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*Hands you my crossbow*
*takes ur crossbow* THANK U RYZ, MY DEAR
2. a compelling argument for why your fave would never top or bottom
Rhys is disabled and his janky ass joints are incapable of bending properly. this man can't top, u can't convince me
9. worst part of canon
whatever the hell they did to Maya and Aurelia in bl3. trust me, I could write u a whole essay on why these two in particular got the worst treatment but dear god, they literally got ruined in this game
also tbh treatment of ANY women in og tales but especially Yvette. my god she deserves so much better
also the fact that we've never seen what is in tales' vault, that was such a copout
also I wanted to say any time u have to talk to Vaughn but I want to especially say that this mission in bl3 where u do NOTHING but drive with him just sucks so badly, worst mission in any game
17. there should be more of this type of fic/art
OH WELL
Rhysothy. yes.
more wlw content. every time I wanted to seee fics for Jathena or for Gaigel or not even talking abt lesser known ships the tags are so dry
Atlas Squad shenanigans. Rhys, Lor and Zer0 for me are besties and I love seeing all of them interact. if u add Tim to the mix too, it makes me the happiest, theyre best friends for me <3
tbh I'd love to see fics that explore Tim's time at the casino
I love seeing Tim at Atlas content so yes he deserves this <33
more crackships. hit me with ur best pairs that never met in canon, no matter if romantic or platonic
19. you're mad/ashamed/horrified you actually kind of like...
oh I rly enjoy [REDACTED SO I WONT DIE OF EMBARRASSMENT]
#ask#ryzselo#borderlands#ah hell Im choosing violence so I can tag it lmao#I can elaborate more on any of them#but not the last one sorry Id be too embarrassed kjsfnbjksgnjbk
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will solace being absolutely covered in freckles is so special to me because of how ppl sometimes refer to freckled skin as 'sun-kissed' and smth smth about how apollo really does love his kids and you can physically SEE it on wills skin and sjdkfnskflnjsk
#DOES THIS MAKE SENSE?????#i can feel my brain wanting to be more poetic and artistic about this but alas. maybe something about how even tho the gods cant really#talk or interact with their kids much. at least apollo can still send them his warmth.#yall are better at this than me tho so if anyone wants to elaborate more elegantly. please.#OH and if any of u fuckers say smth about how im romanticizing skin damage im going to fukcing get you#pjo#will solace#trials of apollo#toa#apollo#lester papadopoulos#apollo pjo
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Bungou Stray Dogs: Dead Apple and how “ability users” (opposite to “normal people”) learning to accept themselves through the acceptance of their own abilities is a queer metaphor of acceptance of own's sexual orientation and gender: an essay by me
#bsd#bungou stray dogs#About: Dead Apple. Watched this a while ago with a friend and it was a lot of fun!!!#If you're reading this: thank you so much for hanging out with me I had such a good time (ㅅ´ ˘ )♡#Next to general considerations: wow they were right that Bungou Stray Dogs movie sure can Bungou Stray Dogs#It's always nice to see the detailed animation and elaborate backgrounds of movies. The animation quality compared to the manga is–#definitely noticeable and it's nice to see. That said... I still like the season 2 art style more? And I'm speaking strictly of art style.#The s2 one looks more soft and smooth while the da one is so much more rough.#The plot is... Very bsd-esque I don't think there's anything to add.#In my opinion Kyouka's arc is the one that turned out best tbh. I really like her narrative development and personal growth in this movie.#I like the complexity of her state of mind. how full of contradiction she is. I especially appreciate the recurring small changes of–#expression that indicate how she thinks differently from Atsushi even if she doesn't voice them. The fight between her cynicism and her–#kind nature. It's all very interesting.#Atsushi's development is interesting too. Although all the open questions about his ability we still have kind of leave me frustrated#I don't feel very strongly about Akutagawa in this movie? I mean‚ he's there. The ss/kk scenes are always great and in character and a joy–#to witness no matter what they do. He just doesn't shine particularly? Or at least personally I dont find the “proving my strength against–#myself” narrative arc to be particularly interesting. Imo it was a lot better flashed out in the da stage play! With the complexity that–#the dialogues with Chuuya added to the character. Dazai attacking him. And especially Aktgw understanding that Rashomon wasn't testing Aktg#but rather only expressing that unstoppable rage that is also Aktgw's own. About that I checked out the play and I really liked it!!