as they aren’t meant as a mockery of some other identity/group. i support “weird” identities like contradicting labels, mspec lesbians/gays, etc. i also support other “weird” groups like furries and therians. i support you no matter how you identify, as long as you are not harming anyone. if you disagree with me on this, feel free to leave.

i will add to these lists if i realize i forgot something!

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tags

disclaimer: i’m not very good at tagging consistently so the tags might not be very reliable lol

“brain thoughts”: non-fandom posts

“my art”: what it sounds like

“being gay for victor frankenstein”: also what it sounds like :3

“my moots <3”: rbs of/asks from my beloved moots

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i think that’s it! have fun i guess :3

[kindaoptimisticsquirrel]

Why not: A CCS reread, Part 3

It's saturday and I cannot stop myself from reading more. Time to go on with Chapter 13!

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6 | Part 7

Ch13:

I'm just now catching on the resemblance of Nadeshiko to Kotoki from X...

Batting Fujitaka with a stick because for heaven's sake you don't hit on your students, ESPECIALLY when they are still under 18. And not with these cheesy lines, too, sigh.

Oh Tomoyo, you're so dear to me <3 I met her first when I read Tsubasa Chronicles, because I read Cardcaptor Sakua later (I don't even know when the anime aired in Germany. Probably way before my time) It was nice seeing her here in the story where she originates and where her character can be more child and follow her hobbies (cause tsubasa is a bit darker in its theme)

Ch14:

Saving this for reference for when I might want to photoshop something stupid onto the newspaper

Loving the little "yikes" at the size of the bread :DD

Ch15:

I definitely forgot about this woman and that she and Touya had been..a thing? (Geez. I try not to think too much about the ages of the characters in CLAMP works)

You know what, I would have loved to get to know Shaoran's siblings!

Hihihihihi *giggling and kicking my feet*

Ch16:

Awww he's so cute when embarrassed

Sometimes it's a wonder how oblivious Yukito can be.

Ch18:

oooh I'm saving this for a drawing reference because I want to try to imitate this beautiful light effects! Gonna try with ink if I find time.

Ch19:

No, Fujitaka, when an adult man offers your 10 year old daughter some tea and biskuits and invites her to come over the other day, you don't just smile and tell her to go back. I'm shaking my head here very disappointedly. (I know it's a childrens' story so it isn't supposed to be taken that seriously, but if you try to look at it from an older perspective? Phew :D Some choices are really dubious.) (I'm only making fun of this, I'm still very much enjoying this manga. It's just interesting to see how different you can see things once you are NOT the target audience's age anymore) Oh yeah I forgot Fujitaka probably knows the man is Nadeshiko's grandfather, but my point still stands. Ch20:

I'm at the screen play now, and Yamazaki really is the perfect cast for that role hehe

Ch21:

You know I really like drawing style with the no hatching, and the light greytones. Normally we don't see shadows really so scenes like this with dark and light really stand out more. Also I think, this drawing style of the manga might look easy, because it's just outlines, and they are all the same line weight mostly...but I've seen other mangas trying to do it like this and I feel like they didn't pull it off this well. I'm wondering, if you don't really use grey tones to give your characters and objects depth, then at LEAST you gotta have a good feeling for shapes and panel arrangement and such to make it all work.

Good to see that the Light and Dark cards are just your average sweet lesbian couple. Good for them! *thumbs up*

Ch22:

I think I want a fic with Touya working at the most obscure places.

