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Monaco - Ayrton Senna
Ayrton Senna x driver!reader
Summary: As a Formula 1 driver, racing for Ferrari, you win for the first time in Monaco. You and Ayrton are good friends, but there was something more there.
The sound of engines roaring on the Monaco circuit was deafening. The smell of burning rubber and gasoline permeated the air. It was an electric atmosphere, filled with tension and expectation. The narrow, winding track was an impeccable challenge, requiring absolute precision and indomitable courage.
You were in the cockpit of your Ferrari, your heart pounding as you waited for the race to start. The red lights went out, and the show began. Every curve, every straight, every overtaking was a battle. You drove with fierce determination, conscious of every movement, feeling the car like an extension of your own body.
The last lap seemed like an eternity. With your heart racing, you crossed the finish line first. The victory was yours. The first victory in Monaco, a monumental feat for any Formula 1 driver, but even more special for you, who had dreamed of this moment since childhood.
When you got out of the car, you were greeted with a shower of applause and screams. The Ferrari team was ecstatic, the technical team applauded and lifted you on their shoulders. You couldn't believe what had just happened. And then, in the crowd, you saw him: Ayrton Senna, your longtime friend and confidant.
Senna, who came in second place, smiled widely when he saw you, his eyes shining with pride. He approached, pushing his way through the journalists and photographers. – "You were amazing!" – He said, his voice full of emotion. – "I knew you had it in you!"
– "Thank you, Ayrton." – You replied, your voice choked with joy and adrenaline. – "I couldn't have done it without your support."
He pulled you into a tight hug, and you felt the connection of years of friendship and mutual admiration. When they pulled away, their eyes met, and for a moment, the world around them seemed to disappear. The tumult of the celebration, the camera flashes, everything became a blur. There were only the two of you, in that moment of pure euphoria.
Without thinking, you moved closer, and your lips met in a kiss full of passion and intensity. It was as if all the repressed emotion, all the affection and desire accumulated over the years, was released at that moment. The kiss was brief but intense, and when you broke apart, you were both breathless, surprised by what had just happened.
The rest of the day passed in a whirlwind of interviews, celebrations and congratulations. The kiss with Ayrton kept replaying in his mind, but there was no time to process it calmly. Night fell, and the celebrations calmed down. The paddock was quieter, with just a few team members still working.
You found Ayrton in a far corner, watching the sea. He seemed to be lost in thought, but upon noticing your presence, he smiled softly.
– "Congratulations again, champion." – He said, his voice soft and welcoming.
– "Thanks." – You replied, approaching. – "We need to talk about what happened earlier."
He nodded, looking serious. – "Yes we need."
You sat down, the sound of waves crashing in the background. – "Ayrton, that kiss... it was something I didn't expect, but I don't regret it."
He held your hand, the touch warm and comforting. – "Neither do I. I feel like I've been waiting for this for a long time, but I never had the courage to act."
– "Me too." – You admitted it. – "There has always been something between us, something more than friendship. Maybe today, with all the emotion, it finally came to the surface."
– "Yes." – He agreed. – "And now?"
You sighed, thinking about all the implications. – "Beco, we are pilots, our lives are complicated. But if there's anything I learned today, it's that we can't let opportunities pass us by. I want to see where it can take us."
He smiled, that smile that always brightened your days. – "I'm willing to try, if you are."
You embraced each other again, this time with new hope and expectation. The future was uncertain, but at that moment, nothing else mattered other than how you felt about each other. Victory in Monaco was the start of something new, not just in his career, but also in his heart. And you were ready to face this new journey, alongside Ayrton Senna.
⎊𝙘𝙧𝙨𝙨𝙫𝙟𝙗 - ²⁰²⁴
#ayrton senna x reader#ayrton senna x you#ayrton senna x y/n#formula 1 x reader#formula one x reader#formula one imagine#formula 1 imagine#f1 x reader#f1 x you
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[Nica Schwartz] I Can't Return to a Time Before You Part Premium Ending
Startled by the scream, I turned around to see the woman from earlier stabbing the man.