#I only watched highlights (aka: ss/kk and chuu/aku scenes) but there's some stuff I really like. I like the conflict between Aktgw and–#Chuuya and how Chuuya messes up with Aktgw at first maliciously and then amiably. It's interesting how Atsushi himself observes that Kyouka#and Akutagawa get along. And especially the sskk almost-handholding and Atsushi saying Akutagawa has a nice profile were cute akjdhbsawhjb#Next. Da really is shipping paradise (╥﹏╥) Sorry but... It is. oda/zai. daz/atsu. ss/kk. s/kk. fuku/mori. chuu/aku. It really has everythin#and the moments are so good!!!! What else. Wish we'd see more of Tsujimura. And Christie. And women in general tbh.#Also‚‚‚‚‚ Atsushi's tiger form in this movie is ATROCIOUS. I've said it before but it's crazy how a franchises that relies so heavily on–#fanservice came up with something this hideous. Man the movie overall was pretty but Atsushi sure wasn't. Firmly stand by the belief–#that only Akutagawa would find that form attractive.#Oh last note. honestly if we're ready to accept a movie where an antidote has effect AFTER the person has effectively died then we really–#can't complain about any kind of insanity the manga brings up#random rambles
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Grovyle, Celebi, and Dusknoir creating the most intricate plan regarding the most appropriate time to meet Hero and Partner again in the present while they’re next to the Passage of Time. How they’ll explore the present first as a trio for a couple more weeks/months, have Grovyle and Celebi reunite with the two whilst also giving a Big Heads Up regarding Dusknoir; where they’d then go on to see whether or not they truly want him there, and take the necessary action based on their decision. (Whether it’s a unanimous ‘fuck no we don’t want him back’, 50/50, or completely okay with starting over.) Nodding in agreement towards the plan and stepping into the portal together.
They then proceed to immediately get spotted by Hero and Partner just relaxing on the beach.
#I THINK IT’D BE FUNNY#still absolutely of the opinion it’s Grovyle that drags Dusknoir into coming with them.#Mainly because those two deserve closure/get their feelings towards the wraith out.#But Also knowing Dusknoir misses them and would never be able to move on for himself if he didn’t at the Bare Minimum apologize-#-for the heartache he caused those two. but if he heard from the two grass-types that they never wanted to see him again. he’d accept it.#(Because Arcues knows what they want is 100x more important than whatever the hell he was hoping for)#BUT. THAT DOESNT HAPPEN. AND NOW HE SUDDENLY AS A TEARY; FATHERLESS PUPPY CLINGING TO HIM.#AND THE MOST VENGEFUL 1’FT FOX SIDE EYEING HIM.#<<< Ribbons says it’s okay for him to stay. (for literally only her partner; brother; fairy grandmother’s sake.)#(obviously any adult with functioning eyes could tell that was the case/she still hates his ass)#but it’s not like Dusknoir can just up and leave because lo’ and behold it ended up being a 50/50 😭 that old fart is STUCK there#I’ll probably elaborate on this more when my brains functioning#but tl:dr= Grovyle: pure of heart; dumb of ass. (and ends up unintentionally saving their doomed ass father/daughter/son relationship.)#even if it takes. (checks my notes) 3-6 years
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I'm gonna bully Lif again
I'll admit, some of these answers don't cover all the bases, but. What are we thinking, here. What is The Truth behind The Twink Death? 🤨🎤
I will also be accepting write-in responses as usual 🫡
