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unknownjayyyyyyyy · 12 days ago

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ya’ll

#towabird #wlw #lesbian #GAAAAAAH #HER ARMS #MASC GUITARISTS WITH VEINS IN THEIR HANDS AND BUFF-LIKE ARMS SAVE ME #I WANT HER SO BAD I CAN’T ANYMORE #😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#Towa Bird one chance pls #save me #i need saving #mama #grandpa #lady towa bird

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hplonesomeart · 2 months ago

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Hey. Sorry about the inactivity, but pretty sure no one cared that much anyways lol. Been a looooong time since I kept that distant from Tumblr…at least now I know I’m able to survive without checking posts every day/being chronically online! I’ve got an intense love-hate relationship with this lifestyle I’ve dug myself into. Think I’m getting a little bit better with the balance even if school isn’t really giving me an option. Got a load of work I need to keep catching up on if I don’t want to disappoint my professors. We’ll survive somehow. Here take a quick batch of Puzzle doodles k bye

#the hell am I so anxious about? maybe it’s just overstimulation stuff #hoping it’ll die down because I can’t keep enjoying myself when I’m like this #seriously is starting to mess with my flight responses over the tiniest things #like yea obviously I needed to stay logged out of Tumblr so I would focus more on schoolwork #but uhhhh gonna be transparent and say a huge part of it is the jolts of anxiety :(#like even the thought of logging back here has caused me to feel like sweating #my brain kept saying ‘no I don’t want to I can’t do that’ even when I felt bad for missing out on others posts #like I want to be here so I can support my mutuals dammit!!!#I’m a mess. I’m such a broken mess oh great lovely spectacular #maybe the culminating stress of final exam deadlines is worsening stuff as well #I can’t tell you why I’m like this I just am 🙃#anyways thinking I’ll start adapting to the distance. Sorry but being a shut-in is more appealing right now #I just need time to be with myself and not be so invested in the lives of others #anyways what’s something mildly positive I can wrap this up with so I don’t seem pathetic….#ah yes the final Puzzle sketch here was drawn today before a class period #one of my fellow classmates noticed and audibly asked me ‘is that Mr. Puzzles?’#IT TOOK EVERTHING IN MY WILLPOWER TO NOT LET OUT A GIDDY SHRIEK #Felt like my eyes bulged and I jolted in enthusiasm jskjsksp spontaneous happiness?? actally experiencing the feeling of fitting in??#anyways I responded with a very normal ‘WAIT YOU KNOW ABOUT HIM???’ while trying to suppress grinning or going ‘teehee’#anyways now it’s my personal mission to keep initiating conversations with her because AUUUUUGH SHE KNOWS WHO HE IS I’M LOSING IT #proceeded to talk about Murder Drones & TADC like holy SHIT I didn’t think I would ever find animation peeps in my psychology class auuu 😭💜#it’s a MIRACLE man this may be a sign that college won’t be isolating anymore yaaaaayyy #PUZZLE IS SINGLE HANDILY HELPING ME TALK TO PEOPLE BOTH ONLINE AND IRL THIS IS WILD #all hail the best comfort character seriously holy shit—like imagine she never noticed me drawing Puzzles!! I’D STILL BE LONELY AS HELL #okay sorry I’ll stop typing like a teenager and go back to pretending to be well-versed in speech & conducting myself ‘normally’ :3 #doodles #sketches #hplonesome art #not tagging with Puzzles because hahaaaaa don’t look at me

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zee-has-commitment-issues · 5 months ago

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Yall literally leave him alone. God forbid he grows up and figures himself out. Jesus Christ.