Kate: Eh...?
Emaciated Noblewoman: It's your fault, it's all your fault!
Presumed Husband: Gyaaaaaah, Hyyyaaaah!!
She stabbed him repeatedly, and the man's hand, which had been resisting, slipped to the ground.
Kate: !!
Passerby Man: Someone get a doctor!!
The woman, straddling the man, started laughing as a pool of blood spread across the ground.
Emaciated Noblewoman: I did it, I did it!
Emaciated Noblewoman: Now I'm free!
(Free...?)
The familiar word was what Nica had just told the woman, and--
I gasped and looked up to see him wearing a faint smile.
Kate: Nica...?
Emaciated Noblewoman: To think I no longer have to see him buy women and keep them in the mansion, their numbers ever increasing! It's heaven!
Emaciated Noblewoman: Yes, where is he!?
The screaming woman's gaze turned towards us.
Frightened by her wide eyes, I instinctively stepped back, but--.
Nica: ...Humans really are stupid, aren't they?
His muttered words reached only my ears.
The woman, having thrown away the knife, approached us and was stopped by the city police who had rushed to the scene, but she shouted to Nica,
Emaciated Noblewoman: See, now I'm free!
Emaciated Noblewoman: So choose me over her!
At her clearly deranged behavior, he stepped in front of me protectively.
Kate: Nica!
Then, he approached the woman and tightly grasped her hand.
Nica: Whether you're free or not, my lover is this girl.
Nica: I have no intention of going out with any other woman, and besides, we only talked once, right?
The moment he let go of her hand, the stunned woman began to tremble.
Nica: Auf Wiedersehen. We'll probably never meet again.
*Auf Wiedersehen is "goodbye," but literally translates to "until we see each other again." In this context, Nica may have said it with a sarcastic underdone, saying goodbye while implying that he hopes he never sees her again.
He gave her a cold look, put his arm around my waist, and started walking.
Emaciated Noblewoman: W-what? Why did I do this?
Emaciated Noblewoman: Noooooooooo!!
Nica: Don't look.
He pulled me closer, and as we walked away, the woman's cries echoed behind us, a stark contrast to her earlier triumphant shouts.
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In the quiet city night, away from the commotion,
Nica: Oh dear, we wasted time on something unnecessary despite being on a date.
My heart was still pounding loudly.
Nica: You must have been scared. I was surprised too; I never thought she would kill someone.
Kate: ...Didn't you use your ability?
Nica: Eh?
He stopped walking and looked at me with a puzzled expression.
Kate: Didn't you use your ability to charm her and make her kill him?
My voice trembled, but I couldn't help but ask.
(Nica's ability is to charm people, and the condition for activation is to hold their hand.)
(At that time, Nica held the woman's hand and told her to be brave.)
After that, she seemed to become like a different person and killed someone. Then, when he held her hand again, she seemed to return to her senses. Seeing this,
Kate: I can't imagine her changing like that unless you used your ability.
That was more than enough reason to believe he had used his ability.
Silence fell, and only the sound of the river flowing reached my ears.
How much time had passed? A heavy atmosphere lingered until he finally sighed.
Nica: ...What if I said I did use it?
Kate: Huh...?
Nica: But there's no proof that I used it, and it was her own will that killed her husband, right?
Nica: I didn't tell her to kill him.
Nica: Well, it's true that there were dark rumors about him.
Seeing his nonchalant attitude, I was at a loss for words.
Nica: He was killed because of a grudge.
Nica: I have nothing to do with it.
(This person...)
His demeanor, as if the man deserved to be killed, made me feel a chill down my spine.
(Why...?)
Today was fun, he was a wonderful person, and I felt happy spending time with him.
I didn't realize.
(I didn't know anything about the true nature of Vogel.)
Just like Crown, who punishes evil with evil, Nica, who belongs to Vogel, might also be on the side of evil.
Nica: Hey, little Robin. Am I the bad guy?
Kate: I don't know if you're a bad guy or not.
