#I actually hate being sick so bad
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I think Belphie is one of the brothers that acts the worst when you’re sick.
So in my head i'm thinking that human sickness is completely different then if a demon or angel were to get sick. (now that im thinking about it I don't think they would get sick at all lol, maybe.)
So with that being said, say mc has some run of mill sickness, like to the point where you can’t go to classes and have to stay in bed. But it’s not hospital sort of bad, nothing you can’t handle. The thing with Belphie is..
He won’t leave you alone!
Straight up does not understand why you keep kicking him out of your room
“You can't sleep here."
"Why not?"
"I'm sick"
“..Okay?" and he actually sounds genuinely confused to why he can’t lay down with you.
So you try and explain that while yes technically he could maybe still take his naps in here, it would help you recover faster if he didn’t. More importantly you’re kinda gross right now and don’t want anyone to see you like this.
“It’s okay if you’re a little gross. My gross little human.” He’s already curling up to you with that stupid small smirk of his, and you can’t even find the energy to argue. You don’t remember closing your eyes but soon enough you join him in dreamland.
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What Belphegor won’t admit is that he loves whenever you’re sick. You push everyone else away (his brothers listen for the most part) but when he pushes back you back down, too weak to actually do anything.
With his brothers out the way he gets you to himself for days at a time (sometimes an entire week!) Not a single soul to bother the two of you.
Some deep, darker part of him wants to keep you like this forever. But he won’t (for now)
#I actually hate being sick so bad#obey me belphegor#obey me shall we date#obey me nightbringer#belphegor x reader#belphegor x mc#obey me x mc#obey me x reader#obey me headcanons#yandere#kinda#k writes
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perhaps the most important question i’ve ever asked:
does anyone have tips for people trying to stop being chronically late to everything in the world that aren’t weirdly judgmental and aggressive or flat out lies
#when i tell you every single resource i’ve ever found or tried to get through or anyone i’ve ever asked#has been just so. mean about it#not even intentionally#not always at least#but there’s so much inherent shame tied to being late to things or being a person who used to be late to things#that i don’t think people can untie that from their ‘helpful tips’#it’s all ‘i used to also be a lazy uncaring piece of shit! you don’t have to be a horrible wretched loser anymore!’ and it’s like. okay.#you see how that’s not helping. right.#making me feel worse about it is NEVER helpful. i promise you i already have tortured myself over it FARRR more than any ‘on time’ person#ever had#this has been a comic i’ve been stewing on for ages as well but. well there’s of course the shame#idk it’s something that people are always despicably mean about bc fundamentally people who have never struggled with it#see it as a personal choice to be late#and as something one needs to just ‘try harder’ to fix. and that if you don’t#you inherently don’t care about other people’s time or even other people in general#and that feels horrible! it feels really bad!!#i mean i’ve got it from EVERYONE. disability allies. other adhd folks. disability resource offices#it’s something that nobody ever cares to acknowledge or try to accommodate for#bc time blindness and exec dysfunction are NEVER taken seriously as disabilities. they’re always always viewed as a personal failing#and i’m sick and tired of it. bc all this does is make people struggling with this Hate themselves#and worry endlessly that maybe they Are selfish and actually Don’t care about anyone else#there’s a bit too much here to keep in the tags i should really do the comic for adhd awareness month
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finally started p5 royal ‼️‼️‼️‼️
expect some royal trio art soon they are my dearly beloveds (minus akechi i hope he dies in this reality too)
#love that ren got the sad boy kdrama fit#also no idea how akechi survived i want to shake it out of him so bad why are you gatekeeping stupid bitch#idk if this is just him w/o the pleasant boy facade but he seems so much more exhausted and cruel#like everything he says is verbal irony bc he’s patronizing everyone. he hates being a team player sm it’s insane 💀💀💀#he’s so withdrawn and short tempered and actually mentally unstable. like sadistically so#i think these are all warning signs#if he dies again i’m ending it all. you didn’t come back from the dead just to die on me again#also sumire….i love her so bad…..my sweet girl….my baby ☹️☹️☹️☹️#sumire yoshizawa they could NEVER make me hate you#she reminds me of a fawn 😭😭😭😭 with her big soft doe eyes and how she’s so curious and eager#GAAAAAHHH every time she comes up on screen i want to give her a headpat SO BAD…..SHES SUCH A FUCKING CUTIE#i feel so bad for ren bro he’s literally stuck babysitting the new kid and simultaneously keeping akechi on a leash 😭#poor boy needs a break. we should go to hawaii again that was fun#anyway yeah that's all#hopefully i’ll finish the game this week i’m sick of this. i want to move on