#the 17 to 21 jump is wild even when you’re not famous.#he was flipping off the camera long before YR and he’ll be doing it long after #you don’t have a reason to hate his gf you just don’t like that he’s taken #it’s the same way no one liked N in the beginning of his relationship with O #he can only play mama’s boys for so long before he has to branch out #it’s ‘forced’ and ‘inappropriate’ for him to promote his gf. but when he does it for anyone else it’s fine?#or what about when O did it for his partner?#just admit that you wish he was still a teenager. admit that you want him single. admit that you can’t handle him changing genres #because it has nothing to do with him or posing for pictures or how he captions his posts #before it was F everyone was doing this with W #remember that? in the very beginning when everyone hated her because of her friendship with the boys?#it’s. the. same. thing.#and you know what? no. I was gonna keep this a subtweet but not anymore #tack-Boris’ post about this was wild and distasteful.#he is allowed to grow up and change the way he dresses and how he acts.#he’s allowed to be excited about the people he loves succeeding #he’s allowed to not be on social media until he’s promoting something #because people have historically been so bad to him on socials #let him be

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leahthedreamer · 2 years ago

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If it’s one thing Season 2 reinforces is that Carmy NEEDS Sydney but Sydney doesn’t necessarily need Carmy to the same capacity.

Without Sydney and her leadership and intuition that restaurant would have never opened on time. Carmy is a work in progress, desperately needs therapy and probably a vacation and clearly couldn’t handle any semblance of a relationship while juggling stress and his past trauma.

Which is why if I had an ending of the show pictured, it would be them parting ways with Sydney earning his full respect as a chef and a Carmy hopefully free enough to achieve things himself and maintain some happiness in his life.

#I know y’all want them to be together so bad but like #carmy is THE self destructive man and Sydney deserves more than being the ‘I can fix him’ gf #as I said he needs her more then she needs him and it was VERY clear this season #not that she doesn’t need his mentorship anymore persay but she can operate independent to him and still thrive #can’t say the same for him atm thr berzatto trauma and ptsd is real #you need one on one therapy man the group shit ain’t working #she still ofc has her problems and her doubts and insecurities also trust issues so can’t wait till that is explored in the future #but yeah fav work husband and work wife may it never manifest to more #the bear #the bear fx #the bear s2

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clownjacket · 8 months ago

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If Kipperlilly DOES end up betraying Porter/Jace as part of a secret other scheme she has (whether good or evil) and it has to do with saving Lucy, I just know she’s going to be a bitch about it and pull a ‘sorry, I only save High Five Heroes’ before leaving her other friends to die or some shit. And then she will take her final form: Magic Betty from Adventure Time, betraying her allies and saving her frost gf at the expense of the world. It would also parallel what Ankarna is going through (‘your girlfriend’s out of town, it sucks’, becoming a little imperialist rage machine under the influence of Porter/Sunstone but not being able to fully turn on Lucy despite going against her values and turning into a violent weirdo). This is my wish. My dream. I am manifesting it. Magic Betty Kipperlilly I believe in you.

#I am currently painting clown makeup on my face rn but this is what I’ve been rooting for from the beginning so let me dream #Come on though she HAS to have some other shit going on though right?#She was DEFINITLY in that temple when the Bad Kids said Ankarna’s name #Brennan literally rolled #and we know she was in Porter’s office #so WHY hadn’t she told him Ankarna’s real name yet? We know he genuinely believed Fig found it #Also the BKs couldn’t see who was in the window during the Wanda Childa scene #Which one of the RGs has invisibility?#HMMMM #Wanda saying ‘Kipperlilly? Why are you doing this? Is it because you’re jealous?’ before getting carried off by a fake Porter would let KP #know ‘okay they FULLY saw what happened after I killed Buddy and are onto us’ which would cause her to follow them to the temple #Also…if NONE of the Rat Grinders knew Ankarna’s name then what did Lucy write on her form to change her divinity???#We KNOW it was Ankarna’s name and not the ‘symbol representing her’ because no one could see it BECAUSE the god was dead and no one alive #knew her name #Which means Lucy HAD TO HAVE KNOWN and was keeping it from the others right?#And when she died and didn’t come back they were fucked because they couldn’t even check the form anymore #But #Brennan also said that if Porter WASNT using Devil’s Honey and genuinely believed in Rage And Conquest goddess Ankarna instead of just her #domain then he and his ritual would (maybe) bring her back instead of killing her permenantly so he can take her domain #And idk #A powerful goddess of rage and conquest who despite everything can’t be turned against her sister and ex #who’s resurrection would mean the rune could be broken and Lucy can come back to life #One who has (or had) a personal vendetta against at least one of the bad kids #and a personal vendetta against the people who led to Lucy’s death #that sounds pretty appealing to someone as spiteful and obsessive as Kipperlilly doesn’t it #especially after her best (maybe only real) friend died and didn’t come back #especially if she stayed dead specifically to stop Porter #Again I’m putting my clown makeup on but I don’t want her to be secretly good or anything just unhinged and gay and a parallel to Ankarna #Please world let me have this I’m on my knees #dimension 20

