#I don’t know if I can handle it though

[reveriechroma]

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the different types of spaces we hold and the ones held for us in relationships with friends, family and romantic partners. How some spaces make us feel loved unconditionally, free to express ourselves without judgement and how others can be a detriment to our overall well being.

I was thinking about Carla and Lisa’s dynamic and when it comes down to it, Carla has always held a safe space for Lisa. No matter the ups and downs they’re going through even if it’s with each other, Carla still shows up, putting herself aside to check in on Lisa, to let her vent, to let her just exist, always speaking life into her. I think unbeknownst to Lisa, with every encounter Carla was slowly chipping away the high walls she built, the loneliness she was so accustomed to.

It became starkly evident in the latest scene with them. Lisa’s heart and mind are in completely different places. Her mind was the one who ended things before they even started but her heart was the one who couldn’t stay away, who needed to see Carla the next day only to tell her again she wasn’t ready to start things. Her heart was the one who immediately rushed to the hospital after hearing about Carla and who stayed by her bedside all night into the morning, pleading with her to wake up because she couldn’t go through this again. Yet, her mind was the one who rejected coffee and taking a break, instead insisting on going to work to catch whoever did this Carla. Her heart was the one who went back to the hospital to see Carla after hearing she was awake but her mind was the one who didn’t tell her anything about her case, simply just saying I can’t say.

Ultimately, with her mind and heart continuously at war, when her back was against the wall with new news of Becky’s case, it was Carla’s safety she sought out because she knew that above all things, Carla would be there to talk, would allow her to vent and would hold a safe place for her, a place to come undone. And that’s exactly what happened. Not only did Carla provide that for Lisa but she even reaffirmed it by saying, “you can tell me anything, anytime, you know that. It’s ok.”

Carla who’s in the hospital recovering from brain surgery after burglars ransacked her factory—a mess initiated by Lisa’s daughter, who was scared Carla was taking her late mom’s place. Carla who was going to tell Lisa what Betsy had done but again put herself to the side and kept that information to herself because she knew it would push Lisa over the edge. With all of that, she still offered Lisa a safe place to just breathe.

[warlenys]

the glenn macdennis comment hurt obviously but also so necessarily cause i’d gotten too delusional i was too obsessed with the potential final prize instead of fully enjoying what i love about what macden is rn which is the saddest awfulest gay tragedy ever written this is such a good catalyst for lowering my expectations and just living laughing loving in the doomed queerbait this is what shipping’s about what fandom’s about what life is about let us rest peacefully knowing that we absolutely will still get shit and it’ll be crazy and funny and sad but ultimately the power to make it beautiful lies with us. as the queerbait gods intended

[redfirefox-55]

Two days of needle felting practice so far <3

I am slowly accumulating a little iterator army through various means, expect many more in the future

[leonsliga]

Yesterday definitely wasn’t our day, but the hate Manu’s gotten on social media (not on tumblr, but we already know footyblr is the best) since is unbelievable. I’ve seen people calling for him to retire because the football’s left him, insisting that he’s overrated and “can’t save anything”. And I know this happens all the time in football—I understand us Bayern fans are all frustrated with our performance against Barça. But is one match all it takes to turn on a legend? Really?

And honestly, even if that is your opinion, that’s ok. I just don’t really get how some fans feel the need to comment on Manu’s posts how “finished” they think he is. What does that solve, anyway? He won’t retire just because some fans want him to, and if this is about getting the best out of him, this is probably the worst way to do it. It’s unnecessary at best and awfully cruel at worst. He’s as much a human being as any of us, but I think sometimes people forget that in the heat of the moment.

[quins-makeshift-menagerie]

I may get canceled for this but

I don’t mind discord’s UI change

[androidboy]

i think i’m gonna break up with my girlfriend :(

[pizzaqueen]

Steve seems like a power tool kind of guy but honestly, so does Eddie! He’s like ‘let’s get a chainsaw!’ with a little too much enthusiasm for Steve’s liking (especially because they live in an apartment 😜)

[mars-ipan]

alomst 300 note combo…. gone

[1-jar-of-stars]

BRUH WHAT TF CONTEXT W THE AKADEMIKS SHIT I BEG

tw for SA and a lot of other things

Akademiks is being sued bc in july 2022 he and two of his friends were over at his house and they drugged and assaulted an influencer.

she’s suing him for negligent infliction of emotional distress and defamation

they dated for a while beforehand but they weren’t really on speaking terms until he reached out to her and she came over to his house where she thought they would be alone until two of his friends came over

tw again bc it gets REALLY dark

they drugged her and threw her in a pool before one of his friends assaulted her while she tried to get out. and then she was in and out of consciousness until she woke up at 4 am with aka on top of her

and he then showed her videos of it

she went to the police who said there was evidence of her being assaulted but she chose not to file a case about it

but then in 2023 aka got on a stream and said she had an orgy with his friends and he had no part in it

and she’s suing him for defamation, rape, and emotional distress.

now he’s saying that if he goes down for this he’s going to expose the entire industry

[roseofhybrids]

Had another weird melatonin dream

So there was a guy, charming asshole type of personality.

