#I forgot how good it feels to be me (draw lesbians)

[egonkula]

every time I draw them from the side, boobs call to me like the green goblins mask

[hoodedjelly]

my Jenny, Tuck, Brad, Shelden, and Vega older designs ^__^

i'm watching mlaatr, still not done, i think i got like 10 more eps (and if i'm being transparent i skipped around eps... i just wanted to see vega...). And i'm absolutely loving the show!!!! i love these characters a lot, didn't like Shelden at first i'm going to be honest, #1 Shelden hater for a bit there. but he chilled out in season two and i started to ship breldon with that too so now i just love him so much.

more about my personal headcanons:

Jenny: - I am under the belief that she is transgender. Jenny was made genderless, so her deciding to be a girl was strictly her choice and i believe that makes her trans. (She's also a lesbian) - she did grow a bit, im not gonna explain how idc really i just liked her being a taller lady :-) - she has A LOT of different cute outfits and hair styles, honestly too much to draw. she never transforms back into her base show outfit when crime fighting, she just fights in her cute summer dress she don't care. - her and vega are dating grrgrgrrrr - when vega is in rule she makes it so there is complete free access between earth and cluster prime for citizens in both places. - I say that cause i think when jenny is older she moves in with vega, technically living in cluster prime but visits earth like everyday. And brad/shelby/tucker/wakeman visit cluster prime - Jenny also hangs out with the nicktoons unite gang, but i deffo feel like its just that secondary friend group that you don't talk to with for months. when you talk again its the same goofiness as before - i think danny calls for her help when he needs it (also manny) Tuck: - he is still a little shit but we love him - adhd boy - questioning cis (he/him) - he got into robotics/stem and builds little silly things - with that, he gets help from Shelby - pretty much just a silly teen, he's on the internet a lot and has "cringe" interests - but idk he's having fun and being silly and finding himself (those interests is stuff like sonic and among us) Shelden(Shelby) - honestly kinda nervous about ppl thoughts on my Shelden, idk it makes so much sense in my brain - hits you with the transfem beam (she/they) Pansexual (she just wants anyone type of vibe) - I think when jenny is visiting vega often that leaves Shelby and Brad hanging out alone a lot. which they don't mind honestly, they are actually good friends! - but during that they just get closer and start catching feelings. Shelby eventually lets go of her feelings about jenny and realizes they were a real jerk and weirdo to her. brad helps them through that and eventually her realizing she's trans. blah blah they in love and kiss at some point. - Shelby is also a furry lmaooo her fursona is a cat.

Brad: - bisexual cis man (he/him) - Still his old brad self if i'm being honest. - totally forgot to say i think all 3 of them go off to college together (even though jenny doesn't have to i feel like she would prob want to just for the experience, but tell me if you think differently i'm still unsure) - i really don't know what else to say sorry brad! he's literally just as silly as ever man. he's just also gay - i will say here i feel it takes a lot longer for shelby and brad to start dating then jenny and vega. they got that slow burn kinda shit going on, since a lot of that is shelby being confused about her feelings. and jenny and vega just hit it off right away if im being honest, very high school sweethearts. - (also i think shelby makes brad make a fursona to match hers, so brad got a dog fursona)

Vega: - Lesbian cis (she/her) - That ending of her just ruling cluster prime was just so crazy to me cause like, aint she like 16? - i think she has a lot of stressed nights and fearing she's not doing the right thing for her people, and jenny tries to help as much she can - that is why jenny visits so much, she wants to help her. - very much got those nights were she accidently falls asleep at her desk, jenny finding her and giving her a blanket and a kiss goodnight - it's not like she's unhappy, she is actually very very passionate about her work and wants to NOT be like her mom - and yeah she deffo goes to robo therapy for the stuff with her mom. - i think it's a conflict where vega is scared her mom is gonna come back and jenny has to reassure her that if she does they'll get rid of her for good.

imma be honest a lot of my hcs are pretty half-baked and random things, im sure im going to think of more stuff in the future but that will be in different posts.

[boarloved-art]

I never paid that much attention to the ghost girls in mdzs so seeing you draw them has me interested in how you see them. So, what are your hc ?

YAY omg!! gonna go Under a cut for the individual girls bc itll get long but!!

my thing with the ghost girls is that the whole reason wwx's hanging around with them in that tavern is because hes isolated himself so thoroughly that he can only really find company in the presence of the dead, and i really really like the concept of him in the burial mounds that first time inadvertantly summoning spirits that fill a void of someone/something hes missing so he can recreate the normalcy he had before the burial mounds 😔😔

anyway, the gang in all their vague and nameless glory !!!

The half skull one -> the lwj of the group. shes the first one that meets wwx and deffo lowkey the leader of the ghost girls, shes been through some crazy doomed lesbian romance that landed her in the burial mounds. shes got lwj's coldness n pettiness but also his protectiveness n such, shes v much a grounding n stable presence for wwx, like lwj ends up being. because she showed up first, shes definitely the ones hes closest to, thats his BESTIE.

in life, she was a nobility who attempted to run away with her girlfriend from some shitty shitty arranged marriages, which. considering shes a ghost now, clearly didnt end well and she just got her body dumped in the mounds. shes. naturally, because shes literally a resentful spirit, pretty Pissed abt the whole affair and only helps wwx at first on the condition that he'll help her find her gf's soul. but now he's her boy. her new lil brother. she would still v much like her girlfriend back tho :/ lwj doesnt know how to feel abt the fact that the one wwx is clearly closest besties with looks and acts a lot like him but thats ok lwj, wwx will figure out the concept of being gay eventually

the one w the sword & the stitches on her head -> kinda the JC of the group. shes an ex Nie head disciple & shes the blunt n more aggressive one, who doesnt really know what to do w all the care n affection she feels for ppl so she just kinda jiang cheng tsunderes it up. idk shit all abt her life i had ideas for her a while ago and forgot all of em. shes deffo another case of good ole Nies Dying Bc Of Their Saber Spirits but shes not telling any1 that, bc dying bc ur own sword made u mad is EMBARRASSING 🙄🙄 she hits a good old Mildly Annoyed "WEI WUXIAN!" in just the right tone to make him feel like hes right back in lotus pier pulling pranks on jc. shes also the worlds most oblivious woman when it comes to romance (á la jiang cheng)

eyeball girl -> the huaisang of the group before huaisang ever huaisanged. shes the chatty gossipy one, but also the Scary Tactical one with crazy plots. idk shit all abt her either but she deffo was involved in some crazy ass political scheming that got her killed, and also her & skull girl have a weird kinda gay relationship and wwx is very baffled as to how ghosts have situationships but theyre managing it. theyre gaying it up purely to pass the time. SHES the one that suggests they throw flowers at lwj that one time, and shes absolutely being far too touchy to wwx when lwj comes up to speak to them because shes like "no trust me making him jealous is THE best method".