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valoflunar · 6 months ago

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Michelle by sir Chloe but its pandora staring at Dorcas MESMERIZED even though she knows she shouldn’t be because she’ll never be more than ‘just friends’ with Dorcas and the affection between them will always be nothing more than platonic even if she so desperately wants it to be more than that and the slim chance she had is no longer there because Dorcas is now with Marlene and she feels so bad for being in love with Dorcas because god she’s with someone else and she’ll never be hers and-

#Someone please tell me they understand this slightly incoherent ramble #Like pandora and Dorcas have always been affectionate with each other and neither really knows if it’s platonic or romantic anymore #And pandora desperately wants it to be more than platonic but she’s too scared of losing what she already has with Dorcas??#But then Dorcas gets with Marlene and pandora is SHATTERED because she never got to confess to Dorcas and now she’s with Marlene??#And now she’ll never be able to have Dorcas as hers and she feels so bad for loving Dorcas even though she’s with Marlene because it’s WRON #But she just can’t stop?? Because how could she when Dorcas is all she ever wanted??#So she tries to get over Dorcas and tries to tell herself that she isn’t in absolute love with her anymore (and fails)#I’m not normal about them can you tell?#dorcas meadows #dorcas meadowes #dorcas my beloved #lesbian dorcas #pandora and dorcas #pandora rosier #pandora lovegood #pandora lestrange #the slytherin skittles #the pantheon #pandora x dorcas #pandorcas #i could ramble about them forever #I’m up to rant about Dorcas’ pov if anyone’s interested (please)#Dorcas x pandora #meadowfairy/fairymeadow would be such a cool ship name for them #the marauders #the marauders girls #the valkyries #the marauders era #the marauders fandom

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thebumblingbee · 3 months ago

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#I am so unbelievably tired #and not even in a physical way #I feel like I can’t keep up with life anymore (not in a suicidal way don’t worry)#but I just keep getting diagnosis after diagnosis that I can’t do anything about #I’m constantly being called an asshole for trying to get people to vote for a candidate who isn’t actively #trying to break up my family and take my actual literal human child away just because her parents are queer #’but she’s done bad things’ yeah that’s great and all but I really don’t want my daughter taken away so that’s just how it has to be #unfortunately I don’t get the luxury of voting with my heart. I have actual first hand problems that will ruin my life if trump wins #so kindly fuck off with your moral high ground bullshit #I am just so so so tired #I miss feeling like my life was safe and okay

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alittleemo · 2 months ago

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mannnnnnnnbb fuck November I’m so tired of feeling lonely in my own life.

#lee’s bullshit #even being in [redacted] will not save you from the depths of November #trying to remind myself things are always changing and I can’t stop putting myself out there but I am tired.#what I am doing clearly is not enough in any respect and I am tired of feeling so worn to the bone all the time.#huge social miss today at the function. woke up late and ruined the schedule. couldn’t make a clear decision on dinner.#haven’t found a replacement roommate. haven’t finished my portfolio. haven’t applied to internships. haven’t finished my final project.#behind on everything and with every step I take I get pulled further and further backwards.#my roommate is graduating early and i feel like it’s my fault.#i shouldn’t blame myself for someone else’s bad behavior but im still beating myself up for being a cause for it.#my other roommate wants to move out to live on her own next year.#also blaming myself for that even tho its always on me to fix the mess of housing every damn semester #I’m just so tired of feeling like I’m not doing enough and even when I am that it just simply doesn’t matter.#saw one of my friends today but only for an hour. texting the group is like sending a blind pigeon out in a gale.#I know that things will get better but it’s just so hard . if someone genuinely asked how I was doing I could cry on the spot.#none of my friends are close enough anymore not at home not at school not in my family. there’s nowhere to go.#just tired. Going to go to bed soon. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