Kate: But if you really did use your ability...
Kate: I despise you for turning a woman who wasn't supposed to be a murderer into one.
Nica: ...Hah.
His scornful laughter made me flinch, but I continued to stare at him without fear.
Nica: You really are an interesting girl.
He took a step closer, then another, and before I knew it, I was cornered against the railing.
Nica: But this is troubling. I don't want you to hate me.
Nica: Because right now, I seriously want to make you fall for me.
Kate: !
Suddenly, he grabbed my chin and forced me to look up.
His face was so close that our lips almost touched, and his sensual scent tickled my nose as I held my breath.
His deep blue eyes narrowed seductively, capturing my gaze, and he whispered,
Nica: Hey, why don't we...
His sweet and charming voice, like a whisper, temptingly swayed my heart.
Nica: ...really start dating?
(Oh, maybe I can't go back anymore.)
--What bloomed in the dark night was a white, evil flower.
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Part 2 | Bitter Ending
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#ikevil#ikemen villains#ikemen villains nica schwartz#nica schwartz i can't return to a time before you#nica schwartz translation#nica schwartz premium ending
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TDP: general thoughts about s7 (spoilers, duh)
Sooo I know it's been a week, but I wanted to get some of my thoughts about season 7 out. I'll be posting more TDP stuff for a while after this too. I haven't posted on tumblr in like 5 years (my old blog is @trailmixstar-blog) but the possible end of this show made me come out of hibernation.
So some general points I wanna make first:
AAAAAAAADHDKDKSFDJSKSK
I can't believe the arc is over omg
I've been following this show since the day it came out
I was such an early fan that I had a Rayllum fic on Wattpad that was top 10 in #thedragonprince
And now it may be over?????? FU-
Someone hold my hand
Now, some specific things I liked about this season:
Finally the Ruthari reunion 🥺
Kosmo and Wanda Astrid being relevant
Cute Rayllum moments
Also angsty Rayllum moments that almost gave me a heart attack
Ezran actually does something this season
It might be an unpopular opinion but I like what they did with Ezran's character, I might make a separate post about it later
Aanya is the queen we need but don't deserve
Human Aaravos is such a silly lil guy
Sorvus should've been canon but I enjoyed their banter nonetheless
The dry baguette is somehow still in the lodge
And so many other callbacks to earlier seasons
Terry finally joins the good side
Karim is still such a little bitch istg
(His death was gruesome but I still laughed)
Love how Callum still insists on using his elfsona even though the war is long over
Claudia's new armor? *chef's kiss*
Things I liked less:
Did- did they seriously confirm the Harrow bird theory in the last few minutes? Seriously?? Is this a joke to them? What's he been doing for over 2 years? Just eating worms while watching the potential end of the world?
Is it just me or was Aaravos dumbed down a little? Like him saying Callum's name while trying to give him the poisoned apple, like that's such an obvious mistake. And I didn't really understand why he killed the bird in front of Terry? He knew Terry would be upset, potentially leave and inform everyone about Aaravos returning. Was there a purpose?
I feel like the explosives could've been used more, but maybe if the series continues they'll be relevant then
Many things were left openended, many unanswered questions. What will happen to the novablade? And the evil coin? What about Miyana and her baby? And the self-eating to stay immortal they discovered? Was Harrow seriously the bird all this time?????
Overall, I really liked this finale. I especially loved all the callbacks to earlier in the show. When Aaravos said an archdragon's bite can kill a Startouch elf, I immediately thought of how Zym's bite was the only thing that could break Rayla's armband thingy in season 1. Was that subtle foreshadowing? Also, Runaan was the one who taught Rayla to sweep the leg!! And she used it against Soren, who said sweeping the leg wasn't a thing in swordfighting. Nice.
I think they tied up quite a few things in the plot, but left a bunch of unanswered questions for a potential continuation. I'm really curious about the self-eating, since I think it could be an important factor in a future arc.