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i would advise against sneaking a bunch of silly billies into your castle
#project sekai#emu otori#nene kusanagi#tsukasa tenma#rui kamishiro#pjsk#proseka#prsk#polysho week 2023#there that wasnt so bad#i hate taaaagging#Saki chortling her ass off btw. Do They Know#snailing towards drawing backgrounds properly... its helpful for my comms but im still so bad....#My emu favoritism shines theough again in that its obvious i drew her first. Im sorry. kind of.#i dont have insane tags to put this time i have to get up for class in like 7 hours. i have a midterm. farewell....#actually how could you put polysho week during my midterms. SICK. (ignored that i couldve used the time prompts r given in advance to draw)#ive always done this for fanweeks i try to draw on the day of like a sicko. INEED TO GONTOSLPEY#please stop following me if i check and i hit a milestone im going to feel bad. i dont look at it often enogub to cstch them when they happ#en. stop being niceys to me.#i was thinking of doing simple rqs or something... bc im grateful and it would be fun..... waugh....#why didi stay up finishing this. my wrist hurts and im sleepy. Lord.
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they are ignoring my big beautiful pathetic himbo wife and his cute little platypus tail that he has for some tank part reason im too dumb to understand why
#how can u laugh 😿 this is not a JOKE 😾⁉️⁉️⁉️#love the way starscream was smiling and entertained by demo's people pleasing and having to make himself frown#so he can make demo even more exasperated by his apathy#'it's funny when he nags cyclonus but he can stfu around me pls '#part of what makes armada starscream so cool is demo taking a lot of the more pathetic sides of his ppl pleasing#starscream's ppl pleasing is more for competitive career (power) reasons and fear#demo's tries to be but also he just wants megatron to like him and be nice to him pls :(#whereas megs actually likes starscream and wants him to succeed one day just not today lol#and starscream is like no wtf ure weird i just want ur position . gtfo#it's like the one worker the manager wants to make a new manager one day but the worker hates it there & just does whats needed then leaves#& trains new ppl by being like 'yea so the fuckass manager likes it like this so if u see him then do that shit but heres how i do it lol'#new ppl being mini cons who hes like that cool younger adult to wholl send ppl home instantly if theyre sick & is chilled but professional#meanwhile demo is the suck up tryhard who just needs to put the fries in the bag bro#he wants to be manager so bad but hes also annoying and dumb and megs just wants him to leave his office so he can pretend 2 work#cyclonus is the broke guy who just goofs off bcs if he gets fired then he gets fired but they havent yet bcs theyre understaffed#n he knows it too. he sleeps on the job if it slows down for 1 second. but hes an adrenalin junkie who can get distracted#demo wants meg to want his effin cookje so freaking bad... i love pathetic men#sideways secretly has 3 jobs total & 2 of them are at their competitors' who pay better so he dgaf abt this one#he never picks up shifts and doesnt care abt working less hours. hes hust here for the drama tbh#he clocks in wondering if demo will ever get that megadck hes been bitching abt#he clocks out a disappointed fujoshi#it's ok bcs karen hot rod who works at their competitors comes storming in with his kids & needs rizzed up#by either starscream or sideways bcs they fucked up his kids' orders on purpose after hr gave them a spiel abt their long list of allergies#demolisher#starscream#cyclonus#transformers#maccadam#tf armada#sideways
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I hope they explode
#GOD THESE ARE ALL SO BAD. SORRY. I THINK THEYRE FUNNY LITTLE GUYS#nintama#nintama rantarou#忍たま乱太郎#rkrn#pissing off my friends by drawing them about to kiss like five zillion times and then never actually committing to it#YOU DONT GET ITS ABOUT THE UNFULFILLED DESIREEEEE#ugh. whatever. anyway I think they should kiss and make up WHO SAID THAT NO WAY#kema tomesaburou#shioe monjirou#tomemon#留文#tee bee aych there is kind of some sauce to monjirou realizing he likes tomesaburou and having a crisis over his status as a ninja#but in my mind I think hed be more upset about the fact it’s his archrival LOLLL#sorry. whatever. I’m evil and I think there’s also sauce to them if they’re both mutually pining but neither can actually be lovey dovey#because they’re so invested in their special little relationship as opponents… (dreamily)#and like . whatever. who gives a gaf. one of them gets like injured or sick and the other gets irrationally upset about it#we’re supposed to be rivals you can’t just fall on me here!!!! WHATEVER. I KNOW WHAT YOU TWO ARE#quirinahdraws#digital#sketchdump#(entire album full of kenen content) god I hate them so much#tachibana senzou#zenpouji isaku#chougougumi wingmen is a very cute concept to me. Their roommates simultaneously being sick of them and shipping them together :)…