the kid -> the little baby that wwx canonically uses to terrorise lingjiao FASCINATES me as a concept but this isnt that baby, shes a lil older - but just as ferocious when she needs to be 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ her entire deal is that wei wuxians role as a shixiong & big brother is very important to him!! he needa someone to take care of!! a little kid that died of starvation in yiling? oh im sure wuxian finds that one a bit too familiar and thinks yeah thats MY little sister now! her lil hair ribbons are cut up remnants of wuxians original hair ribbon bc he used to do her Semi-Corporeal hair when it was just him & the ghost girls. shes how wangxian ghost daughter can WIN! i like to think wuxian summons all the girls again post canon just to see if theyre still hanging around and she pulls an ayuan and clings to lwjs leg because hes like a magnet for children. his fatherly aura too strong. i think they deserve to be using inquiry to be like "ghostbaby!!! its time to come over to ur dads house for the weekend!!!" i think they deserve to girldad lil ghost baby.

The Other One -> truly i have nothing for her bc i Had a concept then i Hated it and scrapped it entirely and now shes a brand new person with nothing to her name except being based on the general concept of wuxians hatred of dogs,bc she was literally mauled to death lawl rip queen, and a vague idea that shes mirroring wwxs "devoted to ur siblings to the point of ur own detriment" thing. but whos to say. maybe one day i'll figure out her deal.

tldr i think wwx deserves to use the insane amount of spirits in the burial mounds to fill up some of his loneliness by summoning a hoard of besties. and i think some of them should gay it up a lil with eachother but in a toxic way.

[anonymouscheeses]

Exorcist gang! (I'm so sorry it took forever to get to your ask. I kind of dropped the au for a long time and just now got the motivation to pick it up again.)

Right on the money! I just narrowed it down to three because I can't do anymore(lazy ahh). But they can't actually drive motorcycles because none of them have a drivers license so they just try to seem badass by saying they are a biker gang. All christian but they have no idea how it works and do things looked down upon by the christian community. Left Victoria. Middle Stephanie. Right Kamaria. Kamaria got a tattoo of the upside down cross to seem cool but she knows it's St. Peter's cross so it's kind of a double meaning for her. I also gave Kamaria three toned lips because I jst found out that exists and I had to include that in some character. Atleast one.

Maybe one day I'll draw them as angels just to do it.

For context, they are exes 😫

Are there still feelings? Kind of, they just aren't over eachother yet. Right now tho they are mainly enemies. Valerie(Vaggie) is kind of like Blitzø(relationships wise), but less of an asshole. It was mostly her fault they broke up though. She was uninterested and embarrassed by Kamaria almost all the time so ofc Kamaria doesn't stand for shit and ended it before it got worse. Valerie is like that with Charlie in some ways, but of course that's for growth purposes.

Oh also Valerie dated Lute too before she dated Kamaria so it's just this entire problem within the group bro.. Like, Lute is not over Valerie and not in a "I am in love with u still." Way, but in a "I hate the way you walk, the way you talk, I hate the way dress-" ahh way(and in an i am still in luv wit u way but shh). Lute has no idea why Valerie broke up wit her ass and takes it out on Kamaria. Kama takes no shit and bounced out that place quickly. Good for her ig. She still an asshole too, anger issues ahh, everyone except Charlie(until the vee accident 😏)deserves a kick in the ass.

Pretend Charlie is in her human form. I'm still workshopping it right now! 😔 so yeah nobody else except Valerie knows she's a demon jst so you know!

Chaggie aren't dating yet! But they will one day 😈

For now it's kind of just pining. On both sides ofc.

"So it mine el" we say in unison.

PLEASE TELL ME SOMEONE GETS THE REFERENCE?? THIS IS SO AWKWARD NOW...

Helmets and glasses off! I think they look pretty nice but im not great at making my own character designs from ground up. Which is why I havent shown my actual own OC's. Victoria is trans because I said so. Kamaria is probably Lesbian but she doesn't know yet, it's kind of a label she uses until she knows for sure (so me). And Stephanie is Stephanie (she don care. She don kno 💀). I FORGOT THE FLAME ON KAMARIA'S JACKET RAAAA.

They also all have a picture on the back of their jackets that's jst wings and a halo. So do with that what you will.... if u wanna make fanart that is..... pls..... I'm begging..... jk but it would still be cool lmao.

They used to be in a gang with Adam and Lute but after Valerie was beat up real bad by Lute they all decided to just part ways. Not on good terms... So it's just Adam and Lute now who jst act like they are all that when they cant pack a punch at all 😒. I'll show Adam and Lute's designs in the next update (or somewhere) but that's all I have right now. I can't wait to draw the duo ughhhh‼️‼️‼️

(I have also changed a few things from my original idea, so if your a hxd au og from the first like... 3 posts I made abt it then ya... there's major changes. I'll go through them deeper in my next updates on this au!)

[tobias-wants-to-write]

Hey just letting anyone whose interested know: I have a side blog for short original stories. This blog is for original stories but its more about my books I want to write or are currently writing like Alma's Grave. (By the way if you want to hear more about that or want updates just send me an ask)

My side blog is @here-have-some-stories. I have about three stories on there, two of them complete and one of them still in progress, but chapters come out like chapters on A03.

The first one is Silent Laughter. Silent Laughter is a short horror about a sleep paralysis demon and a boy named Jimmy I think. I forgot my own characters name. He's pretty much alone in the town and is slowly being hunted and tormented by the demon. A lot of it is cliches but I'm actually kind of proud on how it turned out. That one is complete so if it sounds interesting and you wanna go check it out, you can read the full thing right now.

The next one is Massacre Masquerade. This ones my favourite. I actually care about the story and I love the characters. This one is about a kind of alternate universe where there are modern day knights. The new knights who are just about to start their jobs are having a masked ball as a celebration. The disasters that are not accidents start to happen and people get murdered. The building gets put on lockdown and no one can leave until they find a clue of who did it. The murderer planned multiple "accidents" though, and while everyone is locked inside, more murders occur. The main characters are Deacon, Leon and Bailey. The entire thing is a murder mystery, and I'm proud of this one as well, even though this is the other one that isn't complete. I've already planned everything about this story and I'm excited for when I get it finished. If this sounds like the type of thing you're interested in, then go check it out and rate my writing skills. Also it is a gay romance as well, but that's not the main point its just a bit on the side which is how I like my romance

My other story is a two parter called Paper Love. Paper Love is heavily inspired by that one queer animation about those drawings who are in love and try to be together, I can't remember what it's called. Paper Love is about two drawings, one a fairy and the other a steampunk elf and they could see each other from across the room since they are hung up on different walls, and even though they don't know each other, they're pretty much already in love. And yes, this is also queers. They're my pretty little lesbians. Go read it if you want.