That's it for now. Like I said, I'll make some more TDP posts for a while, but I'll probably mainly become a Hazbin Hotel/Helluva Boss focused blog after that.
If you read this far, thanks for the attention <3
#the dragon prince#tdp#cartoon#animation#tdp s7#tdp s7 spoilers#tdp season 7#tdp season 7 spoilers#the dragon prince season 7
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I forgot this one. When Max and El are ordering ice cream it's Max who gets the strawberry at first and El the vanilla ice cream. But that's not right so they need to trade.
Fusing is exactly what happens at the Steel factory
and before that there is the fusion of two men in a hospital
So yes, I think it fits very well. A factory for construction and fusion
I'm not surprised that out of all the three Fred is the one with the address on Cherry Street. He's also the supposed murderer with Survivor's guilt. It's likely another hint towards Will
And Chrissy lives on Popular Tree Road. That can't be real right? I mean I don't live in the US and I don't know the naming convention for streets over there but "Popular Tree Road" sounds just entirely made up. (by Will most likely)
I agree with Hawkins lab being a prison because it's entirely inside Will mind and it would not surprise me if Mike unbeknownst to him had something to do with it's creation.
Just trust me! (and Will most likely did)
It's Mike who brings up the fact that there is a military base under the Department of Energy. Mike is also a liar. (Credit for finding this out to @/thefirstlioveyou) I highly doubt it's true and I also do not think Ted ever said that. It's conspiracy stuff and Ted is not into that.
But Mike just thinks it's cool like he is fascinated by superpowers, Star Wars and supernatural things. I know this also speaks a ton of Mikes own issues here but it would not surprise me if Will believed him when he said that and incorporated it into his own mindspace. (at an earlier date as I don't think Mike said it all for the first time in S1)
There are also a lot more connections. Like the fact that the lab is an underground basement and the most prominent basement we see in the show is Mike's basement. Then there is the fact that the lab people use Polaroids while out of all the Moms/brothers we see making photos of the kids, it's Karen Wheeler who uses a Polaroid camera
It's not malicious. Not really. I think Will tried to create a place where he could hide or get help from and used Mike and the Wheelers as inspiration because he likes them a lot and feels safe when he's with them.
This post by @threemanoperation also has interesting things to say about the military facility being connected to the shed
I completely agree on the last part. El did exist before but only in Wills mind and took over to front the body whenever there was a need for it. She was there when the CSA happened and I don't think she understood entirely what was going on but she understood enough to know something was wrong.
There is also another layer to it. El can barely speak when she steps into the world making it unlikely for her to ever speak of all the a*use she suffered because she just doesn't have the words for it. (It's why I think age appropriate sex ed even for kids is so important. Give them the language to describe what happened to them and they will have an easier time speaking about it)
Yeah when Will vanished in 1983 Eleven stepped out of the lab for real and became real like some of the other alters. It's also possible that Will didn't need her for quite some time prior to that as Lonnie has been gone from his life. And then one day he didn't want to lie to Mike, told him the truth and suddenly there was need again as the Demogorgeon stepped out of Wills mindscape scaring Will into believing his father is father is back. So El and her superpowers were needed once again. She steps into the world and becomes real.
The bomb explodes
Btw do you have any idea on the ice part? Why "he likes it cold"? I've thought about it for a while and it just doesn't make any sense to me. At first I thought it might be related to Lonnies drugs. The best storage temperature for coke is 0-10°C (32-50°F) but I'm not sure if this is it. Like it's better to store coke in a cool environment but if it's too cold it can damage the drug as well. So I don't think that's it.
This is the source El finds in the void and it's twofold. It's the father. In this case it's Neil but he's just a stand-in for Lonnie.
The other source is the Steel Works warehouse BRIMBORN but that's not how it is presented to us throughout season 3.
It reads more like BRIMBORN as a shadow covers up the B pretty consistently, making us unable to read it
Warning for discussions of CSA under the cut
We also get the full address of the steelworks warehouse and it's
Brimborn Steelworks 6522 Cherry Oak Drive
This is how where the MF possessed Billy. Cherry Oak Drive
Lonnie also means oak tree
Max also tells us Billys full address
Billy Hargrove 4819 Cherry Lane
Billy lives on Cherry Lane but he lost himself and got possessed by the father at Cherry Oak Drive. A lane to drive on...