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BEE KISS TOMORR- *dead* /j
If anyone wants to watch me drawing this like a little victorian child then the timelapse is below the cut 🤣
(FLICKER WARNING. It's all through out so be careful!👍 )
#RWBY#Bumbleby#Blake Belladonna#Yang Xiao Long#Foxarts#YOUR HONOR I HATE THEM (that's a lie actually)#I'VE BEEN STARING AT THIS FOR 3(?) DAYS NOW AND I'M SICK#Technically this doesn't contain spoilers but let me know if I should add the tag!#In reality I think cloud scene will happen episode 7-ish BUT being delusional is what being a bee fan is all about-#This is the first time I've actually tried drawing a kiss sooooo hope it turned out ok xDD#I am the one who looks away when anyone kisses for more than 2 seconds so.#Kisses aren't very photogenic that's all I'll say (I had 3 tutorials open and 5 references pulled up)#This was so messy- I forewent line art because I hate it and I thought it wouldn't be bad to just clean up the sketch. I was kind of right.#Watching back the recording is funny because I've always known I'm disorganized but just watching it play out is hilarious.#Enjoy my little notes and doodles 😌😌#They're so soft I want to scream.#I SURE HOPE I DIDN'T FORGET ANYTHING 😭#Risking my livelihood for these stupids since 2020 *strikes pose*#Anyways that's enough of my rambling.#HAVE A NICE DAY Y'ALL!!
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I don't believe liking immoral and downright evil characters says anything about you as a person, but I think acting like this definitely does.
"The HH fanbase will defend Valentinoto the moon and back" this and "Val is praised by a majority of the fandom" that, except said majority of the fandom fucking HATES that moth and fans have been harassed, had their art scribbled on to "fix" it, repeatedly called "rapist apologists" and "abuse romanticisers", get questioned or accused about condoning him irl, received graphic death/rape threats and are in general mistreated by the fandom. A Val cosplayer was mistreated and had a gun pulled on them IN REAL LIFE not even a year ago. Even the VA got repeatedly asked or assumed to be like the character he plays because "why else would he want to voice a rapist??" and told they deserve for choosing that role (fucking WILD btw). People that like Valentino as a character are the minority of the fandom, and even there NO ONE defends him. We all realise he's a disgusting individual whose actions shouldn't be defended in any capacity. What kinda bullshit lie is that?
I'm also in the Mouthwashing fandom, and it too has a bunch of issues. Infantilising Curly and minimising his actions, making Swansea to be better than he actually is and ignoring that he knew of the SA, people still debating or not realising that Jimmy raped Anya in the first place, shipping Jimmy and Curly (which isn't even a bad thing or a real problem but this person would see it that way), ect. But sure, conveniently don't bring that up. Anything for the Hazbin Hotel hate, right 💀
These next comments especially piss me off (nevermind how they're talking about an abuse survivor which is gross already). This might be a hot take and I don't care if that's the case, but I think people refusing to call Jimmy by name and excluding him from the cast is not show of a "good" fandom, actually. Jimmy has a lot more to him besides being a rapist. Rape culture, toxic masculinity, capitalistic exploitation, misogyny, male dominance-- there's sooo much more to explore and discuss about his character besides him being a rapist. And he's an incredibly disturbing character in a fucking horror game. If you can only refer to him by some stupid nickname (which takes away the seriousness of his character imo), ignore the significance of his role and themes in the story and the rest of his character and reduce him to a single trait that's BAD. That's not a good thing, and in fact, probably makes you worse than the people that do like his character because they can at least separate fiction and reality and not scrap well written disturbing characters for the sake of "comfort" or moral standing (again, in a horror game of all things). People shouldn't feel bad for liking Jimmy because he's a very good character, and ignoring that completely and acting like there aren't people who could like him... kinda sucks?