Touya: Bitch, don't be giving me love advice when you're the one who broke up. Sooo this is long enough for a post! Time to make a new one! :)

[meetthesoldier]

hi sorry this is outta nowhere but i would love to hear ur thoughts on harry (phone

SORRY ANON I LEGIT FORGOT ABT THIS ASK and im too lazy to draw her fr so heres some fanart i drew of her dying in a glue trap

this time i have a bit more thoughts on her as an actual character so ill start w that before the headcanon dump ... also, throughout this post ill be referring to her w she/her pronouns because of a personal headcanon im VERY attached to. all i ask is any rbs or further questions abt my specific vision of her use those same pronouns... in others posts i do not care obviously. also, this post is specifically abt her in the dsaf universe since shes far more substantial there.

firstly, i should say i ADORE harry. she is one of my biggest comfort characters in a series where almost everybody is one for me. so when i give any criticisms, know its out of love and a wish for some more expansive writing rather than any malice. being critical of media you love is important, etc etc.

my biggest issues with her character really boils down to the lack of acknowledgement abt her being physically disabled. she mentions having a "bad leg" during 3, but its ONLY mentioned that one time, during (i believe) missable dialogue. i understand her not using, like, mobility aids for it since it may be difficult to find suitable stock images (+ all the phonies in that game use the same photos for their bodies, and its totally possible its not something she feels she needs), but it probably shouldve been mentioned or expanded upon more.

i dont believe were given any explanation on how her leg ended up the way it is, or in what way it is. we dont know if she was born with her disability or aquired it later. we dont know if its paralyzed, we dont know if its because of a muscular dystrophy, or anything else. i just wish we were given more info, bcus as it is, it is REALLY easy to look over in favor of, say, her ptsd.

speaking of which, i have some mixed feelings on how her ptsd is portrayed. on one hand, the joke in the restaurant reviews abt her having flashbacks and a subsequent panic attack feels very distasteful, though thankfully this is (i believe) the only instance of this kind of joke at her expense. im glad elsewise it isnt some huge , controlling part of her character - however, again, it IS missable. while one can assume she has it when she discusses her past, i dont believe its explicitly stated UNTIL that review.

tldr; her disability feels poorly handled, mostly from lack of expansion and discussion.

thankfully, though, she is elsewise a very enjoyable character; shes got some really good and funny dialogue, the exposition we get from her about the original managers is really fucking good, and i really wish we heard more abt her experience working with rebecca (and presumably roger)... again, her biggest issues are just not having as much of a spotlight on her as she couldve, but considering the employees arent really the main focus of the game that may be fine actually...

(as an aside, i think about this post every day and cry audibly.)

thus ends the longform musings, onto the silly headcanons;

standard fare queer headcanon dump: trans woman + demisexual lesbian. also, polyamorous. fuck yeah baby steak (ref)

was in a queerplatonic relationship with joe while he was alive, and a romantic one with both tango/terrence (who has some gender fuckery going on as well) and rebecca because i am not immune to homemade lesbianism.

has ptsd in canon, but im adding a "c" in front of that cause aint no way she lived through all of her coworkers (and presumably FRIENDS) dying in such horrific ways and was only affected in the short-term.

autistic! specifically also has the thing i do where i need the time to be a multiple of 5 before i can start doing anything. also has generalized anxiety i think, with a tendency to catastrophize and compensates by insisting to herself everything is toootally fine. definitely NOT going to have a breakdown rn because shes not totally sure that that vending machine is 100% not going to fall on her specifically

probably didnt have many friends as a kid (L) so now she overcompensates by trying to be as charming and polite as possible. wether or not this works in her favor or makes her seem pretentious is a coinflip. (its certainly working on me though!)

has a real soft spot for random niche animals. probably a big salamander and gecko girl. her favorite is the marbled salamander because its cute as hell

slightly off topic everyday i think of how fucking horrific it mustve been for joe to come into work one morning and his best friend just has a phone for a head and extreme memory issues now . literally what the fuck. thats so fucked up

to do a tonal 180... if she was a pokemon trainer shed have a herdier or stoutland as a sort of service dog for walking shorter-medium distances when she rlly doesnt feel like whipping out the cane :.-)

shes so pale its actually ridiculous. bro looks like she hasnt seen the sun in 5 years ... jake pokes a bit of fun for it sometimes

thanks for asking, anon! i love getting excuses to talk about dsaf. i have a lot of thoughts, you know... dont ever friend me on discord my ass will randomly drop either the goofiest or angstiest headcanons at random intervals and i have no real control over whichor when it will be