Source
Billy was a Cherry Lane at first until he got corrupted in the Cheery Oak Drive
Billy is short for William and a stand-in for Will
We also learn more about cherries and their availability
Hopper says there is no cherry in the 7-Eleven. Apparently they had only strawberry
That's not entirely true tough as we see with Alexei here. In fact it seems like they have only cherry and cola. But Hopper still drove there even though it was way out of his way. So I'm sure he would have gotten cherry if it were there, right?
Well, maybe it's more like an either/or situation with the Seven and the Eleven in which one number is the cherry and the other is the strawberry . Maybe they are mutually exclusive
As we've already seen though, it's Will who is already associated with cherries via association of Billy which in turn can only mean one thing
Eleven is the strawberry
But
In the end there is no difference. Cherry and strawberry taste the same. They are the same. Just sugar on ice
But what's a strawberry anyway?
Source
First of all of this goes with the Will Byers has DID theory.
For the longest time I was convinced that Will created Eleven on the day he vanished in the woods but I don't think that's what has happened any longer. I think she was there long before. Ready to take over whenever Will needed her to use her superpowers to absorb what he couldn't face.
That's why Eleven is a strawberry. She was there ready to save Will whenever Lonnie sold off his son to buy dr*gs. It's why there is still a cola next the cherry in the 7-Eleven. Coca-Cola or just coke. Other sources also say that a Strawberry is a woman who willingly sells se*ual favors to buy dr*gs. (although willingly is hardly the word I would use here)
In the beginning of the first season El could barely speak and was more like a child who didn't understand anything. This was also done for her protection throughout the years I think. The less she understood what happened, the better it is for her (or so the reasoning goes)
But she still understood the most important part
#cw csa#stranger things#st meta#discussions of dark things#i also have a lot of thoughts on tom and bruce fusing in the hospital#and what that might tell us of what will thinks about gay sex#how the ab*se he suffered influenced his understanding#of gay sex#and gosh the way i felt when i looked up the best storage#temperature for coke#i don't do drugs and i don't even drink alcohol
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Okay so that was the best what if episode I've seen by far
#bucky barnes#alexei shostakov#marvel what if#loathe as I am to admit it the thunderbolts teases are really working#I'm still weak for bucky barnes and his blend of hyper-competence and pure disaster#and ngl alexei is maybe starting to grow on me- as a sidekick who doesn't realize he's a sidekick he's pretty fun#*spoilers below*#having obadiah stane be involved in the hit on the starks actually perfectly fixes a plot hole I've been trying to work out for AGES#I can't believe I didn't think of that earlier
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doing stranded colorwork for the first time and i'm obsessed.