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lambentplume · 16 days ago

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i need to think about the Characters but i’m afraid goldmoon is going down the same route as makamar where i’m starting. to think that they’re boring

#they have to invent a me that makes interesting ocs.#my books CANNOT come fast enough.#my cousin went to the beach with her other family so i wasn’t invited and i’m kinda :/#i’m just. at home. thinking too much. i keep picking up games and putting them down #jaerambles #making it a goal to sit on my porch thing for 10 minutes today. it’s covered so it won’t help with my vitamin d deficiency. but 10 minutes #how do people remain interested in things that they make btw. i can’t even draw for 5 minutes anymore #i have an unfinished embroidery starting kit i put the base in the frame and then stopped.#i got 5 pages into a new book. i’m trying to play 3 different games. nothing is sticking.#i feel bad octopath was the last thing i liked A Lot but i have a warped relationship with it now so i can’t keep up w friends who like it #i want to… share interests with people… gtn and wha books please arrive within the week or i’ll expunged………………….#i’m trying to like pyre again because i’m in an sgg server and . well. i don’t like it as much as i used to #it’s fine i’m not just here to like things i also have to . do things #and i don’t even like my ocs enough to introduce them. i had to stop myself from deleting like 3 months’ worth of art just bc i’m over it

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ca-d · 18 days ago

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#realistically I do not have to explain myself #but since that has been bothering me for a few days now #and because I slept like pure ass last night #maybe it’ll be nice to let some of it go #in short - no the absence has not brought peace here but it seems I can’t assume the same for you #what everyone fails to remember is you only see what I want you to see here on the internet #you don’t get to feel what I feel or felt for so long #I was in a bad space for a really long time after all that #and when I reconnected with an old friend - she helped me #in ways I could never tell her #because I can’t tell anyone about that #I clung onto her hard #I had to do everything with her and have her by me nearly all the time #she was a moment of silence for me she made me feel lighter again #and I won’t ever regret that #no she didn’t replace anyone #but I think she was sent back to me for many reasons and also a lesson in the end #and it sucks to not have her here again #even to this day - many years later now - it haunts me #but it’s something I’m better at pushing down #sure there’s days when I come here and post nonsense but better than keeping it inside #its never meant to be malicious #I’m sure you can understand that #I will always love you #and I will always want nothing but the best for you #jealous I can’t be apart of your life anymore and that’s my downfall #but I want you to be happy so be it and live your life as you need to #and I’ll do the same

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ghost-cvtter · 24 days ago

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When is she gonna come back and ask me out again

Come onnnnn I’m waitinggggg

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intomybubble · 1 year ago

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So I wanted to buy a copy of G Fantasy from May 2023. I saw that my local Book Off was selling copies months ago, but I didn’t have a lot of money at the time and I instead bought some keychains and pins (and an A3! ring lol)

But I got some money for my birthday, and I bought a copy I found on Mercari. I’m a fan of both Hanako-kun and Terrified Teacher, but of the two, I’m really buying it for him

I love this loser (affectionate) so much ORZ I can’t wait to have this displayed in my room ㅠㅠ

#desiree talks #terrified teacher at ghoul school #youkai gakkou no sensei hajimemashita #sorry hanako i feel bad for you rn bc your brother kissed nenefor funsies #but i’m still salty at you for basically allowing the whole last arc to happen #poor aoi iirc she can’t feel her arm properly after basically dying so she can’t really even do her hair anymore #like that whole mess and it occuring right after his participation in the perfect picture arc?#i have total mixed feelings on you rn #for haruaki? super excited for the next chapter to drop #i also want to reread terrified teacher again for the 3rd or 4th time #but after i read some of kabi nagata’s works bc i’ve been wanting to for a while now