I also have two short stories I wrote in English that I felt like posting:

The Slide - Something about murder that happened on a slide (read the warnings)

Just Need Time - Something about depression and getting help with that

If any of this sounds interested, feel free to go and check out that blog. I very much welcome it, and not a lot of people have read it so I'm trying to find more people to read it and give me feedback on whether its good or not.

[starsaparilla]

you said you wanted asks so i must ask

1) do you have a courier oc? like, an actual character.

2) thoughts about christine and veronica (and Christine staying in Sierra Madre)?

3) what's one character you wish had been a companion but wasn't? and why and how would their quests go idk im shy despite asking on anon 😔💔

1) yes!! i have a couple.. i make new ones depending on the run i’m doing or the faction im siding with etc but for my current playthrough (neutral karma independent vegas) i have cherry!! she’s super cool… i like her lots. nepo baby that wants to run vegas herself as a way to get back at her family for disowning her (long story) + learns about love and friendship and kindness and also backstabbing along the way! i can’t draw so i mostly make pinterest boards for characters but yeah… i love my ocs. trying to flesh out the rest of her family at the minute too bc they were (to me) pretty prominent figures in the wasteland until around 50 or so years before the events of new vegas!!

2) christine and veronica are so dear to me!!! canon lesbians in a video game… i do wish they didn’t fall into the trappings of gays with unhappy endings but yk. 2010 so i suppose it was par for the course. as for christine staying in the sierra madre i have mixed feelings- ultimately i like it narratively, i think christine becoming a guardian is very fitting. the sierra madre houses vera keyes, a woman who had her life derailed and destroyed by the greed, cruelty, rivalry and jealousy of two men. in a similar vein, christine royce had her own life- and her love- uprooted and snuffe out by a cruel and greedy man too. it makes poetic sense to me that christine would stay to guard the sierra madre. christine/vera parallels are so srs to me and i would definitely go into way more detail at another point but im trying to keep this concise because you didn’t ask to be blasted with my dead money brainrot. anyway also i find it oddly beautiful that a place with such a dark past can perhaps become a safe haven like it should always have been now that christine is there. my one issue is that there’s no option to inform veronica of where christine is or anything but i know this was due to technical limitations and nothing else so i don’t harp on the devs too much for this.

3) benny maybe… i think doing an independent run with benny as the companion makes soooo much sense and i do think an ending where you both take vegas is super fun. but i have the benny companion mod so i don’t think he counts as an answer here for me personally. in terms of what would be best for gameplay id say a legion companion would be interesting as while i dont play legion nor do i like them, i think its a shame they’re underdeveloped. victor as a companion could be rlly fun! good for a house run and id love a securitron companion anyway :) id also love to port ulysses to the main game as a companion 💔💔💔 and then obvious popular answer sunny smiles my angel <3

i forgot to add quests!!! god actually i’m gonna have to think abt this one but i think for benny an interesting quest would be anything to do with the boot riders… will nvr forgive the lack of backstory we get for him in the game. legion companion could potentially involve visiting old settlements and learning about their history? it would be interesting for a legion companion to be someone disheartened with the legion’s methods, kind of like veronica (BUT NOT LIKE VERONICA) , and you can ultimately talk them into leaving (good karma) or convince them to stay with you and the legion (bad karma). i’m not sure on specifics for victor but given that he’s a cowboy likely inspired by old world western movies it could be so fun to have a quest that follows the plot of some famous western movie… big dramatic shootout at high noon. fun times. ulysses i’m split on bc i think it’s entirely contingent on how you interact with him in lonesome road and which faction you’re aligned with as there’s a lotttt of ways he can feel about you due to all of these factors that might make creating one Definitive companion quest hard. as for sunny idk. something that lets us go back to goodsprings ^_^ very last minute but i also think a great khan companion would be nice mostly bc i like the khans and the narrative is so awful to them

[pillowsresearch]

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LAST UPDATED JULY 21 2024, INTERACTS FROM @kirbytripledeluxe

pillow is a (breathe in.....) gender apathetic transfem aroace lesbian. it primarily uses she/it, but if you use a different pronoun she won't really care. in fact she will give you a thumbs up before walking away to go blow someone up. it also likes girls despite not being at all interested in a relationship. this means no shipping!

she's also slightly aplatonic and has very little empathy. and she doesn't acknowledge boundaries well. doesn't mean it can't do good, though (no matter how uncomfortable it is)

she has ocd! mostly based on my own lived experience with it. her compulsions often have to do with good/bad luck.

the part of its face that got torn off in tpot 9 was never fully recovered due to how bad the damage was. it will take a few more recovers or an actually good stitching job to fully heal it. the eye on that side is fully blind for the time being because of this! tbh i just kinda use it as an excuse to draw some cool scars EHHEHEHE

i am under the impression that she would NOT kill as gleefully if recovery wasnt so readily available. its a genuine effort to help out alongside satisfying her curiosity.

she can indeed read and write because i say so

tba

no nsfw, shes asexual and this is an all ages show. settle down

please dont bring up emeto stuff. rocky dni /hj (mentions of feeling sick is fine in the right contexts, but please at least ask first in dms or something)

breaking the timeline IS allowed! this blog is meant to take place at least post tpot-12 but i can make exceptions

magic anons are allowed but please dont be too excessive with them

you are totally allowed to get bloody and gory with it. i am a pillow tpot fan i love when theres blood at the function

that being said, that is not her entire personality and id rather it not be treated like that. and keep in mind that death is fairly common in the bfdi universe, unless i or another RPer choose to treat it seriously, its really not that serious

if i ignore an ask, im either saving it or dont know how to answer it. or i just dont want to. or i forgot. theres a lot of reasons i could be doing that.

whether i treat this blog as a joke or not will depend on the day, PLEASE be normal if im treating it seriously.

ooc messages are marked with . well. ooc. i am not canon to bfdi please do not have characters acknowledge me

tba

ill come up with a tag system as i go .......

[onlessdev]

2025 Character Creation Challenge

I finally finished the character creation challenge for January 2025, a day late and with a lot of catching up to do LOL Games I'm playing

Currently playing a Koriko game that came out of this - my character is Anthemis of Malukica. She's a young witch with a shaved head and bone charms from a little rural village in a high fantasy crystal-and-spires world with bathhouses and pirate coves (so far!).