[greenb0i]

June 2023

I am rotting at this point. OK I'm not but like I've just been doing noting beside going on Mt phone. I am that one shinji meme

'•.¸♡ Films ♡¸.•'

Across the Spider-verse (2023) Dir. Joaquim Dos Santos, Kemp Powers and Justin K. Thompson

What can i even say about this movie. It one i haven't stopped thinking about for the last few days. Everything in the movie is amazing, from the visual to the story to how it portrays the characters. And the charater design!!!!! Literally, the whole reason i saw the movie!!!! And that one chase scene!!!! The whole part was just an amazing and deffo my favourite part. From beginning to end, i was wrapped up in the story the movie is trying to tell. It is probably one of the best movies I've seen all year. (10/10)

Erin Brockovich (2000) Dir. Steven Soderbergh

I like this. I thought Julie Andrews was really good as Erin. It was good (7/10)

Misha and the wolves (2021)

It grand. I thought the story was really interesting but like noting amazeing. I kinda forgot i watched it lol so (5/10)

Do Revenge (2022) Dir. Jennifer Kaytin Robinson

I love this movie. This is probaye the 3rd time i rewated it. I love Just everything about it, especially the fashion, like it just say so much about the character abd everthing(9/10)

The Big Short (2015) Dir. Adam McKay

I thought this was good. I like the editing a lot. I feel like it makes the story more interesting, I guess. With the story being about something as over complex and honesty, bordering banking, the fast-paced editing really sucks you into the story. That, as well as the acting, just makes it really good (8/10)

White chicks (2004) Kennen Ivory Wayans

Funny as shit my god

⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚Books ˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆

The Convalescent By Jessica Anthony

This is such a strange book. To both read and think about. It surreal to read, and can confusing to think about (im still not 100% sure about what this book is tryin to say) since so many events in the book reads like folk-lore, which i do really like. This addtions to almost folk-lore like storys telling make the events toward the end of the book (were it really goes off the rails) feel like a natrual progression and one you could maybe even see coming. The to what isn't a terrble complated novel story wise. But it levase enough there to make you want to read on and see where the fuck there going at points. It can be confusing as hell, but i like that, how it not complety clear on what it trying to say. 7/10

Laura Dean Keeps Breaking Up with Me By Mariko Tamaki and illustrated by Rosemary Valero-O'Connell

I got this book ages ago and deicded to reread it and god I love this book. The story is good, and if i were to just read it as a novel i proabyeb think it was grand, but god the art. The art of the book adds so much. I think it evaleds the story to the point of being amazing. I love small used of colour and the way the charater are draw just adds to there charaterisaton alot. (8/10)

The guy she was interested in wasn't a guy at all By Arai Sumiko

Like every lesbian, i love this. It so cute to read about this two nerds bonding. I need them to kiss. Also i love how the artist draws charater, esalily there outfits. For the main girls, it feel like there chose in fashion says a lot alot them and why they like what they like (8/10)

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*Fives songs i love*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

Benefiits of lying (with your friends)- The Apple In Stereo

Caroline, Please Kill Me-Coma Cinema

Miku-Anamanaguchi, Hatsune Miku

Summer Again-The Wytches

Sleep Patterns-Merchant Ships

[writing-rat]

Robin's Mother

SUMMARY: When Robin invites Nancy over, she doesn't expect her mother to come home early

Robin was different to other girls by far. Firstly, she was a lesbian. Secondly, she had a learning disability, not that it was known. But she definitely had a few quirks. She hyper-fixated on things and would keep talking about them, she didn't like much food, she didn't have a good sense of smell, she had to be told specific instructions, she rambled when nervous, she had sensory issues, she didn't get social cues, jokes or sarcasm (even if she was a master of it herself) and she also got overwhelmed if she had too many emotions going on and if it was too loud or too bright or too packed.