is my tension even? not especially. did i fuck up the pattern in that first repeat? indeed i did. will it fit over my heel? no idea and i'm scared to check <3
#crafting shenanigans#knitting#knitblr#i'm thinking some of the unevenness will block out#as far as i can tell none of my floats are too tight at least#i'm having a blast#i can't believe i didn't do stranded colorwork earlier#haven't been this excited to knit in a while
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traditional style 💖
#akoya gero#gero akoya#cute high earth defense club love#binan koukou chikyuu bouei bu love!#boueibu#my art#my akoya wanted to join in the vintage dress-up party too!! \;;w;;/#ognvuhgh i wanted to have this done earlier bc other people were doing art so fast for the new outfits but it got dragged out#it was Mostly done a few days ago and i made final edits and was going to post it just before i rushed out to work#i put it up then i was like '??? wait there's a color blob in the wrong place i thought i fixed that???'#i was down to my last minute and didn't have time to do it so i was like auuuughhgh and took the whole thing down#on the Next day i opened the file again to see what was wrong and the color blob was NOT THERE#so im like ??? why did it suddenly appear again in the png. so i looked and i made an error in naming my files#i accidentally named one of the versions 30 instead of 03 so it sorted into the last place instead of the actual most recent version (07)#so that is the reason i ended up being 1 minute late to work. and the lesson to me is i should not try to post at the absolute last minute#(i say this but if i don't get smth done i can't stop thinking about it. it bothers me constantly to have something almost finished but not#(and then it's difficult for me to focus on other tasks so this is why i feel like i have to just get it done before i switch tasks)#anyway i wasn't totally sure what era the traditional outfits are supposed to be from. im not knowledgeable about fashion actually T.T#i googled 'when were suspenders popular' and ended up just looking at old photos and clothing patterns from the 30s-40s#photos from back then were black-and-white can you believe it.. you have to actually look at drawings and paintings to find color#everyone who left me messages elsewhere: THANK YOU SO MUCH!! \>/////</ i will reply soon!! \;;W;;/
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More werewolf au because I can :
Graves wasn't supposed to know about the werewolves, but Shepherd knew so maybe that's how he got the intel. As he's betraying them, he asks, almost begs, Soap to come with him, to join him against Alejandro and Ghost.
Alejandro because of the 'drug affiliation' thingy and his blatant dislike of Mexicans and Ghost because he's a monster. A beast, not even human. And he wants to protect Soap, believes him to be in danger, doesn't listen to Soap trying to de-escalate the situation, trying to ask him not to do that.
(Because he believes he knows what other people need more than them)
And Soap still has that very primal fear inside of him everytime he's around his the pack, that prey instinct that his predators are there, waiting for him to lower his guard. That's true, he does, he's even too scared to admit he's also not fully human.
But never, ever, has he considered betraying them, going against them in anyway. He wouldn't be a good cat if his fear of bigger predators wasn't overtaken by his very cocky very wrong feeling that he could take them all in a fight if he had to.
His cat-self was scared of their lycanthropic-selves, but he himself had never been scared of them as people. Well. Scared that they'd reject him, that they'd never consider him a member of the pack, yes. But scared that they'd hurt him? Not really.
Graves doesn't appreciate rejection, getting told no. He opens fire, Soap gets a bullet in his shoulder, Ghost begs him to get up and run.
He roams the streets with his head swimming from the blood loss, fighting against his instincts to just turn into a cat, curl up in a hole somewhere and lick his wounds, purring to himself to try and comfort the betrayed-hurt-helpless feeling in his gut.
But he can't, because he's not like the were-people, he's not a werecat, he doesn't heal faster. And his human biology makes surviving a bullet wound easier than the cat biology for some reason. (He tried, it just made him go in shock faster.) The hands keeping the blood from flowing freely definitely help for one. And what if Ghost contacts him and he can't respond and his LT thinks he's dead and leaves him here?
The Shadows are everywhere. The good thing is that his eyes see better in low light than theirs, than even the night vision helmets. His hearing is also better, though not as good as his cat-self's. That means he always knows where they are around him and he can avoid them.
When he's finally reunited with Ghost, the man keeps throwing him weird looks, but doesn't say anything. Soap can't really focus, he needs all his remaining blood doing actually important things and analysing your superior-officer-that-you've-been-lowkey-flirting-with's looks isn't one of these.
They reach Alejandro's safehouse, are reunited with Rudy, then Ghost sees him wobbling in place and drags him in the little medbay to see to his wounds. He gets stitches, incredibly thankful for Ghost's steady hands. As he finishes up though, his hands stay a bit longer on his shoulder, one of them climbs up to his ear and tugs it slightly, his eyes still staring.
Soap knows what he's doing, has seen Price lightly tug Gaz' and Ghost's (through the mask) ears, knows that it's a stand in for nipping them when they're in human form, as a way to say hello, or assert dominance or comfort them. Reserved for pack members.
Has... has he been accepted in the pack? His heart is beating faster, which isn't good with all the blood he's lost and the fact that the adrenaline is running out fast. His head is spinning. He looks up at Ghost with dilated eyes, trying to focus everything on him to try and understand before he passes out.