I'm also playing in a game of The Magical Year of a Teenage Witch - I forgot how long it took to build the character, until I did it again. I feel like if I just used a better template, it would be faster. I still love the Thousand Year Old Vampire mechanics. It was also fun creating a new Thousand Year Old Vampire in a vastly different setting than my last playthrough, and a fey twist on the vampiric tropes. I'm also also playing in a game of Pasion de las Pasiones, which began in January. Lucero just had their introduction! I'm pumped to get to play this soap opera drama. Games I already liked Some games, like Monster of the Week and Thirsty Sword Lesbians were already familiar, but it was a fun challenge to come up with new characters in the mindset of a player versus a gamemaster. Fellowship and Against the Odds are also games I'd love to run or play in the future. Major Magica, Wise Women and To Swear On Your Honor are a little higher up on my list of games to run/play now. Major Magica is silly with mini-games, Wise Women is streamlined and flavorful, and I feel like I'll enjoy To Swear On Your Honor just like I did Thousand Year Old Vampire with all of the prompts.

Space Train Space Heist is definitely a one shot I'd love to run with the right players. It's just so funky and builds the plot as you go! I love when relationships or world details are built in to character sheets.

New surprises

I enjoyed Four Told more than I expected - it's a fun little political game about being a seer to a ruler - good to use your d4s! It's simple so I may not play through it yet, but I'll definitely keep it on my list. Against the Night also seems like a good solo choice at some point, but didn't draw me in urgently the way Koriko did.

Apocalypse Keys had really long character sheets - I think 4-5 pages - but it was because they had prompts separated from the place you fill them in on the actual character sheet. It felt bloated and there was a lot of back-and-forth to create the character. I liked the archetypes and the encouragement of above-table discussion though!

I almost got to play Lordsworn, but it was cancelled, so it was interesting getting to roll characters even if it was just for myself. I might play it again if I'm in the right mood. It's a bit grim.

Godspawn and Ironsworn are a little lower on my list to play after creating a character in the system. I felt Godspawn was a little too short and I was left unsure how play would look. I'll have to try to read it again, as I love demigods and mythology stories. This was my third time revisiting Ironsworn and I'll likely circle back again, but it took a lot more back-and-forth to create the character than expected. I think I need to delve deeper on Ironsworn!

Takeway

This was an overall fun creative exercise. I don't regret reading any of the games, even the ones that let me down a bit. It was great to get in the player mindset even in games that I may not play for a while. I've learned a bit more about what I like and don't like, and have some great characters to bring with me wherever I go next!

[dognonsense]

My original folkpunk song Train Track Diorama

its about how my bus stop was being redone so they keep skipping it now when im taking the bus home, so instead i have to take a route where i take the train tracks home.

When walking home i like to listen to folkpunk and sing as loud I want cause ill often be heading home at 1am and be like ah yes karaoke time on the train tracks.

But when its not 1am and brighr out I'll hunt for train spikes since i think they look cool. The most I collected was twenty in one day but i changed it to nineteen because i enjoy lying and think its a funner number to say. I think I have about 30 spikes total. I keep 4 spikes in my bedroom inside the diorma box that i keep random crap i find. Sometimes i take photos and draw whats there. I also pick up random thrown away toys, art supplies and bits and bobs :3

the chorus is kiss me with teeth, rip into me and take a bite, show me a fight. i like to bite :33 monch monch I'm a puppy girl i bite what can i say. I guess its kind of an exploration into my own repressed sexuality of growing up in singapore and having so much of sexuality being taboo, to the point where if i kissed ppl with teeth theyd always be like woah omg ive never kissed someone like that ur such a violent kisser and its just so weird. Repression of sexuality and all that and just outright yelling KISS ME WITH TEETH!!! and i also really like the imagery of teeth. I have a human teeth necklace and about 10 fake tooth necklaces!

I feel like I should reveal that I am stoned right now writing this. So stoned that i was meant to be grinding my weed and got 4 nugs in it before writinf this essay. And now my cat is yelling at me from outside my door. Allow me to compose myself. I was always meant to be watching ruthless lesbians on the button by film cooper on youtube. My life is so busy yall. I have to watch youtube, smoke weed, and post on tumblr ALL AT ONCE!!! I dont know how I manage it.

I forgot where I was in the song. Oh then! Look up at the ceeeeling! Greet the spiders!! Im looking up right now and there she is a cobweb with a spider above me in my bed. I'm working on having a good relationship with spiders and treating them as friends since they kill bugs.

oh but im new to spiders because in singapore our lil bug eater is a gecko! So growing up in the tropics ur little geckos live in ur house year round and eat ur bugs hide behind paintings and stuff. I was going to add a verse about how my dad tried to train a gecko in his room by killing ants for it and leaving them out and leaving bottle caps woth water out for it. My dad was not a fan of ants. It was very silly of him.

hope you enjoyed this deep dive into train track diorama with your favourite folk punk jester: Meme!!!

[variousqueerthings]

favourie movies i watched for the first time in the first half of 2024

(yeah I originally wrote this post in July and forgot to finish it, shhhhh ignore the date)

a death in the gunj: i went into this one not knowing what was going to happen. it's a profile of a young man who doesn't fit in the world around him, portrayed in a microcosm of familial events -- it was so intensely emotional and set off a lot of the underlying thematic thread of this year's watching

beau travail: this is one of the "top 100 movies lists" movies that i watched and i spent a good deal of it wondering where it was going and what it was exactly doing and we get to the final scene and my mind suddenly flips and goes "oh it's been doing it the whole time!!!" it's a film that felt like i was soaking in it, rather than watching something chronological or putting together a puzzle. white, colonialist toxic masculinity in djibouti and homoeroticism

maurice (vietnamese film club extended edition): i've seen maurice sans these scenes before, but then this youtube channel uploaded a version with the deleted scenes spliced in and ohhh my goodness it gives so much more Moreness to the whole story. i also read the book for the first time afterwards and truly the movie follows it so closely, but yeah. there's something special about maurice, on a meta level as well as quality. doubly so with the deleted scenes

to kill a mockingbird: yeah yeah i'd never seen it before, duh it's a really good movie. tbh i do think there's something in the water of more classic hollywood Cinema. a messy af place, but i'm a sucker for the beautiful acting, astounding scores, the sincerity of the story and the acting. it's a perfect film