Robin had invited Nancy to her house. They were talking as they were in the living room, as Nancy had just arrived. It was October 27th, and it had been snowing so Robin had ushered her in quickly. Since she lived on the bottom floor, it was easy to walk to her room. It was through the living room where there was a door in the corner that led her to the bedroom. She casually got Nancy in, who was freezing due to not wearing enough layers.

Her room just screamed... Robin. There were movie posters all over the walls (which she clarified that she didn't steal because they were in the box of movie posters where they would be binned), there was Nancy's ballerina box that was given to Robin and also there was a lot of music tapes and VHS's in her bedside table. She had a few art projects going on as shoes were all over the floor, all almost drawn on but her normal red converse was right by her bed to put on if she was going out. "The room of Robin," she said nervously, hoping Nancy liked it. Her floor was a mess with dirty clothes in a corner. "I... I should probably have put them away before you came but I left it too late and I lost track of time as I kept drawing on shoes but-" she rambled but was interrupted by a kiss as Nancy chuckled.

"It's ok babe, don't worry. If it gives any consolation, I also have dirty clothes all over my floor right now," she said gently. Nancy dropped her bag down as she was sleeping over and had pyjamas in her bag as well as the necessary foods to make dinner as she knew Robin forgot to have breakfast and lunch, she always forgot when she was doing something and had no reminder. Robin was smiling as she chucked some clothes over to Nancy. The clothes she chucked over were going to be baggy but they were only what she could give. There was a band shirt for R.E.M. and also some black sweatpants to match it, as well as her favourite denim jacket with the patches. Robin did watch as Nancy stripped down to nothing but her underwear, then put Robin's clothes on, who sent a grateful smile at the taller girl.

Robin glanced her up and down and bit her lip as she was ignoring the feeling in the pit of her stomach, as she found her looking sexy wearing her clothes. "You look hot," Robin said then as she pretended to drool, causing Nancy to cover her mouth and giggle. "Thanks, now let's get some food in you, hm?" she asked as Robin widened her eyes, revealing how hungry she was. She nodded eagerly too, not able to wait for Nancy's cooking. Nancy grabbed her bag and got out some noodles and some chicken and peas. "Separate the chicken and noodles?" Nancy asked, knowing that Robin didn't mind noodles and peas being together. Robin nodded eagerly as she followed her to the kitchen and get out the necessary kitchen utensils when she heard the door open. Robin immediately got one of Steve's nail bats that she did confess to stealing but she was allowed to keep it. Nancy was looking as she held Robin, not wanting her to injure someone if it was someone she knew. That's when someone who looked like Robin came to the kitchen, hearing the commotion.

"Mom? I thought you were working," she responded as she was looking at her, but not making eye contact.

"I was but they let me go early. Who's that? And put that stupid bat down, you're bad enough with your issue of eye contact," her mom said and said the last bit in a tone that made Robin deflate a little but nod as she put the nail bat down. She was soon going back to watching Nancy cooking, forgetting her mom asked her a question. This time though, she was a distance away, knowing her mom wouldn't accept her.

"My name's Nancy, Nancy Wheeler," Nancy said politely and held her hand out. Robin's mom then smiled and shook it.

"My name is Alicia Buckley, and why don't you teach her to handshake while you're at it," Alicia said, Robin ignored the statement as she kept watching the cooking and Nancy got back to it. "Nice to meet you, ma'am," Nancy said politely but did seem confused at that but didn't say anything. "Want me to cook you anything?" she asked then.

Alicia was in deep thought, thinking about what she wanted then nodded. "Is it ok if you make me spaghetti?" she asked as Nancy nodded. Robin got all the stuff necessary and was handing it over quickly as Alicia went upstairs to change out.