#fire emblem#feh#fe lif#fe alfonse#one answer i refuse to put on here just bc of how badly i think it would squeue results:#has exclusive access to bruno's workout routine#BUT I FEEL LIKE. IF I PUT THAT AS AN OPTION. EVERYONE WOULD PICK IT. I WOULD PICK IT IN A HEARTBEAT#some of my own notes: changing up the body modification option to be more vague#BUT. some thoughts were 'via surgery/magic' and specifying he sought it out himself#i just simplified it to look better on the poll. but the IDEA here. ESPP in the same vein as the insoles#i cannot remember where. but i feel like it's canon that alfonse has a degree of body dysmorphia?#or at very least has some insecurity about it. not being as tall as gustav/bruno (sir. you are allegedly 5'11.)#and not being as muscular as them either. i swear to god i'm not just making this up. it has to exist in SOME obscure line somewhere#or i just hallucinated that. but then again i found out one of my long-standing hcs actually had a basis IN canon#i just. forgor. so. anything is possible 💪💪💪 (this one was about alfonse/sharena/bruno being childhood friends)#badly wanted to make another undead joke but now i'm paranoid that i'm spreading misinfo#like i think The Lore is that lif and theasir were sole survivors. technically not rezzed. but like.... gah#i do gotta finish my book 3 replay. i promise i will. i'm SO close (has to do book 2 quotes first)#still the embalming accident option no elaboration is just too funny to me. cannot pass it up#ALSO. ALSO. the veggies/milk option. is mostly a joke but goes back to my hcs about#alfonse being scrawny as a kid up until he joins the order. actually starts to fill out more#when he feels inexplicably more secure. also sharena helping any way she can.#LIKE. ALL OF THESE ARE SILLY. but a lot of them have internal lore reasons. varying degrees of actual canonness#i also want each option to be compelling in some way. like what does this say about him#or what happened to him. just. in general.#THERE'S. KINDA NO GREATER PURPOSE TO THIS BTW. kinda.#it's just that whenever i think anything even vaguely related to book 3 i get the UNFATHOMABLY PROFOUND URGE#to stick a kick me note on lif's back and wait.#it's either that or just blackout horny. no in between. also the grief. i need to kill him again.
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tell me what you are & what you need
#shoutout to remembering i sketched this Portrait a couple of weeks ago#this [drawing mostly from memory] walked so that [that more recent but previous drawing mostly from memory] could walk a little faster?#i sure recall having trouble getting this going at all until i was like#''just draw the character you've drawn a thousand times the past half decade; But Different :)'' lol#i Will be drawing any character i'm extra [!!] abt to draw at all with the classic <:c or :o or c: expressions ten zillion times thank you#bruno madrigal#encanto 2021#his hair is so voluminous in my mind evidently lol. not all that inaccurate but i just go for it#i mean who knows what happens once his haircare gets to become a lot more elaborate / customized. anything can happen#another shoutout to Misheard Lyrics But I Like Them Better while thinking about bruno (& some queer somethingship for him)#wait lol. the [what you need] after i was saying all that about ''what does one mean what does he Need'' lol like. v much on that note....#scapegoated outcast Weirdo with so much loving focus from canon You Are A Treasure of this world
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to me john winchester is like. worst man alive. just wants to do right by his family. cares about his sons more than anything in the world but puts them in life-threatening danger every single day. hubris and arrogance of a god and never believes they will actually die despite the fact that he also has the paranoia and terror and deep intense mistrust of the world of eight year old me. treats both his sons like his soldiers, his eldest son like his surrogate wife/best friend/coparent/counsellor, his youngest son like the troubled-drug-addict-bad-boyfriend problem child miles before he ever actually does anything problematic to john and even then just because he has hobbies and wants to go to college.
wants them to be happy and themselves and have good lives, but thinks he needs them to be mini-him and good at fighting and not much else, and that takes priority. 'wants' all sorts of good things for them but just keeps postponing those good things until he avenges their mother until in a second their childhood's gone by. feels deep immeasurable guilt for everything he's done and knows he's ruined his children's lives. damages them in a hundred different ways, one third that he realises at the time and decides to do anyway, another third that he's unaware of at the time and realises later, and the last third that he'll never realise and never take back.
loves them miles too much and still not enough for it to matter. teaches them both that they're the only things that matter in the world and that they don't matter at all. still fervently believes that everything he did was for the best and was needed and had to be done, and always will.