the watermelon woman: interestingly, on the flipside of the "movies that mean something" scale, about as non-hollywood as you'll get, a movie about who gets remembered in movies, a movie about documentation, a movie that wanted to make a documentary, but instead is making a movie about trying to make a documentary (that isn't a documentary), a movie about black lesbians throughout history, a movie that was nearly impossible to find for awhile (god bless piracy), a movie about in/visibility

southern comfort: a documentary about the final year of robert eads, who died of what would have been initially treatable ovarian cancer, but who had been told he didn't need his ovaries removed and then later was denied treatment until it was too late. this is incredibly sad, yes, but it's also a movie about the trans south, a community documentation that feels incredible in its existence, a group of people who would risk being forgotten were it not for the hungry, beautiful need to document

the zone of interest: one of two oscar-nominated movies on this list, i had never heard of this term before, which was shocking to me -- but even moreso when i realised how few people in my life knew about the term either. this film is not-about auschwitz from the pov of its commandant, rudolf höss and his family, and about how easy it is to casually dehumanise. the director - a jewish man named jonathan glazer - faced censure for drawing parallels between his movie and the treatment of palestinians, especially considering Big Walls

fahra: a movie based on the real-life recollections of a survivor of the first nabka. fahra gets locked in a cellar while her village is overrun by troops and tries desperately to get out and find her father. the way it's told -- almost never leaving the cellar -- is both deliberate in that this is what happened, but it also serves as an intimate eye through which the audience is given perspective on some of the violence perpetrated during the first nabka and since

the advocate for fagdom: a documentary/portrait of bruce la bruce, the creation of queercore, queer punk scenes in the american 80s, tbh it's just a good time and a good insight into history -- particularly enjoyed the bit where they talked about queer already being not radical enough in the 90s and wanting to shake things up. *glances at corporate queer* oh little did they know (or maybe they did)...

monkey man: i was not necessarily the only trans person at the screening of this film i was at, but i was definitely outnumbered by heterosexual couples and we'll never know what the other cinema-goers felt about it, but this being mainstream-but-not. mainstream, in that dev patel is a name that draws audience, not in that this was all his production and certainly not a massive budget film for what it was doing. mainstream in its cool action set-pieces, not in that it's politically right in your face. dev patel is hot, also

the holdovers: the other oscar-nominated film and one i feel went waaay under the radar. hearkened back to an older era of american film-making that wasn't in a hurry, that had a simple story with deep reservoirs of feeling to tell, with quirky (but real) characters going through things together. the fact that it's set around the vietnam war makes that image even stronger. i just felt things. movie emotions, the emotions you get when you're watching such a solid fucking Movie, yaknow? *harry styles voice* It's a Movie

desire lines: gay trans men and mascs and gay saunas and lou sullivan and documentary but also the story of a middle-aged iranian trans guy who meets a younger american trans guy in an archive and they bond and he gets invited to the trans night at the sauna, i was so emotionally overcome by this film that i couldn't go back to the film festival i was at the entire rest of the weekend (two whole days i missed after this film got to me!!!) where do you hear gay trans men and masc stories? ever???

femme: fucked up gay revenge story in which a black drag queen (played oh so fucking well by nathan stewart-jarrett who is getting what's his after being done dirty by misfits back in the day, oof my boy is killing it in angels of america, in candyman, in this gem!) is hatecrimed by a group of white homophobes, and then proceeds to meet the leader of them in a gay bathhouse... oh if you can deal with the delicious tension of it (practically nonstop) it's so so worth it

secretary: first of two james spaders i watched for the first time, making me come to the realisation that mr spader is a Freak and so so good. a young woman yet to uncover her latent sub-side (the great maggie gyllenhaal) leaves a mental health institution and gets a job as a secretary for an incredibly repressed dom... and youknow....

crash: the other james spader i watched for the first time, ngl i was building to crash because i need to know when sex is going to happen onscreen, i need to approach it from the side, i need to be analytical about it lest it get too discomforting for me. i actually don't mind sex so much onscreen anymore, because im quite desentised to its being "not-real," but it still needs a bit of build. point being, these people get off on car crashes and that part is hot. idk what that says about me (kinky ace)

kamikaze girls: two girls from two different worlds meet, one is a member of an all-girl biker gang, the other wishes for nothing more than to be a rococo era girl (helpless, feminine, prone to fainting, beautiful, cared for). it all gets very gay very fast. this movie was delightful, i had such a good time

angel's egg: i am getting more into watching animation on the whole and so far this is the one that's knocked me the most over the head this year. i cannot describe it, it needs to be watched. it's just visual poetry wrapped in a fairytale wrapped in a series of questions, but you've gotta just... bask. just live in its world

tetsuo: the iron man: feel like there's nothing I can say about this movie that other people haven't said much better. I don't know much about this period of film-making, this feels like the intro to it all (for me), and it's. I mean really I ought to just go out there and make some fucked up movies in black and white with a bunch of simple special effects that come together to leave you oh-so-disturbed. they all become machines and fuck and vore each other i don't know what else to tellya

love lies bleeding: idk what to tell you man. fucked up lesbians. greasy smoker butch stewart, who's jonesing the entire time and so fucking into her pretty bodybuilder girlfriend who you think is the reasonable part of the equation but truly truly not. there's some body-stuff in there i did not expect. everyone is kind of terrible, and the score is great. lesbian crime hits different, it just does

SO FAR TOP MOVIES FOR THE SECOND HALF OF THE YEAR: Flee I Saw The TV Glow Death By Hanging It Must Be Heaven The Act Of Killing/The Look Of Silence Becket This Is Not A Film

[currymaker]

i got tagged by @knightochan-official i forgot about it. because im tired

Named after anyone?

alice margatroid. you know her

Last time I cried?

dont remember. i cant cry anymore okay actually i think it was that time i had a mental breakdown at a restaurant in portland

Kids?

lol

Sports?

i love volleyball. i wish i could play it but theres not very many teams that accept. yknow

Sarcasm?

?

First thing I notice about something?

the level of jank

Eye color?

the most common human phenotype

Scary movies or happy endings?

bittersweet endings

Talents?

i can survive anything no matter how much i dont want to. im also good in bed i guess. i dont really have any other talents

Place of birth?

one of two cities

Hobbies?

i dont do anything anymore. i suppose cooking. i do cooking. and streaming. id like to get into sewing but thats something i dont have anybody to help me learn it and id like to get back to drawing but i dont have enough confidence to weather the shame feeling from being bad at it even though theres literally nothing wrong with that

Pets?

rabbit soon

Height?

average

Favorite school subject?

medicine

Dream job?

lesbian brothel prostitute

[kindaoptimisticsquirrel]

Why not: A CCS reread, Part 3

It's saturday and I cannot stop myself from reading more. Time to go on with Chapter 13!

