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ur agegap touken art has me like HUugyfythGgttARGGTTGHG BARK BARK BARK /positive theyre soooooooo cyute
YOU GET IT, ANON. YOU GET IT
Its just SOO good cause of toukas stubborn and strong but also impulsive and more immature attitude that will crumble with a much more confident kaneki. WHO CAN THEN TEASE HER AND FOR ONCE BE THE ONE TO TEACH AND LEAD HER. But knowing touka, she'll still humble him in ways he wont expect.
I LOVE IT SO MUCH GRAHHH
#i need to draw it more#I NEVER GOT TO DRAW THE SMUT FOR IT#well a little#but I wasnt satisfied with it and didnt post anything#BUT I SO WANT TO...... just..... need to get out of artblock wjfvwjd#asks#ive also drawn agegap touken the other way around that i didnt post wjfvwjd#kuroneki or shironeki with re:touka 🤭#oh Id be so down for that as well#i need to draw more.... more agegap touken#doesnt matter which one....#I ALSO REALLY LIKE IT when 👀 people draw haise with uhh longhaired touka#I LIKE ANY COMBINATION OKAY#altho I dooont think reaper is well compatible with a younger touka#i cant really see that
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Why do you think the tides have slightly turned from "Elia deserves better than Rhaegar" to shipping her and Rhaegar together? Like what is the psychology behind these people because I've seen some of them like/reblog anti Rhaegar posts while also shipping Rhaegar x Elia at the same time.
hey anon! my thoughts are a bit messy, but i’ve done my best to explain them coherently :)
so, rhaegar was the best man anyone could have when elia was alive, and most people want the best for their favs. he was considered the most handsome, didn’t have a bad personality, and he was crown prince—meaning elia was almost queen, which is often seen as the greatest role a woman can have. the narrative also treats rhaegar as a beautiful, tragic, haunting figure, and elia actually had this very aesthetically pleasing man all to herself at one point! she was married to him, had children with him, and her life was so close to perfect! but rhaegar just had to go and ruin it. 😠
for many elia stans, if rhaegar hadn’t fallen in love with another woman (they want him to have been a completely different character), then everything would’ve been perfect, and elia would’ve had the best, most desirable life. however, that’s not what happened—elia met a very tragic end, and as a result, these stans feel double the bitterness. because of this bitterness, they blame rhaegar for everything (even though it’s not logical to do so), but he’s just too ‘perfect’ to let go of. so, for years these stans have made rhaegar revolve around elia, filling his tag with posts about her out of bitterness. so, i do believe that this obsession with rhaegar x elia has always been there, but i think it’s become a more favorable stance on the elia stan side of the fandom because of a mix of reasons.
plus, rhaegar is one of the few canon relationships we know elia had, since she’s not much of a character. because of this, and the fact that most people don’t like to stray too far from canon, most elia stans are forced to focus on rhaegar, which has created an echo chamber. basically, if a sentiment about elia and rhaegar’s relationship becomes popular, then the whole elia stan side of the fandom will likely regurgitate the sentiment. (also, this desire to stick close to canon is likely why the elia x arthur ship was so popular. while it’s a total crack ship, it had good aesthetics, and since elia and arthur at least knew each other, it allowed the stans to create their perfect fanfiction whilst sticking it to rhaegar. but remember, elia was actually married to rhaegar and had children with him, so while arthur is cool, rhaegar was always ‘top dog,’ meaning arthur would never be able to match up to rhaegar to most elia stans. also, the arthur x elia crack ship is likely her second most popular ship, which just shows how little elia stans have to work with, so they’re always forced to eventually return back to rhaegar for a lot of things.)
however, even if the elia x rhaegar ship gains more popularity, these stans will never stop hating rhaegar because he wasn’t ‘perfect’—and he wasn’t perfect because he didn’t love elia. plus, rhaegar loving another woman and supposedly kidnapping her is what began the war that led to elia’s tragic death. that’s bitterness times 1000. and while i don’t actually blame rhaegar for the war, i do think that this is how an elia stan sees it. i also don’t view rhaegar’s complex relationship with elia as a bad thing—it’s actually a very realistic take on an arranged marriage between two decent people. but most elia stans will never be able to get over the fact that they almost had everything, which is why many have it out for lyanna, as they consider her a thief who ruined their ‘perfection.’