#to elaborate its like.#things john knows are bad while he does them: raising them on the road without a home. raising them only to hunt and kill above all.#ignoring what they want.#things john realises more are bad in hindsight than he did at the time: parentifying dean (though he sort-of knows while this is happening#too) and 'putting too much' on him. isolating sam and dean from any potential friends or connections outside of him and each other.#things he probably will never realise are bad: the 'drunken rages' and moments of lost control - because i think in his head they just Didn#Happen - he can accept hes a bad father but only in ways that can be justified ways that were to do with hunting. treating sam like a mix#between a cursed object to be protected at all costs and a train destined to go off the rails (he will always think this was justified). hi#word being law above all#john winchester#precanon#sam & john#dean & john#spn#oliver talks#supernatural
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#bunny rambles#i was “cleared” to go back to work yesterday but she told me i could use the rest of the time also if i wanted/needed#and im using it. but the little corporateanxietybot who lives in my head and tries to make me be a Good Worker[tm] is SCREAMING HER HEAD OFF#cause she thinks my boss/Dad is gonna scream at and hit her for being Lazy#this is a trauma post also um. didnt expect to name her rn but she's screaming and i cant scream back cause she sounds like alarms and those#scare crustywhitedog so i have to calm that one so i don't meltdown#my wife submitted the RTW date for me so like. its okay im actually taking the time and ik this is necessary also bc. it is clearly unwell#that its freaking out because it's gotten a more than a 2 day break for the first time in a year#ik corporateanxietybot has protected me in some ways but. i gotta kill her so bad. maybe H can help me reformat her somehow .....#i also hate her is the thing. she cant hear me rn bc she's just looping in circles alarming but anyway. i hate her. like Me. she's so#capitalismcorebootlicker and i hate that about her and i hate that she exists and i hate that she exists bc my dad raised me to be an#Employee instead of a person 🙃🙃🙃🙃#im not elaborating or explaining any of this. this is a diary entry now#i wish i could click her to kill her like the drones in hardcoded lmao it'd be so much easier. ik she like. lives in the work mode mask as#well which is also HARD bc if im not actively thinking Of work or At work she's nonexistent#but shes so LOUD 🙃🙃 like shut up. we're not gonna explode n die from taking an extra week off you're being dramatic our boss isnt Dad#like he LITERALLY isn't Dad. not even close. he's like the most docile man in the world come on ik they're around the same age and both hve#held authority over u but boss checking in wasnt a trap ur not ab to get caught doing wrong ur fiiiiIIIIIIINE#(also corporateanxietybot is not an adult. she's 15 and terrified but she integrated to my work mask which is the problem cause she makes me#a “phenomenal employee” and also makes me work myself sick when she is given the reigns. little devil on my shoulder except the capitalist#system we live under treats her as a positive thing so she gets positive reinforcement at work which only makes her more anxious 😭 i gotta#talk to H about this next Friday huh. also wow. parts work has made it a lot easier for me to acknowledge these behaviors so i can confront#them easier. weird. strange even. so many parts have gotten names this past month n im realizing also why its been so hard to process stuff#but it also has made me kinder to myself. anyway she turned off (her batteries are low since she's been home for a month too) so im gonna#clean myself up and get some food in me and then get some cleaning done
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lol i pregamed a tiny bit for agatha but now after finishing im just taking shots for coping reasons
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#i am…… not all that pleased with the ending#/not trying to sound like a complainy bitch#SPOILER WARNING ->#i expected agatha to die tbh#but honestly what i Did not expect was for the ending to feel unfinished#and for me to come out of it feeling so deeply unsatisfied#and it’s not that any of the scenes were bad really!! i loved them#i just feel like a lot of them…. needed some further context or elaboration that we got absolutely none of#like i have So Many questions still that weren’t at all answered by the finale#and also questions that came up BECAUSE of the finale that didn’t get answered lol#idk i’m just.#i’m so proud of kathryn hahn and all of the cast and crew#and i don’t want to seem ungrateful bc i can FEEL that they put their heart and soul into this show#but the writing and contextualization just REALLY really fell flat for me in the last two episodes#also some decisions that felt…weird and last minute#like the reveal of agatha being the one to take jen’s powers?? still makes zero sense to me#idk i just wish we had more time with them i think#also i’m not upset that agatha died again i kinda expected it but the manner in which she died felt abrupt and inauethentic to. e#it just didn’t feel fleshed out at all idkkkkk#ugghhhhhgg#can’t believe i got fucking got by yet another sapphic show#i’m just asking for one good sapphic show with a satisfying ending PLEASE#(read: NOT necessarily a happy ending im not asking for all that i just need it to MAKE FUCKING SENSE!!!!)#anyway. i have more thoughts that ill get into soon im a bit tipsy and prob and not expressing myself right but TLDR love them all but…. 😬#agatha all along#agathario#agatha harkness#billy maximoff#kathryn hahn#joe locke