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6 | Part 7

Ch13:

I'm just now catching on the resemblance of Nadeshiko to Kotoki from X...

Batting Fujitaka with a stick because for heaven's sake you don't hit on your students, ESPECIALLY when they are still under 18. And not with these cheesy lines, too, sigh.

Oh Tomoyo, you're so dear to me <3 I met her first when I read Tsubasa Chronicles, because I read Cardcaptor Sakua later (I don't even know when the anime aired in Germany. Probably way before my time) It was nice seeing her here in the story where she originates and where her character can be more child and follow her hobbies (cause tsubasa is a bit darker in its theme)

Ch14:

Saving this for reference for when I might want to photoshop something stupid onto the newspaper

Loving the little "yikes" at the size of the bread :DD

Ch15:

I definitely forgot about this woman and that she and Touya had been..a thing? (Geez. I try not to think too much about the ages of the characters in CLAMP works)

You know what, I would have loved to get to know Shaoran's siblings!

Hihihihihi *giggling and kicking my feet*

Ch16:

Awww he's so cute when embarrassed

Sometimes it's a wonder how oblivious Yukito can be.

Ch18:

oooh I'm saving this for a drawing reference because I want to try to imitate this beautiful light effects! Gonna try with ink if I find time.

Ch19:

No, Fujitaka, when an adult man offers your 10 year old daughter some tea and biskuits and invites her to come over the other day, you don't just smile and tell her to go back. I'm shaking my head here very disappointedly. (I know it's a childrens' story so it isn't supposed to be taken that seriously, but if you try to look at it from an older perspective? Phew :D Some choices are really dubious.) (I'm only making fun of this, I'm still very much enjoying this manga. It's just interesting to see how different you can see things once you are NOT the target audience's age anymore) Oh yeah I forgot Fujitaka probably knows the man is Nadeshiko's grandfather, but my point still stands. Ch20:

I'm at the screen play now, and Yamazaki really is the perfect cast for that role hehe

Ch21:

You know I really like drawing style with the no hatching, and the light greytones. Normally we don't see shadows really so scenes like this with dark and light really stand out more. Also I think, this drawing style of the manga might look easy, because it's just outlines, and they are all the same line weight mostly...but I've seen other mangas trying to do it like this and I feel like they didn't pull it off this well. I'm wondering, if you don't really use grey tones to give your characters and objects depth, then at LEAST you gotta have a good feeling for shapes and panel arrangement and such to make it all work.

Good to see that the Light and Dark cards are just your average sweet lesbian couple. Good for them! *thumbs up*

Ch22:

I think I want a fic with Touya working at the most obscure places.

Touya: Bitch, don't be giving me love advice when you're the one who broke up. Sooo this is long enough for a post! Time to make a new one! :)

[greenb0i]

June 2023

I am rotting at this point. OK I'm not but like I've just been doing noting beside going on Mt phone. I am that one shinji meme

'•.¸♡ Films ♡¸.•'

Across the Spider-verse (2023) Dir. Joaquim Dos Santos, Kemp Powers and Justin K. Thompson

What can i even say about this movie. It one i haven't stopped thinking about for the last few days. Everything in the movie is amazing, from the visual to the story to how it portrays the characters. And the charater design!!!!! Literally, the whole reason i saw the movie!!!! And that one chase scene!!!! The whole part was just an amazing and deffo my favourite part. From beginning to end, i was wrapped up in the story the movie is trying to tell. It is probably one of the best movies I've seen all year. (10/10)

Erin Brockovich (2000) Dir. Steven Soderbergh

I like this. I thought Julie Andrews was really good as Erin. It was good (7/10)

Misha and the wolves (2021)

It grand. I thought the story was really interesting but like noting amazeing. I kinda forgot i watched it lol so (5/10)

Do Revenge (2022) Dir. Jennifer Kaytin Robinson

I love this movie. This is probaye the 3rd time i rewated it. I love Just everything about it, especially the fashion, like it just say so much about the character abd everthing(9/10)

The Big Short (2015) Dir. Adam McKay

I thought this was good. I like the editing a lot. I feel like it makes the story more interesting, I guess. With the story being about something as over complex and honesty, bordering banking, the fast-paced editing really sucks you into the story. That, as well as the acting, just makes it really good (8/10)

White chicks (2004) Kennen Ivory Wayans

Funny as shit my god

⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚Books ˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆

The Convalescent By Jessica Anthony

This is such a strange book. To both read and think about. It surreal to read, and can confusing to think about (im still not 100% sure about what this book is tryin to say) since so many events in the book reads like folk-lore, which i do really like. This addtions to almost folk-lore like storys telling make the events toward the end of the book (were it really goes off the rails) feel like a natrual progression and one you could maybe even see coming. The to what isn't a terrble complated novel story wise. But it levase enough there to make you want to read on and see where the fuck there going at points. It can be confusing as hell, but i like that, how it not complety clear on what it trying to say. 7/10

Laura Dean Keeps Breaking Up with Me By Mariko Tamaki and illustrated by Rosemary Valero-O'Connell

I got this book ages ago and deicded to reread it and god I love this book. The story is good, and if i were to just read it as a novel i proabyeb think it was grand, but god the art. The art of the book adds so much. I think it evaleds the story to the point of being amazing. I love small used of colour and the way the charater are draw just adds to there charaterisaton alot. (8/10)

The guy she was interested in wasn't a guy at all By Arai Sumiko

Like every lesbian, i love this. It so cute to read about this two nerds bonding. I need them to kiss. Also i love how the artist draws charater, esalily there outfits. For the main girls, it feel like there chose in fashion says a lot alot them and why they like what they like (8/10)

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*Fives songs i love*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

Benefiits of lying (with your friends)- The Apple In Stereo

Caroline, Please Kill Me-Coma Cinema

Miku-Anamanaguchi, Hatsune Miku

Summer Again-The Wytches

Sleep Patterns-Merchant Ships

[vitch-with-v]

Hey remember this? I do, so here's the proof

TRIGGER WARNING: UGLY ASS DRAWINGS FROM WHEN I WAS A PRE-TEEN AND LORE DROP

These are some of the first appearances of Joaquín, my "male version". He got his name after what my mom was gonna name me if i was born a boy

I had made a chart explaining all the different characters that were divisions of myself (cuz there were a lot) and here is Joaquín, who was not only my male version but also my self-esteem

Worth noticing: no, i don't have split personality or any kind of similar conditions, i was just a weird kid and i thought it was cool to give names and faces to different sides of myself, i haven't done that ever since, most of them didn't even survive past 2019, expect for him

His "presence" grew stronger in the start of the quarantine, cuz i was bored and very lonely :(, so he was basically an imaginary friend, that's why i usually drew him just hanging out with me (longer hair, pre-trans lol)

This is ME when i decided to cut all my hair off, wich is when i started questioning my gender, at this point i thought i might be non binary, but Joa still lingered, cuz i mean he was a really important character for me yk?