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strohller27 · 1 month ago

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#oof I already signed the new lease agreement #which is good because it means I can finally apply for a rent subsidy #but oooof the buyers regret is hitting me hard you guys #am I going to regret moving away from this amazing location that I unfortunately can’t afford anymore? YOU BET YOUR ASS #will I be better off financially in the new place? AGAIN. YOU BET YOUR ASS #am I upset with my current landlady for calling me selfish and saying I can’t move out unless I pay for two months in advance #so that she can have her mortgage paid for while she looks for a new tenant that fits her extremely picky standards?#ALSO YOU BET YOUR ASS.#Am I going to have to eat whatever’s available at the food pantry for two months so I can afford paying rent to her AND to my new landlords #AGAIN. YOU BET YOUR ASS.#N I HATE THIS ENTIRE SITUATION AND THERE’S SO MUCH GIVE AND TAKE AND I WANT TO JUST BUY AN RV SO THAT IT’S AT LEAST SOMETHING I OWN MYSELF #why have we allowed things to get this bad. why do most of the people in my immediate circle seem to be stuck right in the middle #of the ‘find out’ part of someone else’s ‘fuck around’ era?#why couldn’t I have been good enough at some random skill to monetise it #Not athletic enough to be a prof. sportsman not talented enough to be a prof. singer actor artist dancer or musician #I was doomed to be mediocre and draw mediocre art and sing mediocre songs and play mediocre sports #and get a degree in a mediocre field so I couldn’t even find a mediocre job #fuuck #ugh my chest is hurty sned hlep

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majoringinsarcasm · 1 year ago

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People hating on a literal child because she doesn’t physically look like a character in a book who we only ever saw in concept art and fanart vs me who was kinda sad when I realized book Percy wasn’t black because the description of a young boy living in New York who’s close with his single mother parent who is constantly seen as stupid troublemaker by both peers and teachers and his moms awful boyfriend and who’s only friend is the only other Outcast (non white) classmate who’s only ally is the literature teacher who then he finds also has doubts about him felt very if not fully black then at least mixed coded.

But then I moved on and enjoyed the story for what it gave me, can some of these people say the same 🤔

#I have not yet watched the show I’ll probably wait for more episodes bc I canceled D+ like two months ago #but idk many of yall are not 12 anymore and saying Leah won’t do a good job or it won’t be as good #we only saw any of these characters in our minds eye #or concept art #im not saying you can’t be disappointed when things aren’t 100% a match bc you want to see a good adaptation of the Book #and I need to do a reread but I would think Annabeth’s whole other shit aka running away cross country at 7 always being nosy and wanting #a quest being ready for battle but learning to have fun too #is more integral to her character ESPECIALLY IN MARK OF ATHENA #the blond hair in the books is a trait from Athena so it’s not a unique hurdle other girls in the cabin wouldn’t also face #it mattered bc she was a main character #But taking the core struggle of not being taken seriously works pretty damn well for any girl but especially black girls AT ALL TIMES #and not to be funny but saying the other characters are already diverse feels like a side step #like look Hazel in her eyes and say not being taken seriously BECAUSE of your HAIR COLOR is on the same level #as not being taken seriously because you’re a black girl #and if this breaches containment #yes the show would have been fine even if a picture perfect accurate cast had been hired #but if we want to move past people being cast bc of how they look vs how they act #you can’t hold the gospel of a book series against literal children who are probably having the time of their life #or would be if grown ass adults were attacking them bc SOMEONE ELSE HITED THEM #if the show is bad it’s not bc Annabeth is black or Percy is blonde #hell in good omens both leads are older in the book they’re described as looking 25 and 30 #can you imagine good omens as it is now with book accurate casting bc I can’t

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seilon · 5 months ago

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shouldn’t have checked my bank account as expected my mother has taken thousands more dollars from my savings and has almost run me dry more or less. Cool!