tbh, that might be why so many elia stans are so obsessed with the idea that rhaegar only got with lyanna because of the prophecy—they don’t want to believe that rhaegar actually loved a different woman and not their perfect self insert elia. that’s a bit mean of me… but i don’t know what else one would call the ‘elia’ elia stans have created.
now that i’ve laid all those thoughts out, i’ll try to explain why the tides seem to be turning… i think it may have something to do with the ‘targaryens are all evil and bad’ sentiment losing popularity. i think this shift has occurred due to a mix of factors, such as years of fandom fights and fandom cycles leading to the targs being more liked now than before. it helps that canon doesn’t actually condemn the targs/favors them quite a bit, and the influx of new targ fans from HOTD has also contributed. this combination of reasons seems to have shifted the way the mainstream fandom discusses all the targaryen characters, including rhaegar. so, with this shift, it’s only natural that some elia stans/elia x rhaegar shippers—who’ve always been there—are using this opportunity to push their agenda. while these stans still hate rhaegar and see him as the bad guy, they just can’t let go of him. and as the mainstream fandom moves away from the anti targaryen sentiment, these smaller corners of the fandom, which tend to be echo chambers, are also affected, which has therefore led to a rise in rhaegar x elia shippers and the ‘shifting tide’ that you’ve also noticed.
#‘if only rhaegar did this’ is a very common sentiment amongst elia stans#most stans have always had the ‘if only’ mindset#‘if only elia survived’ easily leads to ‘if only rhaegar didn’t run off with his whore’ as the targs become less hated#it’s kinda a pipeline? rhaegar anti plus elia stan leads to rhaegar x elia shipper who still hates rhaegar#another reason that a lot of this happens is because elia and the martells plus dorne are the good ‘others’ a person can like#while the targaryens are the ‘bad others’ one can safely hate as they’re white & have a bit of demon symbolism + come from an ‘evil’ empire#the targs also ruled over everyone so a lot of fans like pushing all the blame onto them for all the problems#however the targs are cool and they’re hot af and being royalty is the best! so they’re the ‘bad others’ one can safely hate#but people still want their aesthetic and want their favs to have what the targs had. all the cool magic + the aesthetic + danys monikers#so people can convince themselves that it’s okay and logical and right to hate the targs but most ppl will still connect their favs to them#of course… things have been shifting in the fandom which i’m very happy about#and all of these sentiments are combined and compressed when it comes to rhaegar and elias relationship#so any big shift on how the fandom views the targs will always affect the way rhaegar and elias relationship is viewed#it just so happens that the targs aren’t the evil dragon nazis anymore so it’s kinda okay for elia stans to ship him with her#i’m not gonna go through my tags and make sure they make sense so i’m simply hoping for the best#anyways… i hope i didn’t digress too much. i just found this shift so interesting so i couldn’t help myself#asoiaf fandom critical#anti elia stans#rhaegar targaryen#anti rhaegar x elia#house targaryen#valyrianscrolls#pro rhaelya#lyanna stark#rhaegar x lyanna#anon ask#thanks anon this was a fun topic to cover#i recently found a really old post about both elia and lyanna and boy… it was quite discusting to read#elia stans kinda cycle from ‘elia deserved better x crack ship with shallow aesthetic’ back to elia x rhaegar while shitting on rhaelya#just know that rhaegar is always the bad guy to them! the sentiment on lyanna will go from hot to cold but rhaelya is always bad as well!
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God I feel you on this. There are so many avenues for people to get sucked into bullshit infighting too.