Ghost is looking straight at him, as usual, his head slowly tilting, his eyebrows furrowing in incomprehension. His peripherals are darkening more and more, darkness seeping in, and his eyes suddenly feel very hot while the rest of his body is getting cold and tingly.
Ghost's hand makes its way to the back of his neck, helping him hold his head up as his vision gets more and more blurry.
"What even are you?" Soap thinks he hears whispered as he finally loses consciousness.
#cod mw2#simon ghost riley#john soap mactavish#phillip graves#ghostsoap#soapghost#werewolf 141 & cat soap au#soap : i think ghost is accepting me into the pack even though i'm human#ghost: ok his eyes were definitely reflecting light earlier is he a wolf too? why didn't he tell us? i'm gonna make sure he knows he's safe#soap (high on blood loss and adrenaline trying to focus) : ( | ) _ ( | )#ghost : ... i don't think he's a wolf... but that's definitely not human#i can't believe you guys are making me write my own ideas smh where's my fully written multi chaptered fic ? /j#maybe i'll write more later but i'm simping for nik right now (he'd be a werebear in this au btw)
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fuck it, next time it gets really bad i'm going to the er so they'll just have to operate
#if i can't get any kind of priority i'll make it a priority#i need to speak directly to a surgeon so maybe they'll understand how unbearable this is getting#i can't believe i didn't think about this earlier. it took me someone who works in a hospital saying it to finally realize it#jess.txt
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#Ruining the semi normal sleep schedule I'd managed 2 keep going for like a week cus of paranoia 😎#This is ofcthe one time I'm like Actually fucking sleepy#I shocked myself earlier n am in a spiral about the whole “even a semi small shock can fuck up ur heart hours or days later” thing#Which idk if thats unreasonable paranoia or like normal n smart#The internet is 50/50 on it lol#Mom says im being paranoid. Called a like phone nurse about it who said it'd be smart 2 get it checked just 2 be safe#But it's late and doesn't feel serious enough for the er?#Also the er is hell. U just sit there for Hours waiting n then get looked at for 5 minutes told n2 wait even more n then told 2 just go hom#So I am just kinda... existing.. until stuff opens n I can hopefully see a doctor about it or something:)#And cus I was already feeling kinda sick Before the shock I can't be sure if I actually have any symptoms of something worrying#AAAAND my anxiety about the whole thing is making me over analyze every heartbeat or muscle twitch#N tricking my brain into believing shit that's not real#I wanna nap so bad but my brain won't let meee#Ok ramble is done... I just needed 2 get this out of my system somewhere...#Can u believe I use 2 think I didn't have anxiety?? I was all Oh yeah I'm Super chill 😎 while sirens played in my head 24/7#rambles
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I just keep thinking about august when I had 2 nonbinary kids talking to me about how scared they were. One told me she might have to go back into the closet for safety.
#I was marveling about how they figured out stuff so early. they knew they were queer and had words to describe themselves so young#Pansexual and nonbinary weren't really talked about when I was their age. And my identities overlapped cishetness enough no one bullied me#But what's the fucking point of knowing yourself earlier if it just paints a target on your back when you own it?!#Queerness is allowed to flower one moment and is ripped out the next#It broke my FUCKING heart when one kid told me about how they had to consider going back in the closet#And I didn't know what to say. Other than 'you're not a [AGAB] it's like saying you're a giraffe. It's not you'#Which is important for them to hear#But in the back of my mind I'm thinking about how they /would/ be safer if they weren't openly queer#But they should be allowed to get to live queerly before they're an adult#I got to know those two more than the other queer kids I've had and man. The joy and sorrow.#I worry about those kids so much. But it's really me worrying about thousands of kids like them.#I wish I could hug them and protect them#And [redacted] [redacted] with my bare hands 🪦#And just the one telling me they're not allowed out of the house on election night#Like I know a lot of groups are being effected and believe me my heart breaks in so many different directions#But there's something about having the children whom I'm directly supposed to keep safe come up to me and tell me they're terrified#And I can't disarm the fear like I can with other stuff#it's not a bumblebee that I can explain is non-aggressive. I cant suggest sheltering in a basement like w a tornado#Mostly I can say 'yes this is dangerous BUT here's how to keep yourself safe'#But I don't have a comforting second statement for these kids. I don't know what will keep them safe#elections#election 2024#2024 presidential election
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hey guys can we talk about the fact that Radar is actually pretty strong???