Moving over, Valentino is not and has NEVER been portrayed in a positive light in the show. I can't wrap my head around people that genuinely think that. Whenever I hear people say that the arguments I always see are "he shouldn't be attractive" and "he's just a cartoon villain" and "he acts silly and quirky even tho he's a rapist" among other things, and I don't think these people realise they're spouting eugenics bullshit and demonstrating that they don't know anything about his character simultaneously. No, Valentino isn't a "positive" portrayal of a rapist because he's attractive (way to tie morality to appearance btw). No, Valentino isn't a positive portrayal of a rapist because he acts goofy and funny and silly. Those traits are intentional and important to his character. Val is the Overlord of lust and depravity, hell's most famous pimp. His beauty is how he lures in unsuspecting sinners, and his personality is how he gains their trust and gets them to sell their souls for him to exploit (notice how Angel signed his soul away willingly). He's supposed to be appealing. He's supposed to be charming. He's entire persona is meant to be disarming. If he were like Jimmy or just a one-note unlikeable guy, his position in the show and his relationships with the characters wouldn't make sense, so he isn't. That doesn't make him a more positive portrayal or anything, it just means he's more fleshed out and written more complex than you want him to be. He's a very real depiction of an abuser, of their two-faced nature and how being attractive and charming to others doesn't make you less of an abusive monster to someone else. For context, I have been abused by someone extremely similar to Val, so his depiction feels very real to me and it's extremely tiring seeing a bunch of assholes who have probably not even seen the show or have been abused act like he's "romanticised" or "unrealistic" or "bad" simply because he was written by Vivziepop (who's ALSO an SA survivor like what is wrong with you 💀).
This is a broader point and not entirely related to this specific case, but we don't give people shit like this over people liking murderers and serial killers-- acting like all a sudden liking a rapist character says something negative about their writing or about the people that like them is INCREDIBLY stupid. People don't talk like this about Alastor and Vox-- who are both VERY despicable people. Both of them are also abusers among other horrible things, but they're not (or at least Alastor isn't) rapists so they're "not as bad". This is a sentiment I see all the time in both the fandom and hatedom whenever Valentino discourse comes back up, and this line of logic that rapists are a unique evil that can't be liked as characters in fiction but murderers and cannibals and serial killers are totally Ok is so dangerous and backwards. Liking evil characters says nothing about you as a person aside from the fact that you're a freak in the fun way. Liking evil characters but then going after others who do as well because you consider their character "too evil" and watering down the crimes of yours to justify liking them says a lot about you tho. Saying that the characters you like says something negative you in general does too.
We seriously need to stop bringing morality into fiction and saying that "normal" people wouldn't like certain immoral characters. We need to stop ostracising people for their "problematic" ships, proudly brag about ostracising them and justify it by calling them "weirdos". We need to stop saying villains are "badly written" because they're not written how YOU want them to be written, regardless of whether or not that opinion is valid (which in this case it isn't). We need to stop putting fandoms in some weird competition with each other about how characters are written and spit on people who actually enjoy them, are comforted by them or felt seen by them (gestures at the whole Angel dust situation barely a week ago). And honestly we need to stop giving attention to people like this, who spread a false narrative and kick others down for being fans of a media they don't like or know squat about for whatever reason. Who spread lies about the media or fandom in question in way that's blatantly in bad faith.
This crappy post is sitting a 17k while I'm typing this. The way people can just say ANYTHING about Hazbin Hotel and its fandom-- doesn't matter if it's valid or true or if they watched the show or know anything about the fandom at all, it just has to be negative-- and others will eat it up no questions asked needs to be studied at this point. We saw that in the months the show first aired. We saw that with the Angel Dust video. We're seeing this again here. I don't think we should be harassing anybody over fiction and in general (and needless to say don't harass any of these people) but calling out bad actors who pull shit like this more often and making it uncool to shittalk Hazbin Hotel and its fandom (and any fandom from unapologetically dark media where the people deal with enough bullshit already) for no reason and in bad faith is a change I'd be down with. Like, wash your mouth of its name and disappear into the shadow realm, goddamnit.