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okay. i feel like theres still Some People who may check the land of stories tag on here the way i occasionally do i know theres some fans of the series here at least. since a while back i wrote out an entire paragraph to briefly explain why im insane about lloyd bailey to my friends who dont know tlos, i figure, WHY NOT POST IT ON HERE where people who also know the series (and therefore this character) might see it <3 its at least a little funny to see how i try to explain things in tlos like the hall of dreams briefly with little to no details. this is also kind of like a brief summation of everything we know about lloyd AND JOHNS childhood which is interesting. see below.
sits down. let me set the scene. lloyd bailey is the younger son in a set of two. his mother is a very powerful fairy (#fairygodmother) who’s kind of like the chancellor of an entire kingdom. lloyd and his older brother john both very much have magic in their blood because of this. lloyd’s father dies when he is very young. he is “not the same” afterwards. he thinks his older brother john, who handles his fathers passing arguably “better”, is the favorite child. john is happy and cheerful and everyone loves him. lloyd sits in his dark room and reads books like the iron mask all day. lloyd’s mother does not know how to get to him. she figures out how to make a potion that can bring books to life, since he likes to read so much. she offers it to him. he turns her down. she goes into this magic little hallway (infinite space) where she can see what people truly desire. lloyd the 11 year olds desire (i don’t know how old he is.) is to take over the world. hm. a bit concerning. his mother takes him out into the forest on a nice walk, chains him to a tree, and drains his magic from him. lloyd is not a fan of his mother for this. he tells her that she never would’ve done this to john. his mother considers her action stopping him before he wreaks havoc on everything. lloyd considers this having his “birthright” stripped from him for “a crime [he] never committed” (direct quote). lloyd despises his mother. he runs away from home not long after. he considers the potion his mother made his. he only comes back home to try and steal it. he fails. he is sentenced to life in prison. his mother gives him a mask to wear so no one knows he’s her son. john moves to the otherworld and starts a family. lloyd rots in prison. lloyd’s son who he doesn’t know about is born. lloyd rots in prison. john dies. lloyd rots in prison. his mother loves john’s children and starts to train one of them in being her successor. this could’ve been lloyd. lloyd rots in prison. he doesn’t escape until his niece and nephew are teenagers and his niece is about ten times more powerful than him. because she has the gift that was ripped out of his hands. lloyd hates the world he lives in and its people and seeks to destroy it as soon as he’s out. i wonder why. in conclusion. im normal about him.
#i also want to say#im a terrible fan#meaning that i havent read atom. I KNOW IM SORRY#so if theres any more details. about lloyd or john. in those books#someone let me know! bc ill go read them i really will#ive been figuring there isnt since its. yk. their mothers time#but ya never know#see thats whats interesting is that lloyd and johns generation is the one story chris colfer did NOT make a series out of#bc yk theres tlos and atom obviously#but we know so little about the time in between those series i feel like...#chris said FUCK those millennials#it brings me so much pain#BUT ITS OKAY#i am banging on chris colfers door what do you MEAN lloyd wasnt the same after his father died can you ELABORATE. PLEASE#desperately need this to reach the right audience. I HAVE TO STOP WORD VOMITING IN TAGS#i just figure like. if my goddamn lab rats elite force rant can get that many notes from what seems to be a small fandom. then#i might as well post this <3#lloyd bailey#the masked man#john bailey#brystal evergreen#the land of stories#tlos
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Is ir okay to not feel it as a christian if youre still doing it? If i read the word and do what it says, but i never feel. the feelings. Is it normal? I feel so lost. Ive prayed so much.