I s2g every time I engage with trans content my for you feed starts serving me a ton of discourse about intercommunity transandrophobia or w/e and like... if people are being weird about trans men that's worth talking about sometimes, but I get the impression there are corners of the trans community that are doing nothing but scream at each other in some pointless transmasc vs transfem war. Meanwhile I'm sitting here on TERF island, transfem people right beside me, hoping our HRT and shaky legal rights don't get nuked in the next 5 years 💀
I feel like a general online discourse rule should be that if you're putting more energy into fighting your own community/policing language/etc than fighting people that materially affect our lives, something's gone wrong and you're at high risk of radicalisation into bigotry. Or might already be there.
ghhrgh LITERALLY….. like .
from what i’ve seen a lot of this transandrophobia debate came up in response to seeing trans women talk about transmisogyny. my theory is that a portion of tme folks saw that people have been discussing transmisogyny and felt that they were having their unique experiences erased. which, like, look . i get it. erasure is something i’ve experienced kinda my whole life. i understand that it feels Bad to have your struggles downplayed. i had that same worry at first. BUT. we GOTTA be able to examine how your own fears and anxieties and biases may be coloring your perceptions!!! bc yes being trans does not make you immune to transmisogyny!! we live in a transmisogynistic world implicit bias is Going To Happen.
like. transmisogyny is a real thing that happens and disproportionately affects transfems. transmisogyny is not something non-transfem people experience unless they are falsely perceived to be transfem. it is a uniquely transfeminine experience coming from the intersection of being trans and female (or female-adjacent). it is not just a unique kind of transphobia, but rather the intentional combination of transphobia and misogyny.
is this to say that transmascs don’t experience their own unique kind of oppression? no! but it’s not an intersectional oppression and it shouldn’t be treated as such. also, the name of “transandrophobia” just gives off. a really uncomfortable energy. you’re not being oppressed because you’re male. you’re being oppressed because you’re trans. i don’t feel like we need to give this type of transphobia a name because it is just transphobia. similar to how misogynoir is a word but we don’t have a word for the specific type of oppression black men face because that’s just racism. just because transphobia impacts you in a certain way doesn’t mean it’s a special type of transphobia, and really why are we playing oppression olympics in the first place? we’re ALL hurting. can we just like… help each other out? can we stop accusing transfems of like…. deliberately trying to overshadow transmasc issues or whatever? and for the love of god if we have to argue can we STOP misgendering and degendering each other mid-argument.
like. at the end of the day this is all trivial shit because In Real Life we’re being targeted by horribly cruel legislation and social movements. it’s like we’re in a burning house and i’m watching my brother and sister argue over black mold. like yes that’s a problem but i think !!!! we should focus on putting out the fire !!!! like i live in texas. lawmakers have been trying to pass anti-trans bills here for ages, and a couple of them have gone through! i remember being sat down in gsa in my freshman year of high school and having the club sponsors tell us that if a bill that was up for ratification mandating that teachers out their students to their parents was passed that they would do everything in their power to keep us safe. i have to be careful about how i dress when i go to certain places. and i’m not even someone who’s transitioning medically— lord knows what kind of bullshit hurdles people on hrt have to go through to get it. and we’re arguing over what we want to call our oppression? we’re all facing transphobia at the end of the day can we PLEASE fix that instead of dividing ourselves into little easy-to-eliminate factions please and thank you
#ask#lyre#discourse#ughhhh i hate it . that discourse is a tar pit truly#like. just. stand up for the trans people in your life. listen to the trans women in your life#am i saying trans women are incapable of being wrong or making mistakes? no!#we do need to acknowledge though that they have a unique intersectional experience#like as a tranny who passes as female but is also pretty clearly queer. i experience misogyny. i experience transphobia#i do NOT experience transmisogyny because that is explicitly the combination of those two things#i am on both axes of oppression but not where they meet#does that make the transphobia or misogyny i experience any less important? no! but it isn’t transmisogyny#i promise you don’t need to prove your oppression to other trans people. not everything will apply to you and that’s Okay#apologies if this is roughly worded i didn’t think it out beforehand. i simply went#shit like this sows so much division and all that does is make us weaker#like. meet trans people in real life please. for the love of god. remember that you are arguing semantics while our siblings are dying#also shitty government solidarity 🤝 i love looking at the news and going ‘oh god again???’ like once a month at least
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Reason to hate Tommy Kinard and proof Buddie is happening instead: Episode 8.5
Buck wore a fake moustache and Eddie has a real one, Buddie is clearly happening soon. Trust the Moustache Theory.