↑Me and Joa after my haircut... Yeaaaaahh....

Here it says "im gonna change Joa's name" (it says "don't ask why" under it, not pictured). This is also when i went oh shIT I MIGHT BE A BOY- so u can imagine WHY i wanted to change his name, you know, the name i was gonna have if I WAS A BOY??? Yeah, that didn't work out anyways cuz i ended up naming myself after some emo guy from an australian tv show that changed my brain chemistry so :p

This was also the last time i drew or ever mentioned him, after this he basically fucking died and i forgot about him completely + i stopped drawing and journaling for like a year or so (consider that i used to do it almost every day)

I find it crazy looking through my old sketchbooks and seeing my actual self from today be depicted as a "character", this is literally how i draw myself TODAY (with a lot of improvement ok? This is from like 2020/2021)

And i almost forgot to mention, but i was a hardcore fujoshi in 2019 (wich really fucked me in the head cuz it's not good to be reading porn at such a young age but oh well-), and so i used to ship Joa with one of my best friends oc's and we'd joke that they were gay and jaja funny they're gay yk hehe jiji jaja yk?

Thanks to the quarantine i started interacting with ACTUAL queer content, made by ACTUAL queer people, depicting what it's ACTUALLY LIKE to be part of the lgbt+ community, and not the fetishization of gay men made by and for (mostly) straight women, wich also made me feel real bad cuz i was like "oh no I've been fetishizing gay men all this time! Im a straight woman, it's weird for me to like gay men so much!" And honey do i have news for you :).

But i was pleased to find im not the only one that went thru the "fujoshi straight/might be a lesbian girl to transgender gay man" pipeline, it's crazy how there is no original experience, ive seen a gazillion fuckers who went thru the same shit, wich is surprising cuz how the fuck u go from "might be a lesbian" to "im a gay man", but hey, at least im not alone :))

If you read all that, you either really wanna know me, you have too much free time, or u need help HSKSHAKA. But yeah, jst wanted to share my experience, bc i still think about it till this day, and i still think of him every now and then

I don't think im ever bringing him back, or maybe i will, who knows, but for now he has a home in the black box with all my old sketchbooks, and i hope he's comfy in there ;)

the song made me giggle a lil as a trans guy

[milfbrainrot]

oh we're SO. so fucking back

shauna's thing about how the only way to survive is to be the only one left vs. tai saying if shauna goes unstopped she'll be the last one left.

also mel on top of shauna as teens tryin to kill her versus shauna on top of mel as adults

lesbians cannibalizing their gfs from shauna eating jackie's ear to shauna eating melissa's arm to tai eating van's organ. callie should've eaten some of lottie or saved her hair.

SLUMBER PARTY MAKEOUTS??????????????????????? rational explanation: travis was reading one of those porn mags during the shaunajackie breakup fight. supernatural explanation: yeah sure i'll drink to that.

lolol the letter abt encouraging shauna to forgive herself is so funny. there's this trend of the survivors trying to take precautions or do good but it just sets shauna off because it reminds her of the thrills she misses. tai sending jessica out to investigate people? well now shauna killed adam. melissa sending the tape to get shauna to forgive herself (allegedly)(i don't know if i believe that)? WELL A LOT MORE PEOPLE ARE DEAD NOW BABE. in some way misty did the same - solving lottie's murder led to callie and jeff leaving which led to shauna remembering her identity when not bogged down by wife or mother.

the idea of them all forgetting things kind of helped explain discrepancies in the adult timeline. tai forgetting things because of her alt persona, only remembering when she partook in cannibalism herself consciously? explains why she did trust shauna so much in the beginning. nat probably forgot a lot bc of drugs and alcohol, and had to ask the others what they actually remembered. i think van remembered enough which helps bc she came in later and only for tai - she was horrified at seeing lottie again. she feels the weight of the responsibilities tai suppressed, being responsible for mari's death and so on. shauna had to succumb to a normal boring life tm and buried the thrills because nothing could ever compare. lottie's mental illness does a lot of heavy lifting probably but she wants to remember when she's unmedicated. misty is... well... misty lol. part of me thinks she wants those days back, but part of me also knows she helped nat escape to rescue them. she has a loyalty to protect her traumabond family tm and she was most loyal to nat, who was in direct opposition to shauna, so... we'll see what happens i guess. i just wonder - did they forget bc they were having fun or did shauna forget bc she was having fun lmfao. i think it's partly that for melissa at least.

also wtf is all the reality bullshit

walter... was there. i think. i still don't get his whole deal. i think misty took a tag off caligula's cage that had been from walter so ig they're done bc of how he treated the lottie investigation so disrespectfully and now she doesn't need him because she's Important to her Friends again. what is his fucking deal tho lol.

my gasp and grin when mari fell in the pit. GOD WE'RE SO FUCKING BACK!!!!!!!

hannah was at shauna's side at the start when they were doing those hut searches? really really interesting dynamic potential there. i am kind of disappointed she helped nat escape - i rly wanted to believe she was a freak here for the once in a lifetime chance to study the micro civilization they started. i think she... maybe just didn't know they actively killed people to cannibalize, and maybe thought it was more "well we'll cannibalize if this guy dies" or "kill to survive" without realizing an actual hunt to cannibalize was on the horizon.

shauna's antler queen garb gave her a joan of arc look before the headdress came on. i love the hair details - she first found hannah's hair on a branch and now she's actively collecting more. she left melissa to go hunt hannah and that was her prize. now mari's dead and this is the prize. i'm glad the feud btwn her and mari paid off so well with when she interfered in the draw. def gonna miss mari tho and im sad that social media post abt her coming back to sell mlm stuff wasn't true jl;sdfljslkdfj.

i guess robin and hannah and gen were red herrings for pit girl. i hope they have another hunt before they get rescued. hannah and a few others clearly don't fucking survive so.

