#I experience amnesia

[themoonsystem1723]

Truama is subjective.

What was intensely traumatic for me might not be traumatic to you, and it might not have even been traumatic in the moment.

We have did comorbid with autism adhd and anxiety, things that may not have been upsetting in the moment can become upsetting later. Our mother thinks our childhood was good and cool, we remember very little of it and in the past the only bits we remembered with any clarity were traumatic things.

This is why I personally don’t think endos exist, and that’s not me siding with anti endos either. I think that trauma is subjective, covert, and easy to miss, and that everyone has it. Some people are more susceptible to letting it cause problems.

Trauma is not a requirement for did. ptsd and cptsd are not requirements for did. They are commonly found with did, but they are not diagnostic criteria.

I do not have ptsd symptoms (as far as I’m aware)

I have had experiences with alters since i was 13 or 14, I have had a therapist clock it without me asking about it, and I’ve talked to my current therapist about it.

My trauma is not terribly bad, I was bullied as a kid, I had undiagnosed autism and anxiety, emotional neglect (minor), health trauma related to both of my parents having chronic illnesses, and some general being raised in the 2010s trauma shit like having too much access to the internet.

I still have alters, I still lose time, I still have a seemingly ever changing internal image.

I also just don’t think it matters that much. If your playing trauma Olympics what are you doing with your life. Be happy that someone didn’t have as shitty of a life.

ALSO, as an end note to anyone that picked up on the fact that I am young, I only found out I have did because of a coincidence. If I had not met the people I did that day I likely would have gone many many years without figuring it out. DID in the past was assisted in its obfuscation by the lack of easy education, there is a wealth of info now and it is very easy to find stuff out.

-Tara

[solidwater05]

Apparently this needs to be said so

Forgetting things is morally neutral! Memory issues are morally neutral!

You're not a bad person if you...

forget things quickly

forget people

can't remember entire stages of your life

can't remember important things

can remember some things very well and forget other things all the time

can't remember things (or anything!) about your interests

forget to eat, sleep, go to the bathroom, etc

forget to reply to texts

remember things and immediately forget them again

can't remember birthdays, events, etc

frequently answer 'I forgot' to questions

can't retain new information

forget things you used to know

only remember things when it's too late

have vague, distorted and/or unreliable memories

depend on others to know how an event you were in played out

have other symptoms that are worsened by memory issues and vice versa

... and anything else I might have missed!

[sysig]

Ah, childhood memories (Patreon)

[al-luviec]

something simple to try to get out of art block (it didn't work)

[redbean-nom]

love that nobody can function without echo in the empire era. the batch keeps losing the ship, barely manage to finish their missions, and entirely forgo strategy. and then on the other hand, rex pre-echo-joining-the-rebellion was living in an abandoned garage with one singular tiny ship. then shortly after echo joins they have a whole base with like twenty troopers and real doors and actual food and a ship actually designed for long distance travel.

[veilkeeper]

"which do you prefer, pre or post amnesia durgetash" actually i prefer the haunting image of both side by side as perfect mirrors, because nothing has changed even though everything has. in case you were wondering.

[candyheartedchy]

So I watched “Just Like Heaven” and had to make an AU, heck I made two! The movie version and @tornrose24’s fic “Being Here With You” that is based on it!

[y-rhywbeth2]

Withers tells Durge they shouldn't get their memories back because it would drive them insane.

Pretty sure from context that Larian intends that to mean it as in they wouldn't be able to cope with the guilt (even though it's entirely possible to still be an evil jackass at this point), but I'm just looking at Durge's backstory - both the canon components and the headcanon - and going 'yep.'

Loss of identity is traumatic, but probably not as traumatic as knowing all that *gestures at the backstory snippets* intimately instead of knowing of it in abstract.

[osteochondraldefect]

"I have been wondering, Resident, how you are handling your ever-shifting sense of identity......"

[berryberrytaeberry]

Giving kudos to myself for making my depressing ass Lan Zhan spotify playlist entitled ✨️Thirteen Years✨️ because I have been doing The Not Good™️ because of work, and the playlist really do get me through the morning

[rise-to-it]

the post about how we can’t explain WHY Eugenides is the perfect unreliable narrator without spoiling the books did just remind me that I once convinced my friend to read the books and then she wanted multiple of them at once to read on a trip, so I created a carefully secured paper book cover to hide the title of the third book from her

[donnieisaprettyboy]

I’ve been experiencing dissociation since I was a kid (like no older than 3) and when I told my therapist she was very confused bc dissociation usually only happens when people experience trauma (which I hadn’t at that age) but like…… imagine my confusion at finding out that most people don’t sometimes feel like they’re having an out of body experience and have long bouts of amnesia because of it

“yeah you know those times where you feel like you’re kinda just piloting yourself like a video game character and you don’t really remember much of anything when it happens but you’re still able to get through daily functions”

everyone in the room, apparently:

“….no???”

[deargravity]

link click has actually ruined my life and i’d let it do so again

[esterigermaine]

Okay, but Halsin, Jaheira, Minthara, and Astarion all taking one look at an Elf dark urge and immediately going "I can influence that"

So all 4 of the older Elves in the party end up being like a divorced couple that can't agree on how to raise their kid.

[ardenrosegarden]

[mofsblog]

Intermezzo save me intermezzo kaynes DID also save me

REAL!! Never forgetting our quest to find that one fucking line. Anyways shoutout to kayne, gotta be my favourite blorbo with a dissociative disorder