hi!! i'm going to assume this question is coming from this post of mine. if its not sorry but i hope my answer still stands!
my point in that post is that it's not all about feeling the feelings. honestly, i would say that usually, Feeling Strong Emotion/being overtaken by emotion over it is something that is not necessarily common. of course, it depends on the person. some people are just Strong Feelers but that's not everyone! (i am not one of these people, for example).
if you don't Always Feel The Supernatural Presence Of God and you don't feel emotional every time you think about the Lord, or whatever standard you want to set, that's not an indicator of your faith. (or if you're truly saved.)
what's important is knowing. and believing. do you truly Know And Believe that the Lord Jesus, the Son of God, died on the cross for your sins? do you Know and Believe that the God of the Bible is real? that He created the world and everything in it? that He sent His only begotten Son to die out of love for us?
"Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen." Hebrews 11:1
that's what's important!!!! not if you cry during worship or if a sermon touches you. not Feeling A Supernatural Presence. if you know God is with you always, then you don't need to feel it for proof. you know it. you have faith.
modern-day christian culture has turned christianity into solely something you Feel. big displays of emotions during worship, people talking about visions and speaking in tongues and being filled by the Holy Spirit, etc. (this attitude has also led to the culture of "if i don't feel that the Lord is telling me that this is wrong, or if i feel that the Lord is telling me that this is okay, then it is.) but you can't rely on your feelings.
"The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?" Jeremiah 17:9
you want to hear God speak? you open your Bible. it's Literally God's word. everything you need to Know about God and how you should live your life is in there.
basically: anon, lack of Strong Emotion over living the faith does not mean that you're doing something wrong. however! i want to cover all my bases, just to be sure. you mention "reading the word and doing what it says". you might already know this, but being a christian isn't just about acts or works. the entire point of the gospel is that we cannot be saved through what we do, only through faith. it goes back to what i was saying about faith earlier on. if you find yourself treating this life like a checklist, like a "i'll do this, and this, and this, and then God will help me/love me", then that might be something to meditate about.
"For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: not of works, lest any man should boast." Ephesians 2:8-9
#asks#also i would like to point out#that whenever you hear about Supernatural Happenings (true ones)#they always happen when God has no other way to reach that person#a LOT of people who have been imprisoned and mistreated for the sake of the gospel report one common thing#and its that. they had no access to a Bible#they had no access to fellowship with believers#they didnt even have any concentration left to pray#and when they started feeling like they just. couldn't go on#that's when they felt the presence of God as something tangible. so close that they could touch it#reminding them and comforting them#but. if those people went back to their homes and had their Bible at their right and access to an assembly at their left#would they still feel this Supernatural Presence? i dont think so! because now they have easy access to God#yk#faith posting#i hope this makes sense i am a bit tired#anon if you want me to elaborate + have any more questions let me know#you can dm me also i wont mind#i will be praying for you
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tonight's little doodles
#doodle#lcb#meursault lcb#meurgreg#im trying to be less self conscious about making meurgreg or any ship art really#twt has exposed me to everyone having an opinion on every ship ever#which has made me back away from making too much art of any one ship#i know meurgreg is one of the most popular ships but because of that i also feel an odd sense of guilt#i cant explain it like i should use my art to contribute to a rare pair or smth idk#its all a bit weird and irrational#but ive realized i have not been able to make art for myself for months#every idea i have and everything i go forward to draw im always thinking about how others will feel about it#and how i can make it better fit or adequate for an audience so i dont let them down or bore them#and that mindset has made art so much of a chore that ive significantly slowed down so much on art at all#so idk#trying to stop overthinking and just draw what i feel to the extent that i feel#escape the perfectionism and wanting to please everyone as much as possible#to elaborate on the weird meurgreg feeling i guess its like#i feel guilty for filling tags even more with an already popular ship & making mutuals who dont like meurgreg see it more#but its just not that deep#people can mute meurgreg and thats just not my problem anyway#sry ab these tags!