He had a food truck, which in the dream he tried to use to rob another truck. This other truck was transporting genetically modified kittens, which he wanted to steal then sell I guess? He hired this entire band of like 12 thieves to help him on this heist. I think the idea was he’d pretend his food truck got stolen to be used in the crime, then he’d sell the weird kittens for a lot and use that to pay his hired goons.

But then in the middle of the heist, his truck got high jacked for real by a phantom thief lady. Like Carmen Sandiego but more sarcastic.

She was also after the kittens, but I think she was more interested in the data behind the genetic engineering than the kittens themselves.

So anyway, whole heist goes sideways, all the goons fall out the truck and the kitten truck gets away. Phantom thief lady is pissed at the food truck guy, but the two agree to team up to steal from the lab behind the genetic engineering

[punkinvsblogging]

Should I re-read The Outsiders, or do I love myself?

[zeb-z]

the sooner badboyhalo viewers realize he’s an unreliable narrator the sooner I’ll be able to sleep at night

[winged-wolf-s-collection-of-arts]

THINKING ABOUT.

Universe contamination. WAIT before anybody says Oh doc’s gone off the deep end This is an oc project.

Kind of started as an explanation for why when my friends and I did crossovers it went off the rails? Also because of how my writing changed over time, ha. (of course you know you can’t have an adventure story without something going wrong but still.) Whenever somebody visits Jer, peoples around them are more… aggressive? Heightened emotions? (shoutout to Finch)

And on the other hand when Jer visits other people they’re able to calm down any situations very well, and just bring positive vibes! But it’s very exhausting for Some Reason.

I’m not sure how jer got the idea, probably a slow realization/looking back or maybe confirmation bias and none of it is real! Haha!

Contamination is a Major worry Jer has! They’re paranoid that outsiders staying too long and butterfly-effecting things/causing trouble could permanently ruin the timeline. (I think that’s what triggered him into uh shutting down his portal the first time) (and hearing about what JJ did was very worrying also-)

Lost my train of thought so I’m talking about another related idea. You know how in movies when a character is worried that Something TM is nearby but the other characters tell them not to worry because it’s not real? Irl we don’t have to worry and you can reassure yourself because Science, but in the movie they’re right to worry because the creature can be seen and really does exist. Jer knows the ‘creature’ exists, therefore that Threat is always there and nothing others say will fully reassure him, and he’s right to think that. Uh my thoughts. Losing my train of thought. [insert that meme of me by a conspiracy board]

(Orrrrr contamination isn’t actually because of universe magic but becauseeee of the way the worlds are slightly different and the way visitors act and talk are recieved differently? And when people are getting to know each other, first impressions do a lot? And what JJ did was an isolated incident that had a lot of warning signs beforehand? So he doesn’t have to worry? But too late, the idea’s in his head now.)

… uh oh, Jer’s trying to run an experiment by giving his friends ‘good luck charms’ and seeing if objects from their world could affect another’s if kept for a long time. Jer no!! Chill out!!

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On a fun note though, I’m giving jer night vision. wahoooo :D I might make a cool drawing for it laterrr

And thinking on Rev- I think yeah, folks in Jer’s world think he’s some kind of creature or… maybe a film star? That’d explain why he’s most often at the studio and acting dramatic HAHA- but in all seriousness I think movies there would lean on the more action filled/ more violent side (and on the contamination thing- once people got to know Rev they mellowed out so. Jer, calm down. Jer of course people are going to act oddly your various friends from ‘out of town’ have fangs, claws, unusual eyes, and demon horns) (shoutout to Caedem)

(but. But. Potentially if some dangerous ideas were introduced to Jer’s city you can’t just… take them back- like Pandora’s box. If Something made people start acting more selfish and cruel it Could contaminate the supernatural good fortune of the city. Haha what who said that? I love ideas that could go either way, that’s my jam. Who knows. (But I wouldn’t do that to them because Id have to write something complicated And it would be very sad. But the worry is real to Jer.)

Related- thinking onnnn Jer’s rat! Randy’s doing a very good job keeping them calm- annnnd explaining out loud what you’re thinking (even to a pet!) can help you realize how over-worried you are. They’re having a Mental Health Moment but are holding it together on the outside so [thumbs up]

[dapperenby13]

Last night at a New Year’s party someone id never met helped me beat the phantom Ganon fight in the forest temple so today I made a bit more progress in the game

[boomerang109]

(guy who’s literally nocturnal): i didn’t realize i was doing that badly

[thirsty-4-ghouls]

“Hancock is bad with kids” “Hancock is bad with Shaun” no, well, maybe, but where I was getting at was, the objectively funniest dynamic there that I can think of is that Hancock does, indeed, not know what to do around kids BUT Shaun is super curious because of that and will not leave him alone. Hancock will be looking at sole like “I can’t handle this, i don’t know what to do, get your kid” and Shaun is just like “why do you dress like that? Do you still get sunburnt? Do you like lazer rifles? I like lazer rifles.” Like a cat that sees the person ignoring them and goes up to them for attention. And the funniest response from sole is something like “the sunburn question is rude, Shaun” and then they continue doing whatever they were before saying that.