#hazbin hotel#mouthwashing#hazbin hotel valentino#jimmy mouthwashing#hazbin hotel angel dust#fandom discourse#fandom discussion#head in my fucking hands#on that note this is the straw that breaks the camel's back for me i'm going private and then on a blocking spree again#i'm so sick of seeing these people whenever their posts blow up like go away and stay gone#“hh fans defend val” “angel dust is bad rep” “the rape is just a fetish” shut the FUCK up oh my god just shut up all of you 💀#i'm so sick and tired of seeing that all the time if you can't fucking read for shit then say so stop making stuff up#i'm sorry for being so harsh kinda but i've seen 1000 too many people repeating that stupid drivel#what upsets me even more is that almost every val fan i've encountered is an abuse survivor themselves and they already treated so horribly#so seeing people who aren't even in the fandom lie that they “defend” his actions and making it easier to be shitty to them is... uggggghhh#ugh it's so gross and i hate how people just agree with them because it's hazbin hotel specifically like uugghh#i woke up to this my page and my tired ass felt petty enough to write this down as a response cuz actually fuck that noise#especially seeing the comments on that post like god i know i should love my neighbour but said neighbours are making it so difficult#does any of this even make sense i wrote this on the fly without planning it beforehand#whatever i'm really tired so pardon any grammar mistake i'll get them later maybe#momento rambles
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How your period be hitting on the first day
#black yn#x black fem reader#black reader#black tumblr#x black reader#black oc#x black y/n#x black oc#x black plus size reader#black plus size reader#black fem reader#female reader#fem reader#girl problems#i hate being a woman#i hate it here#i hate it so much#i hate everything#i hate this#i hate being a girl#i feel sick#i actually hate this#I’m literally on my period rn this shit hurt so bad I want to be a man#WHY GOD WHY?!!!#I FUCKING HATE YOU EVE#APPLES AREN’T EVEN THAT GOOD#😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡#RAHHHHHH#I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE#😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
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🍒🍰🍓🐇 Bunny Hosts 🍒🍰🍓🐇
★ ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ bsky | ko-fi | ig ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ ★
#love and deepspace#xavier love and deepspace#lads xavier#xavier x mc#xavier x black mc#otp:wishingonstars#moonandstars#Xavier x Heaven#just want to draw Them#did u guys see a popular lads Mc artist being colorist on twt recently? sick#it makes me feel bad for not being an artist#that other black girls who are fans of this game don’t know about#I wish y’all would come over here lol I’ll draw all the black mcs I don’t gaf#it’s so lame what a loser. and then pulled the ‘I’m mentally unwell’ shit like ok girl why did that make you racist tho#it’s a shame all they asked from what I saw because I hate twt actually I deleted the app I’m just going to see the updates on instagram#but yeah the black fan girls weren’t even asking her to draw black girls they were just curious as to why her art lacked diversity#and she was like will you darkies leave me alone girl WHAT 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 because they INQUIRED 😂😂😂😂😂😂 disgusting#so I’m going to keep drawing Heaven and Xavier being down bad SO LOUDLY that they can hear it in hell
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near deathnote despite his limited mobility / physical strength is nonetheless about to carry me through this week. he's my everything
#slept so bad woke up so abnormal about him!!#i have to deal with the most unpleasant people ive ever worked with again this week#and my hope is that they're less horrendous than last time but like. they were actually so bad last time#like i was working late nights and early mornings and weekends AND they were treating me like shit 👍#these are not people from my institution but rather people from another team that i and everyone i work with hate#anyway. im being so brave about it!! wish me luck etc#will actually still be posting several more things this week and next though bc i already have a few more finished 🫣👉👈#so. still prepare to be sick of me#neallopost
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POV: You’re sad and wanting comfort but the character you’d usually find comfort in was deemed unlikabled and totally undeserving of love by the narrative. So instead of feeling comfort thinking of that character now you just feel even worse. Because every time you try to immerse yourself back into the story they came from you have to constantly be reminded by it that they never got to receive any sort of affection and the story wanted the audience to know the reason was because it never felt they deserved any. Even when intentionally making them sympathetic at moments, at the end it’s clear that they were always planning on kicking the dog with them.