Buck handed the lube to Eddie, implying he wants to have sex with him. I've never seen him hand Tommy lube.
Eddie was in the hospital first; Tommy didn't show up until after his shift, Eddie didn't wait.
Tommy didn't take Buck seriously about the curse.
Tommy stood the whole time he was in the hospital room, showing he's not committed. Eddie was sat, showing he is there for the long haul.
Tommy laughed at him instead of taking him seriously.
Tommy was bossing Buck around, treating him like a child.
Tommy doesn't take Buck's concerns seriously.
Eddie showed up to help Buck.
Tommy called Buck gross.
#911 abc#this is satire#buddie#bucktommy#evan buckley#tommy kinard#eddie diaz#I am making a joke#not trying to start anything#i just thought it was funny#this is how some Buddie stans seem nowadays#don't get me wrong#I also shipped it#but I'm okay with any combination of these three#I think they are si great together#now I feel like I'm over explaining things lol
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maybe wrangling this new pen for pages and pages is what finally gets me to finish this sketchbook
#art#ink#sketch#i got a pen with a supposed flex nib and it's nothing like a flexy dip pen nib#i think ive got it working smoothly now. im accepting the lack of line variation haha#i hope it will work okay with the waterproof black ink ive got at home (platinum carbon black) but we will See#ive almost used up the entire ink sample i got with this gjslbfkd#anyway ive had this sketchbook since 2018 which is bonkers#up to that point ive filled up probably 30-40 sketchbooks total#but this one i got as a gift and it's like. big hardcover chonky boy#really good quality!!!!!!#and i think i started using it and then filled out a different sketchbook before coming back to it#and it's also around that time when i was done with university and didn't have much Sketch Time as before which is sad#combined with the fact that it's big and heavy and i do not bring it everywhere#it's slow going!!!!! there's so much doodles in it but ive still got like a quarter left of it??? maybe a fifth#but now i have like eight pages of fountain pen wrangling hahaha#i should add that any Thin Lines are not because this pen flexing but me drawing with the nib upside down#for extra fine lines u_u
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my mom's dog got prescribed a nsaid recently and she's had a really bad stomach reaction to it over the past 24 hours and i'm super worried she's gonna die 😢😢😢 i'm so upsetttttttt. i hate this! i hate it a lot!
#i just had to say that somewhere#ughhhhhhhh i'm so worried i feel sick#also have some work stress going on and the combination is making me feel like i'm gonna have a heart attack any ol' sec here!#THAT DOG IS MY SISTER I NEED HER TO BE OKAY!!!!#dollsome's deep thoughts#why is life. so scary and exhausting.#even on a normal tuesday
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Okay this might be the fever speaking, but Gortash's timeline makes absolutely 0 fucking sense if u think abt it, which I made the mistake of doing.
He first established himself as an Arms dealer and Slaver thx to selling weapons made out of Infernal Iron
But bitch only got the manuals from Zariel after selling Karlach (and if he didn't need em, how, why did no-one else do it yet, why sell Karlach in the 1st place then, where is his iron supply coming from, etc)
And Karlach was only sold around 1480 DR
And while ofc, if u never sleep, u can pull of the Absolute scheme in 10 years, Gort was already an established arms dealer when he started working on that plan
Which means that the Absolute stuff is less than 10 years old
Which is quite frankly impossible for such a massive operation. Esp when somewhere in between, he also developed and founded the Steelwatchers and wormed his way into becoming a political advisor for persons such as the four dukes (which takes a ton of trust, connections and bribing, so much bribing, the nobles of the Gate are horrible).