After a bit, Nancy wrapped an arm around Robin and kissed her forehead. She was making sure to hear things as well from the distance so they wouldn't get caught. "As a warning, she's gonna be getting at me all night," she said then and was looking down. Nancy nodded and rubbed her side as if to say she was there for her. Robin smiled at the touch but once she heard the stairs she quickly pulled away.

"It'll still take a bit of time so give it a bit!" Nancy said smiling at Alicia as Robin sat on the counter and was nodding. Since she prepared Robin's food early, it was already done so Nancy put it somewhere to keep it heated while making Alicia's. She was making her own food, some burgers as she was kissing Robin while focusing still on food. After 10 minutes of whining by Robin saying she was hungry, all the food was done. She lit up once she was allowed to eat and rushed to the dinner table, sitting down. Alicia rolled her eyes at that as she was sitting down casually and Nancy sat next to Robin.

"So are you a journalist? Robin said you were," Alicia asked. Nancy and Alicia talked as Robin was eating quickly.

"God, stop eating like you haven't eaten at all," Alicia told off Robin, who nodded and slowed down even if she was starving. She was listening and was looking around. "And speak to me saying you won't. With eye contact too," she scolded.

Robin looked up immediately and was reluctantly giving eye contact. "Y-yes, I'm sorry for eating so fast, I'll slow down," she said as Nancy raised an eyebrow but didn't want to make a big deal of it. Gently, she squeezed Robin's thigh to reassure her. Robin was first to finish her meal then Nancy. Robin went to get up with Nancy but Alicia coughed. "It's rude to leave the table when someone else is here eating Robin," she said speaking slower that time. Robin reluctantly sat down and nodded but was doing as told.

After a few more jabs at Robin, she finished. Alicia said she would do the dishes at least. Meanwhile, both girls were going over to Robin's room in a rush. Once in the room, Robin was pinned down against the door, effectively closing it and being kissed deeply. Nancy was pissed at Robin's mom and was trying to prove to Robin she was better than what her mother said. Robin blushed as she was kissed back, not afraid to say that she was a bottom. "Your mother doesn't deserve you I swear to god," Nancy just said. Robin smiled and was holding onto the girl's shoulder and was hugging her suddenly. "Well, mom has ruined one plan but she can't ruin the movie night in my room," she said smiling and was starting to carry Nance to the bed.

"I wanted the first option but movies will do," Nancy said smiling at Robin with adoration.

[percontaion-points]

Lost Boys chapters 23 & 24

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Chapter 23

It was great to be able to confide more intimate things with Tiffany now. When I told her about the kiss on the night of the party, she was all squealing and euphoric about it, which made me feel excited too!

And once again we go back to largely glossing over everything.

If things are this bad in the first book, I’m terrified what book three is going to be like. 

“Exactly! But the thing is … you always look good. You are very beautiful. You have this amazing long black glossy hair, and those big black eyes of yours. You have beautiful pale skin, plump lips and a great figure; you’re so pretty!”

I’m down for a good lesbian story. But sitting and describing another character with such aching detail as a plot device is a bit much for me.

“You know all the boys were talking about you all night at the Valentine’s party, right?”

 “They were?” I asked suspiciously. 

“If it wasn’t for ‘your band’ threatening everybody that got near you, you’d have been a big hit!” she said reassuringly. 

“Everybody just wanted to win a free week of homework …”

Here’s the thing: there’s nothing wrong with guys talking about how pretty a girl is.

However, there’s a huge difference in saying “Wow, she looks beautiful!” and “Wow, she looks so hot; I’m going to try and hook up with her simply to win a bet!” 

There is literally no situation in which the bet winner would be in the right here! Joe is right to call each and every single one of them out.

“It was just about that stupid bet!”

 “Okay. So, I’ll prove you wrong. The Spring Ball is next month! I’ll make sure there’s no betting going on that night! And you’ll see how you’ll fare.”