#the dragon prince#tdp#viren#lord viren#tdp viren#viren tdp#tdp critical#every single time I rewatch the scene with viren dying I just feel sick#like not sad or angry just sick#it just feels incredibly off to me like it’s not how it’s supposed to go#like it’s just wrong#and I feel even crazier interacting in the fandom space cuz it feels like everyone feels completely differently then me about him#I get that he was an abusive parent and I don’t think there’s anything fundamentally wrong with disliking him#but oh my gosh where did all this he’s a narcissist and the lesson of his story is karma’s a bitch talk come from?#like the latter is literally the opposite lesson a series like tdp should teach#I get not liking a character but outright mischaractizing them as a result and using your dislike to justify the handling of them#by the narrative is a whole other thing#but I get the fandom’s perspective when the writers have handled his character in such a way that would make him so disliked#what I genuinely don’t get however is why the show seems to hate his character so much#there is evident moments 2 seasons worth even of the show setting him up to be someone that’s not so disliked#and then turning around and saying actually that set up was all a farce he doesn’t deserve any sense of forgiveness or the right to atone#yk how we were exploring how there’s always a choice and you have the freedom to change at any given moment with this character?#yeah well apparently we’re going to show that’s not actually the case by having him going crazy locked up in a jail cell#and showing him yelling at the walls about how he’s free with the symbolism of a spider eating a fly caught in a web to prove that he’s not#and we’ll even drop some hints that he was being manipulated and controlled till the end by a bigger antagonist#(regardless of whether or not the theory is true there are hints everywhere)#like why#just why#I feel like I’m not allowed to like him anymore cuz the show doesn’t want me to lol cuz they’ve decided he’s a bad person to the bone#and nothing could have ever had changed that
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Au in which the Plinths never left District 2, but still sided with the Capitol so they’re still deeply despised. Because of that Sejanus grew up lonely, bullied and insecure, and doesn’t have the courage to tell his lifelong crush how he feels about him, so instead he sits in his room and transcribes his love and yearning for him into poems. One day, when it gets too much and he thinks his feelings could explode out of him at any moment, he decides to rewrite some of the poems in a little notebook, and leave them as an anonymous gift for Marcus on his front door step, knowing that only opening up to him about how he feels to some extent, could help
#taking the small detail of sejanus being good at rhetoric and straight up making him a poet#he fits being a poet so well my little tortured depressed homosexual who always feels so much and so deeply#marcus being the opposite of sejanus and being super popular and liked by everybody#and just like in the book he’s not a friend to sejanus but not an enemy either#BUT his friends all openly express their distaste for sejanus all the time#so sejanus still thinks marcus hates him#does marcus hate sejanus? not exactly#does marcus like sejanus in any way? not exactly either#but tbh sejanus has that abandoned depressed sick puppy swag that makes marcus find him kind of endearing deep down#and marcus actually can’t really believe he’s the bad person they make him out to be#he doesn't admit any of this to anyone though even to himself most times#do they eventually get a happy ending? yesyesyesyes#i’ll always give sejarcus a happy ending i HAVE to#sejarcus
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#bunny rambles#i was “cleared” to go back to work yesterday but she told me i could use the rest of the time also if i wanted/needed#and im using it. but the little corporateanxietybot who lives in my head and tries to make me be a Good Worker[tm] is SCREAMING HER HEAD OFF#cause she thinks my boss/Dad is gonna scream at and hit her for being Lazy#this is a trauma post also um. didnt expect to name her rn but she's screaming and i cant scream back cause she sounds like alarms and those#scare crustywhitedog so i have to calm that one so i don't meltdown#my wife submitted the RTW date for me so like. its okay im actually taking the time and ik this is necessary also bc. it is clearly unwell#that its freaking out because it's gotten a more than a 2 day break for the first time in a year#ik corporateanxietybot has protected me in some ways but. i gotta kill her so bad. maybe H can help me reformat her somehow .....