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#hi. this is going to be an ugly one#feel free to skip this because its gonna be rough#personal#in the winter of 2015 my girlfriend took her own life. she said she was sick and stayed home from school#she texted me “I love you.” and i knew she was gone before anyone would tell me#her parents murdered her. not directly. they didn't lay a hand on her. but they made her life so miserable that she felt she had#no other choice than to die. because they were homophobic. because they didn't believe in mental illness.#because they believed she could be 'cured' thru jesus. and they didn't love her for who she really was#and i hate them. i hate them more than any people on earth. because they will never admit it#they will never admit their role in her death. they blamed it on her eating disorder and brushed everything else under the rug#i didn't get to know her that well before she died. we only knew each other a few months.#and i.... god damnit#it still makes me so angry#this was nearly 10 years ago i cant fucking believe it.#her parents got all the fucking sympathy in the world when they deserved none.#they fucking killed her. anyone who actually knew her knows it. but no one is brave enough to say it#her dad worked at the school i had to go to for 3 more years and i just wanted to#either crawl in a hole or punch him in his stupid fucking face#everytime i saw him. she's dead because they couldn't conceive of a world where she could be gay and happy#or athiest and a good person. she told me she didn't believe any of the stuff her family did and i nearly threw up at her funeral#because it was all about god and jesus. and honestly it was barely about her. it was all about jumping on the pity train#for their poor parents.#i ran away from the casket. i didnt think she wouldve wanted any of this shit. i couldnt bear it#and i think. they sent her to one of those bullshit religious camps that abuse kids instead of actually treating their conditions#i honestly dont know what all they put her through. it makes me sick to imagine it.#i get all worked up about this everytime its terrible. i just cant understand how you can do that to your own child#and they fucking got away with it.#it makes me so furious beyond fucking reason like its un fucking real#sometimes living is . much harder than dying. i cant really elaborate much more than that#i miss you.
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I wanna take a crack at making some fake screenshot graphics for my Sif Odile duo loopers au but I do not feel confident enough in my ability to mimic isat's art style and I also have a crippling fear of drawing backgrounds
#rat rambles#stars posting#I wanna make a thing for odile's parallel scene to the bathroom scene were sif forgets odile's name#but it takes place in the traps room by the wood carving tools which isn't the worst room to have to draw ig but I still dont want to#I could just take the lazy route and just sketch the scene so I can get it out of my head and I probably will#but at the same time I also should draw more stuff with backgrounds even if it makes me want to throw up and cry#but yeah the scene is basically just odile having a derealization moment while thinking abt the wooden odile carving sif made for her#just her looking at it and feeling nothing and trying to look ahead at siffrin expecting to be reminded of what it's supposed to make her#feel and just being met with the same emptyness in her chest as she can barely even recognize the person in front of her until they look#back at her and their expression shifts into a extremely concerned one#does that make sense? idk if Im explaining it well but I hope it makes sense#but yeah smth smth them becoming less real to eachother overtime much to the horror of both#also unrelated but I need to start rotating loop in this au in my head more theres so much to work with here#I have some vague ideas and thoughts but I have been too odile brained to properly elaborate on those in my head#Im honestly just glad Ive finally made an au that I can actually get invested in fleshing out#I havent rly found a good headspace to rly play around with the main cast but this is actually giving me smth to chew on#usually most thoughts I have abt isat just lead to me thinking abt my ocs lol#regardless Im having fun with this au and I hope that I can bring myself to commit to it#also Ive been trying to think of a decent name for this au and Im half tempted to call it from the top or smth but I feel like Im tempted#to call like every story I make that so Im on the fense abt it#especially since thats what Ive been planning on calling the prologue for spiraling upwards#not that I cant just do both but I wanna see if I can think of any alternatives
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Most likely Patryk Gładyś as Mefistofeliks/Mistoffelees during the CATS section of the "Ale musiale!" show in Poznań, on April 24, 2014