That’s not the point; Joe doesn’t WANT to be asked out! She wants to be treated with dignity and respect as a person… which is the bare fucking minimum here. 

It was the last week of the month already, and I was so engrossed with new outfits, and avoiding dance invitations, and music practice, lessons and school, that I completely forgot about my past nightmares with Vigil.

To be fair, I feel like the author forgot about Vigil, too. She’s been so focused on high school drama she forgot that she began a supernatural ghost romance. 

“Don’t put me in the middle of your fight with Brad! It’s not my fault you were kicked off his basketball team! And it’s not gossiping, it’s called having a social life, just so you know!” she bellowed. 

“I wasn’t kicked off the team! I quit! He begged me to come back, just so ‘you’ know!” Seth barked back. “And you could try being less ‘social’ sometimes!”

I would care about this fight… But the author has done completely nothing to make me think that I should, in any way, care about these characters. 

If their roles were to be removed from the story, I’m not sure that the plot would change all that much. 

And my jaw dropped a hundred feet down to the floor then: Seth and Tiff were in the middle of the bedroom, in the most intense make-out session of the decade!

I can’t even pretend to be surprised. 

And I didn’t need to worry about helping those two. They were doing just fine on their own.

Chapter 23 summary: Tiffany advises that Joe should start dressing in more girly clothes. This draws the attention of the male population, and before she knows it, she’s having to hide or risk being asked to the school’s spring dance. I don’t fucking care. 

However, she does start having dreams about Vigil again. But this is glossed over, so I’m not sure that I care.

Then Tiffany and Seth get into a huge fight one afternoon. Tiff runs off in tears, and Joe encourages her to apologize to Seth. Tiff goes, but then Joe begins to worry about the two of them tearing each other apart, so she follows after a moment. Only to find Tiffany and Seth playing tonsil hockey. I also kind of don’t care about this. I’m quickly reaching my limit.

Chapter 24

Tiffany had left out a beautiful red-stoned necklace, with matching red earrings…

It’s a fucking ruby. Don’t try to pretend like it’s anything else. 

I no longer cared that everyone thought we were supposed to be siblings. There was only him and me on that dance floor, our eyes locked; only his body close to mine, his smell intoxicating me. Only his face leaning close, his jaw brushing so lightly against my cheek, his warm breath touching my neck, teasing me, torturing me, making me shiver in joy. 

Considering how much of a rage that she flew into over the hook-up bets… I think that she’s going to regret her “I don’t care” attitude when rumours start to swirl about how she’s fucking her brother. 

(Regardless of the fact that they aren’t actually related, you know that people are going to talk.)

“I didn’t let you do anything. You did it all on your own,” he said coldly. 

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With all my training, all my hours of martial arts, I felt so impotent now, unable to react.

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“Good. That’s the way it should be.” He opened the door and walked away, leaving me behind on the terrace, broken and alone.

Chapter 24 summary: One of The Boys™ tells Joe that her “grandmother” had come in search of her. This is obviously Ms. Violet. However, when Joe tries to ask Tristan what Ms. Violet had said, he gets angry at her that she’d been hiding her scary dreams from him. He says that they shouldn’t be together. 

Joe mopes around in Tiffany’s room, and refuses to go to the school dance. However, when Seth comes to pick Tiffany up, Joe mopes around for a bit listening to the music from the party (which how loud is it that you can hear it three stories up?) before she puts on the dress Tiffany had set aside for her and goes down. 

There, she spends some time dancing with all of the boys. Eventually, Tiffany comes over with Tristan and says that she needs to speak with Seth urgently. That Joe can dance with Tristan, since both Tiffany and Seth need to go. 

However, Tristan is obviously still angry about their fight earlier. Joe drags him off to the balcony Harry had shown her at the Valentine’s day party, and they go at it. What it boils down to is that Tristan is convinced that his feelings for her are caused by whatever bond formed between them when he was brought back to life. He tells her that they can’t keep doing this and leaves.