Which is my way of saying good lord someone please fix the timeline. And canon, for being absolutely illogical and impossible, can smd
I have a feeling the late addition of Karlachs infernal heart really fucked over the timeline here cuz suddenly Gorts main business and kinda his whole life stops making sense. How tf would Karlach work for him when his business, yk the one that allowed him to displace the Knights and threathen the Zhents, was rly only established and picked up after she was sold? How???
#bg3#enver gortash#like this shit makes absolutely 0 sense#just getting funding and logistics in such a short time would be impossible#and combined w durge it makes even less sense#cuz they officially met around 1480 too#and at that time Gort was already an etablished Banite leader nd kingpin#plus he had his grabby paws on politics for years too#which once again makes 0 sense if hes also etablishing himself and planning the absolute bit#like if Karlach was sold 20 years ago#yeah okay then it could make sense#quickly use ur rep + etablish urself#then start ur politics nd absolute scam#but all of that in 10 years?#nah buddy#i wanted to do a short drabble of Uldur since im physically dead#but that led me down a rabbit hole#cuz i needed a year#and none make any fucking sense
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"We can get through this by working together, reach out to your friends, community is all we have, a social network will be your security in the world, now is the time to lean on others!"
I do agree, and it's scientifically sound (pretty sure there is data about how people with better social networks live longer and etc) but also....augh..... what about the severe social issues, difficulty to leave the house, physical issues which lead to like zero socialization energy a majority of the time, etc. etc. Social support can be a replacement for structural support, but.. I guess I just wish it didn't have to be. Community is extremely difficult to build, even moreso if you're someone who has issues with social cues or group conversations or even just being around others in the first place. And blah, nuance, of course I'm just complaining or maybe being too negative or maybe misunderstanding, but, I hardly have the energy to brush my hair once every 2 months.. how am I supposed to maintain a wide social network and be active in a Community and Join Groups lol... sometimes it kind of feels like "er.. well if thats my only option then...... ruh roh". It's overwhelming
#Kind of like some post I saw a long time ago talking about how even the meanest shittiest most difficult to get along with#elderly people or whaever still deserve to have some sort of systems in place to support them so they're not just relying on the#grace of relatives or etc. who may not be able to deal with them. Not saying that I'm like mean and cruel or anything#but the fact of the matter is in most social situations either I am compromising or the other person is. Not in like an ~`ouuu im so weirdd#nobody willever understand my quirky swagg hee heee~' way but like a.. Just factually the things that make me happy and comfortable#are often incompatible with people. The way I communicate and process things is different from the way other people do and that#is always a barrier. I cannot have ''easy''' interactions. Even with 'understanding' people there is nearly always a significant#amount of effort. You can't walk into a group of people and then be like ''okay you guys all have to wear#masks and you also cant play music too loud and also we should communicate turns of speaking very clearly so group conversations#arent too stressful. and also i need this and that and we have to do this and that and '' etc. etc. You CAN. And some people will#go along with that. but they will ALWAYS secretly resent you for it. You will be the one person they're relieved to not have to be around.#theyre glad when you dont show up since they can go back to doing things however they want and not masking and all these boring#annoying things. OR you can say none of that and just deal with the loud music and the talking and the unmasked people. but then#YOU'RE compromising. and no matter how nice they are it's exhausting to be around and youre just further alienated#while in the presence of people and uncofmrtoabel the whole time.#Which I'm not saying the only form of community is a group setting specificially but just giving that as an example lol#I just wish there were a better option than ''well learn to socialize normally or just suffer then'' . Which I know is not what people are#saying. I guess I just always feel a bit scared when 'community is the answer'. Since its not like 'oh im just socially anxious and need to#get out of my shell~!' or something thats really that remedy-able. It's like.. my mostly unchangeable physical health issues combined#with the mostly unchangable literal way that my brain processes sensory informationand other things means that interacting with#others in a normal and easy way is incredibly difficult and often exhausting especially to maintain in any longform fashion. So then#when it's like ''the answer to staying safe is to maintain longform social connections!! :3 just reach out!!'' then.. ermm... O_O#also I'm not even one of the cutesy shy emotional hermits that's nervous. I'm the Bad Stereotype emotionless robotic cold seeming#looms in the corner of the room type of thing so people have less pity on you in that way. -_- ANYWAY gghj#I need like.. a designated social representative or something.. When I did work in that bookshop forever ago they gave me a#person who basically was just with me to help communicate with others on my behalf and supervise me and stuff. I need that.. Some#more extraverted person I can latch onto and they can maintain the Social Support Network for me and I can just be their +1 to all#of the Social Things and community. I have helpful skills I can contribute to other people and stuff it's just like.. I cant socialize lol#I cook food or something for you.. then you keep me in contact with Community.. a deal. (but then what about when I'm too sick to#contribute? as is often the case. there's not much place for people like me in communities sometimes i fear.. sigh.) ***
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Jashtober Day 27 & 28- Potion & Bass
Designs by @/cinnamonsly!!!