THE BOX. HOLY SHIT.

wasn't there an actress who may have been adult akilah? still not sure what happened there

what happened to the FUCKING BONUS EPISODE I STILL WANT THE BONUS EPISODE

RECONTEXTUALIZATION OF MISTY'S CRACKED GLASSES SMILE ! very different from the actual pilot pit girl scene but same vibes. i wanna do a frame by frame for a bit.

god im glad pit girl paid off. i think the fandom did overanalyze it a lot at first but also the backlash to us overanalyzing it was stupid. most of the hype around it WAS before season 2, so we had rly slim options for who pit girl could be and less idea about who survived to adulthood. i think either way people got annoying about it but i was riding such a high watching it unfold and realizing this is what we saw at first.

what happened with akilah in the cave with lottie i actually don't. remember. like. why did she set up the animal deaths and stuff im rly unclear on all her stuff rn bc that ep brainblasted me so bad.

man idek what else just. no callie nudes on lottie's phone but close efuckingnough. i still hate that lottie died but this was the best fucking way it could've gone holy fuck. shauna and callie 🤝 beating the fuck out of lottie.

why did tai visit lottie that day tho

oughusdhfgljkskjdfhkjshdfkjlhjkfhnvkjlshkjldf god im just so glad the show is good again i hope it gets renewed now . kind of an okay place to end off if they don't i guess. lots of issues i still have with it but OVERALLLLLL we're so back. xo.

[percontaion-points]

Lost Boys chapters 23 & 24

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Chapter 23

It was great to be able to confide more intimate things with Tiffany now. When I told her about the kiss on the night of the party, she was all squealing and euphoric about it, which made me feel excited too!

And once again we go back to largely glossing over everything.

If things are this bad in the first book, I’m terrified what book three is going to be like. 

“Exactly! But the thing is … you always look good. You are very beautiful. You have this amazing long black glossy hair, and those big black eyes of yours. You have beautiful pale skin, plump lips and a great figure; you’re so pretty!”

I’m down for a good lesbian story. But sitting and describing another character with such aching detail as a plot device is a bit much for me.

“You know all the boys were talking about you all night at the Valentine’s party, right?”

 “They were?” I asked suspiciously. 

“If it wasn’t for ‘your band’ threatening everybody that got near you, you’d have been a big hit!” she said reassuringly. 

“Everybody just wanted to win a free week of homework …”

Here’s the thing: there’s nothing wrong with guys talking about how pretty a girl is.

However, there’s a huge difference in saying “Wow, she looks beautiful!” and “Wow, she looks so hot; I’m going to try and hook up with her simply to win a bet!” 

There is literally no situation in which the bet winner would be in the right here! Joe is right to call each and every single one of them out.

“It was just about that stupid bet!”

 “Okay. So, I’ll prove you wrong. The Spring Ball is next month! I’ll make sure there’s no betting going on that night! And you’ll see how you’ll fare.”

That’s not the point; Joe doesn’t WANT to be asked out! She wants to be treated with dignity and respect as a person… which is the bare fucking minimum here. 

It was the last week of the month already, and I was so engrossed with new outfits, and avoiding dance invitations, and music practice, lessons and school, that I completely forgot about my past nightmares with Vigil.

To be fair, I feel like the author forgot about Vigil, too. She’s been so focused on high school drama she forgot that she began a supernatural ghost romance. 

“Don’t put me in the middle of your fight with Brad! It’s not my fault you were kicked off his basketball team! And it’s not gossiping, it’s called having a social life, just so you know!” she bellowed. 

“I wasn’t kicked off the team! I quit! He begged me to come back, just so ‘you’ know!” Seth barked back. “And you could try being less ‘social’ sometimes!”

I would care about this fight… But the author has done completely nothing to make me think that I should, in any way, care about these characters. 

If their roles were to be removed from the story, I’m not sure that the plot would change all that much. 

And my jaw dropped a hundred feet down to the floor then: Seth and Tiff were in the middle of the bedroom, in the most intense make-out session of the decade!

I can’t even pretend to be surprised. 

And I didn’t need to worry about helping those two. They were doing just fine on their own.

Chapter 23 summary: Tiffany advises that Joe should start dressing in more girly clothes. This draws the attention of the male population, and before she knows it, she’s having to hide or risk being asked to the school’s spring dance. I don’t fucking care. 

However, she does start having dreams about Vigil again. But this is glossed over, so I’m not sure that I care.

Then Tiffany and Seth get into a huge fight one afternoon. Tiff runs off in tears, and Joe encourages her to apologize to Seth. Tiff goes, but then Joe begins to worry about the two of them tearing each other apart, so she follows after a moment. Only to find Tiffany and Seth playing tonsil hockey. I also kind of don’t care about this. I’m quickly reaching my limit.

Chapter 24

Tiffany had left out a beautiful red-stoned necklace, with matching red earrings…

It’s a fucking ruby. Don’t try to pretend like it’s anything else. 

I no longer cared that everyone thought we were supposed to be siblings. There was only him and me on that dance floor, our eyes locked; only his body close to mine, his smell intoxicating me. Only his face leaning close, his jaw brushing so lightly against my cheek, his warm breath touching my neck, teasing me, torturing me, making me shiver in joy. 

Considering how much of a rage that she flew into over the hook-up bets… I think that she’s going to regret her “I don’t care” attitude when rumours start to swirl about how she’s fucking her brother. 

(Regardless of the fact that they aren’t actually related, you know that people are going to talk.)

“I didn’t let you do anything. You did it all on your own,” he said coldly. 

[...]

With all my training, all my hours of martial arts, I felt so impotent now, unable to react.

[Image description: A scatter-plot graph with a bunch of randomly-placed blue dots. The graph is titled “No correlation” at the top. End description]

“Good. That’s the way it should be.” He opened the door and walked away, leaving me behind on the terrace, broken and alone.

Chapter 24 summary: One of The Boys™ tells Joe that her “grandmother” had come in search of her. This is obviously Ms. Violet. However, when Joe tries to ask Tristan what Ms. Violet had said, he gets angry at her that she’d been hiding her scary dreams from him. He says that they shouldn’t be together. 

Joe mopes around in Tiffany’s room, and refuses to go to the school dance. However, when Seth comes to pick Tiffany up, Joe mopes around for a bit listening to the music from the party (which how loud is it that you can hear it three stories up?) before she puts on the dress Tiffany had set aside for her and goes down. 

There, she spends some time dancing with all of the boys. Eventually, Tiffany comes over with Tristan and says that she needs to speak with Seth urgently. That Joe can dance with Tristan, since both Tiffany and Seth need to go. 

However, Tristan is obviously still angry about their fight earlier. Joe drags him off to the balcony Harry had shown her at the Valentine’s day party, and they go at it. What it boils down to is that Tristan is convinced that his feelings for her are caused by whatever bond formed between them when he was brought back to life. He tells her that they can’t keep doing this and leaves.