While CATS stopped running in Poland in 2007, it was later included in a somewhat touring musical medley show "Ale musicale!", also made by TM ROMA. It premiered in late 2013 and CATS was the first musical on the list, most likely since its songs need most if not the whole cast on stage. The two CATS songs performed were "Jellicle songs for Jellicle cats" and "Mr. Mistoffelees"
Due to the nature of this show aka featuring songs from over 20 musicals, only a few of the characters had actual CATS makeup on. Most likely they were the og CATS actors who knew how to put it on and also had the time to take it off before having to go on stage again
This specific performance costume-wise is really good, as the og costumes are worn correctly (right costumes with the right wigs), and they generally seem to be in good shape (except few of the wigs). As mentioned the make up on some of the actors exists, while on some it is only very symbolic. Plus Tugger got boots, but I genuinely don't know if they were part of his og costume or not (they're the right colour tho)
And of course the props were very limited, with only the props from the magic show being used
#cats the musical#cats warsaw#ale musicale!#mefistofeliks#mistoffelees#patryk gładyś#jellicle cats#i believe it's patryk mostly cuz the jumps XD#as far as i can tell he was the only warsaw misto to do them since he had no ballet training and thus didn't do any more elaborate turns
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your Kon post was sooooo good, like yes the core four are queer platonic, however Kon is hypersexual enough to have made out with (or more) everyone in young justice at least once, yes, including the non-corporal Greta don’t ask me how that worked
I love all of these posts!!! how many of these ask game things do you have in your inbox??
thank you so much!! and i ABSOLUTELY agree with you on hypersexual Kon (truly i just adore characters with grooming/rape trauma like Kon coping through the lense of hypersexuality) and even if YJ is queerplatonic, Kon has made his way through most of them. including Greta. he's creative he'd find a way. probably involving TTK. bc TTK in sex is a thought i have daily. endless potential for using it to basically turn someone's body into a living fleshlight he can manipulate from the inside out- specifically have a TimKonBart idea in my head about that where Kon coaches Bart through sex, since Bart is a speedster with a bonkers refractory period who struggles to feel satisfied, and Tim is caught between them getting used to get Bart off with Kon using TTK to manipulate Tim's body. fun times. fun ideas.
currently, i have one more ask game ask in my inbox (tho always feel free to send more!) that's BruJay focused. though i *do* also have a couple other asks that are just ideas i pan to use as prompts for full fics. just haven't gotten to those yet bc i'm currently busy with packing to move states so. i have *not* had the time to write i wish i had. i will not reveal too much but one involves JayTim fucking during the Titans Tower incident, another is JayTim with animal traits leading to porn, and then another is Tim/Kon/Jon with incest kink stuff. so! i have many things planned, i just need to settle into my new place, however long that takes.
#necrotic answerings#kindly praise#this was so sweet aaaa#i'm about to go to sleep so the brujay ask will be held off until tomorrow#but i will get to it#and i *hope* if the tim/kon/jon fic is short enough i can *possibly* get it done tomorrow too#i'm. mostly done packing. i just have to get my clothes and books in boxes.#i do not have *any* idea how much time i'll reasonably have to write once i move bc#well i'm moving in with my sister to help take care of her baby so yk. baby. sort of more important than fanfic.#but i mean it's just a baby so i figure I'll still have some time#see the real question is not will i have time to write tomorrow#it's will i emotionally be available. i've been crying on and off for days. pls.#i truly will let the ask game go on as long as ppl keep sending them. i do not mind i'm having just as much fun as y'all#tho i might reblog some other ask games just to spice it up a bit#i gotta find some fun ones#still plan to do a prompt list to write ficlets for the drive#3 days in a uhaul with my parents. def won't lose my mind at all no sir.#they will try to kill each other and I'll be the damn witness.#also when i say queerplatonic. i do include fucking.#it's the aromantic in me i think. but queerplatonic couples can fuck as a treat.#i will not elaborate on how that works. i'm just an aro lil guy who thinks sex isn't always about. the sex. and more about. the closeness.#none of my friends agree with this take they think i'm unhinged btw.
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