Bonus Bass doodle:
#combined these since both are the novel album#definitely the reason#not because im behind#main band stuff is done tho!! my sis did great :}#for other band people. it was semi finales & state yesterday so i was VERY busy & VERY tired#an I already graduated too so I didn't even march. i just pushed props around an a big ass speaker.#still was gr8 tho. they got 4th overall in their state an class which is real cool#okay sorry enough ranting lol#besides its like. 11:52 rn i don't want this any later than it already is#chonny jash#cj jekyll#cj adam#cjgw#cj gothic lit#jashtober#jashtober day 27#jashtober day 28#-atlas art-
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crazy to me that sonic has so many votes in the current sonic channel poll when hes objectively the least deserving of a win here. and i say that as someone whos favorite character is sonic and has voted for him in these polls before. literally what are you people thinking those other options rarely ever get official art and youre just blacking out and clicking sonic because you cant turn your shipping brain off !?!??!?!!??!?!?! come on man
#for the record im only blaming shipping because almost eveyrone ive seen say they voted for sonic said they did it because so/nadow#like . okay if you wanna see sonic and shadow interact more fine#but sonic has already been in the 2024 sonic channel calendar Twice and is guaranteed to get plenty more art in the future#and theres also no shortage of content of him with shadow this year#meanwhile maria has 2 pieces of sonic channel art and gerald and black doom have none#and with gerald and black doom in particular i wouldnt be surprised if they never appear in a poll again#like its just a poll its not that deep but come onnnnnnnnn#maybe im a hypocrite for thinking this when i voted sonic to appear wiht knuckles over infinite that one time#and also pushed relaly hard for sonic to win#but. infinite had already appeared in one of the drawings for that year and sonic hadnt#also sonic and knuckles have an established relationship while knuckles and infinite is kinda a random combination#unlike in this matchup where none of them are just random characters thrown in#and also the 2023 art had the aspect of putting the characters in unique situations and outfits which hasnt been carried over to 2024#so it wasnt Just about wanting to see art of a character you like but also about getting to see them in a cute outfit#basically what im trying to say is i might be a little hypocritical but its not Exactly the same situation#anyways. literally anyone but sonic sweep i would be happy with any of the other 3 tbh
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my roman empire.............
