#I am SO embarrassed of myself right now

[demaparbat-hp]

Soundless (Uiscefhuaraithe) Chapter II: Until the Fever Broke.

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Once her heartbeat mimicked his, the Blue Spirit let her go. Her vision blurred and then he was kneeling next to her, one hand between her shoulder blades and the other facing her, palm up, before pointing to the river.

Now, you can go.

So she did.

[willowser]

okay last thing and i know this is easier said than done and i think it's less of final end point and more of a continuous journey but once you let go of your shame and embarrassment over the things that make you happy, you'll have a lot more fun

[kyouka-supremacy]

I fucked up

[triglycercule]

i can feeeeeel diglycercule returning as i type this 😇😇😇 i barely talk about killer for a reason 😇😇😇 there's a reason why he's 3/3 out of the trio 😇😇😇 horror and dust are just sooo perfect for each other anyways haha,,,,,,,,,,

[solivagantingrebel]

hey guys who wants another round of tmi

[ectoodle]

Hello! I wanted to ask what made you fall in love with bingqiu?

Hey there!

Ah hmm that's an interesting question, I've never thought about it actually. I like bingqiu a lot, but I never considered it as falling in love with the ship? They're a fun ship to play with and they have a wide range that's pretty flexible so I'm always in my comfort zone drawing them.

I suppose most of the art I draw for bingqiu are a love letter to them, though. And I think that's pretty telling of my brain rot for them 😂

I think the food the fandom cooked up really helped a lot. SV fic writers are on a whole other plane of existence when it comes to analyzing binghe's character and filling in on his journey of healing with sqq by his side. I'm the annoying type of audience that gets bored when the main couple gets together at the end...so when scum villain ended the way it did, mxtx may as well have german suplexed me on the concrete. scum villain is a story that subverts its tropes left and right and the ending was no exception! I love that bingqiu getting together at the end was not an automatic happily ever after, but rather, they still are putting in the work and effort to understand and stay in each other's lives. The glimpse of that path we get in the extras really did solidify my desire to see how bingqiu will continue to stay together--bingmei vs bingge extra was probably the finishing blow for me tho lmao. I couldn't stop thinking about what the heck happened to bingge after he left the sv world that I read a bunch of fics about him and needed to soothe the angst with sv bingqiu

on a side tangent, bingqiu parallels another of my all time ship, nozomizo from liz and the blue bird. mild spoilers if you haven't seen liz, but nozomizo had a similar codependent relationship that needed them both to grow apart as individuals in order to stay together. bingqiu separated unwillingly and binghe's growth as an individual was fueled by betrayal, despair, and that dying glimmer of hope that maybe, maybe shizun could accept him now that they're equals. but they don't. because binghe still hasn't emotionally grown to get past his temper tantrums (thanks xin mo) and sqq is still failing binghe by constantly misunderstanding him. but bingqiu still choose each other, choose to love and support each other, and they refuse to be separated again. whereas nozomizo was a healthy separation with a promise of reunion, bingqiu was fighting through the muddy trenches with a vague hope that the other is reaching out their hands too. i thought it was neat how differently both ships handled their codependency that still guarantees a happy ending, no matter how dirty and bruised they got along the way.

I also think sqq's compassionate narration in regards to binghe's suffering got to me lmao. He truly does care for binghe, and even if naysayers argue it's not romantic, it's undeniable that binghe is special to sqq. although not the best choices, most if not all of his choices were for binghe's best interest (thanks system). sqq had so much heart for binghe that it affected me through the screen too. binghe's abandonment issues and fake wet tears have captivated me. his gap moe as a chuuni emo demonic overlord and wife with a maidenly glass heart has bewitched me body and soul. i want luo binghe to be happy so badly!!

i think that's why bingqiu fascinates me. most of the bingqiu arts i draw are like slice of life vignettes, so without the meat and bones of fanfic diving into bingqiu's messiness, i would not have ascended to this level of brain rot for them...

[bilestat]

insane how quickly something small can tank my mood

[hybridkilljoys]

I've been an absolute emotional wreck since last night due to my narcissist father making me feel less than human so can i..........ask for some reassurance that i'm not an absolute failure of a human being

or pictures of your cats, that would help a lot too

[our-inspire-verse]

Embarrassing as fuck for no reason to talk in my real voice. I'm going to go crazy rn.

[cetoddle]

i think it’s a combination of the drawfee brainrot and the fact that one of the only living beings i interact with regularly is my cat but ive recently taken to unironically saying meow and meowing about things like literally all the time and it’s honestly so embarrassing

[caguaydreams]

Hm... never trust how you feel about your life past 9pm or however that goes and stuff, but sometimes I do be pondering what I do on the regular and it gets to me, the silliest things

[steviescrystals]

i seriously need to get a new job and start making money again asap bc i cannot keep living at home much longer it’s driving me insane

(wrote an entire essay in the tags without meaning to oops)

[stargazerdaisy]

I'm so overstimulated, have been the past couple of days, and I can't put my finger on exactly why. I feel like I shouldn't be, because it's not like I've had an overwhelming amount of stimuli. I'm definitely super tired and feel like I haven't gotten enough quantity or quality of rest, so that's probably the culprit - my threshold is really low. I have zero patience, I'm yelling, and I'm on the verge of tears. I can't stand people talking to me, I don't want to think about anything extra, I am feeling a hard core urge to run away and check into a hotel. I want quiet, I want no demands or questions or tasks, I want to watch what I want on TV, and I want to breakdown in tears and then just stare at the walls with white noise playing. I do not want to be a partner, parent, or employee right now.

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

I found my relatives who are estranged because they left the cult (among other, much more complicated things)… and through their friends list I found my creepy uncle who I saw exactly once in person, walking through a foyer at a funeral.

Now, I bear a striking resemblance to my late grandmother so I could theoretically scare the living bejeezus out of him… 👀 but I’m not going to do that or talk to any of them right now in any way; because I don’t want to open that can of wormssssssss

[tortoise-teapot]

this tiny mortified storyboard solas is my favorite one i've ever drawn

[goyurim]

exceptionally talented girls are on tumblr oversharing about their mistakes in the tags