#i also hate her is the thing. she cant hear me rn bc she's just looping in circles alarming but anyway. i hate her. like Me. she's so#capitalismcorebootlicker and i hate that about her and i hate that she exists and i hate that she exists bc my dad raised me to be an#Employee instead of a person 🙃🙃🙃🙃#im not elaborating or explaining any of this. this is a diary entry now#i wish i could click her to kill her like the drones in hardcoded lmao it'd be so much easier. ik she like. lives in the work mode mask as#well which is also HARD bc if im not actively thinking Of work or At work she's nonexistent#but shes so LOUD 🙃🙃 like shut up. we're not gonna explode n die from taking an extra week off you're being dramatic our boss isnt Dad#like he LITERALLY isn't Dad. not even close. he's like the most docile man in the world come on ik they're around the same age and both hve#held authority over u but boss checking in wasnt a trap ur not ab to get caught doing wrong ur fiiiiIIIIIIINE#(also corporateanxietybot is not an adult. she's 15 and terrified but she integrated to my work mask which is the problem cause she makes me#a “phenomenal employee” and also makes me work myself sick when she is given the reigns. little devil on my shoulder except the capitalist#system we live under treats her as a positive thing so she gets positive reinforcement at work which only makes her more anxious 😭 i gotta#talk to H about this next Friday huh. also wow. parts work has made it a lot easier for me to acknowledge these behaviors so i can confront#them easier. weird. strange even. so many parts have gotten names this past month n im realizing also why its been so hard to process stuff#but it also has made me kinder to myself. anyway she turned off (her batteries are low since she's been home for a month too) so im gonna#clean myself up and get some food in me and then get some cleaning done
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Anyway asshole sneezed yesterday while I was driving and I nearly wrecked my car lmao
#snz kink#and he did it more than once too like excuse you#might as well have whipped his dick out smh#i didn't actually almost wreck tho I'm just being dramatic lmao#thank god he didn't bring up the fact that it's a kink again tho bc i might’ve fr wrecked ahdkalsk#but i was like 'don't do that I'm driving 😒' and he sarcastically apologized#to his credit he did try to stifle when he did it again but that was worse bc i felt bad lmao#'well don't do *that*' and then he snorted and rolled his eyes and was like 'there's no winning with you'#god he's so great to converse with even when we're playfully bickering lmao fuck#still crazy to me that I've never been into a cishet man before in my life and always thought I'd end up with a woman#just for the first person I've ever dated to be not only a cishet man#but also my fucking coworker after i said i would never date a coworker#hate this for me but also 🥰#also now I'm extra feeling some type of way about the fact that he sent me those voice messages while he was sick#like damn maybe that did do something to me ahdkkala#maybe I should listen to them again just to see 👀#nah I'm not actually gonna do that lmao I'd feel weird if i did#anyway rip to y'all who followed me for snz lmao this is basically just a simp blog these days#oh well it's my blog lmao#partner posting
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Sighh. Trying to figure out if I'm going to project onto Night again for this next drabble....
#spotatalk#trying to think what Night's reaction to being ACTUALLY sick would be#because I genuinely think Ccino took such good care of him and Dream (plus the whole Paradise Kingdom thing) that he's never been sick#before. like. with a cold.#so when he wakes up after a long night running a fever and coughing and wheezing and his throat feels like it's trying to#choke him out itself and his msgic is weak? he 10000% thinks he got poisoned and is like. inconsolable for a solid hour#before everyone reassures him it's just a cold#actually. i like the idea that it's Cross who's experienced the same Allergy/Cold double-punch combo before and manages to calm him down#I just think Night's track-record states that he hates having to be out of the race because. he trusts the others but. he doesn't want to#burden them. and Ccino cares for him but he also has the duties of the castle and he's choosing to stay and-#y'know all the sadness and worry between his fitful rests are consuming him. Cross ends up being his solution because (since he doesn't have#his mask yet) he doesn't have tasks to be doing in Night's wake and Night logics his way into feeling less bad about wanting the attention#(and ofc Cross wears soft clothes and Night likes his general aura and also he's the one least likely to tease him and accidentally hurt his#feelings- the whole nine yards lmao-#okay post over. minor lore post following shortly lol-
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