#does gladstone not gaf about hotlg.#<- I MEAN THIS. IN LIKE. A GOOD WAY#that i do NOT think. is *intentional* but like#firstly) does he just. not . catagorize the casino as a harmful experience after he left it. like. erm. okay. okay. can we examine that.#I NEEEEED TO FUCKIGN STUDY DT17 GLADSTONE IN A PETRI DISH#NONE OF THE FUCKING PEOPLE WERE REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL#<-probably just an explanation to reuse character designs 😭#GRIPPING YOUR SJOUDLERS. if you combine that FIRST TRAIT#WITH ANYYYYY OTHER GLADSTONE#ITS SO INTERESTING#like yeah that person used me but its whatever ¯\_(ツ)_/¯all's well that ends well!#LIKE BITCH??????????? okay. WHATEVER. 🙄#my man LITEARLLY forgets and forgives.#if you asked any other gladstone to do that he'd look at you weird#plant talk#save#<-for these screenshots
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"yes im so fine"
*researches whether i can get my hands on ipecac*
#tw ed#obligatory MASSIVE do not do this#straight up poison that can kill you from one (1) time#used to be used to induce vomiting#directly the cause of death of karen carpenter and countless others#i wont i swear i wont#but i still researched it bc i was curious#tbh there are easier ways of poisoing oneself than semi illegal drugs#also if yall remember the post about a poison i own: i did more reseach and while that amount would probably kill me w no medical#intervention; it would take just under three times as much to be absolutely certain of hitting the toxic dose (calculated quantity per kg#of the top end of a given range. so it could kill me but if i was gonna go out that way id want about three times as much to be sure.)#honestly surprised ive never heard of any deaths from it. the most likely way to survive would be to throw it up i think#(or present to hospital and take charcoal or smth)#honestly though. my research says loss of consciousness and required intubation within half an hour in case studies#hence if you werent in reach of medical attention youd probably collapse an die#and i am very deliberately NOT mentioning what it is bc of how toxic it is#ive thought of combining it and another method to be absolutely sure but eh#honestly if it DIDNT work it sounds straight up embarrassing to admit to people tho thats one of the things stopping me#but literally a dose in a child requiring intubation and kid ended up in a coma recovered w no ill effects.#thats the dream yk. try and succeed and youre free; try and fail and you see no ill effects.#but yeah i wouldnt try w only the amount i have.#so im safe#....rereading the above. okay i might be a little mentally ill lol#but i am safe and absolutely nobody call the cops on me.#im fine.#tw suicide#puddleglum hours#nobody worry abt me ok. im fine.#just thinking silly lil thoughts like usual :)#EDIT: just occurred to me that using this poison could make it not look like a suicide
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how do you people study through extreme exhaustion? bc thats what always gets me during the exams & i cannot keep doing this forever
#the first time i had exams i kept going through pure desperation#bc i cared a lot more back then#but now i just dont see studying as important enough for that to work#redoing a year wont be fun but i know people the year below me & it wouldnt be bad either#anyways to pass this next exam i probably wont get any sleep#or maybe 2 hours#which i know is bad but since its only 2 exams this time im less worried about sleep & more about just getting through#so i need to know how to keep myself going#i have no available caffeine :( otherwise thatd be my first idea#but idk ive tried so many things#turning on the big light#movement breaks#short naps#sleeping a few hours & just getting up really early#music - which does help a lot but its not enough#mine#please no one ever taught me any of this i just keep guessing & hoping i get it right#like at school they do 'teach you to study' but really its just a few tips#mostly to take care of yourself & not pull all nighters#like okay. but what if i have to otherwise i will not pass? how do i manage that?#i never had to study before high school#& that combined with my horrible mental state at the time meant my grades went from really good to horrible#and yet somehow passing#but idk i dont want to be hanging on by a thread and just one mistake away from failing anymore#thats not fun#i think it was kinda good for me since i made peace with maybe failing & dont really care about that anymore? like if i fail thats okay too#but yeah anyway#im rambling so i dont have to start studying
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im not worried about the ga finding out about the gayness in st (ie byler endgame) at this point/them getting mad over it. what i AM worried (aka also excited about) is when the ga finds out about all of the trans/weird gender stuff in this show. esp with the matrix being confirmed inspo + the whole "henry creel isnt a chick" thing in tfs and patty vs patrick and the line "a boy like me" playing over a scene of karen wheeler putting on lipstick in s3 (lipstick that's the same colour as patty's lipstick in tfs that henry specifically points out). like im not saying patty karen etc are trans but i AM saying that theres some funky matrix-esque allegorical trans and twinner gender swap etc or smthn stuff going on here.