i mean it makes sense when you think about it considering the fact that he lives on a farm, but it's honestly still surprising coming from such a scrawny-looking guy
#mash#radar o'reilly#i mean he's also strong enough to carry pieces of a jeep#which happened in season 1 so wow i can't believe this didn't occur to me earlier#anyways i think we all need more farm boy radar in our lives
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Important question for the internet spurred by a very normal conversation we are having with our garden friends
If someone were to create a bracket in which the various US governors battled for dominance (in a physical smackdown, to be clear), would it be better to have a clean governor-vs-governor battle royale, or a tag-team system in which they can tap out and summon their respective lieutenant governor as backup.
#if you saw an earlier version of this no you didn't#we may be biased as minnesotans because we want to see peggy flanagan wail on some dudes#but i think this is a valid question#i can't believe this is my first use of the tumblr poll option#well. i can#but still
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i need friends /gen (slight rant in tags)
#xelle.txt#i noticed i don't really have a permanent circle of friends. at least irl#i have one online but they're also busy and i just can't dedicate my time to one friend group#i don't know - it's just the people i thought who were nice turned out to be the exact opposite#and when i found out about that i just kinda. lost interest in making any more friends#my partner is the only person i interact with on a daily basis. the irl friend group i was referring to earlier i'm not exactly close with-#-them either#i feel like if i didn't only give my time in nurturing my romantic relationship i would have done the same for my platonics too#that's still a problem of mine. my time management between love life and friends. heck i even got myself into an unsolvable problem because-#-of my inability to stay consistent#also my brain is kinda fried from reading 20+ pages so pardon any grammatical errors but yeah anyway#honestly i've been craving for interaction here. but i know i won't be active and it'd just be pointless#to gain more friends or followers. i don't exactly make content as consistently as i did before#the other day i had to vent to an ai (would you believe me if it was cha.tgpt) about my troubles because i had no one else to talk to lol#there's just so much going on irl 😭 ya girl's almost starting college and they're throwing so much tasks at us!!#and i feel very very stressed about it because they're usually done in groups i am ALWAYS the assigned leader#which gets exhausting especially when there are lazy members present#anyway#hopefully this weekend i get some time to cool off. but next week i'm back to grinding and working#lol i don't even think i'm in the top ranks anymore. i'm so burnt out.#this is what being an academic achiever gives you oops ZZHSIAHAHAJAHHS#imma sleep now 😭#idk you can just interact with me or recommend someone you know who self ships in the same medias i do#goodnight everypony 🫶#vent tw#rant tw
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HAPPY TARLOS WEDDING DAY!!!! 🥳🥳🥳🎉🎉🎉🎊🎊🎊🎂🎂🎂❤️❤️❤️🥰🥰🥰🎊🎊🥰🥰🥳🥳❤️🥳❤️🎂🎂🎉🎉🥰
#YES I'm posting this after the episode I DON'T CARE#I didn't think about it earlier xD#9-1-1 lone star#911 lone star#oasis's 9-1-1 chatted#911 lone star s4 finale#congratulations guys :'DDDD#we made it :')))#AAAAHHHHHHHHH 😭😭😭😭😭❤️❤️🥰🥰🥰🥰 I CAN'T BELIEVE WE DID#so lovely :')) <3333#tarlos#tarlos wedding
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I can't believe I added "Stefanologist" to my bio
#I actually can't believe why I didn't think of it earlier#this is obviously also becoming a tag#Stefanology#doing my share for the academic community#Camera 9#stefan vladuck
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