#I’m going to fucking call the bank and ask about a second checking account because she’s never going to make her own fucking account #it’s been like a year since she said she would and it’s just not gonna happen #she owes me thousands of dollars via me paying her fucking overdraft fees and she always says ‘what you think I won’t pay you back?’ no!!!!!#no I don’t!!!!!!! because you literally never have!!!!!!!!!!!#and where the fuck are you going to get like 8000 dollars anyway. because that’s what she owes me at the very least #even if you want to factor in like. paying her monthly for the groceries she buys and cat food and whatever that’s still. thousands of #dollars. and the worst part about it is I just have no safety net anymore #because my savings is basically nothing at this point. like nothing that can help in a dire situation anymore.#I keep thinking about whatever im going to have to end up paying for top surgery and I WOULD have a significant amount saved up to #contribute to that but haha! no I don’t! it’s fucking gone!#and I’ve been getting paid basically fucking nothing lately because of how few hours they’re scheduling me so that does not fucking help #my last paycheck was literally like half of what I should be getting. I made like 1K in the past two paychecks. that’s fucking depressing #anyway I’ve given myself a headache #I’ve been avoiding looking at my bank account because I knew it would be bad and it’d stress me the fuck out but I also have been anxious #not knowing and my mother making a few vague comments that implied she must have fucked me over. so I checked today and yeah she sure did #if I don’t make a new checking account that she can’t access i am actually going to be broke within the nenxt few months at this rate #my head hurts and I am so upset I am so upset I work so fucking hard and it doesn’t even matter i just lose money constantly #I get nothing I just pay her fucking fees and pay for my tuition and pay for everything else of any significance #and I am not exaggerating I work my ass off. I am the only person I know at my job who begs to work holidays and extra days and stay as late #as possible and it . doesn’t even matter #im going to kill myself I swear to god. there’s shit I need to buy. what am I supposed to do.#kibumblabs #vent #like shit I need to buy for WORK. my manager is getting on me about not having proper shoes for example and yeah I can get a discount #through shoes for crews but I still dont have the fucking money for anything anymore #not unless I want to run myself into the fucking ground #I need a new binder badly. I need new black pants also for work since mine are so faded at this point.#I only have one fitted sheet that doesn’t have giant holes in it #I can’t stop thinking about my last paycheck it was literally the worst I’ve seen since starting this job a year ago. fucking infuriating

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rosicheeks · 6 months ago

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I hope your days aren't as heavy and dark, I am sending all the positive thoughts your way. You deserve the best, fairy princess. <3

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#I’ve been getting such sweet asks #I can’t tell you how much they mean to me right now #unfortunately my days have been pretty dark and overwhelming #struggling more than I ever have before tbh #and I’ve struggled most of my life so that’s saying something #also tried to go on TikTok for a little bit and oh BOY that was a bad decision #I might come back sometime soon #it’s just hard when my meds and everything have been making me very sex repulsed 😬#and half of the posts on my feed are very sexy related lol #so I guess that’s probably the main reason I haven’t been on here as much as I used to #also really don’t have the energy to reply or talk to people anymore #(sorry to anyone who has tried to DM me or contact me in any way -#I’ve barely been able to get out of bed so I definitely don’t have the energy to reply to people)#fun fact I went on TikTok finally cause everyone keeps talking about it #somehow ended up on the abortion debate side of TikTok???? so I kept seeing these bullshit debates #the final straw was the other day I saw some dipshit put as their claim ‘prochoice is a mental illness’#don’t even get me started on that it makes me so made I start to shake #I’m sorry but that is so offensive to people who are struggling with real mental illnesses???#went up as a guest (surprisingly) and was trying to explain how ridiculous that statement was and one of the people literally said #‘this is not a safe space’#lol ok byeeeee #obviously not expecting every where to be a safe space but for someone to literally SAY that is wild to me #I always try to keep a safe space no matter who I’m talking to or what about #that still is bothering me so so much #main reason why I’m still on there is cause I love this creator and want to support her as much as possible #but idk how much longer I can be on there… was even thinking about trying to post and make money over there #but ha ha ha guess not #back to square one #I’m running out of space as always but thank you so so so much for the kind words they mean the world to me!! also FAIRY princess???#I’ve never heard that before 🥹🥹🥹 thank you thank you thank you wishing you a lovely day 🫶

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