i can already see the headlines once people start to catch onto it- "WOKER THINGS?? MICHAELA WHEELER???? IS STRANGER THINGS MAKING YOUR KIDS TRANSGENDER? A Look Inside Netflix's Big Pharma Big Hit"
#stranger thing#combining every transphobic ragebait media title into one#ok thats a lie bc theres like 40 transphobic ragebait title stereotypes i didnt add#i did get the big pharma line in there though#even within byler tumblr too bc#while byler tumblr is accepting of like. mike and will being gay#half of them cant handle henry being gay#and even fewer are going to be okay with any allegorical etc trans stuff like#people are going to automatically label it a reach etc but at the same time take every scrap of gay byler stuff seriously#like how people STILL claim that the matrix has nothing to do with being trans#despite it not only being confirmed but also like. watch the movie. with your eyes and ears open#people expect neo to like. transition on screen and have a breakdown while wearing a wig because they have such a limited view of the trans#experience and also cant handle allegory/anything that isnt spoonfed to them meaning-wise
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I don't even go here much anymore but I need somewhere to throw my thoughts re: Emilie (Genshin Impact)
Yes, a lot of people have been upset or disappointed that she looks less interesting mostly in comparison to the many leaked concept arts of her, and I've definitely seen a couple colour/other edits on her which looked amazing. For me, the hair colour throws me off a bit and I have some Choice Words about her top but the green of her dress is such a deeply satisfying shade of green that reminds me of velvet, and I enjoy how her outfit, alongside Neuvilette's description and other people's voicelines, paint what feels to be a deliberately curated picture of her.
While we can't know for sure what decisions were involved that resulted in them settling on the current official design, the perception on her is so unnecessarily dampened because of that potential "what could have been" that we weren't meant to see in the first place. If anything, looking at the variety of concept arts leaked, it's at least reassuring that the artists have that skill and freedom to depict a character in so many creative ways.
honestly I'm more interested in seeing how Emilie is as a character - most of other character's voicelines about her are in regards to her business than of her (with the exception of Chevreuse) and she's a "forensic cleaner"? ESPECIALLY since she's probably going to be involved with the Burning Artifact set???There are a lot more layers here I really wish to see more people explore here instead of, well, everything else going on. I'm sitting here imagining situations involving Emilie, Chiori and Chevreuse potentially on a case, or interactions between her and Lisa/Sucrose/Albedo as a chemist (and god forbid what happens when she's put together near the Pyro Folk)
I don't know if I'll pull for her (if I do, it'll be predominantly based on her kit) but I like seeing how artists depict a character once their design is drip marketed on Twitter and it's a bit annoying seeing that the media tab there is just predominantly people talking about the concept art instead
#mine#emilie#genshin impact#emilie genshin#look okay#my entire point of this really was just that#That Woman Knows How To Hide A Body#and casting aside any Yandere Depictions for the moment which people will no doubt eventually want to mess around with sooner or later#she knows you're glad she's on your side instead#I could be entirely wrong on the ball here but my first impressions is that she feels mysterious/evasive#in the sense that her skills as a chemist and making perfumes and knowing flowers etc help deliberately mask who she actually is#god I can imagine her being able to master a disguise with her expertise#she also could just be smug/popular and that's all but my point is her being mysterious/closed opens up so much more flavours of depictions#that I want to see in art or ao3 or etc#her and Ying'er would be great friends#I just want people to stop talking about Emilie (what could have been) and start talking about Emilie (what she could be)#she fels like a combination of Ying'er / Yae Miko / Lisa to me#but given how Chiori with her no-nonsense can work with her#I imagine she probably can switch on/off her Professional Persona well#okay bye#time to go back to my hiatus and mild not-so-shitposting art of Emilie that I wanted to see others explore
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someone added one of my fics to goodreads specifically so they could give it 3 stars no review just 3 stars 😳
#okay??? What did that accomplish?#It’s like those people who bookmark a fic they didn’t even like just to talk shit in the tags EVERYONE CAN SEE THOSE#the drarry fandom is the rudest most insulting fandom I’ve ever written for#I get more rude comments on my drarry fics than any of the other fandoms I’ve written for combined#Okay ur not gonna stop me from writing my little stories tho 🤷🏽♂️
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